#like... was outro: tear by bts always this incredible? (yes it was)

[hexesandroses]

I rediscover kpop every 2-3 months and lowkey get emotional every single time

[miragehoseok]

dionysus, black swan, my time, 00:00, home, epiphany, i'm fine, best of me, anpanman, 134340, outro: tear, don't leave me :)

Oh wow thanks for sending these!! I had so much fun!!

Forgive me for the long post… read more break isn’t working tonight :/

dionysus: what’s your favorite drink?

-I’m assuming this question is referring to alcoholic drinks, given the context loool. Alcoholic: I’m not a huge fan of alcohol tbh. I don’t mind a rum and coke, I’ll drink a beer if offered one. Non-alcoholic: I could drink thai tea every day for the rest of my life.

black swan: have you ever had to give up on a dream?

-yes. dance actually. hardest thing I’ve ever done. which is why this song is extremely meaningful to me.

my time: what do you want to do for a career?

-right now I’m on the track to be a publicist/work in entertainment marketing, but I’m really still discovering myself and what I want/am good at.

00:00: what’s your favorite childhood memory?

-any of the family trips to Disney World. Ridiculous amounts of nostalgia and joy from those memories.

HOME: where do you want to live in the future?

-i like where i am tbh, though I’d like to be closer to the city.

Epiphany: what is your favorite look on the members of bts?

-alright so of course I can’t just choose one ot7 look I like, oh no, I have to take this individually. So here we go:

Joon: oh this is so difficult as I’m so incredibly biased but… cyan joon is something else man. either this or dionysus.

Jin: fire mv jin lives in my head rent free

Yoongi: is this an actual question? daechwita agust d all dayyy

Hobi: platinum hoseok was and is a cultural reset

Jimin: p l e a s e

Tae: in the soop tae makes me weep

JK: this black swan jk! this black swan jk! I am hopelessly attracted to men in general doing contemporary dance so I was already in trouble but then he comes out here looking like THIS. sigh.

My tastes are varied, as you can see.

I’m Fine: would you rather never tell the truth or always tell the truth?

-Always tell the truth. I’m already not fond of lying so it wouldn’t be any different really

Best of Me: would you rather give your all and fail, or cheat your way into getting what you want?

-I would rather give my all and fail. that’s my least favorite feeling but… I couldn’t sleep with the fact that I didn’t belong where I was because I cheated to get there.

Anpanman: if you could have one superpower what would it be?

-Teleportation!

134340: what is your favorite thing in space?

-I’ve always loved Saturn. The rings!

Outro: Tear: favorite outfit on your bias?

-an impossible question…

But this is the joon that made me realize he was my bias so…

Don’t Leave Me: favorite japanese song by bts?

-Film Out!!

[hobidreams]

Rain’s BTS Song Starter Pack

compiled for a lovely anon looking to get into BTS’ music 💖 please take my opinions/ramblings/recs with a grain of salt!! i tried to select a wide variety of songs to introduce them well :’)

upbeat songs:

Fake Love / alternative Rocking vers - maybe i’m a little biased but this was the song that dragged me into the fandom!!! i don’t know what it is about it. the vibe was just felt really different from the kpop i was used to. the lyrics are so interesting & i think highlights all the members really well so it’s a great place to start. i like the Rocking Vers just a liiiittle bit more than the original :p

Danger - i found BTS’ hip-hop style difficult to get into at first bc i am just not used to listening to that kind of music, esp in their earlier eras. but i LOVED Danger immediately. everything is just so ON POINT.

Blood, Sweat & Tears - goooooood. such an incredible song that is performed to utter perfection. the stages of this song are really what solidified my Love for Hoseok, seriously. 

Outro: Tear - an all-rap song that is delivered with such... energy & pain. the lyrics are absolutely haunting, gorgeous.

Nevermind - this song gives me strength always. just read the lyrics :’) i think about the message often.

Mic Drop - i actually prefer the non-English version that i linked up above, but both are so solid. this song & choreo = so much fun. 

Baepsae - i love the message behind the lyrics & honestly it can’t listen to it without thinking of their hip thrusts but. yeah. LOL. i love the attitude in it so much.

Airplane Pt. 2 - i feel like i never see anyone talking about this song but i just am in LOVE with the entire vibe of it. it’s fun, it’s breezy, it’s sexy. i swear i watched every stage when i was a new fan!

Boy With Luv - i really really love this direction that their music is moving towards. like just the sheer cuteness & sweetness of this song 💕

softer songs:

Butterfly / Prologue Mix (bit longer, Jin has more lines) - yes. just. so fucking good. Butterfly takes my heart & squeezes it until i am just a puddle of emotions. please watch the stage it is beautiful

Spring Day - OF COURSE i had to mention our QUEEN!! this song is always on the charts for a goddamn reason!! it perfectly demonstrates BTS’ ability at capturing the Korean sense of ‘Han’ & is a masterpiece of longing.

The Truth Untold - ... i don’t even know what to say. the first time i heard this song it knocked me on my ass with its emotional impact. please read the lyrics T_T

Promise - Jimin’s solo songs are among my favorites, but this one really hooked me.

Awake / Epiphany - listen to them one after the other & note the evolution in the lyrics!! :’) these songs truly give me a lot of strength.

of course, there are also the solo albums (Agust D/Mono/RM/Hope World) & collabs with other artists!! i highly recommend all of those as well :’) but yeah, i basically started with these songs myself & fell down the rabbit hole into everything else. they just have such a diverse discography that i am STILL discovering songs i haven’t listened to yet LOL. enjoy!!

[johnhaos]

mot:7 album breakdown!!! give me all your long rambles and thoughts/rankings bro!!

hhh ok this is super late i’m so sorry so this is going to be a few initial thoughts that i /did/ note down but then mostly how i feel about the songs after ~a week i guess (also some of this is probably similar to stuff you said sorryyy, it just took me f o r e v e r to put my thoughts somewhere other than a computer file oops)

going to skip the songs from persona but wow am i mad they sacrificed mikrokosmos and home for make it right :/

anyway!! thoughts on the songs below the cut!!

interlude: shadow - sigh i do this every time but i wish i’d noted down some thoughts on this (& black swan and ego) when they first came out because now i don’t know what to say rip, i love the instumentals at the start of this wow and then yoongi’s voice !!!! the lyrics on this are just a lot emotionally gosh, and it’s a lot of stuff that we’d heard yoongi talk about before, i’m thinking especially of his poem in that run episode, but it still hits hard. G O D and then when the beat gets heavier (is that the right word) and his flow completely changes - i remember just staring at the screen when the mv came out oh my life

black swan - i really liked this when it came out, it was so different and hauntingly beautiful. i didn’t have the same instant love for it as i did for boy with luv but i really love it now, i think seeing that first stage of it on james corden really helped tbh because WOW. hobi’s verse into yoongi’s is such a GOOD part of this song i love it. you can tell how personal the lyrics are to them but at the same time it’s so relatable ;;;; i think that can apply to lyrics in a lot of their songs tbh and it’s one of the things i really love about them, that their music can be an outlet for their own thoughts/experiences/feelings while also calling out to the fans and /their/ thoughts/experiences/feelings

filter - killed me from the first listen oml, my mind immediately trying to imagine what kind of choreo this could have hahahh it’s fine. i adore the warm comfort of serendipity and promise but i also LOVE how different this is. jimin’s voice is just beautiful and he sounds gorgeous in his higher range but OH MY GOD those moments when his voice just goes so much deeper - the ‘yeah’ at ~2:09 Gand the 'ay’ near the end GOODBYE

my time - again so different from jk’s previous solo stuff, i love the way they’re exploring different sounds on this album. his vocals sound so beautiful on this track. i love the change in lyrics in the final chorus from 'i can’t’ to 'will you’, the song is so emotional the whole way though but i like that shift into a more hopeful/optimistic view ;;; and ahhh the vocalising at the end YES JK

louder than b/mbs - AHHH we really got a bts/troye sivan collab i’m so happy about this and oml the track is beautiful not that i’d expect anything less from that combo wow. i really love the way the vocal lines voices sound in this song and their high notes YES. namjoon’s voice in this oh my G O D and yoongi’s verse is amazing omg. i love when the rap lines parts all follow on from each other because it really lets you see how different they are but also how damn well they work together. this was probably one of the songs that i liked most on first listen and i still really love it CHILLS

ON - ahhh i hadn’t listened to the teaser for this beforehand so i really had no idea what to expect when i started the mv but wow this goes OFF, it’s got such a powerful performance value i really cannot WAIT to see what they do with this for tour oml. the drums!!! HOBI’S VERSE YES i love it ahhh and yoongi repeating the last line of hobi’s verse at the start of his SO GOOD. and not to sound like literally everyone but JK’S BRIDGE oh my god OMG?? he really did that he sounds incredible. an amazing title track oml

ugh! - *confession time* (why do i always do this for one track every album istg) i really wasn’t sure about this one for a looong time…. i’m not really sure why tbh because the beat is great, their flows are great and i could already sense the amazing energy it would have live from the first listen but for some reason i just wasn’t feeling it. it’s grown on me a hell of lot since, not one of my faves from the album but i definitely like it a lot more now. namjoon’s verse and the start of hobi’s are probably my favourite parts. GAH the bit at the end really goes off!!!

zero o'clock - ohh this is beautiful, vocal line tracks are always gorgeous ;;;; also i am very glad that i didn’t do a listen with lyrics until a few days after it dropped, it made me sob anyway when i did but oml if i’d looked up the lyrics on release day when i still felt /awful/ after my terrible week i can’t even imagine how i’d have felt…. 'and you gonna be happy’ artists for healing indeed ;;;

inner child - the instrumentals are so beautiful and tae’s voice is so beautiful and the lyrics are so beautiful and ahhh gosh i love this and him a lot ;;;; another one that made me cry when i listened with lyrics, the 'you’re my boy’ bit always gets me

friends - MY HEART this is the cutest damn thing just them reminiscing and showing their love for each other they’re so precious ;;; i love the inclusion of tae’s 'hey jimin, oneul’ from when they were recording it’s such an adorable personal touch. and when they call each other soulmate PLS. ahhh and i love the bit at the end with the gang vocals and the clapping it’s such a good end. i can’t wait to watch them be soft af with each other on stage performing this oml

moon - the first thing i wrote about this on first listen was just 'JIN’S VOICE ahhhh’ and i stand by that!! he really does sound amazing and i love that it’s upbeat, we know jin can kill it on a ballad but hearing him do something different is so nice as well. i really love the melody for this song so much it’s so lovely and the lyrics are so sweet i love it, i love JIN ;;;

respect - i love the beat for this so much oml, the AYO SUGA pls ;;; best throwback, god i’m so unbelievably happy to have a yoongi and namjoon subunit song and they really just bounce off each other so well. and i love the bit of satoori dialogue at the end!! this is such a JAM

we are bulletproof: the eternal - my first listen notes: 'oh nooo, this is the sad emotional one isn’t it ;;;; 'yeah we have you’ pls stop i can’t deal with this’, i really did expect this to have a similar vibe to the other we are bulletproofs hhhh, should have seen this coming with it being the second to last song though rip, but wow this song is beautiful and will 100% make me cry live ;;;; i love hobi’s verse in this, there’s always something about his verses in the slow, emotional concert ending-type songs that really gets me. gosh i just love them all so much and i’m so so glad that i found them

outro: ego - sdfgfa the mood change here, they said no more tears time to BOP. as i said for shadow i really wish i’d written down thoughts about this when the mv came out sigh. but it’s just so beautifully hobi and ahh it’s been 2 years since hope world so i’ve listened to that a lot today as well and it fits so perfectly with that vibe!!!

so yeah overall i really love this album, yay!!

[crytaeby]

Bts Tag Game:

Tagged by my lovely, Monie. @tatavangogh 💜

| @mintkth @bangtansfiction @4hyyh @quichetein @jinsapeach @countrysundae |

1) First BTS Song?

- DNA! My friend was trying to get me into kpop— she likes NCT more— so i didn’t really see much of them from what she showed me. The ‘Touch’ music video was trending (march 13th is my anniversary!) and i decided to watch it, which had DNA autoplaying next and it was over from there.

2) First Bias?

- Taehyung! When he starts off DNA and does that ‘i’m watching you’ move, I remember immediately picking my phone up and texting my friend asking her who he was.

3) Current Bias?

- Taehyung! I’m loyal 🤪no but really i’ve loved him since the beginning.

4) Put The Members In Order Of Your Bias List: Okay, so even though it’s ranking them, they’re all still number one in my heart.

- Taehyung, Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon, Jin, Jimin, Jungkook.

5) Favorite Song?

- I really can’t pick. Paradise, maybe? Just the whole Tear album is amazing.

6) Favorite Underated Song?

- O!RUL8,2? Outro: Luv In Skool / Skool Luv Affair: Where You From.

7) Favorite Song from Wings?

- Stigma, but the rapline hits hard.

8) Favorites from LY: Her, Tear, & Answer?

- H: Best of Me, Outro, GoGo, DNA.

- T: Singularity, Paradie, Outro.

- A: All New Solo’s.

9) Favorite MV?

- Run/I Need You

10) Favorite Dancer?

- Hobi! But i love watching them all! They’re incredible performers. (3j stay winning tho)

11) Favorite Vocalist?

- Taehyung. I absolutely adore his voice and it fits my preference more. But, man are they talented. Jin’s voice holds an emotion i can’t place, it’s just so beautiful. Jimin and Jungkook are just so so talented too, all really beautiful.

12) Favorite Rapper?

- Yoongi, but again they’re all so talented and compliment each other so well. Yoongi’s are usually really emotional and gets to your heart, while Namjoons are intellectually emotional and has you thinking, and Hobi has a fun yet peaceful vibe to his and i really love how it all ties together.

13) Favorite Hair Color for Each Member?

Jin: Blonde, and black is such a classic. Brown wings era is cute, too! I like the parted look.

Joon: Purple/Silver, but the brown i feel accentuates his dimples and make him ultra uwu.

Yoongi: All the blue/green, of course. Platinum white was really cool.

Hoseok: Red and Orange + Fake Love and Run. Oh, the blonde was so cute, too.... I’m bad at picking favorites, this is too hard.

Jimin: Orange!!

Taehyung: Silver!! (The Mullet [🤠] was seriously so cute tho pls)

Jungkook: Brown is cute! Black, maybe brown? Oh, and black too! (No but really it’s cute, he always looks nice.) The Red was such a statement, and when it faded into blonde.... yes please.

14) Favorite Choreography?

- GoGo/Anpanman. I like the upbeat ones because they look so cheerful, but the intricate ones like Fake Love are so so cool.

15) Favorite Ships?

- Taegi, Sope, Vmon......... Jinkook, vmin, namkook, Kim Line, Maknae Line, Rapper Line. They’re all too cute and too many variations, i told you i can’t pick. (i’m a soft stan, we platonic folks)

[epiphanyksj]

TELL ME ABT JK DURING UR CONCERT IN LA !!!!!! HE LOVES LA N U DIDNT TELL ME ABT IT IN DETAIL !!!!!!💞💕💖💓

oh god :(((( HHH!!!!!! ok im literally gonna go through this event by event. so I WALKED INTO THE ARENA with my friend to go find my seat and there’s a moment of silence before the beginning of danger’s mv begins playing. and up on the screen is jungkook playing outro: propose, that really pretty dramatic piano part. and let me tell you i literally burst into tears AT THAT MOMENT because it was just so overwhelming to realize that i was actually there and going to see them. and then there was the vcr and they all looked. So Good! i literally said “oh my god” so many times during the concert it was unreal i mean ive told you about this but yeah on to actual performances (read more)

so all this fire starts torching into the air and the stage lights are flashing everywhere with this dramatic music with heavy drums (think mama 2016 fire-esque). ok so im rewatching the vid i took as i write this and im laughing because everyone else is like “TRAADE OFF” and from me you just hear this hysterical “CHOO CHOO” OK thats not the point. i could barely focus in the first performance because i could not believe they were real but like he’s GORGEOUS they were all so gorgeous n i wanna gush about the others too but this is a jk ask. he is So Stable and powerful i dont know how he even does it. so after they finish performing they begin their ments…. when it goes to jk he kinda looks up like “:o its my turn” but then he goes “WASSUP” and he’s so sos ofuckginfg pretty he glows and his eyes and just his face at that point i screamed “I LOVE YOU… (weakly) jungoo….” and then he also said LONG TIME NO SEE he has the cutest voice :(.

when he starts singing in save me… his voice is so beautiful. and i already said it but his dancing is so powerful. n the way he looks at the camera… you feel it in your soul. and his voice is so good in im fine!!!!!! i was not, in fact, fine. the part where he falls to the floor then suddenly looks up is so intense.

but incredibly he looks absolutely ethereal when he stands and sings. this might sound weird but like…. the way his eyes are half closed is so pretty and he looks at peace. even more so when he closes his eyes all the way. ive said it so many times but his eyes literally are so captivating. all of bts look unbelievably good in person. also there’s supposed to be a fanchant In Magic Shop During The Instrumental Break But Nobody Did It but i faithfully went through all the way anyway.

n then. THE GOLDEN DUO VCR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! theyre so cuuuteekjsdhdskjfh :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( like it was just such a happy pure colorful lighthearted vcr!!!!!

ok not to be cheesy but i literally got goosebumps and started tearing up when i heard his voice say “euphoria” in the silence. the pretty guitars start coming in and he’s revealed on the stage. he looks so at home when he sings it and there’s golden light all around him and he’s smiling. but when it’s not the chorus the lights are a blue color and it reminds me of the ocean in the music video. he really puts so much into his singing and just his overall performance. and when he does the high note in euphoria and the golden confetti explodes into the air and shimmers in the lights.

he puts his hand to chest often when he sings like he’s feeling it in his soul. but he also jams out really cutely! he jumped around during run a lot (and yet is ridiculously stable still) and his hair is bouncy! he headbanged a little too :( at the end of run during hoseok’s part he took out his earpiece to listen to us. his part in dna with tae is so iconic!!! rapper jk!!!!!!!!! literally even just the way he sings “DNA”!!!!

he asked us if we were having fun!!!! babie :( (side note tae is SOO cute when he talks in english). also the army bomb ocean was so pretty it was a range of colors from yellow green to purple and it was this amazing gradient.

then. Then. 21st century girls. Came On. but i need to save this gushing about the song itself for the next ask. all of them gather together to jam out in the center of the stage! afterwards jk wanders around! YOU SAY YES OR NO YES OR NO WOOAAAHOHHH

this goes for everyone else too but when he sings in gogo its like the words are just rolling out of his mouth if that makes sense.

but the transition to bst. unreal but im also saving that for the next ask. god and i keep talking about jk’s dancing but seriously him and the entirety of dance line are a serious force to be reckoned with. his voice when he sings his parts is so light and fluttery.

you shouldve heard me during his rap part of boy in luv. i was like “APPAAAAAAA” “EOMMAAAAAA” “PYEONJIIII” “MWONJIII” like i think those technically aren’t his lines but that whole section. and they cut straight to the bridge instead of doing the second verse and jk’s voice there especially combined with jimin and jin. and he holds the high note!!!!!!!

but his rap part in danger. hard fucking core. he’s so talented it’s unbelievable. this man does not hesitate when it comes to bangers or when it comes to headbanging.

airplane pt2. he saunters onto the stage like nobody’s business and sits and kicks back on that damn chair with his sultry ass voice. his falsetto is gorgeous when they do that part before hoseok’s airplane rap and at the end of the song. and i know it’s only part of the studio recording but when he does the “ah ah” part i lose my mind. the way he sits with the other members surrounding him just emanates this air of power and regality but almost in a casual way like “yeah we’re royalty, what about it?”

his outfit during fake love is perfect. all of the outfits are so good i could gush about them all day but alas this is a jk ask. his sleeves are see-through and he has shiny chains going across his chest harness and i’m sure you could find pictures of it but i hadn’t looked at concert pics beforehand so i was in shock at how good the outfits were. it’s like some performing beast is unleashed from jungkook during fake love. he’s absolutely in the zone and i couldn’t take my eyes off him because his presence is so strong especially when he’s in the center. it’s like he moves his body and projects his voice perfectly to the flow and energy of the song. fake love as a whole is so captivatingly intense it’s like you’re under a spell when you watch them perform it.

ok im burning out i can only write so much DSKJHSDF but the truth untold. it’s like he transforms into full angel form at this point. his voice is incredible and his harmonies and pitch and the emotion he puts into it. also everybody say thank you stylists!

he also has such an aura during mic drop. everybody does but it seriously is honestly such a great track live because the energy is dominating and in that moment you really know that they absolutely do own the whole arena and set the stage on fire. ugh! and the strength that he has during the dance break at the end of mic drop!! unreal!

also i can’t imagine genuinely truly hating so what. like i see so many people saying they hate it but you know that when you hear it irl that shit makes you JUMP and they have so much fun on stage especially jk! we like to make fun of him for his shoot dance but seeing him go across the stage enjoying himself so much makes you feel just as much joy as him :( at this point would it really be a performance of so what if he didn’t do it?

at this point i knew that so what was one of the final performances n i was like. What. because it really passed by like a blur it didn’t feel nearly as long as it supposedly took and before i knew it they were performing anpanman so i HAD to cheer up because that song is so cute. and jk is all smiley when they perform it! nose scrunches and all! he actually gets up in a normal way during namjoon’s part. his eyes are all big and sparkly and playful and it feels very boyish!!!

N THEN DURING THE ENDING MENT JOON CALLED JUNGKOOK “MISTER COOL GUY JK” AND JK WAS LIKE “cool guy!” n then like “make some nooooiiiise!!!” n he was smiling doing his cute scrunch and rewatching this like. ive said it 50 times already but he’s seriously so pretty. his eyes are lit up and his expression is bright and there’s a blue light shining on him but his EYESSSSS :((((( he has a slight accent which is rly cute but his pronunciation is also really good and it feels like you just want to hug him really tight even though he’s sweaty but like Would I Complain.

his voice in answer: love myself is so smooth it’s like sitting in a warm patch of sun with a cool breeze looking up at the sky. ok i know i said i was burning out but am i really. rewatching the videos makes me so happy. and his harmonies were so nice. and he was moving side to side really cutely! like one of those figurines you put on the dashboard of your car and they dance side to side! n he’s so full of love. they were all moving their arms side to side and the army bombs were moving along with them i want to cry watching it again it’s so weird thinking that i was actually there it felt like everyone in the audience became one with all the members on stage jk was acting cute and he and all the members were waving to everyone in the audience in the pit and the further away and upper levels of the arena.

for a really long time i’ve never been able to pinpoint the happiest moment or memory of my life everytime ive been asked about it. for lack of a better answer i always left it vague but ever since the concert i can easily say it was the happiest i’d been in a long time and possibly ever and i wouldn’t trade that feeling for anything else in the world

[fyeahbangtaned]

Musically I am sooooo much more happy with this album than with Love Yourself: Her. It just wasn't really my cup of tea, but I love (most) of the songs on this album!! and I like the ones I don't love. I'm not as pumped about the heroine-chic styling, tbh, particularly hair-wise, but they all look so good and so beautiful always anyway so..

Anonymous said:I legit feel like this is the best album and mv they’ve ever done and it ties so many things together so beautifully

Anonymous said: This album was ambitious and well built. Arguably the best so far though the title track isn’t the main and/or only attraction. This can be a good or bad thing depending on the personal emphasis. There’s no such thing as B-side track or filler where BTS is concerned. It’s captivating from beginning to end. Well done to BTS, the staff and team (yes, ‘bighit’ too) and not least ARMYs. The wait was long, we spent it well and it was worth it.

Anonymous said: Album wise, Jimin sounds wow & those closing notes, Tae’s voice attacked me especially in opening verses as in 'untold truth’, Suga sounds incredible, J-hope too & it left me wanting more of him. Jin really improved tonality wise too. JK is golden and what a good job he did with Magic Shop. It is obvious RM worked on most tracks & hat off to him, I missed that 134340 flow of his. BTS vocal line has improved so much I’m proud, I mean Airplane pt.2 Paradise, rap line is insane on the beat.

Anonymous said: My favorite tracks upon first listen are Singularity, Fake Love, and Outro: Tear. I loooove the music backdrop of Fake Love; the bass, the beat, and the guitar, most of all, just added something extra to it. And omg, the outro was just everything I’ve been wanting to hear from the rap line/bts. I’ve been wanting them to return to a more fierce sound; which they probably will.

Anonymous said: Can we JUST TALK ABOUT how jin has so many lines akkjkkssssaa (also we are seeing a very mature side of bangtan. Wow I’m so proud of them. Especially being a long time fan and seeing their growth) 💜

[bangtanfictiondan]

A night to remember -Chapter one

Y/N’s POV

“Flight 227 to Copenhagen departing from gate 11 in ten minutes.” I’ve been listening to messages like this for over an hour now, I’m still waiting for my turn. I’m going on flight 459 to London, boarding from gate 2. It’s 7am and I barely got any sleep last night, so I should be tired, but of course I’m not! I’m going to a concert tonight, not just any concert, this is basically a once in a lifetime kind of thing since, unfortunately, I was born in the wrong country. You guessed it, I’m seeing BTS tonight, and I couldn’t be happier! Well actually I could… my mom wouldn’t let me go and since my stepbrother had something he wanted to look for, I think it was a skateboard or something, in London, she decided that we could go together. My stepbrother is kind of… I don’t know, he’s really controlling and quite mean. He actually scares me sometimes, and now I had to go to London with him, at least he wasn’t coming to the concert. “Flight 459 to London boardi-” Yes! Finally, it was my turn! I’m pretty much running straight towards the line, I end up at 6th place in line so that’s not so bad. “Hey, you can’t board without Me come back here!” I hear a voice calling. “Well shit…” I think to myself as I start walking towards him. “What the hell do you think you’re doing!?” He grabs my arm, it hurts. “Are you really that excited to see those stupid Asians that you can’t even act like a normal human being, I can’t be held responsible for your stupidity but yet that is exactly what…“ I stop listening, he let go of my arm but it still hurts a bit. We get to the end of the line and show our boarding passes, a flight attendant points us to our seats after wishing us a great flight and gives me a vague smile, I guess she feels sorry for me, she heard him while we were waiting in line.

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The plane takes off and I can’t believe it, I’m leaving my hometown to go to London, to see Bangtan, that’s crazy, right? Well I’ll go back home tomorrow morning but still. I plug in my headphones and put on some music, I prepped for the trip by downloading like a thousand songs, so I think I’ll be okay. Love maze starts playing and a smile covers my face, I sink into the music and let myself go for a while.

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We land on Heathrow and take a cab to the hotel, we get settled and he says: “Don’t go anywhere while I’m out.” And then he just leaves. I’m 18 years old I can take care of myself, there’s still a few hours left before I have to leave for the concert and I’m hungry, so I go out to get something to eat. There’s some kind of pub right down the corner so I go in there and decide to order a classic fish n’ chips. I kind of have to, I bet it’s a law for all tourists, while in London you have to eat fish n’ chips. When I’m done eating I stroll down the street, just looking at people, buildings, really cute dogs… Then I decide to go back to the hotel and get ready for the concert.

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“Where have you been!? I told you not go anywhere, you need to grow up, stop acting like such a brat and listen!” I barely made it through the door before the yelling started, apparently, he got back before I did. “I’m not a child, I can take care of myself, and I just went down the corner to get something to eat. You can’t tell me what to do, and who’s the real brat here!?” I yell back but instead of giving me an answer he hits me. His fist hits my cheekbone before I can even register what’s going down. I hear him swearing and then he storms out and slams the door behind him. By now tears are streaming down my face, he has raised his voice, even raised his hand, but he has never hit me before. I’ve always felt like he might do though so I’m not that surprised. Why now, I can’t deal with this, this day is supposed to be all fun, now I can’t even seem to get my crying ass up from the floor. “Y/N, you need to stand up, right now.” I tell myself. I stand and walk up to the mirror. Half my face is turning purple and my eye is swollen. There’s also a small notch on my cheek, it’s bleeding a little but fortunately it doesn’t seem to deep. I take a deep breath and try to push the tears away, this is nothing a little makeup can’t fix…

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A little concealer later I’ve covered up most of the purple, of course you can still see the swelling and the notch, but it’s a lot better than before. I’m not gonna let this ruin my night. Right now, I’m gonna focus on having fun, everything else is just gonna have to wait. I finish my makeup, get dressed and go down to the lobby. One of the receptionists help me call for a cab to the concert venue. The whole car ride there the cabdriver is looking at me kinda weird, it’s making me uncomfortable, but at last we arrive, I pay for the cab and get out as quickly as I can. There’s a long line to get into the venue but as soon as the doors open everything goes by quite fast. I’m there pretty early and since I got a standing ticket I’m almost as close to the stage as one can possibly get, there’s just one row of people in front of me. There’s still over an hour until the concert actually starts so in the meantime I talk to some of the other fans around me since I came there alone. It’s a lot of fun and time passes by quickly.

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The stage lights up with hundreds of spotlights and Taehyungs voice starts flowing through the arena in the beginning of Fake love. The crowd is singing along, screaming, dancing, crying, all at once, army-bombs are swaying in synchronized harmony. My whole body feels warm and I’m happier than I’ve ever been before.

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Several songs later that euphoric feeling still hasn’t left my body, I think there’s only about seven songs left. In the middle of Yoongi’s verse in Outro: Tear I start feeling lightheaded, black spots are covering my eyelids and everything sounds as if I’m under water. Suddenly I can’t even stay upright, but right when I’m about to fall someone picks me up, I try to see who it is, but everything turns black and me head falls back.

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I wake up on a black couch with two women and one of the security guards beside me. “Hey, are you feeling okay? Headache? Are you dizzy?” the women are bombarding me with questions. “I’m a bit dizzy.” I answer and try to sit up. “Was it you who carried me here?” I ask the security guard. “Yes, I saw that you were about to faint and just had time to catch you before you fell.” “Oh, thank you.” I say but can’t help but think about how incredibly embarrassing this was, he had carried me all the way here, not that I know where “here” is yet, with everybody watching… One of the women, whom I’ve now figured out are nurses, hand me a glass of water. “Do you know why you fainted? Have you eaten anything today? Have you had plenty of water?” “Yeah I have done both, but this happens sometimes, I get lightheaded really easily, I’ve gotten used to it.” “Well as soon as possible you should go see a doctor, you might have an iron deficiency or something like that, okay?” the nurse says, and I nod. Then I realize that I can still hear the music from the stage, and it’s loud, how haven’t I noticed this until now, I look around and I seem to be by the side of the stage, backstage, I guess… I still can’t really think clearly, my head is spinning. “I should get back to my position.” the security guard says. “Us too, but we’ll be right nearby if you need us, just call for us.” One of the nurses adds. “Okay, and thanks.” I respond before they leave. I can’t believe they’ll just leave me here, for all they know I could be a hired assassin, but oh well. Since I’m still quite dizzy I close my eyes and lean back. Just a short while later a voice interrupts me in my silent slumber. “Hi.”

So guys, the first chapter of my new fanfic “A night to remember”, I know this first chapter is really uneventful and boring but I will upload the second chapter as soon as possible. I just really needed this as an “introduction” to the story! Anyways, tell me your thoughts in the comments and feel free to DM me! :)

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HI, for the ask meme: 1, 2, 5, 6, 7,8, 10, 12,13, 16, 17, 23, 24, 25, 32, 33, 40, 41, 44, 47, 49, 52, 54, 57, 58, 60, 62(and yes I am an idiot for putting that number in here), 66, 68, 69, 70 and 71(good luck)

I’m gonna say now that I really cba to paste in the questions for all of these because tumblrs fucked up again so enjoy this bigass disjointed ask dump. 1 - I’m a back sleeper, but its more comfortable on my side. Go figure. 2 - It depends really? Its normally what I’ve just been listening to, so,, I’ve been listening to BTS again lately though, and I just caught myself humming Aeroplane Pt.2,,, so,,,,5 - My irl friend (@queerly-disappointed, Fuck You) told me he had a tumblr,, and I’d found the text posts that popped up on basically every other social media funny, so I made an account? I regretted it like 60 seconds later6 - I don’t think telling people I used to watch an anime about (gay) volleyballers would go too well, tbh (haikyuu)7 - ,,,okay so tbh I don’t really wanna explain any of my interests there mainly because people are assholes and I’m way too guarded, but wtnv would probably be the easiest because it just sounds like a weird podcast8 - It just switched from Outro: Tear (BTS) to Press Restart (Walk the Moon), so I guess that counts?10 - Wait,, I can pick ANY animal,, and I magically have no allergies,, do you genuinely think I’d stop at one? Okay but I’d probably start of with a dog (I used to have a border collie and they’re the best), like 37 cats, and crows are also really cool but probably not the best pet,, so12 - this is,, a tough one. Uhhh, I genuinely hate pineapple with every fibre of my being and every one of them should be thrown into the void so I never have to taste that sour piece of stringy shit ever again. ,,,I’m okay now13 - catch me avoiding all confrontation ever, so like,, Running Away That Magically Kills Everyone?16 - jejahsjjs salty/savoury food is the best, when I can have it curry is great, but if not just salty crackers are vvv good. I have no idea why, I just really like the taste and they make me feel better, so??17 - mad science huh,, I really like biology and plants are cool, so catch the Mad Botanist and his Army Of Evil Trees (and that one asshole holly bush who keeps spiking everyone bc they’re an asshole and I hate them)23 - I end up obsessively hoarding pens and paper because I always run out. Does that count?24 - Nearest pen’s my good fineliner, which I got last September for school I think?25 - Last game I played is Really Bad Chess (check the App Store, it’s,, something), so unless the zombies end up with like 6 queens I think I’m good 32 - When I was a kid I had this stuffed dog thing and I’d squeezed half of the stuffing out into the arms, so the joins between the body and shit were completely empty. He’s currently living behind my bed, in a box somewhere, I think 33 - Keeping a Secret by Bleachers (I actually really like this song but there aren’t many like,, meaningful lyrics in that way I guess? It’s more the mood, idk if you could pull some out and have it mean the same,, but)And oh God, it's a long walk homeBut I understand why I walk it alone44 - Most orange is UGLY with other colours. I don’t really like red either?47 - When I was really little I had this weird ass dream about clowns? Like it was legit just six different clowns stood in front of a blue background but I was Shook. 49 - Obscure facts,, when ya boi John Snow was trying to prove cholera was in fact Water Bourne And Doesn’t Appear Out Of Nowhere You Fucking Twat back in the 19th Century, he made a map of the deaths in his area due to cholera. Except he found one woman miiiiiles away who was dead from it, even though she was nowhere near any other victims. Why? She had her servants bring water from the infected pump because she liked the taste. 52 - ,,once upon a time my dumbass thought he was straight54 - I bet you couldn’t fucking guess what my favourite fucking curse is, I mean what the fuck, it must be so fucking hard, I have no fucking clue how the fuck you’re gonna guess this 57 - Digital art is genuinely incredible but I can’t do it to save my life 58 - Uhh,, I know how to build a fire?60 - Dinosaurs and aliens are great but dude,, dragons62 - I’m not insulting you, nice try 66 - Honesty, creativity, kindness I guess?68 - Nebula is a good word69 - Fuck alien, marry dragon, kill dinosaur (they had it coming anyway)70 - And here we see a wild gay, in his natural habitat. The specimen appears to be avoiding all responsibility, shielding himself in the familiar digital walls of his phone - but what’s this? He’s picking up a pen - we may be in for a treat today - he’s leaning down to the book open on his desk,, he’s about to write someth- and the pen crashes against the window, thrown from the creature in a moment of impulsiveness and sheer, unbridled stupidity. 71 - How about I don’t do that?So I’ve been doing this on and off for the past like 6 hours and I haven’t proof read this and I can’t remember what I put in this so rip future me

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BTS Outro: Her [Analysis]

My fellow ARMYs, this is such a beautiful song. It’s so incredibly raw & Namjoon, Yoongi, & Hobi lay things out so plainly for us ARMYs to love ourselves. Their lyrics are so incredibly beautiful TwT I just need to write this somewhere to organize my thoughts so I apologize in advance for the rambling >#< Let’s start with Namjoon’s verse:

Namjoon has always been candid about his struggles with self love & depression and here he is again confessing how he battled with the idea of love & being able to accept himself. The complexes he worked on coming to terms with the initial backlash of people turning their backs on him as he transitioned from an underground rapper to an idol & having to change for his pursuit of music is telling enough of how difficult it was to find love for himself. Namjoon as an introspective individual always questioned his true identity & his mention of “I’m confused too, which one is really me” hits hard as I think many of us in our youth are still trying to understand our true identity.

Then we have Yoongi’s verse:

Yoongi’s verse also talks about his past of rejecting the idea of being an idol when he initially signed with BigHit Ent. to be part of a hip-hop band like 1TYM. The mask he talks about is so relatable because just like how we as humans have different ‘masks’ of ourselves, he had one where he felt like he had to keep up as an idol. This is coming from a man who battled with crippling depression before debut & continued to train and work toward his dream of one day creating music people would listen to, not knowing if there was an end to all the training. His phrase “I can never take off this mask…And dress up to mask on so that I can become the me that you love”…like just pause for a second. Yoongi is telling us ARMY that for a point of time, he felt like he had to portray a shell of himself for fans to appreciate him…I’m in TEARS. He continues with “Even the clothes I hate and too much makeup, your laughter and happiness decide my own happiness” which is a reference to ‘The Last’ (a song from his mixtape) where he says ‘If my misfortune is your happiness, I’ll happily stay unfortunate.’ At this point in the song I was crying too hard to even see in front of me & these lyrics are so incredibly candid.

Last is Hobi’s verse:

Hobi’s verse here has picked up from where Yoongi’s left off as they both talk about masks they wore as they had images of idols they had to keep up. It has been stated several times that Hobi is actually really different from his on camera persona & that he actually is really quiet & calm when not being Bangtan’s mood maker. His phrases “Lost star I put down my baggage & enjoy the darkness, there’s no spotlight that’s shining me to death ye” are definitely referring to these instances. He always works so hard to be Bangtan’s hope & has continued to cheer us ARMYs up with his silly antics. His lyrics “Because of your presence, the night finds new meaning and shines bright…you are my morning, you woke me up” are so beautifully written & reminded me of his verse in Two! Three! where he says “So thanks for becoming my light, for becoming the flower in the most beautiful moment in life.” 

Thanks for staying this long if you read to this portion^^ This album is absolutely gorgeous, so let us ARMYs continue to support BTS and allow them to reach higher heights. Love yourself <3