#like w exotrauma the word

[starfilled-galaxy]

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hi starfilled....... can i ask you abt. exotrauma (<- thats what it called right?).. like. how. to help your alters w/ it..?? Bc idk a lot about it. and. i.... want to be educated bc..... i think omori is.......................... currently having a panic attack and idk how to help....... (sorry for bothering you but this is rlly rlly rlly important rn omori is fucking breaking down and i need to help him asap)

Sorry this is kinda late kjfhgj I dont have time to go in depth rn but basically exotrauma is trauma and even if it didnt happen in this word it's still trauma, so you need to treat it like trauma. Uh look up how to help someone in a panic attack?

Whenever Kel's have a panic attack we don't exactly know what to do, but normally the others seem to give him physical comfort and just kinda wait it out

[kristalpepsi]

I'm sorry I was strugglign to understand your typing quirk ;-;, but i wanted to say fictionkin are still literally what they are kin to! fictionkin and fictive actually have a much broader overlap. i also have to add: i some research into early fictionkin and fictives were actually included in canon calls back then (though they were much closer to source calls)! but I think on tumblr the canon call environment has become kind of.... dangerous? fictives and fictionkin both have to be careful.

Ah ur very right, im not very educ8d on the kin side of thngs so its vry wrng of me 2 sy whtvr aldnksksj

B yea ur rite, n thts tru!!! Ough i thnk finding canonm8s is valid b 4 both kins n fictivs u shld b carefl no mttr wht :^(

We nvr experiencd canon calls on tumblr b we’ve been thru lookin 4 canonm8’s between ppl on discrd in the past- i ws gnna say mor b im tired n dnt wnt 2 skjsksj ty 4 explainin 2 me tho!

[blackwinged-soul]

Oh.

O h .

OH.

So, it turns out something that Never Clicked to me in the anime's M|emor\y W/or|d arc is ONLY canon in the anime. Not the manga. (Kai|ba wasn't even THERE in the manga.)

And my source as R\you seems to be much more like the manga.

Which might explain why I was always kind of baffled by his... presence in the anime. Like, the fact that he Came With Everyone and Had a Past Life like Y/ugi and I seemed Strange and... what's the word... incongruous?

Because It Doesn't Match My Memories, but of course the first time I watched it I didn't know there WERE any memories my subconscious was comparing it to. {lD (Because I worked so hard to lock them down and holy hells, for like 20+ years of this life, it WORKED. I probably wouldn't have remembered/kinfirmed that life at ALL if I hadn't done so many workings specifically aimed at Remembering Past Lives. Especially once I kinfirmed B|ue and I was desperate to remember more about Pin|k...)

Anyways, I might have to explore that arc through the kin lens because the last time I tried, I was watching the anime, and I was... overwhelmed. (The exotrauma. I don't think I've yet had a kinfirmation without getting slammed by exotrauma.)

I'm not entirely convinced my timeline was 100% compliant with the manga either, but it's a lot closer to what I remember than DM.

[flower-boy-roxanne]

hey!

im dirk! this is my personal intro post & it includes triggers specific to me, so PLEASE PLEASE tag your own posts with cws for my content triggs if you follow me!!! with that in mind, read the entire thing, please <3

( system dni & info located on our art blog )

about

full name is dirk roxanne strider, as a quick explanation for my url :3

i use she/they pronouns and identify as demimale! my headspace body is intersex

ABSOLUTELY NO REFERRING TO ME BY HE/HIM I WILL SCREAM

i age-slide! about 15-25

i also age-regress, typically as a response to stress and/or trauma but it can also be a result of excess affection, babying/patronizing me (which i actually dont mind much but if you do it just to make me regress we’re gonna have a problem bud), etc.

i go by dirkie when im age-regressed!! if you see me posting during those times please refer to me by that name and try to be extra nice. if i was stress-/trauma-triggered into regression i may be very emotionally sensitive. i prefer to be talked to like a little kid/baby too and i may talk very childishly (unnecessary word pluralizing, wrong verb tenses, w’s in place of l’s and r’s, easily excited, etc.)

i pet-regress into a cat mindset due to a very particular situation in the past. i will absolutely not discuss it here and im not afraid to get an aggressive/violent protector up to roast your ass if you repeatedly pester me about it. like seriously dude you dont actually wanna know anyways

NEITHER OF THESE ARE S-XUAL THINGS FOR THE LOVE OF G O D . we dont support “““s-xual””” agere because that isnt and shouldnt be a thing its fucking disgusting please let me regress without ppl thinking its s-x roleplay in peace—ITS NOT I AM IN THE LITERAL FUCKING MINDSET OF A LITERAL FUCKING CHILD. thank you <3

i have severe exotrauma. all my posts discussing it will be tagged #dirk talks trauma, feel free to block it. i also try to appropriately cw/tw tag them (i use the term tw only but its just because including both drains my spoons)

that said, dont! ask me! about! my trauma! directly! I WILL TALK ABOUT IT WHEN I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!!!

not only is our body autistic but i was autistic in my canon!! just a fun fact :3

i try to avoid using :) emoticons and prefer :D, :3, and the like. idk ive just had a fair share of experiences where its used in a (jokingly, usually!!) creepy/threatening context so it doesnt read well to me

please dont dm me without asking!!! ive got some of the worst anxiety & paranoia in this system, plus ive got a small bit of trauma relating to unsolicited dms

asks are always okay though :3!! so long as youre not bein a dickhead ya know? anon is off tho for comfort n trauma reasons, sorry about that

(if you want me to answer your ask privately just tell me!! i might accidentally be a fuckin idiot n post it publicly tho, just a fair warning)

i somewhat suspect myself of ocd, but i havent had the spoons to do enough research for confirmation

I AM VERY BAD AT READING TONE. please tag things /j, /lh, /s, etc. so i know you arent genuinely trying to be a dick to me

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my tags

#dirk.txt — regular text post

#dirk.png — art/edit post

#dirk.jpg — shitpost, memes, otherwise non-artistic images

#dirk.mp3 — original song lyrics, voice recordings

#dirk.pdf — creative writing post, infodumps, ideas

#dirk.gif / #dirk.mp4 — gifs, videos

#dirk talks trauma — discussion of my exotrauma, including vents

#dirk updates — quick notices about the blog, my personal life, or anything that may have impact on blog interaction (that of myself or other users)

#little flower — the post was made while i was age-regressed

#catnip flowers — the post was made while i was pet-regressed

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blacklist

(catchall cw tag is #flower boy dont look! i feel like dirk dont look might be an already used tag for some people hgsfcjj :'))

ANYTHING relevant to inc-st, p-dophilia, r-pe, ab-se, or isolation (tags: #incest, #incest mention, #pedophilia, #pedophilia mention, #rape, #rape mention, #abuse, #abuse mention, #isolation, #isolation mention)

the word “selfcest”

using he/him pronouns for me and/or implying that im a fem gender for using she/her

not exactly a trigger but i might act weird or cautious around alpha dave fictives & kins, nothing personal (technically) just trauma

making jokes about abandonment or death without joke tagging (though it still makes me VERY uncomfortable & anxious!!!)

discussion about breakups and/or exes in terms of a romantic/s-xual relationship (tags: #breakup, #breakup mention, #exes, #exes mention)

treating me like an object or subhuman, joking or not. just dont

using particularly harsh insults for me even as a joke—ie dumbfuck, wh-re, shitbag. im ok w being called a dumbass n bitch n stuff but only in a joking context!! if you want to know any other boundaries on that just shoot me an ask my dude. also dont call me slurs :(

the idea that fiction doesnt affect reality (points at myself then at my str-d-rc-st exotrauma. bitch)

i know its legit a part of my url but PLEASE dont call me roxanne unless we’re close!! it makes me uncomfy when strangers/acquaintances use my mid name for me :(

implying or stating that im guilttripping. my spirals, emotional outbursts, etc are almost always trauma responses. saying im guilttripping in itself when im actually in severe emotional distress is a trigger to my trauma with our exes. i have very little power over my spirals and often struggle in dealing with situations that are newer to me, emotionally and otherwise. i am not guilttripping, im acting on a trauma response.

if you put words into my mouth or twist what i say i guarantee you furorem will judoflip you. we have trauma with being lied about and intentionally misinterpreted too, thanks.

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thanks for reading!! have a fuckin fantastic day, yall

[modelorganism]

“exotrauma”

so i try to avoid The Syscourse but i wanted to weigh in a little on a term i’ve seen crop up a bit

i get why a lot of people are uncomfortable with the term/concept and tbh i... don’t know how i feel about people who have not experienced trauma in /this/ lifetime claiming those experiences, yknow? but at the same time i get that brains are weird and ultimately it doesnt harm me if someone is having a bad time because of their past life memories or w/e. i have bigger problems, haha

but i will say that as a trauma survivor who Also has past life/fictive experiences that could be considered traumatic, i find it kind of useful to be able to talk about? like. thinking about experiences i’ve had and things i remember and patterns i notice, helps me personally to process stuff and notice patterns and things about my identity that i don’t know if i could otherwise. as someone who relates the trauma i “remember” from past life stuff to trauma that has happened to me in this life, i like the idea of having a word to differentiate the two of them