#like this acc is 100% me being a little attention seeking creep

[too-scared-to-tell-my-therapist]

wednesday, 22 may, 2024

can we also talk about how im so desperate for attention. like jesus christ get a life. not everyone wants to know whats going on with you. i crave validation so much i hate myself for it, and in turn i dont even get validation from myself. i just sit there and rot because im afraid that ill get shut down for wanting somebody to see me, so i shut myself down and i just realised that this is directly related to my trauma. oh shit.

this whole acc is me craving validation and wanting to be seen and i hate myself for it. i wish i could say that i write these entries so people know theyre not alone, but really i write them so i know that im not alone. but the only one thats gotten a like that isnt my main, or my one friend who knows this is me and knows my face behind this digital wave is the shortest post on here. and it says smt like"we just got our PreACT and PSAT scores back. i did well." thats it. and im pretty sure the acc that liked it was a bot. god i feel so fucking alone. can someone please hear me? im fucking dying over here.

but hey! im finally passing chemistry. i guess thats a win. 😔