#like yeah I slept like 15 hours a day for like 4 years what abt it !!

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[rhymaes]

For the longest time I really thought people were lying when they said they willingly stayed after/came early to high school like what do you mean you didn’t get there late and leave early who are you people you’re experiences are not universal

[lesbicastagna]

for no reasons at all (bored in class) im going to finally disclose in more clear detail what caused my great summer 22 breakdown

for this to work i need to set the scene a little. on excavations its very easy to get really close with people really quick. First because you work together. But then when youre done with the 8ish hours of work, you all live together in the same place so you essentially work eat and sleep together, also often in very spartan places so the spaces are Very shared.

For This excavation we were there 4 weeks. We were staying in an old kindergarten. 15/20 young adults (from 20 to 30 year more or less). The professor did Not stay with us (he was barely there on the work itself).

detail. he was close friends with another girl. Lets say shes A. they worked together before and they were on the same wavelength. me and her never worked in the same area, we got along but she wasnt in my closest circle lets say. That being said. we've had a..variety of moments. I liked her but i didnt have any projects to try anything Romantic for a lot of reasons. But she was..fond? of me. so we were kinda in this treshold.

The first 2 weeks i worked at the tower where the guy in question, lets call him C, also worked. I did not like him at all first impression he seemed like the worst type of guy you can find on excavations: obsessed, full of himself, generally weird not in the fun sense. im not above being superficial and saying that i didnt like him bc he was blond also....god forbid.

He actually turned out to be great! He was not full of himself and his obsession most of the time was genuine passion for the job, that he was very happy to share and i love people who can talk your ear off about topics, especially since it was my first medieval excavation so i didnt really know shit abt it. He had a variety of hobbies, most interestingly he worked with metals, in true medievalhead fashion he could do from jewelry to swords all by himself. All this being said i generally liked the guy (even if he was a workaholic and im. not. so we often argued on the job) but i didnt much of it. We share some interests in the sense that i can, obviously, talk about history and literature and poetry so we would often discuss also archeology obv (not by ourselves often with the others obviously you are Rarely alone with only one unless you like shower together and even then ive had showers with other 4 ppl so). But you have to understand again that i could say equally interesting and praising things about most of the people working with me: you just get to know eachother very quickly and very deeply!

SO. last night of the excavation. We did a big celebration dinner we ate and drank a lot and had a lot of fun generally. on this dinner we also talked a lot and its when i talked for 20 minutes with her abt literature (C was next to us too and at one point he lit my cigarette very homosexually like with his own sorry this is random i was. intoxicated so i remember bits and pieces from here).

At one point we go back to the school where we slept. We kept drinking and playing there and obviously started smoking weed at one point bc we are university students. From now on my recollection is kind of sparce because usually i hold my ground pretty well but with the food and the alcohol and Everything i got. Very high. Also it was like 4am and i hadnt slept. We finish smoking and the energy is winding down by now. We were in one of the shared rooms (not the one where i slept) on A's matress. Dont ask. I was very chill just laying there being silly.

I Cant...explain why i knew what it was supposed to be. Probably exactly why he chose to give me something like this. We did talk about christian literature and the gospels but not Specifically you know. To this day i cant say how he nailed it so well. So im like. Stopping him. C. are these supposed to be judas' pieces of silver? The ones he sold jesus for? And hes like. Yeah.

After a couple minutes C gets up and asks if he can talk to me. AGAIN i was Very chill, in general and with him too, so i didnt think much of it. This is a huge L for me tbh i considered myself good at understanding when men are interested in me and in damage control but alas.

We go out back, theres a little garden facing the hills so its very dark. I crack a joke i dont remember what but by his response i understand somethings is About To Go Down. Im in disbelief. He puts something in my hand, i feel fabric and the sound of metal clinking together but i cant see what it is. The situation is so surreal i keep being sarcastic. I feel around the little bag and im like: is there. Beer caps in here? Hes obviously very anxious despite also being very intoxicated. He starts explaining me how he worked on the gift. He collected beer caps and flattened them and put them in some solution to get the plastic color and logos off. he also made the satchel but i dont remember where he took the scraps fabric from. i dont remember probably bc as he was saying this i opened the bag and tried to look at the caps and as soon as i saw them i knew.

I dont remember how i got myself out of the tension i probably laughed hysterically because like. Come On. He started talking again and he was very obviously confessing. He complimented me, not my looks but my wits, how thoughtful i was despite initially coming off as abrasive. It was a very sweet and honest speech and to this day it haunts me in virtue of being one of the few confessions that did not mention my looks in any way. I immediately ruined it by being too high to have any tact and answering with, now infamous among my friends: ahah its because im a scorpio!

Curtains drawn, no applause. I think at that point one of the girls who slept in my room came looking for me and called me to bed. I thanked him profusely bc i was genuinely grateful but then i just went to my room. I didnt sleep. 5 minutes later it hit me: the coins, the garden. He wanted it to end in a judas' kiss. I was positively in a nervous fit by now and the only thing that helped was that everyone else in the room was Out but i definitely stayed up bent in half by guilt and anxiety all night. I heard him and A talk in the kitchen (it connected my room to theirs) but i couldn't make out the words.

Next morning we are closing site so we still Have to work. I try to distract myself and i wait for a moment where i can be with him alone because i wanted to apologize for my lack of tact in what was essentially a rejection. Hes very much avoiding me. Understandable. But im still very upset. I try to talk to A. I'm like. Im so sorry, but im not...into men? (i had talked abt being interested in women the weeks before so it wasnt a secret. its just not my style to come out as a lesbian formally). A was like "well it cant be helped then. He was kinda expecting the rejection dont worry. But im a little sad..i think you would have been great for him" WHATEVER? i was just so defeated at that point i was like.....alright. This girl i swear i was so smitten for her i just wasnt thinking straight because after all this she was like. Are you coming to my house with the others after we close today? We are going to a medieval fair tonight and you can all sleep over at my house my family isnt home. And i was like. Of Course im driving 2 hours to your fucking house and staying another day with this group where the boy i rejected also is!

I was just. Completely out of it by this point. I was on 2 hours of sleep still reeling from the night and with the exhaustion of 4 weeks of physical labour on my mind i was just. Out of touch. We close and i drive to her house. We were a smaller group at this point obv so we were like 8 ppl or smth. I will Not. Start with all the moments me and her had while i was at her house. Its just pathetic honestly. Me and C still were avoiding to be alone. I had too much on my mind.

We went to the fair. I managed to have fun, i was actually very excited to be there it was good. We ate there. I remember a moment of lucidity when we were sitting at the table (drinking again. I had to drive too idk what i was doing) and i was sitting between A and C and I was just like. There is no way this is happening. I fell off the excavation hill and im dying and my synapses are firing off. Understand i was at a medieval fair in this castle town with everyone dressed in period clothing and playing pretend. This requires more lore of my mindset but its not that hard to See Why i thought it was all a fabrication of my mind like im don chisciotte and ive read one epic too many.

We go back to her house. I dont remember much from the evening. I wake up the next day and finally get C alone. I apologize, i remember my frustration in trying to make him understand how i was feeling. He seemed ok enough.

We said our goodbyes and i had to drive all the way back home. Long story short i had a breakdown over not having enough gas to get home despite it being a completely solvable problem and i called my mom in tears crying how i was stupid and shitty and she was just like. Anna just fill the damn tank at a gas station. She witnessed the best of me that month.

[sambashua]

92 questions/random questions/8 things tag~

hello friends !!! i’ve done the first two tags before but it’s been quite a while so ?? let’s see if i can come up w new responses i guess?? also these all have similar-ish questions so i thought i’d combine them so i don’t clog up everyone’s dashes~

tagged by (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ(ilya so dang much my favorite muffins)

92 questions: mariel! @jaehyunscult kelby! @yooncheoly and claudia! @s-lay-ing 

random questions: kolbo! @yooncheoly ommo! @strawberryboo​ and cloodoo! @s-lay-ing 

eight things: em! @seoulscapes mj! @jungnoir and kat! @atshinee

i’m going to tag @everyonesabiaswrecker @hoshi-ssi @king-hao @moonhyook @taeismyking @honestlay @yoonsunha @amessence @kylamassie1 @peachesandkili and also the beans who tagged me above!! you can do one of the ones you didn’t tag me in hehe(≧◡≦)

you guys can choose whichever tags you want!! or all of them ? idk it’s basically either long, easy or creative so whatever you feel like doing… or do none of them!! that works too! if you don’t want to be tagged just let me knowwww also you rlly don’t have to read this whole thing it is so damn long… but w/o further ado…

92 questions

the last…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my grandma !

3. text message: “THEBOP OF THE SUMMER” (sic)

4. song you listened to: ‘love paint (every afternoon)’ by NU’EST started playing before i got out of the car last night… WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I WATCHED MX’S NEWTON THIS MORNING OH MY GOD THE BOP OF THE SUMMER THAT’S WHAT THE TEXT WAS ABT BTW

5. time you cried: hmmmm not monsta x surprisingly ? but we have some rlly spicy food in LA and @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking and i had to hide our eyes from the waiter lol

have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nooo (as i said last time i’ve never dated so these are all no’s so you can skip around a bit i suppose)

7. been cheated on: nooo

8. kissed someone and regretted it: nooo

9. lost someone special: yea

10. been depressed: nope

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drinking makes ya do bad stuff kids

list three favorite colors (12-15)…

grey, light blue nd light green !

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yeAH SO MANY! irl and online i’m so thankful for everyone i’ve met~~ since i started uni i was rlly nervous abt meeting people and although i have one (1) new friend irl (shoutout to my main main main kat @atshinee literally where would i be w/o you i probably woulda gotten stuck at camp bc of the hail storm) i’ve met countless lovely individuals online that i am forever grateful for;;; now i’m being all sappy someoNE STOP ME

16. fallen out of love: nooo

17. laughed until you cried: almost everyday~~

18. found out someone was talking about you: oh yea

19. met someone who changed you: YES

20. found out who your true friends are: yeah!

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nooooooooooooooope

general stuff

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk like probably actually 80% but they’re not people i talk to now ? (kat still yells at me abt my answer last time)

23. do you have any pets: I GOT TWO CATS TOM TOM AND MYSTERY THEY ARE ADORABLE BEANS ND I LIKE TO BRAG ABT THEM SO ASK ME FOR PICS

24. do you want to change your name: i like my name a lot tbh (there’s so many endless nickname possibilities honestly)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i got gelato w two of my closest frandssss and also listened to nct dream like the whole day it was the best

26. what time did you wake up: um m m i think 9? yesterday i went to bed at 3:30 and woke up at 7:30 so i slept in more today lol

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: trying to read a soonhoon fic from eep and messaging ivy:D

28. name something you cannot wait for: uM IDK EVERYTHING I WAS WAITING FOR ALREADY HAPPENED i guess just moving back to school and starting classes??? i’m so anxious ugh

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 4 ? hours ago ?

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: um idk i think i’m pretty blessed to be completely honest

31. what are you listening to right now: there’s construction going on in the distance idk what they’re doing but it is LOUD

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’m so shook people haven’t talked to any toms i’ve met so many i don’t undeRSTAND

33. something that is getting on your nerves: ignorance *finger guns*

34. most visited website: tumblr (i haven’t been on youtube much lately cry)

35. elementary school: yeahhh

36. high school: yeahhh

37. college: yeahhh

38. hair color: blonde 

39. long or short hair: it’s so long rn i’m constantly choking on it

40. do you have a crush on someone: crushes are for noobs

41. what do you like about yourself: “everything, love yourself.” -kat

42. piercings: ears but i never wear them

43. blood type: idk my parents are both AB so my mom says we’re that too but mom that’s not how genetics work

44. nickname: i have so many but my most common one is mir~ i answer to anything tho

45. relationship status: engaged to jeon wonwoo

46. zodiac sign: cancer~

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: game of thrones or below deck (watch it it’s a reality show abt a yacht crew it’s so entertaining) 

49. tattoos: nope i’m too indecisive

50. righty or lefty: right

first…

51. surgery: i had surgery junior year of high school

52. piercing: did they not already ask this oh jk this is first well i still only have ears

53. best friend: in the womb bitchhh (-8 months would be the official age)

54. sport: i think karate ? my dad is super sporty tho so sister and i tried every sport known to man

55. vacation: probably washington bc i have a lot of family there

56. pair of sneakers: literally who knows this tho

right now…

57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: now i’m drinking tea

59. i’m about to: eat a bagel maybe

60. listening to: good luck by aoa (yessss my girls)

61. waiting for: jordyn to get off work so i can see her new dorm:D

62. do you want kids: i always have

63. do you want to get married: i don’t really know marriage seems so outdated…

64: what career do you want: journalist (yay)

which is better…

65. hugs or kisses: hugs!

66. lips or eyes: eyes!

67. shorter or taller: i don’t have much preference but i’m tall and i like being tall

68. older or younger: i don’t really care bc some older people are really immature and some younger people are really mature so~

70. nice arms or nice stomach: i really really don’t care

71. sensitive or loud: these honestly aren’t even antonyms

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i’ve never been a troublemaker so ?

have you ever…

74. kissed a stranger: nooo

75. drank hard liquor: neh ?

76. lost glasses/lenses: i have above average vision boiiiii

77. turned someone down: i mean;;;; i think most people have at least indirectly

78. had sex on the first date: nooo

79. broken someone’s heart: i really doubt it lol

80. had your heart broken: jeon wonwoo breaks my heart daily

81. been arrested: nooo

82. cried when someone died: yeahh

83. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in…

84. yourself: YEAH I GOT THIS! YOU GOT THIS! WE ALL GOT THIS!

85. miracles: maybe ?

86. love at first sight: not even a little bit

87. santa claus:

LOOK AT SOONYOUNG I’M LAUGHING

88. kiss on the first date: i mean i don’t see why not

89. angels: maybe ?

other…

90. current best friends name: sister n em n kat n cass n jords n val :3

91. eye color: grey ish

92. favorite movie: the proposal was my favorite movie for so long;;; i liked moonlight a lot too go see it

random questions

dude i fucking forgot abt this one i thought i was done fuck (why is this font so tiny)

relationship status: single for 19 years bishhhhhhhh favorite color: grey!! but i’ve been feelin orange lately hmmmm lipstick or chapstick: i like tinted lip balm:) but i even use vaseline sometimes try it okay it makes yo lips so soft last song you listened to: well i already said so i’ll do what’s stuck in my head rn: coffee by bts (it’s so good i get such calming vibes from it) last movie you watched: BABY DRIVER it was so ffffff good 100/10 would rec~ the car chases were so cool dude also ansel elgort is such a cutie top 3 characters: i’ll as april ludgate from parks n rec (are you happy jords), celaena from throne of glass, ndddd risa koizumi from lovcom:) top 3 ships: jejun ! soonwoo ! MARKHYUCK(ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ books you are currently reading: rnnnn i’m STILL reading heir of fire (don’t worry cass i will finish it in time) top 5 musicals: mulan is endlessly iconic okay, hsm, phantom of the opera, the sound of music nd mama mia !

eight things

last movie watched: baby driver hoo hoo last song listened to: me gustas tu bitchhhhh last book read: Crown of Midnight still oops sorry cass i’m so damn slow these days  last thing eaten: fig newtons (buy newton by monsta x on itunes) if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be: wherever @atshinee​ is because i want to support her for her test but i know i would probably just distract her:(((((( a fictional character you would hang out with for the day: probably dorian from throne of glass bc he just seems like such a lovable dork i want to give him a big ole hug he needs it  what fictional world/universe would you want to spend a week in: i used to be obsessed w the series Gregor the Overlander as a kid and i’d really want to spend a day there that would be so awesome esp the one where they travel through the one rainforest jungle… but also Harry Potter bc i rlly want to go to hogwarts and just;;; look around? it’s so pretty and i want to see all the paintings and staircases and the people it’d be great last video game played: i’ve never rlly played video games… i used to play the sims does that count rip

well it’s finally frickin done i doubt anyone bared w me for this trainwreck…….. i’m so tired now will i even do more of these today jk i gotta i am so behind but no selfie tags i look trash

[kagedyams]

Tag thing

uh so I got tagged by @nikiviki so i guess????

The last


1. drink: Vanilla Coke (i hate it but i bought it by accident and im not a quitter)

2. phone call: My cousin FaceTimed me like a week ago?

3. text message: “I want to ride Lightning McQueen”

4. song you listened to: Rainbow by Kesha !!!!


5. time you cried: I was watching Kyoukai no Kanata last night so that 


6. dated someone twice: Haha i have a bad habit of getting together with exes. So yeah, I went on a date with a creepy ex I broke up with about a year ago last month!

7. kissed someone and regretted it: Maybe? Not that I remembered really

8. been cheated on: Naaaahh


9. lost someone special: I lost a close friend to drugs in 2014.

10. been depressed: Ongoing crisis m’dude

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: like a week ago right outside my house which was a trip

3 favourite colours

12. Light blue

13. Crimson


14. Minty pastel green

In the last year have you

15. made new friends: When I went on a summer college program I did! and some weirdass mysme cult thing???


16. fallen out of love: I guess? Still on the edge abt my feelings for someone?

17. laughed until you cried: Nicole said smth funny when we were rabbiting and I died??


18. found out someone was talking about you: Pfft ohhhh yeah

19. met someone who changed you: I guess people have made me saltier in general?


20. found out who your friends are: i mean they’re friends???? they gon stay my friends homeslice

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: pfft whats a facebook

General

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: bruh

23. do you have any pets: My two baby westies!! Comet and Shasta (after the drink they serve in hospitals lolol)

24. do you want to change your name: Maybe to Quinn or smth??

25. what did you do for your last birthday: I don’t really celebrate, so i kinda just sat at home and slept.

26. what time did you wake up: 4pm :P


27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Binging Kyoukai no Kanata

28. name something you can’t wait for: Death


29. when was the last time you saw your mom: idk I saw her passed out on the couch snoring like 5 hrs ago so then?

31. what are you listening to right now: It’s been Rainbow since it came out man

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I’m sure I have but my memory is literal crap

33. something that is getting on your nerves: Small children and mom pressuring abt college. ALSO PEOPLE WHO MOW LAWNS WHO TF DOES THAT ESPECAILLY AT NOON THAT IS SO ANNOYING LET ME SLEEP

34. most visited website: Youtube??

35. hair colour: Dark brown

36. long or short hair: It’s pretty long, like titty height?

37. do you have a crush on someone: Idk feelings are complicated. I think I’ve had this crush but literally who knows so??

38. what do you like about yourself: Oh man its gotta be the tiddies. Papaya juice has healing powers.

39. piercings: I got some on the ears. I always wanted a second hole or a naval piercing.

40. blood type: O positive!!

41. nickname: i mean I jokingly get called Paybae. Used to get called Paytron the Sex Machine a lot??

42. relationship status: Single but willing to cuddle almost anyone?????

43. zodiac: Taurus

44. pronouns: She/her


45. favourite TV show: Mekakucity Actors! Avatar: the Last Airbender and Noragami are p close seconds.


46. tattoos: Damn can some people pull them off. I’m probs too wuss to get one, but i’d like a small thing on my wrist or thigh or neck or smth.

47. right or left handed: Right handed

48. surgery: Never!

50. sport: Tennis but I succ

51. vacation: I’ve always wanted to leave the country! 

52. pair of trainers: Never catch me without these damn fake converse got for $10.

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: Like my fav food or do I like eating?? Bc I like to eat yes but I love mint ice cream.

54. drinking: Umm man I like Coke and Dr. Pepper.

55. I’m about to: finish writing this list and play Fire Emblem: Heroes

56. waiting for: V’s ROUTE HOLY DANG


57. want: to enter the void and also maybe get more than 16 hours of sleep?

58. get married: Would like to one day but lack the emotional conviction hahahaha.

59. career: Bish I’m like 12 but probably something to do with International Studies and Service

60. hugs or kisses: I crave affection, so both. But kissing can be weird, I’d much prefer a big hug and cuddle.

61. lips or eyes: Eyes! Everyone has pretty eyes, I love seeing them!!

62. shorter or taller: I’m a fuckn shrimp at 5′2. I like tall people tho!

63. older or younger: I usually attract younger people, but I’ve only dated people who are my age? If i had to pick, older, but not by much right now!

64. nice arms or nice stomach: Ooh, I’d really like a nice stomach. But Michelle Obama can crush me with her arms.

65. hook up or relationship: Depends on the mood. I prefer relationships, but hookups aint bad.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant af

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: I mean, is it a stranger if u know their name?

68. drank hard liquor: I stole my friends strawberry svedka last week. It makes my ears feel warm?

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I’ve had the same pair of glasses for 3 years. Never lost them.

70. turned someone down: I have such a problem with saying no to people. 

71. sex on the first date: Sex has cooties


72. broken someone’s heart: I’m sure I did somewhere along the way


73. had your heart broken: In a relationship? Not really, but other things have.

74. been arrested: Kinda? I mean I was escorted to a police station but it was bc i was a baddie 12 y/o

75. cried when someone died: I mean who doesn’t cry when someone dies? Yeah, my dad and my friend

76. fallen for a friend: Hooooooooo boy yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: Only as far as I can throw myself.

78. miracles: no way Jose

79. love at first sight: I mean basic attraction ye? but the rest is strictly for my klance loving ass

80. santa claus: bish who else coming down my chimney ; ))))

81. kiss on the first date: Pfft I’d cuddle the shit outta someone on a first date yeehaw

82. angels: Anna is the purest angel so yes.

OTHER:

84. eye colour: like some greenish-blue color

85. favourite movies: 10 Things I Hate About You and Mulan!

so i guess i’ll tag @ttimemachines @hkqs @sleepybot-risianna and anyone else whos up for it

[wlweiss-blog]

@wlwnora tagged me 

Here Are The Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

Fool Lineup (i have no idea if this is avas own addition or if the original ask meme had fool lineup from the start. both are good): nat tagged most of the people i know :c @pyrruby @rosezone @angel-maki @tsunamifalls @hope-png and anyone else ive forgotten/wants to do it!!

the last

1. drink: water mixed w/ raspberry stuff 2. phone call: my brother 3. text message: ami 4. song you listened to: Zelda: OoT/TP- Lost Woods(Saria's Song)/ Sacred Grove Piano  5. time you cried: yesterday 6. dated someone twice: whoops yea 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope ive never kissed someone 8. been cheated on: yyyyea 9. lost someone special: YYYYYYEa 10. been depressed: i am known for being depressed

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: new years

3 favorite colours

12. pastel pink 13. pastel blue 14. that pretty orange color idk what its called

in the last year have you 15. made new friends: oyea 16. fallen out of love: nah 17. laughed until you cried: yeah i cry a lot 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah 19. met someone who changed you: big yes 20. found out who your friends are: idk what this means but probs 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: my fb is basically just family so no

general 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: 3 and the rest is family so im too lazy to count 23. do you have any pets: ye 24. do you want to change your name: kinda but im worried abt what my mom would Do 25. what did you do for your last birthday: im p sure i just slept

26. what time did you wake up: 6:10 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: snnnnnzzzzz 28. name something you can’t wait for: meeting my friends and this day being Over im so tired 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last night 31. what are you listening to right now:  1 Hour of Relaxing Zelda: Breath of the Wild Music

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yea

33. something that is getting on your nerves: Hip Pain and sadly these dogs im not good w puppies 34. most visited website: tungle and google 35. hair colour: light brown

36. long or short hair: short its just above my shoulders 37. do you have a crush on someone: ye ye ye my gf

38. what do you like about yourself: my eyes bv everyone says i have nice eyes

39. piercings: ears 40. blood type: A or O

41. nickname: kate, kait, kaitee, kb, valerson, koki is old but koki 42. relationship status: gay and taken

43. zodiac: sagittarius. aquarius moon and cancer rising 44. pronouns: they/them

45. favourite tv show: uhhhhhhh… i honestly dont watch many tv shows unless u count like….. anime……… in which case bnha (same nat) 46. tattoos: none. id only get one if i can find a nice easy spot where i dont feel mch pain (same enat) 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: none 50. sport: soccer, softball, baseball, football, tennis, volleyball, golf, and cheerleading (all of these are Death) 51. vacation: Georgia, North Carolina, Virginia, D.C, Kentucky, upstate New York 52. pair of trainers: ??

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: nothing rn 54. drinking: coffee

55. I’m about to: finish this and then play botw 56. waiting for: sleep & my mom to get home 57. want: My Cool Friends to be here tbh 58. get married: mmm….. maybe idk (same nat) 59. career: i want.... coffee shop but probably teaching or doing something w kids even tho i dont rlly like kids :/

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: hugs 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: idc

63. older or younger: :// 64. nice arms or nice stomach: again idc 65. hookup or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant:i would be a troublemaker but i have anxiety(sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssame)

HAVE YOU EVER: 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: no scary 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: many glasses but ive always found them eventually 70. turned someone down: yes. same guy four times( meeee too nat) 71. sex on the first date: no 73. had your heart broken: a lil 74. been arrested: almost 75. cried when someone died: yeah 76. fallen for a friend: yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: not really 78. miracles: ye 79. love at first sight: not really no 80. santa claus: no 81. kiss on the first date: probably not 82. angels: kinda for certain reasons

OTHER: 84. eye color: blue 85. favorite movie: spirited away or uhhhh aladdin or uhhhhh moana or uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh a lot

[bvckst]

70 horrible questions

tagged by @kookno​

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents?

kind of. my dad and i are pretty close, and my mom and i used to be really distant, but we’re starting to get more in touch with each other. 

2. who did you last say “i love you” to?

i think either my grandmother or my best friend syd. 

3. do you regret anything?

yeah like every single decision i make. my life is nothing but second-guessing every action i take.

4.  are you insecure?

incredibly so.

5. what is your relationship status?

hopelessly single.

6. how do you want to die?

ok so this is going to sound really weird but my cousin and i have thought very deeply about this. we decided that we either want to become immortal (like technology evolves enough to make us live forever without getting old) or we want to die relatively young bc we don’t want to be old. that sounds really really bad but dude if we’re both immortal then we won’t be lonely.

7. what did you last eat?

raspberries.

8. played any sports?

yeah i used to play soccer and i was really good at it. 

9. do you bite your nails?

yes, to the point that they bleed, and it’s really annoying. 

10. when was your last physical fight?

in elementary school on the first day in T.A.G. class a girl kept teasing me and messing with me and stuff so i punched her in the stomach. 

11. do you like someone?

yeah but im p sure i don’t even register to her.

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

yeah finals week b.

13. do you hate anyone at the moment?

yeah a lot of people i have this bad habit of disliking people at the drop of a hat. too cynical. 

14. do you miss someone?

yeah, my aunt moved really far away and we used to be super duper close.

15. have any pets?

yeah man two mastiffs ( gimli and daisy ) and two cats ( buddy and luna ) who are completely unrelated but have the exact same markings and are really hard to tell apart for strangers. 

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment?

excited bc i’m hanging out with friends tomorrow. 

17. ever made out in the bathroom. 

never made out period mate. a little too far for me. 

18. are you scared of spiders?

i have a very hot and cold relationship with spiders. i understand that they are benign and i try to let them go their own way but if one happens to get too close or is a bit bigger than i’d like it to be i will not stop until it is gone. 

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

i mean not forever bc the past doesn’t like gay people but for a brief period of time hells yeah ur talking to a major history nerd i couldn’t resist. 

20. where was the last place you snogged someone?

christ never. 

21. what are your plans for this weekend?

hanging out with friends and buying a swim suit. 

22. do you want to have kids? how many?

no not at all sorry dad but there are no kids in the future for me. 

23. do you have piercings? how many?

just my ears. 

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)?

really all of them but my favorites are math and science. 

25. do you miss anyone from your past?

no i think i’ve moved on. 

26. what are you craving right now?

chick fil a.

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart?

a few times maybe, but one of them i don’t feel bad about bc he was stalking me.

28. have you ever been cheated on?

yeah in elementary school lmao. 

29. have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

idk probably i’m a shitting gf i think i don’t know not a lot of experience.

30. what’s irritating you right now?

my sister had her friend over and they were up until 5:30 in the morning shouting and they kept me up all fucking night and i would have slept in except my dad woke me up to check if i was still alive. 

31. does somebody love you?

i mean yeah like my friends and my family. def hate myself though. 

32. what is your favorite color?

ok legit i do not know this is a serious problem for me i like a lot of colors like blue and green and yellow i can’t decide on a favorite. 

33. do you have trust issues?

yes and no. i feel like a lot of people have ulterior motives bc i’ve been around a lot of people like that but i’m also willing to open up if i know it’ll help someone. 

34. who/what was your last dream about?

i dreamed that my grandmother was best friends with the chinese president. 

35. who was the last person you cried in front of?

idk i cry every fucking day i think i got in a fight with my dad and started crying bc i’m a crybaby. 

36. do you have out second chances too easily?

yeah i think so. i mean i’m still suspicious of the person but i allow them to try and make it up. 

37. is it easier to forgive or forget?

forget, i’m bad at forgiving so i try to just block it out. 

38. is this year the best year of your life?

yeah i think so. i’ve picked up a lot of the things i used to love, and i’m a lot happier than i used to be. 

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss?

i think i was it third grade and this kid we called vampire kid ( he bit people ) dragged me underneath a bush by my leg and forced me to kiss him. 

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked?

dude no wth.

51. favorite food?

pasta, chicken, potatoes, sushi. don’t make me choose. 

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason?

nahhh i don’t think so. i believe in science and science is random and meaningless but also patterns and meticulous. i think that everything is explainable but that doesn’t mean everything has a purpose. 

53. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 

watched blackfish for the 75th time.

54. is cheating ever okay?

nah b down with cheaters. 

55. are you mean?

i don’t think i’m mean, i’m somewhat brash and i like to tease but i’ve never intentionally tried to belittle someone or cause someone pain. plus i’d never have the courage to be mean to someone, i’m too scared of everything ever. 

56. how many people have you fist fought?

none i’m small. i have wrestled with my cousin skye though but i always lose. 

57. do you believe in true love?

nope i think you can love someone with all your heart and still it might not work out. love is someone you have to work for. 

58. favorite weather?

sunny and 65. 

59. do you like the snow?

yeah bc it means i get a snow day. 

60. do you wanna get married?

idk man like i don’t see a reason for it because i don’t think you need a piece of paper to validate your relationship but i do think that if you wanna get married that’s totally chill. 

61. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

platonically yeah, i love it. 

62. what makes you happy?

idk my friends, painting without reason, books, nature, the beach. a lot of simple things make me happy. 

63. would you change your name?

no i don’t like my name but it’s still MY name, and i don’t think any other name would fit me. 

64. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

we’re talking abt vamp boy so yeah, hella hard. 

65. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

politely turn them down bc i’m gay. however this scenario wouldn’t ever happen bc my best friend of the opposite sex is also gay. 

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act like your complete self around?

yeah several. i think i’m very much myself nowadays, i’m not as afraid to be myself as i used to be. 

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

my dad?

68. who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 

probably my grandmother talking we like to yell abt how much we hate trump. 

69. do you believe in soulmates?

no i think you can have deep connections with multiple people. 

70. is there anyone you would die for?

honestly i’m really scared of dying, but there are still a few people i would. especially my little sister, because i’m always worried about her. 

i tag @3cbx @tencafe @softheartae @overdevv @shinee-prism @namjoone @dreamscript @jeon-gguk @amartae

[nvrm1ind-remade]

Tagged by @awakcs thank you~

rules: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

NAME: shabiya

AGE: 14 (nearly turning 15 soon tho)

BIRTH DATE: may 12th

THE LAST

1. drink: sprite

2. phone call: from my dad

3. text: from a friend

4. song you listened to: I need u - bts

5. time you cried: just a while ago

6. dated someone twice: nope

7. been cheated on: no

8. kissed someone and regretted it: no

9. lost someone special: yes

10. been depressed: every day

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black

13. red

14. idk blue (black and red are my only two favourite colours i guess)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. made new friends: yep

16. fallen out of love: nope

17. laughed until you cried: mm i rarely do but yea i guess so.

18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah but I wasn’t bothered tbh

19. met someone who changed you: yes

20. found out who your true friends are: yep

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: i don’t have facebook

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: ^don’t have facebook.

23. do you have any pets: no but I’d like to have one.

24. do you want to change your name: idk

25. what did you do for your last birthday: I can’t even remember it was ages ago.

26. what time did you wake up: 6:00am (I literally slept for 2 hours I couldn’t sleep)

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: thinking about what a piece of shit I am

28. name something you cannot wait for: idk figuring out what to do with my life

29. when was the last time you saw your mother: three hours ago

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: idk probably being here as I just want to disappear

31. what are you listening to right now: nothing

32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: um no

33. something that is getting on your nerves: that I don’t want to go anywhere tomorrow I just want to stay at home and I can’t do anything about it

34. most visited website: tumblr

35. elementary: finished

36. high School: in yr 10

37. college: starting in like over a year

38. hair color: dark brown

39. long or short hair: long but I want to get it cut a bit short like I used to have it

40. do you have a crush on someone: no

41. what do you like about yourself: idk nothing rlly

42. piercings: ears and I’m getting second piercings on my ears again soon.

43. blood type: idk I’ve never paid attention to it (I always forget lol)

44. nickname: idk people either just say my name or just shabs/shabso

45. relationship status: single

46. zodiac sign: taurus

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: I don’t really have one I guess

49. tattoos: none

50. right or left hand: right

FIRST…

51. surgery: never had one

52. piercing: ears

54. sport: idk i think it was boxing

55. vacation: I can’t remember

56. pair of trainers: nike

RIGHT NOW…

57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: water

59. i’m about to: message a friend

61. waiting for: me to get over myself and stop being so fucking idk

62. want: the holidays to come so i can just take a break from everything and try and stop being a piece of shit.

FUTURE…

62. want kids?: mm idk not rlly

63. get married: idk again I’ve never really given it much thought as I’m not bothered really

64. career: idk I have no idea abt my future

WHICH IS BETTER…

65. hugs or kisses: hugs

66. lips or eyes: both

67. shorter or taller: taller

68. older or younger: both

69. romantic or spontaneous?: both

70. nice arms or nice stomach: idk

71. sensitive or loud: idk sensitive i guess

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: both

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. kissed a stranger?: nope

75. drank hard liquor?: no

76. lost glasses contact/lenses?: no

77. turned someone down?: mm yes

78. sex on first date?: no

79. broken someone’s heart?: yeah because i was an asshole at that time but we’ve sorted everything out now.

80. had your heart broken?: no

81. been arrested?: no

82. cried when someone died?: yea

83. fallen for a friend?: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. yourself?: ha no.

85. miracles?: hmm yeah

86. love at first sight?: nope

87. santa Claus?: no

88. kiss on the first date?: no

89. angels?: yeah

OTHER….

90. current best friend’s name: I have a few but jasmin is the one that’s the closest and best as she’s amazing and is always there for me 

91. eye color: dark brown

92. favourite movie: ahh well I have quite a few but to sum up they’re all action/crime/thriller based.

Tagging: @jjeoreojinpaca @saphisticated @yasloveoao @haise-ghoul @v-14 @heiwa @shinjaeyo (if ur still alive where the fuck are u) and anyone else who sees this and would like to do it

[fourlynchclover]

Do all

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? it was probably like my mom lmao so yeah2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? yes that’s like the lowest age id date i ain’t tryna get arrested cause someone’s underage 😂3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? like constantly 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? i always do5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? i’m not talking to anyone or dating anyone so no lmao 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? no i haven’t listened to any music today 7. What exactly are you wearing right now? some leggings and a sleep shirt 8. How often do you listen to music? not every day maybe like every other day every two days 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? sweats 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013? lmao let’s change that to 2018 and no 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? antisocial af i don’t know anyone 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? no 13. What about ‘R’? no 14. Can you drive a stick shift? i can’t drive at all15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? yeah but no16. Are you going out of town soon? no not till june 17. When was the last time you cried? idk like yesterday probably 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? yes 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? mmmm no 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? my brother 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. i slept until 730pm lmao 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? no 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? no24. What are you sitting on right now? a chair25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? no 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yes 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? christina 28. Do you get a lot of colds? yes i’m sick right now ffff29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? walmart30. Does anyone hate you? probably 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? actually i think i have an empty wine bottle in my room lmao beer bottles too32. Do you like watching scary movies? yes33. Do you want your tongue pierced? no 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? honestly. 2017 35. Did you have a dream last night? yeah it was weird 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? idk tbh 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? no lmao 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? no😂😂😂😂39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? 😂 nah fam. 40. Did you have a good day yesterday? i slept all day 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? no 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? no 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes but where they at now? not here lol44. What’s the best part about school? nothing 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yes46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? no 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? literally constantly 48. Were you single over the last summer? yes 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? not at allllll50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? idk nothing 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? i don’t talk to guys tbh lol 52. Are you nice to everyone? no 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yes 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? yes 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? yes 56. Do you think you like someone? no 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? no 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? girls 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? uhhh idk tbh 60. Do you hate anyone? no 61. How’s your heart? it hurts 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes 63. Have you ever cried over a guy? yes lmao 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? no one. no one knows i exist enough to talk abt me 65. Are your toenails painted pink? no 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? i hope not 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? idk man68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? yes😂69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? my mom probably 70. How do you look right now? sick and gross 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? no. 72. Can you commit to one person? yes 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? no 74. Have you ever felt replaced? yes 75. Did you wake up cranky? usually76. Are you a jealous person? hella 77. Are relationships ever worth it? probably 78. Anyone you’re giving up on? no 79. Currently wanting to see anyone? yes 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? nothing81. Last person you cried in front of? idk82. Is there someone you will never forget? yes83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? i don’t have feelings for anyone 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? idk85. Are you over your past? lol no 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? yes 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? not really 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? yes. 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? yes 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? yes91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? how am i supposed to know92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? yes 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? no 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? nope 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? i didn’t like anyone in march lol 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? it was my 15 year old cousin so 97. Who do you have texts from? ^^98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? tell them to go for it and be happy 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? no one 101. Ever kissed under fireworks? no 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? yes

[sxdomy]

All

1:Is there a boy/girl in your life? yes, lars (:
2:Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? the last person who hurt me so much my whole life almost fell apart? yes
3:What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” cat
4:What’s something you really want right now? lars
5:Are you afraid of falling in love? no, i'm in love
6:Do you like the beach? no
7:Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? no
8:What’s the background on your cell? "it always seems impossible until it's done." -nelson mandela
9:Name the last four beds you were sat on? mine, my sister's, my nephew's, and my parent's prob??
10:Do you like your phone? yes
11:Honestly, are things going the way you planned? yes
12:Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? the manager @ my new job
13:Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? rottweiler
14:Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional
15:Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? zoo
16:Are you tired? no
17:How long have you known your 1st phone contact? it was probably a family member so my whole life lmao
18:Are they a relative? yeah
19:Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? i have none
20:When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? literally 5 sec ago
21:If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? i would wait i feel young
22:Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes
23:How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? eight
24:Is there a certain quote you live by? "if you never break, you'll never know how to put yourself back together..." -real friends
25:What’s on your mind? lars
26:Do you have any tattoos? no, but i want some
27:What is your favorite color? black
28:Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? whenever i see lars again
29:Who are you texting? lars
30:Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? no
31:Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? yes
32:Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yes
33:Do you think anyone has feelings for you? lars
34:Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? yes
35:Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? well, if i had no idea who the person was then i'd be pissed
36:Were you single on Valentines Day? yes.. this v day hopefully not 
37:Are you friends with the last person you kissed? no, we are dating
38:What do your friends call you? brett, bread, brettzee, beret
39:Has anyone upset you in the last week? no
40:Have you ever cried over a text? yes
41:Where’s your last bruise located? cant say i know
42:What is it from? idek
43:Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? months ago 
44:Who was the last person you were on the phone with? lars
45:Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? my docs
46:Do you wear hats if you're having a bad hair day? i own none
47:Would you ever go bald if it was the style? i've thought abt going bald for yrs
48:Do you make supper for your family? sometimes
49:Does your bedroom have a door? yes thank fuckin god
50:Top 3 web-pages? porn site, school website, google
51:Do you know anyone who hates shopping? idts
52:Does anything on your body hurt? no
53:Are goodbyes hard for you? depends
54:What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? dr pepper
55:How is your hair? soft, shiny, black, and clean
56:What do you usually do first in the morning? check the time
57:Do you think two people can last forever? yes
58:Think back to January 2007, were you single? yes, i was eight yrs old
59:Green or purple grapes? purple
60:When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? next time i see lars
61:Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? in lars' bed
62:When will be the next time you text someone? prob in a sec when lars responds
63:Where will you be 5 hours from now? in my bed
64:What were you doing at 8 this morning? sleeping
65:This time last year, can you remember who you liked? yes
66:Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? lars
67:Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no ):
68:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? lars
69:Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? yes.. recently no
70:How many windows are open on your computer? my computer is shut off so idk
71:How many fingers do you have? ten
72:What is your ringtone? marimba
73:How old will you be in 5 months? eighteen
74:Where is your Mum right now? her rm
75:Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? we got into a huge fight and havent spoken since
76:Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? no
77:Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? some, yes
78:Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? i had a crush on like 20 different ppl in that one yr alone
79:Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? yes
80:Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? almost in lars'
81:How many people have you liked in the past three months? a few
82:Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? yes
83:Will you talk to the person you like tonight? yes
84:You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? a friend
85:If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? no.. as long as theyre safe abt it
86:What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? someone told me to put my phone away, and i didnt
87:Who was your last received call from? lars
88:If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? no
89:What is something you wish you had more of? $$$
90:Have you ever trusted someone too much? yes
91:Do you sleep with your window open? if it's hot, yes
92:Do you get along with girls? some
93:Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? no
94:Does sex mean love? it can
95:You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? i would fuck him LMAO
96:Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? no
97:Did you sleep alone this week? yes
98:Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? yes
99:Do you believe in love at first sight? no
100:Who was the last person that you pinky promise? cant remember