#lmfao idk i'm just trying to make it easy to find for myself

[astrxealis]

damn i never thought i'd get into stardew valley this much but here we are !! makes perfect sense tho

[bonesandthebees]

I keep doomscrolling twt I should really delete it again I think it is frying my brain ohmygod

It's just so easy to get sucked in and I don't know what else to do w this restless energy and just like. Anger and sadness that this situation is giving me

Normally I'm way better at just. Turning my phone off. But I think I'm just so hurt? By everything that I just keep getting sucked in by other people's anger too and I'm like. Never angry LMFAO I am never angry so idk what to do with these emotions if that makes sense

I also don't want to delete twt rn bc I'm like. So scared of new info coming out wout me knowing LMFAO even tho ik my friends will tell me but I just wanna be up to date so hhhh but yeah maybe I will. Just delete. So I don't doom spiral LMAO

no literally I spent practically the entire day just flipping between tumblr and twitter tumblr and twitter tumblr and twitter and quite literally felt my brain being fried

I had that same restless energy so I made myself sign up for a yoga class and went to it and honestly that helped so much. didn't look at my phone for an hour and just focused on my body and my breathing. I felt so much more relaxed afterwards. obviously not everyone can just go to a yoga class but I recommend finding something else to do. make yourself drive somewhere, or throw your phone across the room, or shut your phone off completely, just anything to try and get you out of it for a bit. honestly deleting twitter sounds like a great idea. I get the fear but it might be better to just bite the bullet to get yourself out of the loop

it's okay to be angry and upset right now we all are, but it's also so easy to get sucked into everyone else's anger as well. it creates this neverending feedback loop where you get angry and everyone else is angry and seeing them angry makes you more angry and just- it's not good

take care of yourself icy <33

[loquarocoeur]

Hey lovely! I’m back w another anon, at this point I’ll put an emoji so you know it’s the same person saying hi bc I’m not sending this on my blog name but ashshsjsh.

The asks and your responses on the spanking shit have me wanting to send this ask that I’ve been thinking about, but like. After the end of ‘pushing buttons’ I rlly enjoyed the bit where charles was almost insecure, and max responded the way he did so beautifully about how he loves charles the most bc he’s charles and what about it him he finds so loving and hot and how he was mentioning Charles’s pleasure too and that just. Really made me want to have a fic perhaps on the doms pleasure a bit. Not entirely but if you’d want to I’d love for you to get into charles head and thoughts a bit. It’s hard to explain what I mean because I’m being vague bc I’m embarrassed enough typing this as is lmfao but I hope you kinda get what I mean here? How you were talking about charles headspace in the other ask and everything I just got very Inchrested

I just love this verse and the way you write and maybe I die everytime I see another blog post of yours about some smutty shit! Maybe!

- 🦢 (I’ll make myself the swan emoji anon bc why the fuck not. Hi it’s me I sent the asks like max speaking Italian for maybe one line perfectly and made the suggestion about the ‘monza fic having the hotel tifosi chanting. Idk I just wanted to lyk it was me ahahshsjjs)

Okay hi, hello, I'm here with my thoughts now and absolutely YES, prepare for an essay:

Like idk, I've been meaning and trying to get into Charles' head a bit more since forever, but it is just quite hard nailing him down, he's just a very complex character nowadays with that duality between his 'dom persona' I guess and then absolute golden retriever, head over heels, bend over backwards, and jump when Max says jump sweetheart he is outside of that headspace

It's just there's just so many things from Charles' perspective to think of, you know, specifically talking about sex scenes now:

Like, okay, first of all, he's just a man, Max barely needs to take off his shirt. Like he's absolutely insatiable, he goes insane for a glimpse of Max's stomach, the only time he won't even try to start anything in the shower is if he got an orgasm five minutes ago, so obviously there's the aspect that he just thinks Max is fucking hot, just looking at Max does it for him, and also men are men, it feels good getting their dicks wet I guess

But then there's also obviously the thing that we don't talk about enough in fandom and that's that doms like being dominant just as much as subs like being submissive

And you know it's hard to nail it down and elucidate it, because we don't have enough examples for it, because (and this is also totally fine of course) fandom is just usually very focused on the perspective of more submissive people for probably many reasons which we won't get into rn, but the point is like you have to make this shit up as you go, there's not a script and an easy how-to like there is for writing submissive perspectives because we've all read thousands of those of course

Because like obviously Max technically has as much if not more control over the situation as Charles does with safewords and all, but Charles obviously LIKES being or feeling in control

There's kind of this underlying societal belief that we often get where it's just perceived as inherently bad when someone wants or likes to be in control or in a position of power, which is why I feel we hear the dom perspective waaay less than the sub one, because ironically, the doms are too shy to speak up I guess lol

But you know Charles obviously likes that he can tell Max what to do and he does it, he likes how Max, just as a person, is quite dominant in the way he behaves, he's not a follower, when someone says sit down Max asks why, and he's no different with Charles when they're just them and there's no dom/subness going on, but he likes how when they're in that space and Charles says sit down Max sits the fuck down

And then I think the thing I always emphasized most is how Charles just gets off on seeing Max feel good, like he gets off on making Max feel so good he loses all function, and that comes back to Charles having just as much of a praise kink as Max, but he doesn't need Max to tell him he's doing good, he needs to see it

And then it's just how do I fit all this in and consolidate it with the way that of course, Charles is far from quiet or reserved during sex, he won't shut up actually, but there's these times when, from Max's perspective, you have no idea what's going on in his head, because he has this talent for just turning his face blank

And don't think I as the author somehow know any more than you do when it comes to Max's perspective like guys idk either, I was just there

But yes, I do hope to elaborate on it a bit more in the future🥰❤️❤️❤️

[labyrinthe-exe]

laby_log 0.2

oh wow... has it already been like idk... two weeks? it's kind of insane to think about... originally i wanted to do it every week, but a lot of stuff has happened since my last log..

but i released the demo! wip! you can find it here!

anyway... now to actually get into my mental state and where i was at progress wise during the last two weeks

so! i left off in an optimistic spirit, while i was mentally in a downpour and feeling waves of hppelessness.... i also was positive of the future! i had to do some cuts in terms of cutting off legs but....

as soon as i finished that devlog, i ended up just... really really going through it mentally...

i was both tired, fatigued, and like all over the place even more. i had started to write but i was insecure about my story and the pacing and if i was even doing a good job. i was worried about if the story i was telling would even be interesting or if the designs were hot enough, attractive enough... i was wondering if i was doing justice to characterization, too?

that also was the fact i just felt like giving up completely LMFAO

i was powering through, and i wasn't progressing in ways that i want to... hell what can i show for it other than writing? that you can see in the game!

but anyway, i started working on the key art and this is where i spiraled again LOL wow... me and spiraling... is it professional to express all this? i dont know...

and this is where i was unraveling... you see i started out mapping stuff out ( i dont have the screenshots i dont think of the part before i fixed stuff but like its okay these are some i sent to my friends LOL ) but the third pic is where i hated it... i had to go to sleep cause i just wanted to cry

i felt like i was struggling with both trying to improve my art, stay consistent, but also develop an art style all at once in the same frame and that sort of progression... is hard? scary... terrifying... it made my heart totally break

but! i perservered!

and WHAM! i started getting somewhere with the help of amazing community of friends who i just spammed LMFAO like "pls i need it to look like clouds...." and also just in general to make sure i was on the right track with vibes...

i finally felt a little satisfied though it still didnt match the other cains i drew/other love interests but eh... honestly consistency is a hurdle i will have to learn how to get over eventually, i was looking at this game development process as not a fun experience but as a job and that was really fucking with my creative process

a lot.

AND I SWEAR I WAS COOKING THOUGH! once i was getting into a roll, but my progress still felt abysmal with all the things i wanted to achieve: good writing, good story, attractive characters..

i felt i was lagging behind my peers, i felt like i was making a fool of myself. who am i even trying to make games yanno? i'm just a sort of like... artist who struggles to even draw everyday. which doesn't mean im impassionate... i think i am passionate...

it's just a battle...

that and irl i have to take care of the household in terms of chores and the like, i only have so much mental bandwidth... it was hard to socialize some days cause i just felt like i was disappointment... would i even be able to finish in time?

well from the beginning of this log, it's clear i did finish something! aided w/ the power of friendship and eternal shounen determination LOL yes. call me naruto ( don't but funfact in elementary my friends called me ichigo kurosaki )

once again, i had to take an art break, here's my art from 2022 ( the subview ) versus 2025! i'm so happy with my progres even if the sketch i made was kinda shitty too LMFAO i do have plans for a project featuring this character, a little devil ( he'll be in a game with anathema... i'll take about anathema in another post one day, my precious baby )

either way, i found it easy to compare everyones progress to mine... like wow other people are able to be so organized and cool and i struggle with it... even checking off lists, it's hard for me? i felt all over the place, sinking into a pit that i created myself and that i was just showcasing the worst parts of me...

even though thats not true.

honestly i was incredibly worried people wouldn't like cain, the mc, he's like so pivotal to the story it'd be kind of hard to rework the entire story because cain is like... pivotal, i'd just have to write a completely different story...

but the show must go on, i kept making things.

honestly, in real life was a strong part of why i felt kinda crappy. even online, being busy so much and not socializing w/ key people that i usually socialize with was such a damper on my mood. i missed my friends. i wonder if they felt uncared for while i was busy ( which isn't true, but my brain is weird ) WOW AM I OVERSHARING? idk... i feel that its important to showcase that my design process includes being all over the place...

i didn't work every day. i tried to, but i didn't.

while my friends were trucking along on gui, i was frozen in a sense of wondering if i should even continue development or quit while i'm ahead and ghost everyone for being a disappointment.

the deadine was nearing and i still hadn't even written the kiss. the gui wasn't done either which didn't worry me as much as being worried that i would disappoint everyone i told "i'm making a game!" what would i look like then... if i didnt make it? a gameless loser?

i know right. what the heck?

it makes no sense.

i ended up writing the kiss yesterday actually, i was experiencing writer's block cause i was so insecure about my story.

but woo boi. the story got put out the gui got done and my stress... didnt dissipate. either way, i think the last two weeks of the jam was a tough time? i did learn a lot. like what i needed to prioritize, how to better prioritize for my workflow.

i have to go like gui - sprites - writing - editing - backgrounds - writing again... i think? it feels a little weird but i think that'll work for me? i can still fix that though.

ANOTHER THING! i couldnt actually sleep last night. i was nervous how my story would be recieved LMFO isn't that normal i think...

but i released the game!

and there was typos.. which to be fair, i'm not good at cross-editing.. i was trying to go line by line after a friend proofread the first part for me and then i... kept missing stuff- don't be like me, just copy paste all the edits and reformat it. or just write in renpy speak in the first time...

but overall i think i learned a lot from swak.

am i still going to be ambitious?

hell the fuck yes.

but will i know how to better work around my high and low mental peaks? also yes. i think i need to remind myself every so often why i'm doing this... well i love writing, i love art, i love telling stories... i like to share my perspective on things, my characters perspectives, and just ships too in general I LOVE SHIPS! SO MUCH YOU DONT EVEN KNOW

but yeah...

does any of this make sense? i don't know... maybe i overshared, maybe i didn't. but the demo is done. it's still a giant wip, but i feel better about the future of it. the extended demo is coming and i will keep on trucking on. cause that's all i can do.

anwho... laby logging out <3

[ratslutuncontained]

I tend to find it a little strange when people are so scared of shit that they can't even think about trying anal on their own. And then I remember my first experience fingering a girl's ass, & I think, well no wonder I'm not worried about it. This experience probably braced me a little.

I would've been 19 or 20. Living in a sharehouse with 5 other people where the only common space were some couches in the hallway. Ruby* was the second person I started dating once I begun exploring polyamory. I always wish we'd had more crazy sex while we were together, because she had a high drive and some wild ideas. Hers was the first cock I ever touched, kissed, rode, and I'll be forever thankful to her for being a safe & fun early play partner.

One time, I had her on a leash, face down on my bed. I was just kind of teasing her gently, slowly. Massaging her really. Playing with her balls, taint, asscheeks. She was deep in it, moaning & whining & clearly enjoying it but clearly wanting more. So I begun running my fingers up & down her asscrack, grazing over her hole. Feeling her tense up each time I got close to striking gold. It was perfect. She was being beautifully wound up. Eventually, I had her begging for my fingers inside her.

I'd never topped anyone, really, at this point in my sexual career. So I didn't really know what I was doing. But I was content to let her sounds and body guide me. Ruby was an extremely communicative sex partner, which was great for me. So I ended up with two fingers buried in her ass up to the knuckle, not really sure what I was doing but sure enough that it was working as she was yowling like a cat in heat.

She'd told me beforehand that she hadn't cleaned herself out or anything. I was unperturbed. I'd grown up in the pit of a dairy farm, where if you were unlucky you may end up with hot fresh cow shit on your head at any time. I'd changed plenty of diapers. I was entirely unbothered by a little shit.

However, I hadn't really thought through the logistics at all. There came a point where she told me "hey this feels awesome but we're gonna need to stop because I need to go shit for real right now". And I was like oh okay wicked. Easy. So I pulled out and, perhaps obviously, found my hand and her hole quite the mess. She hurriedly put on some clothes so she could make her way through the hallway, where all five of my housemates were of course congregated, to the bathroom. While she was in there, I attempted to find something to wear to the bathroom myself, while also not touching anything with my poop-hand. I thankfully managed by the time she returned and made my own journey to the bathroom. On my way there, housemates attempt to engage me in conversation as though it were not painfully obvious that my girlfriend and I were cleaning up after sex and I was in a mild rush. Alas. I make it to the bathroom and clean up.

Upon returning to the bedroom, Ruby is somewhat apologetic. I have literally zero qualms and assure her of this. We cuddle and grope each other for several more hours. Thee end.

So idk. The idea of doing anal alone in my room and potentially making a mess really does not scare me lmfao. My ex wife always wanted me to top them but was always too anxious about the "mess" of anal to actually let me try and I never really understood why (and then, because I never topped them, they always acted like I COULDN'T top '-_-). But I neeeeeeed to get inside someone's ass again tbh. It's been too long.

Conclusion: uhhh. Try stuff? Have fun? It's really not that scary! Love and light.

*not her real name

[thxta]

I always feel like I'm getting closer and closer to shifting to my Desired Reality, every single day. Either I find new affirmations to say / think during the day or while I'm getting sleepy ( to implement into my subconscious as a subliminal ), or I channel new aspects and information about my DR. I've been wanting to channel what my DR bedroom / home looks like, but I think for that, I'll just try making it in the Sims.

A few new affirmations that I've learned are; "I am grateful that I have shifted", "shifting is easy for me" & "excitement grounds me".

I feel like the last one is genius, because I know a lot of people struggle with suddenly shifting back to their CR, even after they've successfully shifted. They seem to only shift for a few minutes because they got too excited or scared.

so, I have 2 DR's. My main DR is my Whovian / Time Lord DR, and my second is my Harry Potter / Wizarding World / Hogwarts Legacy DR.

I have a feeling that once I start really trying to focus on my Hogwarts DR, I'll suddenly just end up shifting to my Time Lord DR instead, lmfao. It's just… a feeling that I have.

I've also been having a lot of amazing dreams lately. I even had a dream that I shifted to another reality, but it wasn't either of my DR's. It was like an alternate reality of my CR. I even felt the weird spinning symptom, and then tried to ground myself immediately. Weird, how sometimes you can actually feel sensation in dreams, but still know that it's a dream, later on. I have a feeling that that dream was actually preparing me for shifting.

Idk. I just felt like rambling about my shifting journey. Also because Theta is a huge part of it. Every day, I feel myself getting closer to him, and our TARDIS.

It's… so amazing.

♥ ♥

[ofmermaidstories]

hey!! so i'm rereading something just like this right now to prepare for reading the new chapter and i was just wondering if you've ever thought about making a traditionally published book?? of course fan fiction is a legitimate form of artistry and i don't ask this to demean your work AT ALL but ur writing style is so elegant and descriptive while being easy to digest and i think that you would make and absolute killing in the industry if u ever did decide to write a traditionally published book

anyways feel free to disregard this ask if it's something you've already answered before or don't feel the urge to answer!! i love all of your work and am waiting patiently yet intensely for more!! thanks for everything that you do<3

Hello!!! You are very sweet to say so, Anon, lmao. I would love to make a killing in the industry. 😌 Some monies for fancy manicures and iced lattes and other lil treats. 😌

I actually have thought about trying my luck pursuing traditional publishing! I mean—I have a finished manuscript, LMFAO. It’s the first in a duology! It needs editing (rewriting, really), because I finished it in like, February 2020 and then proceeded to get distracted by the lockdown and the terrible decision to download tiktok (which opened my eyes to BNHA and self-insert fanfic), but it’s done. 📖

It’s Young Adult, because I am always writing for the teenager I was, and is multi-POV’d between our three leads (a grump of boy and the two girls that now have to protect him) and involves them causing wilful damage, in order, to some downtown traffic, the school grounds (multiple times), a grocery store and lastly each other’s (and their own) feelings. 🥹

For a long time I lived in this story, like I do now with my fics—talking to everyone about it, making it everyone else’s problem, fretting over plot choices, etc etc. Taking it from a tentative idea to a outline to finally finishing the first draft was the first time I’d ever completed one of my stories. 🥺 I’ve drawn the main characters over and over again, made them playlists, dedicated notebooks to the story and it’s world—I believe in it fully and absolutely, not because I think it’s anything groundbreaking, but because it’s exactly the kind of story 16-year-old me would’ve curled around and used to daydream with. 🥺

But idk. I’m not very ambitious by nature, lmfao, and you have to be in order to jump through the hoops you need to when it comes to traditional publishing. If there was a way to protect my lil story and still share it freely, without worrying about someone stealing it and sending it to a publisher with their own name slapped over the top, then I would. 🥹 I’ve always liked telling stories. Verbally, to the younger kids in the neighbourhood. In a school notebook that I made my friends read. On roleplaying forums. Uquiz! I’d love to be able to walk into a bookstore and find my book and be like “hehehe that’s mine >:)” but if it never panned out for whatever reason (not finding an agent, for example, or a interested publisher) then—oh well! I did my job; the story got told, even if it was only to me. 📝🌷

Either way, tbh we have more important things to worry about—a traditionally published book is a far-off, future maybe dependant on other people that might never happen. Finishing the Deku fic, on the other hand? It’s right here, right now, and is something I can do by myself. 😌 I will work hard on giving it the end it and u deserve, Anon. 😌 Thank-you for being here. 💖🌷🪻🌾

[just-jordie-things]

i dont know if you were asked this before, sorry if i am bothering you! Do you have any writing tips? I don't have anything specific but just any in general. I really admire your work!

you're so sweet!! i feel like i'm the last person who should be giving writing advice as i just blindly go into a brainrot induced stupor and spout off into docs as if i'm screaming into the void-- i have been asked this before but it's no trouble to copy it!! <3

a biggie take your time finding your style- as you can see on my masterlist i have a looot of shit on there from years of writing fanfic and experimenting. getting out of my comfort zone can be kinda hard for me personally, but with writing it was so worth it bc you can really see a metamorphosis there of when i was writing just to write and when i was writing with a drive.

don’t be afraid to ignore the rules of grammar. run on sentences are beautiful. i’ve found that especially so when the plot is driven by someone’s stream of consciousness as though they’re narrating it. thoughts are messy, they’re long and sometimes awkward and there’s no such thing as grammar in your mind !! of course spelling and punctuation are important and i’d recommend editing tho (idk her 😳) but get creative with it!!

thesaurus.com is my bestie 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 i often find myself using a lot of the same words and i don’t want to bore readers with repetitiveness! and also it’s just an easy way to expand my vocabulary too. (in person i stammer and have the reach of a fourth grader lmfao so i always want my writing to be concise and make the reader feel exactly what i want them to with my language)

also something i’ve started doing recently !! when i’m away from my wip and daydream about it, i write it down right away! in my notes app or on sticky notes or even my hand hehe. sure if it’s a significant enough plot point i’ll probably remember… but there’s no time like the present!! i want A to look at B a little differently in that one quick scene? i want to make them eat something different for foreshadowing? little details like that can be huge in your writing !! something a reader might gloss over but then realize later it was all a part of a greater scheme?? yes. so take note of those thoughts and daydreams you have !! even if you don’t end up adding it to your work, it’s better than having a profound, fic changing idea that you forget before you get the chance to write it!

this one is simple but a biggie- think about what you would want to read. i’ve been trying to keep this in mind as of late, especially when writing longer pieces where i want to make y’all suffer. find new ways to build the tension in your plot. give us different points of view, give us an untrustworthy narrator that thinks they’ve got it all figured out. throw in extra conflict. fanfiction is the melting pot of whatever the fuck you want !! so go stupid go crazy and make it something you love, and you should be good to go!! not to be cheesy but as long as you love it then you’re solid. doing something you love over and over will naturally lead you through growth and finding your style. don’t be wrapped up in notes right away (yes it can be a bit of an issue on this app- but none of has have control over how people enjoy your work- so you might as well focus on enjoying it for yourself) because as long as you’re doing something you’re passionate about and sharing it with us, more people will soon flock to enjoy it with you <3

lastly i just enjoy making mini playlists for whatever i’m currently working on. they don’t have to correlate completely with your plot. sometimes the sound of a beat is good enough for me to throw it on. if it gets me excited and planning out scenes i haven’t gotten to yet then it’s good enough for me!! i will listen to the same song on repeat in the name of ✨vibes✨ even if the words themselves have nothing to do with the plot i’m writing. that’s probably lazy basic advice but it works well for me and i love listening to music so !!

hopefully the copying of a previous ask isn't annoying and ya find this helpful! just my thoughts and processes tho, you gotta find a style that's best for you! and remember its a hobby. if you get stressed take a break and come back later! you're on your own schedule, and you don't owe anyone anything, so just have fun!

[yutamayo]

43, if you don’t mind but if not, 8♥️

TYSM for starting off the #mayo drinks series!!!

*Just decided to make it a series rn as I bought enough alcohol to last a couple days lmao

I'm a ridiculously open book/oversharer/burden to society so I will never mind any Qs!!! ❤️❤️❤️ Will give u a double whammy & answer both xD

8. What do you label yourself as?

I used to identify as asexual for a LONG time but eventually learned I had just had horrible experiences with sex. So over time after growing into myself I realized I'm pansexual, leaning towards gay for WOMEN. I'm not super stuck on terms/labels BC it's been so hard to pin down for me, But I know I've only ever been in love/romantically attracted to women. I banged men bc they were easy & simple. Dicky in meow meow and it's done. But I realized I also only rlly slept with guys as a form of self harm lol. I love women. I love them. I want them. They so amazing. I LOVE WOMEN. god damn I'm feeling so single rn. Anyways, personally have always felt non-binary.

Core memory grocery shopping with my dad when I was like 10 and cashier said smthn ab "your son" & idk BC it didn't make me feel good? I'm AFAB but I didn't like being called "daughter" n that day I learned I didn't like being called "son" either lol. As I got older I've ALWAYS wanted a buzzcut BC I felt I'd enjoy more of that androgyny but the few times I brought it up my psycho mom said she'd fr disown me, (and ik she would lol I was homeless for a year BC she kicked me out for smoking weed in the house 😂) anyways I eventually a couple years ago said Fuck It and my best friend shaved my head in her kitchen and it was the best thing ever.

All these years I expected it to be one of those dramatica movie moments where bitches be crying in the mirror as they run the shaver across they head but genuinely when I looked in the mirror I was just like...

Fucking finally. I look like me.

So yeah. I identify as a menace, a whore, a glitter filled garbage fire, a non-binary cunt, a slave to the pussy, an immediate danger to cis white men, an arsonist of the system, and a fucking baddie. Thank you for asking 💖

*

43. Do you have any scars?

Fuck yes I do. I said that wayyyy to enthusiastically lmao but ye lol I have like a ridiculously visible amount. This answer is gonna be V triggering so I put it last in case talk ab SH stresses you please stop ur reading here! ❤️

Been doin that shit since I was like 12? *The most common method* (don't wanna write it in case the word triggers anyone) First time was due to a self image/weight issue when I was trying to turn some jeans into jean shorts n had a breakdown/thot I was too fat so just kinda ended up using scissors for their not intended purpose. But was on and off till I was like 18, then the Big Bad happened (well one of them lmfao).

Most of my scars actually happened all in one night! My friend had passed away less than year previously and I wanted to go hang out with our other friend to just mourn or whatev and my psychologically abusive mom said I couldn't go, so I swore at her (for the first time in my entire life. I was 18 LMFAO) n it was literally a phonecall so not even in person. 😂 Anyways I got home to find my room fully trashed like mattress on floor everything everywhere. So ended up getting unhinged in the bathroom lol.

Since my best friend at the time lived across the street from the hospital & my mother was giving me the silent treatment, I put on a sweater, said I was going to spend the night at my best friend's, and got a ride from the friend I was originally supposed to hang with to besties while casually bleeding out under my sweater lmao.

So, a core memory actually, was that I took off sweater, bestie was like BRUH u going hospital RN. And she gave me her jacket, and I said "but I don't want to get blood on ur jacket." & Idk that memory stuck w/me BC she was like.... My brother in Christ forget the jacket 😂 but idk just meant alot to me ? 😂

Anyways get to le hospital, get le stitches, which they gave me 54 and I apparently needed more stitches but they maxed out the numbing thing they were allowed to give me rip. Core memories from that ER visit:

One of the nurses saying "God wouldn't want you to do this." (lady, God is dead.)

And the final core memory was actually SO hilarious to me idk why 😭

I randomly asked the doc who was doing my stitches, "Have u ever been fishing?" N he was like.... Yeah?...

& I was like, "Yeah, thats what this smells like rn." So I feel a lil bad for him BC looking back it is a lil disturbing to tell someone that ur flesh smells like fish guts so casually, but like... I was really good at fishing. Like literally I'm a great fisher? And I don't even like cooked fish I only like sushi. So. Idk I just had to bring it up 😅 Anyways. There's a trauma dump for y'all. One of many and honestly I don't feel any ways ab it anymore.

I used to wear long sleeves CONSTANTLY bc my mom shamed me into it & me obvi just being stressed by ppl looking. But eventually I was just like. Fuck it we ball. And it openened my eyes even more when I started living around young kids (was with my ex gf and her daughter from 1-4yrs old) and now constantly being with my godsons for the last 5yrs.... Kids are amazing. They only learn what's "bad" from it being called "Bad." So when I went to parks with them in tank tops & a kid would glance then look away bc they didn't give AF and had better shit to do like enjoy the slide & swings lmao. Vs adults who will stare n act confused or concerned.

Idk either way I'm so ridiculously comfortable in my skin (bc that's what it is. My skin.) that I be out wearing lingerie sets in the summer (BC I had no clean underwear: this happens dissapointingly often) & going anywhere n everywhere with no long sleeves ever? It's the best feeling.

I give ppl their second, I give them their glance BC if I were them, I'd glance too. But a second is all you get. U pull a stare and I'm staring back. It works wonders.

No demure smile, I furrow my brow like I'm confused like... Ma'am. R u okay? ... Are u lost?... Bc my scars aren't a roadmap so u might wanna ask someone else for directions ❤️

I haven't SH (that way) in like 3yrs, and have rarely used other forms in a long time, so I hope everyone finds the self-care and (confidence?) or just the Fuck Everyone Else energy to enjoy YOUR life in YOUR skin. Love y'all. Thanks for the asks 🥹❤️

[8jib]

sorry if this is weird but do u have any advice on how to get better at writing smut because the sex scenes in ur new fic were so beautifully written!! every time I try to write something sexual I don't even know where to start and I just clam up and get so embarrassed that I have to close my computer completely 😭😭😭

it's not weird!!! i've been thinking too long abt how to answer this.... my too long, serious answer under the cut!

(also thank you!! happy you liked my scenes!)

ok first of all i think. you have to write for yourself and not an imaginary audience.... when i'm writing smut i'm thinking abt what i would ideally like to read personally and then try to like. give myself a treat? you know? write the smut you want to see in the world is what i'm saying.

also don't just like... sit down and be like i'm going to write smut now! you have to be in the mood a little bit like,,, be at least a little horny lmfao.

also also personally i write smut as a way to look more into character's psyche etc... like it fascinates me to think abt how these characters would fuck and why... idk.. that doesn't always work tho

a more practical piece of advice would be to try to write more specific feelings (physical or mental) during the sex scenes. like ok i'm writing a blowjob scene for example.... what makes this specific bj hot? if i just describe the act, personally i won't find it very appealing. i have to search and tune in to little details like,,, maybe someone feels ashamed or powerful or curious or whatever. and then physical details that you personally find hot like maybe you have a thing abt someone getting teary-eyed or the way someone's mouth looks, or whatever else. it's basically like. you have to be a little in tune with what turns you on irl - tap into that and be sure there are ppl out there who will also find these things hot!

finally the best answer to any 'how do I get better at writing' question is.. read more... i've honestly read soooo much fic and specifically smut from different fandoms different authors etc etc through the years and i have developed a personal taste... like i know what hits for me and i try to replicate that feeling.

this is too long sorry lmao i really hope i helped at least a little bit........

i would say, don't feel pressured. try to write some romantic/fluffy drabbles, write sex vaguely, or maybe write a scene until just before the sex happens and then write a morning after scene,,,, take it easy and it will come.....

i feel like sex and desire can be a great source of shame (esp if you're lgbtq+) and it's a process unlearning it. like,,, im a lesbian but if u ask me to write lesbian sex scenes i will probably self implode bc like. that's way too real and vulnerable. lol.

[fearevillikefire]

Ate taco bell earlier for the first time in years... oh my god that shit is literal trash 😭 i feel like killing myself it was so bad

im ngl i have a problem with food where even if i don't like something or im not hungry i feel like i HAVE to finish what's in front of me... i have finished plates of shit while trying not to gag because i hated the food so much... so please understand how bad that shit had to be to make me quit halfway through

but anyways regarding my issue with food, that also makes me overeat way too often... which is why i'm overweight.. thankfully i don't have issues with STARTING to eat while im not hungry, but once i'm eating what's in front of me i don't stop... and it's not easy for me to prevent that.. i've been trying to lose 7 pounds for the past year so that i can reach a healthy weight & i still haven't done it 😭 i lost 10 lbs for good, but it was just weight i put on during covid when i wasn't exercising and was just in the house doing nothing and eating too much as a result... 😭 i want to be a healthy weight it's just hardd i need to exercise more and eat less but it's just difficult to control myself and have discipline when im doing other shit and putting all my energy into that... sigh at least i'm not obese or anything but i hate being overweight at all, it really bothers me because i care about my health, and i also feel that it makes me look a lot less attractive than i would otherwise...

lol people on the internet are always hyping up being fat way too much, i want to be fit and healthy and i think that's attractive, i don't think that being weak and slow is attractive in any way.. not hating on fat, weak, or slow people or saying i could not be attracted to them but i find being fit hot like the vast majority of people, maybe cause i have zero fat fetish lmfao, for some reason it seems like you're always 1 misclick away from fat fetish or trans fetish on your dashboard on this website... don't even get me started on the trans fetish that shit makes me barf...

i feel like it's mostly fat and trans people making these fetishizing posts because they'll talk about themselves the same way but it's not ok to talk about anybody like that or to make being fat or transgender this inherently sexualized thing with all these weird stereotypes and gross stuff applied... i really hate it. i think that some people do it to cope but i still hate it it's obviously not healthy and definitely not productive to society...

like it's obviously ok to have sexual fantasies and stuff but idk. i'm not trying to shame horniness or say it has no place in society. But fetishes only warp people's perspectives on normal shit, and sometimes it seems like they can't separate their horny worldview from reality. That's what I'm complaining about, this overly horny, warped perspective applied to normal reality and affecting people's ideas and interactions with normal people, i hate that.

[loustyles]

hi! could you explain how you got the text like that in the two ghosts edit? i treid with text warp and i cant get it to work the same :/ and with multiple lines? thank you sorry to bother!

no problem! I’ve never tried to explain how I do things before so feel free to ask for clarification on anything!! I’m using cc 2019 so things might be slightly different for you depending on your version of ps but it should be pretty similar.(original post anon is talking about here)

the words I’m using are from Headspace by Lewis Capaldi! stream Divinely Uninspired to a Hellish Extent 

I’ll show two ways, broken into 3 parts (3rd part is the wave), 

1st one is multiple lines but same text (only works in cc I think, so just jump to the 2nd way if you don’t have cc!)

and the 2nd one is multiple lines but different text (or same text if you don’t have cc)

and I added in some sparkles because… pretty. I’m a sucker for sparkles but uhh that’s a whole other tutorial I think.

sorry if there’s a lot of stuff you already know, I think some is pretty basic but I figured I’d cover it to be safe! there’s nothing worse than reading a tutorial that feels like it starts halfway through the process. oh also i’m not a photoshop expert so there’s most likely a better way to do this! this is just the way I’ve figured out by trial and error (y’know, ‘click all the buttons and see what works’ style) 

(part 1) multiple lines, same text: 

so once you’ve got the line of text you want, right-click the text layer and select “convert to smart object” (this is a command I use a lot so I’ve set up a shortcut for it!)

double-click on your smart object layer with the text and you’ll be taken to the original text. You’ll want to extend the canvas with the crop tool so you have more room to work and your text won’t get cut off when you save.

I’ve added a layer and filled with my background colour so that we can see my text, but I also find it handy because I can see how the colours I pick work against my background. 

now to get the multiple lines, double-click your text layer to bring up layer styles

you want 2 (or however many lines you want) drop shadows (click the plus to get another). these are the settings I’m using:

I changed the colour and dragged the distance until the second line was sitting nicely under the first line. for the 2nd drop shadow, I kept the settings the same except for changing the colour again and I doubled the distance so the third line is evenly spaced.remember to hide the background colour layer before saving.

okay so now that we’ve got all the lines, ctrl/cmd + S to save the changes to the smart object, and your original document should be updated! (you can jump to part 3 now or read part 2 for different lines of text)

(part 2) multiple lines but different text: 

this time we’re going to do 3 (or however many) layers of text and once you’ve got them how you want side note: if you don’t have cc, this is where you would just create 3 lines of the same text and space them.

select all the text layers and right-click, convert to smart-object

double-click the smart object layer to open, extend canvas with crop tool (as I said earlier, temporarily changing the background colour could be helpful to see, just remember to hide it before you save), and ctrl/cmd + S to update the original document! (i find it helpful to make the adjustments, spacing, colour, position, whatever in the original document before converting to smart object but of course you can make those adjustments anytime in the smart object after.)

(part 3) the wave:

okaaaay onto the fun part lmao and the shortest part, hopefully. so the reason we put everything into a smart object is 1) it’s non-destructive aka we can open it up at any time and edit the text even if we’ve distorted it and 2) it makes sure those different lines of text all change the same!

select the smart object layer, and go to filter -> distort ->  wave

play around with the settings a bit, it’s easy to go too far and end up with unreadable text but your settings might be different to mine, depending on the look you’re going for. these are my settings for both text options:

yay so now you should have some wavey text! 

optional: I find that distorting the text makes it blurry so I like to sharpen it back up a bit with smart sharpen

and you’re done! you can go into that smart object and move your text around and the wave will stay consistent when you go back to the original document. 

thanks if you stuck around this far into a very long explanation 😅 hopefully it was helpful!! 

[ohcoolnice]

hi!!! i’ve been following ur blog for like two months maybe and i felt like i should let you know that it really makes me smile haha. i’ve been absolutely going through it recently and i can’t put into words how valuable the smiles you’ve brought me have been. just wanted to say thank you!!!!

HELLO ANON I LOVE YOU WTF OMFG

I'm gonna cry I'm so glad my random spam and insanity has helped you lol I thought I was screaming to the abyss but I'm so glad you've found something of happiness from it all!

Really really this ask made my whole entire year like sjhsksjsksjsksjskdjd I'm so happy that I've made you happy????????? How???? Idk????? I am the definition of a single braincell but all it's doing is screaming.

Whoever you are bestie ily and I hope things get better for you soon!!!!!!! Ily!!!!!!!!!

We all go through our share of tough times now and again, and when it's bad it's really bad. I was depressed for like two years in highschool but I hid it under smiles and jokes becuase I was told that my pain wasn't valid and real, and everyone I tried to talk to about it never treated me the same ever again.

I never ever ever want that to happen to anyone else so please know that your pain IS valid and you are still the same person despite it, it does not define you, but it's a part of you so you shouldn't have to hide it.

If you ever need someone to talk to I am here to listen and offer horrible advice seriously my advice probably sucks ass but LMFAO I'll try.

It took me several years (even when I didn't consider myself 'depressed' I was still fighting it. Id say it was a total of about 5 or 6 years of dealing with it) to climb out of depression and I had to do it alone and it was SO HARD and I slipped several times. Its easy to feel alone and unloved but you are loved, and you will be loved even if it's not tomorrow.

I'm so so glad that my random self has been able to offer you some sort of happiness and consolation while you're in a hard time. Find the things that make you happy and get rid of the things that don't! Ily!

[whimsywit]

Hello, I was hoping to get a red velvet truffle...?

I use he/they pronouns and I have no gender preference. I'm an average height and im a minor, I don't know much about zodiac stuff but I think it depends on birthday and my bday is on september 4th.. and I have shaggy/wavy dark red box dyed hair that reaches my shoulders and brown eyes lol I wear neat glasses too. I have pretty cool piercings, I usually wear baggy clothes because I like to stay comfortable.

I'm a very lazy/laidback person and I like getting into alot of playful banter n joking around with people im comfortable with. I am very people dependent and I hate being alone. I don't consider myself all too smart to be honest I'm wistfully ignorant lol. I have a not so good temper. I have trouble putting my thoughts and emotions into words and instead they're more present....physically if that makes sense idk like i said before i have trouble with this shit lol. I try my best to help my friends with any issues they have but I'm kind of awful at it.I am a very passionate person and I think I can be a very good person but I'm just so full of doubt that it makes me wonder if I'm just lying yakno? LOL. I kind of really rather go with the flow of thinks yakno? I'm really easy to fluster/embarrass and I am way too sensitive for my own good.

Random lil things about me, I used to do karate I hated every second of it but I still think fighting cool as fuck, I have awful music taste none of it makes sense I go from nasty screaming music to soft cheesy love pop songs it sucks but im really into singing too, i like playing games any kind of games but I usually suck at them 

I like dark and stormy weather nd hanging out with friends while just doin fun stuff. I really like savory foods as well. I dislike the heat and just being dirty/sweaty, I also have an irrational hatred of naps because i feel like im losing so much time i could be using to do stuff. My fears are being as bad as the people who hurt me in the past, and bugs haha. I really just wanna be successful in my life and amount to something! Have a good job a good house yakno yakno all that good stuff.

Traits I look for is someone who has a sense of humor even if its just a lil bit, someone sweet who will take time to understand me n stuff like that lol.. Someone I can find comfort in without feeling stupid about it. I really admire people who are empathetic since I have trouble being empathetic myself. Traits I'm not interested in are like people who are way too serious and uptight, not that being serious is a bad thing but i just can't groove with it.

Ok thats all, thank you very much :)❤ -👹🍁🌋

Heya! Tysm for requesting, and also in case you were curious, your main zodiac aka sun sign is Virgo (tho that doesn’t really come into play in your matchup mb 😅) Anyway, based on your info, I think you’d be perfect with...

Eijiro Kirishima!

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Gosh you’re giving Tetsutetsu a run for his money with how similar you and Eijiro are! Both of you are passionate yet easygoing people... people (as in people-person but plural? ignore that it was so ineloquent 😅) who are more focused on and inclined towards the physical than anything else. On one hand it means youre unafraid of being close and touchy, and thus very affectionate with one another, which is good news for your dependency trait! On the other hand, you guys do have to study a LOT more than some of your other friends, most often with their help cause its not like you guys are gonna get anywhere by yourselves ffgjsvksdj But being in the same boat and bearing the brunt of it together makes it a lot better, trust! And you throw in plenty of gaming and joint hair-dying dates to balance it out dw ;0

Actually, I could go on and on about all the stuff you two get up to together! Plenty of sparring sessions since he loves a good ol fight just as much as you, hanging out with the bros while sharing savory snacks all around, and singing at the top of both your lungs to anything and everything, since I can see his music taste being all over the place, too. There’s never a dull or tense moment between you, as making you laugh (and occasionally taking advantage of your sensitivity since he thinks you’re the cutest thing in the world when you’re flustered ^w^) quickly become some of his favorite things to do.

Eiji is definitely able to stand your temper—just look at his blond best bud—and always calms you down whenever you rage. He also sees and loves how want to be a good person, help out those around you, and just make an impact. In his mind it’s super admirable that you’re even trying, and effort is half the battle after all! We’ve also seen how he’s struggled with self-image and self-doubt in the past, so he empathizes with your feelings in spades and is more than willing to help and encourage you while you overcome it. ALSO also, thinks all your piercings are manly as hell, and it probably inspires him to get some of his own, which sidenote he looks super hot in so tysm for blessing the world with that 🥺

All in all, you and Eijiro perfectly walk the line between comfortable and intimate. Every moment with him is filled with good vibes as he brings out the best in you, understanding, comforting, and protecting you (at least when any bugs show up for that last one lmfao) like no other while never minding any of your flaws! This guy’s honestly such a perfect sweetie but you more than deserve someone as great as him 💗💞

[threeletterslife]

Chana! I was reading thru your about page and I saw that you like Harry Potter 😄😄 I'm a really big fan of HP too! Would you mind sorting the BTS members in their houses? And I know you said you're a Ravenclaw! Would you choose any other house if you could? -Hufflepuff reader

yes! i was literally obsessed with hp for five(?) years now, which isn’t a lot compared to others, but it’s a fandom i’ve been in the longest LOL so happy to see another potterhead!!

and I WOULD NOT MIND AT ALL!!!! I LOVE HP X BANGTAN OMG (i will eat any hp x bts crossover ff uP)

but to answer your questions,,, this might get a lil long lol

namjoon actually sorted the members in their respective houses a long time ago himself. (not sure if it’s still accurate now, but i think what he wrote back then was all true.) also as a side note, these are my opinions, so you don’t necessarily have to agree with them! and aLSO i think there’s a common misconception going around with new harry potter fans. your hp house is NOT what you are the most—it’s what you VALUE the most! i’ll explain more later

GRYFFINDORS

seokjin

seokjin has always been a bit easy for me to categorize in terms of hp house

he just screams gryffindor to me

he tries to do what’s right

he’s the oldest in the group so he’s always taking care of his younger brother-like figures

he does his best to make sure the other members feel safe and comfortable in new environments (that’s why he cracks so many corny jokes—to break the ice!)

though he’s not the official leader of bangtan, he does a LOT of behind the scenes leadership work

i think seokjin can be mistaken as a hufflepuff (just because he’s so friendly and kind) BUT this is where the values come in. seokjin might have some hufflepuff-like traits, but he actually values the gryffindor traits even more. he values his passions, his confidence, his valiance

he doesn’t take himself too seriously, but he knows what’s right and wrong (great moral compass)

that puts him in gryffindor

namjoon

i’ve literally seen so many pple put joon in ravenclaw just because he has an insanely high iq

but i mean,,, as a ravenclaw myself, i don’t see him in my house

yes, namjoon is creative, yes, he is intelligent, and YES! he is indeed insightful!! BUT,,, it all comes down to his values

namjoon uses his intelligence, his creativity and insight for the good of everyone! he’s a team player (not an individualist, as most ravenclaws tend to be)

and, not to mention, he’s bangtan’s official leader, and he does extremely well with that extra responsibility (gryffindors are great leaders)

namjoon tries so hard to do what’s right

he doesn’t try to cut corners to get to his goals. he’s very moral and fair

he likes peace and justice

gryffindors are drawn to good morals (they’re always trying to fix what’s wrong too)

namjoon is the staple gryffindor in my eyes

HUFFLEPUFFS

hoseok

hoseok is so easy for me to categorize, but i’ve seen him be sorted into gryffindor sometimes

i don’t think he’d be in gryffindor, though. hoseok is someone who doesn’t exactly like the idea of *risks*

gryffindors are all about risks (stereotypically they don’t think about the consequences that much because all they want to do is wrong the right)

hoseok (though he is passionate and charismatic) is more fit for hufflepuff

he’s bright, kind and always has something nice to say

the persona he puts on in front of the camera is close to his real personality—he’s just a sunny person in general

what makes him such a hufflepuff is the fact that he’s so hardworking! hoseok just dOES NOT give up (he’s extremely loyal to the people in his life, and he’s loyal to his talents too)

he chased after his dancing talents and look where he is right now

he wasn’t originally a rapper but he practiced and practiced until it became one of his talents

he’s dependable, honest and values friendship

hufflepuffs are people’s persons. and hoseok is just that—A GIFT TO THE PEOPLE

taehyung

taehyung’s the hardest one to put in a house in my opinion. he’s what you’d call *divergent* (and yes, in theory, everyone is divergent. we ALL have traits of ALL FOUR hp houses. BUT there are some people who exemplify all four traits more equally than others. so now, it all comes down to what taehyung values the most)

taehyung, in my eyes, is such a people’s person. that makes him a strong candidate for hufflepuff

the tae that i know has many friends—and he’s extremely good at reading people too (like his vibe check DO BE trustworthy)

hufflepuffs are often underestimated because they’re written canonnly as just being “nice”

hufflepuffs are much more than that. hufflepuffs are essentially gryffindors but with higher eq LOL (hufflepuffs would ONLY right the wrong if righting the wrong didn’t hurt anyone on the ‘wrong’ side—does that even make sense??)

tae is someone i see as extremely trustworthy—he’s someone who’d die WITH your secrets

he’s also very emotionally available to the people in his life

therefore,,, i sort tae into hufflepuff

RAVENCLAW

jungkook

ravenclaws are intelligent, insightful and most of all, they value creativity!!

jungkook is the staple ravenclaw

i can’t see him in any other house

like if i see jungkook, i see ravenclaw. they are literal synonyms

ravenclaws are stereotypically jack-of-all-trades because they genuinely enjoy learning new things

i mean,,, jungkook’s lowkey perfect right? he’s good at everything right? yeah it’s because he has the thirst to LEARN! he wants to be good at everything! that’s such a mf ravenclaw trait

sorry i get so excited explaining about my own house omf

jungkook’s naturally curious; he likes to poke at new things because he wonders what it’ll be like to learn about it and do it himself

ravenclaws are also stereotypically the “artsy” kids (and i mean, this man can DRAW)

ALSO! just because ravenclaws get called jack-of-all-trades often, it doesn’t mean they’re good at EVERYTHING. it means that they’re good at what they’re interested in!! (jungkook doesn’t exactly care too much about math, which is totally fine! he has his other interests)

ravenclaws are smart, yes, but just because you’re smart, doesn’t mean you’re necessarily a ravenclaw. (i.e. hermione isn’t open-minded enough to be ravenclaw.) being a ravenclaw doesn’t mean you just read a lot lol. it means you read a lot AND you take the adventures from the protagonist in the book and then apply it to yourself. hence, the *imagination*

idk man i can’t see jk in any other house

SLYTHERINS

yoongi

yoongi’s also really easy to sort

i mean, the man screams slytherin

a slytherin would do anything (maybe even cross a few rules) to get to his desired end result

some people call it evil (usually gryffindors and hufflepuffs), but i call it working smarter not harder (to slytherins, it’s not immoral to cut a few corners to get to their desired result—if they don’t get caught, that is)

if yoongi were not slytherin, he would not have cut corners in those bts run episode games LMAO (icon behavior)

slytherins also value individuality (like ravenclaws) but in a COMPLETELY different way. ravenclaws love to be unique because with their insight, they conclude that everyone has dealt with different experiences, making them their each, special person. slytherins like to be individualists because they like to feel special (sometimes paired with a superiority/god complex BUT i don’t think that’s necessarily bad. but slytherins do tend to be more close-minded than ravenclaws; slytherins value tradition)

in turn, slytherins find more success than ravenclaws. sometimes, ravenclaws step back when they find that their ideals will be replaced with success. slytherins would rather replace/reform their ideals to find success (i.e. yoongi became an extremely successful idol rapper when he could’ve actually just become a producer instead)

slytherins also tend to have trust issues. they don’t like to trust others except for themselves (smart, really)

yoongi is very self-driven and self-reliant, making him a perfect slytherin candidate

he’s the staple slytherin

jimin

i lowkey wanna copy paste what i wrote for yoongi into jimin’s explanation lmfao

personally, jimin was easy to place in slytherin, BUT i’ve seen a lot of pple put him in hufflepuff

so lemme just refute that for a sec

jimin is very self-orientated (and i’m saying that in the nicest way possible)

he wants to be unique! he wants to be special! he wants to shine!! 

jimin’s just a naturally giggly, bubbly person

but behind the scenes (behind the cameras), he beats himself up to be his very best self; slytherin behavior

slytherins are perfectionists, okay? they value what others think of them a lot OR they value the INFLUENCE they have on other people

remember? slytherins are about pOwEr! and power comes in many shapes and forms

jimin likes the idea of being well-liked! he likes the idea of being thought of as charismatic and talented

he may act like a hufflepuff to fit what people want to see in him, BUT the fact that he has to ACT like a hufflepuff to be in people’s favor makes him a slytherin lol (i mean,,, remember his whole FILTER song???)

anyways i wouldn’t call him a staple slytherin (that’s for yoongi) but he’s pretty close to being one

anyways, to answer your other question,,,

i’ve mentioned before that everyone is *divergent* 

of course i have all four traits of the hp houses, but the traits aren’t very equal for me. i have all the traits of ravenclaw, hufflepuff aNd slytherin. except i’m not very gryffindor. i have a few gryffindor traits, yes, but i don’t value them as much as my other traits. with that said, it’s hard for me to acclimate in environments where people value things that i don’t necessarily find as important

i think it’d be best for me to be in ravenclaw (just because every ravenclaw i know has been my best friend). i think i’d also do well in slytherin (but sometimes, i can’t handle their intense ambition lol). i’m also a good hufflepuff candidate, but i don’t think i could trade up being a ravenclaw for that

in the end, your house is your choice (it’s what you value the most)

i would like to say i’m friendly, ambitious and creative. but when it comes down to it, i’m picking my creativity and RUNNING. so no, i would not change my house. never! i’m a solid ravenclaw!!

i am so sorry this is so long wtf 😭😭

*also disclaimer* this was written in the pov of a ravenclaw,,, it may or may not be biased 😀😀😀😀😀😀

[elsaclack]

Hi :) This might sound weird haha but I adore reading you talk about your writing, it's really inspiring and I feel like I learn a lot of things every time I read you talk about it (you know I'm a fan of your style haha). And anyways while I was reading your answer to your last anon, this struck me: "when i was outlining that chapter i think the only line i dedicated to the actual fight itself was “and then they have a crazy knife fight (good luck future me)”" and I wanted to ask you (1/2?)

(2/3?) do you have like any tips for writing a multichapters fic? I guess from what you wrote here you outline the whole thing before you start with it? Or it depends or the story and sometimes you just go with the flow and see where it goes haha? Do you mind sharing some of your writing process of multichapter fics? :3 Bc I tend to get "bored" really easily and if I don't finish something in one sitting I usually never ever finish it. But also I'd like to learn how to take my time sometimes

(3/3) and idk maybe learning how to properly "get ready" to write something long would help haha. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense at all but yeah in any case just thank you for blessing my nights with your fics and killing me over and over with feels, I'm sure I said it before but you (and all of the amazing writers this fandom is blessed with) are a true inspiration!!!

you are SO sweet to me i die fhflkdsjf

i’m gonna go ahead and throw 100% of my answer under the cut because i haven’t even started yet and i know this is about to be. So Long. i am sorry in advance lmao

there are a couple of different aspects to this ask that i want to touch on so i will be as brief as possible but as i have proven twice over tonight alone, i am really not capable of that lmfao

i’d say first and foremost, the biggest thing you can do to help yourself in this arena is figure out how to best discipline yourself. which SUCKS it’s like the worst most mom answer ever but in all honesty, developing discipline in writing is what separates the “i could write a book” people from the people who actually do write books. everyone is capable of writing, but not everyone has the discipline or patience to do so. long-form narrative requires even MORE discipline than a one-shot (or even a long one-shot) because it’s like you said, it requires the author to come back over and over and over again to write new material and edit existing material and figure out a way to cohesively connect everything they’ve written into one consistent narrative, and some people have a much harder time with that than others do. there’s nothing wrong with that either way!! the world needs short stories just as much as it needs longer stories. but if you’re wanting to work on writing longer-form narratives, working out a way to best discipline yourself should probably be your number-one goal.

that kind of brings me to my next point (and also ties in part of what i was talking about in that other ask) - comparing your writing style, your progress, your everything to other writers will only lead to heartache for you. when i first started reading and writing for b99 i came across a specific author (who is now one of my dear friends) whose fics were just. next-level works of art. and while i read through just about everything she’d written for b99 and LOVED every single one of them, i found myself getting more and more down on my own writing, because i knew i’d never be able to write like her. but the more comfortable and confident i got in my own writing, the more i realized that it’s less about writing more like That Person and more about developing my own style (my favorite comparison to make between my writing and hers now is that hers are like beautiful and intricate fairy tales, and mine are more of a smokey back room at a bar where a guy is sitting alone at a table and he says “come here and listen to this story.” they’re both Very Different, and perhaps have varying audiences, but one is not inherently Better Or Worse than the other). all of this to say, if you’re working as hard as you can and being really disciplined but still find yourself struggling with writing a multichap, THAT’S OKAY!!! there’s NOTHING wrong with that!!! your writing, however short or long, serves an INCREDIBLY important purpose within the fandom as a whole and no matter what, there will ALWAYS be an audience for your writing.

so okay as for the actual Advice!!! i actually have a couple of steps that i usually follow prior to actually Writing the first chapter of any long fic i’ve written (or am in the process of writing...@king and lionheart yikes). i have yet to really find any consistency in how i think of ideas for multichaps - so far the idea every multichap i’ve written has come from a different source (which is actually kind of Frustrating for reasons i won’t get into). but basically once i actually have An Idea, i’ll take a day or two to kind of think it over and flesh it out as much as possible. if it really starts expanding in detail and an actual Story constructs itself around the idea, i’ll move on to the next step, which is to find a few trusted mutuals here on tungle.corn and say “heyyYYY CAN I YELL ABOUT AN IDEA I HAVE FOR A SECOND” and then spill everything i’ve thought of so far. usually i can tell if an idea will live or die based on these conversations - if the other person is Into It and we start sort of developing the world within the chat, i know it’s time to really sit down and make an effort to pursue the fic. in that case, i will go and copy&paste that part of our chat into a google doc and i’ll build an outline in a separate doc. i used to despise outlines and i would refuse to do them in high school, but once i got into writing as a hobby and i started pursuing longer narrative forms, i tried once or twice to write a multichap without an outline and i just forgot a lot of the details i originally wanted to include, which left me feeling really frustrated with myself and with my writing. i came to realize that outlines kind of a necessary evil, so in writing them i made them as fun for me as possible (i.e. the “good luck future me” line from the king and lionheart outline i mentioned lmao). now i love them and i have them open at all times while i’m working on writing a new chapter.

so i know that i started this off by saying that writing multichaps requires a special kind of discipline, and i stand by that, but also...writer’s block and real life responsibility and just plain exhaustion are all Very Real Things, and they take precedent over keeping up with a publishing schedule (if you’re so inclined to make one of those for yourself). when i started writing king and lionheart, i didn’t know at that point that i would be headed back to school in the spring, and thought that i would have all the time in the world to write. right around november, i realized that i would be going back to school - that’s about the time i took an unofficial hiatus from writing king and lionheart, because i knew trying to keep up with writing that fic the way that i want it to be written and all of the intensive and demanding coursework was going to kill me. taking a step back from posting and coming back to it later is okay. i know i talk a lot about feeling guilty for not having an update for king and lionheart (and the cancer au before it) but in all honesty i know that it’s okay for me to take some time and deal with my real life. and, you know, it’s also okay to lose inspiration for a while and to take a step back until that inspiration comes back. i think it’s that fear of not being able to take longer breaks between updates that scares a lot of people off from even trying to write a multichap - as the queen of procrastination, i am here to tell you that it is 100% okay to start a multichap and to take a break and come back to it when necessary!

writing a multichap is very much like running a marathon - it requires a different kind of energy than a 400 meter sprint or a 1k fluffy oneshot. it’s gonna hurt and it’s gonna suck and there are gonna be times when you’re ready to just quit writing altogether. but there will be parts that are really fun and really easy and you’re gonna get some really great views along the way - and at the end when you cross that finish line and you’re able to check that “complete” box on ao3 before you post the last chapter, you won’t remember the parts that sucked. trust me!! i wouldn’t write as many as i do if the actual shitty parts of the writing process negated the good things that come from writing it and sharing it with other people!

it’s also worth noting that just because you get bored with an idea doesn’t mean that you can’t pick it up again later!!! honestly the first 2 or 3 paragraphs of on your heart like a tattoo sat in my google docs for MONTHS before i randomly decided one day to open it and take a crack at finishing it, and to this DAY i’m still getting people regularly commenting on it. every idea has its purpose and its place, even if it doesn’t always immediately seem like it.

i really hope this helps and i’m sorry if it doesn’t!!! you are such a kind and wonderful person and i absolutely adore you