#literally all your faves AND mine too need to stay their asses at HOME and tf AWAY from the dora milaje in atlanta okay... okay

[jade-jini]

YOU BETTER WRITE VIRGIN LOSER G!P MINJEONG WHERE SHES LIKE

“y/n i have no idea where your clit is can you help me out :((??”

and then once she shoves her cock inside she’s like “damn its so… tight um nngh” and then she cums bc shes such a loser

OMG my first ask is one of my fave writers🙊 Imma flex yes bdjdndk 😎

OK BUT all this starting because I was bullying minjeong in the chat so you know I have to make it virgin loser g!p jeongie x bully (but not really) reader.

Going from daily annoying her; taking her books and stretching so she won’t be able to reach for them, pushing her out of the way, stealing her dessert knowing damn well she was excited to eat it :( “Thank you Jeongie I was hungry byeee” and you would kiss her on the cheek, making her shy and buying you enough time to run away with the food “y/n wait! That’s unfair :(” like poor puppy 🥺

To constantly teasing her. Trapping her against her locker every morning, saying “good morning Jeongie” right on top of her lips making her sigh and completely blanks out, teasing her every time she talked with a girl and looked shy or nervous (minjeong didn’t know this was out of jealousy ‘cause why is anybody talking to YOUR loser?), calling her out and telling her she was such a virgin, Sitting on her lap before the class starts and she just gasps because you keep moving. Why are you doing this to her??? when you have a perfect chair right next to her (yes, she was your seat mate, how unlucky for her huh?) And she just doesn’t have the courage to tell you to move (plus even tho it was wrong it felt too good). You’re so busy saying how she’s such a nerd because of her little Pokemon stickers and plushies that mind you were a gift from her other nerdy friends (yes the other Aespa girlies), that you don’t notice how you’re affecting her 😭 until you feel something hard against your ass and when you instinctively were to get up she automatically grabs your hips to stop you fbdkdn

“Oh someone is enjoying herself a little too much huh little pervert? You’ve probably never had a girl on your lap before.” you whisper in her ear with such a mean smirk and she just whimpers because it’s so embarrassing that is true:((( she got hard in class and right in front of her crush bully. She was gonna panic and then you just “Don’t worry puppy, I’ll help you after class. Just behave until we’re out.”

AND MINJEONG IS ABOUT TO LOSE IT ‘CAUSE NOBODY HAS EVER SAID SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO HER???? but she’s an obedient puppy so she does as you say. She was trying to distract herself from the literal fear she was feeling thinking about what you were gonna do to her. She has never done shit with nobody so she was genuinely nervous 😭 until she felt your hand under her desk, teasing her over her pants. Minjeong looked at you almost begging you to stop because that poor creature felt like she could come right there in that classroom, but you simply told her to stay quiet with your finger, so she had to endure the rest of the lecture with her boxers wet with her precum 💀. After class she got up super fast, covering herself with her bag actually considering running away feeling too scared of pussy but you grabbed her arm firmly.

“Your car or mine?” You asked her. She gulped, catching herself unable to escape you. “wait you don’t have one I remember. You’re always walking home. Lame. C’mon.” Why are you so mean 😭

“A-are you sure that’s a good idea? I thought you were joking…” she said with her little shy voice 🥺 she’s so pathetic and cute. The reason you loved annoying the sht outta her was because of how endearing you found her! She was such a cute little loser who just needed to get ruined.

You rolled your eyes and simply dragged her to your car. Once you got to your place you lost no time and pushed her to your bed, straddling her and kissing her and when I tell you Minjeong can’t stay still 😭 she doesn’t know how to act or what to do she just knows 1. She needs to get her pants out of the way NOW and 2. You were the only one who could help her right now. “Y/n.. please” she’d moan, feeling you moving on top of her again, this time with much more intension. She kept pushing her hips up trying to get more friction. “God you’re so desperate, can’t even let me have my fun before we start” you’d scold but bro fvck you you were just as desperate, you just knew how to hide it better. But it became too hard to hide the way your mouth was almost drooling once you put minjeong’s pants and boxers down because this girl is BIG. And not only big but also idk her dick is just so.. pretty?! Knfkfj like it just looks so amazing, size aside Idk-

So you wasted no time and put her dick inside your mouth, as deep as possible and goshhh minjeong’s eyes went completely to the back of her head. She’s never felt such sensation. Getting deepthroated during your first blowjob is an experience not a lot of people get so she was lucky af “aghh.. y/n.. oh my..~” she’d moan your name so softly it was almost heart melting. That if it wasn’t ‘cause she was literally balls deep inside your throat- anyway. She did sound both so hot but so cute, moaning and whimpering and grabbing your hair a little bit with her shaky hands Aww. You thought she was just a sensitive one but oh stupid you how didn’t you notice it was more than just that??

Once you could feel her breathing a little too irregular, knowing she was close, you got up not wanting her to come yet. You heard her groaning and laughed at her. “Shut up, you’re not the only one who gets to feel good here are you?” You teased her while getting completely naked and Omg 😳 minjeong’s face got sooo red ‘cause she has never seen a girl naked before. So she quickly covered her eyes and you thought she was just a shy loser bsdjfn “I literally just had your cock in my mouth what are you so shy about” “y/n! Hmmm…”. But she said nothing else and once she took her hands off her face you were lying down right in front of her, looking like a goddess and Omg 😵‍💫 her brain stopped working. She’s trying to learn so the best next step would be to get closer and kiss you right? Yes. So that she does, getting in between your legs trying to do it as confident as possible. “Fuck me, jeongie~” you whispered in her ear and gosh she was so ready for it but also so naive about how that was gonna happen 😭 the few videos her useless pervert friends have shown her are those where you can’t see Wtf is going on between the couple’s legs. Her cock was right against your clit (but she didn’t know that lmao) so when she moved and you moaned ‘cause of the friction, she connected it with her doing something right, so she continued but since the contact was also making her feel good, she started moving faster and a little.. abrupt 😭

her cock moved up a little too much. She was too shy to look so the tip literally ended up resting on your bellybutton BSKSNSKS. Minjeong didn’t notice it but you did. She rubbed it against your body a little bit and for the first couple seconds you thought she was just trying to tease you in her own weird nerd way but you grew both tired of that and desperate to feel her deep inside you already so you told her to stop playing and fuck you already. Poor thing panicked again 😭 she grabbed her cock and stared at it and then at your pussy, not knowing how was she supposed to do this 💀but you were always teasing her about being a virgin so at least you knew and it wouldn’t be so weird if she asked for help right? Right?

“Umm.. y/n?” She’d start, clearly confused and nervous. Which made YOU confused ‘cause why the fuck wasn’t she inside you yet?? “It’s just I’m not sure how.. you know.” And Omg that’s when it hit you. “I don’t wanna do something wrong or hurt you or-”

“Hold on. Minjeong.. have you done this before??”

“Hmm? No? I-I thought you knew. You’re always calling me a virgin!” She answered in a defensive tone lol but that’s ‘cause wdym you didn’t know 😨 now she was even more nervous and embarrassed!

“It was just to tease you! How would I know that? But gosh you are pathetic.”

“And you’re so mean :(” Dbdkfn Aww leave her aloneee🥺🥺 “could you ugh.. help me out please? I wanna make you feel good :(” and Aww how could you be mean to her when she was saying those things and asking for help with such a cute face 🥺 you just sighed and rolled your eyes before smiling at her softly.

“Here.” You started, grabbing her cock, making her groan and bite her lip (that woman is hot 🫵🏼). “So right here is the clit, pay attention to this ‘cause the more you stimulate it the better I’ll feel.” You explained to her, teasing yourself with the tip of her cock. And she just went ohhh :o with those puppy eyes she has dndnfk fvckin loser melts my heart istg. You started guiding her a little lower, so she could finally get inside your hole. You decided to move and get the tip inside yourself which with how big she was, was already your own little challenge “g-god.. now you just push it more.. a-and fuck me already.” You told her, already needing more of her. And so she slowly started pushing her cock deeper and deeper inside your pussy, mumbling about how good you felt, her head already in the clouds. Once she was fully in, you let out a big trembling sigh trying to get used to such a big thing inside you. Minjeong was trying her best to stay in a slow tempo at first, worried she might hurt you because you had a painful expression 🥺 but baby didn’t know that it was both hurting but feeling so fucking good. Until you basically ordered her to go faster, while your nails went to her back.

So she started fucking you deep and fast, making you moan so loud which only motivated her to go faster and faster “God you’re so tight.. so warm… hmmgn feels too good y/n… y/n!” She’d cry with a string of voice. She was pounding you so good, grabbing your legs and sucking on your nipple like a fucking baby. It was all way too good. Before you were even closer to your own climax tho she was already coming inside you 💀 poor loser barely lasted but cmon cut her some slack she is a virgin anyway. Plus you can always train her so she’ll get better with time 😌(and when I add cockwarming her in the future then what). She came so much inside you it was dripping down your thighs once she pulled out and it looked so fucking hot… but poor baby felt embarrassed :c

“I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to finish so fast, you just feel too good..” she said out of breath with a pout :( Aww she thought y’all were done silly puppy.

“It’s ok, it’s not like we’re done anyway” you told her and she just tilted her head looking at you, until you turned her around and started riding her 😭 you hadn’t come yet >:( you didn’t care if it was her first time or not, you were gonna teach her how to make you come with her cock from day one. And that’s how you spent the whole night milking that girl until she actually passed out ‘cause of the overstimulation bdidnds. Needless to say her cock was still inside you as you both fell asleep <3

Y’all’s morning routine barely changes dnndkf. Just that now you drive her to school whenever you spend the night together and take her home after class. You keep teasing her every morning against her locker, but now before saying good morning (like you didn’t see her literally the moment you woke up) you actually kiss her, always pulling her lip making her lose her train of thought and she just sighs and follows you to the classroom with the silliest dreamy expression in her face 😭 she’s such a cutie.

(puppy! minjeong agenda preacher here as you noticed)

[princessnijireiki]

on the one hand I'm selfishly curious about the other atlanteans' casting (not least of all bc uh... I hate aquaman sorry, I hate that their atlantean royal family is so white supremacist-y), otoh I REALLY want them to get the right fit for this cast which imo is gonna mean pulling from new talent rather than the tiny native hollywood pool, especially because I want tenoch huerta to be the visual standard for marvel's atlantis.

like I don't want a repeat of the blu hunt & blair redford xcu (or tbh the odette annable & meaghan rath in banshee) casting standards, I don't want a centering of white passing lightskinned actors anywhere near BP. I don't wanna see anyone who's been in a twilight movie lol. I want fresh faces & I want fresh blood. I want the same vibes as cree summer disney atlantis, when the visuals were fresh, new, and the characters were all unambiguously brown.

I wanna have fun & I hate to be a hater but that can't happen with the big names y'all know on the american indigenous acting scene, I'm sorry— but I don't wanna see gil or chaske or zahn or wes. I don't wanna see tonantzin or tanaya.

I want the casting director to make an effort and give us what we've somehow still been waiting for and let coogler realize his vision, and I want it not to be something catering to non latino visuals of indigeneity & non indigenous visuals of latinos.

[doubtingthomasin]

prompt 30: primal

word count: 1.8k

oh god this one might be my new fave i just love the kinda silly ones

MINORS DNI

@viharker

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"This feels kind of silly. Are we gonna be running around naked?"

"Trust me, it won't feel silly for very long–what are you doing?"

Chrissy's half-covering her bare chest, her hands slippery against the coconut oil they'd put all over their skin. "I feel weird." She grimaces but laughs at the same time. "I feel like I need a shower and we haven't even started. What?"

Eddie's almost cackling already. "Why–Why are you covering up?" He takes a few steps toward her but she puts her arms up in an x-formation.

"Uh-uh, you get too close and there's no head start for me."

He fake-lunges at her and she squeaks. "Oh, I'm gonna get you either way, princess."

"Oh, really?" she asks with renewed confidence, hands on her hips as he ogles her. "Last I checked, I'm the athlete here."

"Ready to put that to the test?" On the last word, he really takes off toward her, Chrissy screeching excitedly as she runs. He knows she actually has the home-field advantage, literally, as they run the hallway from the kitchen to the front room. They bound over the area rug, rush carefully over the marble tile until they make it to the carpeted parlor.

She takes off like a bullet and he won't admit it, but his smoker's lungs have a little trouble keeping up. He corners her at the other end of the room behind a couch, jumping to each side of it as she tries to escape.

"Ah, the thief has her trapped with no hope of escape," he narrates, arms out wide to catch her. She grabs a small pillow and throws it at him, which he easily ducks. "Evasion!"

"Goddamn goofball," she laughs, feinting to the left before throwing herself to the right over the couch, landing easily on her feet before running past him.

"How–" He builds up speed, chasing her up the stairs and through the halls. It's not really fair to her, he thinks; she's just running, but he's running and getting a great view of her ass every time she escapes. 

Not that he's letting her escape, of course.

"The princess just keeps cornering herself," he continues as she enters her parent's bedroom, "almost as if she wants to get caught. She must be curious as to what the thief has to offer." He wiggles his eyebrows, making her scoff and chuckle.

"You wish," she exclaims, pulling the same move as before and he catches her. But the oil does its job, making her impossible to hang on to with just his fingers. She slips past him and he growls playfully, bounding after her as she runs down the opposite hall.

"Oh, I do, princess, I do wish." He says it dramatically as they enter a guest room, her jumping up on the bed as he stalks the floor. "I wish to make you mine, to have you in every which way possible all night, all day, until you're begging me to stop."

"I will never surrender!" she cries, leaping far off the bed and out of the room, and he laughs as he follows.

"Oh, I'll take you either way, fair maiden." She runs back downstairs to the parlor, perched on the back of the couch and waiting for him to come through the doorway. But he never does.

"Eddie?"

Marble can be slippery, and she's suddenly worried enough to run back out into the main room, but he's not there either. She rolls her eyes at herself, in disbelief that she actually fell for his trick as she looks around in a circle. "Eddie! You're not playing fair!"

"Uh, what about a thief implies 'fair play,' Your Highness?"

"Good point." She says it more to herself, raising her voice after. "Then I'll just stay here."

"Oh, I'll get to you eventually," he calls, and she tries to suss out his location from the sound, but the echoes of the walls and floors make it impossible. "I move in the shadows, soundless, watching."

"You're ridiculous," she giggles, and part of her wants to forfeit but the bigger part wants to win…whatever that means.

She takes a pillow from an armchair, holding it in front of herself like a shield as she crosses the main room to the kitchen. She jumps through the doorway, looking around quickly and peeking behind the door, forehead wrinkled, resolute.

Funny enough, she doesn't feel like prey as much as she probably should, but maybe that's just the price of pretending. Since she knows there are no actual high stakes involved, there's no real reason to keep herself away.

Though he had promised he was going to be rough; that was the point to all the dramatics. It was supposed to be more freeing, more animalistic, two things which she knows all too well that he's into.

She walks softly into the dining room off the kitchen and knows she's screwed. Each long window has curtains that fall to the floor, easily concealing someone even Eddie's height. There's a linen closet in the corner, the shelves set in just enough that someone as slender as him could fit just inside the door. There are three entrance doors, all of which are open, all of which he could be standing behind.

There's no proof he's in this room, but she knows he has the mind of an expert strategist, so he is definitely in this room.

"I know you're in here." She checks the door she's standing next to, then each curtain one by one. She checks quickly under the great table filling the middle of the room. She rips open the door to the closet, but nothing. She turns around and–oh.

She forgot the wall tapestry.

He could've easily hid behind it and moved while she was searching. When she squints, she swears it's moving a bit as if it's been disturbed.

Pillow shield at the ready, she approaches slowly, eyeing the movement as her back turns to the table. It occurs to her she should've checked under it again–and it occurs to her far too late.

Eddie's arms close around her so suddenly she only gasps, his lips hot on her ear. "Gotcha."

She throws the pillow back into his face with a hah! as she tries to escape. But he's too close and succeeds in grabbing a fistful of her strawberry hair, yanking her back to his chest and making her scream. "Sorry, princess. That was a miss."

She groans melodramatically, pretending to faint against his chest as he devours her neck. "Unhand me, you brute, you fiend, you…ruffian!"

He laughs, overjoyed at how much she's getting into the act. "Not until I take what's mine!"

He spins her around, picks her up, and lays her on the bare table, the polished wood sliding easily against her oiled skin. He kisses her deeply, pushing the nearest chairs further away before his hands race up her thighs, one diving between her legs to stroke.

"Oh, I will be soiled," she whimpers, legs shaking as he abuses her clit. "No one will take me as their wife."

"Then you will be mine forever," he pants, sucking her nipples to hard points before rolling them between his fingers. He has to talk louder as her volume increases, his fingers finding their way inside her cunt. "I'll teach you my ways, and we'll thieve and pillage our whole lives long."

"You'll shame me forever, you'll…oh, Eddie." She can't keep the act going once she's about to come, hands clinging to his shoulders as she breaks against his fingers. He removes them while she's still pulsing, replacing them with his cock and making her wail.

"You okay?"

"Don't stop!" He obeys, his hands gripping her thighs as he gives her a few hard thrusts. He then holds her waist as he starts railing her, loud cries falling from her mouth echoed by his howls. He pulls her off the table after a moment, turning her around and bending her over, her cheek pressed against the table as he enters her roughly from behind.

"I've got you now, princess," he growls as he leans in, pushing her thighs against the table's smooth edge. "You'll never get me out." 

He slams into her at a punishing pace, groaning into her shoulder as he pulverizes her cunt, dragging one of her legs up onto the table to open her wider.  She can feel him in her guts, he's pounding so hard, his cock hitting as deep as possible. He pushes scream after scream out of her, leaning up to grab her hair again, arching her back toward him as he continues with a curse. "Jesus Christ!"

He picks her up again, folding up her legs and pressing her knees into the area rug below, pushing her shoulders down toward the floor. She arches her back again, moaning helplessly as he speeds up again. "You've always wanted this, haven't you, princess? You've just been waiting for a man like me to come along and fuck you raw."

"Uh-huh," she whines, nails digging into the pile for purchase, but it's not enough. He drags her back a little more, spreading her legs a wider, arching her back further with his hands, and fucking down into her. Her sounds are strangled as he pulls her back on every stroke, until she lets out the loudest scream he's ever heard her make.

He pulls out, flips her over, folds her in half, and lays into her again. She cries out against his lips, lost in the feel of being ravaged like this in the middle of her least favorite room in the house. Of everything she's done with Eddie so far, this is the experience that feels the most like rebellion.

"You're doing so good, Your Highness, taking my huge cock so well in your tight little pussy."

"I love you, I love you." She repeats it over and over, her mind unable to focus on anything else as he wears away at her. Making her his, just like he swore he would.

"I love you, baby," he groans, breathless as her nails dig deep into his back, raking down as he chases his end inside her. He comes so hard his body snaps, his forehead pressing against her shoulder as he fills her with a few more harsh thrusts.

They lay there for a moment, Eddie halfway on top of her, hearing her heartbeat return to normal. His favorite sound in the world. "That does it." With aching arms, he crawls up to look her in the eye, catching her smile as he plants a firm kiss on her soft lips. "I'm keeping you."

She giggles as he rolls them over, her head resting on his chest. "I think I'll let you."

[benjaminjofaiho]

The Captain Next Door Ch.1

Summary: You’re a doctor who also just so happens to be a fan fiction writer. You love lots of fandoms but Captain America is by far your fave, so what happens when you get a new job, move to Brooklyn and realize that the brownstone you bought is right next door to Captain America? Obviously shenanigans ensue.

Warnings: cursing, smutt (eventually)

Authors note: Ok guys, this is literally my first fanfic and it’s about the Cap. Please be gentle! Also guys I really do live for a slow burn so that will be present heavy, I hope you can stick with it. Let me know what you think and please, reblog, like and comment! Love y'all! P.S. I do not currently have a beta and the ‘f’ and ‘u’ keys on my keyboard are messed up so incase you see repeating letters anywhere they aren’t supposed to be feel free to let me know.

   You wiped the sweat forming on your head from the sweltering Brooklyn heat. You were from Texas but this was definitely more than you were used to, or expected from everything you’ve seen on TV about New York. You sat on the stoop of your Brooklyn Brownstone waiting and started to think back. Three months ago you were in your parents living room opening up a heavy envelope from a hospital you’ve only dreamed of. Your father beamed from ear to ear, chest swelling with pride and tears were already in your mom’s eyes the moment a paper cutter went through the envelope. Your eyes flew across the page “Y/FN Y/LN, We would like to offer you the position of Head of Cardiology here at Mount Sinai...” everything else had been a blur. All your sleepless nights in college, all the anxiety, stress, sacrifices of missed birthdays and family gatherings, all of it had lead up to this moment and it had all been worth it. Your job started in the next 5 months and you had to pack up your Texan life and move all the way to the ‘big Apple’ as your dad called it. Besides the fact that you were infatuated with the city since you were a little girl, you were ready for a change of scenery. There were so many good memories here in Fort Worth but thanks to your asshole ex, Daniel, there were also a lot of sour ones as well. Your parents and your younger siblings helped you pack up your little house that was just  15 minutes from theirs. You were able to get everything done in about 2 weeks. At the airport your family saw you off. Your younger brother, Benjamin, eyes were red.

           “Aww baby brother are you crying because you’re going to miss me?” you pinched at his cheeks.

           Swatting your hand away he chuckled “Nah, I’m just thinking about how you’re gonna be in a whole nother state bossing people around and how you’ll finally be able to mind your own business and stay out of mine.” You hugged him and he bent down so you could kiss his forehead. Even though you were 26, a whole 7 years older than him and 5’8, he still towered above you.

           Turing to your 3 youngest sisters, Joy, Faith and Hope. Their names a testament to just how southern and Christian your parents were. They were huddled together crying freely, looking like little black angels in a chapel. You hugged each of them while the youngest, Hope, held on the longest. You hugged her until she was ready to let go. You kissed Faith on the cheek and moved to turn to your parents. The third oldest Joy grabbed you and hugged you once again, fiercley. She whispered in your ear “Y/N, I don't know how to do it. I don't know how to take care of them the way you took care of us, what are we gonna do without you?”

           You looked into her brown eyes “Joy, babe all you have to do is love them. Also I’m just a FaceTime call away, PLUS I’m a big shot doctor so it ain’t nothing for me to hop on a plane for y’all. Girl I got monnneeyyyy” That managed to get a little laugh from her and you stepped back to look at your siblings. Technically yes, they were your younger ones but due to the large age gap you always looked at them as your children, your babies. The 4 of them huddled around you once more and hugged. You turned to your dad who was never one to shy away from his emotions, was all but balling.

           “Come on dad, you gotta hold it together man!” he laughed and wiped at his cheeks

“I’m just so proud of you baby girl, you inspire your brother and sisters to do more, your mother and I have always told you that, but I never told you, you inspire me to. I am beyond proud of you.”

           “Aw dad, I love you so much” Pulling you into one of his patented hugs he said “I love you too. You’re going to the big apple now Doc, make sure you take a bite” Kissing your forehead you turned to face your mom. Oh boy. Of you made it through this one you would be home free, no ugly snot face crying. She gave you the best smile she could and that was it. The dam broke and you were sobbing. She hugged you and told you how proud of you she was, how you were a shining light for your siblings and the family as a whole. She told you that she also packed some food from home in your suitcase so you could settle in a little easier. You looked at her with a heart full of nothing but love. You were a little neurotic, and had a tendency to be anal retentive, planning and sticking to strict schedule for everything, predicting 10’000 possible outcomes to any situation but your mother was always there for you. Always remembering anything you didn’t. You thought of how she was really the only one you would let see vulnerable and take care of you. You would miss that in New York. Picking up your hand luggage you were whisked through security thanks to your first class ticket. Turning once more now passed security you stood up on your tip toes and waved emphatically to your family, not caring who saw you or them looking crazy. Your family had already been a little above average but this new job allowed you to even buy your wants not just your needs. You settled down in your chair and noticed only a handful of people were in your cabin. A stewardess came to offer you some champagne and you politely declined. Looking out the window a few seconds letting the last tear fall you put your curly hair up, you had to get to work.

           So yes, you were a doctor and that was all good and fun but you were also a huge nerd. Huge. While most people went to the club, concerts and generally having pretty good times outdoors you were stuck at home. Even when not studying you were still stuck to your computer. Once your family insisted on going to six flags and you brought your ipad with the attachable keyboard and your family kept talking about how dedicated of a student turned intern turned full-fledged doctor you were. If only they knew… You were working on your fanfiction and your followers and subbies were a bunch of savages! If they didn’t get their fix from you and you didn't stick to your upload schedule, your inbox would definitely be a madness, all sorts of threats and your lovelies would call you everything but a child of God. You’d been away for about a month and a few days now and your beta, Jay had started texting your actual phone. You met Jay on Tumblr a few years before, there had been some light flirtation always present but never anything serious. You worked better as friends and when you decided to get into fanfiction to blow steam off, he proved a good beta reader.

TXT From Jay: Doc! Where the hell are you at? Your rabid readers are jumping down my throat trying to you. Why you would leave a major cliffhanger for Captain America, and Sonia I have no idea. They want to know what’s happening next, low key I do too.

           You giggled. You thought of everything, you knew setting up a completely unaffiliated and untraceable account for your writing was a good idea. 1- you didn't want angry people in your inbox losing their minds. 2- You’ve been going for interviews and you didn't want a case where a potential employer would google your name and see all the filth you think about earth’s mightiest heroes and other people who don’t even exist. No way, you couldn't have that type of rep attached to you.

TXT From Y/N: Jaybaby, I’ve been going through it. Sorry, just been in the process of moving and you know life can get a little messy. Plus I really needed a break. Funnily enough I’m working on The Dangerous Dame right now. I’ll send the new chapter to you within the week. XO

Thinking back to seeing the avengers save New York you were grateful for them. They were kicking ass and taking names. Keeping all of us safe but damn if they weren’t all so fine. And you did mean ALL. To be honest that Natasha could. Get. It. All of them could get it. But there was something about that Captain America. He was sort of shy and had a boyish charm about him but that body made you think of pure sin. You wanted to wrap yourself around him and never let him go. You wanted to do nasty things to him. You wanted him to completely demolish you. So you did what everyone who is obsessed with anyone does. Try and consume as much media about said person as possible. Hey, It is the golden age of technology after all. After having your fill of random fan pictures, blurry videos of him in action you needed more stimulus. Where better to turn than Tumblr. Much to your dismay, there was barely any Cap Fanfic and when there was there was so little reader insert. And even then, there was literally less than 10 where he was actually into a black woman. This wouldn't do, you thought to yourself. That’s how Doctor Chris was born. Of course his name was Steve but he always sort of looked like a Chris to you. You didn’t just write about him but other people too, your stories took off and were a good escape from your hectic life.

           A car pulled up to you on your empty street and a short round man with a very stereotypical New Yorker accent shouted up to you, shaking you our of your memories

           “Ay lady, are you” his beady eyes peered at a piece of paper “Y/N? Are you Y/N?”

           “Yes that’s me”

           “Alright come get your unit, and not to be rude or anything but could you make it snappy? I got to make 15 more deliveries before the day is over.”

You slowly rose “Alright, I understand. However I paid for the delivery service? Aren’t y’all supposed to put it in my house?”

           “Lady you paid for the delivery service, not the installation service. That's another fee.”

           “I understand that” You replied still confused “ But I thought you would deliver it into my home.”

           “No way lady, that’s the set up service. You paid for the delivery service. That's an entirely different fee.” He repeated.

           “Understood” Your lips pulled into a flat line “Well sir could you at least help me get it into the first floor of my house?”

           “Did you pay for transportation insurance?”

           “….no…I didn-”  he cut you off “Well sorry Lady, I can’t help you.”

           “You can’t help me off load this huge AC and just carry it up 7 measly steps with me?”

           “Nope, can’t do it. It’s against company policy. Say I should look up at a pretty bird cuz the day’s so gorgeous and what not, then your unit slips out of my hand, there goes your cool breeze. Who’s gonna pay for that? Certainly not the company, cuz you didn’t pay for the transport insurance. That's a different fee. Now you’re angry at me, I mean technically it was my fault for being so clumsy and distractable and what not. But guess who else isn’t gonna pay? Me! Then guess whos gonna be upset and take me to court but loose horrifically because my brother in law just passed the bar? You! So lady no, I can’t help you. Why don’t you get one of the other tenants in the building to help you?”

           “Well, not that it’s any of your business, but I own the brownstone and I live alone. So there’s no one that could help me.”

           “You had enough money to get a brownstone but not enough to pay the fee?”

           “Alright thanks whatever your name is. I’ll just take my AC Now.”

           You looked at him while you struggled for 15 minutes just to get the AC out of the truck and the second you safely had it on the baking concrete of the curb you heard the back of the truck slide down and heard a door slam. You turned around to see the truck driver starting up the car and he shouted over the roaring engine.

           “Thanks for shopping with Coole Breeze, your number one cooling solution  in the tricity area, have a frosty day!” and with that, he was off.

           Even though you were wearing a  pretty airy romper and you did work out about 3 times a week, that was nothing against that heavy ass air conditioner and that Brooklyn heat. You put your hands on top your head and squinted up the sky. You again thank God your street was empty. You must have sweated out your Twist out and edges by now. You were convinced you were looking crazy. But hey, It was a Tuesday at 1. Everyone who was someone was at work, kids were in school so it was just you and this behemoth air conditioning unit.  Getting into classic Y/N calculations your decided what you were going to do. Yes, this AC was, technically for your room but you won’t be able to get it all the way up there by yourself right now so you can create a pulley system and pull it through the window. Huffing and puffing to your started mimicking your father.

           ‘Buy a fixer upper baby girl, it's a great investment. You could build your dream home and sell it eventually , it’ll be fun! Your brother and I will fly up there to help you whenever you need us or have free time. Matter of fact I’m pretty sure my army buddy Wilson still lives in New York…Not sure the part though. But I know he and his boy are engineers of some sort. I can even ring them up to help you when I can’t make it myself. This will be a terrific family project honey!’

           “ Sure dad!” you shouted at no one in particular “ who’s going to help me now though?!” At least your mother had the foresight to buy you a fully equipped toolbox, 12 foot ladder and a whole bunch of things that a new homeowner/renovator needs. It took a bit of maneuvering but you were able to get the ladder out the door and down the steps. You were now atop of it, building and hammering away at a pulley system. You were determined to sleep in a chilly 50 degrees tonight, by any means necessary. You saw two men one white and one black, approaching from your left through your peripheral vision. You steeled yourself to any cat calling that may occur, from the angle - to what you had on, it wasn’t a good situation. You couldn't make out faces but you could see that one was visibly bigger than the other. They stopped walking a little behind you and you couldn't tell which one asked but you heard someone say

           “Hi, do you need any help?”

           “O fanks” You replied with a slight lift of your hand with a screwdriver hanging out the side of your mouth and a heavy covering of sweat on your forehead. Using the back of your hand to wipe the sweat off you removed the screwdriver from your mouth and cleared your throat then repeated “No thanks” In a clearer manner. Thinking to yourself how could these guys even help me? While screwing and grunting softly you weren’t mentally present. You were trying to solve the problem you created. You had written yourself into a corner and you were trying to figure out a way out of it. You started to get the thread of an idea that you were mentally trying to work into a tapestry for your readers, however, while still trying to flesh it out something else was fighting for your attention. In the back of your mind you heard his voice again.

           “Are you sure? We may be able to be of better help than you thin-” Remembering your mothers call the night before talking about a movie she watched on lifetime where people in the ‘big city’ would help you get something into your house as supposed good Samaritans then come back and rob you, or do worse you decided against it instantly.

           “Listen, thanks but no.” You huffed out “Apparently I paid for the delivery service and not the installation service as the lovely delivery man told me. This however does NOT include carrying my AC up the 4 flights of stairs to my bedroom because that's apparently another fee. So no, there isn’t anything you gentlemen could do for me” You heard a little chuckle behind you and heard a quieter deeper voice say:

           “You have to pay the fees, that’s where they get you” his voice was full of laughter. He wasn’t outright laughing but you could still somehow hear it in his voice.

           Momentarily forgetting you were on a ladder you whipped around to give the guy a piece of your mind. But all it takes is a moment. And in that moment, you were falling backward off a 12 foot ladder. Back, back, back, you go thinking this is how it would end. You dead on the concrete. You hadn’t been to china town yet! Why hadn’t you been to china town? Or the empire state building! OR the statue of liberty! You shouldn't have rushed your mom off the phone last night. You would have given anything to hear her aimless ramblings and numerous ‘be carefuls’ one last time. OH GOD! You hadn’t had sex in a year and a half! This is how you were going to die. Trying to tell off some harassers with an uncompleted house in your name before you started your dream job. You squeezed your eyes shut and braced for impact

           Your body hit something that was hard like cement but was warmer and…. Somehow smelled like leather? And Christmas? And Home somehow? You opened your eyes to see a face partially obscured by a blue baseball hat pulled down over the front and a full beard. You couldn't see who he was and he was leaning in close to your face while he held you. There was something so familiar about him, but you couldn't place it. His voice kept fading in and out of your head.

           “Ma’am? Ma’am! Stay with me!”

Sounding like echos of screams and whispers bouncing off the inside of your skull all at once you blinked slow and mustered out what you could:

           “Don't…Tell me what to do…Asshole” and everything faded to black.

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Okay guys! thats about it for the first one. I would really appreciate the feedback! Is this something you would want more of? Or should I move on to some other fic ideas I have? Let me know and thanks for reading!

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A Premonition of Love-Chapter 7

Hey Loves! Here is our chapter, just  in time for @dirtystyles bday-I’m glad I included her faves, like loud moaning and dry humping on bunk beds, or something like that! Tripod writing forever! Special thanks, again, to @emulateharry for the quick beta!

Himitsu No!

Last Time!

"Yeah, I got that now." And his hand went up to her face, she expected a soft touch on her jaw, but he cupped the back of her neck, and brought her forward like she was gonna be flung back, whiplash.

He tasted like sunshine on her lakebed, when the sun beat down on her shoulders after the cool of the car air conditioning.

His head slanted to the right, and she heard her own response. When her mouth opened to the glide of his tongue, her hands moved from his waist up to cross over his back. Get him and his smell closer. His shoulders were wider than her, and the height difference, those inches suddenly made a difference. Except at their hips, those notched together perfectly.

He tasted like coffee and coconut. Like sunny days layin out in LA.

His hand was in her hair, and it was messy and a little desperate. Inevitable.

Action.

"Action!" Sounded in Harry's head. Suddenly he was the director and the actor. He'd never been so forward. Well, maybe in 2013, but that was something of a lost year for him.

Harry remembered lots of it, but it felt like he was watching somebody else play another version of him. And none of that had been with somebody special, inevitable. There were no feelings involved, at least not on his side. He liked to believe not on their side. How could they have like him, they'd only just met him. That was his mantra, that they were fucking the idea of him, liked the idea, loved the idea. It was how he rationalized it.

Until his mom had sat him down and boxed his ears and asked where her son was? Because her son wouldn't take advantage of girls overcome by their inflated feelings for him.  Feelings. His mom insisted the groupies, god that word, had feelings for him, or believed they did. It may have been just an idea of him, but he was still taking advantage she had insisted. He didn't want to hurt anybody. He'd calmed down a lot after that, and then things got dramatic, and then he had feelings for Xander and they hid in plain sight. When he had feelings he supposed he was blunt about them. He had impulse control when the impulse was to love.

He was definitely feeling something now. He was feeling all of it, everything that had sounded in his mind when he'd been hungover and clumsy when he had met her for real. All the things from before that, when he'd first seen her image, and his mind had run with possibilities. The time since, where he watched her work, serious and in charge, and when she laughed, buoyant and like light- moving in waves. It was all mixing with the literal feelings of her in his hands.  His hopes for them had been shelved in the library of his mind because he was trying not to get hurt, downplay his interest and not freak her out with the long term plans he had unconsciously made. For them. All of the hopes he'd had were now intertwining with the reality of her, of this feeling, and it was was all over his brain, lighting up and activating long term memory.

He wanted to remember this forever, the feeling of her forever.

Boy had he been right about her mouth. He'd gotten a lot of compliments on his lips from lovers. It was something he brought to the table.

But, Ada Scott, she ran that table.

Her mouth was revolutionary. She filled in the space between his lips like a washer between a screw and object. Nice and snug, protective. But soft, god she was soft and her hips filled out his hands like her heart did his cracks.

Alright, he was writing fucking lyrics. Time to focus on the moment. His attention leg to action, inevitably. Her hips became her ass and the wall behind her was a sturdy surface to support them and kept him from taking her down to the metal grating on the floor.

What was that sound?

Oh shit! That was him, he'd lost all his faculties and was moaning loudly. He would have reined it in, but Ada had one hand in his hair and another was undoing his shirt and he couldn't. He wasn't sure he'd ever been with somebody this incendiary.

Now they were moaning in tandem.

Her voice sounded better than a songbird, a lark.

He wanted to hear her. He could listen to that sound, be carried by its current, every morning, noon and night for the rest of his life.

He's in a rush, a wave to her finish, when she lifted her thigh to his hip and ground against his insistence he could see the shore. A few more regressions and advances and they'd find the beginning of land and end of their tsumanmic ride.

"Harry!" Ada moaned.

"Harri!" Yuki called.

Harry had to come up to the surface to recognize the outside command. Ada's commands were what he would rather follow. What her voice was asking of him he couldn't do with another coming closer and getting louder.

Harry coasted his thumb over Ada's thigh, gave one last squeeze, and placed it down, pulled back to see her swollen lips, wet enough to dive into, and more inviting than a tropical pool on the first truly hot day, and her blinking eyes.

"Just one. More." He whispered and offered her a peck that she leaned into. Their noses notched together and around. Her hair went smoothly back when he smoothed it and he immediately wondered how unruly his looked.

"How's mine?" He could feel his giant dimples. This was the best day of his life. His tresses were tangled and messy, his fingers told him when his curious pointer finger became a concerted effort to comb out damage.

"Oh, fuck!" The knock sounded around the small wall just after she had said it. "Your hair is fucked! We are fucked!" Her voice didn't elevate, but her stress was evident.

"No, I'll just look distressed," he schooled his face into frown and pulled his lip, "see. And you look flustered."

Her hands slapped at the air above her waist and then down on her hips. "I am flustered!"

He pushed a lock behind her ear. "I know, just pretend it's at me."

"Who's pretending." And she lead the way out after she squared her shoulders. He caught the motion as she wiped his kiss, or the evidence, off her mouth. She was muttering, she looked a little pissed, definitely affected. He liked affecting her.

He found himself laughing as she walked around the wall with a square set to her jaw, like all the groaning that had just been going on was him being beat about the head and ego rather than the libido.   He needed to wipe the silly smirk off his face. Though it was rather at home there.

He knew, he'd know since her first saw her. Maybe from her films and interviews, but definitely the moment their eyes connected. He'd known.

He'd lost faith.

Harry usually trusted his feelings about people. But he rarely let himself off the hook. Ada didn't seem like a grudge holder exactly, but she did not take shit. That was clear.

And he had been shit.

If you didn't get a second chance at a first impression, he was fucked as then he'd sucked. The situation had felt hopeless, unrequited, until just last week.

But it was better, he was gonna smash this scene now. He had lots to work with. Though he still planned to use his idea for the kiss rather than what had just gone down. That was just for him and Ada.

He thought of Henry and Akio as a slow burn, a smolder. He'd give them a kiss fit for hot coals.

He and Ada had a flare up. Once given the proper fuel, a little oxygen- they were burning.

He put his hands in his hair and looked distraught as he approached the area side stage. Ayae was biting her lip when they made eye contact.

"Alright Harry?" Oh, they were selling it. Ada was frowning, fuming, she looked actually pissed. And Ayae looked concerned for him.

"Can you fix my hair? I think I fucked it up." He collapsed in the chair, coming loose like a cheap hem. "I've gotta do this right on the next take!" he huffed.

"You will Harry. You're so charming, and Henry is the sweetest character. And you and Yuki have great chemistry- just relax into it. You do so much better when you relax." Her eyes were on his hair, but she was skating, them down and biting her lip. "Maybe think about someone you want to kiss badly, if that is not Yuki....."

"The person I want to kiss," he looked at Ada mournfully. "Doesn't wanna kiss me right now."

He hoped that wasn't true.

Ada was fuming, at herself . She could not believe she had let that happen on set, wanted it to happen more on set! What was she thinking! "Goddamn you Styles!" She muttered it. But out loud. Didn't matter who heard, it would go with their act, The 'I cannot stand you and your dumb ass' act. He was pouting with all his might in the chair in front of Ayae. That was good, sympathy inducing.

Except she didn't want too much sympathy to go against her. Harry was already sympathetic enough.

Oh great- bitch rep. Again. She hurt little Harry!

She'd like to put a hurting on him.

In the short amount of time Ada had begun to re-entertain thoughts of kissing Harry on that mouth, she did not expect it to go like that. She'd seen him go full rockstar on that little stage, but she really figured that was some alter ego, something he put on that wouldn't come out without wardrobe or a microphone.

She told herself if anything happened, which she was still totally denying the possibility of, she'd have to instigate and lead.

It was a bit of a hold up for her, honestly.  It was another reason she had given herself to stay away after their flirtation.  She'd been pounding her treadmill thinking of why she wouldn't do. Knew better than to do. Exhibit A had just happened. Though she thought it would be way easier to avoid, because she could control her urges. Before he took over control of her urges. Damn him.

Another reason she had postulated was that he was so sweet and a bit insecure, in her experience, she figured that would extend into his romantic moments. His sweet little gifts only confirmed that for her. His stare downs yesterday made more sense now. He wanted approval, assurance, so she thought he would be a little timid.

She was Wrong!

Another piece of the Harry Styles puzzle. Insecure in unfamiliar or new intense circumstances and a badass elsewise.

Maybe he was the kind that took a while to cope with nerves and then got better.

He must be very sure of his mouth and its abilities. Wow! Ada wondered if that would extend to other intimacy? More naked nudity.

Ada hated leading in the bedroom. She liked being the boss everywhere else. She wanted to be bossed there, relinquish her beloved control and feel love flow into her wildly.

If that kiss was anything to go on, she was going to be handled. She loved being handled.

She had to shift on her seat, and wondered where her water bottle got to. For once the sound stage was a little too warm for her.

"Ms. Scott!" Her DP said.

"Ada!" Julie nudged her arm.

"Huh? Yes?" They were they all looking at her.

"Can we start?"

Shit, this was gonna be a distraction. He was a distraction. Harry was already in place, she'd only glanced at him once and was kinda avoiding looking at him as much as possible. He was flushed and his mouth was a little red. Did they put something on him, that green shit? The stuff that worked with your pH and gave a ovely pink.

Oh, no, it was her. She gripped her pant leg to stop from wiping her mouth. She had worn Fenty Uncuffed, only a bit should have smeared. It was set.

She wanted to test out its bounds on him. How many kisses, when? Where? How long after application, could she kiss or suck it all off? Leave smudges of another lovely pink, unlike his bath water or his natural blush.

Harry bit his lip and blinked at her. What the fuck? Sexy cow blinks? Was this a Greek story?

No! This was her story. Their story.

"Let's roll!" She gave the command, and meant it for herself more than anybody else.

The first take was slightly uncomfortable, but this time because Yuki had lost the moment.

"Sorry boss, I need to shake it off." He had directed at her.

"You need a min!" Harry laughed "What did you eat while I was getting reamed?"

Reamed? What? Oh, no, that was rimmed.

"I had a snack!" Yuki grabbed mint out of his pocket. "You should take one too, you taste like matcha. Grassy!"

Oh shit!

"Do I?" Harry smiled big! "Want more!" And he went in to kiss his co-star like it was an attack.

"Roll!" She said. They were cute already, she wanted it on film, she might get some use. It was a good moment to capture.

Once the puppy play slowed down, and Harry and Yuki let the moment become Akio and Henry's, the pace became languid. Harry's hand came up, slow, and cupped Yuki's jaw.

Her prince pulled back, giving her a shot at pulling this off as a first kiss. His smile was small, just enough to pop a dimple. And Yuki was pulling off dazed, or was dazed. The small fit of Harry's full lips into this kiss was snug as a warm blanket. Not the fire of their embrace, or laughs of the start of this one, less than one, more than the other.

Harry upped the ante, gave the camera goodness to devour, capture like so much attention. An ascension of the kiss, to a new place, a moment like Jake Ryan over the flames. His large hand splayed over Yuki's jaw and his thumb caressed his cheekbone.

Ada could feel it.

So could the cast and crew. Everybody was silent. You could hear the lip smacks and yummy noises alone among the collectively held breath.

Ada let it continue, at least she thought it was intentional, run to the end.

The caress fell, and the lip lock ended, slowly. When Harry smiled and laid his forehead on his companion's and his dimple punctuated the scene,  Ada squealed "Cut!"

And applause went up.  That was the second ovation worthy kiss he'd given today. And it was so different from hers. This boy was so many things. He was insecure, she'd seen it. He was cocky, she'd felt it, and he was damn good, they all lauded it.  She might fall for each Harry by turns. She wanted to seize each in any case.

"Amazing! Excellent work!" She clapped along. "Now let's get coverage and other angles! We may need to pull epic shots on that one!" That could go on billboards, even in still, the moment would translate, move.

She caught Harry's eye and nodded, nearly choked when he winked, but recovered enough to bit her lip and shake her head. When he was on, he was on.

This could be so fun! The flirt under everybodies noses, the danger was intoxicating.

Until she realized Julie was watching. Her friend raised her eyebrows, flared her nostrils and nodded a little.

Ada furrowed her brow and hoped it came off as confusion.

They needed rules. They had a lot of movie to finish. She needed the respect of her crew. Ada needed to put her feelings elsewhere. It was hard though, because he deserved all the praise. The rest of the day he earned it again and again, kissed multiple times, lots of ways, and each time she had to keep her cool.

To varying effect, and ability.

By 7 o'clock they'd got the shots done and set up for tomorrow. Their timeline accelerating as Harry found his feet and took off running, like her god-daughter who skipped crawling all together, went from being carried about to running the show, literally.

There was a metaphor there.

Ada was still tired at day's end, despite how well everything had gone. She was emotionally worn out from over analyzing the kiss, physically worn out from suppressing her body's response to watching Harry kiss Yuki, stomping down the same response to their kiss, and mentally tired from coming up with reasons she should stop flirting with him, or hide flirting with him.

She had no idea what this was. And she'd been weird with Harry all afternoon. She knew it. His batting average stayed high through her change up pitches.

What did they do now? They'd flirted publicly, kissed on set, and then what?

She fucked her star like all those male directors?

Dammit, she thought it was just easy for co-stars to get involved.  All that time together and mimicry of feelings, someone was bound to fall in love. She guessed that was true of directors too.

But this wasn't love. Maybe something like it, a precursor of love. Seedling.

Did she water it?

In any case, she was tired and wanted another matcha. But if she had one now, she'd be up late, thinking, with nobody to talk to. Maybe she'd go back to the hotel and have a couple glasses of wine.

She smiled to herself. Maybe she would do both.....

Harry felt exhilarated, like he did after the Graham Norton performance, when he did it right! He'd acted good. Just like Jeff said. And he'd pleased Ada.

He thought he had. He certainly had early in the day.

She'd gotten a little cagey at the end of day, but he figures she was just gun shy, he'd have to coach her through this. Business and pleasure -- he was a mixologist at. He could show her the ropes.

If she was interested. Her kiss said yes, and he was getting better at reading her. So did her freaking out.

"Hmmmm, what's this?" He asked the air when he reached the steps of his trailer and an iced coffee was waiting. He hadn't asked for one, he wouldn't be sleeping if he drank it.

The cup said, 'Ada.' Huh?

His phone buzzed in his pocket.

"Thirsty?"

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♡TAG CHAIN♡

i was tagged by @harry-did-that  who constantly challenges me with the toughest questions and scenarios lol!!! Thanks honey!!💖💖💖💖 

im tagging @harryzayn​, @heliosfleur​, @haesthete​, @luvinari​, @anotherblackharrie​, and anyone else who wants to (i just finished this and im exhausted and can’t think of anyone else lol!!)

Rules: answer the questions given to you by the tagger, write questions of your own, and tag people!

🌸The questions I was given🌸

1. when and how did you become a fan? give me all the details and feelings hit me with that nostalgia! Tbh I was one of those snooty hoes who hated wmyb and was like “If they’re saying what makes you beautiful is that you don’t know your beautiful....... Then what happens when you finally think you’re beautiful??? They probably wouldn’t think your beautiful anymore” laskjdlkajslkdja!! But after faking like I hated the song, this girl in my science class came up to me and was like *Slams down some random teen mag with the boys on the cover* “Pick one!!”......... And I was like “Uhhhhh..... No thanks??” and she just kept getting on my nerves about picking one, she eventually said if i picked one that she’d leave. So I looked............. and I said *pointing to harry and zayn* “Either him or him” and she had the nerve to be like “No!!! You cant have him (Zayn) he’s mine!”........ me:

and since that moment of childish, superficial, decision-making........ I’ve been a dead hoe 4 harry.

2. whats ur fave 1d moment/memory? I’m blanking all of a sudden alksjdlakjslkdj!!! All I can think of rn is when harry almost died on 1d day tryna pull that cute ass stunt

Pretty much..... 1d day in general laksjdlkajls!!!

(Me too harry lol) Harry looked so divine??? So yeah lol!! 1d day for sure

3. if you were to fight harry how would you go about it

Sis........... I’ve been dreaming about this. In a perfect scenario, we’d be friends already so he knows that i’m fighting him with love from the deepest, darkest, coldest, crevices of my heart. So, it’d have to be a time when we’re just hanging out somewhere, preferably in someones (preferably mine) apartment/house. We’d be watching queer eye or something gay, and discussing what from this seasons gucci line we’re gonna buy. When all of a sudden i’ll go in for a random, friendly hug, and he’ll accept...............................................................To his DEMISE!!! CAUSE I would bite his ear (not off, just to clarify lol!! Just a nip lol!!) and go straight for his neck and choke him out alskdjlksjldjka!! He’d probably start panicking, but at this point i’d tell him how long i’ve been waiting to do this, and that i’m doing this out of love............ nothing but pure love. So when he blacks out and wakes up laid out on the couch, with me placing a cold ice pack on his head, he’ll probably ask me what tf happened....... So i’ll tell him the truth, and tell him that he fainted and started convulsing and that i had to call 911 (or whatever the emergency # is wherever we are) and they told me what to do over the phone; and that by the time they got there he had settled down and was fine, but i needed to apply a cold press to his head where he fell and make sure he has solid food on his stomach.😇😇😇

4. so like, if we had 1d (ot4/ot5 idc) locked in a room and given them truth serum slkdnlksdnf sorry for this au but, what 3 questions would you ask them (feel free to do more than 3 its been almost 8 years full of lies so)

I’ll give you one for each year of lies aksljdlakjslkd!!

1- What the fuck were Zayn and Harry laughing about on 1d day?

2- What is each of their honest opinions on the others??

3- Crystabel Riley....... Thats all I’ll say on that..... But I want the truth lol!!

4- Why tf Zayn had the nerve to say that he and Harry never talked???

5- The Infinity video????

6- If they hadn’t known Zayn was gonna leave, who would they truly want to leave the band????? Or! If they could sacrifice one of the others for Zayn to stay, who would they sacrifice??????

7- Did Liam really think that Japan would be hotter cause its “near Australia”??????? (a waste of a question, but a question i need to ask for myself lol!!)

8- And because i’m nosy and would never ever ask any other time or under other circumstances; Out of all of the people they’ve been rumored to have been dating/dated, how many have they actually dated? and which ones??*Mainly this is for harry, but i’ll ask the others cause...... you know.....

5. tell me some of your fave people on here (treat ppl with kindness spread love n all that look at me being a proper Harrie™)

I have a couple of faves lol! I love @harryzayn she’s amaaaazingggggggg even tho she tries me on a daily basis alskjdlkajsldkj!! Oh!! And her moodboards (x) are spectacular, she’s legit the reason why I started doing moodboards (barely lol!! I’m lazy y’all, but she's not lol!!)

@haesthete She always has amazing hontent and is very sweet and kindddddd lol!! And is always (in my opinion) on the right side of henny serious harry drama

@luvinari is an absolute angel who blesses my dash with harry and ariana and others i can think of rn lol!! 

@bluehydrangeia She fills my dash with my mother lana del rey, harry, and aesthetic!! That and I never fail to get more literature knowledge from her lol!

Theres a lot more, but when I’m put on the spot i blank out lol!! If we’ve EVER talked, or interacted you’re probably on this list too lol!!

6. signature scent/ favorite perfume(s)?

I don’t really have a signature perfume, but I like to mix cherry and vanilla body sprays lol!! That! Or warm vanilla honey/toasted hazelnut from b&bw  

7. please tell me a random fact or story about you, give me that Exclusive knowledge

Ummmmm....... My *tries to remember while sitting down* right side of my hip is double jointed lol!! That and i entered 2 different kinds of writing contest and won both of them lol!! Ya gurl is actually good at writing believe it or not alskjdlakjs!!! Bonus! I’ve actually gotten too deep in my feels a couple times and wrote fics for @harryzayn to read lmaooo!!!

8. money, body issues, and all that shit aside, what would your dream fashion aesthetic be?

..........Rianne you hate me lol!! I have about 50 aslkdjalskjdl!! So I’ll give you a top 5!

1- Rocker Chic

2- Simplistic Minimalist

3- 70s Kween

4- Eclectic Bitch

5- Rich Business Hoe

(Bonus!)6- Flashy young rich trophy wife having a night out

9. would you rather have: the cut bits of carpool karaoke like the mcdonalds drive through, audio’s of all the 70 songs harry wrote (yes including baby honey), the infinity music video, the 900 hours of unseen this is us footage, harry’s dunkirk audition tape, a recording of that alleged hour long zarry phonecall when zayn left, or a copy of nialls folder full of unseen selfies with his boys. you kno what im nice you can have two

You are so fucking rude rianne alskjdlkajsjdalj!! I’m gonna go with...... All 70 of harry’s hidden ass songs. And............. *has mini existential crisis cause i can’t choose between the zarry phone call or the this is us footage* I’m gonna choose the this is us footage cause that would be a lot more positive *whispers: but if you want to be a super nice, cool, amazing, totally unique, game changing, never replicated friend........ You’d let me take the zarry call too lol!! *

10. whats something you’re proud of?

*Thinks hard for about 20 minutes.....* Umm I think im proud of the fact that, any musical instrument i’ve learned (3-4) i’ve taught myself??

11. something you regret?

Being too nice to people who didn’t deserve that from me.

12. what bothers you? here’s a chance to… go off

People who have literally no musical talent, but feel the need to go on mile long rants about musicians/artist they don’t like and try to simplify any musical or artistic process like making (GOOD) music is simple and easy.

On the other hand, musicians with absolutely no musicianship at all, who get by based on looks or a really weirdly strong fan base despite....their....lack........of talent??? (Bonus trash points if they’re also just really shitty people in general)

People who feel the need to bring up negative shit in the middle of anything happy. Like??? We could all be having a party over harry painting his nails black, and they could be like “Why tf is his nail polish chipped already??? He was probably picking at it cause the devil jeff made him do it” Like????? Shut tf up cindy (Also this is a made up scenario lol!!)

...... Pms?? The thought of having to pay bills?? Taxes??? The government???? The patriarchy??????

💖💕✨🌻 so here’s my questions🌻✨💕💖

1. There are two types of people in this world. What are the two types?

2. If you had to lock away 3 of ot5 in an underground cave, who would you lock away??

3. If you could have a never-ending candle that smelled like anything you wanted, what fragrance would you want it to be?

4. An interesting au question i just though of lol! You’re chilling at home, when all of a sudden you get a call from Harry. You answer it only to find out that he has you on a party line with the other boys. They’re all panicking cause they’re having different emergencies and they all need your singular help, but they’re all in different locations 20 minutes away from you. They’re all convinced you’re their best friend and that you’ll help them first. You can only help 3 and the other two have to figure their problem out on their own, or face the consequences. Who do you help first, and so on? (and yes the bottom 3 will be mad at you. The person in 2nd place will be disappointed but they’ll eventually get over it.)

5. Whats your favorite *insert ur fave 1d member here* look?

6. What would be the scariest monster you could imagine?

8. If your life was a book, what would it be titled?

6. Quick! You just won the lottery, what are the first 3 things you buy?

9. Would you rather have: True love, but live in less than ideal conditions. Or Be rich, but be married to someone you despised?

10. Whats something you’re proud of?

11. Three personality traits you hate?

12. What are you afraid people see when they look at you?

[sambashua]

11 questions tag~ (again)

ayeeee i was tagged back by these binches and this is what i have to say i love you all these were all great questions i had a great time but we need a hard set squad name i vote either “get emma to love stray kids squad” or “god tier squad” idk man let’s do it and wonkwanhaojosh is too damn much and it messes w the wonankwan vibe that has a flow what is wonkwanhaojosh even okay any way

sister’s q’s @yongpal-i 

1. Make a 10-song playlist for your current mood. this playlist which is basically a condensed version of this playlist.

2. What vine do you quote the most? idk man you’d know better than me? maybe it’s an avacado thanks? OH FUCK IT’S I WANT TO SEE MY LITTLE BOY OR “hwhat?”

3. What do you value most in a friend? loyalty and humor!

4. If you could learn any kpop choreography instantly, what would you learn? umm legit so many you know me haaaaaaa but maybe dream in a dream by ten bc that is some lit shit... or coloring book by omg or love cherry motion by choerry bc i’ve been meaning to learn them for so long.. OH FRICK MY FIRST AND LAST THO?? i mean i kinda know all the moves but can i do them? no... idk i legit have a list of dances to learn on my phone there’s literally like 40 rip

5. If you go to your Tumblr activity page, who does it say is your “number one fan?” @s-lay-ing :D then @strawberryboo :D then @lipstick-chathao :D then @justsomekpopstuff :D so many blessed faves! but sorry i haven’t been on in 800 years?

6. What is your ideal clothing style? ummm comfy is my style but i wish i could be like.. chic comfy tbh

7. What is your favorite Snapchat filter? the one w the hearts bc i have a lot of love to give

8. What subject would you like to study, but wouldn’t necessarily want to make a career out of? (for example: I really want to learn about botany!) um all languages??? ever?? i mean they will help me w my career tho idk

9. Would you rather be constantly half an hour early to everything, or constantly 15 minutes late? i mean.. i’m always late but i wish i was that early person so yeah

10. Would you rather have a single day to spend with your top bias or a week to spend with your number 2 bias? um?? an attack?? so yes i would rather spend a day w wonu??? ofc?? but my dilemma is that if i think logically maybe i should go for jaehyun for a week? bc english?? like w wonu we wouldn’t be able to talk which would be so sad:(

11. If you could bring back any disbanded OR inactive group, who would you bring back? umMMMM WONDER GIRLS??? but on the other hand that brought us gashina sigh... maybe uniq just so you can pull yourself together tbh

jamie’s q’s @indiepoptime 

1) If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life what would it be and why? pretty u!!!!!!! bc!!!! it’s like one of my favorite songs ever? but also when you love someone that’s an ult fave for me as well.. idk man

2) If you were in a kpop group what would your group be called and what would your fandom name be? i have a vision w ideas from the minds of @strawberryboo and @yongpal-i and @lipstick-chathao okay so our groups would be BINCH and me and emma would have a subunit called SMAE... our fans would be BONCHES and specific mir stans would be mirbles thank you

3) If you could acquire mastery over ONE skill instantly, what would you pick and why? um i say languages every fucking time for these things so... i’ll say how to talk to people without looking like an idiot that’s be cool

4) First reaction if you spotted your favorite celebrity on the street? i’d probably try to act chill on the outside and then go home and cry akfdjhgfdk idk if i’d try to talk to them?? or just like?? admire them from a distance?? idk i might say hello and tell them i love them

5) First reaction if your favorite celebrity followed you on your favorite social media site? delete EVERYTHING but like also maybe i’d just like post a bunch of positive love things actually bc!! they’d actually see it!!

6) Snap your fingers and you get to steal your favorite outfit off of a kpop idol. What outfit do you pick, off of whom, and why? well everyone know i’m a hO for wonu’s let’s dance boom boom sweater i think?? wHY IS THE PICTURE SO BIG AHHAHAHAHAHAHA

also a big fan of all of chungha’s outfits from why don’t you know if i could pull them off!

7) If you were to get a painless tattoo that you could remove with the press of a button, what would you get and where would you get it? ohhh part of the reason i won’t get a tattoo is that i am very indecisive and have no idea what i’d get! but maybe something on my side or on my wrist if it was painless? bc wrists are very sensitive.. i’d get smth simple probably maybe flowers or a quote or lyrics? i’m not sure but probably colorless and minimal!

8) What is your most prized possession? maybe my computer? or my camera? i’m not a super materialistic person i don’t think but as long as i have friends and memories that’s what i care abt:D

9) What’s a YouTube/online challenge that you have always wanted to try? literally so many! before kpop i was really really REALLY into youtube ajdkghf i’d maybe try to who knows you better sister or best friend? i like all the bf ones as well but i don’t have one ahhhhhh maybe i’d do vlogmas ahahha

10) You get a guarantee that your favorite celebrity will see your social media post but you only get 100 characters. What do you say to them? i’d tell them i love them and support them no matter what they do! and that they should stay happy and healthy and their well being comes before anyone else’s.

11) You wake up in your dream room. What does it look like? LITERALLY BLACKPINK HOUSE LIKE DID YOU SEEEEE IT but i’d have big windows bc i like natural light! i’d want some nice pictures up and a rlly soft bedspread maybe w a cool headboard? idk something that looks clean and open!

emma’s q’s @strawberryboo 

1. if you had to chose one kpop stage outfit to wear for the rest of your life which would you choose? umm okay soo i’ll say jimin hopeless love just bc like damn how epic would i be all the time and also i think i’m tall enough to fill it out

i also think n.flying’s recent outfits are very fun!! and anything wonpil has worn onstage is prime

2. favorite music video aesthetic? any of loona’s mvs?? or gashina like everyone talks abt the dance but everything abt that mv is me sorry to break it to you

3. Group you are most excited for in 2018? for debut? stray kids or loona!! but also the unit and mixnine groups?? idk what’s gonna be the outcome but i’m hoping for like jbj level tier to come out at somepoint idk

4. Recommend me some underrated kpop songs/groups? um! i aways struggle reccing you songs jkdhs but i’ll rec you i’m jelly baby by aoa cream aoa isn’t necessarily underrated but the members in the subunit are! also dawon stars in the mv so i thought you’d enjoy! also deepened by brave girls i’m not sure if you’ve ever listened to rollin’ either tbh??? but that’s them doing a fun lil dp and being cute af!! um omg these are all gonna be gg tbh and i’m not even super sure what you’ve heard and haven’t heard???? so here’s a few: why don’t you say by playback (a jam) i think i love you by sonamoo (one of my fave songs ever rlly) fri. sat. sun. by dalshabet (they didn’t used to be underrated but there old mvs have nearly 5 times the amount that their new one does so?? a crime???) she’s mine by vav (tbh i love all their songs like so so much they have the best jams) 1 2 3 by b.i.g (two are on the unit my babies) woo by imfact (if you haven’t seen this video have you truly lived?) and rescue by younha (i just found this song and have listened to it a lot lately!!) k idk if most of these are considered underrated but it’s fine enjoy binch

5. If you could join any group other than your bias group who would you join and why? maybe monsta??? just bc??? they’re all best boys?? but also maybe the boyz bc so many 98 liners!! oh or gfriend bc 98 line squad and dance wow i’d have a good time idk i’ll join all the groups really

6. Favorite soloist? and some song recs? !!!! i think you know all my fave soloists tho?? i’m a big fan of hyuna, jay park and jimin/jamie park and you’ve also gotten me pretty into heize too ajkfdhdk but i’ve been really digging suran’s wine i think you’ve maybe not heard that one possibly? OH AND SAM KIM I FORGOT but i think we discussed that you listened to all his stuff too akjdfhfg my fave rn is mama don’t worry!

7. Childhood Story? (thanks Cloud) k well now i gotta think of another.. oh here’s a fun one: so when we were still potty training our grandma would give us an mnm when we used the bathroom by ourselves.. so one time i found an brown mnm on the floor of our kitchen and was like ayeee a snack and then i ate it and it was a bug and my grandma just stuck my head under the sink and tried to rinse my mouth out lemme tell you he wasn’t a tasty bug at all

8. Were you in any fandoms before you got into kpop, if so what were they? yeeeee as i said early in this tag i was super super into youtube right before kpop! it was mainly junior year i think? and senior? but um before that i was a bit into 5sos and before that i was superrr into one direction haha but tbh before kpop i wasn’t really involved in the fandom at all like i made my tumblr for kpop and i had a one direction insta (one_directionxoxoxox bitches) but i didn’t rlly talk to anyone lol and it was trash

9. Favorite Comeback/debut of 2017? uMMMM okay so comeback is gotta be my first and last not sorry abt it... and debut i’ll say pristin bc wow it was rlly a masterpiece

10. astrological sign? Myers Briggs type? Hogwarts House (I’m a Gemini, infp, and Gryffindor) cancer sun/leo rising/scorpio moon? idk what all the important ones are tbh; intj; ravenclaw/gryffindor ayeee

11. Random question but what are your favorite names? um i used to have a list of all my favorite names on my old ass ipod touch but i rlly like names they have hard i sounds like isla and lila and stuff? and boys names i like gregory and josef a lot and idk why bc they’re rly basic ajfhkd i also like more gender neutral names like grey and baguette

k i’m done and i won’t tag anyone bc i am lazy but if you wanna do it i wrote out questions here and you can answer those and say i tagged you:)

[moonprincess92]

For @doritochrisevans who requested the ever classic (and personal fave of mine) “both think the other is dead + reunion” trope

(follower milestone thing, send me rebelcaptain + an au/trope) 

It must have been quick. 

That’s what they’ll tell him, he figures. In the future, they’ll think it’s a comfort or something, but they’ll all be kriffing deluded and Cassian will punch whoever who says it, rank and consequences be damned. He throws himself up against the concrete wall, knuckles white around his blaster as he gasps for breath, waits for his team to follow (half the team). Karking hell, his ears are still ringing–

“Captain Andor!” One of his soldiers trips into the alley after him. Dust is still settling out in the street. People are still screaming. Terrified civilians run for cover that doesn’t exist as slowly, the remaining soldiers stagger on home into the alley. Cassian can feel something tearing at him, clawing at his chest, but he can’t focus on it, can’t register it until they reach their transport. This is still a mission, you are still a commanding officer, keep it the HELL together. 

“Lieutenant,” Cassian claps his hand onto the other man’s shoulder. “Injuries?”

“Just – just Byers and Mostly, Captain!” His lieutenant gestures vaguely somewhere behind him. “From what I saw – I don’t know, it was a goddamn mess out there – I would have stopped to help, but they were still bombing–”

“They knew the consequences when they first signed up for this rebellion,” Cassian can hear his voice growling, but it doesn’t sound like him at all (since when had he become that person again, retreated back to the man he had been before he met her, the man who followed protocol, who apparently left people behind…)

BOOM.

Their alley shakes as another bomb is dropped. They are going to all die out here (and join her, a voice hisses) unless they kriffing move.

“The plan still stands!” Cassian barks, hefting his blaster. “Alpha takes north route, beta east. Clearly things haven’t gone according to plan, so our main directive is to just get out of this place in one piece – UNDERSTOOD?”

“But – Sir –” his lieutenant is pale-faced. His hands shake as he hesitantly reaches out. “Sergeant Erso–?”

“–is probably dead, and you will be too if your ass doesn’t move!” Cassian practically snarls. He grabs the lieutenant’s arm and shoves him. “MOVE OUT!”

Sergeant Erso is probably dead

probably dead 

dead

DEAD

The words try to strangle him, but he can’t stop running, he can’t slow down even for a second. The intel that was stored in K-2SO’s hard drives was probably burnt to a crisp along with the droid somewhere as well anyway, so the entire mission was fucked enough as it was. All that matters is getting out as many of his team as possible. The attack continues to rage on the once peaceful city, Cassian counting steps to keep himself sane. They’re almost to the transport, currently hidden away in an abandoned warehouse, unless of course they bombed that too –

But no. It’s there and they pound up the loading ramp with an air of defeat. Despite the urgency and the adrenaline burning through him, Cassian finds himself lingering regardless. He’s tried her commlink too many times that he’s lost count, and it’s still nothing but static. His heart pounds and he wonders vaguely whether the weary organ is even going to survive this (it’s been through a lot, after all–)

“Captain?” his lieutenant calls from the loading ramp. “If we want to avoid Imperial persuit, we need to leave before they lock down all the airspace–”

“I know,” Cassian says through clenched teeth.

He hears his lieutenant approaching. He barely refrains from snapping at him to get back on the ship.

“Hey,” he says once he’s come to a stop by his side. “if anyone could have survived that, it’s her.”

Cassian takes a rattling breath, pressing his fingers hard into his eyes. It feels like he’s been free-falling the last half an hour and now finally, he’s hit the bottom.

Boom.

“Get back to the ship,” he tries not to choke.

But his lieutenant doesn’t move.

“I said–”

But his lieutenant suddenly slams his shoulder, forcing Cassian to look up. He sees the other man’s eyes wide and disbelieving, staring at something out beyond the warehouse in the street. “SIR–” he cries, and Cassian turns.

It’s hard to mistake the clanking Imperial droid as he runs. K-2 doesn’t exactly do subtle, but here it doesn’t matter since the attack appears to thankfully be focused more on the city centre. His feet slam into the dirt, there’s a blaster clutched in his hands, and a small human in his arms.

“KAY!” Cassian screams.

They sprint for the transport, K-2 hauling the apparently semi-conscious Jyn not far behind them. Cassian slams the button to begin the take-off procedures, and K-2 thunders up the ramp just as it’s closing. Blood is throbbing in his brain as Cassian tries to remember what he’s supposed to do.

“Kay, get us out of here!” he yells.

“Acknowledged – do you wish to be informed of Sergeant Erso’s vitals?”

“I’ll handle it–”

The droid seems perfectly content to dump Jyn unceremoniously into his arms.

Cassian literally doesn’t care who sees at this point. The entire team knows and even if they didn’t, it wouldn’t have stopped him from hastily staggering to the ground, a palm cupping her head and the rest of her body splayed out over his lap. Blood pours down her face and she seems barely with it, but she’s alive, she’s alive.

“Jyn,” his voice scratches. “Jyn, can you hear me?”

“Nnnnnhhhg,” she groans.

“Jyn, it’s me – I need you to stay awake,” he pinches her arms, anything to keep her connected to the conscious world. “I know it hurts, but I’ve got you – stay with me–”

“C-cass’n,” she slurs then, eyes half open. “Cass’n, ‘splosion.”

“I know,” he strokes her bloody hair back, puts pressure against the wound at her hairline until one of their men can get him the medkit. “God, I know, I thought you were dead–”

“N’dead?”

It comes out like a question and he nods, though he’s not sure she can actually focus her eyes on him yet. “No, you’re not. Kay was carrying you. He must have pulled you out after you got injured.”

“Ughhh,” One of Jyn’s arms waves vaguely. “shouldajus lefme ta die.”

“I love you,” Cassian counters fiercely. “don’t you ever scare me like that again.”

She blinks blearily up at him, that hand waving again. He catches it with his fingers like an animal that won’t ever let go.

“’kay,” she agrees.

The ship rumbles. They’re getting out of there.

[kellendriaaa]

Fate and choices

Chapter 1

Cast: Jack Kline; Rose Ceallaigh (Main OFC); Sam Winchester; Castiel; Dean Winchester; Gabriel; Lucifer; Tara Zendey (OFC); Clark Barker; Victoria Wellagan (OFC); Dolby Murray (OMC); Mitchell Inkle (OMC); Loris Lichens (OMC)

  Pairings: Jack Kline/Rose Ceallaigh; Castiel/ Dean Winchester; Gabriel/Sam Winchester; Lucifer/Sam Winchester; Clark Barker/Tara Zendey and others... 

  Summary: Rose Ceallaigh, a student and part time waitress found an innocent boy, not that innocent in front of her building. Knowing that he ran away from his family not to escape them but to protect, Rose try to help him discovering a world she did not know who was right in front of her eyes.

He know basically nothing about the world, so Jack will learn what is love, burn, passion, joy and being hurt. He will learn how to be human, how to feel every emotions.

While Dean, Sam and Castiel are still trying to find him and finding that girl who is immune to supernatural powers when dealing with their own preoccupation.

Okay I sucks at summary too. I'm sorry please give it a try 

Notes: I don't own Spn neither their amazing characters only mine so all the OFC and OMC. English is definitely not my first language (I'm french) so sorry for my many mistakes.

It's really slow, and basically nothing happens, I'm placing the characters and the context of their lives but I always put hints into my chapter. Sooo enjoy ! ^^

The music was ringing in the dinner. Heat of the moment by Asia was making her move her head while reading her document on the global warming; it is not that she did not like it. C’mon, she definitely love studying and learning about the environment and water and all of that but making a whole project about it seems heavy and way too much in her mind.

Except, that asshole naming Brennan, Mr. Brennan, do not even wait for her to come in the class to choose what she had to do.

Well, not exactly. Yes, global warming was the last subject but there was another one.

Fate and choices.

C’mon, how the hell were we supposed to do something with that. She was not really a fatalist (sometimes she was, after watching sappy movies. And knowing she will passed another valentine’s day watching other sappy movies) but apart from that she was believer and did not think everybody deserves hell.

  …

  Okay reading fanfiction on the net was enough for everybody to go straight to hell but at least she knew and was ready to run to hell with her fanfiction friends. However, all these peoples with a rough life do not necessarily deserves this. After her class discuss the subject of “Fate and choices” she was pretty sure, her classmates were demons or at least some dark creatures even if she do not believe in that.

  So is she really a believer? That is a good subject! Better than all of them actually.

  “Rose!” her boss shout, “less brooding and more working lil’ girl.”

“’m coming” she answer tying the knot of her apron correctly.

  She was working as a waitress in the diner when school was over or before. For now 2 years and she freaking like it, everything was cool and people were kind (not always but most of them!) so was her boss. Mitch Inkle, soon to be, 60 years (they were preparing a little something for the event) and four marriage in the counter, well four-failed marriage so four divorce. He was immune to marriage now.

  “Why don’t you shout Vic name when she’s obviously sleeping in some corner of the house huh?” she complained while dressing the table, “’m pretty sure she’s your fave here.”

“Yeah maybe, she gives me chocolate cake every day not like you and the rest of this damn house.” He shout the rest of the sentence so everybody hear him, then everybody laughed.

“We, on the contrary, care about your health old man so don’t complain,” says Loris, another waiter.

“Yo Loris,” start Vic finally out of her beauty sleep, “can we talk about all the cigs you smoking? We should have another big conversation about how your ass will burn with these things.”

“My ass will be cooked perfectly just waiting to be eat hon’,” he says laughing.

  This was her day, joking around before the opening. Her coworkers became her family.

  Today was a chill day, clients were calm and all, no problem happen.

Yet.

Nothing happen before these guys came into the diner. ‘They look freaking weird’ she said to herself. They were four, a guy with a trench coat (like who still wear that?) giving his soul with his eyes to the guy who look a squirrel. Actually, they were giving each other heart eyes but seems deep in Narnia. Then there was the giant one and goddamn it he was tall as hell. Probably Eiffel tower height.

How did he even walk correctly and the hair! Is he doing an ad for L’Oréal or what? Well, the giant one was in front of a young guy, looking like the trench coat guy. Seems lost, like a kid.

  Did they kidnap him?

  “Rose! I’m tired of screaming your name all the time,” Mitch, who was right next to her scream laughing, “go ask these guys what they want lil’ girl.”

“I’LL GO!” she screamed in his ears going to the weird team. “Hey guys! What can I get you?”

“What is the most delicious and greasy thing you have?” The squirrel asked. She laughed while the giant one just rolls his eyes.

“The Mr. and Mrs. Is the biggest and greasy thing I eat here and it makes regret it the day after. But hell it was all worth it.”

“Yep,” said Vic staying next to me, the smile on her face becoming bigger showing all her teeth and she got so many teeth. “Big, delicious and mouth orgasming. You’ll feel it all over your body, trust me I know.”

  Was she flirting with the squirrel? He is way too in love wi-

  “Well, I’ll take it then,” he says winking at her with a smirk.

  Not so in love I think. Or just too much in the closet. That done, she wrote down his command and went for the others while Vic went to tell Dolby, the cook, what she needed.

  “Soooo, what about the others?”

“Egg and bacon,” said the giant one, “with water.”

“Nothing for me.” The trench coat.

  The last one seems to search very deeply, what he wanted to choose. Rose feet were hurting her in these damn shoes. Too small for her feet but what can she say when it was calling for her, screaming her name for her to come and buy them.

But right now, she regretted it more than anything, how something so pure and beautiful could be so evil. The fact that the young one seems to be searching excessively long did not help at all, even if he was cute when he was concentrating.

  “Ooooookay, he’ll take egg and bacon,” the savor, who was the giant one, say.

  She nodded then go to Dolby while she saw Vic adjusting her clothes, opening the button of her shirt then going to serve the squirrel. Rose thought that she should probably tell her that he was not that type of guy but then she thought about how he reacted to her poor attempt of flirting then let it go. She sit at the bar checking her text.

  Tara

Hey booboo, your still in work or?

11.17AM

  She loved that woman but she hates her grammatical errors. She answered rapidly.

  Rosie

You’re* and yup still. What about you?

11.26AM

  Tara

Shut up, just finished some stuff, about to go to you. Need some burger with a lot of bacon asap

11.28AM

  Rosie

It’ll be waiting for you. Love ya xx

11.28AM

  Tara

Same here xx

11.29AM

  She put her phone into her apron and take the plates, sighing when she knew rush hour is about to come. She walk toward the team giving them their plates.

  “So 2 eggs and bacons for the two of you and hot sauce for the guy here,” she gives the hot sauce to the squirrel, “’m sorry she forgot it.”

  They nodded and started to eat. They really really freaking really seems weird and she was pretty sure she saw a blade in the giant one coat but maybe eyes were becoming tired. Anyways, she waited for Tara and not long after she saw the old red mustang parking and her best friend coming into the diner hugging her closely.

  “I don’t know how that old car is still rolling.”

“My baby is tough, she’s the strongest person I’ve ever see in my life,” Tara answered, her car was her life literally, she was taking care of that car more than herself sometimes. “You done? ‘m taking the food home.”

“Just wait until this table is done then ‘m all yours.”

  She was about to tell Mitch that she was done then something inside her twist. Maybe her instinct but she take Tara and throw her down, using her body as a shield against whatever that happen. Probably an explosion, her head was tripping, she hears gunshot, then a big light in the dinner but her head was too dizzy to focus, she tried to see if Tara was good but her face was full of blood, same for her arm then nothing.

TV was on, probably SpongeBob because she knew every episodes of this show. The smell were horrendous, it was a hospital. She was in a hospital. What the hell was she doing in a hospital, she tried to move but every part of her body hurt even part she didn’t knew exist were hurting her.

The first things she saw was white, too bright, too white and too clean. There was a face smiling at her, face she recognize as Tara. She try to smile back but her lips was drier than the Brennan bald ass so she tried to move but Tara stopped her.

  “Hey easy booboo, you take some good shot here.”

  Rose wet her lips, her mouth feels weird, disgusting just like hospital. Like death.

  “Stop being overdramatic about the hospital, it’s not death,” Tara say laughing slightly.

“Ho… How?”

“I know you, how do you feel?”

She adjusted herself in the bed.

  “Like a 2 trucks went over me then a train came and end the job.” She respond scanning the room, there was SpongeBob at the TV and men in front of her, men in suit. Black suit and sexy suit. Weren’t the guys from the dinner? Tara saw Rose confusion about the two men standing and watching her like a mouse in a laboratory.

  “Booboo, these guys are the FBI and they want to ask you some questions if you want.”

  She nods quietly. She knew something were weird with these guys but FBI, she did not except this.

  “Hi Rose I assume,” say the giant one, Rose nod, “I’m agent Smith and this is agent Wesson,” he continue pointing the squirrel. “We want to ask you some questions about the attack at the diner.”

  She nodded again.

  “What do you remember?” asked agent Wesson.

“Not much, I was about to tell my boss that I was going with Tara then… then… I don’t know I felt something coming so I pull Tara away, then nothing much after that.” Rose answered. “By the way, Tara your face was full of blood and… and… how?”

“How what?” She answered not sure.

“How did all the blah on your face is gone, it looks like nothing happened.”

  Tara looked at the agents then at Rose.

  “You protected me, which is by the way the last time you do such a stupid thing, you were the one who was damaged booboo.”

  Rose was sure and certain that Tara’s face was disfigure but she did not remembered a lot so she let that go. Maybe it was just her mind playing tricks. Still, she was curious about what could have happened.

  “Do you know what happened?” Rose asked.

“An attack, we’re working on these missing people, did you hear about it Rose?” Asked agent Smith.

“Yeah, they’re talking about it at school apparently these guys were going in and out the old house, at the end of the street. A haunted house or something.”

  They seems interested, the three looked at each other then at Rose.

  “Which one?” Asked Wesson.

“Pink with an angel on the porch, you cannot miss it, it’s the only old house around.”

“Thank you, we’ll let you rest now,” said agent Smith.

  She didn’t hear about them after that. C’mon agent Smith and Wesson, were they that obvious? Why not agent Beyoncé and Jay-z?

Months after that, life was still the same nothing more or nothing less. Tara was in one of her many traveling, so Rose was mostly alone at home but she likes it. She loved chilling on her big comfy couch while watching TV, with some shows or Marvel movies. She loooooooved Marvel since the day Tara bought her, her first comic book as a birthday gift, it was almost 5 years ago. She was 18 years old and it was her first gift. She still have it, cherished it since this day. Since her 17 she lived alone, ran away from abusive parents and found that beautiful woman who helped her and raise her up when everything was down. She owed Tara her actual life even if she was working in a little diner, struggling with school, she has never been happier than right now.

  Today was Mitch’s birthday surprise. The regular customer knew about it, so they were acting differently on purpose. The old lady, Mrs. Marks, was upset about everything, complaining all the time so Mitch would take care of her, living the employees to plan the surprise. Dolby did an amazing cake who was in the fridge, Vic took care of ours and Mitch’s clothes, Loris make sure that Mitch was away during the preparation.

  “Goddamn! Where is Rose? Or Vic?”

“Calm down Mitchie, Loris is in the place why don’t you go and see what Mrs. Marks needs huh?”

  He shook his head, refusing to go again and hear about how stupid those teenagers, being taller and provocative than ever are.

  “No, hell to the no, I love her but not today,” he begin then whispering the last part, “I just want slit her throat and burn her at the moment, go with her and I’ll see the new one.”

  Loris laugh, it was amusing to see how the charming and loveable Mitch could be when things get out of his control. Loris went to Mrs. Marks thanking her then went to see how things were going in the kitchen with the girls and Dolby.

  “Yo! Is everything ready ‘cause Mitchie is about to freak out and kill everybody.”

“Yup, almost done,” said Rose, “go and change ‘m gonna shut down the power.”

  They all nodded, so she did it and called for Mitch to see what was happening, he was almost relieved to get away from the constant stress and check everything making sure it was alright but he and Rose came back, there was no light in the dinner just a little bit the cake’s candle then everybody screamed.

  “HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITCHELL!!”

  Rose has barely seen Mitch crying and it was one these moments she will forever keep.

The party was good, they were so many gift it took him 1 hour to open them all, from the customers, the employees, his kids and even ex-wives, same for his family. Mitch is someone you cannot not love. He was like that and Rose like it this way.

After the cleaning, Loris dropped her at the nearest bus station so she could take a bus go straight home. It was late and very dark and that part of the city was not full of light. So she took her phone from her backpack and use the lamp torch to see through her way home.

Everything was fine when she saw a body sitting on the ground, her first reflex is to run to him and see what is happening because he seemed hurt. The truth, he was full of blood and there was a cut on his lips. She tried to wake the guy up but he was totally down.

So she shake him a little bit, trying to have a reaction from him, he open his eyes, looking at Rose. She try to make him stand up but it was hard since he was about to collapse.

  “Damn!” She curse and put him on his feet nevertheless. “Yeah, that’s it hold onto me big guy. ‘m taking you to my house. Do you understand?”

  He nod so at least he was still conscious. She hold him through the way his arms around her shoulders while she was holding him from behind, going upstairs slowly until they make it to her door so she try her best and open it taking him directly to her room so he can sleep on the bed. She close the door and lock it twice to be sure. Then run to her bathroom taking all the medical care she got. She put some alcohol on a compress, cleaning his head and his lips.

The guy was beautiful, soft pink lips, beautiful features. Looking like an angel.

But she didn’t stop, she keep searching for other marks or cut but his clothes full of blood did not help at all so she try to find something that could fit him. And there was her ex-boyfriend’s clothes who can fit him so trying her best to not look, Rose undressed him, cleaning the bruises every time she finds some, and put the fresh cleaned clothes on him.

After putting the bloody clothes in the washing machine, she put the covers on him and turn on the heater so that he will not be cold then clothes the door letting him sleep.

  She start questioning herself. First of all, what the actual fuck? What will happen if the boy was a killer or something like that? However, a killer would not be in that state huh? He would’ve been the one putting someone in that way so no, well she hope no.

Trying to keep her mind out of this, she started working on her school project. Doing research and writing down everything that seemed important in no order, after she will put all the ideas and information in order.

When she looked at the watch, it says 02:54 AM.

  She scratched her eyes not being sure of what she was watching.

  And indeed it was not 02:54 AM but 06:24 AM, it was worse so she stopped everything and let her body fall on the couch and sleep.

Chapter 2 ; Chapter 3 ; Chapter 4

[cottagecrowe]

Bird mom (Psst) Hey bird mom do you have any OCs so I can ask you the drawing request thingy if you want

THIS IS THE SWEETEST THING ANYONE’S EVER ASKED ME????*CRI* I DO, DO~

I’ll put ‘em under the cut so this isn’t super long for random people that don’t care lmao

So I don’t draw them often, sadly. I really should. :’ ) But some of them keep changing in appearance, so there’s no drawings to post here. :0

Tyr: Long black/white hair and bright green eyesDemon possessed immortalEmo little asshole (honestly if you’ve ever seen the musical Dr. Horrible, he’s a lot like that, so that’s just me being Hilarious tm, lol) Used to be a (TYRanical (haha)) king, at one point, on a large island that doesn’t exist anymore. Left it before it went “Lol Bye”, and became king of France for a while.Had a meaningful fling with a demon OC named Des by my friend @r-e-g-a-l-i-a , marries another OC of mine, Freya, till she’s murdered when his throne at France gets over taken, and eventually finds Des again in modern day, and marries her~. Does not forever stay demon possessed, but does forever stay immortal.Unironically sings The Music of the Night, and relates to the Phantom. (Freya’s his Christine.) Would probably be one of those music obsessed emo’s that had the lyrics to Black Parade on his profile.CAN N O T hold a single drop of alcohol. 

Freya: Literally Rapunzel. No, seriously, I desperately need to develop her more lol. Long-ass blond hair, and deep blue eyes. Hair got so long, people made the story of Rapunzel after her. Poor musician that got Tyr to straighten tf out and get rid of his demon. Honestly has a Sophie-and-Howl relationship with Tyr now that I think about it??Super sweet. Wouldn’t hurt a fly. Got Super Dead by a French Asshole that screwed her and Tyr over when they were King and Queen. Came out to have a good time but honestly feels so attacked.Has to hide the wine from Tyr. Save her.

Vincent(??): I can’t remember what I picked to be his name, legit lmao.Freya’s big brother who died bc he’s a fuckin idiot. (He drank to much lol.) Was also Tyr’s friend. Became a ghost and started haunting Tyr bc he’s an asshole. (Jk he’s really funny, probably.) SUPER ANNOYING, but you love him anyway. Fuckin nerd with long-ass curly hair. Dresses fancier than he can actually afford.

Pandora/Pan/Pancake: Not 100% mine, but I helped @goosemooseproductions develop her, and I also play her, so I get half the credit~LISTEN I LOVE HER SHE IS MY BABE??? She’s like a slightly more chill, not-quite-as-badass, Lord Dominator meets Megara meets Esmerelda. Sassy af.Fight her. (She’s, like, 4″9′ but she’ll kick your ass, she’ll kick anybody’s ass, she’ll kick her own ass.)SUPER poofy, gorgeously curly, kinda mess, black-brown hair. Green eyes~ An “ill-fitting” shirt.Has to cut it short and adorable bc some asshole pulled on it when she stole his wallet probably.A homeless thief in the medieval time period of mentioned friend’s Robby Kiddo story series. Has a thing for knights, but will never admit it. Has the worst backstory ever, and the sweetest little happy ending with one of my mentioned friend’s characters. I ship them so much. OTP all the way I personally hc her as Pan. Bc puns. And bc I can see her flirting up girls.Literally Satine from Moulin Rouge.El Tango de Roxanne is her Spirit Animal.

Adam: ALL THE FALL AESTHETIC STUFFED INSIDE AN ADORABLE LITTLE BOY!!Demi-boy and gay af.bright red hair that goes to his shoulders.Loves Harry Potter and cosplaying Ginny. FRECKLES!!!!Pale ghosty-ghost. Can wear your make up and ball gown better than you. Won Prom Queen.Also won the heart of a demon.Got caught up as the target of a serial killer, oops.Demon boy fell hard and fast and decided to protect him bc he’s Super Gay tm Takes his guitar and truck and drives out to fields in the summer just to make smores over a fire, and sing camp songs with campers, and take road trips across the country.Literally a living aesthetic you can cuddle.

Evean: Emo goth demon that dresses well.Likes to ice skate.Otabek and Yurio’s fusion/love child.Tyr’s Even More Emo younger brother (not really, but in an emo way)Underdeveloped af, he’s just super extra, and super emo, and super gay tbhScary Demon tm, but a cuddly Teddy Bear around Adam Official design keeps fCUKN CHANG IN G *SCR EM* 

Will: Also unerdevleopedLooks like Ignis Scentia but with lighter blond hair and sky-blue eyes.Also a demon are you seeing a pattern yet?Youngest demon and gets teased about it all the time. (He was spawned in 2007. He’s 10 fckn years old. Baby.) Probably loves The Devil is A Par-timer and The Devil Wears Prada. Adopts and raises a little girl named Emily bc Satan was all “yo prove you’re a Real Demon tm by bonding with a human and killing them and bringing me their soul ; )”, and Will was all “um, do you think you could have me do something to her other than that?”, and Satan was all, “how ‘bout you do anyway~?” “Or I’ll kill YOU~ >; )” Died instead bc he’s a GOOD DADExcept he didn’t bc he got promoted to angel o shit :0Also fell in love with the most irritating angel on the planet.

Tranq: The most irritating angel on the planet. God regrets making her. Why did He make her. Mistake.Literally @r-e-g-a-l-i-a ‘s sona bc she’s super gay for Will, lmao. Sorta Lapis hair style except not really. Also it’s pink and glittery, but not hot pink bc ew. Has 3 pairs of small-ass wings but they’re super cute~ Her name’s Tranq bc she’s the Angel of Tranquility and is supposed to bring tranquility to people that need it, but she’s too busy napping and NOT CARING to do her job.I know I have more on her but I caNT REMEMBER I’M???

Emily: Underdeveloped afEither gonna be a ballerina, or a journalist for some big paper. Or both.also freckles!!Pink and blue butterflies are her aesthetic~She just a child, someone help her, she has no idea her 10yr old dad is a demon she’d probably jump ship.Loves Tranq, Tranq is officially her mom, she’s not waiting for Will to marry her ; )

Unnamed/not fully developed OCs:A girl that runs away from an abusive home to her super sweet/problamatic fave uncle and forms a poly with a cute guy and an angel girl trying to help her find said cute guy so she can earn her wings.

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May 6th-May 12th, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from May 6th, 2019 to May 12th, 2019.  The chat focused on Chirault by Ally Rom Colthoff (Varethane).

Featured Comment:

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RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!

Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Chirault by Ally Rom Colthoff (Varethane)~! (http://chirault.sevensmith.net/)

You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PDT), so keep checking back for more! You have until May 12th to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!

QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?

QUESTION 2. What moment of discrimination featured in the story really caught your eye in its portrayal? How do you feel about the Mage Guild’s reason about disallowing Kyrion like Teeko and Trillia from using magic in the face of these themes of discrimination?

Kabocha

Aaaah, it's been a bit since I read Chirault, but... Basically any scene where Teeko's being awesome... Bonus points if she's using magic, like on this page! http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=642 As far as discrimination... Hm. I think the fact that Ridriel was willing to go through so much to become a mage was pretty striking. While the mage's guild really doesn't like Kyrion using magic... Hmmm. That attitude doesn't seem to be a completely firm rule, especially as they learn more...~ http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=1095 I need to re-read my copies of the books when I get back home, though.

Delphina

Yeah, I'm re-reading mine now too!

I had forgotten about the page where Astrid steals the car but I love it: http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=780

Kabocha

Ahaha, Astrid's honestly one of my favorites in the mage guild. "I see no problems here!"

Delphina

Astrid is so great. Just like "yeah, I'm just gonna do what I want kthxbai"

RebelVampire

i mean tbf hes not wrong

about the car one at least

Kabocha

I'm also partial to Ridriel -- she worked so hard to fit in and become a mage.

Delphina

I'd say the most blatant scene of demon discrimination was early on where Jim used the spice that made Teeko go rabid so he could justify killing Kiran (http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=142) and then later when Kiran deduces he killed her parents this way. (http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=152) Everything else stays on the "I'm sorry, we can't actually welcome you into this part of society" brand of discrimination, but it showed that some people were definitely willing to get violent over demons and humans mixing in society.

RebelVampire

ridriel is such an interesting character because of that. i think largely because she doesnt seem to regret it all that much and accepts the sacrifices she had to make to achieve her dreams. and that just goes so against the grain of what youd expect to see

Delphina

Another classic Astrid page: http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=813

varethane

I enjoy every Astrid-troll scene XD (there's a picture floating around out there of Astrid and Kiran facing down, with the troll-face shopped over Astrid's)

also: hi!!!

Kabocha

Hiii! I almost wonder if there's a list of all the time Astrid trolled people in the comic-- But I feel like, not counting the mini comic (and the last couple chapters), that'd be nearly every page Astrid shows up in.

RebelVampire

no no

theres those pages at the end where astrid is passed out for a bit(edited)

you cant be a troll when youre passed out probably

its very sad

varethane

I'm sure if there were a way, he would find it

duskglass

(1) i can't choose a single favourite scene but the part where teeko falls through bethan is really cool visually, and i love the eventual sibling bond between kiran & teeko (and also every scene with kiran & vivian)

duskglass

(2) a lot of the early scenes with kiran also come to mind, how he's clearly resigned to not being trusted by average villagers, and constantly has to verify his identity & prove he's not a threat. and the contrast between ridriel and trillia shows how limited their options were as kyrion who wanted to also be mages (ridriel giving up her kyrion nature vs trillia going rogue)

Desnik

ohh already digging the cool character design, I'm only one page in too

varethane

Woo!

duskglass

(also i found that trollface pic!!)

RebelVampire

QUESTION 3. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?

QUESTION 4. What moment of magic use in the story did you like the most? What about how it was used or illustrated did you like specifically?

€heshire777

Astrid, for being Astrid

Delphina

I do love Astrid, but all said and done, I think Bethan edges him out a little in the end. I love the fact that she was just a guard in a backwoods town, compared to almost every other big super-magical character who was trained by the Hunters or Mages Guild, but she's still like "well I can hold a spear now 60% of the time so heck yeah I wanna mess stuff up with y'all!"

Teeko's got a bit of that too and of course she's ADORABLE, but since her perspective is more childlike, she literally doesn't have context to know what she's walking into when she's like "YEAH LEMME SET IT ON FIRE" and it's more about not wanting to leave her found family than going toe to toe with corrupt mages.

varethane

fun story, both Bethan and Astrid are Ascended Extras (I'm pretty sure that's the name of the trope)

I needed faces to fill a space in the plot, and then decided I liked them too much to just leave them behind-- and, oh, look at that, coincidentally there's a new-character-shaped hole in the upcoming plot....

RebelVampire

gotta love those convenient and totally coincidental character shaped holes

RebelVampire

1) my fave scene is the one towards the end where Ridriel and Trillia are fighting John has to come and break their asses up. http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=1230 i always remember just feeling such utter tension from this scene because of their relationship. like the stake of the world is at hand and yet a sibling rivalry is what stands between the world being fine and the world exploding into a thousands bits. and i frankly wasnt sure if trillia could convince ridriel that nah she was there to help. and i love that even after they agree to work together, ridriel and trillia are still basically like "i hate you" to each other. and then john is there to be stuck in the middle like the poor sap. 2) i have to go back to what i already mentioned with ridriel. she is a fascinating character because she didnt let discrimination stand in the way of her dreams. and while you could argue the path she takes is horrible, the nuance to her feelings regarding it really gets the mind thinking about the nature of sacrifice and what elements of ourselves we choose to define ourselves by. As for the Mage Guild's reasons, I mean...I get where they're coming from. But I think Rune sums it up correctly at the end when he says "my dudes its magic magic in general is dangerous"

3) Heryan. Heryan is the character I wish I could be because she is calm, collected, and knows how to play political games like a master. And she's also legitimately working towards a better future and kind of putting her money where he mouth is. She is also a badass mage. And these are all things i can get behind and I would read an entire spinoff about Heryan. A close second is Astrid our resident troll mage because he's just a nice dude and I like his broship with Kiran. He adds an element of silly yet mage skill that the main party needed in their life. Plus, I just really love Astrid's design. 4) I really liked that moment when Teeko was going to cast the fire spell but then had her mouth covered to stop her. Cause it really showed that in her childishness she doesn't always think her magic through and, like a child, will ignore the wise sentiments of her elders. And I just think overall it's use, or non-use in this case, really hammered in just how much of a child Teeko still is because her comprehension for the situations around her are not necessarily the highest.

Delphina

Yessss I would also read an entire spinoff about Heryan, she's so excellent

Delphina

And yeah, Bethan does have the feel of an Ascended Extra, and I think what appeals to me about that kind of protagonist in a high-stakes story is they have much more freedom and agency. Kiran had Specific Things He Had To Do, Teeko had nowhere else to go, so they have to advance the plot by default. But when characters aren't so directly involved and get to CHOOSE to advance the plot, they get to have personal reasons for doing so and can embody all those cool "what if"s that are closed off to the core cast.

In a situation where you have an easy out, why do you choose to do the hard thing? That kind of character is so interesting to me!

varethane

That's a neat way to look at it! I enjoyed writing Bethan a lot, though if there were one thing I could change, it'd be to explore her anger a bit more in the lategame parts of the story (because boy has she got some haha)

(also, Heryan has always been my favourite character to draw XD THAT HAIR)

Delphina

Having just finished rereading my print volumes, I think my favorite magic is when Rupa helps Teeko cast the silence spell on Trillia and Ridriel to get them to stop fighting. http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=1358

varethane

the first truly useful spell.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 5. What has been your favorite illustration in the comic so far? What specifically about it do you like?

QUESTION 6. What was a moment where a character was confused about themselves or life situation that you enjoyed? What about it was relatable, and what are your thoughts on how the character overcame that obstacle?

RebelVampire

5) http://chirault.sevensmith.net/?comic_id=1118 probably this page cause thats not only some beautiful magic, but i love the shot choices. i also love how jagged the magic kind of is and the amount of ill call them tendrils. cause it really makes the process look horribly painful and its an illustration that really made me go "oh shit" cause rather than kiran's shoes, i could put myself in teeko's shoes and understand exactly the horrifying crap shes seeing right now. 6) This one I have to give to Kiran for the whole Viraigo debacle. I actually am not sure I'd call it relatable, because ppl dont generally find out the truth as Kiran did. Yet, its the fact that its not that relatable that I enjoy. Because that just makes it horrible and it also puts you in Kiran's shoes. Cause like Kiran, you're asking who is he, how responsible is he for this mess, etc. And so even if you can't imagine it happening ot you, it's still a complicated and really thought provoking situation to be in. As for how he overcame the obstacle, I really loved the subtlety and kind of nonchalant way he handled it, for lack of a better word. Like theres no definitive him declaring "yeah I'm not Viraigo or this other person I am Kiran." It's just him kind of wordlessly accepting who he is/choosing who he is. Cause it kind of also gives the impression hes still gonna have things to work out over the years to come. But that's very true to life cause rarely do people just snap their fingers and come to a full grasp of who they are.

varethane

Re: Kiran/Viraigo, I'm really glad that impression came through! I wanted to avoid giving a definitive answer to the question of WHO he truly is, because.... identity doesn't really work that way, in real life you don't get an easy one-and-done answer. So I didn't want to wrap up that particular issue with a neat little bow-- the important thing isn't the answer itself, but his acceptance of himself.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 7. Which characters do you enjoy seeing interact the most? What about their dynamic interests you?

QUESTION 8. Who do you feel went too far and why: the Mage Guild for creating their destructive items or Viraigo’s group for trying to restore the natural order? What do you think the story says about the balance between progression and the natural order?

Delphina

I really can't put much blame on anyone except the Mage Guild here (and Jenneth in particular for murderfying people and setting fire to the library when he couldn't get his way). It really seems like if Viraigo's group got what they asked for from the beginning, they would have been happy to just release the big ol' katamari of spirits and end the spell on Arya that was keeping her a creepy crumbly living corpse. Now releasing the spirits didn't WORK and that was pretty ugly, but they realized it right away and wanted to fix it.

Tree Lady/Ria was unnecessarily extra, though.

varethane

spirit katamari!!!!

RebelVampire

“murderfying”

i approve of this word usage

RebelVampire

7) too many. too many Ridriel and Trillia because they have i think the most interesting and contentious relationship in the comic. That you want them to overcome their past issues and get along cause both have good points on where theyre coming from. Heryan and Rune because theyre like a dynamic duo to me and really compliment each others personalities nicely. Rupa and Teeko cause Rupa is the nice older brother type who just wants everybody to be happy and is willing to show Teeko how to make ppl stfu. Astrid and Kiran cause its troll vs. grump man which makes for hilarious shenanigans and interesting dynamics since they have to work together but also approach life very differently. Yet, they can come together when it matters. Bethan and Vivian cause I like how Vivian is like "Bethan probably should wear a mask" and Bethan is like "meh" and its like this weird pseudo mom daughter relationship that i can get behind and find truly endearing.

8) Uh, the answer imo is both. They both went too far. This story is literally a series of ppl saying, "What's the worst that could happen?" and then through their lack for foresight the worst was really end the world bad shit. In regards to progression and natural order, I think the story has a lot to say just in general that extremisim is bad. You go too far in anyone direction and you wind up hurting something that's going to be missed. Thus why neither side really won, because they both tried too hard for the thing they wanted. Additionally, i think the story says a lot about how our ideas of what's best for the world may actually not be the best. Thus why we need rules, regulations, codes of ethics, and so forth. Because there's a point we just go too far and blow up the world.

varethane

(Vivian will be everyone's mom if they let her.)

re: 8, it's funny because I didn't set out to make that a major theme of the story, but it is something I definitely believe in-- the importance of checks and balances. So I find it really cool that it comes through!

RebelVampire

QUESTION 9. What sorts of art or story details have you noticed in the way the comic is crafted that you think deserves attention?

QUESTION 10. Do you feel the others were right to forgive Kiran for Viraigo’s actions? Do you think Ridriel and Trillia will forgive each other? Will Trillia forgive the Mage Guild? Overall, what insight can you gleam about the theme of forgiveness from the comic?

RebelVampire

9) All them landscape shots. Have you seen them? They are amazing and like...nature looks like nature. And nature stuff is hard to do and yet i always felt very immersed within each space. Plus, there were so many just like...far back shots where you get to take in the scenery, and i feel like so many moments do these really just set a tone and the atmosphere for stuff thats about to go down. 10) Yes I think the others were fine to forgive Kiran. Cause at the end of the day what's the point of punishing something they don't even remember doing? Especially when said person did their best to help and make the world a better place. Plus Kiran feels more like...not Viraigo anyway. Like imo Viraigo is dead and all thats left are aspects of himself. And these aspects, while part of Viraigo, just arent him. I think Ridriel and Trillia will forgive each other, but i think itd be a while before Trillia would forgive the mage guild. And even if Trillia did I'm not sure she'd ever consider joining just given the long history of animosity. In general, the insight I gleam is that forgiveness is difficult and that even if you forgive, this doesn't always fix everything.

Delphina

Yeah, I think sometimes grudging acceptance and moving on with your life with what you got is about all they can do. I really want to see how Teeko's presence affects Trillia and Ridriel moving forward, because I think them having her future to focus on gives them the chance that they never had to affect demons' place in the world. I'm just envisioning both taking on Mentor Aunt roles and trying to show Teeko cooler spells than the other in escalating hilarity.

varethane

Those would be some fun little shorts! If I get some time maybe I'll look into putting something like that together

Mentor aunts hehe

RebelVampire

QUESTION 11. What do you think are this particular comic’s strengths? What do you think makes this comic unique? Please elaborate.

QUESTION 12. Which character’s growth/progression in the story is your favorite? How would you describe how they changed as a person, and what do you like about how they changed? What do you think we can learn from it for our own lives?

Delphina

I like how Bethan grew from a cool quiet fighter in a village to a cool slightly louder fighter who can fly and dissolve through walls. I too would like to be able to fly and dissolve through walls.

AshAngelV

Responding to 11, It's one of the few stories I've read that has a male and female mc that don't end up in a romantic relationship. I love their brother sister bond.

varethane

I three wish I could fly and dissolve through walls

And yeah, friendship stories that arent romancea are very important to me

duskglass

teeko is a child so one would really hope not xD;;;

tho the same could be said about all of the main cast! (we also have rune & heryan, kiran or astrid & bethan, etc) i really appreciated the lack of forced romance sideplots in chirault; it's really refreshing to see stories that focus on platonic relationships

RebelVampire

QUESTION 13. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?

QUESTION 14. Overall, how hopeful are you for the world at the end? Do you believe the changes regarding non-humans using magic will affect the world positively? Will relations with the tree spirits be mended? How do you believe the characters’ lives wound up being?

Delphina

On a macro-societal level, I think the world's gonna be okay. With Heryan at the helm, I think the Mages' Council is definitely going to be trying harder to be more inclusive and less awful toward non-humans and the planet; she definitely seems to have hit it off with the tree spirits diplomatically so I see a lot of potential for progress there. The issues I see in the non-humans' future is that they didn't seem to have much societal organization or structure that we saw (though it was established that Kyrion lived and worked in the cities, so maybe some ambitious leaders would rise to the surface that way and advocate for more rights).

I'm really curious what Rupa would want to do now, because he wasn't a demon, right? The problem they had with him was that he was a multi-caster and could tap The Big Magic that others couldn't. How many other multi-casters existed, and how would their role change in society if Rupa decided to advocate for them? Maybe the tree spirits could teach them how to use magic more responsibly?

RebelVampire

11) i think the comic's strengths are its endearing characters who have just a lot of gray to them. nobody is just evil or good. ppl had their reasons for doing everything in the comic, and that makes for more dynamic and realistic portrayals. i think another strength is the character designs themselves as well. its just so easy to tell everyone apart, and a lot of everyone's personalities is within their design. 12) I have to go with Bethan on this one. She went from silly small town girl to victim to bitter and angry about her friend to forgiving to wanting to do more for the world. It was an emotionally rollercoaster watching her goes through all these things. Plus, its an interesting mix of choice and no choice. Cause while Bethan did make a lot of choices in regard to her path, the whole becoming incorporeal was more accident. She just learned to make the most of it. And I think that is something we can learn from it. That sometimes life says "I hate you," and is really mean. And sometimes the only way to get through it is to roll with the punches.

13) I still vote for Heryan side story. Or another epilogue montage just showing how everyone is getting along. Especially Astrid cause I support the Astrid, Heryan, Rune family unit. 14) I think the world will be fine for at least a time. Heryan seems to be reasonable and regretful of all the mages' past actions. And I think shell usher in a new era of peace with the tree spirits. that being said, everything is finite so it wont last forever. Especially if Heryan cant find a suitable replacement to her. But overally, all the changes will probably be positive, even if the amount of progress achieved in a single lifetime isnt as great as everyone would want. I'm just gonna pretend all the characters lived happily ever after for my sanity. Teeko probably became a great mage. Although I am kind of on the same page with Delphina where I'm really curious what became of Rupa. Rupa was always an interesting chara to me since he was always kind of mellow and was way less intense than Trillia. So Rupa especially should live happily ever after

varethane

The note about Kyrion society is something that I do wish I'd gone into more depth about in the story! I had a lot of ideas about it but could only show it in tiny peeks and hints because the plot was taking place outside of the cities

I hope the ending leaves people on a positive note, I wanted to show that people are working towards a better future (even if theres a lot of work to be done)

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!

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[i-stan-queens]

My two cents' worth on one of Netflix's greatest series

Black Mirror’s Episode 1 of Season 3, “Nosedive”, has become a personal fave of mine that forces viewers to prioritize one of the following: self authenticity or popularity? It’s a witty and powerful social commentary about a futuristic world where a person’s value is based on ratings given by others— similar to how you may rate a movie or review but on a societal level. Painting a hauntingly accurate picture of the damage that technology (and social media specifically) can have on one’s self-esteem and social worth, it is quite relevant for most of us in general who have had anxieties over their instagram pic likes, twitter/tumblr followings, etc. My only regret is WHY I DIDN’T DISCOVER THIS AMAZING SERIES SOONER OMG.

When u think about it, it’s petrifying how close our world could resemble that future in the next 10 or 20 years! Basically the ratings system in the show originated from a widely-used social app. When rated by external parties, they can range from 5 stars max to 1 star min. They then add up to a total score that when above a certain quota, can entitle one to exclusive privileges (lower house rent, priority to hospital facilities and treatment, etc). Fucked up, I know. As a result, the entire population appears to be fixated on this rat race of numbers to become as elitist as possible.

So how do they try to max their total ratings?

Quotidian methods used even in today’s society, they create a seemingly amiable but utterly fake persona in hopes to be well-liked by others. Also, they painstakingly curate what they post on social media to appear on the surface as the best as they can be. Sounds familiar? The scene when main character Lacie pretends to eat a cookie partially just to post a more aesthetically pleasant pic of a half-bitten cookie arranged nicely next to her “delicious” coffee online hits painfully close to home. She even spit out the chewed parts and the coffee sure as fuck didn’t taste as nice as what she had claimed!

But admit it — don’t u think this behaviour uncannily reminds us of friends or even ourselves who would go to extreme lengths to take eye-catching selfies and food pics for instagram? I myself once heard of a distant friend who even stood on a chair in a public restaurant just to get a nice aerial shot of her meal to gain more likes. This is the kind of toxicity that social media engenders when we mistakenly believe that only numbers validate our personal worth. Sure enough, most photos online seems pretty contrived, our friends showing us only their happy, blissful moments. Will we ever get to see “unglamorous” but more genuine posts of themselves when they’re upset, frustrated, or at their most vulnerable? Probably not. Our innermost emotional turmoil is not for public view.

And the amount of tact u must have in your conversations. Like wow. No cursing, no honest opinions if they can threaten your reputation. Pissed? You should jolly well stfu and bottle it up internally. Everyday you wear a mask in public and soon, u unconsciously become one of the herd. Being true to yourself makes you a black sheep and you are automatically punished with a “death penalty” — a diminished rating of 3 stars and below.

You’re considered a success if you’re a high four or above, but enjoy the judgmental stares and discrimination if your number is astonishingly low.

As we view the world through Lacey as the protagonist, we come to realise that she is ultimately a flawed character who is insecure and obsessed with the rating system. She tries too hard to please, and this gradually caused her to slip from social graces. Yet it’s perfectly understandable why she can be so caught up in her own ratings! Who doesn’t want that additional self-esteem boost when everybody seems to value you highly?

However, in just one night, she drops drastically from a “decently reputable” 4.2 just as she finds it harder to appease others. It’s almost unbearable and cringeworthy to watch her endure humiliation after humiliation when she was forced to take a perilous road trip to her friend’s wedding after her flight was unfairly cancelled. I can’t help but feel sorry for her, even if some of the embarrassment were self created. Her totally superficial, mean ass bitchy friend finally revealed her true colors near the end and cancelled Lacie’s appointment as maid-of-honor due to her “disgraceful” low ratings. Yet despite the rejection, she determinedly managed to crash the wedding to diss her fake-ass friend ( HAH! I would have done the same ) albeit in a disheveled attire, messy hair and running mascara. She literally looked like a mess .

Yet all these problems were a blessing in disguise— she learnt to drop pleasantries and exchange insults without a fuck for what other ppl thought of her. She began living as herself . Though it’s kinda ironic that she only wanted to boost her ratings in a desperate bid to get her dream house, she ended up staying in a jail cell by the end of the episode. Yet I believe there is happiness for her — I totally ship her with the black dude from the opposite cell. He is the first to witness her true self; to hear her honest expressions of what she really thought even tho they started off on a “bad"note. She didn’t even care she was just wearing a fucking bra in front of him! Having nothing left to lose, she is freed from her insecurities and that in a way, is a resolution.

I love how this episode tries to highlight to us that we don’t need external validation from others to feel good about ourselves! Overall, it was satisfying to know that the actual content testifies to the series’s good ratings. (No pun intended lol)

I strongly encourage you to watch this if you haven’t! I will definitely be catching up with the rest of the series.

[leonbastralle]

When Mums Think They Need To Comment - Replies

No offense ;) you guys know I love you, so. Enjoy!

amixofpixels replied to your post “Replies To People”

Truth be told, I'm just presuming it was me, but I could be wrong.

It was definitely you, partly ;) and now I just had to add all these because my reply post was already waiting to be posted!

amixofpixels replied to your post “ABC Tag”

Yes, come to the UK and let me love you.

I will, but not sure if you can love me xD I don’t think I’ll be anywhere close to you!

amixofpixels replied to your post “Replies To People”

Which is most of the time.

amixofpixels replied to your post “Replies To People”

I only reply when I get super excited.

xD you must get excited a lot then!

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

And yes, I did it!

did what?

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

Still cute af. <3

why ‘still’? XD

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Capri Sun, what is in that strange building? CS: It is a crash...”

But then again, we haven't seen these babies for a little while before this.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Capri Sun, what is in that strange building? CS: It is a crash...”

I feel like we haven't seen him in a while.

yeah, I’ve been focusing on the Flares for quite a while! And they won’t be around for ages either, I just have too many saves that I want to push forward!

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Capri Sun, what is in that strange building? CS: It is a crash...”

CAPRI SUN!

YESSS MY NEW FAVE FACE

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Hmmm…”

Do not go into the thing, it's a sims 4 promo.

SHHHHH IT’S WHAT I WANT IT TO BE

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Oh, I wish I had these at home!”

But you can.

well...we’ll see if she can...

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

Little technology friend. She’s better than me with it. XD

not really, she just learned it now...I just took the pic when she wasn’t making a terrified face and was almost falling xD

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

Have we named it yet? Or will they not survive long enough to name...

Hmmm it has a name I think?

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “C: Oh dear Creator! This is amazing! All the components, the...”

This is Caleb's child now. XD

He didn’t make it tho xD otherwise he wouldn’t examine it and be amazed about its structure! It was just the ‘shopkeeper’ or whoever

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

Pretty baby. ;____________;

always ♥

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “I think he’s in bot builder heaven!”

I hope you know that most of my tag is you, I just thought you'd be interested to know.

well I do tag you a lot! Glad your tag is full ♥ it’s a good feeling when it happens.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “This is literally all she does all day every day…”

Definitely one of mine. All grumps and mean. XD

CALEB’S NOT MEAN

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Welcome to another Robins queue! Finally.”

TWO OF MY BABIES! ;___________;

you know this gen is all your sims xD

amixofpixels replied to your post “TBH... I love you and I love your sims.  Can you guess who this is or...”            

Do you, do you really? ;)

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMM

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

:') - sorry, wrong emoticon.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

;)

all good ;) but I get it, all the feels :(

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

B. Look at the grump.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

A. I'm really starting to see the Caleb clone-ness.

Obviously! Told ya I’d do that. And grumps are the best.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

*sings* sparkle butt.

that should totally be a song

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Everyone gathered to celebrate Fable’s birthday!”

AND VICTORIA! not yelling at people. *shakes head in shame about that* *I don't like her yelling at people*

If you wanna I’ll remove that one shit trait and she’ll be insta friends with everyone xD gotta say, I love her face and I love having her and I don’t blame you, but her behavior has become a bit annoying.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Everyone gathered to celebrate Fable’s birthday!”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FABLE, YOU CLONE YOU!

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

Also, the banner is lovely, but it reminds me that Caleb is almost no more. ;_____;

JUST LET ME BE HAPPY ABOUT MY BANNER

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

This is the most fabulous robot ever.

absolutely. (not that I’ve seen many robots, and if you take Mass Effect into account there are more fabulous ones, but yes)

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Looks like that dream wasn’t too bad!”

Is it bad that I'm still trying to figure out her face, I know she's a mix but still.

I noticed too late that she’s still mostly Button :/ I’ll see what I can do about that as soon as she turns into YA, without changing anything else.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “A: Must’ve been fun out there, exploring with mum. You’re just the...”

I need a Fable in my life.

don’t we all? Need the whole Robins family?

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “C: It was a good day, then? B: Quite. And I think we deserve to...”

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “B: Hi sweetie! I’m back! Just wait till I tell you about all the...”

I like Caleb is more interested in food then the conversation. XD

food is important, right?

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Why the sad face, Caleb?”

Still cute af though.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Why the sad face, Caleb?”

Seems appropriate.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Why the sad face, Caleb?”

;_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________:

;_; SHHHH IT’S OKAY HE’S GOOD PROMISE

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Going home after a (more or less) successful first day!”

Damn it, Annie. Stop with the pretty!

why? ;)

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “F: Ah, wildlife.”

I've got to do some catching up from yesterday, but I shall start now. Sorry for any and all weirdness. ;)

It’s alright! I gotta admit, I almost missed it a little ;)

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: Capri Sun, what is in that strange building? CS: It is a crash...”

Cute!!

It’s my fave ♥

morgibritt replied to your photoset “We interrupt regular posting to announce something new on my blog:...”

Wooooo!!! *breaks into song and dance*

not like you didn’t know ;) but yes it was about time!

morgibritt replied to your photoset “Making exclusive 5 star food for the kitties!”

See! She's a great momma in the making! The kids might be just a little spoiled XD

I’m not too sure, she might make gourmet cat food but then they fry everything they eat...xD plus, they have a snow cone machine.

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: Taffles! You look beautiful tonight. I love that new hairstyle! T:...”

They are a braid couple now!

:O I didn’t even notice!

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: Taffles! You look beautiful tonight. I love that new hairstyle! T:...”

Yes cute hair is cute!

thank you! So many hairs I haven’t used yet ;_;

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: Oh? T: Yeah…I’m…don’t ask me how, but I’m pregnant as well! B:...”

How did I not see this before! I love how excited Taffy is for the double pregnancy. She's only slightly less excited than I am!

♥

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: I can barely feel it, but there’s definitely a teeny tiny bump!”

Awwww yay!!

gotta love bumps, am I right?

morgibritt replied to your photoset “T: Let me check yours! Oh! I think I heard something there…is it...”

Hehe whispering embryos ��

who knows ;) nothing’s impossible!

morgibritt replied to your photoset “B: Heeey there beautiful, you come here often? T: *laughs* I didn’t...”

Well she did play the role of both friend and secret admirer simultaneously for like a year!

YOU MADE A POINT I DIDN’T EVEN CONSIDER note to self stop trying so hard to be funny xD

morgibritt replied to your photoset

Cuddling cuties!

morgibritt replied to your photoset

So pretty!

Good to know the mum is enjoying it ;) after all I put our poor baby through quite some stuff!

morgibritt replied to your photoset

She's so bad b-ass

morgibritt replied to your photoset “stay safe”

Yes! We don't want to lose you or the baby! Although I have faith that Annie would quit without saving if anything bad did happen.

you’re right ♥ Bryony’s wonderful, also I’d never do that to any of my friends! Why would I, after having experienced it myself xD

morgibritt replied to your photoset

I want someone to look at me like that ��

you and me both man...

morgibritt replied to your photoset “I tried to do a small photoshoot, but Bryony’s bump is just too...”

Awwww I love the one where she's kissing Taffy's belly! She's going to be such a good mom! Both of them are!

So far they’ve been doing quite well! Tho they haven’t had to deal with two babies yet, I stopped before that xD hopefully this weekend tho!

morgibritt replied to your photoset

I just ❤ the double baby bumps!! These two are so sweet!

DOUBLE BABY BUMPS 5LYF

morgibritt replied to your photoset

I have to be a top shipper of these two. I'm so embarrassed XD so I'm commenting on all the things, just an FYI

awh xD Idk if they all ship them, I just like to give my top fans random titles xD

[wizardingbias]

HP!headcanon - NCT Taeyong

|| WIZARDINGBIAS - where your fave bands live in hakho’s hogwarts au ||

Character Headcanons ↳ NCT Taeyong // Taeyong Skye // Hufflepuff

okay my soft bebe this is my bias i’m not fucking ready

Taeyong the ultimate hufflepuff 

lemme tell ya it’s the truest truth that exists

Tae doesn’t look like it, but he is a fucking smol bean i will fight you

my biasssssssss fuuuuuuuck

this is really long

more under the cut

He looks so cool and composed until you see him trip over his own two feet 

bc uncoordinated as shit, he is, it true

and everyone at school is so intimidated by his large, dark eyes and his stoic expression when he’s walking down the hallways

werk it tae, werk it, give me sass, give me couture, yass

but all he really wants is friends, okay? 

like

desperately

but

he’s so

shy shy shy

In my au, Taeyong’s dad is Jaejoong and he was raised by this single, rockstar parent that takes time off from touring to properly raise little tae all on his own alright?

so, imagine little tae, smaller than the rest of the kids his age

clinging on to his father’s neck like a lifeline

at the age of four

tryna make friends but he can’t

bc he’s so shy

and his dad doesn’t pressure him into making friends bc Tae has anxiety from a smol age

so Tae’s best friend is his dad

and he has separation issues, okay? 

don’t imagine clingy, little bebe Tae looking up at his dad with large ass puppy eyes on the verge of fucking tears

don’t

it’s not good for your health or mine

and when Tae has to go to Hogwarts, he doesn’t show it bc he doesn’t wanna disappoint his dad but he’s freaking out over not seeing his dad every day anymore

so Jaejoong makes a promise on the condition that t-yong tries his best to get used to being appart

and Jaejoong takes up working as a music teacher at Hogwarts for Tae’s first year

this fucks me up bc i imagine tae crying in gratefulness bc his dad is honestly the best and such a softy and so much respect in those lil 11 y/o eyes

So for Tae’s first year, 

Jaejoong is close by but not next to him 24/7 so lil Tae can get used to being apart

and when some nights get really bad, he knocks on his dad’s quarters in the middle of the night

holding onto his lil elephant plushy he’s had since he was two

and sleeps in his dad’s bed until he’s all better the next morning

in the beginning of the year, it happened a lot

but eventually, Taeyong started sleeping better through out the night

So by second year, 

Taeyong’s able to attend Hogwarts without his dad being at the school

and lil tae comes out of his shell a little

lol also out of the closet

jk jk ;)

makes friends with the new transfer student Yuta Nakamoto

who’s in his Charms class but absolutely sucks at charms

but Tae’s really good at Charms

so Tae shows Yuta how to properly flick his wand

in his awkward lil way

and Yuta beams at him with his too big smile 

which makes lil Tae blush and run away

but they become the best of friends

and eat together at each other’s tables

and they have sleepovers even though Yuta’s in Slytherin and that’s not really allowed

bc the dorm rooms are so close

and sometimes, when Tae feels bad and misses his dad but doesn’t want to bother the headmistress and ask to floo home

tae slides into the slytherin commonrooms

just like he slides into dem dms

and into Yuta’s bed

and at first yuta is so confused, squinting at him like ‘what the merlin are you doing?’

but tae is quiet and just lies there until yuta falls back asleep

and ever since, Tae uses Yuta as a safe haven when things are rough

tradition bro

my heart for these two boysssssss

In year 3

Taeyong starts getting more friends

Taeil, a housemate

thank fuck he has someone in his own house to talk to and not be 100% awkward with

and Hansol, a gryffindor

both are older

and they adore lil Taeyong

especially after they get past the stoic and harsh expression

they’re like ‘he’s the ultimate bean’

i agree

and taeyong smiles so wide every time they great each other in the hallways

bc he has friends

lovely friends

especially yuta

his bestest friend

but sometimes yuta has quidditch practice

and taeyong understands nothing about quidditch

but will spend his afternoons watching yuta practice whilst he does hw on the bleachers

until it gets too cold

then he goes to his common room to hang with taeil

sometimes he picks yuta up and gives him homemade chocomilk bc it’s freezing

and the too-large smile he gets is precious

Taeyong likes taking care of his friends

In year 4

taeyong falls in love with divinations

bc it’s so mysterious

and cool

and can pretty much predict the future

and he loves to drink tea and have cookies during class time

awesome

but potion fucking sucks

it’s getting so hard

no fucking dirty thoughts there, my friend, don’t

but Yuta is fucking pro at potions wtf

so they study together a lot

especially during the weekends

bc yuta hates mornings but if he doesn’t wake up early the day is ruined

so tae wakes him the fuck up during the weekends

and helps zombie yuta out of bed

one day Tae sees in Yuta’s teacup something odd

i literally wrote taecup first kpop has ruined me

at the end of year 4, the tea leaves prove themselves true

and Yuta is heartbroken by the fact that Hansol has transfered school

and Tae comforts the shit out of Yuta 

with cuddles

and ice cream

and by distracting his best friend with homework 

and he even goes as far to discuss quidditch strategies with yuta

he fucking hates quidditch

but for his friends? he’ll do anything

loyaltyyyyyyyy

smolll beeannnnn

nct caring umma

In the summer between year 4 and 5,

Yuta, the fucking snake, convinces Jaejoong that it would be an amazing idea to bleach Taeyong’s hair

and tae is like ‘uh????? hell no???’

bc he doesn’t like people touching his things

especially his hair

he’s sensitive af

but somehow

definitely not a promise abt a new stereo system by his dad

Jaejoong convinces his son to bleach it

and it turns out amazing

according to yuta at least

taeyong isn’t so sure tbh

he looks even more unapproachable

intimidating af

enough to freak tae out every time he sees himself in the mirror

but yuta’s like

“don’t worry, chicks’ll dig it”

taeyong isn’t really comforted by that idea

on the ride back to school, he promptly freaks out a lil bit after people stared at him wide eyed at Kings Cross

but tae’s come a far away from his 11 y/o tail-between-the-legs puppy

he’s a tail-between-the-legs doggo now

and can kinda take the looks he’s getting

every time Taeyong’s unsure of himself

yuta’s there to give him a too big smile

the feeeelllllssssssss

taeyong’s also appointed prefect

he’s so shocked

“me? keep order? what?”

but Yuta’s like 

*healing smile*

and T-Yong does an amazing job at keeping others in line

it gives him confidence when people respect him

and when his housemates come to him for questions

especially underclassmen

they are so cute

“why are you so obsessed with the smol people?” Yuta asks

“i need to take care of them” 

determination af

but he fucking stutters or drools when he has to scold upperclassmen

they’re so big

tae is still smol

he hasn’t gotten his major growth spurt yet

and he’s upset yuta had his over the summer

whilst tae stays smol

he will always be my smol bean

Taeyong decides to keep his hair tho

even in 6th year

bc he accepts that he looks scary af

bc he’s surer of himself and not as shy

shy shy shy

it might also be bc a certain gryffindor told him it looks cool

tae lowkey obsesses over this lil gryffindor

thats two years younger than him

but so adorable

he finds out the gryffindor’s name is jaehyun

obvs not from yuta bc yuta is a snake and would tease him

but from a lil hufflepuff bebe he helps out with charms homework in exchange for this crucial information

this gryffindor likes quidditch

so tae tries to casually throw in his impressive quidditch knowledge to talk to jaehyun

remember the summer tae spent comforting yuta? 

yea that wasn’t too bad now that tae thinks abt it

except

jaehyun is kinda into this other dude in slytherin

and no matter what tae does

jaehyun doesn’t look at him like he looks at doyoung

so tae sulks

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

he probs cries too

so emotional

so soft

so smol

and finally yuta figures out that tae has a serious crush

his first serious crush

Yuta’s all like

“my lil bun”

same yuta same

BUT

HE SUDDENLY GETS HIS GROWTH SPURT

LIKE

IN THE SPAN OF TWO MONTHS HE’S GROWN TO 175CM

which isn’t all that much considering some of the other people in his year

cough johnny cough

but he’s so happy abt that so who cares

taeil’s graduation comes

and he cries

like the baby he is

and clutches onto taeil’s robes hard enough to lift the short older boy up

he’s not used to being so big

and almost crushes taeil with his new found strength

yuta thinks he’s weird

Year 7

oh no fuck 

it’s exam time

Tae isn’t too stressed

he’s not really planning on doing anything particularly hard

but he likes the idea of cooking

and opening his own lil restaurant or something

but fuck potions

potions is fucking him the fuck over and even with yuta’s expert potions skills

he’s almost failing

also, fuck

he’s elected HeAD BOY

more like boiiiiiiiii

he’s so honoured

and even though he didn’t really want it

he cries during his speech

bc “thank you so much for trusting me, everyone”

TTTT-TTTT

and he takes care of everyone 1000000000000%

so sweet

such mommy

but this year gets better

bc Jaehyun notices him

and stuff happens 

especially after Tae

ever the klutz

accidentally spills fruit punch all over Jaehyun over the christmas break

(he’s staying over bc he feels the responsibility of overseeing the other hufflepuff’s who are staying that they have a nice and cozy christmas too

he organises a gd party and secret santa and games and gives everyone a present and a stocking and gives a long ass speech about love and serenity and shit)

but jaehyun is so nice and laughs it off

but tae helps the gryffindor wash out the stains in the bathroom

and they just click

finally

and Tae goes to every single one of Jaehyun’s games

and cheers for Jaehyun with banners and hats and fireworks

even when he’s facing Yuta

but not when he’s going against Hufflepuff

bc as head boy

tae’s gotta support his family bruv

but he always wears a lil badge with Jaehyun’s jersey number during those games

shit gets serious when Tae suddenly,

like grown ass seventeen year old tae,

climbs into Yuta’s bed in the middle of the night

like he used to do in second year

and Yuta’s so fucking confused

cuz they don’t do impromptu sleep overs anymore

(there was in incident)

but Tae is freeaaaking ouuuttt

“What the fuck, bro?” 

“Bro.”

“What?”

“Jaehyun-”

“What happened?”

Yuta’s suddenly all defensive and is in total war mode

bc no one hurts his bebe T-Yong

except

“Jaehyun just kissed me.”

and cue yuta’s too-big-smile

bc tae is freaking out over his first ever kiss

and this is amazing

and Yuta is so excited and pulls taeyong into the biggest cuddle ever

“MY SMOL BEAN HAS GROWN UP”

“i’m older than you”

“shh”

this is too cute my heart hurts

maybe i’ll do a separate post on jae and tae’s relationship in depth if people want 

and Tae’s never been happier

even though he barely passes his potions N.E.W.T.’s

and graduation is so emotional

his father comes

and performs his latest rock song

bc he’s fucking embarrassing

but taeyong cries

he’s so touched

and yuta also cries

which makes tae cry harder

and younger hufflepuff’s that he’s taken care of cry

they also give him flowers

and good luck on his internship at the hottest wizarding restaurant in London

taeyong sobs

ugly and snotty

and jaehyun just laughs at him so much

and they go all go to Tae’s childhood hosue

and Jaejoong and tae cook for everyone

and it’s so different from all the meals with just him and his dad

he has so many friends

a large, extended family

and so much love

and he cries again chopping the onions

and jaehyun comes to snake his arms around his boyfriend’s waist

“are you crying because you’re t-yongie or because of the onions?” 

“i’m t-yongie” tae sobs

it’s too cute

my heart

and jaehyun laughs at this adorable lil baby

same jaehyun same

I’m emotional

More stuff will probably come later on but this was basically an overview of Taeyong’s life at hogwarts. Feel free to stop by my ask to ask for more :) it can be about anything (hint jaehyun and taeyong’s relationship, or maybe yuta and taeyong moments, or headcanons for other members, whatever you’d like :)))))) )

↳ Taeyong’s official profile

Taeil | Hansol | Johnny | Taeyong | Yuta | Doyoung | Ten | Jaehyun | Winwin | Mark | Haechan (will update over time)

[hopelesscobwebs]

92 Asks Game!

I’m finally doing this. I thought it would be fun and i’m bored af so here we go:

Tagged by: @just-a-crazy-nerd love you <3

LAST

1) Drink: Water (gotta stay hydrated y’all)

2) Phone call: My Dad.

3) Text message: “My legs are dead. All I wanna do is sleep but I have to do music homework” to my friend like a week ago (I don’t text much lmao).

4) Song listened to: Sumertime, By My Chemical Romance

5) Time you cried: Maybe 2 days ago? (I was really sad over MCR), but the last time I really, like really cried was maybe last week.

HAVE YOU EVER

6) Dated somebody twice: ahaha twice? You’re so funny. I haven’t dated someone once...

7) Been cheated on: My cat once slept on my sisters bed instead of mine so that counts.

8) Kissed someone and regretted it: What don’t you get about FOREVER ALONE HERE.

9) Lost someone special: Perhaps, It kinda depends really what you count as “lost”. But yeah, unfortunately.

10) Been depressed: I have been in dark mindsets a lot lately.

11) Gotten drunk and puked: Never been drunk before (I am so cool like that)

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS

12) Probably Blue, But to narrow it down: Teal

13) Rich purple

14) Probably black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15) Made new friends: Tons (ilysm guys)

16) Fallen out of love: no (kinda yes... but William doesn’t count)

17) Laughed until you cried: Yes, Yesterday (we were bottle flipping and then someone made a seal noise, don’t even get me started)

18) Found out someone was gossiping about you: Hopefully not, there’s not much to gossip about when it comes to me.

19) Met someone who changed your life: If Discovering MCR counts... then yes.

20) Found out who your true friends are: *Ahem*... yes...

21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Haha this list of asks is so funny. what don’t you get about NOT BEEN KISSED EVER... *cries*

HOW MANY/MUCH

22) Facebook friends: like almost 400? idek. (I know them all in person btw, i’m not one of those weirdos that just friends anybody). I barely use FB tbh

23) Pets: oh boy.... I have 6 cats guys... thats right, you can call me the crazy cat lady.

24) Want to change your name: My last name yes. Quick, somebody marry me

WHAT

25) Did I get for my birthday: A Spongebob birthday cake, a Vampire Diaries pillow, depression  um what... I got to eat all my fave foods in one day, that was pretty special even though i threw up at the end of it

26) Time I woke up: like 9:30?

27) Were you doing at midnight: Watching Frerard video edits...

28) Can’t you wait for: FOR ME TO ORDER MCR MERCH AS A TRIBUTE ON MARCH 22 *cries and dies*

29) Was the last time you saw your mom: like 4 hours ago.

30) Was something you wish you could change about your life: I sometimes wish I was born 10 years earlier but then I remember... there’d be no quality memes for a long time...

31) Are you listening to right now: MCR, what else honestly...

32) Gets on your nerves: When people make up those shitty things like “ UR NOT A TRUE FAN UNLESS YOU HAVE THIS OR DO THIS BLAH BLAH” like stfu, I am a fan in my own way. Racists, Homophobes, just basically anyone who thinks they have the right to tell you not to be yourself, like seriously, fuck off.

33) Talked to a person named Tom: My cat is called Tom, so that counts.

34) Is your most visited website: Tumblr, no doubt (or YouTube or guitar tabs, or Putlocker lets be honest)

35) Elementary school/primary school: I can’t even remember tbh and I ain’t tellin you

36) High School: The one I’m at now. Ha, got ya

37) College: n o , I am too young, gosh

38) Hair colour: Brown/ Blonde (streaks, naturally from sun lmao)

39) Long/short hair: I just cut it all off this year. Think 1920′s hair and that’s me.

40) Crush: There’s a cute guy in my chem class but that’s about it #foreveralone

41) Do you like about yourself: My final wakeup call of music interests. I used to be so shallow in that department. Um.... I guess I like the fact that I get on better with older people (I skipped a year at school so all my classmates are a year older anyways) idek. There’s not really much to like.

42) Piercings: 1 on each ear (i’m thinking of getting a second set) But I barely wear earrings tbh

43) Blood type: Idk, it would be cool to know tho

44) Nickname: Some of my friends call me Em but barely. Emy / Emz by family (if any of you call me that, it’ll be weird lmao) PLEASE START A TREND...CALL ME EM

45) Relationship status: single as a pringle and not ready to mingle please i have anxiety *daydreams about meeting perfect boy*

46) Zodiac: Scorpio yeah boi

47) Pronouns: she/her

48) Favourite show: Supernatural, Miraculous Ladybug (don’t call me a kid for watching it I swear I’ll end u ahaha), Rick and Morty, The Vampire Diaries... I could go on for days

49) Tattoos: I always think they’re a cool concept but i’d probably chicken out at the last minute, so no

50) Left or right handed: right

FIRST

51) Surgery: I got a tooth removed quite a few years back, I went under genral anaesthetic and everything.

52) Piercings: Ears

53) Best friend: Gabby, We don’t talk anymore sadly but I still love her <3

54) Sport: Ummm well i’ve always loved badminton but i’ve never taken a serious sport class before lmao

55) Vacation: I’m pretty sure it was to Melbourne, Australia, We saw some really cool outdoor art and went to see Wicked at some theater, that’s all I remember.

56) Pair of shoes: Say wat?

RIGHT NOW

57) Eating: I wish I was eating

58) Drinking: the dead souls of my enemies wait what

59) I am about to: Rearrange my sitting position and continue to write this long ass ask thing.

60) Listening to: The End, My Chemical Romance

61) Waiting for: My sis to get home so I can use her credit card to buy MCR merch, no really, this is the truth. I n e e ed it

62) Want to see: MCR get back together in 2019 for at least a reunion song or SOMETHING PLEASE. Also, a Panic! concert because I missed the last one in my country. ALSO a Supernatural Convention

63) Want to get married: Well it would be nice, gotta find a guy first, there’s the hard part

64) Career: I never know... I like to think that my dream is to be in a band but that aint ever gonna happen. I really wanna do something that can help people idek.

WHICH IS BETTER

65) Hugs/kisses: Well i’ve never kissed anyone and I lOvE HuGs, THEY ARE JUST SO NICE, LIKE AHHH GIMME UR LOVE, GIMME HUUUGGSSS. If I ever meet any of you in person, I’ll be really shy, but know deep down that all I wanna do is HUG YOU SNDKJGSND.

66) Lips/eyes: Eyes hold secrets, I love them

67) Taller/shorter: gimme da toll peeps, But I love the smol beans too

68) Younger/older: It depends

69) Romantic/spontaneous: probably spontaneous just to keep me on my toes.

70) Nice arms/nice stomach: um wat? idek i dont pay attention to that

71) Sensitive/loud: Sensitive

72) Hookup/relationship: Relationship definitely 

73) Troublemaker/hesitant: Hesitant alien

HAVE YOU EVER

74) Kissed a stranger: W h A t  D o N t   Y o U   g E t   A b O u T  i T... I AINT KISSED NOBODY BEFORE. gosh, way to rub it in *cries*

75) Drank hard liquor: well. i’ve tried some heavy stuff before but it was a sip and I spat it out coz it literally tasted like p o i s o n. Alcohol is so gross

76) Lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t need glasses

77) Turned someone down: ??? There hasn’t been anyone to turn down god damnit

78) Canoodling on a first date: They gotta earn that, so no

79) Broken someone’s heart: I sure as hell hope not.

80) Had your own heart broken: mcr breaks my heart E V E R Y GOD DAMN DAY

81) Been arrested: no, I am a good gal

82) Cried when someone died: yes, my grandmother

83) Fallen for a friend: Oh boy, yesyesyes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

84) Yourself: Not really, but I want to.

85) Miracles: I wish for them but I don’t really think they occur

86) Santa Claus: No, I actually never believed in him when I think about it

87) Kisses on a first date: YAS when it’s been all perfect and he walks ya up to your door ABJISLBHDLBHLA

88) Angels: um... Castiel???

89) Love at first sight: Yes but not like first sight, more like first discussion, when you can instantly click with someone in that first moment idk.

OTHER

90) Best friend’s name: Can I just list all my tumblr friends names? Because YOU GUYS ARE ACTUALLY ALL MY FAVES, YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU <3

91) Eye color: Grey Blue

92) Favourite movie: idek there are so many but: The Abduction Club, is one of my faves, Singin’ in the Rain, Sing Street, and that’s all that’s coming to mind atm.

I tag: (all my BEAUTIFUL AMAZING tumblr frens I mentioned before) @omg-i-cannot-even @shipsareamazing123 @mychemicalchinchilla @potterlock5ever @immacrazyfangirl @trashholeofshittybandstuff @shadowgirl077 @that-awkward-fangirl @lizbeth-loves-bobear @anyone i forgot and anyone who wants to do it! go ahead! <3

[chill-happy-blog]

i feel like this is the only space i really have for this shit so like here it goes!!!

ive come such a long way in my journey of self discovery. even though i have a rash on my chin i still feel pretty good about myself and my skin. it’s like. all just scars it’s not super broken out right now, and scars fade. i’m going to be better at putting on spf everyday and washing my face more consistently anD drink more water. this past year since my car was stolen in october of ‘17 has been one of many devastations but new great experiences.

i’ve driven to san diego by myself to pick up my mom, and then to and from LA (and in LA) by myself to visit emily. that’s something i don’t think i ever thought i’d do. i’ve grown so much and conquered so many of my anxieties. even if some days it’s still so hard for me to talk to people, it’s okay. i’m doing my best and challenging myself so much everyday to be better. also with my father passing away i conquered existing in show low. it’s something i can do and no one can hurt me. emily kitchin and i had a great time with her showing me around LA, and spending some nice quality time with her. i love her so much and miss her everyday. i’m glad she’s doing well though. she sent me a package with some really cute pjs, a magnet from maine, and my fave watermelon candies. emily and i went to echo park and just hung out for a long weekend. she took me to her favorite coffee shop and we went to donut friend evERYDAY and got vegan tacos. she made me dinner the other nights, it was so sweet. i drove to doomies vegan restaurant one day and ate a really good vegan dinner by myself lol. it was so dorky but it was fun. i saw the hollywood sign and parallel parked on a busy street!!! when emily and i were home we just hung out and listened to music and talked about life. she took me on a hike in the azusa mountains and it was so challenging but worth it. she continuously pushes me to be better too. i climb great heights with her.

before visiting emily in LA, i went to my first rave and rolled for the first time. it was a really fun experience that ignited interest in trying jew things, like raving. it’s been a really fun (and expensive) hobby/interest. it’s helped me to make more friends within my stand and make me more open minded to people being themselves. since then i had grown even more and more close with my friend patsy.. anyways i’m going off topic. raving is fun lol. i went to crush first and it was wild. i danced my heart out in a warehouse barn thing and got to live my little rave girl dream. patsy and nick went with me and showed me the ropes of raving. after crush we went to d*tsik and it was so much fun, but too bad d*tsik is a piece of shit. after that we went to phoenix lights and it was davis’ first festival things nd mine too, for raving. he had so much fun and i did too. i got too high my first day but the second day i tripped ac*d and had the time of my life. after phoenix lights we went to hard summer and that was fun even though it ended on a shitty note with nick and patsy.

i had been hanging out with patsy for a long time and we would hang out everyday until she started dating nick which happened about a month or so after crush. it’s okay though. it’s just a new thing i guess. there was some strife with her boyfriend nick, who i had considered a really close friend, but it’s whatever. patsy was who i needed most when she was my best friend but i don’t think she’s what i need most anymore. nick was one of my closest friends but just fucked me over. it’s fine though. i’ve dealt with it and made it clear he doesn’t care and that’s fine with me. some people aren’t meant to be in your life forever and that’s okay.

when tim died it stirred up so many traumas and bad anxieties and i regressed so much but it’s okay. i’m doing the best i can and making the best of what i can. i’m thankfully out of the darkest place i’d ever really been and i’m really thankful for em because she has been who i need every time i’ve needed her. she’s my best friend. she visited right at the perfect time and we went to sedona and had the time of our lives finding a waterfall in sedona and she encourages me to be brave. i climbed trees and accidentally trespassed a resort lol. we saw wild baby pigs and em screamed at the top of her lungs as we were sitting on top of a broken tree. “dude pigs can’t climb we’re fine dude” i said through tears and fits of laughter while also screaming. “THE PEGS” emily and i got matching pine cones and had such a good time spending quality time together. we don’t get that very often but it was so nice to have that opportunity with her too.

davis of course has been with me through all of this and done everything he can to help me. i’m so thankful to have someone so understanding and comforting as him. he literally does everything for me. i’m trying to work on relying more on myself because i’ve had everyone do everything for me my whole life. i’m a grown ass woman. i’m thankful that he’s been with me through everything. he’s doing so good too. i’m really proud of him. davis and i have been working a lot on communication and being better for ourselves for each other, and it’s been a long journey but it’s gotten so much easier in life. he’s the best dog dad for toronto. he takes him out almost every day and night and i’m so thankful that he makes these sacrifices for our little pup. i’ve been trying to be more aware of that and letting davis sleep or poop him for him.

our roommate kelly is really cool too. she’s 19 and has a lot of room for a lot of things but she’s doing the best she can and i’m proud of her for wanting to do better. she’s really sweet and tries to be the best roommate she can and she does a really good job. she has a new puppy and that’s been really stressful but it’ll get better over time.

my other best friend saucy is my always. she always knows when i need her and i do for her too. she’s always in my corner pushing me to be better at work and at home. if there’s anyone i can call crying it’s her. we’ve been through some weird shit this year, too. mostly just anxieties and weird things that happen in our lives. but i always have her with me. she’s who i can just go cry to and complain for 2 hours and she doesn’t judge she just helps me work through it. i love her so much. saucy is who i can always call to run errands with me too. i just love her so much.

kelley layton has been a bit help in my life too. when we had our horrible roommate, sarah, she hung out with me all the time and taught me a lot about spirituality and stuff. she’s great. i really misjudge her a lot of times because were so different but i’m glad that i have her to constantly teach and push me to be better.

so now to talk about my personal progress. i have been drinking more water and eating out less and making more food at home. it’s been a good habit for our wallets and i can buy more tangible things or just save my money and not spend it on material items. anyways i have been doing a lot better at taking care of my skin, too. it’s been a nice change of pace to see progress in my skin because it was really rough there for a bit. but now it’s mostly scarring and that fades and i haven skincare tools to use for it, too. i’m working on not picking at my skin too. it’s hard but i’m getting better. i have been writing in a journal, too but my handwritings awful and i can’t write for this long. i felt like i just needed to kind of lay it all out there to mark where i am in life as i continue forward. i’ve lived in arizona for almost 2 years, and been at my current job at dutch bros for almost 1.5 years. or about that long. it’s been a long journey that i’ve wanted to quit many times but i’ve stayed and its paid off and made me better. i could be making more money but money isn’t everything. i have flexible hours and coworkers i really enjoy and good management. harley my manager has been so invested in all of us and i absolutely adore her. she’s the best manager i’ve ever had andnim really glad i didn’t leave when she got there. i think she’s going to help me grow so much because she already has. i’ve been making more time for me and creating a healthier work/life balance. guad was everything to me and it’s still a huge part of my life but it’s not everything. and that’s okay. i don’t have to be 100% invested in everything in every second of my day. if i’m alone i’m invested in myself. if i’m with friends i’m invested in them. if i’m with davis i’m invested in him. it’s been a good journey as well. i’m so proud of myself for constantly pushing myself and thinking outside of myself. i am kind. i am generous. i am loving. i am honest. i am brave. i am strong. i am emotional. i am grounded. i am growing.