#lokixfemalereader

[loki-fanfic-whore]

Consumed ch.1

Loki tries to help the newest Avenger with her control over her powers and her self-esteem

Taglist: @drakesfiance

Warnings: negative thoughts and head space, a lot of self doubt, anger issues, possible triggers, possible sexual situations

Chapter 1: Breathe

You could feel your thighs trembling. The fabric growing wet from your sweat. Languished panting fell from your pink lips and flustered face.

"Ah-Loki-we need to stop p-please." The way his name rolled from your tongue caused your core to tighten. Long slender fingers wrapped around your waist hoisting you up higher in the air.

"Hold it! Feel how shaky your muscles are? You are growing so strong." He spoke softly teasing you as he let go of your waist, your full weight on your toes and hands again as you stayed in the arched back bend. Your long hair enveloping your huffing face.

Loki walked to the table in the room and turned the music to the next song, chill slow music courses through the air as you cry out collapsing onto your mat. You could feel your muscles tingling at how long you had held the agonizing pose.

Loki chuckled and pulled the curtains open, flooding the room in light. You had stayed a crumpled mess on the floor. Letting your dark hair curtain your shamed face. You could hear his fluid movement through the room until you felt his hand brush the hair from your face.

"Honestly, little flame, how will you be able to keep up with the stamina of a God if you cannot even keep yourself up?" He teased cruelly as his green eyes drank in the sight of your pink cheeks and ragged panting. Your own eyes dilating at the musky smell of him.

"I do quite well in combat thank you. And I assure you my stamina is no concern of yours. I simply asked you to help me become limber and agile. As to keep me from becoming too clumsy on the field." You retorted sitting up. You swept your hair up into a high bun, but felt a few missed pieces falling back against your cheek and down your back. You pulled your top off to expose your chest, enveloped in a dark black sports bra and lightly sheened in sweat. You had always been heavier, but you had tried to embrace your curves after years of fighting it. You knew your limits and knew they were higher than many your size. You giggled softly as Loki blushed for a fraction of a second and looked away clearing his throat.

"What is wrong 'my prince'? Do you suddenly see something not to your liking?" You teased back before standing and stretching. You used your shirt to wipe the sweat from your forehead before continuing the stretches.

"Of course not. You are simply different than the women of Asgard. You seem....healthier..." he flustered for just a moment and you realized he was referring to your weight. You had caught him selecting his words carefully as to not offend you.

"Oh my God! Loki did you just call me fat?!" You feigned anger as you threw your sweaty shirt at him. He stood and looked at you angrily.

"How dare you put words into my mouth! You are a mortal and I am a God! I will not have it!" He started as he approached you menacingly. You rolled your eyes as he began acting childlishly.

"I think we have trained enough, since you want to act that way. Good night 'my prince'." You spoke curtly just as he got close enough to touch you, you turned and quickly left the room. You knew if you had stayed it would have ended up with the two of you fighting or fucking.

You had never actually fucked him before but the sexual tension between the two of you was so palpable you couldn't see how he hadn't just taken you by now. You refused to make the first move since this God was known for having a silver tongue.

You made your way quickly to your room and closed the door. You stripped the rest of your clothes off and made your way to the bathroom starting a shower. You looked at your body in the mirror as the water heated. You had rolls and stretch marks, scars and bruises, your nipples pierced and a tattoo of wisps and lines down one of your hips. The pattern was a symetrical mandala and helped to calm you, but all your mind went back to was Loki's remark that you weren't like asgardian women...you could only imagine large perky breasts and smooth skin in varying paleness...small waists and large child bearing hips...all of these women throwing themselves at the god... your heart sank as you tore yourself apart mentally. You stepped into the shower and scrubbed the day away, you had just finished washing your long dark hair when the alarms blared and you sighed. Quickly jumping out and toweling yourself you headed half naked into the living room.

"Whoa! Hey Embers, can you like not be completely fucking naked here for our brief?" Tony spoke as he waved a clinking scotch glass in his hands. You flipped him off and sighed.

"Yes because we all know I decided today was the day I would grace you with my delicious flesh." You half spat back.

"Sister Ember! My brother and I would greatly enjoy that view!" Thor roared in laughter at his own joke as he clapped Loki on the back hard enough to cause him to snarl. You had decided not to give Loki the pleasure of meeting his eyes drinking in the sight of you more than half naked.

"Is this important enough for me to stay here or can I go put on underwear at least?" You found yourself impatiently tapping your hand on your folded arms. You could feel stray water dripping down your various body parts.

"For fucks sake go get dressed! I can't have everyone focusing on their blood rushing from their heads because-!" You didn't wait any longer you quickly moved down the hall and back to your room. You stripped the towel off and grabbed your clothes. Black, all you ever wore was black due to your abilities. After donning panties and a bra you quickly pulled on black pants and a tanktop. You decided to leave your hair a watery mess around your face.

As you walked back you could hear Fury scolding the group and briefing them at the same time.

"These motherfuckers aren't very smart, but the issue is they have so many they will overpower you. I need you all to go in, get the fucking box, and get out. Stealth is key, so be fucking quiet!" He stood straight as you returned and stood silently listening.

"That's all. Get dressed and go. Dismissed." He spoke loudly as he pushed past you and out of the room.

You looked to the shocked room and raised an eyebrow.

"What?" You asked as Natasha swallowed silently.

"Uh-...well we need to go...and you...you need to-" she began but was stalling looking for anyone to help.

"Sister Ember!" Thor piped in, there was that fucking nickname Tony gave you...itll never leave apparently.

"You are to stay here with Loki and watch him while we go retrieve a box!" Thor grinned oafishly as you looked to the trickster God who refused to look up.

"Why must I stay?" You found yourself becoming defensive.

"Well...for one you are explosive... two you arent... quite adept at extreme cardio." Tony chose his words carefully and you scoffed, you could feel the heat beginning in your fingertips and climbing up your arms. Looking down you could see the black webbing up your pale skin.

"What the fuck is with all of you!? I know I am fat!" You cried the black was traveling faster now. It was in your bloodstream boiling you alive. The black had covered your hands and wrists and was quickly consuming your arms, you were sure your feet and calves were black as well.

Tony stood and moved towards you followed by Thor and clint.

"Please try to relax, I am sure Tony didn't mean it that way!" Natasha called out, but all you could feel was the extreme heat radiating off of you.

"Reindeer Games, we could really use your frosty powers." Tony called out as he tried to take your hand only to have you wrench your hand out of his.

"Don't touch me! I know you all look down on me! I can't control this! I can't help what happens! I don't look pretty or skinny or anything like any of you!" You were shrieking now, the black was consuming your ribcage, and had traveled up the side of your face, your eyes were dilated and becoming more and more black,soon you wouldnt be able to hold back.

A freezing cold hand clasped onto the back of your neck and gently held you snapping you back to reality as you gasped and shivered. You couldn't see who it was but by the widened eyes of the others you knew it was Loki in his Jotun form. You felt the heat beginning to cool as he enveloped you in a hug from behind.

"Shhhh, just breathe little flame. no one thinks ill of you. Tony is a twat. I,for one, think you are beautiful." You could hear his hushed tones and even if he was lying you knew him to be the God of lies. Slowly the others backed away as the blackness on your skin receded. Loki pulled you backwards down the hall and into your room. He released you and sat you on the bed.

"Why on midgard would you think that way about yourself?" He asked gently as he also turned back to a pale cream color. You kept your eyes trained on the floor.

" all my life...I've been ran, trained and pushed harder than any other due to my size....never for benefit...it was always out of malice to break me...to try to show me what I cannot do...you heard Tony...even you said I wasnt like your asgardians." You felt yourself begin to crumble in the depth of the reality. Loki took your face into his hands and shushed your mind with his seidr.

"I said no such thing little flame. I said you weren't like them. That is a compliment to you. The women from my home are not as beautiful as you." You let out a small sigh as you felt his thumb brush your cheek. You were crying again, your emotions running freely now. You were always like this after an outburst. Volatile is what everyone had called you. A liability.

"Stop it darling. I can hear you putting yourself down. Dont think like that." He spoke gently as he made you stare up into his green eyes.

"Just focus on your breathing and listen to me. You are still so young and need to just become aware of your abilities. In time I have no doubt you will be stronger than any of us, myself included." He smiled and released your face.

"...thank you 'my prince'... even if you are silver tongued." You spoke hoarsely. Loki sighed and paused looking at the door, his back to you.

"Rest little flame...you need to sleep after such an ordeal." and with that left the room.

You tossed and turned trying hard to sleep only to finally drift into a nightmare.

Fire, ash and embers fell from the sky raining all around you as you shivered. You were a small child, possibly 10 maybe younger. Your house had burned down leaving you in the snow shivering with your arms clasped around yourself. You could see him...the monster...the man who forced his imprint onto you. Who made you who you are. His body was covered in an inky black substance that dripped and oozed from his skin and mouth. Everywhere it toucbed began to catch fire and burn away. While trembling in numbness and fear you watched as his arms reached out and plucked you from the snow. You screamed and kicked as the black ink flowed onto your flesh like liquid, but it wasnt on your flesh...it was under it...you felt boiling heat consuming you as you screamed and kicked. The man's dripping black eyes shined in the burning carcass of the house.

"Let it consume you child. Let it have all of you." His voice was smooth and deep but only made you fight harder. You could feel the black ink splatter your face from him speaking.

Your eyes shot open as you sat up groggily. Your head was pounding and you could smell smoke. Jumping from the bed you ran down the hall

"Loki!" You screamed as you looked for the source of the smoke.

"What?! What is it?" Loki turned to look at you as you stood panting in the kitchen. He was standing holding the toaster angrily, smoke billowing from it. You felt the tightness in your chest ease as laughter escaped you. Relaxed laughter flooded the air as you watched Loki turn back to the toaster and curse it. You could feel the tension slip away almost fully as you pushed the God out of the kitchen and threw the now ruined toaster away. You made food for the two of you and sat a plate infront of the sulking Loki.

"I made you steak and potatoes....I figured you'd enjoy it more than burnt toast." You snickered as he scowled at you. You smiled as Loki pouted but still ate every bite of food. You found the silence kind of relaxing as your mind wondered.

How were the rest of the team doing? When would they be back? You felt your mind reaching darker depths. You remembered your dream and it got you thinking about your parents.

"Little flame?" Loki spoke gently sitting properly. He had an empty plate infront of him, but had no intention of leaving the table. Your pet name being uttered snapped you back to reality causing your eyes to flick to his.

"Hmm?" You half purred.

"...Tell me what is weighing so heavily upon you? What is consuming you?" He spoke softly but his stare deep and almost primal.

There was that word again...consume...

Loki swallowed saliva as black flashed through your veins quickly, just barely visible under your skin. If he had blinked at the right time he would have missed it.

"What is consuming me?" You repeat as you feel a hot flash travel up your body.

"I-I don't know what it is...I...I lost my parents and I was just a child and a man-or-erm a thing that looked like a man tied me up. He flooded me with...this." you held your hand up which was numb, your fingertips black which faded downward on your hand into your creamy skin.

Loki looked deep in thought for a moment.

"May I try something little flame?" He spoke casually as he gently scooted away from the table.

"Let us go to the training room...I need to be sure you will be willing and alright." He spoke calmly but you could feel your own heartbeat pick up. The inky black feeling in your veins. You pushed yourself from the table and followed him into the training room. He closed the blinds which left only the white artificial light cascading down on you.

"Trust me little flame." He spoke gently as he moved quickly towards you and began circling you. Your heart beat was throbbing in your ears now. You felt bile in your throat.

Loki's eyes flashed a deep green and he spoke again filling the deafening silence.

"I need you to strip down...."