#like yeah i am often debilitated by the Nightmarish Visions but

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my anxiety bipolar (idk which one of them is to blame for this) brain does this horrible little thing where out of nowhere it will give me the MOST VIVID HORRIFIC visions and thoughts of terrible occurrences like my family dying while on the way to school or my cat swallowing a fishbone and rupturing his intestines or a sudden flashback to a terrible time i had in the past and it's immensely annoying especially when it happens at 9:52am when i am Working at my Job and i do not have the time to have a breakdown. but thankfully i have a foolproof way to deal with this: any time i am having a bad thought, i channel the voice of a condescending middle aged woman at a family gathering and use that voice to tell myself "dont think about such horrible things" and it like. works. all the bad thoughts pushed back into the brain closet. and theyll stay there until the next time they decide to creep out and haunt me but jokes on them, i have a MENTAL KAREN on my side. unstoppable force meets immovable object. thank god i dont have a therapist right now because if i explained this to one i fear i'd look well and truly insane