#lmk if you see any spelling mistakes. i was very tired while writing it down

[icemavly]

ICEMAN + MAVERICK: A PLAYLIST (PART TWO/?)

somethin’ stupid, frank sinatra and nancy sinatra

i know i stand in line until you think you have the time to spend an evening with me / and if we go someplace to dance, i know that there's a chance you won't be leaving with me / then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place and have a drink or two / and then i go and spoil it all by saying somethin' stupid like, "i love you"

friends to lovers, 30k words. ice and mav realizing their feelings in the slowest, most oblivious way, spending years pining after each other. one night, after some boring navy event, still dressed up, they end up in a bar, ordering beers and laughing at the crappiest jokes. a few people stare but it doesn’t matter, they’re having a good time. until maverick fucks everything up. he doesn’t know how it happens, but he murmurs an i love you under his breath like an idiot. he blames it on the drunkenness of the moment, but he’s frightened of ice’s reaction. he can feel the fear in his own eyes. ice looks at him for a moment, and then smiles, quietly asking maverick to follow him. he needs to show him how much the feeling is reciprocated in a much quieter place.

(years later, somethin’ stupid is the song they slowly dance to in the kitchen).

come as you are, nirvana

come as you are, as you were / as i want you to be / as a friend, as a friend / as an old enemy / take your time, hurry up / choice is yours, don’t be late

maverick and ice reunite after weeks. hell, maybe it’s been months. they lie together in bed, limbs tangled, and the quiet atmosphere is an unsettling background to their thoughts. they know that they can’t keep doing this, they know. a clandestine relationship, their only option of being together, is getting too much — too hazardous, too wearying, too difficult, too insincere. they keep pretending they are just friends, because nobody can be trusted with a secret that could cost them their careers, not even their closest friends, not even their families. still, saying goodbye would hurt too much, it would kill that very hidden but vital part of them that grows inside of their hearts. is it unbearable — pretending? is it that consuming, compared to the years without each other they will be forced to face in the future? ice sends maverick another address. another city, another hotel, another place to consume their love. it doesn’t matter how, maverick will be there.

new americana, halsey

young james dean, some say he looks just like his father / but he could never love somebody’s daughter

yes, maybe this song is overused, but look me in the eyes and tell me this is not iceman coded. young lieutenant thomas kazansky is, before anything else, his father’s son. he looks like him, talks like him, thinks like him. his father stares back at him every time he looks in a mirror and screams at him every time he makes a mistake. when ice falls in love with maverick, his father’s shouting in the back of his mind doesn’t stop — he simply learns to fight back.