#like yeah im 24 but sometimes i just dont understand!!!!!!!!! and it sucks ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dokjaism]

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[tele-caster]

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11:37 PM 11/2/2022

I have known for my entire life that I hate myself. I seriously just dont know from where I get this anger. Something I can tell you that for sure I am confident, well, sometimes... At this very age of 24, going out is a problem.

I have the craving of going out but when it finally happens its just like, earth please swallow me, or getting under a bus because of being nervous of peoples bloody opinion.-

I smoke weed like hell, drink like a fish, and work like a donkey. And guess what? At this very age of 24 Im still wankering about a lot of stuff and, basically stuck. I for sure have passions and vocations, but a fucking job wont allow you to grow outside of THEIR OWN COMFORT ZONE, its like if you belong to them and then the salary just bloody fucking sucks mate, now fuck that fam!!

So, going back to the anger, and hating myself... NICE upbringings as a child, got to travel, had great schools, amazing sports permofance and excelling, sociable, and just innocent you know... Thats how I could call it? Because at that age of course your dont know shit about how the real world works, things like investing, finance, communication, business funding, image developing, personal mentality growth, goal aspects and so much more. It's just bloody bullocks weird to imagine that sometimes you think you doing things right and then encounter to understand, find out, seek and study how actually the " real " sauce on this so called thing Earth we call.

Might say additionally, that to me this is a nefarious, impulsive, full of disgrace, unholy and unhearted place to exist in and live on. Let's just analyze what the fuck this is... if you provide focus to your dreams, goals and ambitions you're a fucking freak, but working for someone for 40-50 years without ever having a break and conciously complaining about it... Isn't being freak and fucking weirdo? Like common fam, don't get fucking stupid 'ere.

My parents where somehow present here and there... I would say Dadda was more present than Mamma to be honest. Apparently my father was more calm and my mother more aggressive. Toward the many years that have gone by I've just gathered knowledge and experiences that taught me how to act, think and feel and it was all by myself. And, that's  what I think its fucking mad and nuts fam.-

How cold you leave a child to deal with his emotions alone? Anger, fear, neglection, denial, abuse, bullying, negativeness, opression and worst of all... Hate. Mother " used to be like this " says she always, but I know the story already. An apology fixes everything, right? To my belief, parents aren't those who give only creation and birth to a creature, is more than that. Father represented more; calmness, chillness, softness, mentality, approach, laughter and love.

Quite a combination for the creation I am right? Left one thing, right the other. Yup, sounds like me though matey, sound like me. From all aspirations, goals, dreams and ambitions I have, I seriously can't decide wether the fuck to do from all of them, wel... Right now aspiring to modelling and fashion desgining ( which is going great and amazing so far ) but I know I can get further than this... I love psychology, and investing and business too.

However; my personality outside something and in the inside it's just something else. People that get to know me really profoundly do know this and specially women. I think I've adopted a lot bad things, attitudes and feeling towards the world in many ways because of the describes aspects before from my parents and unbringings. Worked their asses off, busted their heads and bodies so they could give me everything I had from tip to toe my lad. So yeah, totally understand the fact they were doing that in order to provide and that's why sometimes they could and sometimes they couldn't...

Be there... Football matches, Science Fairs Expos, School Theatre Night, Head Masters Office when getting expelled or suspended from school, detention, parents request and even birthday's. Soo much anger, deception, depression, neglect, fear, impotence, stress, frustration, sadness and the worst of all... Hate. Even with my father being who he was this was what I felt as a kid... Everywhere... School, Friends House, Movie Theatre, Park, Playing football, going out with " friends ". Have a friend who kind of knows me well, you know, profoundly; he stated long time ago... " It's like if you have a demon inside and an angel outside, you have a battle that no one can help you ".

12:19 AM 11/3/2022

Continue...?

[justdyingslowly]

1. Name justdyingslowly obviously come on

2. Nationality Australian

3. Age 22

4. Birthday nnnah dont feel like it

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) Libra/Scorpio cusp

6. Gender wamon

7. Sexuality very very hetero

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) androgenous

9. What do you/did you study? Psychology (focus on sexology) and art.

10. What’s your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I am disabled you think I can work ha sexologist would be awesome. When I was a kid I wanted to be a fireman but Australias always burning

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11. Your birth order head first

12. How many siblings do you have? 1

13. Do you have good relations with your family? yeah dads finally out of his abusive relationship, nearing age 70 and his emotions and his sexuality are finally opening up for the first time and that makes me SO happy.

14. How many friends do you have? what kind of fucked up question is this.

15. Your relationship status relationshipped. Fiance? got the marriage papers in a drawer somewhere with the car rego but can’t be fucked filling them?

16. What do you look for in a SO? empathetic, mature, calm. Always open to discussion. Prefers to be blunt rather than secretive. Emotional age over 14 (incredibly fucking rare apparently). Puts an importance on context and understanding other views above all else.

17. Do you have a crush? Hellll yeah Crush on my partner and got a crush on a mutual friend of ours who don’t even know hes cute af hehe one day partners gonna accidentally spill the beans and embarrass me coz hes shit with secrets RIP me.

18. When did you have your first kiss? You think I can remember this bullshit? Its not that big a deal

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? One night stand sex almost exclusively sucks. Just. SUCKS. Because neither of you know what the other likes and it ends up being an awkward mix of trying to please yourself while trying to also be considerate.

20. What are your deal breakers? Plugging your ears to anything that feels gross, uncomfortable or disagrees with you. How can you grow as a person without introspection? How can you mold what you think and believe without taking in other arguments and comparing them to your beliefs to see how they stack up? Its pathetic.

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21. How was your day? cute mutual friend had a fall this morning and were both worried about him. His back is bad and he’s getting a little older, he can’t be getting dizzy and having falls like that. other than that im anxious about seeing my gastro. He’s lovely but... specialists are specialists. Good at knowing what they know but not always great at listening.

22. Favourite food & drink you think im allowed to eat or drink? water and... foods a touchy subject.

23. What position do you sleep in? Usually on my side with a body pillow to grip so I don’t end up choking my partner in his sleep.

24. What was your last dream about? uuhhh...going to italy and being unable to get into this tiny basket boat properly.

25. Your fears does PTSD to medical shit count haha

26. Your dreams ... going to italy and being unable to get into a tiny basket boat thingy?

27. Your goals - get some sort of diagnosis eventually. Its been 3 years of trying and im tired. - get back to studying art part time for my bachelors. - pass JLPT N3. - go back to university for psychology. - do the dishes when I get home.

28. Any pets? two budgies. we also take care of any orphaned or injured birds.

29. What are your hobbies? feeling nauseous drawing writing a little bit im making a little gameboy game in C atm too

30. Any cool places in your area? i live next to a national park with waterfalls and koalas and emus and stuff

31. What was your last awkward situation? mutual friend made a comment on his chest i playfully smacked it (related to the comment) it was surprisingly hard “O-oh wow, thats... I didnt expect that” my partner laughed at me. it was awful.

32. What is your last regret? getting embarrassed at friends pecs stop making me think about it 33. Language/s you can speak english. N4 Japanese.

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) of course not what the fuck

35. Have any quirks? Quirkless. I do wiggle when im happy though apparently.

36. Your pet peeves open doors.

37. Ideal vacation spend a months chilling in an old japanese house in autumn hokkaido oooooof that sounds nice

38. Any scars? internal? yes

39. What does your last text message say? peepee poopoo ustinky

40. Last 5 things from your search history how do i find this

41. What’s your [device] background? Sam Porter Bridges walkin around Sam Porter Bridges cuddling BB-28 Louise while he sleeps my chicken

42. What do you daydream about? all might

43. Describe your dream home an old japanese house in autumn hokkaido oooooof that sounds nice

44. What’s your religion/Your thought about religion its a comforting thought having a parent-figure who cares about you and looks after all the big things you can’t manage yourself, but institutionalizing it runs a severe risk of becoming harmful cults. And it often does.

45. Your personality type me

46. The most dangerous thing you’ve done i saw the lost bunny that was on all the posters in the neighbourhood looked thin and patchy so i grabbed him to take him home. im allergic. sent me to hospital and I almost died.

47. Are you happy with your current life? feeling sick sucks and partners having a depressive episode but things are pretty good

48. Some things you’ve tried in your life living

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49. What does your wardrobe consist of? blacks, reds, whites and pinks

50. Favourite colour to wear? at the moment pink. Red is always comforting though.

51. How would you describe your style? mix between lazy alternative punk, teenager with band shirts and harajuku peach kawaii uwu

52. Are you happy with your current looks? kinda wish i was a bit shorter but what can you do

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? bit shorter

54. Any tattoos or piercings? lol no PTSD

55. Do you get complimented often? by who? partner constantly, family haha are you kidding im australian so a friend’s version of showing affection is calling you a cunt and slapping your ass in public

56. Favourite aesthetic? all might

57. A popular trend that you dislike blocking because you disagree or find them distasteful. Ignoring all context to opposing thoughts and arguments. taking a personal feeling of disgust to mean something is evil. Blocking your ears to anything that isn’t a circlejerk of what you already think - and trying to isolate anyone who even just listens to something other then the noise of your sloppy dicks to have a thought of their own.

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58. Songs you’re currently obsessed with? The Machine by Low Roar

59. Song you normally wouldn’t admit you like. why wouldnt i admit i like a song

60. Favourite genre? probably enka haha

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? probably enka haha oh and tatsuro yamashita

62. Hated popular songs/artists? why the hell would I hate something like a song? I hate aspects of the music industry as a whole I guess?

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 which playlist they aren’t all together in one place

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? piano, saxophone... uh... partners good at making music and playing shakuhachi

65. Do you like karaoke? no.

66. Own any albums? yes? many?

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? no. but triple J, ABC Jazz and Classical. sometimes they even play final fantasy and JRPG music on classical which is pretty neat. -

68. Favourite movie/series? can i make this about games because then the answer is Metal Gear Solid

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc ...shounen?

70. Your fictional crush/es if they’re over 40yrs old, male and happy and bubbily or grumpy and sad then there’s a big ol fat chance I wanna bone. Solid Snake from MGS4, All Might and pretty much anyone drawn by Tarou Madoromi.

71. Which fictional character is you? uh

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so what does this even mean what language is this

73. Favourite greek god? idk hades seems chill

74. A legend from where you live that you like the story of Tjilbruke is funny and good. all Kaurna stories are good.

75. Do you like art? What’s your favourite work or artist? im in a big egon schiele mood atm.

76. Can you share your other social media? no i am incapable

77. Favourite youtubers? many

78. Favourite platform? not too high up. actually i like being a little lower than ground level in corners.

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much

80. What video games have you played? Which one’s your favourite? look i just want to say that MGS4 is the best one in the series and Death Stranding is phenomenally engaging.

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) these are all so goddamn definitive how can I pick? Oh wait the answer is One Piece

82. Do you play board/card games? I play DnD atm and know 15 yr old rules to Yugioh

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? that shit dosn’t happen here

84. Favourite holiday golden week coz its a week also easter because thats when all the glucose based sweets come back

85. Are you into dramas? what kind

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86. Would you use death note, if you had one? no. thats called being a murderer.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? chill people out a bit. when people feel unsafe they get really depenfive and territorial and block their ears to everything, making in-and-out groups for themsevles that end up putting them in more harm.

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? im disabled with a disabled partner. we arent funny sure we can survive normal everyday life when society is angled so sharply against us.

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? id like to be a mimi spirit

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? spooky time

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? toshinori yagi

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? anyone healthy

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo that cursed one with the intense eyes and the hand

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true im me im not me im pee

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95. Cold or hot? cold.

96. Be a hero or be a villain? both are distasteful ideas in reality

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? i can’t do either partner speak sin bad puns and its hell, these both sound about equal

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting. controlling time is eithe rmanipulative or lonely. shapeshifing is every other superpower at once.

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death? both are deeply upsetting ideas

100. ….. or …..? jiji or ossan? generally Jiji, but ossans can be lovely too.

[revelaare]

Shit said in the Crimson Discord & VC, taken out of context part 2, (the sequel)

Big NSFW warning, probably

his meat slid off and then slid right back on

[PRONOUN] can punch me in my uterus and make a hammock out of my ovaries

it’s one of the worst fucking things i’ve ever heard, and i’ve heard someone literally shit their pants

they tagged me and my ass clenched

this man just said “I want to eat ur ass and then kiss you” ok buddy

a man with a plan

my grandpa is texting his hoes from his flip phone

god my lawyer was a hit but idk if she will be the chosen one or not

hello give me your toenails

i'll touch you in a non-weird way

he was in that movie with the people, he was the human.

i want her to brush my hair

If we have dick glasses they have to be of the highest quality for the best experience

i don't wanna watch that white nonsense

i would throat him like a fine wine

these millenials can't live without ac? back in my day we lived on the sun

yall better put those goats on a wheel, tell them to start running

he looks like a bitch

yes or no, u wud punch the light bulb out of thomas edisons wrinkly pruned hand and asked him if he believed in god

still has skin and a working body

i needed to wait until my voice changes

you thought i was snacking on joe biden’s savory meat stick

barack guckin oglizzy, oguckma, barack osugma, Joe choden, OglchnnngggHHHYynnUUUnnghhma

why did i have a dream that i was taking the lid off my car

false gods require wine, real gods require coochiefice

fettucine wet ass pussy

that was all you sent me. the picture of a raccoon and then nothing

it isn’t hate, it is ‘continuously let down by’.

i never went to school who science

i’m gunna go peer pressure my mum into a shot

thank you for furthering my career at hot topic

i will suck the ingrown hair off of him

it has huge jackman in it

i chomped on this eggshell, got my calcium in for the day

i will take you to touch the mango

i want to see all the big things

[PRONOUN] has collar bones so deep you could hook a clothing hanger into it

no asscheeks in fucking family chat you animals

he will eat you alive and suck out your intestines like its a spaghetti noodle

[NAMES]’s Tiggle Biddie’s

dropped acid, cried the whole night.

my stomach is hooping and hollering, i’m about to eat some sleep

you want my throatsac ??

please dont know me as the toenail eater

you have to keep the skin on one side while you eat the other, thats basic mango physics

i mean he is some good sasuage

calm down dick Hannibal

respectfully, what the fuck is this

tbf i only eat my steaks where they need tampons

you committed acts of culinary terrorism

does your refrigerator whimper and cower in the corner when you approach it. that's your fridge trying to use echo location to locate a safe space

thundercuck

i almost met Jesus, I almost got an autograph. Almost got a greatest hits signed album.

respectfully, are you smoking fucking crack?

my left testicle could play better than you

i’ll eat him with ketchup

son of a biscuit eating bulldog!

now it’s back to me sucking, all is right in the world.

holy fuck weasels.

holy fuck, weasels!

why does the bad guy look like the Statue of Liberty?

this is a man that sometimes willingly dresses like a lumberjack

and me, being an emotional cripple, must make jokes about this.

hey my name is [NAME] i'm **definitely** who i say i am

[NAME OR PRONOUN] offered a back massage by calling it the “tickle thing”

i love a man who puts his parents in a nursing home.

my brain is going to take a hot shower

wait have u seen steve harvey's coochie

if it were me i would simply not be pregnant

look im not about to be out here saying i love [NAME OR PRONOUN] feet, but i am about to be out here saying that their feet are some of the nicest feet i've seen in a long time

i named my cloyster renesmee

[NAME] was texting me from the bathtub

you’re pregnant? That’s unfortunate.

do I say dumb shit? Perhaps. Do I take ownership? Perhaps.

i pay for things in blissful ignorance

i am an emotional vagrant

i am an emotional fragrance

to make a long motherfucking story short...

this enchilada tastes like asshole and sadness

you are not an ugly bitch, you’re just a bitch

that’s not a nut shot, buddy.

i’m sad because i sucked the meat off of this pumpkin spice latte

i want to make a blanket out of his eyebrows

what are you disgracing my Christian eyes for?

he be looking at that dick like why does it go so much to the left?

I want her to record an audio book for me so I can fall asleep listening to her voice.

Can I lick you like an ice cream cone? Asking for science.

like you're out to lunch with your bromie and you're eating some rubens or something and you wistfully look over the rim of your sunglasses and just: You ever buss 2 fast

my accent is flaccid

timotay chalamaymay’s sweet ass

on the bright side mcallister’s gave me 3 pickle spears. Almost enough to make a whole pickle.

you think they came from the same mommy pickle?

HIS DOODLE IS OUT

i thot that meant [NAME] wanted to...doodle his noodle

i don’t use commas, i don't respect u enough, fuck ur reading comprehension.

does australia have seasons

i want someone to embalm my body with mcdonalds sprite

his hermione grangina

purrrr my last email

its lore locked beneath 30 layers. u can only understand it if uve had a near death experience

LET'S GET FUCKY

i wanna have the heart of a stoner

his man titties look like little tattooed pillows

SWIGGITY SWOOTY COMIN FOR THAT BOOTY

there were no cheeks to shake. nothing to clap. no noise to be had from her literal slices of wonderbread

u ever just fuck around and ur tits fart

put a lil mint leaf on it for authenticity

alright brother god bless may u be fertile

i feel like im being advocated for something i shouldnt be advocating for

and i am adam with my fat pendulous balls lol

i’m making whuppie with whoopie godberg

theodore tits fart rex

yeah man do u also have the third toe on ur shoulder

the green spaghetti monster is coming for me and i can't blame him

today i learned starfish do not poop

that was nothing compared to some other things I saw

listen I'd willingly watch [NAME/PRONOUN] in a cell for 24 hours. Imagine that sounded less creepy

i'd lick a dirty flip flop off her abs

i’m tempted to show you all the gravity defining boobs, maybe tomorrow

my brain is on vacation

good morning! i ate breakfast and im ready to go to bed

tape the titty in

ive unironically had nightmares with [NAME] in them

the peanut in the auditory canal

so far this feel all comfortable, does this all make sense?

i know it's kind of a schlep to get through

nail polish or no nail polish for the shower?

and then he saw those big tt honkerz... and it all went down hill from there

can y’all stop chanting curses in the chat my furniture is stuck on the ceiling

EH?! CIAO? HELLO??

in Russia this is not ok 

i can’t buy pants here on Sunday either

IT'S LIKE TWELVE THOUSAND DOLLARS TO EAT ON A SOGGY PANCAKE

imagine me going up to [NAME/PRONOUN] and being like i love the way ur flesh smells

in a supermarket. The sickly blue light where humans congregate. Animal human masses. Nameless faces. Whole lives boiled into generalized categories like "asshole who definitely does need 4 boxes of cheerios". Yout hink and realize while stabding in line u didnt grab the bag of frozen peas...but its 2 late

its truly the only picture that gives me pure joy

are weasels real

my work mum just messaged me the phrase "use your booty call wisely" with no context

"let's bring u to the mustache chair"

If you’re not doing coke under the coke sign what is the point?

[mariisauruslove]

A list of things I want to tell you but I won't. I'll add on as I go.

1. What i realize is that you wanted to be wanted, but not by me. You wanted to be wanted by her.

2. I was perfect in every way to be accommodating to you but you still didnt want me.

3. How is this so easy for you? Like you can drop me as if nothing happened and not give a slightest fuck. Wtf.

4. Our song that used to calm my anxiety attacks now gives me anxiety attacks. I had a nightmare leaving it on to help me sleep.

5. I know i was a rebound. I wasn't her and i gave everything to you, but it didnt matter because I wasnt her.

6. Im offly sure youre going to move on fast from me because in reality, you didnt truly love me. You loved how i treated you. You loved how i loved you. You didn't love me.

7. Although i suffer more, I haven't cried a single tear for you.

8. I don't know how you can act like nothing happened. I really cant. I gave you so much of me. That's why this shit hurts. I wish you knew how much. I don't have words for the pain, but its like crying with your mouth open and no tears can make their way out. You don't make a sound either, but the hurt is all in your chest. Like a whole ass hole in the middle of your body.

9. I admit ive tried to anger you, make you jealous, and its worked, but at the same time, you dgaf. I wish i mattered more to you.

10. Everyday i realize more and more that i actually was a rebound. You didn't get time to heal and i pushed you too much too fast. You didn't breathe and ive told you, but you didnt get it. You wanted everything i was giving you, but it wasnt me you wanted it from. You are angry at her so much that you prefer me because eff her for not loving you the way you wanted.

11. You gotta realize you basically did what she did to you but to me. You didnt treat me or love me the same.

12. If i were to treat you how youve treated me, you wouldn't want to be with me and our relationship would barely be there at all.

13. I didnt realize how much youve changed over the years. I went with our relationship because the way you treated me in the past is how i deserved to be treated. I had thought youd treat me the same, but i was completely wrong. Yeah, i knew youd be much different, but i didnt realize youd be THIS different. Your words said you'd be much the same, but your actions proved that wrong.

14. I really wish i could tell you these things. Because then youd understand how much youve hurt me. But if i tell you, youd turn it around and make yourself the victim and i end up the one being sorry for loving you this much. It really sucks.

15. I really REALLY REALLY want to he held by you right now. I crave your cuddles and kisses. Not really sexually, but innocently. I am just so hurt by how this ended.

16. I always think about how our last kiss was so crappy. Youre always so "okay, whatever" like youre always in a rush everywhere. And you dont think a moment is a moment that could be your last. Always have that urge to leave or that energy you gotta go. When you dont sometimes.

17. You need to stand up to your mom. I understand shes your mother, but love, you really need to see wtf is going on with all this money. Why its spent recklessly.

18. Im always tempted to call you "babe" or "my love" or names like that. And it sucks because i cant.

19. I want to lay on your chest and nap as you hold me.

20. I really dont think you deserve me after everything, but i do think you deserve happiness. And if im not it for you, i hope you do find it. Youre not a bad person. Youve done bad things and made mistakes, but that doesnt make you a bad person.

21. I ultimately do wish i was a very great source of your happiness. I really wish that youd crave my presence as much as i craved yours. I also wish you would've wanted me to go through anything to fight for me. But I wasn't worth trying for to you. It makes me feel so sad and angry that I would have gone through the deepest depths of hell for you, but you wouldn't bother taking a step for me.

22. I hate seeing your name everywhere. It makes me sad. I hate how happy you look without me. But im happy youre happy.

23. Im so hurt and i want to tell you, but i wont.

24. I did a stupid thing. Gave you a tinge of my love meant for the one to test it. But i shouldnt have.

25. I sometimes regret it all. I regrett what weve done because it didnt matter to you in the end.

[littlelovelymemes]

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Flowers are pretty, but so are sunsets and they look nothing alike.  ’ ‘  i have a “why am i like this” moment at least five times a day  ’ ‘  very sad to hear about donald trump. nothing happened to him i’m just sad to hear about him  ’ ‘  *me, eyes wide open at 3am* what happened to chandler bing once he got to yemen  ’ ‘  tonight’s mood is the deep desire to be held close in a dimly lit room, covered in blankets while rain is softly falling outside  ’ ‘  do ya ever bring your pet up to a mirror and ur like “that you”  ’ ‘  i guess im just too fucking dumb to lucid dream. cant ever realize im in a dream, i’ll look around me like damn i’m in my old elementary school and my teeth are falling out and im naked? well shit guess this is my life now. got fooled by my subconscious again lads  ’ ‘  u ever get no sleep and the next day ur body functions like the tumblr app  ’ ‘  you ever wonder how many people you’re in the “we’re friends but i would kiss you if you asked” club with  ’ ‘  is anyone else just going through life like “yeah i just gotta get past this last difficult week and then it’s smooth sailing from there!” but like… every week  ’ ‘  The only thing toxic that you should still be in contact with is that song Britney Spears made, because that song is lit.  ’ ‘  imagine if you named your kid dad. just dad.  ’ ‘  take care of yourself, please. i don’t know what id do if anything happened to you.  ’ ‘ crazy how personal growth can make you let go of people you swore you couldn’t live without.  ’ ‘  im in no position to have high standards but it doesn’t stop me  ’ ‘  you can start over at anytime. your day is not ruined. your world is not over. take a deep breath. start over.  ’ ‘  I’m gonna have a bomb ass life and I know it cause I’ve suffered so much and I know that wasn’t for no reason  ’ ‘  you ever just get in bed and ur like yep this is where i’m meant to be  ’ ‘  an unstoppable force (my love of books) meets an unmovable object (my lack of a desire to actually read anything)  ’ ‘  i just have this persistent feeling of “i’m not doing enough” combined with “i don’t have the energy to do anything” and it just really fucking sucks  ’ ‘  sorry I haven’t replied to ur texts I’ve been overwhelmed by literally anything that’s ever happened or will happen  ’ ‘  me when i see a wild animal in a metropolitan area: reclaim your space, we are the invaders, retake what is yours  ’ ‘  no offense but money would solve literally every single one of my problems. like all of them. i dont have a single problem that money wouldnt immediately solve  ’ ‘  i am not enough and it’s eating me alive  ’ ‘  what do u mean “what have i been up to” … i’m out here ruining my own life as always bitch  ’ ‘  always remember that love will always come back to u. in a different form, different person, different hobby, different touch. but in any way, love will always come back.  ’ ‘  The struggle between me wanting to be successful and me wanting to lay in bed 24/7  ’ ‘  If you play “Feeling Myself” by Nicki Minaj and Beyoncé at exactly 11:58:50 pm on New Year’s Eve, Beyoncé will say “World Stop” in 2017 and “Carry On” in 2018.  ’ ‘  Self care is putting absurd amounts of parmesan cheese on your pasta  ’ ‘  you ever just like “wow that’s my voice? people listen to this clown on a daily basis?”  ’ ‘  ravioli ravioli give me a reason to live  ’ ‘  finally worked up the courage to tell the starbucks girl she was beautiful and i only puked twice  ’ ‘  do i wanna know??? no. but thank u monkey friends  ’ ‘  hey this is kinda ns.fw but i wann h*ld your h*nd  ’ ‘  talent: overthinking  ’ ‘  have you ever had that feeling that you really wanna workout to get a flat stomach… but you also just wanna eat pizza and watch netflix.  ’ ‘  if you google eyebrows are you eyebrowsing  ’ ‘  *skips tutorial* how the fuck do you play this game  ’ ‘  Literally heard a convo at the library where a guy was telling a girl that he’s an omega and the girl telling him that she’s a beta, and my mind just did not automatically connect the context to fraternity pledge classes at all and I just whispered to myself “what the fuck?? What the fuck??”  ’ ‘  my hands? ready to be held  ’ ‘  Catch These Hands! with your hands. we’re holding hands now. this is nice  ’ ‘  kinda weird that u can think about someone as much as u want and they have no idea  ’ ‘  physically, yes, i could fight a bird. but emotionally? imagine the toll  ’ ‘  I would rather wander around a store for 9 hours than ask an employee where something is and this I do not understand  ’ ‘  my childhood, or, as i like to call it, the general abyss with one or two memories attached to it   ’ ‘  i know ‘gay’ isn’t an emotion but let’s be real,,,,,,,,,it kind of is and i feel it 24/7  ’ ‘  babe get ready for a night on the town, i just found an old Subway gift card and there’s still $9.45 left on it  ’ ‘  just because the past didn’t turn out like you wanted it to, doesn’t mean your future can’t be better than you ever imagined  ’ ‘  i’m the person who’s 100% down for spontaneous adventures but also 100% down to lay in bed all day. i’m on both ends of the spectrum  ’ ‘  this year has changed me more than I ever thought it would.   ’ ‘  it’s ok to disappear for a lil while and get your shit together.  ’ ‘  if you wanna love me hmu  ’ ‘  calling me baby makes me so freakin weak  ’ ‘  i’m that one guy on spongebob always screaming about his leg  ’ ‘  remember to drink a fucking shit ton of water every miserable day of ur life  ’ ‘  i just want someone who’s excited to make out with me and text me all the time.  ’ ‘  never apologize for your giant dogs getting overexcited, if i get taken down by a 100 pound mass of fluff then that’s how i go.  ’ ‘  when i figure out how to die without hurting my mom’s feelings it’s over for me, bitches  ’ ‘  THIS GUY JUST ASKED ME WHAT MY NAME WAS AND I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT HE SAID SO I SAID 4:45  ’ ‘  my blood is glow stick juice. thats why all my bones crack when i move.  ’ ‘  are cute dates and rough sex too much to ask for  ’ ‘  honestly, my goal in life is just to be a very warm person. i want to be as loving and as kind as i can be.  ’ ‘  just a small dumb bitch…. living in a lonely ditch  ’ ‘  you’re not selfish for wanting to be treated well  ’ ‘  when y'all fake conversations in your heads do you sometimes say random sentences out loud too? i was just tying my shoes and said very sternly and loudly “i DO know how ants work, fucker”  ’ ‘  true space facts: if u look up there it is  ’ ‘  anyone else bummed they have 2 sleep alone tonight and uh not in some1s arms  ’ ‘  how am i sensitive and a bitch at the same time  ’

[apocalypticacolyte]

Finola convo

[09:21] -- waveRider [WR] began pestering apocalypticAcolyte [AA] at 21:21 --

[09:21] WR: heya nerrd

[09:21] AA: hello!!!!!!!

[09:22] WR: arrgaia just told me to stop talkin to you

[09:22] WR: so guess vvhat i'm doing

[09:22] WR: talking to you!

[09:22] AA: :O

[09:22] WR: ha

[09:22] WR: fuck herr

[09:23] WR: she doesn't get the rright to make the rrules anymorre

[09:23] AA: may i ask why not???

[09:24] WR: she scrrevved a bunch of us overr in ourr game

[09:24] WR: and it doesn't even matterr novv, rright?

[09:24] WR: like, ourr session is toast vvhetherr vve like it orr not

[09:24] AA: oh

[09:24] WR: shouldn't matterr about enforrcing all these bullshit rrules

[09:25] WR: i mean i vvish ourr session vvas still out therre somevvherre

[09:26] WR: that vvay maybe vve could go back and trry to fix things, knovving vvhat vve knovv novv

[09:26] WR: ha

[09:26] WR: yeah rright

[09:26] WR: it vvould take a mirracle to get ourr grroup vvorrking togetherr again

[09:28] AA: :(

[09:29] AA: that sucks

[09:29] WR: i just rreally vvant to get my povverrs and not let everrybody dovvn, yknovv?

[09:30] AA: yeah

[09:30] AA: :(

[09:30] WR: not that vve'd have a good time playerr orr anything anymorre

[09:30] WR: sorrrry you don't knovv vvhat that is

[09:30] AA: could you explain what it is???

[09:30] WR: uhhh just knovv it's rreally helpful forr biggerr and shittierr grroups

[09:31] WR: because vve fuck up a lot morre than smallerr vvell-coorrdinated ones like yourrs

[09:32] WR: but nooooo vve get stuck vvith the time playerr that doesn't give a shit about anyone but herrself

[09:33] AA: :(

[09:34] WR: blah blah can't do this can't do that can't fucking fix ANYTHING

[09:34] WR: like that's yourr entirre fucking job!!

[09:34] WR: anyvvay

[09:34] WR: sorrrry

[09:34] WR: doesn't much matterr novv i guess

[09:35] AA: its fine to rant or vent to me if you want to!!

[09:35] WR: avv dang

[09:35] WR: thanks man

[09:37] AA: since you mentioned time players are there other types of players???

[09:37] WR: uhh yeah that's the povverr shit i've mentioned beforre

[09:37] WR: you got like a fuckton of those

[09:38] WR: can't even think of them all to list

[09:38] AA: !

[09:38] AA: !!

[09:38] AA: !!!

[09:38] AA: !!

[09:38] AA: !

[09:38] AA: is there anything i need to know about them before going into the game???

[09:38] WR: ha look at you go vvith yourr funky little pyrramids

[09:38] WR: and uh

[09:38] WR: vvell

[09:39] WR: the vvay you get yourr povverrs is kinda surrprrising

[09:39] WR: so just uh

[09:39] WR: don't be too shook orr anything i guess?

[09:39] AA: huh

[09:40] WR: and be carreful vvith yourr extrra lives (that's vvhat you guys call them in games, rright?)

[09:40] AA: (i think so??)

[09:40] AA: alright!!!

[09:40] WR: they'rre imporrtant

[09:40] WR: you prrobably vvon't see vvhy forr a vvhile but they arre

[09:42] WR: oh hell

[09:42] WR: just looked ahead

[09:42] WR: yourrs arre prretty cool my man

[09:42] AA: owo

[09:42] WR: novv hold up just a flipping second

[09:42] WR: did you serriously just "ovvo" at me??

[09:43] AA: maybe i did

[09:43] WR: like you just totally unirronically ovvoed at me

[09:43] WR: man maybe arrgaia vvas rright i shouldn't talk to you!!

[09:43] WR: (jk jk)

[09:43] WR: you furrrry

[09:43] AA: im not the furry in my group!!!!!

[09:43] AA: thatd be kacy!!!!

[09:43] WR: HA

[09:43] AA: he has a fursona and everything!!!!

[09:44] WR: vvait

[09:44] WR: vvait vvait vvait

[09:44] WR: like no shit?

[09:44] WR: that man has an honest to gog furrsona??

[09:44] AA: yeah!!!!

[09:44] WR: that's fucking horrrrible i love it

[09:44] WR: vvhat an icon

[09:46] AA: i should make him a fursuit for his next birthday

[09:46] WR: HA

[09:46] WR: vvait vvhen's his birrthday

[09:46] WR: because if it's not in the next uhh couple vveeks orr so...

[09:46] AA: i dont really remember when it is,,, dont tell him i said that

[09:47] WR: oh nah i vvon't don't vvorrrry

[09:47] WR: you'rre the only kid i talk to thrrough the vvhole thing i think

[09:47] WR: orr at least the parrts ive alrready done?

[09:47] AA: !!!!!!!!

[09:48] WR: vvhoa therre

[09:48] WR: vvhat arre ya so excited about?

[09:49] AA: im just !!! that im the only one of us youve talked to so far

[09:52] WR: yeah and?

[09:52] AA: just uhh forget i sent those !!!!s ok

[09:53] WR: alrright if you insist

[09:53] WR: considerr them forrgotten

[09:53] AA: good

[09:54] WR: 8)

[09:54] WR: 8) 8)

[09:54] WR: 8) 8) 8)

[09:54] WR: 8) 8)

[09:54] WR: 8)

[09:54] AA: !!!!

[09:54] WR: in the trrue spirrit of lana, an emoticon pyrramid

[09:54] AA: !!!!!!!!!

[09:55] WR: (man cmon that vvas the perrfect opporrtunity forr you to follovv up vvith anotherr pyrramid!)

[09:55] AA: (sorry i just got really excited that you also did it!!!!!)

[09:55] WR: oh neat that's fairr

[09:57] WR: avv hell you guys got a ton of cool povverrs

[09:57] AA: oh???

[09:57] WR: sorrrry im just lookin ahead don't mind me

[09:58] WR: it's like you got all the good ones

[09:58] WR: i mean technically vve did too? because vve got all of them?

[09:58] WR: (big grroup and all)

[09:58] WR: but vve had

[09:58] WR: uh

[09:59] WR: shitty people vvith them

[09:59] WR: man hovv come only the assholes got povverrs huh??

[09:59] AA: :(

[09:59] AA: thats super unfair

[09:59] WR: i shouldn't say that it's not entirrely trrue

[10:00] WR: karr and pos arre alrright

[10:00] WR: vvouldn't say theyrre assholes

[10:00] WR: i mean karr can be annoying sometimes surre but he's an ok guy i guess

[10:02] WR: yeah i guess novv that i think about it vve did get a fevv ok people vvith povverrs

[10:02] WR: mixed in vvith the assholes

[10:05] WR: pos gets annoying vvith herrs sometimes

[10:05] AA: what are hers if i can ask???

[10:06] WR: not surre i can say specifically but just knovv she's annoyingly optimistic as a povverr and she trries to make the rrest of us feel betterr about ourr shit situation

[10:06] WR: doesn't alvvays vvorrk vvell

[10:06] AA: huh

[10:07] WR: i'm surre you can imagine

[10:08] WR: man she is RRRREALLY trrying harrd on elv huh

[10:08] WR: everry damn perrson up herre knovvs she's crrushing harrd

[10:09] WR: everryone except elvirra, naturrally

[10:09] WR: sorrrry to derrail the converrsation she's just rreally playing it up rright novv

[10:09] AA: huh

[10:09] AA: do you have a crush on anybody up there if thats ok to ask???

[10:09] WR: hah

[10:09] WR: these assholes?

[10:09] WR: nah

[10:09] WR: no <3 forr me

[10:10] AA: valid!!!

[10:10] WR: sometimes that's betterr, yknovv?

[10:10] AA: also ruby asked if you could give us any more info on what were going into

[10:10] WR: <3 gets rreally trricky in such a confined space - oh uhhh lemme think

[10:11] WR: just uhhhh

[10:11] WR: take it serriously, it seems like a game but rreally it's superr fucking serrious

[10:12] WR: you'rre on a prretty strrict time limit, so uh prriorritize and shit

[10:12] WR: prriorritize yourr frriends overr the game and the game overr us

[10:12] WR: some people vvill tell ya that the game's the most imporrtant thing

[10:12] WR: but rreally it's yourr grroup

[10:13] WR: you need ALL OF YOU to succeed

[10:13] WR: that's vvherre vve fucked up

[10:14] AA: thank you for the info!!!

[10:14] WR: yeah no prroblem

[10:14] WR: but like 100% no shit put yourr grroup beforre yourr session

[10:15] WR: because the game is strrange

[10:15] WR: it makes you think you'rre supposed to do one thing, and you get so focused on that thing,

[10:15] WR: but rreally that vvasn't it at all

[10:16] WR: and if you decide that a possibly vvrrong goal in the game is morre imporrtant than yourr frriends, vvell...

[10:16] WR: it's not good

[10:16] WR: it was the worst mistake we ever made

[10:16] WR: and look where we ended up

[10:17] WR: everybody'll tell you you can't trust anybody and all that crap

[10:17] WR: but really the one you can't trust is the game itself.

[10:18] WR: it's not you versus each other or you versus us or even you versus the queen. it's your group versus the game.

[10:18] WR: that's how i see it anyways. not that anybody listened. not that i knew it in time to make a difference.

[10:19] WR: not that i could've, without any powers.

[10:20] WR: you have to stay together. promise me that. i know kirrin's told you not to give a shit about us, that you have to win.

[10:21] WR: she's partially right.

[10:21] WR: don't give a shit about us.

[10:21] WR: about me.

[10:21] WR: winning is keeping your group together.

[10:21] WR: don't lose each other, because then you've lost everything. not just the game.

[10:22] WR: don't lose yourself either.

[10:22] WR: especially you, lana. don't lose yourself.

[10:22] WR: please.

[10:22] AA: alright.

[10:24] AA: i promise you im going to do whatever it takes to keep my group together.

[10:24] WR: thank you, lana. but remember to keep yourself together too.

[10:25] WR: i don't know why the game picked what it did for you. but i'm worried about what that could do to you.

[10:27] WR: don't be afraid to ask for help

[10:28] WR: the others are there for you too

[10:28] WR: you have a good group, lana.

[10:28] WR: i know why the game picked you.

[10:28] WR: ha

[10:28] WR: look at that

[10:28] WR: guess i finally figured out where i stand on this god/technology thing

[10:28] WR: fesvah was right

[10:29] WR: so was kirrin, in a way

[10:29] WR: the game is a sort of god

[10:29] WR: it wants what it wants and we don't understand why

[10:29] WR: but yknow what

[10:29] WR: we're gonna kick this god's ass

[10:29] WR: you and me, lana

[10:29] WR: you do the kicking i'll call the shots

[10:29] WR: it's gonna be EPIC

[10:30] WR: and i think that maybe

[10:30] WR: just maybe

[10:30] WR: if we work together

[10:30] WR: if you all work together

[10:30] WR: you can win

[10:30] WR: we can win

[10:31] WR: and maybe we can get out of here

[10:31] WR: but hey that one's only if we have time ;)

[10:33] AA: i hope theres time for that

[10:33] WR: don't worry about that too much

[10:33] WR: i'll see ya if the game means for it to happen

[10:33] WR: and if not, hey.

[10:34] WR: i'm sure we'll have a great time on the inside together, even if i'm stuck up here.

[10:34] WR: and maybe we'll still be able to talk afterwards

[10:35] WR: in any case, don't change your chumhandle. i'll try to reach ya if you guys end up moving on

[10:36] WR: maybe kir can rig something up, she's good at that tech stuff

[10:38] WR: you been quiet for a while over there, buddy. you good?

[10:38] AA: im good im just,, thinking

[10:38] WR: about?

[10:38] WR: share your thoughts with me bud

[10:40] AA: about the game and whats in store,, i hope we can get you and your group out of there!!

[10:41] WR: seriously bud you gotta stop worryin about us

[10:42] WR: worry about your friends!

[10:42] WR: it seems so natural to have them there with you that you kinda forget how important they are while they're with you until

[10:42] WR: well,

[10:42] WR: until they aren't

[10:43] WR: i guess

[10:43] AA: :(

[10:48] WR: you guys don't do moirails so it'd be different for you but

[10:48] WR: uh

[10:48] WR: yeah

[10:48] WR: just be careful

[10:49] WR: it sucks, no matter what your relationship with somebody is

[10:49] WR: or was

[10:49] WR: or could have been

[10:50] WR: it always sucks to lose somebody

[10:50] AA: yeah :(

[10:54] WR: anyways

[10:54] WR: might be bad advice i dunno but

[10:54] WR: get your team together as soon as possible

[10:54] WR: like in the game physically together in the same place

[11:01] AA: ok

[11:02] WR: i think that'll help ya

[11:03] WR: anyway

[11:03] WR: sorrrry to dump all this stuff on you

[11:03] WR: i should go

[11:03] WR: bye forr novv i guess

[11:04] AA: bye please stay safe

[11:04] WR: it's not me ya need to vvorrrry about, kid

[11:04] WR: sleep tight

[11:04] -- waveRider [WR] ceased pestering apocalypticAcolyte [AA] at 23:04 --

[alotta-lovin]

1-10, 21-30, 45-55, 65-80 and 90-100! And to clear up confusion so u won't forget like last time by - I mean those and everything in between B)

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

That fucking thing is barricaded. and i mean with boxes, pillows and spare blankets that i take on and off my bed–

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?

No?? Sometimes? only if i didnt bring my own shampoo and conditioner– thats the only reason.

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

IN.

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

Does stealing the pole count?

5: Do you like to use post-it notes?

Not really i only really use them as like— book marks or for tiny drawings to put around the house.

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

no

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

fucking let the bear take me. i love bees and all but im fucking allergic to that shit and id rather not die that way.

8: Do you have freckles?

Yes. Everywhere. Moles too.

9: Do you always smile for pictures?

no– not always. im the person i smile all the time. and most of the time its not a real smile so when im smiling in pictures unless im actually happy its a fake smile, thus i consider it a no. or i pull a deadpan and just look at the camera annoyed.

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?

PEOPLE WHO FUCKING CHEW WITH THEIR  MOUTH OPEN OR TALK WITH THEIR  MOUTH FULL AND DONT COVER THEIR MOUTH TO BE RESPECTFUL.

21: Whats your least favorite movie?

Lights out? Don’t breathe? i have a fair few.

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

Why though? but if i had to choose i guess with myself when i die. and that means its being turned to ashes with me. BOOM.

23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?

Okay for someone who is dysphoric as hell and also is just as confused about what genderbullshit is this really made me just “hhhhhhh” but i also dont care? im a 34B. and maybe a size 9 or so in pants?

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?\

Ketchup

25: What is your favorite food?

FRENCH FRIES.

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Cats Dont Dance, Grease, Mama Mia, Ghostbusters

27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?

My mom?

28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

No

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

Its the human body. people really need to stop just thinking of it in a sexual way, its honestly just skin and parts. it doesnt matter. so i dont know.

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

1st through 3rd grade we were all assigned a person over seas that was serving our country while we gave them a care package.

45: Ever watch soap operas?

N O

46: Are you afraid of heights?

Not really

47: Do you sing in the car?

Fuck yeah

48: Do you sing in the shower?

Hell yeah

49: Do you dance in the car?

Only if im in the passenger seat.

50: Ever used a gun?

Yep and im a deadshot too.

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

It was a family portrait and i was 10 or younger

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?

no

53: Is Christmas stressful?

Yes. i don’t like Thanksgiving or Christmas all that much due to bad memories and the fact that it was basically ruined every year for me by family

54: Ever eat a pierogi?

more than likely because of my mom but i don’t remember

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?

Fruit pies— huh…. dont think i have one

65: Nike or Adidas?

Vans

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos

67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower Seeds are the bomb

69: Ever take dance lessons?

No

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

No?

71: Can you curl your tongue?

Yes and i can tie a cherry stem with my tongue too.

72: Ever won a spelling bee?

No up until 2013 i barely knew how to read let alone type.

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

OKAY LISTEN. IF SOMEONE MAKES ME SOMETHING OR BUYS ME SOMETHING BECAUSE THEY WANT TO AND ITS SOMETHING I LIKE OR SOMETHING THEY THINK WILL MAKE ME HAPPY AND SEND IT TO ME I FULL ON FUCKING CRY CAUSE I DONT UNDERSTAND THE FEELING OF HAPPY.

like for example, the first pictures i posted on this blog of me n’ Cronus, @curvy-roses made those for me and sent them to me while i was in a call with @the-jackals and i started crying full on because i dont understand wtf happy feels like and it scares me and sends me into a panic attack

74: Own any record albums?

Yeah i do actually original ones too

75: Own a record player?

Sadly not yet i gotta get it to play said records

76: Regularly burn incense?

Yep, Dragons Blood mostly

77: Ever been in love?

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I DUNNO.

(Sarcasm at its finest but the art is a commission from @curvy-roses)

78: Who would you like to see in concert?

Everyone i wanna see in concert is either old and not doing them anymore or is dead

79: What was the last concert you saw?

it was a country concert and it sucked everyone was drunk off their ass and it didnt help it was at a statium where tHEY FUCKING WOULDNT LET YOU SIT IN SEATS OR BRING YOUR OWN SEATS SO YOU WERE SITTING IN THE GRASS AND PEOPLE WERE STEPPING ON YOU—-

80: Hot tea or cold tea?

90: Can you knit or crochet?

Crochet

91: Best room for a fireplace?

bedroom? or living room? ONE OF THOSE

92: Do you want to get married?

Yeah i would and do

93: If married, how long have you been married?

Not married— unless yer talking with Cro and thats not for a couple years so

94: Who was your HS crush?

Didnt go to highschool o v o

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

N O ID GET MY FUCKING ASS BEAT AND IF SOMEONE ELSE DOES THAT AROUND ME IT MAKES ME WANNA PUNCH THEM AND GIVE THEM A REASON TO CRY FUCKIN HELL

96: Do you have kids?

n o

97: Do you want kids?

yes and no

98: Whats your favorite color?

Rainbow

99: Do you miss anyone right now?

lots of people

F U CK IN THERE YA GO

i did the thing and now i dunno what else to do so ye

[shelbygoodkind]

thank u legends @wocs​ @jezzykeery​ and @annakemdrick​ for the tags ! im love yall

i m not gonna tag 20 people but @httplaurmani @bodyglitter @annakensrick @ilovespeaknow @normila @ljaureguis @cutestheaux @chensbf @progemini

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my friend sam

3. text message - my friend sophie sent me n my other friend a song to listen to an i aint do it cause im the worst

4. song you listened to - runaway by ed sheeran lmao

5. time you cried - i think yesterdaygfhjdskgfd

ever

6. dated someone twice? - ive never dated someone onceghfjgsdkf

7. kissed someone and regretted it - fhjkdgdfs um kinda?

8. been cheated on - nop

9. lost someone special - yup

10. been depressed - i odnt think ive ever been not depressed!

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - thank god no

fave colours

12. blue

13. pink

14. green

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes

16. fallen out of love - no

17. laughed until you cried - probably but i cant remember it

18. found out someone was talking about you - idk what this means

19. met someone who changed you - i dont think so?

20. found out who your friends are - i been knew

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - who is facebook

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - like 95% of them 

23. do you have any pets - a dog who im love more than anything on this earth

24. do you want to change your name - no?

25. what did you do for your last birthday - my mom made french toast n i hung out with my friends and then i went to dinner

26. what time did you wake up today - 9:15 :(

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - homework

28. what is something you cant wait for - my tyler the creator concert :))

30. what are you listening to right now - the microwave

31. have you ever talk to a person named tom - yesgjdfhgfd why s this a question

32. something thats getting on your nerves - the water in my microwave mac & cheese isnt fucking evaporating so now i have macaroni soup

33. most visited website - tumblr.com/delete

34. hair colour - brown

35. long or short hair - it used to be long n then i got it cut to like medium

36. do you have a crush on someone - mind ur bisness!

37. what do you like about yourself - im iconic

38. want any piercings? - ive always wanted a septum piercing but m not sure about it and also cartilage kinda but i feel like id just play with it too much n pull it outgfdgsdf 

39. blood type - i dont ufcknjg know?

40. nicknames - bitch!

41. relationship status - mEnTaLLy DaTiNg hArrY sTyLeZ!!!!!

42. zodiac - virgo

43. pronouns - she/her/bitch igfds,jghfd im stealing brunas answer for this

44. fave tv shows - m just gonna do shows that are still airing so criminal minds b99, the good place, fresh off the boat, shameless, & jane the virgin

45. tattoos - i have 1 nd i wanna get my 2nd really soon

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - no but im getting my wisdom teeth out soon

48. piercings - 0

49. sport - i used to play soccer but i got assthma

50. vacation - what does thi smean

51. trainers - ???????????

more general

52. eating - thats something ido ?

53. drinking - also something i do! 

54. im about to watch - my life slowly slip away from me 

55. waiting for - my next class

56. want - immediate death

57. get married - or what !!

58. career - i am . a child

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - i hate small talk i wanna suck ur dick & ur d     ick &ur suck ur dick and ur religouos dick & sukc y

60. lips or eyes - lips

61. shorter or taller - taller than me i hope !! my 5′1 ass smh

62. older or younger - i cannot date someone younger than me thats against the law!

63. nice arms or stomach - arms

64. hookup or relationship - ummgfd it depends i’d rather hookup w a guy but date a girl

65. troublemaker or hesitant - i dotn understand the question

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - yes

67. drank hard liquor - yes

68. lost glasses - yes

69. turned someone down - yes

70. sex on first date - no!

71. broken someones heart - i dont believe so

72. had your heart broken - yeah but not like by other people just bymsyself really ok facts bruna!

73. been arrested - gjhsdfklfdhlgdf no

74. cried when someone died - um yes thats what u do when people die?

75. fallen for a friend -  i dont think ive ever not fallen for a frienfgdsgfd

do you believe in

76. yourself - shes trying! once again mood bruna!

77. miracles - sometimes i guesS?

78. love at first sight - no

79. santa clause - ughjdfgs whos that

80. kiss on a first date - sure

81. angels - no but yes bruna u are an angel

other

82. best friend’s name - paul & jane

83. eye colour - blue

84. fave movie - i have a lot but the little mermaid & the lion king were my first faves

85. fave actor - uhhgfd alycia debnam carey & nina dobrev

[yuris--angel]

0 to 44

thanks for keeping me busy, anon! im sorry this is late ya girl was taking a nap. also, sorry its so long.  

0: Height5′1 or 1.54m 1: Age - 17 but 18 next month! Nov 23! mark it down! 2: Shoe size - my last pair of heels is 6.5 US size but my sneakers can be 7 or 7.5 US size it depends on the shoe 3: Do you smoke? - no. 4: Do you drink? -no. Well sometimes, its cultura, you know 5: Do you take drugs? - I have better things to spend money on6: Age you get mistaken for - the last time my age was mistaken,,,,one of my favorite actresses she thought i was in my twenties. 7: Have tattoos? - Nope8: Want any tattoos? - Yeah something eventually dont know what9: Got any piercings? - No 10: Want any piercings? - No thanks :(11: Best friend? - JENNY. mY WHOLe HeArT12: Relationship status - single :( im ugly lol 13: Biggest turn ons - MANNERS :’) being NICE!!!! 14: Biggest turn offs - rude people. mean people. People with superiority complexes 15: Favorite movie - WONDER WOMAN 2017 16: I’ll love you if…- overall a nice person. you’re sweet, funny, watch Versailles or Naruto. Thats all it takes fam 17: Someone you miss - i miss jenny i havent seen her since august :(( 18: Most traumatic experience - i dont wanna do this one :( im sorry i love u pls understand 19: A fact about your personality - i don’t know what to say here because i don’t like talking so highly about myself but i also don’t have anything bad to say. i think I’m really nice. And if i’m not its for a reason. 20: What I hate most about myself - my weight :/ my face. i think everything else is good! I don’t like to talk about myself..highly?? I feel bad when I do..but I  don’t think i have to change anything abt the way I am. Maybe i should be a little more..I don’t know how to word it..i’m a bit too…passive? I don’t stick up for myself as often as I should because I don’t like confrontation. 21: What I love most about myself - In a physical aspect, I get a lot of compliments on my smile! I don’t even have perfectly straight teeth I could use braces for a year but, I always get « your teeth are so white » «  you have such a bright smile » 22: What I want to be when I get older - Not so sure just yet 😶23: My relationship with my sibling(s) - good! I love them all so much! Even though they can be annoying. My baby sister is my life. 24: My relationship with my parent(s) - :|||| not how I wish it was..its not so great.25: My idea of a perfect date - i mean we can go out, i’ll go anywhere! Here’s a lame ass answer but a museum?? Yeah. Staying home and cuddling though that’s really good too ☺️26: My biggest pet peeves - when i send a detailed message i expect an answer a long that line. I HATE vague replies. It makes me feel like you dont wanna talk so i start thinking im wasting my time. 27: A description of the girl/boy I like - i don’t really like anyone right now :( not because its hard for me to like people but just bc ive really only been talking to people ive been friends with for a while, recently?? I dunno if that makes sense?? Nothing’s come up is what i mean. 28: A description of the person I dislike the most - rude. thinks they know everything. talks when im not talking to them. is always trying to control things. 29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend - i didn’t wanna facetime lmao other than that i don’t lie to my friends. 30: What I hate the most about work/school - my school starts at 7 on the dot. I literally get to school at 6:30. I get up at 5am. It sucks so much. SO MUCH. 31: What my last text message says - sara whats up you haven’t replied so much recently? :( (my friends have a gc but i was busy with school stuff so i haven’t replied so much.) He misses me what a cutie 32: What words upset me the most - ahh something that someone said to me? i don’t have a specific word that makes me upset but the last thing someone told me that bothered me was them straight up telling me they used me. felt like shit for a while.33: What words make me feel the best about myself - like words people tell me?? I don’t have a specific word? When people compliment my manners, the way i present myself, that always makes me happy. (I like getting called beautiful too but who doesnt haha) 34: What I find attractive in women - hair! Eyes! Smile! Laugh!35: What I find attractive in men- same things i find attractive in women. I like to play with hair so, nice hair. i love people’s eyes! Smiles! LAUGHS?? So cute ;-;36: Where I would like to live - Ahhh so many places.37: One of my insecurities - my voice. Its terrible. 38: My childhood career choice - teacher39: My favorite ice cream flavor - carvel has mint soft serve. mmm yeah. Love it. 40: Who I wish I could be - Gal Galdot. The most beautiful woman on the earth. 41: Where I want to be right now - in Seoul 42: The last thing I ate - halo top birthday cake icecream!! 43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately - kim yugyeom 😩💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘 44: A random fact about anything - i like making new friends and i made one today!

[shiny-craboo-blog]

@rockformed​ replied to your post : i keep goin away for a long time but theres a good...

what asshole?? 👀👀👀👀👀

WHOOO lemme tell you this is a long one (sorry about any spelling errors i was tryna get this done quickly)

it was actually that guy that we played overwatch with together once.

ive known him since about december, but he was saying lots of homophobic and racist shit, so i was like eh might as well try to make him a better person, but to do that, you gotta get close, and i started liking him (literally @ past me why?????)

so i flirt a little here, giggle a little there, and he falls in love with me. i liked him too, but he liked me to a point where it was obsessive. he was telling me i saved his life and that out of everyone on earth im his favorite. i come out to him as trans one day, and after a lot of thinking, he was like “okay yeah im okay with this” and i was happy

however, like i said, he was really obsessive. he wouldnt let me play games with anyone else unless he was there, and when i tried to watch a show with one of our mutual friends, he gets all upset about it.

eventally, even though he liked me, he started being a real ass. i told him that i didnt really like him anymore and that i wanted to stay friends, and he turned it into this huge fight and ended it with “Forget it... Good night.” - and he used that phrase every (and “goodbye”) every time he wanted a conversation to sound final or like he was going to die if i didnt give him all my attention right then and there.

the fighting continued for a few months, during which he called me a sociopath, narcissistic, not worthy off being called a human being, and all that typa stuff. he started feeling suicidal - even though he felt that way before i met him, he started feeling it stronger because he didnt have me constantly fawning over him to ease it out - and he straight up told me that he blamed me for his feelings.

the fights got reaaalllll bad, and eventually he had a set day and time, and every time i said i was going to call his mom about it, he got really defensive and acted like i was attacking him, saying “dont test me” and shit

he became really emotionally manipulative and just flat out malicious tbh

the day came around and i blocked him because i didnt want to hear about it, and he started yet another fight. he didnt do anything though because half an hour later he came crawling back saying that he needed someone to talk to and that he had this whole change of heart and that he realized what his friends were worth and how he acted really shitty and that he was sorry

but he didnt change his behavior at all lmao

he kept arguing with me, so i started just. not joining as much and not talking to him as often and he got really pissy, asking me if i was talking to other people and accusing me of talking with this guy who he hates (the guy he hates left to make another server with all the people this guy was an asshole to so they could have a place where he wasnt there being a dick and the guy im telling you about acts like the victim whenever he talks about it like?? literally if u were a better friend they wouldnt have felt the need to?) (and i totally was talking to the guy bc the enemy of your enemy is your friend and all that) but he was a real ass about it. 

and saturday!! this saturday!!! he was an ass the moment i joined the call so i left and he got mad saying like “you know how i get upset when you leave the call” and i was like “i just??? dont wanna be there if ur gonna be mean to me the moment i join??” and he said

THIS BITCH

said

“its a guy thing to be mean to your friends. but i guess you wouldn’t know about that ;)”

so i blocked him. he texts me saying that hes been mean because his dads been on his back about college, and i said it wasnt an excuse. a few minutes later, someone from the server messages me sayin that nick said if i dont unblock him hes gonna ban me. so i unblocked him and asked for a reason why i should stay. this bitch. this ass. says “because i thought we were friends” LIKE BIIIIIIITCH PLEAAAAAAASE YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WE AINT

anyway we fought for 3 hours and rather than giving me any good reasons to stay he called me stupid and said i misinterpreted the message like?? how else am i supposed to interpret it????????

so im staying, making him fall in love with me again, then leaving.

bonus: i made a list of the highlights of some of the shit things hes said to me

"Forget it... good night." "i used to trust everyone then the thing happened with my cousin so i stopped sharing myself or exposing myself. then i did over the years with kii then she backstabbed me. then ness and it happened again. i didnt trust anyone and still wasnt ok with sharing myself. then u stepped in and made me feel happy and wanted and like i could trust people. then you said you loved me like you did. i opened up and pursued and got lead on for 15 hours a day for a month up until i got enough courage to try to stand and speak open heartedly and with courage and the next day you lose all interest." "you know what? you obviously dont like me anymore. im over it you win. im done chasing. the goalposts always change. its over." "i cant stop chasing you. you are literally my favorite person on earth." "im doing this once a day from now on. wanna go out" "1 reason i got on ow. *1 reason i got on ow off my psych. guess it doesnt matter to you." “For the record the reason im mad all the time is because im fucking pissed at you but cant take it out for some reason.” “reason im so shit ight now is caught i thought i was at rock bottom and you took me up the mountain just to fling me off. forget it. good night." "youre still online. just gonna pretend im not here?" "hope this doesnt wake you up but sorry for being a cunt." "i still want to die haha. life sucks" "im sorry." me: you purposely did something to make me mad and then get upset when i get mad "im hald zoned in rn im getting killed by bad vibes but im not gonna make you mad ever again." "why did you fool me. i fight with you a lot now and its because of what you did to me and how ive lost my sense of self and all emotions because of you. but then i remember this is just how i usually am and being happy is what people are supposed to be like and im not so this is normal and only my fault so. i forgot where i was going with this but take care friend." "if it was the concept thing then why do i still love you." "i get upset because i have to actively avoid falling for you." "im only angry and mean to you because i dont understand my emotions." "im gonna kill myself saturday at 7:32 pm" (<<<this was two weeks ago hes fine now) "im not gonna do it i just want attention" "to keep it 100 i just said that so you wouldnt call anyone." "dont test me" "eat shit" "if youre trying to make me unfriend you its working" "actual human beings dont pull that bullshit. they suck it up and stick to their word or break the news to the other and dont drag them along." me: every humans a human regardless of whether or not they feel "theyre a human. not an actual human. theyre a human but not worthy of being called one." "in 3 months you managed to fuck with my emotions and make me want to kill myself more than kii did in 3 years." "i think this is the last conversation were gonna have. if you got anything important to say speak now or forever hold your peace. alright youre in overwatch and missed your chance." "have fun with your game hope its worth losing me over."

me: im going to call your mom and tell her right now "and say what? 'im a bad friend and now nick wont talk to me?'"

me: no. 'nicks planning on killing himself.' "and ill just say its someone im amd at trying to get revenge on me" "im not convinced that its not a whole thing made specifically to drive me to suicide." "in queue rather than fixing problems. typical. goodbye, asshole." "what if by trying to stop the outcome u saw you just pushed me away from one of the only people i trusted and now im on a path that ends in my inevitable self destruction." "no thats the depression but i am saying u took away what made me happy." "forget it, ill catch you later. apparently no goodbyes either lol." "bye oats." "the only thing you will ever love besides yourself is overwatch. bye." "are you there i just got back and i really need someone." "beause youre the middle man i guess and it was a test of allegiance i think in my mind." "idk i just feel like not many people actually like me deep down and its a shit thing of me to put that on others." "hows ness doing" "because im done walking on eggshells for you, snowflake. "its a guy thing to be a dick to your friends. guess u wouldnt understand ;)" "sorry for being a jerk. dad has been riding me all week and im mad all the time." "maybe you would get it if your dad ever punched you or woke you up by throwing shit at you." (i know for a fact his dad doesnt do this. there was a whole week where we were in a call 24/7 to see how long we could get one to last and his dad brings him dinner and plays xbox in the same room sometimes. i get that from an outside perspective this may seem mean to overlook, but if you knew this guy, you wouldnt put it past him to lie about shit like this just for attention.) "youre being such a baby over this. its not a big deal, its an argument." "considering you didnt write it id consider it awful stupid of you to think you can interpret it better than the author." "you dont know me"

[chipsahoyforyaboi]

My first guild application at 13..

1. Name/Character name "Example" Brian, aka Nudist

 Taylor, aka Tyrrlin

2. Age

 13

3. Sex

 Female, im a girl

4. Current/Home Servers

 Eredar

5. Do you have any alts? If so, list them here.

A  Tyrlinne 85 frost dk

A Drizzie 85 survival hunter

A Tialii 85 disc priest

 H Nazuglo 85 fire mage

A Kixaria 78 prot warrior

A Zeldinkara 62 sub rogue

A Supercute 30 ret pally

6. When did you start playing?

 bc, i played on your account lol

7. Do you PvP/like to do so?

 Yes, I pvp all the time, i suck though, its fun when you win <333

8. What content have you experienced?

 Dragon Soul 6/8 heroic

9. What can you bring to Game Over?

 Boss ass dps

10. What is your overall philosophy on raiding?

Raiding is fun, but not when people are derps

11.Please acknowledge that we dont tolerate babies loot whores drama queens or any other varied attention whore within guild.

 Im an attention whore

12. What do you do in order to prepare for a raid/raid night?

 I SOMETIMES look up the fight, but i always have pots, and a back up flask

13. What are your feelings on reforging/enchanting/regemming/respecing for raid benefit half-way through a run? ( please acknowledge the fact you might need to do so depending on class/needs )

 If its for the raid, im down

14. Do you have any real life/ In-game friends on wow?

 Alot of guildies are my friends, no none of my friends play WoW that im aware of

15. Tell us a little about yourself that this application hasn't covered.

 Im super duper annoying

16. What are your plans for leveling/raiding in MOP?

 I will probably play, but not as much as i am playing now during cata

17. What is your exact current DS experience?

 6/8 heroic :D

18. Is the character your applying to your main? If not currently list previous alt-main swaps.

 Yes Tyrrlin is my main

19. Do you do RBG'S in any form? Do you do arenas ( serperate from general pvp )

 I would like to but no one wants a 13 year old girl to pvp

20. What kind of raid attendence do you keep? (With a more casual raiding schedule, we expect good attendence, however acknowledge the fact that real life happens, and unexplained weeks away from the game do as well, all that is asked is to be let known in some way shape or form if you're going to be on hiatis, or late/missing to a raid or raids ).   I have shown up late a few times, but never missed a raid 

21. Do you have Ventrilo?

 Yep

22. What are your computers specs?

 idk its your computer silly

23. Our raid times are Tue/Thurs 7:30-12:00 EST, please acknowledge your capability to make times, as well as the fact you're aware due to our casual schedule higher attendence is a must.

 I can attend, you could break my legs irl if i didn't show xD

24. If your computer was to break mid-raid night during progression, what would your reaction/solution be?

 I'd be like OMG WTF, then i'd let you know its broke, and try to get it fixed that night or before next raid

25. What methods of contacting you are available?

 I live with you, ummm yeah...

26. Do you play any other games aside from WoW?

 Xbox and Gamecube, no other online games, i would like to play LoL again

27. What is your view on hardcore progression nights?

 We get down 1 or more bosses we didn't have down before,

28. If needed or asked to prepare to a higher degree on a raid night, What is your solution?

 Go over numbers, get my flasks/pots ready, and try my best :)

29. What forms of theorycrafting do you use? ( Where and how do you determine what your top spec, geming, reforging, and overall class perspectives are? )

 I confer with my officer "Minilok" and i also know alot of my base stats, Spec i did what seemed best, and i seem to know a bit about my class :)

30. Please Understand, all the crying and whining from people gkicked from Game Over aside, we're a family and like to keep it that way, and the mentality of this being your home is as important for anyone coming in, as it is to feel welcome and wanted after being invited.

There are assholes where ever you go, and some people don't understand that, but most people i get along well with

31. Our trial period in-game is 2 weeks. What are you used to?

 I've never raided with anyone else ;)

32. Do you have any leadership experience?

 I lead some 5 man regular pvp bgs sometimes

33. Do you stand in fire?

 Not going to lie, i have in the past. Its down to about 1/10 times now though :D

34. If asked to sit on a progression fight due to one reason or another ( generally being lack of dps or a required certain spec/class to ease a situation ) what is your reaction?

 Okay, thats fine, shit happens ^.^

35. How do you take criticism?

 I don't take it well, but i know its needed so i get over it

36. Are you thin skinned? our vent is comprised of cock and fart jokes often, and can have the competitive feel, its not uncommon to be direct when talking to someone having a hard time on content to figure out what the issue might be, while it doesnt go as far as generally insulting the person, it definately will question a significant issue if the content is destroying said persons capability to do the fight.

I can take a joke and im not too thin skinned anymore

37. Nudist does yell if someone dies repeatedly to something stupid, how do you feel about this?

 They shouldn't die to the same thing over and over, 1 time oh okay it happens, 2 times umm okay?, 3 wtf

38. Do you use keybinds?

 Not really

39. What do you keybind?

 Just have the normal spells that are dots and incinerate for my rotation

40. Give us a screenshot of your UI.

 You can lean over and look at my screen lol

41. What key mods do you use to your game?

 idk what that means ^

42. With everything said and done with this application, is there anything you'd like to add?

 Im already in the guild but i feel we should have an archive of guild apps, so i'd like to be the first to submit

43. Angedechu is NOT a jedi, although mentally he could possibly be one. Are you a jedi?

L M F A O  Angedechu can do anything if he says "I CAN DO EEEET" <3 lmfao love you ange, and yes im a super jedi, no im not i've never see the start wars movies

[an9el]

do all the valentine’s day asks (!!!!!)

1: Do you have a crush at the moment? 

Did ya’ll know that the actual definition for having a crush is: ‘a brief but intense infatuation for someone, especially someone unattainable or inappropriate.’ With that definition I do not. I don’t get crushes on people often, but tbh whenever I meet someone new I often consider what it would be like if I did date them. What it would be like to talk to them, hold them, support them, love them. I’m just always dreamin’ of havin a healthy and committed relationship with someone because I just love lovin’ people and gettin loved back. 

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

Listen baby, I’m a pieces moon. Any emotion I feel I’m feelin it to the most extreme at all times. Which is why I’m glad anger is not an emotion I can capture well. But to answer the question yes it was with someone who used to mean a great deal to me. I was so in love with them that it became toxic for myself and them. I was willing to do anything for them, at whatever cost. It’s the loyalty of my Leo sun ill say.  But now I’m deeply in love with myself, all my current relationships with the people around me, and the sun. 

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?

The one I’m currently in now is gonna hit 2 months soon and I think that is the longest I have been with someone in an romantic relationship. All my other ones we’re fast, unhealthy, and honestly I was only in them because I felt it was my only chance at someone loving me. But the one I’m in now is vvv good and I’m vv happy with it. Other relationship wise, @greenteajuice is someone I care for very deeply as she has been in my life the longest platonically and has always supported me. I’ve known @teasquid since kindergarden tho! but we just recently became friends a couple years back, and im thankful to have them with me. 

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

Yeah! I used to change what I liked and didn’t like based off of the people who I surrounded myself with in order to get them to like me. I used to agree with what they wanted or said! and that is  why I have a little trouble making my own opinions or assertions on stuff because I’m so used to just going along with whatever my friends or partners say! But no more! I am living for me and only me now. But change isn’t all bad! someone can show you the good in something you hate, and the bad in something you loved. its life. 5: How is your relationship with your ex?

My ex was a really nice fellow, she was very funny and kind and caring. But I think she rushed into a relationship with me mainly based on my physical appearances and I went along with it because I was bad with rejecting someone so kind, and again, I was just in it to be in it honestly. It was the first relationship I had with dealings of polyamory and I considered myself a mono person before hand. I like to think me and her other partner were held on the same levels but, in reality we were not. She was very much in love with them, more than she was with me. But not without reason, she just had more of a connection and history with them. Also me and her partner didn’t talk at all, which didn’t help either. I often felt, not actually apart of the loop, i like connecting with people, especially if its someone who is dear to my s/o’s, so it hurt that we did’t really communicate often. BUT my ex is still someone who is in my life and i care for her as a friend and nothing more. I’m happy with where we are now. and I learned a lot from being with her. I actually forget we dated lol. 

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

No! But that would surely break my heart I know. 7: Have you ever cheated?

Nope! I would rather like, literally die, than betray someones trust like that. 8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?

Depends! I’d have to get to know them and build up a level of trust and such. 

9: What’s the most important part of a relationship?

COMMUNICATION! TALK TO ME! U HAVIN PROBLEMS! LET ME KNOW! U WANT SOMETHING THAT IM NOT GIVING YOU! TELL ME AND WE CAN WORK ON IT! TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE AND CARE ABOUT ME! GIVE ME REASSURANCE! just fuckin communicate about any and all things I promise that will lead to such a healthy and strong relationship! 10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

I mentally cannot handle flings or short term relationships. It really fucks me up emotionally and makes me wanna d*e!!! I just get really involved and wanna spend my life with that person 4eva and shit so when they’re not with that or dont want it im like!! whats the point theN! also i low low key have abandonment issues so yeah ahha. 11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?

Breaks! I mean yeah sometimes you need to get away from a person ! WHICH is why you should not spend 24/7 with ur partner, that much time with anyone would drive someone mad! no matter how much u love them. but meaning like, semi-breaking up? i mean if your realtionship has gotten to that point, i’d rather just talk about whats causing it to get like this, and work it out. but  a breather is never bad i suppose. 12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

One and it made me feel real bad. I only will ever be involved in sexual conduct with someone if I trust them enough to be that vulnerable and if I find them sexually attractive, which isn’t common since my grey ass only gets a boner for commitment and compliments. 13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

I regret going into the relationships for the wrong reasons. 14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

If you’re still considered a ‘kid’ I think you should hold off, but it’s impossible to stop them from doing what they want, and as so, we should educate them so when they do do it, they are being safe. 15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?

In what context? As in I’m 76 but I can still wear pink pencil shirts, a crop top, boa scarf and 6 inches heels cause “age is just a number” or “if she’s 16 than im 16″ cause the later is gross but the former i rock with 

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?

I believe in infatuation at first sight. The idea of someone that you have created in your mind at first physical glance. 17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?

Yeah of course what. the internet is just other tool that we use to connect and make bonds with people we normally couldn’t have done otherwise  

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

UM! probably if they exhibited signs of being a manipulative and/or abusive person yeah19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?

UH honestly I have no idea, im a ride or die type person as long as ur aren’t a complete shit bag! im willing to work on anything and talk through any issues as long as you are. but i suppose if we both understand that the relationship just isn’t working anymore and the connection just is and never will be there! 

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

yeah ! I am ! with my self, my friends, and my sweet sweet angel of a bf sam! 21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?, 

Yeah of course! As long as its healthy I would encourage it! 22: Do you think people should date their friends?

YEAHHHHHH! thats some good shit! 23: How many relationships have you had?

UM including the one im in now i think 3 24: Do you think love can last forever?

Depends on how strong and committed the love is, it would be hard to get to that stage of forever but nothing is impossible! 25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

Not institutionalized racism if that is what you mean26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?

Nah man my parents suck, if anything they should break up w/ someone if I don’t approve of them lmfao would probably fix a lot of things. 27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

Love yourself before you begin to love someone else. It’ll help. 

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

Yes! you just need to be willing to put in the time, effort,trust, energy, and commitment that comes with it29: What do you notice first about another person?

TBH this is such a leo thing but the clothes their wearing, and then their face! 

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

the only 4 sexualities yes. im queer and thats all i’ll say. i hate anything else tbh. if you like me im gay and if i like you im gay. thats it. 31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

nah man thats some wack shit right there if i did32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

nope! been in some unhealthy ones tho! 33: Do you want to get married one day?

possibly. for tax benefits mainly. also if me and my partner mutually agreed to wanting that yeah.34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed?

nah thats wild bro 35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

baby, baby, i could live my whole life without sex. that shit doesn’t mean a lot to me personally. But if my partner was a someone who liked sex I would def be down36: Are you still a virgin?

nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i mean, kinda, idk how that works. 37: What’s more important: Looks or personality?

personality easy.38: Do you enjoy love films?

as long as they aren’t yt cis het ones yeAH!! 39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

my grandfather has given me some! and Thao gave me some on my birthday! but i dont like getting flowers ! they just die and its so sad! 40: Have you ever had a valentine?

nope! but thats okay because I am loved and cherised by my friends every single day! and thats better! 41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?

just spending time with the person I love in any setting is nice. 

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”?

yeah, I played one of the main charters when reading it freshman year in English. 

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends?

both?? equally?? no gross hierarchy?? 

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”?

YEAH MAN YEAH MAN I love romance i love sappy shit i love doin gay stuff yes yes!!! 

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

OFC! I’d date any one of my friends cause their all cute and gay and great 46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”?

that, like gender, is not real 47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?

Ian and Jaden! 48: What’s your favorite love song?

L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I do not think so?50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?

I’m not! but if i was hopefully its just because I understood that being in a relationship isn’t everything and it will come when it needs too

51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? 

I do not like this question

52: Are you good at giving other people advice’s regarding dating/ relationships?

I don’t like giving advice for other peoples relationships because its not mine to get involved with ! but if someone came for me asking i would try my best!53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?

no??? thats so toxic ew54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?

i mean? if your partner is afraid of saying that they are with u to other people thats some issues but its cool if yall both wanna just like keep it to yourselves if thats ur jazz ya dig! But I love being shown off and appreciated! Really gets my dick hard

55:Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”?

im like a little overly attached but not in a toxic way, i just care a lot alot alot! but i know how to handle it and not let it get unhealthy! 56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship?

i do not think so :0! 57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

Don’t become so emotionally dependant on someone that without them, you think you’re life isn’t worth living anymore. thats like, super unhealthy for you and them. but people have died from a ‘broken heart’ before because their partner died, or was lost, etc. thats valid! but don’t take ur own life because of someone else! 

58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?

this what yall really want huh, you want me to say if im a top or bottom! i’ll have you know that I can equally enjoy both parts! mainly a sub though i’ll admit. im a ba-by ok. 59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?

no, i write them in my calendar so ill remember! because my memory is awful!! 60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?

if it works for ya’ll then it works. be happy. thats all. 61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?

why,,, why is this a question!! love both?!! this is silly lmfao62: How do you define “cheating”?

engaging in any form of like romantic or sexual manner with another person w/o the consent or knowledge of your partner. 63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

nah??? treat yourself. make yourself feel good baby, no body knows how to pleasure yourself better than you 64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?

its capitalistic is what it is65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?

Big time. Ask sam, I  wrap my body so tightly around that boy when we sleep together. 

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1: Do you have a crush at the moment? well im dating someone :3

2: Have you ever been deeply in love? yes just once and that is now

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in? the one i am in right now which is 1 year as of may 10th

4: Have you ever changed for someone? yeah a few people

5: How is your relationship with your ex? well  i just deleted my one ex off fb because his posts annoy the fuck outta me and i didnt need him on there! My other ex sometimes tries to talk to me but thats really it. im not friends with any of my exes.

6: Have you ever been cheated on? not that i know of

7: Have you ever cheated? no 

8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating? idk thats hard because i dont like to believe rumors and so i would have to know him i guess. If i was told by everyone he was a cheater then i would probably not date him. 

9: What’s the most important part of a relationship? companionship, trust, honesty, affection, happiness, empathy 

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious. flings are pointless. 

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”? no because i think breaks are basically just where youre not dating but you guys arent completely broken up yet.

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?   by hook up you mean fucka  random stranger? none. 

13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?  saying i love you way too soon especially when i didnt mean it, dating someone because everyone else thinks i should. I regret doing things because i thought i knew everyone wanted too. example was my one ex i didnt like really and i only dated him because eveyrone thought he was great..

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?  kids?...KIDS???

15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?  im bias because my bf is 6 years older than me but i do believe it is just a number UNLESS the person is like 15 dating a 22 yr old then thats fucking weird. But if youre both consenting adults then whatever. except for dudes who are like 35 dating 18 year olds thas just fucking weird to me.

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?  no. not love thats lust. 

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet? I mean yeah, if you talk all the time, everyday, share your secrets, then yeah. some of my greasts friendships were online, but i cant do online dating because i need to be with them. I did date someone online once and that was just pointless. Unless you meet from online and then can see them every couplemonths ( like ldr). but yeah idk i understand i over answered the question lmao

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?  Lying to me, cheating, doing illegal shit ( like hardcore stuff...), if you hit me..and if you hate my friends for no reason..

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? you just know. Usually if you lose feelings, or they just keep fucking up your life and or if you know youre just not compatible anymore..

20: Are you currently in a relationship? yeah! its our one year in may! 05.10.16

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? some can, if you can be mature adults. Unless you were super serious and then something happened! It all really depends on the relationship. I was friends with some of my exes but they turned to shit when i started to date Connor they got all jealous and some got super creepy wanting to know about our sexual life..like wtf..

22: Do you think people should date their friends? yeah but make sure they are on the same page.. but i also believe your significant other should be your best friend ^_^ 

23: How many relationships have you had? 4 including the one I am in now.

24: Do you think love can last forever?it can if you can work at it. 

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things? not everything.

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? no because my sister doesnt like my bf but i honestly dont care. Unless they had like actual valid reasons like if he were to abuse me which he obvs isnt.

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? Dont date someone because they like you. Dont date someone because they “look” nice. Dont date them because everyone else thinks they are awesome. and finally dont say I love you until you mean it!

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work? yeah. I did one once, andit took lots of trust but in the long run was pointless. I am in one now but its temporary hes back next month!

29: What do you notice first about another person? Hair and teeth. and for dudes it can be also if they have facial hair and have nice arms lmaoooo.

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual? Straight as fuck

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness? No because I already do and I know my bf has depression even tho he tries to self medicate with weed smh.

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? verbally.

33: Do you want to get married one day? Yeah. One day.

34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed? I just think it is dumb because one i dont need his name tattooed on me..two..like you never know they could not work out and then its awkward.

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?  not rly i need that physical touch BUT i will respect their wishes if theyre not ready, theyre not ready.

36: Are you still a virgin? Nope

37: What’s more important: Looks or personality? BOTH. 

38: Do you enjoy love films? yes but i dont watch them with my bf

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses? yes

40: Have you ever had a valentine? yes

41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?   where we both are connecting well and having fun. I dont need a fancy ass dinner.I rather have fun and connect well than have a sit down dinner and it be awkward.

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”? yeah

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends? Both. My boyfriend is my friend too so cmon. I would never ditch my bf for my friends and i wouldnt ditch my friends for my bf. Unless there was a legit reason

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”? i try to be

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?  my bf is my friend so

46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”? no

47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?  dont know. dont care.

48: What’s your favorite love song?  I can’t help falling in love with you

49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes. It sucks but sometimes you have too. I broke up with my ex like 2 years ago because he wasnt rly a good bf and I know he loved me a lot but He just wasnt what I want. He also was very bad at communication! He didnt talk to me for also 2 months LMAO so I was like bye bitch and Yeah he was out working but i dont know it was pointless. Ldr, and i didnt rly find him that attractive anymore and we didnt conenct. He tries to still talk but its like no honey..lmao

50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?  n/a

51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? poor but nice.

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?  I try to 

53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?  I do when im single cus you want to be with someone.

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)? i like it but connor doesnt rly use fb so were not rly facebook offical, and i mean that doesnt mean shit. I do say im in a relatonship tho, I aint gonna lie. But he doesnt rly use fb except for messaging.

55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”? Clingy I think. its my anxiety disorder, i get nervous they dont want me around and so i get so clingy and I also love them alot..

56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship? no but if i did i would feel awful. Unless I was doing it out of good heart ( like if someone was being abused).

57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?   no suicide is never silly.

58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?  submissive.

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?  no

60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?  i just think theyre stupid. But if you both into that, whatever.. but i just dont see that as a relationship..thats jsut me tho.. 

61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?  stop asking this shit. Makes me guilty. 

62: How do you define “cheating”?  If you have to hide it.. if youre kissing..flirting..touching..

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate? No just dont rly tell me about it, because i dont care. but i watch porn too. it would jsut annoy me if he was like swooning over porn stars or watching it more than fucking me.

64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?  yes. its kinda stupid. you dont need ONE day to show you care.

65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?  hard core