#like.... woagh people perceive me....... and i have impact on the world.........

[soul-teller]

Agree with other anon, to be honest I forgot why I followed you but I don't think I'll ever want to unfollow, I would miss the strawberry on my dashboard blogging about things like Spantom (??) and Gravity Falls

AWWWW 🥺🥺🥺

THANK U SO MUCH.... I also relate to the "forgetting why i followed you in the first place but we're connected now" stuff ehahaha :D suppose that's just the Tumblr ways......

[cinrambles]

woagh (suicide and sensitive topic mentions)

I don't think I've ever told anyone this but I've seriously contemplated suicide multiple times. It doesn't happen often, but there are just some days where I'm at rock bottom and I just wanna disappear? Be gone??? Anywhere but here. When people mention suicide I start getting really anxious and rub my wrists because they start to get sensitive. Note: I have NEVER self-harmed, calm down 😭 it's just a weird reaction I get.

I don't consider myself to be suicidal though??? I still want to live. I don't want to die, even though I tend to joke about it a lot (mainly as a coping mechanism) Y'all know that song by Logic?? 1 800 273 8255?? I immediately recognized the song title as the suicide hotline number and I listened to it and it struck a chord so deep within me?? Like yeah of course I'm gonna relate cause the main person of the video is gay, but I've never felt bad about my sexuality or ashamed of it (which is really lucky considering the hell people get and their insecurity) so I couldn't really truly resonate with the guy at first. Then he started singing about just wanting to die and disappear and I just got really upset cause he shouldn't??? I appreciate him and I value human life and I understand what he's going through. It just,,, really spoke to me when he started regaining a will to live and even felt determined to keep going??? I really enjoy the simple things in life cause there's not a lot to go for, I've stopped attempts multiple times because i would think that I would never see my dog again, or I'd never drink my favorite drinks and never get to grow up and be with someone I love in a home. I just really appreciate the domestic lifestyle, I don't need glamour or money to be happy. I'm still alive cause of the simple things, which is why I really hate when people accuse me of being corrupt (@ amino) cause I'm in this mortal coil to pet some goddamn cats???? I'm not here to ruin your day calm down, I'm here for some self-care and to live my life even for the smallest things. People who wanna start drama???? I'm not gonna engage at all, stop trying. I'm not here for you.

I've never seen someone suicidal meet another suicidal person who encouraged the other to die. They always comfort each other. That just makes me double think about how I perceive myself, we all just need to be reassured that we're loved and understood. Be positive! Try to seek out things that make you laugh like videos or visiting some old fandom flame of yours, whatever as long as you're happy. Be humble, just try to leave as much of a positive impact in the world as you walk through it, it's really important to do that cause you're always gonna regret not spreading good after you've been through a lot of pain. Self care is important! Just chill, you'll have bad days but there is always a tomorrow. Something will cheer you up. I'm way better than I was years ago. Stick around even when you just wanna g o, it will be very very worth it. I promise.