#lil bro can't get art of him happy

[sugar-on-fries]

We copying our old art style with this one🗣

he got the Walter white treatment, starts out as a good person and descends into terrible one🙏

[minkiverse]

PARK SEONGHWA FIC RECS

Poly!Ateez Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Kim Hongjoong - Jeong Yunho - Kang Yeosang - Choi San - Song Mingi - Jung Wooyoung - Choi Jongho

HWA TIME!! A man who is so earth shatteringly gorgeous of course gets written incredibly by atiny 😩 like this man is just art!! As always, I hope you enjoy and support these authors!!

Dividers by @iluvpooks

DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please read all warnings before reading!!!

Key:

✨ - My Favs

🔥 - Smut (MINORS DNI)

⛈️ - Angst

💗 - Fluff

🍑 - Humor

SERIES

New Horizons - @fivestar-outlaw 🔥⛈️💗 Idol AU

this is just the cutest series!! like meeting him through animal crossing is the most adorable meet cute i want to cry 😭😭 we all deserve a lil bit of delusion as a treat asfgdssfgdf

The Way to His Heart - @edenesth ⛈️💗Joseon Period ✧ Arranged Marriage AU

im a big BIG fan of historical au's and i just loved reading hwa falling for the mc and then doing everything he can to destroy the people that hurt her 😩😩 that kind of devotion is just soooooooo attractive😍😍 it kinda reminds me of the anime My Happy Marriage (which i did not finish OTL) but if you enjoyed that i think you will love this~~

Wallflower pt. 2 pt. 3 pt. 4 - @tenelkadjowrites 🔥⛈️💗 Office AU

seonghwa is mc's nerdy coworker but boy can he fuck 😩😩😩 the smut in this is 🤌🤌 but honestly this fic is so much more than that and how the mc changes and grows as a person because of hwa's influence is so enjoyable to read i just love them 🥹🥹

Sans - @songmingisthighs ⛈️💗🍑 SMAU ✧ Childhood Friends AU

this author really knows how to break my heart 😭😭😭 definitely be aware of trigger warnings for some chapters!!! but this fic was also so wholesome?? like i just love the mc and how they grow from the events of the story 🥹🥹 SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO SAN AND WOO!!!!

ONE SHOTS/DRABBLES/ETC

sycophant - @ncteez ✨🔥 Business AU

there will always be boss x employee fics BUT this take on it 🤌🤌🤌 hwa is just so attractively straight forward and him teaching the mc on how to dom him is truly just so fucking hot i could scream 😩😩

Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Hybrid AU

The Thing About Pretty Boys - @wonusite ✨🔥 Friends to Lovers AU

never say seonghwa can't fuck.... or maybe do bcs this man goes fucking feral 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i had like a full body physical reaction to how hwa is written in this fic 😩😩 like this is so filthy in the hottest way possible

Dune - @hongism 🔥 Outlaw AU ✧ Biker AU

Untitled - @orgverse 🔥 Sci-fi AU

Warning Signs EP. 1: The Showman - @mphountitled 🔥Rebellion AU

Everyday at the Bus Stop - @tenelkadjowrites 🔥💗

persistent desire - @bro-atz 🔥 College AU

Untitled - @k-hotchoisan 🔥

Red Dress - @wooyoungiewritings ✨🔥⛈️💗 Enemies to Lovers AU

i love a holiday/winter themed fic ok sue me 🫵🫵 its just COZY and this hwa drives me up the wall 😩😩 he's such a charming lil shit and the banter is soooooo good 🫠🫠 i looooooooove this couple!!!!!!!

Scattered bunny!seonghwa thoughts - @thetypingpup 🔥 Hybrid AU

Morning sex with Seonghwa - @k-hotchoisan 🔥

Untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥

realistic sex with seonghwa - @byuntrash101 🔥

VIP Access - @hwashotcheeto 🔥 Idol AU

multiple??? - @lomlhwa 🔥 Hybrid AU

I Can See You - @daemour 🔥⛈️💗 Single Father!Hwa

Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Hybrid AU

heavy and sticky - @k-hotchoisan 🔥

Untitled - @cheollipop 🔥

Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥

belong to me - @ateezscupid 🔥⛈️ Idol AU

Untiled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Dragon!Teez ✧ Sugar Mommy AU

Untitled - @bombuni 💗

Honest (But Happy) Accident - @ad0rechuu 💗College AU

amazing grace - @yoongiseesawmp3 🔥⛈️💗 Church Boy!Hwa

Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Bad Boy!Hwa

paradigm - @yoongiseesawmp3 ✨🔥 Bartender AU

switch!hwa nuff said 🤤🤤🤤 no but how this author does banter is just so good like idk even know how explain it because it feels so natural and charming and the smut is so fucking good like im in love with hwa and the mc ?????

The Heart's Filthy Lesson - @tenelkadjowrites 🔥⛈️ Toxic BFF!Hwa

Untitled - @hee0soo 🔥

Damnation of a Saint - @byuntrash101 🔥 7 Deadly Sins AU

My Little Empress - @holybibly 🔥 Historical AU ✧ Arranged Marriage AU

the lamb and the wolf - @seonghwaddict 🔥💗 Hades!Hwa

Make Me Water - @bangtanintotheroom 🔥 Friends to Lovers AU

Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Cyberpunk AU

mirror mirror on the wall, who's the filthiest of them all - @almightyddeonghwa 🔥 Idol AU

boyfriend texts - @beenbaanbuun 🍑

[darlingpwease]

It would be funny if the system did allow reader to become Shang Qinghua disciple and make him a father figure to them as a little treat for being the author.

Shang Qinghua would be a father who will spoil reader. Bonus points reader knows some memes because Shang Qinghua taught them.

Reader probably doesn’t take him seriously at times but is protective of him.

Reader: He may be an idiot but he’s my idiot.

Shen Yuan is probably smacking his fan at Shang Qinghua for this (or perhaps he’s jealous because reader won’t be his disciple like he expected)

shang qinghua is my lil meow meow<33 deserves to be called daddy tbh he is the author after all /hj /affectionate

creator's favourite<3

reader: wow hehe silly guy who thinks he's my dad... I love it in shifus.

♡ unhealthy behaviour, pet names, mention of violence, adoptive family themes, parent/child dynamic (and some pinning from shen yuan but you can treat it as you want); drabble + headcanons

But more seriously, SHANG QINGHUA actually looks like someone who will be a good father to his cute little darling sweetest summer baby boo that he sometimes just wants to put in a box and shake or put in the palm of his hand and watch with wet eyes, trembling.

He was doing research... And it's normal for men to get carried away with cute things... And gosh — who can say that you are his favorite character and no one can be your fan even more than he is?

(one may try to compete, but he prefers to ignore the existence of Cucumber Bro, although he admits that in some things he has a taste, especially with this cute art, similar to how he represented you, as his pfp.)

(he also puts your art on his pfp, because no one else can be your big fan.)

It's not that you are described in any way at all or look especially against the background of other characters — apart from the fact that he may be too self-indulgent when he describes you as candy for eyes whenever you appear, as if you are a character from a much better story, but what can he do??? — and your backstory may look like one of those that he created for a long time and thoughtfully, as if connecting the pieces of a puzzle, putting his mind, heart and hours into you that he could have spent sleeping instead, but!

He doesn't regret it.

Even in the morning, when he slept for only two or three hours, he does not regret that for just a few hours he said to himself, "it's okay, it's okay, just a couple more words and that's it..."

Every author should have two favorite characters in the story — one whom he wants to associate with himself (or next to whom he wants to associate) and one whom he wants to wrap in a blanket, put on his chest, kiss on the forehead and saying that they are gorgeous and beautiful. After all, for the audience, he has a beautiful cold cultivator and a fateful passionate demoness, so he can have his beautiful cold demon and his charming bright cultivator, right?

Perhaps you are not part of Binghe's harem (not his cutie!!! too precious!!! his baby can't be part of something like that!!!) and such a detailed study, which is hidden behind your description, does not make much sense, but it makes him happy, especially when he can introduce you to the narrative, briefly describe or invent what you can say. His cute little meow meow, who is Luo Binghe's senior fellow disciple under Shen Qingqiu's care (no you don't need that character development where you experience bullying!!! he has the right to be delusional in his works!!!), and tries to do something to the best of your ability, even if there is little you can really help...

... You die in a battle against demons. Although in his drafts a plan of how you actually survived, it was also not very pleasant for him to write this scene, even if it was pleasant to describe an emotionally strong reaction, — and subsequent plans for revenge and murder also had some therapeutic effect, — but no, brother Cucumber, he does not feel any pleasant feelings at all from having killed his pet! And he is not at all happy that he killed the only worthy character!!

And your death was not at all predictable because of how pure and catchy you were!!!

"... Maybe a little delusional after all," SHANG QINGHUA thinks when looks at you. Small, with a straight back and an indefinite peak, although he knows that you will become a member of another peak, and this realization for the first time causes him damage to such an extent that he wants to cough up blood. He just wants to get on knees, hug you and shake, but instead can only watch — and when the System says that he can get you as his disciple, since he has already become the head of the peak?

Yes, your participation in the plot is important, but not to this exte–

Not a word more — he doesn't hesitate for a second!

SHANG QINGHUA treats you like a mother hen with an egg, wanting to just constantly take you in arms and kiss cheeks like a proud father, and for sure he has... moments where you allow yourself some tenderness because of which he falls to the ground, covering face, as if you killed him with charm, while you look down on him — at first frowning and worried, then you just pull him up yourself.

At some point, you even begin to like it; one day you even allow yourself to call him 'father' — but when he almost has a deviation of qi from what you call him, you never do it again, even if now he definitely desperately wants to hear it again. But — no way; how will you explain to the head of Qian Cao Peak why your father shifu looks like this? It would be extremely embarrassing, especially if you still had to drag him.

No.

Never.

(you still unwittingly unconsciously call him that several times, though — and each time SHANG QINGHUA understands that if he dies right now, he will die happy.)

Your backstory is definitely the story of an orphan or an abandoned child, even if it has some noble origin, and it's hard to deny that being immediately in the adoring and pampering presence of the head of An Ding Peak, who deals with all economic affairs and supplies in the sect, being literally the peak of logistics, is a little overwhelming... at first. Someone may view An Ding Peak as useless or meaningless, but when all the supply, procurement, economic transactions are circulating around one peak, and this is not something secret...

... can't your loveable father afford to pamper his beloved child?

You were such a sweet and smart disciple who always follows him (at his request, but you could also theoretically disobey him, so he should reward you anyway!), how can SHANG QINGHUA not try to make you smile and be spoiled?

He knows how bad life was for you, he described it all himself, so he only makes amends to you, even if you definitely do not know because of whom in some sense you had such a past, but only look at him as a parental figure who is always ready to help, protect and pamper you. SHANG QINGHUA always brings your favorite food (which you share! wow! this is definitely fate!), gives you the best, sometimes even unparalleled, clothes or things of the best quality — and never neglects you, as if your very presence activates in him all this incomprehensible desire to protect and adore you.

Does he spoil you too much?... Yes — but you forget one fact: he is also the proud father of one little sweet celestial whom he wrote especially for himself and now can shamelessly love them! Period!

Perhaps the only thing SHANG QINGHUA violently opposes is your fights with anyone, even if you are a head disciple and a member of a sect that, in addition to the economy, is often forced to deal with the dirtier and borderline gray or obviously black things common in the world of cultivators, — but SHANG QINGHUA knows that the sect will be destroyed much earlier what will you become the head... so what's stopping the two of you from just living your life together? Somewhere in a house near the city or in a small but rich city, where you can spend your life in a carefree and moderate pace until old age next to him, needing nothing and never shedding tears... a small pond for you or a garden where you can grow whatever you want, or a place where you will raise small or not-so-small animals...

SHANG QINGHUA is not the most active or aggressive person, he does not seek to expand influence at all, as the original owner of the body did, but when he gently combs your hair, looking at your straight back, he understands that this is impossible if he wants you to survive. Yes, he described that you 'didn't die' and even put forward several ideas about what happened to you after, but now, looking at you, none of them suits him. Why should you suffer? Isn't what was in the original novel enough for you? Don't you deserve to live in comfort and safety?

He is your father — not in the biological sense, but in a much more important way, in both of his lives, and it is natural that your future falls on his shoulders, since he has made the past for you and takes care of you in the present. He would prefer a calm, trouble-free life with the flow, but when SHANG QINGHUA looks at you rejoicing at his gifts as if for the first time or trying to take part of his responsibilities and difficulties to help, how can he think only of himself?

Maybe that's why he's here — to make you happy and make sure you'll never be sad again. After all, SHANG QINGHUA gave you his soul, so it's natural that he could even overcome reality itself and time to be there — and if you think about it like that, then everything falls into place!

His ability to take you as his disciple and almost-child, his need to pamper you, his adoration...

“Shifu?...”

He loves you so much that his heart bursting.

“Shifu, why are you lying down again???”

Papa will protect you.

Shen Yuan really tries not to get angry, but when he sees SHANG QINGHUA shamelessly purring and spoiling you, clearly mocking him about the fact that you love him as your 'dad' shifu, the desire to hit becomes much stronger.

It's not fair, okay? After all, you were originally supposed to be his disciple; that's why he called you, wanting to see his beloved spousefu character — only to find out that you are not his disciple. Perhaps it was then that he realized that something was wrong — just as SHANG QINGHUA understood it, who later heard at a secret meeting that Shen Qingqiu, who woke up after a fever, asked about you for some reason, thinking that you were his disciple, and was amazed when he was confirmed several times that no, this is not so, you are a disciple of another peak.

A disciple of another peak? No, it's– no, it's possible, but unlikely. Since Luo Binghe is already studying at the peak, then at about this age he should already have had a connection with you, right? It's strange if the semblance of 'white moonlight' for the protagonist still did not exist at the peak, although your first meetings probably should have already happened. Isn't that about when that meeting should take place where you save him from mockery by appearing in time as a 'famous young phoenix under the guidance of Shen Qingqiu' and saying your cool speech?

Isn't that when you first demonstrate yourself as a domineering and self-aware beauty, but also able to be modest? Where your 'presence alone is enough for everyone to immediately disperse, let alone look or words'? Where were you still an unblemished white lotus that made Luo Binghe take an example from you, whose gait was 'as silent and graceful as leaves dancing in tandem with a wandering wind in a silent bamboo forest' and 'voice similar at the same time to the purring of a well-fed tiger inspecting their mountain in search of the next prey to playfully tear it apart' and 'like the first gentle snow showering everything around like a blanket, covering and forcing all living things to be silent and heed the serenity and greatness'?

These were some of his favorite scenes, excerpts from which he regularly reread and kept screenshots in the "favorite" in the phone gallery!

Where?!

"Someone remembers," SHANG QINGHUA thinks, rubbing his nose after sneezing — and smiles affectionately when you carefully throw a cape over him before returning to his business next to him, deliberately ignoring shifu's loving gaze. You really are a hardworking little thing, aren't you? Of course, what his child should be like; although not at all like your daddy, but you still take great care of him, even if you don't give him some expensive gifts and don't try to physically serve, unlike him. But he likes it — to take care of you, pamper you, try to accustom you to his culture and jokes, teach you some things that later become 'internal' and are not familiar to anyone else.

... Almost no one else is familiar with them.

“You yourself know they were supposed to be my disciple.”

“... The author has the right to make changes to the work.”

Shen Jiu– No, Cucumber Bro looks up at him because of the slight difference in height, and there is such obvious discontent and irritation in his eyes that SHANG QINGHUA is sure: if it were real, acid would dissolve him right now so that the earth would open up and swallow what would remain of his body.

“Don't you think that such an intervention will have consequences?”

What are the consequences? That you can't pamper them now and take advantage of their care like I do?

“Are you jealous that they call me 'baba' and not you?”

Shen Yuan still hits him with a fan from the heart, but does not answer anything — and SHANG QINGHUA does not dare to continue teasing or pressing button, even seeing how annoyed he is, not wanting to admit that yes, damn it, he is angry that his favorite character, the thought of which caused and causes euphoria, got not him, but SHANG QINGHUA.

“Stfu.”

You don't really call him ''baba' — but if you did, his heart would immediately stop and there would be a serious deviation of qi.

... Hmm...

He definitely found something with which he will pester you now — and the way Shen Qingqiu looks with jealous irritation, clutching a fan in his hand, only adds to the situation of fire.

Even if you don't have the slightest understanding of what's going on.

[ditzyclown]

In my cult of the lamb game I have a whole ass bat family, it started with Putre as I wanted some followers to work through the night (and who better than a bat) and then things escalated from there-

with his first bio daughter asking for her sister from dark wood (who are you fooling girl, you are surprise adopting lol) to him having another bio son to the adopted daughter to ask for her brother in darkwood TO THE BIO SON TO ASK ME TO MURDER THE NEE ADOPTED SON AS SOON AS HE WAS INDOCTRINATED

Anyway more silly info bellow

-Putre is the priest and one in charge to keep the materials for rituals safe and ready to use while alerting the lamb if they are ever low on materials

-Is extremely grateful to have his brother in the cult and to even grow his family in the cult, he's relieved that his two biological kids will never have to see the horrors from the lands of the old faith and that his adopted ones at least won't have to suffer... He's not sure how to feel about how anytime he, his family or another cult member dies the lamb revives them always....

-Based on my game he's friends with almost everyone on the cult, including Baal, narinder and shamura amongst others. (Dad energy was that powerful ig)

-Is the younger one of his siblings (though he's not so sure anymore)

- He's black with blue painting

-Fion is still finding his place at the cult, he does bring food from outside occasionally despite Putre's insistence to not exit cult grounds

-Putre asked for the lamb to rescue his brother from dark wood. The lamb made it but not in time

-Had to be revived

-the eye painting in his forehead was scratched by heretics so now the scars look like an X over them.

-His ears also got a bit shredded, can't echolocate as well :(

- "TF YOU MEAN YOU HAVE 3 KIDS?!?!?!"

-"WHY DO YOU HAVE ANOTHER, THAT ISNT EVEN A BAT"

-After recovering from the fact his lil bro got game before him (lol nah he was just in shock), he actually was pretty happy to see Putre doing well and for him to be an uncle.

- He's white with red painting

- Hungre is the eldest child (Kept young by the lamb themselves along the majority of kids born or brought into the cult)

-Wanted a sister and decided the lamb would be the fastest way to get one

- YAY SISTER

- Has not seen the lands of the old faith once in her life.

-Has a good heart

-Loves her family and the cult, Leshy often teaches her how to do pranks and how to make art crafts with camellias too!

-A very pale pink almost white looking

-Second eldest (adopted) child

-Cautious in nature from her life in darkwood

- Was born years later after the death of the bishops but still is untrusting of Leshy since he looks like those shrine statues....(He also wears heretic clothing!)

-Was also unsure about the lamb at first and clinged to Putre and Hungre

- Wears a long red dress to try and imitate her dad church attire

-After having a little brother Feno decided "And another One" and did the same strategy as Hungre and asked the lamb

-Grey fur

- Wasn't bothered that the one the lamb managed to find wasn't a Bat, he's adorable!!

-Has better flying abilities than Hungre since she had more space to learn (tcotl devs place expand the cult grounds I will sacrifice my firstborn for it)

- Second youngest

- Angy that he isn't the youngest brother anymore

-didnt like that the lamb didn't kill thorar when he asked for

-Has yet to warm up to him

-Once tried to sneak out of the cult out of curiosity to see what was so scary about the outside

-As soon as he saw a purple spider and the god merchant (Wich I Named Light) he turned tail and ran

-Has yet to learn to fly

-He's a dark blue

-Rescued form darkwood

- Doesn't understand too well what's going on

-A bit afraid of Pano since he heard him request the lamb to kill him

-Is still getting used to sisterly love and having a new parent

-Putre often holds him when it's night since he's still getting used to the moon necklace more slowly than the bats and still gets groggy and sleepy

-Misses his family, darkwood..... not so much

-Since he was mostly hid by his original family (only for heretics to still find them) he hasn't really seen a shrine/statue of Leshy he doesn't know he is one of the bishops (and neither that the other weird followers are bishops themselves)

-Black fur with grey paint

I might give them more lore or change a few things

[allfleetingdreams]

a love letter to my cat

A non-art related post to celebrate International Cat Day (a lil late because the picture wouldn't upload yesterday smh). I don't think I have made any official posts before anywhere including my old account, so lemme do this.

This baby is named Albert Whiskers (because I love Resident Evil way too much it seems) and he is my very first rescue kitten. There used to be three of them, but unfortunately Albert's siblings, Leon & Ashley, did not survive, leaving my little Betong (my grandma's nickname for him) alone. We rescued him and his siblings from the ceiling of our bathroom, which has open space that enabled their mama cat to sneak in and give birth to all three of them. A few days later mama cat never returned, so we had to go get them. For a month we've been trying our best to take care of the kittens until sadly Leon & Ashley passed due to a compromised immune system.

I've always wanted a cat, but could never adopt/rescue because of the financial and other responsibilities it entailed. I didn't want to get a cat just because I wanted one—what if I can't give it all the care it deserves? But then Albert came along, and we couldn't give him up to a shelter nor look for potential adoptive furparents because not too many people are fond of street cats. Where I come from, people have a preference for cats with breeds—expensive breeds—and with how cruel street cats are often treated, I decided to take it upon myself to raise this little boy. Shelters are overpopulated; rescuers can barely afford their rescues' needs. If Albert went away, his chances at a good life are incredibly low—it might kill him.

And so, here we are. My little boy is an energetic playful one, and he shows his affection by constantly biting me (not too hard!). He’s healthy. He's doing great. We play often. I taught him how to sit and do a high five and a bro fist—would love to teach him more tricks. I've been getting him toys. I hope he is happy, because I love him with all of my heart.

I'm getting teary-eyed as I write this. But this is the most rewarded I have felt. I'm raising a cat—my son, my child, my little best buddy—and even if I cannot help every cat as much as I want to, I will try my best to give this boy the best life he deserves.

[coffeecat1983]

A preview: Mario Bros (feat Tony): A Night Out.

This is the 'M' rated version which has drinking, some language and implied sexual content. TW for future, the story will include implied self harm, recreational Marijuana use, slurs, and family fighting as well as coming out and childhood trauma (all part of the main plot).

An alternate timeline to my usual Mario works.

Preview under the cut:

   Returning to his drink, Tony let his mind wander. Just when had he last had a date? One that ended in someone else's bed? Too long, he mused as he tried to recall. That led to him to the only other threesome he had ever been in. A party when he was in his early twenties. Drinks had been plentiful there, too, and he and two others spent the night together. He felt a rush as he remembered what it was like.    Being held down as they explored his body, lips hot with passion touching him all over...    He shivered. He also tried to ignore the voice in the back of his mind screaming that his family would never let him hear the end of it if anyone found out what he was considering. Downing the whiskey, he took another refill and began working on it, giving a look behind him.    Catching his eye, Sebastian gave him a wink, making him whip back around to face the bar. Chugging back the remainder of the drink and allowing the alcohol to silence the doubt, he accepted a final refill and pushed the twenty over, insisting the bartender keep the change. Pulling out his phone, he began to type.    Met someone. Don't worry if I'm not home when you get up. A ping and Arthur's reply popped up.    Eyy go get em you Italian stallion! A soft laugh and he began to type back.    Lil bro you call me that again and Imma shave off your stache while you sleep!    I'd like to see you try! Now shaddap and have fun getting sucked off, ya idiot.    Marie know you got a filthy mouth like that? There was a pause, and another ping.    Just asked. She says she "likes my filthy mouth, it gets the job done". Nell took Bria for the night so scuse me, time to get busy.    A smirk and another laugh.    Have fun lil bro, and happy birthday.    You, too. Be safe.    Be safe. Tony considered this. Better with two people he only half knew than two total strangers, right?

   As he took his glass to the table. Sebastian greeted him warmly and Spike just sat back with a knowing smirk. (scene here will be expanded)

   "There are rules. You get tired, there's a guest room. You don't want to do something, say so, we'll stop. You need anything, just ask."      "I think Tony knows this stuff." Spike said. "Standard orgy rules." he grinned. Sebastian began scolding him in Spanish before catching himself. He cleared his throat before sipping at his drink.      "So, you in?" Spike asked.      "You both know this can't get back to my family. Art would tease the hell out of me for this." he hesitated, his voice dropping. "But Gio, he would kill me." Chugging his drink, Spike set the can down and leaned forward. "What happens in our bed, stays there." he said. "And it's a California King, so, ya know, plenty of room to play."    The thought sent a shiver up Tony's spine, and he was about to agree when Arthur's words came back to him.    Be safe.      "And protection?" Spike and Sebastian looked to each other and Sebastian swirled his drink before sipping at it.      "Your choice. We're both clean, papers to prove it." Tony considered this. "My choice?"      "Anything you like. We," he gestured to Spike, "cater to our guests." Another shiver up Tony's spine as Sebastian ran his foot up and down the side of his leg.    A faint nagging at the back of his mind as Giovanni's voice haunted him.      "Why don't you find a nice girl and settle down? I did, Art did!" Giovanni rubbed at his head with a groan. "I just don't get you, Tony. Next thing you're gonna tell me is you're gay or somethin'."    The look Arthur shot his twin across the dinner table said it all.    'Tell him' Tony just looked away with a weak shrug. "Haven't found anybody, that's all."   Slamming back his still nearly full whiskey, he coughed and put the glass down, hard.

     "You got a deal."

That's it! If interested let me know and I'll be sure to edit up a cut version to post along with the explicit one.

[angelpuns]

Ow, Ranting Anon's heart is broken :'C (/pos) THE NEW UPDATE!! First off, the lil apology thing is adorable, kids are freakin weird (especially leo) and SECOND OF ALL- hhhh the fact that neither Leo or Casey say anything! Casey's letting Leo take it all in meanwhile it's finally hit Leo that this is real, he can't really go back home and that little bit of hope he had left is gone and he's gotta, in a sense start mourning what he knows and start learning how to live where he is for the time being. He's gonna be grieving for his entire life, and he's just gotta accept that but at the same time he's like what, 5? How is a kid supposed to deal with that yknow? For him it's like his entire life is just gone, poof, vanished and nobody else gets that but Casey! I feel like he's gonna be a LOT more attached to Cj soon lol-

Ty for the amazing comic, I'm eating ur art like a 5 star meal served from Gordon Ramsey himself <3

I'm glad you liked the update hehehehe <333

I definitely think Leo is gonna be trying to talk to CJ a lot more than anyone else ( except maybe Mikey, since he's sort of already trusting him ). I'm just thinking about them sitting in silence stating at the destruction ;-;

Me at my own comic: bro who wrote this?? Why's it so sad???

Anyway- I hope the next update isn't quite as devastating ( I already know it will be-) but let's hope so anyway teehee

AS ALWAYS TY FOR YOUR ANALYSIS IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY !!

[simpjaes]

hey honnie <3 first of all, LOVE JUNGWON. i want to reach out into the screen, grab him, knead him like dough then ruin him in every way. the way you wrote him is just 🫶🫶 he's such a clingy baby, i need a jungwon in my life.

i also want to say how well written it was. you painted every scene so beautifully to the point where i can place myself in the scenario. your descriptions of the cathedral is 🤌🤌 reading isn't enough i need to somehow figure out a way to teleport into the fic.

don't get me started on HOON and his iced dick. hoon having his own personalised red death through the reader, bro is drunk, hypnotised and just down bad. he's so captivated by the reader i need him. also the line "he has to quench the genuine thirst before playing with his food, at least" is pure poetry and will be etched in my mind forever thank you.

it feels criminal reading something so beautiful for free, like this should be physical black leather-bound novel. SO THANK YOU SM I OWE YOU MY LIFE <3 can't wait for part two!

- 🐈‍⬛

OH MANNNNNNNNNN, i'm so so so glad people love jungwon in this fic ; - ;....i fear my bias for him is showing............rly, we all need someone to love us the way artist jungwon loves reader

anyway, i'm really happy you enjoyed the descriptions of the setting too. usually i don't spend too much time on the setting but i am obsessed with gothic architecture and have been since I got a deep dive of it back when I took art history 1 & 2. like i mean for a second there the cathedral was my main love interest :| if i could fuck a building, this would the number one choice : cologne cathedral (p.s. this is 100% what i based the ootdg cathedral off of, just on a slightly smaller scale)

ah.....yes.......the famed iced dick. the snow-fuck, if you will. writing that scene was craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy bc i did my best to allude to the fact that in that moment, she can't do anything but believe him. denial sure does bring a person far in life, i guess, but reader didn't have much choice once she felt that fuckin' popcicle in her LMFAOO but he was soooooooooo gone. :( loved the image of him just drenched in it and totally insane, fighting himself, realizing his second death is basically keeping life rather than snuffing it out. and LOL the playing with his food quote, i was fr snickering when i wrote that like "oh, they're gonna like this one" KJFHDSKJDS

ill never get tired or used to people saying it feels criminal to read my works for free, or that they should be bound as a book ;-; i'm forever thankful for such a high compliment like that. maybe one of these days ill have a fun lil book deal, but for now all i can do is self-bound my own books and pretend it's not full of detailed smut JKFHSDKJ (the middle aged moms would looooooooooove me)

[sugar-on-fries]

I love to bully linc fr fr lil bro thought he could get a fun pass 🙏

[synthetickitsune]

5, 21 & 22 (ateez or onewe ^^) ; hello, e. <333 hope you're doing well 🌷

m. <3 same for you, dear 🌸

5) Who feels the most like home?

Hmmm...... out of all my biases, I'd probably say my svt bias line? But tbh, lately Minghao's attacking me A LOT with comfort feelings so I'm gonna go with him. He just radiates that calm, soothing energy and wisdom, but he's also cute and clingy and just has that annoying unhinged sibling energy sometimes?? What's more home than that?? (Also my dad is really into fancy tea and tea ceremonies so... yeah...)

22) What are they passionate about and how does that make you feel?

(and y'know what? ateez AND onewe >:D)

Yonghoon's passion is obviously his music and making weves cry and wtf he's really good at soccer??? And look, it makes me feel emotional like all his songs and I'm geniunely in awe of how hardworking is - but I wanna keep this lighthearted and the one thing he's also passionate about and that's honestly hilarious to me and that I admire greatly is how he's always trying to rizz up Kanghyun askjgdahsg because SAME 😭😭 Nothing makes my day quicker than leader line bickering lmao, I love them so much I want what they have (also he was so happy when he finally succeeded ;-;)

For Hongjoong, his passion for fashion and especially the stuff he does with his clothes is just ??? idek how to describe it, like the joy he radiates and how freely he seems to express himself in his art is just ??? i'm a mess, sir???? idk idk just something about people being creative and expressing themselves just makes me emotional wreck

21) Talk about one of your favorite features of a bias

So for Hongjoong I'm really torn between his eyes and his lips?? But probably his eyes because he's the master of facial expressions and his eye acting???? Unreal. He's just has such pretty eyes and I hope that whoever came up with putting the lil gems right under his eyes in the shoots for the spin off gets a raise

As for Yonghoon.... this will get long........... (aka i'm totally normal about him hahhahaha)

but to summarize it:

YONGHOON'S FUCKING NECK AND VEINS

(i mean who am i kidding there's not a thing about my man that doesn't make me fold like a piece of laundry but....)

I swear he's gonna be the death of me in a general sense but like ??? his fucking neck ??? and ??? the veins ???? you have no idea what that does that to me and like when he has neck tattoos????????

but when he's singing and his veins pop, it's just.... my life ends and everything, i just shut down i can't handle that... i'm just a simp

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL??????? and bro fucking knows it!!!! (as he should asgashgdajkk)

...also this made me think of yonghoon so i'm gonna put some my fave yongie pics here because i now miss him and am sad :(((

[gamerbearmira]

"So Pepa and I are married...and these three are actually ours?" Felix asked and there was a large sappy grin on his face as he stared at Pepa who smiled almost shyly in return.

"Si. Can't you tell? Lil Antonio is practically your clone, just a toad. Then again they're still growing into their bodies." Alma said with a chuckle as the Soul Queen looked at her blushing but happy daughter.

"Growing into their bodies?" Felix parroted even as he stared over at his children, HIS children. His children with Pepa. That sounded so right to him...

"Mhm. My triplets were all born Koopas. They developed slowly into their own bodies at a young age but Koopas always develop fast. Since Pepas been living in the Mushroom/Toad Kingdom and her body has absorbed and gotten more of the Mushroom Kingdom magic over the years it makes sense that they were born Toads and are developing as Toads would. They absorbed more of that magic in the womb than of her inherit Koopa and Boo magic." Alma said and Pepa hummed a bit.

"That does explain it. I got a bit worried that they weren't going to develop into their adult bodies for a while since we developed our permanent bodies at five." Pepa said looking a bit relieved that her children were just taking a while to develop and grow their permanent bodies. Since Dolores was turning ten soon she worried something was wrong since she hadn't changed from Toad yet.

"Oh there's nothing to be worried about. They're just maturing as Toads would. Just like how Julie's girls are developing as Bombs would. I wouldn't be surprised if Isabela and Dolores started getting their mature bodies soon although there's no telling what they'll be." Alma said with a chuckle and she was very excited to see what her grandchildren would become. She had the construction and art crews in her Kingdom ready to customize their rooms or build new bigger ones for her grandkids as soon as they hit the mature stage.

"What do you mean?" Felix asked confused even as he took Pepas hand and kissed the back of it.

"You're full human. Pepa might have a human appearance but she's a boo/Koopa hybrid just like her siblings. Out of the triplets, Bruno became a Lariant. Julieta is a bo-omb and Pepa is fully human in appearance but has magic and powers of her own such as her gravity control. Those three were produced by a Boo and a Koopa. So the union of a Human and a Boo/Koopa hybrid with human looks and magic of three kingdoms in her veins? Can you guess what they'll be?" Alma asked and both of the parents froze as they considered that.

There was no telling what their children would become.

No because why didn’t Felíx realize it earlier 😭😭 lil bro looks JUST like you…like dawg 💀💀

No but Fr the kids???? It’s completely random on what they would be, not just for Pepa’s, but for Julieta as well. Like it’s gonna be a surprise, don’t nobody know what to expect ☠️☠️

I was actually looking through types of species in Mario and based each of the kids after one <3

In case you can’t read my chicken scratch handwriting, here you go 👁👁:

Isabela: Piranha Plant

Luisa: Chain Chomp

Mirabel: Bowser Jr (Koopa)

Dolores: Bullet Bill

Camilo: Lethal Goob

Antonio: Dry Bones (Dry Koopa/Skeleton Koopa) w/ Polterpup (Ghost Jaguar cub Parce)

K byeeee <33 will be doing one or two more asks for the night and then I’ll answer the rest tomorrow <3

@a-bored-multifandomer

[seacollectsrivers]

EPISODE TEN i am worried

"Wherever you go, there you are" hhhh

MARY!! HELL YEAH

Ok wait quick prediction: so stede has let his imagination run a bit wild, fuelled both by his own guilt over how he left/how poor of a husband he was, AND the words of others (esp Badminton). he THINKS he has truly betrayed Mary and she has lead an awful life. Meanwhile Mary has THRIVED. and she's a lesbian.

oooh of course and she has reported him dead!! so she's a widow, and not an abandoned wife.

daughter in breeches!!

She's an artist!!

im just. AURGH. Stede could've lived his best life and left her with hers :(

oh fucking hell im gonna hate this episode. not in a "i hate this episode bad writing >:(" way im just. AAAH i don't want conflict.

i'm gonna strangle stede

is he like. self fulfilling the image he had of them. with the distance between them and stuff. and his kids wholly bored of him.

idk if you can be salty about doug here stede

I LOVE STEDE i do i'm just. very angry at him rn fhjghdkjs

"under the weather" man's HEARTBROKEN

JIM THEY'RE BACK

i love olu SO much

YESS. YESS. I LOVE THEM. GET IT JIM.

Stede is actually impressed! good!

HI HELLO HEAD FULL Mary chooses to go by the Widow Bonnet, there's an air of mystery! it's like a pirate name! but blackbeard doesn't want his name anymore and the Gentleman Pirate never stuck!! he's jealous!!

oh no Ed,,,,,

blanket fort stopppp

is he wearing one of Stede's robes :((

Therapist Lucius is one of my favourite things

if Ed cries i'll shoot Stede

LIFE BEGINS AGAIN but that's what he was gonna do with STEDE i'm EMO

will this be the birth of an even worse blackbeard oh no

i wanna make clear that i think i do understand the choices Stede made here. i'm also. angy. no talky.

GO OFF MARY THANK YOU

KJSDHFDKJH OLU COVERING HIMSELF UP. THE SOCK. DKHFDGK

I love Olu and Jim i love them SO much

Has Ed and Izzy had a lil talk about the whole uh. English Navy thing.

Ed is going like. beyond Stede and into hippie.

uh ohhhh planting some murder seeeeeeds

stop making stories out of your life

oh lord oh no

because like. now it REALLY seems like a whim. he's now seen and accepted by his peers in the upper classes, and now the whole piracy thing is really just! a rich man's little adventure in slumming it!

"he's absolutely lovely :)" -> "charles vane was my friend"

YEAH DUDE YOU HAVE A BIT OF STUFF TO UNPACK. A BIT OF TRAUMA.

Oh Stede :(

AAAAAH IZZY.

with the GLOVED HAND.

AND THE LIGHTHOUSE BEHIND IZZY.

JESUS the names. ok. ok. ok. ok.

oh is Stede drunk. oh no.

i mean this is kinda interesting. Heartbroken Ed is trying to do something wholesome and bring the crew in, heartbroken Stede is being self destructive and bringing his family down.

YOU FORGIVE HER?? okay, now, Stede. Buddy.

UH OH

JDFGJ his point of contention is the METHOD there's the Stede i love

BRO,,,, if they fake his death in a mirror to Blackbeards original plan??????

fuck offff with the flashbacks aaaaaah 😭😭😭

i love them when they're friends aww MARY you ledge

stop it stop it stop it he lets go of his HEART STOP

ED. FOR FUCK'S SAKE. NOT LUCIUS.

Does. Does this count as killing on purpose.

Wait did i not fucking call this earlier in the episode. The birth of a worse Blackbeard. I DID.

another MIRROR absolutely awful.

uh oh izzy…….

oh jesus

Bad new lads: i don't think i can fix Izzy after all.

THE BOOKS stoppppp

Pete. Won't be happy about this. Neither will Fang i can't imagine.

Yeah i can't fix izzy.

oh my god kdhjk "no that was doug! :)" i do love this hahaha

I KNEW IT THEY'RE DOING BLACKBEARDS PLAN. FUCK. RITUAL SUBSTITUTION OR WHATEVER.

the fucking. the leopard is named NED. ED. NEDWARD. i'm DYING here.

Pete :((((

WHERE'S JIM FUCKHEAD.

they cannot be this dumb. god love em.

the cabin's so empty now :(

he's a WORSE goth than when we first met him jesus fucked.

FRENCHIE :(

i cannot believe. he is about to use the Art of Fuckery to execute Blackbeard's corpse plan. on himself. to RETURN to Blackbeard.

he called him Bonnet :(

CANNIBALISM AGAIN

I'M SO EMO NO TALKY

[ashiemochi]

About chapter 57!! First can I say that I was mad and sad that so ah couldn't stay with leon :') like no hunnigan it wasn't just a mission to leon they're in love!!!!

I really loved the interaction between leon and diane, the way she was trying to make him feel better about so ah leaving </3 love her for that

I can't believe they don't see each other for months omg </333 btw it was so funny how leon accepted so fast to go to the gala djsjsj and that part where he's calling chris at 3am 😭 love that so ah is also asking him about leon <3

And ahhh I missed minji <3 and I'm so happy she's pregnant dhshsh this is so cute ok!!!

That part where leon is in the art gallery watching so ah's paintings, I found it so adorable when he saw that painting and he instantly felt love like??? I LOVE THAT and when he went against mr baldy to win the auction jdjsjs it was so funny when he said "I like the colours" when he asked him why he wanted the paintings 😭 dude literally spent one million over a painting damn I wish I could do that too........... (and I really loved that whole part where he was just gazing at the painting thinking about the meaning of so ah's art please he's so in love)

Loved when leon, minji and jaehyun were waiting for their father's speech it's so funny how minji is defending him while jaehyun couldn't care less 😭

And omg I absolutely wasn't expecting Claire to appear!!! But I really liked it's great to see her <3

And so ah playing the piano <333 that whole part was so well written I loved it!!! She was so cute at the end with her little speech :(

The switch to her point of view was great, I liked that we could see how she was feeling bc it must have been nerve wracking!! And when leon comes up <333 they're finally reunited <333

It's so great that she doesn't have the plaga in her anymore!! Her condition made me think so much of sherry's and jake's djsjsj (they need to meet) tho I can understand how frustrating it must be to not be able to get hurt or sick.... that whole thing is literally life changing :/ but leon trying to make her feel better <333 damn they're so great together

I'm so excited for their date!!! Finally!!! I feel like it's gonna be one of my favourite chapters!!!

As always thank you for such great chapters <333 and I'm probably a tad ahead but happy new year <3

this chapter was kind of a PAIN to write😭 I never looked up actual gala invitations and rules of an auction so much so that I had a dream I was hosting an auction like NOOOOO!!!

The change from the outbreak to normal days was probably one of the most difficult yet relieving thing to write, I had to remember how the neighbourhood was, what's Diane's personality like- i actually reread some previous chapters to remember those days and write em <3

THE GALA, bro as much as he's such a minor character, Michael (the douche) was fun to write and Patrick too (man i need to see more of him!! I need more Patrick!! He's so attractive in Infinite Darkness😭)

Once again, Leon is rich and no one can convince me otherwise-

It's ironic........ that so ah's condition is similar to both jake and sherry that them meeting up at some point would be almost funny yet interesting to see👀 Since the vaccine came from her and the dso along with the bsaa own her case, there's bound to be few very specific people who now know about her👀👀 and that's all imma say-

I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter! The next chapter was actually one of my favourites to write! So I hope you enjoy it and please look forward to it! <33 happy new year!!

did you know my bday is 22/02/2022 this year- just a lil fun fact because I think imma wake up with superpowers or sumn-

link to fic!💕

[fandomgirlz01]

You Can't Just Up and Leave Me Like This! Pt.3

Imagine on my fandom Instagram?: No

Prompt?: Yes {You can't just write me a letter like this then leave me.}

Request?: No

Requested prompt?: No

Edited: Yes

Word count: 2459

Master List

Warnings Here

You can listen to the story be read out loud here.

I listened to the song above while writing it, it in no way shape or form was written off of the song, it just goes along with this short story really well.

Your Pov: When I got home last night, my brother picked me up from the airport and drove me home. As soon as we got there, my brother had pulled me into a hug and just let me cry. We sat in the car for a few minutes before getting out and quietly going into the house because my parents were asleep.

My brother had helped me carry my bags in and asked if I needed anything else. I had told him no and just walked to my room. I changed and got ready for bed, but couldn't sleep a wink.

So here I am at twelve o'clock on the next day, laying in my bed, just crying and wondering if I made the right decision. I sniffle and blow my nose, then sink down into my (more like his) sweater, one I've kept for years.

I have the TV on and I'm watching The Princess Bride when my phone goes off. I groan and pick it up to see who's texting, only to see that it's Sammy.

Samantha😝: Hey, how are you doing?

Y/n: as well as I can......

Samantha😝: I'm sure with time you'll heal. It'll all be ok.

Y/n: I don't know Sammy, I can't do it anymore, I just.....

Samantha😝: You just what?

Y/n: I just want to be happy, I haven't been in a while.

Samantha😝: I know, hang in there. All will be ok in the end.

Y/n: Thank you for everything. Love you 💙.

Samantha😝: Love you too lil sis ❤️.

Y/n: oh great, now I have two overprotective brothers..... 😜

Samantha😝: oh hush..... you love it!

Y/n: Yeah I do.....

Samantha😝: I'm here anytime. Anyway I have to go, I'll talk to you later yeah?

Y/n: yeah sure.

I close out my phone and let out a small giggle.

Man, I miss him already.... I miss them all....

At that thought, I start to cry again and decide to cuddle the bear that I have. Again, given to me by Colby.

Will the pain ever go away?

I look around and see tissues all over my floor, so I decide to get up and clean them up a little bit. I throw some in the trash before there's a light knock on my bedroom door.

"Come in," I say and my brother sticks his head in the door.

"Hey, mom said I needed to tell you we are going to see a movie. Wanna come along?" He asks and I shake my head no.

"I think I'll stay here and get cleaned up a bit, then draw. I haven't drawn in so long...." I say and he nods.

He comes over to me and hugs me, then runs out my door like a crazy person and yells down the stairs as he goes down them to reach our parents.

"She said no!" He yells and almost immediately I hear a smack sound, then him saying "ow".

I giggle from the top of the stairs as he rubs his head and our mom looks triumphant.

"No yelling in the house, Christopher!" She says, scolding my brother and he huffs out some air while crossing his arms over his chest.

"I'm twenty-two and a half. Yet I'm still getting scolded by my mom," He says and I giggle.

"Chris, she'll always scold us... that's a mother's job," I say and he just gives off a huff of air making us all laugh.

"Sweetie, you sure you don't wanna come?" My dad asks and I swat the air.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. Have fun," I say and nod as they finish putting on their light coats.

"Ok bye baby we'll be home soon!" My mom says waving up at me and I wave back.

Once the door closes, I go back into my room and grab my art set that I've had for years. I sit down on my bed and put my hair up into a messy bun, then I start to look through my old drawings.

*Colby's Pov:*

I get into Kansas City late in the night and Gage picks me up. He looks for bags, then at me and I shrug.

"Where are your bags, bro?" He asks and I smile a small smirk.

"Uhhh, I don't really have any...." I say and he raises an eyebrow at me.

"Why don't you have any?" He says and I look around for a moment before looking back at him.

"Uhhh, it was a spur-of-the-moment kinda trip. A really last moment trip idea. I didn't have any time or thought of needing to pack. I just came," I say and rub my neck, not wanting to tell him why I'm actually here just yet.

"Ok..... You should have some at home anyway," He says and we start walking towards the airport doors. "So.... you gonna tell me why you're here yet?" he stops to look at me and crosses his arms.

"Can we just get in the car and then I'll tell you?" I ask and it's like he noticed that I became nervous, so he just nods and we continue on.

We walk out to the car and get in. He starts driving and for a few minutes it's quiet.

"Ok, now start explaining....." he says and I cringe, not wanting to explain why just yet.

"What? I can't just randomly come home to see you guys?" I ask nervously and chuckle.

"One, you totally can. It's nice when you do, but you forget I know you and I know for a fact that there's definitely something going on." He turns out of the airport parking lot.

"Ok, and what do you think is going on, hmmm?" I ask and he just gives me an 'are you kidding me?' look.

"Not there yet, hold on. Two, you just moved into a new house so shouldn't you be enjoying that?" He asks as he arches an eyebrow at me.

"I guess....." I mumble, confused about where he's going with his little speech.

"So if you're supposed to be enjoying it, why did you come home?" he questions me and I just shut my mouth without saying another word.

"Three, I heard y/n was back in town and mom said that her mom said she isn't doing too well. Therefore, I believe something happened with you two," He says and I nervously rub my arm.

"Fine, something did happen, it's just a lot to explain what and there is a lot going on in my head because of it," I say and put my head in my hands, not wanting to talk about this anymore.

"Colby, you don't have to tell me what's going on. But I'm here if you need me and I'm sure everything'll be ok," he says, giving me a reassuring smile.

"How can you be sure of that?" I ask and he shakes his head.

"I can't promise it, but I know you two. I've seen from day one of freshman year when you brought her home for the first time, how you two acted around each other. You and her just clicked, it was cool. She makes you happy. You're Colby and y/n I'm sure you guys will figure it out, like you guys always did when you fought," He says and smiles at me, giving me the slightest bit of reassurance.

"Thanks... I guess you're right. We are Colby and y/n," I say and smile out the window.

"But you're also an idiot...." He says and my eyes widen as he slaps me on the back of the head.

"Why am I an idiot?" I say in an offended tone and he chuckles.

"Because you didn't realize till now what you had," he says and smirks when I can't get any words out.

"Just promise me you'll stop at nothing to get her back. You guys are good together. Yeah, you're annoying, but nonetheless good together," He says and I nod at him.

"I promise. I've already promised myself I'm not leaving without her," I say and he nods in approval.

"Now, do you want to go to her place now or later?" He asks me and I look at the time to see it's almost eleven at night.

"I'll go first thing in the morning. I don't want to wake anyone in her house," I say and he nods at me as he pulls up to our street, which is also her street.

He drives past her house and I just lean my head against the window, closing my eyes. I let a tear fall and Gage pats my back. He then pulls into our driveway that's just about five driveways away from hers. I gulp and look over at her house.

All I want to do right now is run to her and hug her. I want to make her mine.

"You okay?" Gage asks me, causing me to look up at him.

"Yeah..... I'm fine." I say and slowly walk into the house with him.

We walk quietly into the house and up the stairs. We walk to our rooms and whisper quiet goodnights to each other.

Once in my room, I lay on my childhood bed and sigh as I look to my wall that has pictures of us from throughout the years. My favorite picture of us standing out:

I remember that picture like it was yesterday. She was having a bad day, so I invited her over for a movie night. Sam had to go on some trip so it was just me and her.

It wasn't like any of our past movie nights, because it was the first ever it was just the two of us. We always had Sam, Colby and y/n movie night, but Sam wasn't at this one.

We also played a little bit of Kingdom Hearts, which never happened at a movie night that Sam was at, only because Sam wasn't as into the game as we were.

But that night she was so stressed, she had fallen asleep cuddled up to me. Which was normally how it would happen, but somehow this one felt different compared to all our other movie nights.

She had fallen asleep and I covered her up, kissed her forehead and fell asleep myself. The next morning we woke up to Gage taking the picture of us on my moms phone.

Then my mom had printed it out for me to put it on my wall like the many other pictures I have of us up on my wall. I let a tear roll down my cheek then I wiped it away.

"I'm here. I promise I'm so close," I say like I'm actually talking to her but I know I'm not.

I don't know when it happened, but I fell asleep at some point in the night as I stared at all our crazy pictures we've taken over the years.

*You're Pov:* After a while I'm still looking at my drawings of him:

{A\N: Props to the actual artists these are great and very well done.}

I've done a bunch of just Colby over the years, I'd always catch myself just drawing his face whenever I had time. We'd be at lunch and I'd draw him, if we were in English and I was just doodling in my art book I'd draw him. I always did it as a habit whenever I was bored or had nothing to do.

It was a mindless action, I never thought before I drew. It was like whatever it came out as it came out as and most of the times it came out as Colby.

I finish flipping through my art book and go to the next blank page. I then started to draw and did that for some time. When I'm done, I sit up and stretch, only for my back to give a loud crack sound.

I look at my drawings before closing the book, and what do you know. Again I had drawn Colby's face from memory without even thinking about it. I then get frustrated that he's the only thing I can seem to draw, so to calm myself I call Sam.

"Hey, what's up?" He asks and I don't say anything, just letting my breath get faster.

"Hey! What's wrong! Are you having another panic attack? You haven't had one for years," he says in a rushed tone.

"S-s-Sam... I-I-I can't h-h-he won't g-g-get outta my head!" I say as I start to panic a little more.

"Hey, hey. Breathe..." he says and does a light breathing exercise with me, but it barely works.

"Hey, do you have your medicine?" He asks and I nod before realizing he can't see me.

"Y-y-yes, b-b-but you know th-that won't work to ca-calm me d-down!" I say with quite difficulty as my words just come sputtering out.

"It will calm you down enough for you to at least catch your breath y/n. You gotta take it," he says and I run upstairs to my bathroom.

I take the medicine and sit curled up by my tub as Sam just talks me down.

"Hey, it's ok. It's ok. Wanna talk about it?" He asks and I sigh.

"Might as well. I can't draw anything without it being his face....." I say in a disheartening tone.

"Awe y/n. It'll be ok," He reassures me and continues to talk to me for a while.

About an hour later, he has to go so he hangs up.

"Ok, are you sure you'll be ok if I go?" He asks and I take a second to think.

"Yeah, Sam, I'll be fine," I say quietly.

"Ok. Please call me if you need anything at all," he says and I smile a very small smile.

"Ok I wi-" I don't get a chance to finish my answer to Sam as I hear a knock at the door.

"Sam, I have to go now too," I say as I get up off the couch and fix my bun with my phone between my arm and ear.

"Ok. Are you sure you'll be fine?" He asks and I hum.

"I have to be fine at the moment, someone's here. I'll call you back later," I say and he agrees then hangs up the phone.

I go to open up the door without even looking out the peephole, and what's outside makes me immediately fall to the ground.

No I cant, why is he here?! He shouldn't be here!

To Be Continued...

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i have a uniform that i wear but it's really casual and i can wear jewelry and stuff. i can even dye my hair because no one ever sees me other than my coworkers haha. hopefully i can dye it purple soon;; i think it just depends on what job you end up in, honestly. lol gee i sure wish my coworkers were that cute and lovable. they're cool, tho. ewewew high school boys nasty;;

haha you should do whatever makes you happy;; when i say video games i mean like. animal crossing, pokemon. there are people who play call of duty and people who play cooking mama and i'm over here with cooking mama, you know? but i also spend tons of money on food and omg. i love art so much. like its a part of my identity i lost because i got discouraged and unhappy with everything i made ;-;

and it's okay;; lol i honestly can't give her that much advice other than to communicate with him and figure out what she likes? like it's not that simple but she has never even explored her sexuality so i think she kind of threw herself into it;; honestly i think it's normal to go into these things without planning, tho. alot of people go through really sad or difficult relationships before they find someone good. i honestly won't find someone any time soon because i'm too scared of all the bad stuff haha. but it's okay, i'm busy anyway lol

this is so long i'm sorry ;-;

I’m getting my hair dyed pink on Feb 24th!!!! (lil 21st present for myself hehe) What color is it now?? Imma be working for the US government most likely 🤡 🤡 but out of the country hopefully so its gonna be those hillary suits for me 🤧 yes thats why I left the job. 

Haha I’m definitely doing neither, I was a bomb ass bitch on candy crush, subway surfer, and maze runner as a middle schooler tho 😅 what’s your favorite type of food?? now that I’m in the south theres a drought. i miss authentic chinese food a lot but also mexican and somalian are close seconds. what art forms do you practice? I do calligraphy, make books (like the cardboard), and collaging! I'm really critical of my art too but I always tell myself I’m not a pro nor making an income off of it so it’s just something I do here and there. I hope you regain your affinity for it again

I definitely dive head first into things without thinking too much soo... but that’s sweet of you to help your friend through it! definitely, tbh i kinna have a guy waiting on me and he’s definitely amazing but it’s just not the right time. like now that im of sane of mind the prospect of a relationship is just meh. don’t be scared! tbh guys are more scared and insecure than girls are and usually their better at hiding it (if you swing that way) bro same theres no time for dick in a pandemic ahahaha. no i love your messages so much hehehe ❤️

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Jooheon friends-to-lover!AU.

Fluff, some angst. Kind of smut maybe? Nothing big.

That's my first au so please let me know if you guys liked. Enjoy ♡

~ I'm so soft for this picture shit

So, my english it's not good at all but I will give this shot okay? Sorry anyway

You are a artist in your "free time" and during the day you actually work in yours parent's company, since you did administrative college and the work pay your bills - also, it's not bad at all. It's a tourism company so you just enjoy taking care about the most political things.

It happens that you know Hyungwon because your parent's and his parent's know each other for a looong time, which it's okay for you??? Yeah, hyung it's a nice guy... but you just don't like him that much, not that close friends you know?

It's Friday night, your friends are in your apartment listening some Lo-Fi Playlist while taking about boring stuff of life, broken hearts memorys and how you all love the idea of having a art gallery together. Some of them are plastic artists, some are photographer's , writers and of course, like you, the painters.

The wine and some crazy cocktails with too much vodka were making everyone's take long laughs and blush more than normally.

You just stopped a moment to appreciate your friends.

" hey y/n, wake up lil bitch, can you do this for me?" You shaked your head to pay attention in your friend.

" hm, sorry, what? " you turn completely to her, showing that you're absolutely focusing on her straight away.

" please help me with your friend hyungwon~~~ " she was making the cutest face ever, you rolled your eyes but couldn't help but smile. Your thoughts actually came seen both of them as a couple and Yeah, can work quite good... why not?

" sure, but you know his an idol right? The only reason why any of the fans have killed me yet it's because they know that we are like cousins, almost family and we are not THAT close."

She keeps saying how you should help her and you just did it.

After thinking a lot you called hyungwon with a good idea in your head.

" hey sleephead, how are you?" You smile, FaceTiming with the most sleepy boy ever.

" I am a very hard worker miss y/n! I am going to see you in the barbecue in two days, why did you call me?" The fact that his voice was so soft and calm made your heart melt for your friend.

" I am not going to the barbecue... neither are you actually..." " it's that so?" He laugh putting his hands on his mouth

" yes mister, I will tell why!!!! Party at my place, pizza and some snacks, my crazy but very artistic friends anddd your idols friends. What do you think?"

"yes mister, I will tell why!!!! Party at my place, pizza and some snacks, my crazy but very artistic friends anddd your idols friends. What do you think?"

"sounds GReAT! Let's do it but I am bringing the alcohol because literally you are weiiird" he rolled his eyes.

" whatt? What do you mean crackhead?"

" if I put sugar plus sixteen shots of vodka its your perfect drink, but if I gave you a sip of beer you're making the most gross face ever!"

you literally said that you will kill him but he's right. You ended the call, thinking that you know hyungwon for decades but never meet his members.

Of course you knew monsta x, you're not a dumb shit but you never talked to them. Only Wonho, twice, he was in hyungwon bedroom and pick up your call but that's it.

you texted to your friends in the chat group saying about your plan to get hyungwon with your friend, but nothing very pushy... just to give a little hand.

You searched the names of the others members and find yourself having,,, a,,, crush in ... jooheon?

WHO IS HIM OH FUCK HE'S LOOKS GOOD UHUM.

You decided that the best thing you can really do is sleep and let it go. He's an idol, nop, let it go girl...

this two finals days have been very slow but not boring, actually you worked very hard and everything was looking just fine,,, which is strange!!!! But you just thought " yeah maybe life is planning something huh? I can see it coming"

okay, Friday night, you were getting your makeup ready, really soft glam but nothing too big. Dressing a revealing outfit but very comfy also, high waisted ripped jeans with a white cropped and a militar jacket. Your hair was beautiful, just do way you like it and you smile seeing the final result.

your friends were coming and soon hyungwon was in your door, holding a lot of snacks and the drinks. You greet him and two of the members that get in with him: minhyuk and shownu.

Minhyuk was really loud and that matched with your friends just instantly. Shownu was more quiet but he's sweet personality make everyone fell warm around him.

Soon Chankyun, Wonho and Kihyun arrived. Everyone was playing a drinking game and no sign of jooheon. You didn't want to make this weird question because you didn't know him anyway.

The bottle was pointing you and hyungwon.

"So loser, truth or dare?"

" Dare but remember that I have some photos of you before you fixed your eyebrows so be careful"

you were like BiTCh ShUUUt UPPP okay ~~ " yeah yeah chill boy, I dare you to give a kiss IN THE CHEAK CALM DOWN in the two most beautiful girls here"

he let a sign but just smiled, he got up and kissed your cheak - of course since he likes to breath - and OMG YOUR FRIEND OH SHIT IS HAPPENING.

everyone just give them a " uhuhhhh" " nice"

you hear the door and opened very quickly.

" hi, you're y/n right? " and that was it. Your heart just skipped a beat, the most handsome men with the brightest and most beautiful smile in the world was right in front of you.

" yes! Hi, come in, jooheon right?" You give him space to come in. Calm. The. Fuck.down.

every since jooheon got in, the game got more focused in actually make people drink, everyone was wasted in less than two hours.

" hyungwon" Wonho was supposed to ask a true " is it true that you said to us to not even look at y/n BUT if someone was suppose to do that it can only be jooheon?"

you blushed very hard trying to not laugh and jooheon did the same, what on Earth is happening?

" yes but really y/n!!! jooheon and you!!! I always wanted to introduce both of you but I don't want to make things weird." Hyungwon was saying slowly, moving his hands and petting your head like a lil kid.

The night continued and you finded yourself in the kitchen putting more snacks when jooheon was right next to you.

one minute was like hey and other both of you were talking about the music industry and real talents,, like bffs omg.

" yeah like Chris Brown its nice but he's sexist!!! Look, you and your band can't even get a fucking tattoo and guys like him can beat up his girlfriend or some of them can rape woman and everyone still liking them? Unfair to me bro. " you said eating one of the chips.

" yo you are so fucking right! Like wtf he can be good but that's a lot of new good people that will act like Jesus to get one percent of this guys fame" He said very seriously.

you two keep talking until your friends called you in a rush.

everyone was pointing to the roof, where the window was open and you could see hyungwon very close to your friend, FLIRTING AF!!! YOU WERE SO PROUND AND HAPPY.

" wow I think you are a Cupid right? " jooheon smiled at me and we joined to everyone's conversation until 3 am.

when everyone left, jooheon put his hand in your shoulder and asked your number. You give it to him smiling, saying that you will wait for his text.

since that day, everyday that passed you and jooheon became inseparable and you just felt so safe and warm with him.

after four mouths, he became your bestie. No, you didn't tell your feelings because you were afraid!!!! He's too much, you can't!!!

' can I just come over to cuddle with you? Tough day :( ' he texted you. 'Sure dude, doors, my sofa and my arms are open to you.' You texted back.

'on my way little bee' since you called him joohoney or just honey, he started to call you lil bee, it was cute sure thing but made your heart beat faster than normal, what is not actually good.

" heey little bee, I am here" he said closing the door " I brought you Chinese food".

" I can't live without you anymore, you bring me food!" You hugged him but he hugged you tight, for maybe more than just 20 seconds. " hey joohoney, are you okay?"

- he looked at you with tearing eyes, shaking his head in a no. You hold his hand but pushed him to the sofa. You put a blanket on him, brought his food for him, putting in the table in front of him and hugged him inside the blanket.

" you know you can tell me anything right?" I smiled to him, holding his hands.

" y/n " he looked deep in your eyes " please tell me you don't see me only as a friend."

you have no answer. Of course you don't, but what if... You don't want to screw up everything, you don't see yourself without jooheon anymore. Also the fans, the idol life, your busy jobs...

" please look at me and say that you feel the same. Say that you want me too"  he was really close to you, you can feel his slow breath and how good he smells.

fuck it.

you kissed him. You don't know why but you just did it, and giiiiirl it was dawn good.

his lips were smooth, he put his hands in your face to make the kiss more deep but still soft.

you just feel him anywhere everywhere and all you could think is " why did it take so long? I been ready for this kiss since hyungwon get it monsta x"

since you were apart now, jooheon hugged you and whispered in you ear " please be mine, please"

you felt goosebumps and look at him again. You felt his lips on yours once again but this time hungry, with passion and desire. You couldn't stop, we was addictive, like a dream but so much intense.

his hands now were all over your body and he layed you down in the sofa. The make out session was becaming something more. He's volume now was pressing against your sex and you could feel yourself getting more and more wet every kiss and everytime his hands traveled for your body.

" we should stop right now or I will be hard for me to stop, princess" he whispered looking to you breathless.

" please don't stop jooheon" you said that with all your heart, you need him. " I need you".

that was all jooheon need to know. He didn't stop and girl, cof cof the boy IS GOOD.

you slept together cuddling in your sofa, naked and feeling like finally things were right.

in the next day, you woke up and turn over to see jooheon. He was sleeping like an angel, he was so beautiful and that was scary for you, why would he choose you?

" what is going on in this pretty head huh?" He asked slowly opening his eyes and giving you a soft kiss in your forehead.

" nothing, just happy to be with you."

" God, I am waiting for this for so long, don't ever let go, I am really in love with you y/n so please be my girlfriend."

you smiled and nodded, kissing him. " of course, you're my honey boyfriend, and I am in love with you too"

since this day you were a couple.

jooheon was the best boyfriend.

rap battles to see who gets the last slice of pizza.

pillow talk with some chill lo-fi. Deep stuff and the most funniest inside jokes that make you cry for laughing so hard.

sometimes when you open the door for him he just closes the door with you and take you right there ;) " I been thinking about you and your sexy body the hole day, do you know how crazy I am for you?".

trying to cook for you in the dorms but kihyun and minhyuk can't let him live in peace.

watch some classic films with you. Cry in some fluffy scenes and says how grateful he is for having you :').

making you massages in bad days.

but honestly he is so jealous about hyungwon and you. Even tho hyungwon and your friend are dating for longer than you two.

no big deal, he just get like " please give me more attention I love you more than him :( " and it's a big teddy bear uwu.

... part 2 is here.