#lilia calderu headcanons through music

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Lilia Calderu: headcanons/character study through music: Charles Aznavour

“Les musées, les églises ouvrent en vain leurs portes

Museums, churches open their doors in vain

Inutile beauté devant nos yeux déçus

Useless beauty before our disappointed eyes

Que c'est triste Venise, le soir sur la lagune

How sad Venice is at night on the lagoon

Quand on cherche une main que l'on ne vous tend pas

When we are looking for a hand that we do not extend to you

Et que l'on ironise devant le clair de lune

And that we are ironic in front of the moonlight

Pour tenter d'oublier ce qu'on ne se dit pas

To try to forget what we don't say to each other

Adieu tous les pigeons qui nous ont fait escorte

Goodbye all the pigeons who escorted us

Adieu Pont des Soupirs, adieu rêves perdus

Goodbye Bridge of Sighs, goodbye lost dreams"

“Que c'est triste Venise" is essentially about mourning a relationship long lost in Venise and the city itself. It talks about mourning what once was and what it now is. To me, Lilia Calderu, a Sicilian witch, kicked out of her country, her homeland, her kingdom, her village, all of it for being a Witch, for accurately predicting tragedy. Lilia Calderu would've left a lover behind, other than her own homeland and her sweet culture and life behind. Lilia Calderu, like Charles Aznavour, mourns the city and a lover.

“I want to laugh and sing

Je veux rire et chanter

And drown my sorrow

Et soûler ma peine

To forget the past

Afin d'oublier le passé

That I carry with me

Qu'avec moi je traîne

Bring me strong wine

Apportez-moi du vin fort

For wine delivers

Car le vin délivre

Oh pour, pour me more

Oh versez, versez-m'en encore

So I get drunk

Pour que je m'enivre

One time, two times, many, many times

Ekh raz yechtcho raz yechtcho mnogo mnogo raz

One time, two times, many, many times

Ekh raz yechtcho raz yechtcho mnogo mnogo raz”

“Les deux guitar” is one of my favorite songs by Aznavour. And how I perceive Lilia through it? Well, it's quite easy actually. In this song Aznavour is stranded somewhere in a bar most likely where two Romani are playing the guitar (it doesn't specify the romani but I don't want to say the G slur🙏🏻) and Aznavour tells them to keep on playing for he wants to sing and get drunk and forget. He wants to burry his past in the songs and the alcohol and he wants to forget all that ties him to the past, to the pain, to the sorrow.. does it sound familiar? Doesn't it sound like...Lilia Calderu trying to forget everything that ties her to being a witch? To all the awful stereotypes that followed her around? To all the torches and pitchforks that were raised against her while they chased her out of every corner of the earth?

“It had to happen

Il fallait bien

To hold you tight

Te serrer très fort

To grasp your hands

Tenir tes mains

To keep you here with me

Pour te garder encore

It had to happen

Il fallait bien

To cling to you

M'accrocher à toi

When nothing else

Lorsque plus rien

Could hold me back

Ne retenait mes pas

It had to happen

Il fallait bien

To save my happiness

Sauver mon bonheur

By the means

Par les moyens

That my heart allowed

Que me laissait mon coeur

They burn the fires of hell

Ils brûlent les feux de l'enfer

And in my soul and in my flesh

Et dans mon âme et dans ma chair

You left me only regrets

Tu ne m'as laissé que regrets

And the remorse of not having done

Et le remords de n'avoir fait

Maybe not everything I should have

Peut-être pas tout ce qu'il fallait

It had to happen

Il fallait bien

To pay the price

En payer le prix

And my sorrow

Et mon chagrin

Has shattered my life

Vient de briser ma vie”

“Il fallait bien” Top three songs of his. Gut wrenching. Utterly heartbreaking. I scream that specific paragraph at the top of my lungs everytime I hear it, you literally don't understand how much I ADORE that song. So if you're wondering, how is this related to Lilia? Well, this is Lilia mourning Agatha when the dark witch left her after Nicholas' death, when she was once again abandoned by the person she loves the most. (Yes this isn't canon to the series, but it's canon to Sins of the Past buried at the Old Creek. That's all I care about) This is Lilia in chapter V(i think(i forgot)). Lilia who lost Agatha and Nicholas, Lilia who couldn't save a loved one from Death. Lilia who herself loves Death but has a complex relationship with her like her other lover, Agatha. Lilia who's always grieving. Lilia who's always dressed in Black for all the mourning and the loss she has dealt with her whole life.

“He’s looking at you, sneakily

Lui, te regarde, furtivement

You’re chatting away, way too freely

Toi, tu bavardes, trop librement

He’s flirting with you, through me

Lui, te courtise, à travers moi

You’re getting tipsy, laughing out loud

Toi, tu te grises, ries aux éclats

And me, in my corner, if I don’t say a thing

Et moi dans mon coin, si je ne dis rien

I’ve got my heart, on the verge of tears

J'ai le coeur, au bord des larmes

And me, in my corner, I’m drowning my sorrow

Et moi dans mon coin, je bois mon chagrin

Because love, changes hands

Car l'amour, change de main

Ah! But no, it’s nothing

Ah! Mais non, c'est rien

Maybe just a bit of tiredness

Peut-être un peu de fatigue

Huh! Not at all

Hein! Pas du tout

What are you getting at there?

Qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher là

No, no, I had a

Non, non j'ai passé une

A great evening.

Une excellente soirée”

“Et moi dans mon coin” heartbreaking song. I feel like as a sapphic, Lilia most likely had a situationship with a comphet woman back in the days. It most likely left her heartbroken watching her lover, a woman she spent many nights with, throw herself into the laps and beds of men because she firmly believed that she was destined to be with a man and that anything she had with Lilia was Casual(hello Chapell Roan). Lilia again, mourns another lover.

I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did💝💌💘!

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