#lmaoooo who says german health care is actually good

[juliaahr]

i need to rant abt my health & all the doctors i’ve encountered so far so this will probably be very very long bc i’m so frustrated & don’t know what to do anymore

i’ve been having chronic pains for years now. i’ve been to the er countless times bc i was so frustrated i ended up seeing a bunch of doctors for the same reasons & their first instinct is to send me to the er bc of a suspected stroke. it’s never a stroke. every time they did that i KNEW it wasn’t a stroke (am also a nurse btw lol but focused on geriatrics) anyways somehow i always hoped that at least ONE doctor would take the time to figure out wtf was wrong with me. i have headaches that basically knock me out. they thought it was migraines but every neurologist confirmed it’s not migraines - what else is it then? well none of them cared enough to figure it out. none of the “basic” pain medication works for me. none of the migraine medication works for me. so occasionally i will just lie in bed completely apathetic bc i’m in so much pain n i just have to wait till the pain just ... fades away. might take a few hours might take a whole week. all i know is it starts w/ a sharp pain in my left eye and then i KNOW i have to get home asap bc i won’t even be able to drive myself home once it gets worse.

so now i’ve been dealing w/ a new thing for MONTHS. granted, i only told my family doctor about 2 months ago. a sharp pain in my hip which will eventually drag down to my knee, sometimes my entire leg hurts. usually after a while the pain in my hip would get so bad i would struggle walking. i ignored it first bc it would only happen every other day but when i started to experience the pain every day & it would get worse each day too i was like lol maybe go see a doctor. 3 days ago i couldn’t even lift my leg to get into my fucking car after i walked for like 15 minutes bc i had to get groceries. so my doc prescribes me anti-infalmmatory meds without even doing blood work. okay so those didn’t work. i stayed home for a while. sometimes it helps when i just ..... dont move. so i didnt move for about .... 3 weeks except for walking around my flat and getting groceries. so i go back to work & am advised to go see an ortho. so i go see one. n he gives me a diagnosis right away after doing an x-ray so i’m kinda stoked about it. he says we need to get an mri too just to be sure and i also have to do physical therapy. so i get the mri done and get physical therapy - which didn’t help me at all. the mri comes back n they say uhhh yea so the diagnosis u got after the x-ray is ... false. u dont have that. BUT u have a different thing go see ur ob-gyn. i’m not mad abt getting an incorrect diagnosis first bc well those things happen.

i also had an accident at work on my first day back so i stayed home for another 2 weeks bc i wasnt allowed to work lol.

so i go see my ob-gyn and i love this guy bc he’s done surgery on me before and overall he is an amazing doctor and he’s everything you’d want in a doctor. so he confirms the diagnosis i got after the mri n he’s like yea this has gotten worse in 2 1/2 weeks (it took 2 1/2 weeks to get the mri test result and then the appointment at his office) so u have to undergo surgery but we can’t do outpatient surgery in this case so you’d have to go to a hospital. so TODAY. i had my hospital appointment to schedule surgery. and they do a physical exam again n tell me that basically the thing that had gotten worse before seems to be getting better on its own. which is overall a doog thing right? so they tell me i dont need surgery and i should just go back to see my ob-gyn and family doctor on a regular basis. and they’re like “so about the pain ... it shouldn’t be that bad anymore, how is it?” and i’m like “Well it’s been getting extremly bad over the past 3 weeks and i can barely walk for more than 5 minutes, even getting here from the parking lot was a struggle” and they’re like OKAY GOOD, WELL U DONT NEED SURGERY ANYMORE SO IT SHOULD BE GOOD NOW. and they ... SENT ME HOME???

and i’m so fucking frustrated????? i had a whole meltdown when i got home???? i was SO STOKED to have a diganosis & be able to get rid of the pain through surgery like i was holding onto that little bit of hope that it would get better after getting surgery and now i’m just sitting here. still in pain. not knowing what to do bc my family doctor doesn’t care at all and my ob-gyn obviously isn’t a magician who can just get rid of everything. also nobody seems to acknowledge in how much pain i actually am??? i’m like yea i take these pain meds but they don’t work at all and everyone’s just like “okay”.

at this point i genuinely don’t think i will be able to keep working as a nurse - which kinda sucks bc i might hate this job but it’s the only thing im good at. hell, i can’t even GO ON A WALK. i’m just stuck in my home whilst being in a shitload of pain for reasons that nobody wants to diagnose and i’m going to lose my fucking mind bc of it.

and i don’t expect anyone to read this i just needed to write this down to calm down tbh lol