#like they're just silly stories to help me cope with having no friends but. i think i see where she's coming from

[the-mu-chronicles]

i had a psychologist appointment last week and the psychologist told me my paras are basically a reflection of me and my deepest issues 💀

[benjineedssleep]

(fanfic) silly things in my 100k+ word wip that i really fucking love

i talk about this fic out of context a lot to avoid spoilers since it's not posted anywhere yet but... i really wanted to share a couple of things that might be a little too in context. anyways! lol-- the list is under the cut. proceed with caution if you plan on reading it when it's done :3

p.s. it's a sambastian fic but has a ton of other fun stuff. there's somethin' for everyone in there. (if you care at all, here's an intro to it.)

as annoying as it is to write, reoccurring items/motifs are so fun. like yes, i can and will be referencing a joke from ten chapters ago. and yes, that character sebastian knew? yeah, well, haley knew her too because they all grew up together and went to the same high school. it's just fun and a way i world build in a space that's already pretty developed.

speaking of the motifs, my favorite has to do with touch; the boundary between something explicitly platonic and romantic. pretty much every character toes the line but there are certain things, like hand holding, that just really take the cake for me. see it's not just hand holding. it's guiding. to go from holding a wrist to a few fingers to a palm and to then intertwine. it's fuckin' fantastic. even more so because it's such a small detail you can miss.

haley and vincent are two of my favorite characters to write. they have very specific voices and mannerisms and trying to keep it consistent and in character is such a fun challenge.

on that note, haley and sebastian are my favorite dynamic to write (other than sambastian obviously lol, the fic is theirs after all). they're both catty and their love-hate relationship is my favorite thing ever. i recently wrote a part where haley comes to him for advice and half the conversation they're arguing/dragging each other for absolutely no reason. and what makes it even funnier is they continue the conversation all the while this is occurring.

sam is full of shitty jokes and even though i only throw them in there a handful of times, i adore how cheesy he is. he just thinks he's so funny and, despite everyone's grumbling, they can't help but agree.

robin and sebastian's relationship is also fantastic. a lot of what i wrote with them is early on and needs to be heavily revised, but generally speaking, they're both flawed characters who fucked up their relationship with each other and being able to explore that in a healthy way makes me cry. it's just so good. everyone needs a robin.

abby is the most omniscient character in the whole story because she's not only friends with sam and sebastian (getting both sides of their stories) but also with haley (the town gossiper). the way the two girls kinda orbit everyone else while having their own shit going on is just a blast to write. they don't exist just to fuel the plot, they're their own characters. but also, watching them lose patience and start forcing their friends together like barbies while playing house is REALLY fucking amusing SDFUIHSDFH

internal battles are just SO juicy. most of sebastian's issues are internal and self inflicted. he's just in his head too much and does dumbass shit to try and cope with whatever he's feeling (that he doesn't want to, even if it isn't inherently bad) at any given moment. the main plot and catalyst for the story's problems is literally him not wanting to accept that having feelings for people is okay!!! he's so stupid!!! i love him!!! (he's also me sometimes... i fear...)

i'm not typically a massive fan of ocs in written fan fiction (i for some reason eat art/comics up though???) but i cannot help myself by throwing in random and irrelevant characters. there are two market-esque things in winter year 1 and all the vendors the characters talk to have names and personalities. all of them were made up on the spot and will (likely) never reappear, but i don't care. they add depth to something otherwise limited to a handful of canon characters. i haven't tried out any expansion mods for sdv but i totally get why people like them so much and write those new npcs into fics. the options increase like... sevenfold XD

speaking of ocs, i basically make irrelevant canon npcs into ocs in this fic. welwick the fortune teller? i made them non-binary and they genuinely have thousands of words dedicated to them and are referenced multiple times throughout the entire fic.

SPEAKING OF QUEER FOLKS-- anyone i add is some flavor of queer. i don't give a single fuck. there's an nblm relationship and there's a trans masc character and there will be many more random inclusions because i said so.

super minor detail that i technically haven't had the opportunity to add yet but background ships? characters who literally don't have audible interaction? i'll be writing that in. haven't decided who's getting blasted with the miku-beam-of-homosexual-pairing yet but i'm leaning toward harvey and elliot. and both of them have their own lines in the fic already. so they're real... (and i love them...)

sebastian opening up as the fic progresses, letting people into his life, letting people love him unconditionally... A U G H-- it's fucking fanTASTIC bro. i already have an idea of the exact way i'm going to end the fic and it has to do with this exact concept and the way it's physically represented in his collection of 'cherished items'. more than just abby and your mama care about you now my love =((( /pos

okay. i think i'm good. i can seriously go on forever just like with my headcanons. i just love writing so much. i LOVE IT SO MUCH-- also, before i go, take a shot every time i said something was fun to do. you'll be drunk as hell by the time you get back down here, trust XDD

[heyybaejjk]

SAU, LA'U TAMA AULELEI - IMPORTANT !

NOTE/WARNING ! : mentions of sexual assault

I desperately hope you all read this because it has a very important update on the series.

This is an important notice for my ongoing series. Before I begin, I'd like to apologise for not uploading any new chapters, but I wanted to come on here and explain myself.

For the past few days, I did some thinking of this series started out as a joke, until I gradually came to the conclusion of taking it seriously. Mainly for my Pasifika people, and everyone else as well, but my main focus is Pasifika.

One of my main characters, Y/N, wasn't someone I was going to take serious, as well as the other characters. I thought that I could just write her as some silly Samoan girl with a crush, when I could write her character as so much more. I plan on giving her a Samoan name.

This leads me to what changes I'm going to be adding, and why.

The anecdotes that I've told from my own friends, family, pasifika people is all too common, and most of them started within their families. Their issues and problems starting from their families. Something real, it can dive deep into the reality of people's lives that we don't even know about. Give notice to them.

Since I am going to be working this series more seriously, it does mean that updates of chapters will be slow because they're going to have to be thought out rather than rushed. All the jokes, shits and giggles within the series is what I use to cope with my shitty experience, and I really hope it does with you.

Trigger warnings are going to be added to the series masterlist and updated.

Warning Ahead

One of the many warnings is about sexual assault. I have noticed that whenever I have opened up about my story to my pasifika friends, they always have something to share as well. The way they joke, laugh and push it away as if it was nothing, hitting me with the universal line, "They're family, they'd never do that to you," something they've been told from a family member they told. And I can't really say anything because I used to do the same thing because of how my own family pushed my experience aside.

I ramble a lot and I'm half asleep, so I hope this makes sense, please comment if I've caused confusion or anything like that.

If anyone could please help me and read along my drafts I'll be writing along the way, it would help me 100%.

Again, I am very sorry for not uploading but I will be working on each chapter on my own (if school decides to let me sleep) but thank you to those who are being patient and supportive with my work 💞💞

Updates will be slow.

[haljathefangirlcat]

So aside for the author throwing in things just to be cool, what do you think is going on with the Rosengarten heroes in their titular poem? Gibich, Gunther, Hagen, Gernot, Siegfried, and Ortwin are a given -- the family that fights together, after all. And Volker is a Burgundian mainstay too. Walther...I guess he was allowed to come hang out with his friends, even after maiming both Hagen and Gunther, because friends don't hold a little maiming against each other. Asprian is a giant who pops up both as friend and enemy to various heroes across the legendary timeline. Schrutan is named as a Hunnic knight in the Nibelungenlied, but maybe Kriemhild brought him along with her as some sort of bodyguard? Studefuchs turns up as one of Dietrich's knights in his exile stories. Pusolt seems to be a random guy unless you interpret him as Dietrich's frenemy Fasolt. So what's going on? Did Asprian and Studenfuchs leave the Burgundians after the fight with Dietrich? And there's the fact that in non-Rosengarten materials, Asprian, Schrutan, and Studenfuchs (and maybe Pusolt) are honest to god Jotun/giants/trolls who aren't just being exaggerated as literary license. Is everyone just okay with this?

Tbh, I tend to think of the Rosengarten as kind of... the Beach Episode of Germanic epics. You know, the old style filler episode that doesn't move the plot along or give that much new insight into the themes of the story, but it has character that wouldn't usually meet ourside of some specific context coming together to have a day of wacky adventures? There's so much weird stuff in it that I can't help but see it that way. XD *gestures wildly in the general direction of Ilsan's general existence*

I especially love thinking about Hagen and Walther in that context/mood, actually. The Waltharius ending is already either very touching in a very bittersweet way or simply hilarious, depending on if you take it as a case of using gallows humor to cope or just being Like That even normally, with them having literally just mutilated each other and being already cracking inappropriate jokes at each other's expense ("Don't you think it might a bit perverse, embracing Hildegund with your left hand?" "Aren't you worried that now, whenever you look at another knight, they're gonna think you're looking at them sideways because you don't trust them?"), so I enjoy thinking about everyone else expecting a dramatic confrontation between them only for them to be like... whatever the manly warrior hero equivalent of "OMG HI BESTIE *waves excitedly*" even is, I guess, at each other.

And also about Hagen really, really not wanting to even take part in Kriemhild's silly tourney (as, iirc, he disses the whole idea of it in at least one manuscript) and Walther showing up being one of the few bright spots in it for him.

And also, due to a couple of lines in the Waltharius about the "famous harmony" between Hagen and Walther and about Hagen clinging to Walther's embrace and having to force himself to let go of it to flee the land of the Huns and go back to Worms, about the two of them taking any occasion to sneak away to chat together when they're not the ones fighting even if they're supposed to be on rival "teams"...

So to me that's like... do I have any idea why Walther's even there? No. But do I have this ridiculous mental image of Dietirch somehow meeting him along the way and starting to say "so, anyway, we're going to Worms for.." only to Walther to immediately go "Worms, you said?! Man, I haven't seen Hagen in ages, can I come with you guys?" before he even finishes that sentence? Absolutely.

All the people who turn out to be giants and other supernatural beings are, like, an "okay, this might as well happen today in this poem. Hildebrand's just pretended to be dad so Dietrich would get angry enough to spit fire at Siegfried, making Siegfried cower and hide under Kriemhild's veil, after all" deal to me. I suppose it might come down to different traditions that kind of got lost around the way, but I remember reading somewhere years ago about a version of the Rosengarten where all the knights on Team Worms were referred to as giants, so who knows, it might be literary exaggeration, it might be a new take that didn't, well, take. As for the Hunnic knights, I find your ideas fascinating and think they have a lot of potential, but usually, I just write it off as the same kind of weirdness. The "Dietrich can spit fire and Hildebrand is not above playing dead to mess with him" thing itself fits just too well with the overall weirdness of both characters for me to dismiss it, however, so.... yeah, that one can definitely stay and be a whole thing in my headcanons. XD

[sageandred]

A Hollyoaks Debrief

some thoughts I have on Lucas/Dillon/Frankie

-re:the episode where Dillon breaks up w/Lucas, he's definitely guilty and avoiding owning up, but it's like he's punishing himself before Lucas even has the option to leave and break his heart back

-These hayray plots are silly and classic, predictable soap ideas, but if I'm treating this plot like it's good + looking at their relationship from an analytical standpoint, it makes sense for the underlying issues in their relationship. could've gotten there a different way, but... Before the jump, the stuff coming back up now seemed pushed under the rug, though they'd grown simultaneously. I always expected a breakup: Lucas has always been less experienced than Dillon; he's literally his first relationship. The aftermath w/him crying on Ste's shoulder, and the recounting of memories, that very much determine his own wellbeing confirms that he puts way too much of his happiness in Dillon and he treated him as the rock during his sexuality journey so soon after so much personal trauma.

-Lucas violent tendencies being brought back up 🙃😾😮‍💨😒; I guess it makes sense, again, from the standpoint of he never really dealt with it. I think when that horrible folly moment happened, it woke him up in a way that was quicker than if he would've kept going down that path, but Lucas has always had anger issues; going back to new Lucas' show entrance, he's never handled his emotions well and he never had any kind of remedy/help to cope that would be effective down the line (again, replacing Dillon as a remedy/relying on Dillon to determine his happiness...not good).

-The biggest thing I'm angry about with Dillon is that the joint storyline's with him and Lucas always put him in a villian arc...even though Lucas literally had a violent streak, but you could empathize with him due to everything they'd hinted with him. This is the second time they've done this where Lucas will be hurt...after Freya, with no exploration into how he's feeling/felt and what led him to soap shenanigans; there is no real reason why the Leah story arc is needed. (I need this guy to have a backstory on his dad or something where he's crashing a car for the plot, getting into situations but not enough for unreasoned troublemaking for once). like, if we look at his character trajectory, Dillon's always been a little ignored and replacing that for being other people's listening ear or support (his family/his friends..). Actually, the more I think about it, they're both codependent, not just Lucas relying on Dillon and him feeling the need to care for him; but especially when they got together Dillon didn't have Misbah (as much)/Dillon lost friends/relationships over time. again, hate this plotline, but can't say I'm surprised that this is the route they took. (Dillon saying he was lonely and they both found comfort in one another was actually the least shocking thing this show's delivered me all year that I knew before that baby was even confirmed to be his)

-I think Frankie will end up blurting it out about the baby to Lucas when she's drunk

-unpopular but the only thing I wish with Frankie is Darren acted more supportive/solely on her side w/the JJ illness plot (sadly, it's realistic everything she's feeling now and JJ being a pos, but written with this illness). idk, depending on how they handle it, I don't think it necessarily justifies his actions unless they decide to use a narrative that does so, but I get how certain audiences may view him in a better light regardless of the show's narrative and how frustrating this plot is. god give Frankie a break. (I so so hope whatever decision her character makes, she gets to have a huge power moment/speech or something at the end that grants her revenge in some way).

[moookar]

Moo please talk about your ocs I want to know everything about them <33

Okay I started responding to this but then it became like 400 words long and I wasn't even halfway done with what I wanted to say so I'm shortening this!!! (I saved the long thing to another draft so it's not gone but.. I won't subject u to that :P)

ALSO THANK YOU! I profusely thanked you in the other version so I. forgot to here LOL

Here's Exiled!!!

We have three protagonists:

Caparal Winslow, 23, who/knows

Caparal is the older brother of a duke. Yes, succession goes by age in this setting. Caparal just really didn't want to be duke when his father and older sister died suddenly, and his social standing was tanked because of that.

Caparal was always the weird, quiet, alchemy-loving, forgettable son of the duke to anyone who bothered to think about him; now he's the weird, quiet, alchemy-loving brother of the duke with a major reputation for being a coward. Is this deserved? No, not really. But it's a thing that happened and he has to deal with it now. Which he would very much prefer to not do! He loves avoiding--just, just avoiding in general.

Delayne Meersummer, 28, she/her

Delayne is the most cheery friendly buddy-buddy person ever guys trust me she's normal she's a normal functioning member of life she's sooo chill and is a normal friend. & everyone likes her

Okay she's. She's really messed up and I can't get into disecting her here because I will not be able to stop, but the bullet points are 1) estranged her family and support system due to her thrill seeking 2) got pushed into the wrong circles with no family or friends to help her, where she was encouraged to become a mercenary and therefor kill people and 3) could not cope with that so she's been heavily disassociated for the past decade. Okay that was way simpler to explain than I thought

Toor'rye "Rye" Ican'tthinkupagoodlastname, 22, he/him/their

This guy's a messsss dude. He's a cartographer who's gotten pulled into being a guide for o-o-one specific mercenary who just won't leave him alone because she thinks she can fix him (Delayne) one too many times and is now is a part of this big mess (the plot) because of it.

Rye has a few forms of expression: anger, sarcasm, annoyance, and fear. Those are his languages. (Metaphorically. He is actually fluent in two northern languages and the official language of Wralan, where this story takes place. He is shockingly well traveled and educated, despite his haggard appearance--he has very few clothes and they're all worn thin to the point of being almost unwearable, although from the way he puts really intense care into his appearance you'd think they're multi-thousand-dollar suits.)

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We also have Lionel Winslow, 22, he/him, who my beloved @adragoncat described as "A erratic mess who is making it everyone’s problem", and Andrea Munteanu, 25, she/her, who is Caparal's fiancé (in an arranged marriage where they are.. okay friends? good acquaintances?) and mourns his supposed sudden death. (Lionel tried to kill him). (It did not work, as you can tell from the "supposed").

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Yeah anyway this is my silly high fantasy comedy <3. They are very stupid. I've written a few things for them, only one of them really good enough to share.

Thank you so much for reading!!! It means the world to me!!!

[teacup-captor]

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(**Proship as in promoting, being okay with or directly shipping abusive/illegal relationships (child x adult, family members) especially if you promote other illegal actions which shall not be named. Romanticizing these relationships is not a healthy coping mechanism. You're romanticizing and promoting abuse, often of children.)

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(if you don't know what's going on regarding Israel vs Palestine I'm very happy to give an explanation but I am N O T discussing this. Good people are pro Palestine.)

(If you apply for the rest of my DNI feel free to ask why or discuss calmly with me but if you start getting angry you're fucking blocked)

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[ginnotwist]

What is your favorite jojo part? And favorite character? I have noticed that people who like both jjba and enstars can often be the smartest most nuanced people youll have the pleasure of talking to and i think you qualify

HIII okay preemptively putting this under a readmore since its just going to be me rambling. thank you though im glad u think my takes are good. it makes me happy to be able to discuss stuff (dreamy sigh) i love discussions

my fav jojo part kind of pingpongs between parts 7, 8 and 3. i think part 7 is exceptionally written. i love the characters i love their interactions i love their banter to offset the more serious tone and conflicts of the part. jesus christ corpse aside i think part 7 touches some very heavy issues with how johnny is handled and while things couldve been done better, i think it's good. i love part 8's entire plot and it feels like a murder mystery the whole time to me, at the beginning it feels quite silly but when the focus shifts over to the rokaka, the rock humans and gappy's origins thats where it starts getting really good. i'd rather not spoil since ik a lot of people havent finished reading p8 and i implore u to because p9 is just around the corner. p3 is just kind of. there. i feel bad because part 3 is just a hero's journey. it's not outstanding but i think it's charming in its simplicity. i like the characters and the stand fights and the format is silly and lets me turn my brain off.

ok fav characters... i'll try to narrow this down to 3. johnny, jotaro, and fugo. fugo probably the one i am most fond of (hes my milk webkinz). johnny aside, i feel like the other two are kind of simple characters but this is where my Tendency To Overanalyze Anything I Like kicks in so to me they're a lot deeper and fleshed out than they seem at first glance.

johnny, well...i see a lot of dislike towards johnny from certain parts of the community because of his (implied) depression and him being disabled. a lot of dudebros seem to see him as someone whiny and a "useless" jojo, comparing him to gyro which seems to do most of the emotional heavylifting this part. this is not at all true and i think both his and gyro's efforts are what result in them progressing in the race as well as johnny's own progress irt to the spin, in coping with his brother's loss, and finding purpose in himself. i am Not disabled, so i cant truly comment on how good of a representation he is but while one of his motivations is to obtain the jesus corpse to be able to walk again, this motivation is almost entirely set aside by the end of the part – and by the time he does 'gain the ability' to walk again for lack of a better term it's not at all the main focus. it's almost cathartic to see that when gyro passes away johnny thanks him for all he's done, but he's most certainly not making reference to his working legs, but rather, everything else. his best friend just died, and his main goal is to finish the race, and get his corpse back to italy. throughout the part gyro helps him find strength in himself to see that he is capable of more than he thinks (even though he can be quite harsh, i think this is exactly what johnny needs), and johnny's depression and survivor guilt when it comes to being alive while his brother, who he considers was better in every respect, is dead, is very realistic within the confines of what Can Be, in a story like jojo, and idk. when his neglectful father who left him to die comes back to greet him at the end of the race, begging for forgiveness, is essentially spat on by johnny because after all his growth he knows he deserves more than that, that he does not owe him forgiveness just because after years of mistreating him he's finally seen the error of his ways... stuff like that just kind of sells him for me. he feels so real. that and he's really cute and funny ✌️

JOTAROS A BIT HARDER TO TALK ABOUT BECAUSE he feels very flat. in part 3 you can argue hes just some angsty brooding teenager who's mean to his mom and punches shit. which is true. that's what it is on paper. idk though. i made a lot of shit about jotaro up in my head so a lot of this is going to be hcs and my interpretation of him. but i dont think he's ever really had a healthy outlet for his issues. i love holly, but she's always just kind of gone with what jotaro wants/says, and jotaro's never really had a father figure in his life. ofc he wants to save his mom when he goes off to egypt, it's almost all he has. then in egypt i like to think that meeting the other three and becoming friends with someone close to his age, kakyoin, he realizes things about himself that he never really considered, or wishes to put a name to. i think jotaro has a bit of internalized homophobia in regards to kakyoin and having lost him, his first love, at 17 fucks you up. i also like the interpretation that jotaro is autistic and this is one of the reasons he has such a hard time relating to people, voicing his thoughts and latched onto marine biology which is something that persists throughout his whole life.

i think one of the best things about jotaro is that he might seem underdeveloped in his own part but then in p4+p6 when he shows up enough has happened to him that you can infer some of his development behind the scenes. by p4 we know he has jolyne but travels around a lot and we know nothing about his spouse so we can assume his relationship with her isnt the best (this is confirmed in p6). going back to the internalized homophobia i think jotaro would take on a spouse because of comphet and because he feels like this is something that should be normal. keep in mind his father was also never around while he was growing up, so again traveling around and not spending time with his daughter, spending more time on speedwagon foundation business and his studies, and it never once occurs to him that this might not be the best thing to do (at the time). he's a lot more mature now and knows he cant use violence to solve everything, which is good, and tries to form lasting relationships with josuke, koichi and okuyasu. he's trying to make progress

and then p6 rolls around and jolyne is grown up and we find out that yeah jotaro was a pretty shit dad. our suspicions were correct. he was never around, he's always had fights with jolyne’s mother not because hes violent but because hes completely disinterested. again, the comphet, but also: he's out of the house all of the time on spf business because he wants to keep jolyne safe. to this day the effects and losses of egypt still rest heavy on him and marine biologist work aside he doesn't want the same fate to befall jolyne. him sending her the brooch is a last resort for her to protect herself. when hes awake during the part he's trying to make it up to jolyne, in his own way, and he loves and protects his daughter until his dying breath (this brought me to tears, btw part 6 is a ride). also i rly think he loved kakyoin his whole life. idk. i think jotaro can be pretty tragic depending on how you see him. which is why i love him but he also makes me sad as fuck because i think after p3 he spends his whole life lamenting the trauma he suffered when he was 17 and forcing himself to suck it up; ofc this doesnt excuse him being a shitty father to jolyne, i think she deserves better, but... you know

NOW FUGO!!!!!!! This is all going to sound delusional. bear with me. fugo is literally in p5 for like 2 milliseconds so ill explain how /i/ see him. but also keep in mind ive read phf like 3 times. OK SO fugo is this moody ass 16 year old with extreme anger issues -- while most of the time hes mature, good with people with only a bit of snark, he has an explosive temper that stemmed from his childhood. he was a prodigy child, he got into university at the age of 13, but was for the most part neglected by his family (not including his grandmother), his parents only looking after him/demanding More from him when it came to his studies/extracurricular activities. his family is new money, so they need fugo to excel in life to ensure that they are not taken lightly.

here is where stuff kind of varies: in the anime, he is almost sexually harassed by a much older uni professor and in a fit of rage beats him over the head with a heavy book. in the novel and the manga i think it just comes from the teacher mocking him (in the novel he gets pissed off because his grandmother died prior and the teacher belittled him for failing an exam when he had requested to not take it) but the consequence is the same: hes kicked out of uni and disowned by his family to not blunder the family name, making him homeless. time goes by and he's taken in by bruno and hes the first one to join his gang under the guise of needing a "level head" (ironic bc bruno knows why fugo ended up on the streets).

then the actual events of p5 happen and he actually leaves the gang really early on as bruno had decided to betray the boss. fugo is inept emotionally and prefers to not face the wrath of the boss, narrowly avoiding his own death LOL and then being like ok why did they ditch me. 

he doesnt understand why bruno and the rest of the gang would throw away their lives for some girl theyd just met. he's logical, emotion-driven only when it comes to himself. hes moody, as a teenager should be, but after joining brunos gang becomes heavily reliant on routine, on being told what to do, and despite all of the gang related activities they carry out, is likely the only time he's ever been able to be a kid/someone's child. from here on we dont see him at all unless you read his spin-off novel which is technically not considered canon by a lot of ppl bc its not by araki, but its overseen by him and the illustrations included are all provided by him. but basically i like fugo for a lot of the same reasons i like kakyoin: that being hes a socially inept introvert who had no friends until the main story and didnt realize what they had until it was too late

(PHF SUMMARY HERE) after the events of p5, with bruno, abbacchio and narancia dead, giorno as the head of the mafia seeks him out to carry out a mission to exterminate the head (happens to be an old university classmate of his) of this group selling drugs under the passione's name. essentially a suicide mission if it goes wrong. hes tasked to go with sheila e. (girl, same age as boss' daughter approx.) and murolo (middle aged man). they butt heads quite a bit but grow rather close. thru various parts of the novel hes still on some Dumb shit with his anger issues like nearly killing sheila e. when she caught him while he was falling bc he was still seeing red from the enemy. otherwise this part he just kinda comes off as depressed, less explosive. without going into much detail about the fights or what actually happens, he begins to trust people, i think. he doesnt see Everything as if the world was against him and it makes me rly happy for him. like up until this point hes never been Alone alone, but has alienated himself from others bc he feels that they dont understand, or that theyre too different from him, too dumb. very this ⬇️

im going to link to a post i wrote a while back about some phf fugo thoughts because this post is already long enough

anyways i think im done here. i hope this was satisfying and good. i went on a bit of a tangent irt fugo and jotaro because i feel like unlike johnny people dont really tend to look at them with the same depth. i also think i am just out of my mind. if youve read this far i love you

[hiraya-rawr]

Uhh idrk if I can even ask this but anyway, if you can see this ate, thank you so much for being a role model to me as you are one of the first people I followed on Tumblr!

Anyway, my question is, how do you cope when something bad happens? I've been in a bad place recently and I'm considering asking my mom to go to a psychiatrist with me, but I'm not really comfortable with that at the moment.

I iust really needed an opinion from someone who wasn't me or my friends

hello! it's been a couple of days and I hope im not too late in replying but hmmm alright, here's my raw opinion (i'll be straightforward so as not to sugarcoat anything). whether it's the most tragic thing that could ever happen in my life or some silly fight with a loved one, here's how I cope

1. seeking a professional is always a good choice (I understand if it's not something you want atm though). Still, if you have a school guidance counselor then I highly suggest it (they're less formal than actual psychiatrists so i lean towards them more)

2. something that worked for me is rationalizing my emotions? like, I do research, analyze, self-reflect, and try to pinpoint things... it's basically self-medication but it does help when you feel like things are just too challenging to face. think of yourself as homework- the more you study yourself the easier it gets.

3. again, rationalize and understand your situation!! like "oh? of course this terrible thing happened to you, not everything can be smooth sailing. and of course you're sad about it! now go and be sad! cry everything out, cry some more, scream about it and break down over and over because you're in a terrible place trying to process such cruel emotions. go ahead and let yourself feel sad. then, enjoy the happiness of an ice cream. or calm down with the view of a sunset. rest."

3. probably the mindset that comforted me the most is the fact that we, as humans, live such colorful lives?? like, all those cheesy quotes of "life is a rollercoaster" or those films with various genres- when I'm in a really bad place, I think about how this page or chapter fits in my story.

4. if you've been following me since mid-2022 then you'd know there was this mini hiatus I had bc of some life-changing terrible moment which took me months to recover. i still grieve when I think of it. i don't think I could ever get over or move on from it, but as the saying goes; time heals all wounds (wounds will reopen, and new ones will be added, but it doesn't change the fact that time goes on). i had zero motivation to do anything for my tumblr at that time but even so, I still placed a "be back soon" in my status because i knew i loved my tumblr and the genshin fandom.

5. and lastly, this isn't exactly a mindset I would suggest but it's something that helped me during my struggle era so: you don't have to live every day with purpose or excitement– just continue to exist and that's enough. if you're living in fear or pain, then grit your teeth and live. if you're struggling or spiteful, then still, live.

i seriously hope this makes sense :,) aaah I think im rambling iwudksahjfxi

[controlledchaosetcetc]

Fully know I'm a rando online, you're not beholden to anyone for silly goofy yellow bunny time, and I think the english willy story came to a perfect end with the third one

However, I have literally been stuck thinking over how the hell you'd actually continue it since you posted this. Bc you're 100% right that the format wouldn't work going forward, so how would you do it? You seem to actually want to do more with the characters and stuff, so hopefully my brain deciding that this was its puzzle of the day maybe helps you figure out where you'd like to go with it.

Easiest problem is 3: It's not selling out if you're still enjoying it. If you wanna make more, go for it! If you don't, anyone bothering you can eat shit!

2 also isn't too difficult. You ended the previous one with Mike literally in front of a burning building. This one can have the climatic fire, and Mike sending "I lived bitch". If Willy can have a night on the town, who says you need to suddenly start sticking to canon.

1 is by far the most difficult and what I've literally been stuck thinking about off and on for hours and I blame you for having such an interesting creative challenge. Again, you're right that the appeal of Helloscully was the dramatic irony, and the 3rd one is the end of that series because the cat's out of the bag and it's not really funny anymore. Having Willy to begin with was making the best of a bad situation for the guy. Now though, it's too real, and dark jokes to lighten the mood definitely help, but the overall core of "we're speaking to a ghost and trying to help the guy" is changed to "we're speaking to the ghost of a serial child murderer".

You said you really enjoy the characters you made and that's why you want to go back, so I think shift it to there. It's not Helloscully making public posts about her friends and tumblr getting to watch, it's Helloscully and her friends in groupchats trying to cope with "holy shit what did we just walk into". You can still have tumblr/internet posting elements, because god knows tumblr would never fucking stop talking about this, but now it's people other than Helloscully covering the situation, making posts, maybe getting to invasive into her and her friends lives. Maybe someone exposes Mike's past and that's how it gets brought up?

TL;DR using more personal/private conversations and being more found footage-y (recordings, DMs, etc), as well as the internet beginning to obsess about the entire case of "Helloscully", with a story that leans more dramatic is probably the way forward. It is the 6th game after all, imagining realizing you're attracting all of these animatronics and having to learn all of this fucked family history you did NOT need to. Travis has Afton following him around now and it's not confined to his job anymore! Mike needs help and is offering free Taco Bell! This also isn't me saying abandon the funnies, these are stupid tumblr using gay 20-somethings, even after being horribly traumatized and probably putting themselves in the middle of a super dangerous situation they're going to find a way to make it incredibly unserious. You know they're going to be spamming copypastas of Mr. Hippo's speeches.

no clue if this helps in any way, or even what interests you as a creator! If that sounds bad, or at least not for you, ignore it!!

I’ve had a lot of people asking about potentially continuing English Willy with FNAF 6 and I really wanna. I really fucking wanna but I’ve written myself into a hole and I can’t get out unless I address 3 main problems:

1). Helloscully’s escapades were only funny because of dramatic irony. The comedy hinges on how absurd FNAF lore is from an outsider’s perspective. And even if they did get the full story from Mike, no tumblr user with morals would air out their irl friend’s dirty laundry ESPECIALLY if he was the son of a serial child murderer. So translating the story into autobiographical tumblr posts wouldn’t work as well

2). Mike dies at the end of Pizza sim and that’s just kind of a bummer. No way around it. Helloscully, Travis and Madison care about him now and there isn’t much comedic value in watching your friend be burned alive. I feel like this could be maybe worked around with the Blacklisted/Mediocrity/Bankrupcy endings

3) I specifically said I didn’t wanna sell out like the franchise did. This can easily be fixed if I abandon my principles but like. at what cost

[pastorsperspective]

Every Broken Place I've Been is a Godsend

Happy Friday to Y’all! It’s been a couple weeks since we’ve had a blog with Pastor Chad out on vacation and such! If you couldn’t be with us this Sunday, the message was given by our very own Candi Mitchell, who graciously agreed to speaking with me and participating in the Laity Edition of our blog! You can watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/live/mo6k1BazSp0?feature=share

Let's jump right in!

First, I would like to say that your message was very touching. I can't even begin to imagine the amount of pain that you have been keeping inside and that you go through daily when you think about your son and your daughter. I can understand why you were hesitant to share your story for so long. People can be judgmental of the circumstances of others. I hope that you haven't had to deal with much of that. What would you say has been the biggest factor in helping you to get up every morning and just remember to live out the best moments of their lives and not dwell on the tragic parts?

I absolutely think God gives us situations to deal with to teach life lessons and unfortunately some are not always pleasant. In my case a couple of years later, after our loss, there were friends that texted and called that would take the time to tell me about their loss journey and acknowledge what I was going through.  They encouraged me to talk about my loss and would ask me questions, and even listen to me and let me cry.

Had they not suffered their loss they might not have had the same empathy or God might have not have placed them in my path to be there at the right time for me.

But in my case after a few weeks and as we were trying to get back to our NEW normal instead of relying on my people for support or turning to grief counseling I fell into denial as a way to cope.   One thing I would tell myself on really bad days was "100 years from now, none of this will matter anyway." 

Silly, I know but I felt I didn't want to burden anyone so you do what you have to do to go on.

On behalf of your grandsons, Buster and Rowdy, I just want to thank you. They don't know it yet, but having you and David as their foundation in life will turn out to be the best possible gift they could have ever been given. I can say that with 100% certainty without even knowing you well as a person. I, too, was taken in from a bad parental situation by my grandparents and I know they gave up a lot to raise me in their advancing years when they could have been slowing down and retiring. Just know that, even though they may not understand and appreciate that sacrifice now, there will be a day when they fully understand and you will be their hero. Was it a hard decision for you both to make? What did that decision process look like?

When David and I were considering being Guardians for Buster Brown (Rowdy wasn't born yet),  he was actually living with a family who were friends of his mother’s but we didn't know them.  CPS had gotten involved and wanted to try to figure out what living situation was best for Buster Brown and wanted a permanent guardianship established.  David and I thought he needed to be raised with his family.  CPS was agreeable and actually paid for the attorney to file the legal paperwork. The decision process for us was actually easy after that.  We felt God had laid it upon our hearts to bring him in our home as he was where he needed to be. And that God had provided the path to get there.

I loved the part in your message when you said that sometimes we go through trials that aren't really even about us, they're about breaking down a coldness or an arrogance in us so that we can walk alongside someone else. I can honestly say that I have never once considered that perspective. We obviously always think of ourselves as the main character in our own story and obviously whatever we are going through has to be about us, right? You are so right though. One of my favorite quotes regarding empathy is that the reason why some people are so kind is because the world has been so unkind to them and they don't want other people to feel the way they did. This absolutely resonates with me as someone who has been through a lot in my life, it reminds me to be extra gentle with others. However, it never occurred to me that some of those things would have happened specifically for that purpose and that really blows my mind. Do you think that the culmination of our life experiences happens to us for the purpose of teaching us, not only the lesson it was meant to teach in the moment, but also to give us the empathy to help others through those situations? Or do you think that it's less the culmination of our life experiences and more individual, isolated experiences that God gives us to break down those specific arrogances?

As I look back on this journey, I see that the Lord maybe was wanting me to break down my arrogance and that I needed to learn how to lean on others and quit thinking I was this super strong woman who could carry the weight of the world. I needed help. His help, and I needed to learn how to pray about it and listen more. 

I have had a couple of chances to be there for friends who were going through losses of their own and I can tell you it has given me a whole new perspective to offer not just for sympathy and but prayers and suggestions to help others cope.

In the end everyone has their own journey that they have to navigate (it's like belonging to a club you don't want to be in) but we need to know and UNDERSTAND we are never alone. Even on our worst days God walks beside us.

I think you are absolutely correct when you said that we come into the world alone and we leave it alone, everything else is a gift. The only thing I would add to that is what you so aptly titled your message: God's Grace is Always With Us. We are never truly alone, God, and His grace, are always with us. Everything else IS a gift. Although some of those gifts I'd like to return if God had included a gift receipt! I’m joking, of course.

Your words, “it’s like belonging to a club you don’t want to be in…even on our worst days God walks beside us.” It’s so powerful. It reminds me of a song, as most things do, because that’s how I relate to the world. It’s a song I have shared here before as it’s become sort of my personal anthem as of late. However, this blog reaches approximately a dozen people so I think it’s safe to share it again for anyone who might be new thanks to the brave new voices of the laity! If you enjoy contemporary Christian music, please click the link to listen to Godsend by Riley Clemmons: https://youtu.be/0GCgg1PMnqg

Thank you for your message and for being so brave and bold to put yourself out there, opening yourself up like that. It's not easy to share your deepest pains with people and I pray that people, as we so often can and do, did not disappoint you.

Until next week! As always, if you have any question or comments about any message you hear at First United Methodist Church of Jacksboro, you can send them to me via Tumblr, email, Facebook, call the office, text me! I’ll get YOUR questions asked.

[missazura]

Hello! I'm saying this on anon since I'm honestly a bit shy to turn off anon, but I just wanted to say that hearing you talk about finding comfort in a fictional character, and Narrator being like your best friend has helped me feel alot better.

I've been doing the same for a few years now, but now that I'm older and getting close to being an adult, I've been feeling silly about it and I've been tempted to try and rid myself of my fictional best friends.

But knowing that someone who's older than me and who's content I enjoy does the same thing as me is really comforting.

So, thank you! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and creations and stories.

/gen

this is so sweet, thank you.

I get it though, I'm gonna be 30 next year and I have this expectation of myself that I'd drop all these stuff to appear more adult like I... "should" be? but the more I got rid of them, the more miserable I felt, to a point where I was having nightmares about narry being afraid that I'm abandoning him. I had my friend and other anons step in to ensure that there's nothing wrong with coping with fictional characters, as long as it's not hurting you or anyone. they're a comfort for a reason, and if they're helping you and making you happy, you should keep them. we all need more happiness in the world anyway.

[parksunghoonification]

Top Ten reasons why I hate You

synopsis. tenacity and spite aren’t really a great combination and Jake Sim knows it well.

word count. around 1800

pairings. jake x afab!reader

genre. kind of enemies to lovers??

warnings. i cursed and i also got bitchy

authors notes. hi everyone! this is the first time I’m posting on this site, hope you’ll like it!! English is not my first language, so let me know kindly if there are some mistakes. 

(also i do NOT hate Jake, I actually love him too much, this was just for fun!!!)

Hi, I guess?

Sorry Diary, I haven't done this since third grade, I lost all my magic.

if it was up to me you wouldn't exist, this is all Jungwon's idea.

He said and I quote: "Maybe writing about it will give you some sort of inner piece, or maybe it will help you cope or process. It will do more good than harm, just try it". But then I refused, he clapped back and things got desperate really quickly (he knows exactly what to say and how to act to make me give in). Plus, I'm taking psychology this semester, saying no wouldn't have given me any credibility whatsoever.

So here I am, writing in a hate journal about a stupid frat boy (derogatory) for the sake of my friends' mental health (and also because they all have frequent headaches, pretty sure we are the cause of it).

I would like to start off by saying I am not a “fiery beast escaped from the flaming chambers of Hell”, even if I quite like the epithet (it’s giving Dante’s Inferno).  If Jake (the stupid frat boy) was writing these pages, he would have kept that supernatural narrative, going on about how monstrously evil I am. I have a message for that troglodyte: my diary, my money, my story, and I will tell it how I like it (the girlbossification of y/n, we love to see it).

Contrarily to what he thinks (and fuck what he thinks), many say I am a good person, a really good person even.

I always stall Mr Kim when that sleepyhead of Sunoo is late to class (after several years of observing and refining my theory, I finally came to the conclusion that the closer you live to the school, the later you'll arrive), I always patiently help that senior citizen of Heeseung with his electronics (even if I really want to hit him with the TV's remote, because really Heeseung it's not that hard, most buttons have the function written on them, you just have to press them), I always make sure that hot tempered mess of Riki doesn't get himself killed (task that costed me a black eye once), I always end up forgiving every one of my unhinged friends (I can't really stay mad at them for long anyway, how could I? At the end of the day, they're pretty cute).

Unfortunately, like every other human being (except for Taylor Swift, the queen herself) I have a few, totally forgettable, little flaws.

Jay often tells me I might have a teeny, tiny, almost invisible controlling problem (which is actually hot if you ask me), remark I really can't take seriously considering it comes from someone who can't stand being wrong. Heeseung has pointed out a few times that I may not be the most tolerable person when drunk, but I would like to point out to him that I, at least, am extremely predictable (unlike him) since I follow a precise scale of drunkenness that goes from silly dances to uncontrolled and unjustified giggles (I think I am adorable when drunk, Heeseung is a loser for not agreeing with me). Sunghoon never forgets to scold me for being "the biggest bitch ever" to his beloved, Sim Jake (I can't defend myself on this one, he is absolutely right but I will never say this to his face).

The thing is, my friend group still hasn't had the opportunity to grasp on the fact that I am extremely bad at letting grudges go, I hold on to them for as long as I can. I have to admit, it happened to me on several occasions to forget the reasons behind them, but what can I do? Give up? Suddenly change my behaviour? I don’t want people to think I am a crazy, moody bitch, I prefer they think of me as a bitch without any other attribute, I don't really need all that decoration.

I guess you can add to the mix the fact that I am also pretty stubborn. Tenacity and spite aren't really a great combination and Jake knows it well.

To be honest with you diary, I forgot why I hate him so much but he gives me at least one new reason every day to do so.

First of all, he skipped Lady Gaga on the radio. that alone I could have ignored, but after that heretic act he pronounced these precise words, and I quote, "who even enjoys this kind of music", with the most arrogant tone ever. For your information Jake, I do, you little piece of shit.

He also said that Yeonjun is "just okay", and that I was "blowing this out of proportion" by calling him "the most beautiful creature to ever walk on heart". Jealousy is quite a bitch, I guess.

Petty motives, aren't they? Yes, of course. In all sincerity, I just believe me and him are too different to coexist civilly in the same environment. He is always pushing the wrong buttons, the big red ones with "DO NOT TOUCH" written all over. He does this on purpose, I’m convinced. He must not like me too. 

To further prove my points, I made a contained list for you, my dear Diary, where I picked the top ten things I hate about Jake Sim (so I can antagonize him and explain why I am right at the same time). I know, I know, just like the movie. I had to pick a number, okay? I could have written for infinity but neither of us have all that time.

Disclaimer: it gets ugly

1. He is legitimately the worst at pranks but he won't give you the same answer if you ask him. He goes either way too small (he once moved every piece of furniture in my apartment by half a centimetre. Spoiler: I didn't notice and he almost went insane) or way too big (he freed a racoon in said apartment that destroyed most of said pieces of furniture. Also, it had rabies).

2. He is the biggest nerd. He picked maths and physics in college and made that his entire personality. Now I might be a bitch, but I am not a monster. I am all for talking about one's passions, but there is a limit, it being my total lack of interest towards Einstein and his stupid clock tower (with all due respect Mr Einstein). I also have unprocessed trauma from high school (it's the teachers' fault if I can't look at numbers without crying). So, no Jake, I am not bad at those, I just happen to despise them as much as I despise you.

3. He tries so bad to understand literature and refuses to accept that he really doesn't. He is extremely factual and he said himself multiple times that he doesn't believe in anything that isn't supported by objective actualities. Stories aren't always rational because human behaviour isn't always rational. He is convinced he can understand literature by using the same approach he uses for Math!!! How unacceptable is that? And that is why you didn't enjoy Wuthering Heights Jake, you tasteless little bitch! (He insults that masterpiece one more time and he is done for).

4. He is a robber, a criminal, an offender. He always steals Riki from me. And do not get me started on Sunghoon! Every time I happen to be alone with them, he approaches with his callous, grabby hands and takes them elsewhere, leaving me all alone. They like me better anyways Jake, get over it!!!

5. He ruins all the pictures. I can't post a group photo because of him. He's always right in the middle (I can't even crop him out and he gets extremely sensitive when I photoshop a celebrity in his place) with his stupid, constipated face. What's with that expression? Who lied to him? I swear his bottom lip will fall out one day from all the biting (I like to think that the doctors will have to use the skin from his ball sack to reconstruct it so that no one will kiss him ever again).

6. He makes me homesick. Layla this and Layla that, he always makes me think about the dog I left at home on the other side of the globe, the family I left behind. I face my personal dilemmas more than I would like because of him and believe me, realizing daily what a shitty daughter and sibling you are isn't ideal. I can't even cheer myself up with Layla, for some reason he is gatekeeping her from me, I have never even seen a picture of her. Scared she will like pick me over you, Sim?

7. I hate when he calls me "baby", "princess", "sweetheart" and other stomach upsetting pet names, mainly because his flirting (at least that's what Sunoo says it is) is pitiful and it gives me a heart attack every two business days.

8. He never worries. "y/n it's just a little coffee", Jungwon never blinked that day, not even once. "Relax y/n, it's chocolate", Riki was high on sugar. "We're at a party, have fun for once baby" Heeseung ended up in a fountain a neighbourhood away from the feast and almost drowned (we had our own little Titanic that night). For the record, I do have a lot of fun Jake, stop calling me an "uptight little princess".

9. That fucker laughs at his own tiktoks, he watches his page for hours on ends and has the audacity of having the time of his life. I wonder how the fuck he still finds deez nuts jokes funny when he hasn't been twelve in a while. If you're thinking "well, that's tragic" and not "he is hopeless" it's because, Diary, you still don't know that he listens unironically to Drake in 2021. Now that is tragic. To all the girls and boys who simp for Jake I just want to say that no, you can't fix him.

10. He makes me feel sort of funny sometimes. I believe it's due to the stress he gives me while Sunoo, on the other hand, is convinced that my hate for him it's "just a cover" for my "romantic feelings" and "that's what's up with your accelerated heartbeat, dumbass".

Let's focus on our last point. First of all, cardiovascular diseases run in the family, the doctor once told me that I am subjected to episodes of heart insufficiency. So, there's that. Second of all, I will never fall for that cretin of Jake sim. What would I even fall for? His outrageous skinny jeans? His stupid hair? That dumb laugh of his?

Now let’s hypothesize that I like him (which I don’t, ew), why would he like me?  But this is a conversation for another time.

This was sort of fun, maybe I’ll do this again tomorrow,

Bye bye Diary :)

[arikad0]

shanoa or charlotte for the character ask game maybe?

SHANOA

First impression: "she looks cool" :)

Impression now: "HOLY SHIT I WAS RIGHT SHE IS COOL!!" god I absolutely love Shanoa. she's awesome

Favourite moment: the end of the game where Albus fades away and she gets her emotions back and tearfully smiles at him. I love that moment so much

Idea for a story: how about a story where all the villagers of Wygol find out what happened to her and help her cope with her abuse and the loss of her brother?

Unpopular opinion: I can't think of anything because this fandom is so small and barely anyone talks about Shanoa I'm so sorry akhfksfb

Favourite relationship: her relationship with Albus!! I love sibling relationships a lot, and I'm able to see a bit of my bond with my brother in Shanoa and Albus's bond :)

Favourite headcanon: I like thinking one of the villager's cats ended up having kittens and they gave two of them to Shanoa! she ends up becoming one of those people who would die for their cats and lets them get away with anything and everything

CHARLOTTE

First impression: nothing about her really stuck out to me at first. I liked her outfit though!

Impression now: she's super fun!!! I don't really like playing as her but I love her dialogue and think she's a fantastic character!! she's one of my favourite CV characters now :)

Favourite moment: when she asks Jonathan why he hates his father if he isn't even alive anymore. it's a pretty minor moment but it's my favourite scene in the whole game surprisingly. (honorable mention to when she and Jonathan cast Greatest Five. it's not really a specific moment, which is why it's an honorable mention, I just think the two of them teaming up to summon the whip's memories of the Belmonts is cool as hell)

Idea for a story: ONCE AGAIN I'VE GOT NOTHING FOR THIS. I'M SHOCKED I WAS ABLE TO COME UP WITH SOMETHING FOR SHANOA

Unpopular opinion: she's a main protagonist whether you like it or not >:( I will not take Charlotte slander

Favourite relationship: obviously her relationship with Jonathan! I do ship them a tiny bit, but most of my enjoyment of them comes from their friendship! their friendship is very fun and you can tell they're super close. I love how silly they can be, but I really like their more serious moments as well. they just have a very good and healthy relationship that I would expect to see from teens who have been best friends since they were little :)

Favourite headcanon: I like thinking that while Jonathan helped Julius with his physical strength, Charlotte helped him with his magical abilities! I also think she was directly involved in the Battle of 1999 somehow

[emilythecosmicbun]

Creepypasta OCs.

Any updates information is on Wattpad WATTPAD: https://www.wattpad.com/story/255861941-creepypasta-ocs-emily-elliot-and-stedge

TW BLOOD, ABUSE MENTION

cottontailprincess is my Instagram and Emilythecosmiccat is my username on some art websites.

They/Them pronouns please

do not sexualise me, my characters or my boyfriend please he isn’t comfortable with that.

okay so these are my two vent ocs.

Emily/Elliot (Bunny.)

one of them, as you know, is my impure agere oc, representing all the sad and flashback parts of everything. I made them to help cope with my thoughts and feelings. They are based off of my appearance and my trauma. They age up with me.

BASIC INFO

Full Name: Emily/Elliot Bunzelle but prefers just Emily or Elliot.

Nickname(s): Bunny, Emmy, El, Em, Princess, Prince, Princette

Meaning of name: Emily (from Urban Dictionary.) An Emily is someone who is crazy inside and out. She knows who her friends are and try’s hard to look after them. She is very pretty but doesn’t always know that. She isn’t always the most popular, but to her that doesn’t matter. She has friends from all ages and they all adore her. She hides her feelings however upsetting they may be.

Meaning of name: Elliot (Urban Dictionary) Elliot is a true master at caring. He teaches how to love and be loved. A man of honour a man of steal. He's as handsome as a Greek God, as strong as diamond, as compassionate as a saint and is as gentle as a father's touch. Elliot possesses a magic within to create a vision in the eyes of all, leaving them stunned at how brilliant and perfect Elliot truly is. A leader, a spirit lifter, a lover, a giver, an Elliot'll leave you speechless with his being, his essence.

Gender: Non-Binary

Pronouns: They/Them

Age:

Currently 19, same as IRL me, though they physically and mentally regress to younger ages, so their age varies. Their main ages are variants of 1+

Date of Birth:

August 21st (Body born in 2001)

Race/Species: English and a Spirit or Entity.

Native language: English (as in England English.)

Orientation/Sexual Preference: Bisexual Personality: Silly, playful, honest, caring, childish, bratty, stubborn, sweet.

Are They Dead: No but they aren't alive either. Somewhere in between.

Any Mental Health Issues?

C-PTSD, due to multiple traumatic events. They frequently experience multiple flashbacks and nightmares, and is usually terrified of leaving their safe space unless it’s with Stedge, even then, they panic.

Triggers: Listed Here. Triggers page on my Carrd.

Powers/Special Abilities: Can float slightly off the ground, is able to phase through walls, spew blood at will, and look "alive" when speaking and comforting children, or just around those they trust.

APPEARANCE:

Looks:

Very young child:  Short but very curly/wavy brown hair, a bit lighter than when they are in older looking forms. They wear a pink dress with a white shirt under, and black school shoes. However, they can also just wear a sonic shirt and leggings, or a skirt.

Child:  They can vary but their usual look is long curly/wavy brown hair, brown eyes, pale skin, blood on their mouth and nose area, tired-looking eyes, pink dress, sometimes a nightgown, depending on the look, they can wear socks, bunny slippers or even go barefoot! Sometimes they wear bunny ears! Sometimes they like to wear sonic gear.

Teen:  Depending on the age as a teen, at the point it's  "kawaii" inspired things, sometimes just a Melanie Martinez shirt and pants (or skirt), sometimes overalls! They also wore band merch, stuff like that. They have either long brown hair, black hair or multicoloured hair like Melanie Martinez (dyed in variants such as pink, red, blonde (more like light ginger.)

Adult:  Band tops, but also ones with cute designs on such as bunnies or kittens, sometimes overalls or dresses, sometimes even onesies, since they can still have the traits of an agere headspace. Short Brown hair, is a lot chubbier than the rest, can be considered mid or plus size.

Height: Varies depending on form and age, but usually smol.

Weight: (UNKNOWN BUT IT VARIES.)

Hair color: Dark brown/Brown

Eye color: Brown

Scars and/or skin conditions: Has a few bruises and a few cuts in some places, but I prefer to not draw them.

Has a skin condition called psoriasis. (I have it IRL.)

Never Seen Without: White Bun, and their three Cream The Rabbit plushies.

Likes:

• Things with peaches (the fruit) on them. (Including peaches and peach ice tea.)

• Bunnies

• Their Caregiver, Stedge.

• Drawing, and colouring in.

• The colour pink.

• Sonic The Hedgehog.

• Porcelain Dolls

• Stuffed Animals

Dislikes:

• Abusers (including physical, mental and sexual abusers.)

• Those who take advantage of vulnerable people.

• People who don’t take them seriously.

• Drama.

• Being abandoned or left alone.

Relationships:

Stedge - Partner in crime, best friend, caregiver and lover. (Depending on age of course.)

Cream.exe (Sally.exe game) - practically twinning, bunny loves to hang out with cream.exe. (my highest kin, apart from cream herself.)

Family Members - Depending on which member, they do have a good bond or a negative one. Bunny loves them on different levels, some of them, they hate.  This does not reflect on how (I myself) feel about said family members.

(If you want your creepypasta oc to be friends with Bunny, just ask!)

OTHER INFO:

• They age up with my current age since they aren't dead and they are based off of me.

• I decided to make them some sort of entity since I couldn’t make them a ghost and still be alive lol they age up with me.

•Their “trauma” is the same as mine, which is why I won’t write it in detail here but they are a victim of abuse.

• They are all bloody because its how I feel about my trauma.

• They physically and mentally regressed to the age they are supposed to be, if they are in their child forms, they are an actual child. (Direct reference to my age regression I use to help me cope with my trauma) They prefer to be in this form so they can protect and befriend children. They don't harm children or other victims of abuse. The children usually call them “bunny.”

• When they're in their adult form, they have a partner called Stephen. Someone who they have known since they were 17 years old. When they are a “child” he takes care of them and protects them to make sure they don't ever get hurt again.

• Their sense of justice is what caused them to want to help other children. They never want to see another child go through what they went through.

Any Other Info is on the Picture.

Stedge

Well, I also made a creepypasta oc to represent my boyfriend, someone who I love and trust to help me during those horrible times. He’s like my partner in crime. lmao also his age isn’t rly there because he ages up with his real life counterpart, which will get updated.

REMINDER TO NOT SEXUALISE HIM AS MY BOYFRIEND IS UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THAT.

BASIC INFO:

Name: Stephen

Nickname(s): Stedge, Mr. Bubbles (by Emily/Elliot.)

Meaning of name: Stephen The most beautiful boy in existence. Has stunning eyes, that make your heart fall through the floor when they crinkle with his perfect smile. Is deep, unlike most boys, and extremely intelligent. Has a big heart, and he doesn't realize when he's being taken for granted. Even though he would never admit it, he sometime's can't see what's right in front of him. An over-analyzer, and very stubborn, but he will admit defeat when he has to. Likes to drive girls crazy, apparently. Easy to fall in love with. Hard to figure out.

Gender: Male

Age: Ages up with IRL person. Currently: 19.

Date of Birth:

9th April

Race/Species: English, Human.

Native language: UK English.

Orientation/Sexual Preference: Straight

Are They Dead: No

Any Mental Health Issues? No, None that we know of.

Triggers: None that we know of.

Powers/Special Abilities:

He doesn't have many powers but he athletic and can run quick and has a good amount of strength. He uses a bat and other various stuff.

APPEARANCE:

Looks:

Short brown hair, brown eyes, a bit of facial hair, variants of a black or dark grey shirt, but obviously not only those, sometimes they’re ripped.

Hair color: Dark brown, brown.

Eye color: Brown.

Scars: None.

Personality: He is quite intelligent and mature, behaves childishly in front of Emily/Elliot, cold and serious, is kind, polite, protective.

Hobbies and Likes: • playing the guitar

• skate (skateboarding)

• listening to tunes

• spending time with Emily/Elliot.

Dislikes:

• Abusers, people who take advantage of vulnerable people.

• People who are cruel to Emily/Elliot.

Relationships: Bunny - Best friend, soulmate, would do anything to make bunny smile, frequently gets them stuffed toys and food.

EXTRA INFO:

He is a few months older than me in IRL, his age is 19 right now, along with mine but will be updated.

Stephen is a human, and helps take care of Emily (in their child forms.) since they are a child and very vulnerable in that state due to their trauma, when they’re adult they are romantic towards each other.

They work together as a team when bashing and killing abusers. While he uses physical means, Emily uses mental.

Any Other Info is on the Picture.

WATTPAD: https://www.wattpad.com/story/255861941-creepypasta-ocs-emily-elliot-and-stedge

[alittleoptimistic]

Hi! I just wanted to say, I BLOODY LOVE YOUR GF FANFIC!!! I have trouble reading in general and with fanfic I usually find one to hyperfixate on for months or years at a time, even if I don't like it that much, because I'm too afraid to look for any outside of recommendations.

I've had a variety of different experiences (mostly strong cringe) but when I read yours I feel kinda like goldy locks from that fairytail the three bears, some fics are too long or too short, too complex or too simple, too dark or too serious, but yours is "just right"! It has a great balance of mature and silly, wich is a problem I personally get with alot of gf fic (usually too dark or angsty or mature) that doesn't make the fic bad, but it isn't my cup of tea.

And I love love love love the way you characterise the... characters, especially stan and ford. They feel just right in that they're not portrayed as "too tough" or "too mean" and they're allowed to actually feel anxious or worried and don't always express it in a violent or loud or "manly" way. It feels like your writing the characters first instead of "grumpy old men who happen to be silly sometimes". They can be soft and kind and dumb and dorks and I personally adore it. The way you write comfort with them is sooooooo heartmelting.

Same goes for the other characters, they're aloud to express themselves in less conventional ways wich means they actually feel more like the kinds of people to "build giant death robots instead of dealing with their feelings" or "use a smoke bomb, grab the cash, and book it" or "be oblivious to obvious red flags when caught up in curiosity and fascination" for some obvious examples.

Even the way you use words is a delight and refreshingly easy to read whilst also painting a very lovely picture. I rarely get overwhelmed or confused and it feels so efficient? And refreshing!

Sorry this is a long one but I was catching up on some of your fic during a long train ride yesterday and had to stop every paragraph or so to annoy my twin bro about how much I loved it!

Aw man these sorts of messages straight up make my whole day. Thanks 😊

I’m glad you think the words come off well lmao, bc it sure doesn’t feel like that when I’m writing. I’m trudging up hill lol.

I totally get what you mean about some fics being too angst-y. I think part of it is bc the canon content is mostly light hearted, so people do this super opposite thing and end up a little too far on the other side in an attempt to add more depth. But they do it too fast maybe? Idk, to each their own, but I agree, it’s not my cup of tea. I kind of write fan fic bc I want to see a certain thing I’m not seeing- so part of me writing TSoSP was because I wasn’t seeing a lot of reconciliation stories that were quite to my taste. (Not that there aren’t any at all! I’ve found several I love so much! Blind Faith comes to mind, as well as For Mutts and Men)

I really had a problem with letting The Boys (lol) cry or be very outwardly emotional, especially toward each other? So I’m glad it works well for you lol! I just didn’t feel like it was in character for them, so I saved up any extreme sorts of emotion as long as I possibly could. I worked with the idea that I wasn’t going to let the reader get the payoff of seeing them actually do the right thing as long as possible and I also wouldn’t let them pretty much ever say what they actually meant. Uhhh that’s just more interesting for me personally, and it makes it so I can have very violent/sad/ dramatic situations, but keep it relatively light hearted by having the characters just be like “ah hah. Nope. Not going to think about that. Here is a joke.” Idk, maybe that was just frustrating. I’m trying to practice not being too dismal bc it is very much my tendency to go all out with the Sad and Violent- and I’ve seen some good stories balance it out with humor. I’m working on an original book that has very much to do with death and grief, so I’ve been trying to use that same kind of technique. Humor to balance out pain? Idk. Like, I watched the Odd Couple recently and realized that it’s straight up about a guy who gets divorced, and tries to kill himself, and all his friends aren’t sure how to help. And it’s the funniest movie I’ve ever seen.

Some people write fan fic for the cathartic feeling of those characters being loved and expressing love, ummmm I also like this but sometimes I’m just cringing and idk why. Idk if that makes sense. Like as much as I want a young stan pines to get a long hug with his brother, it’s just not going to happen in my understanding of the characters unless they’re incredibly drugged or they almost just died. Like, to me, the whole interesting thing about it would be the journey of getting them to a place where they would reasonably do the thing you want them to do. (The stakes are even higher when they’re old. Like, can you imagine your gruff grandpa crying on his twin’s shoulder? It’s going to take Some Stuff for that situation to happen) idk. Tbh if I could do it again, I would have extended the ending a bit but it is what it is.

I think it depends on what you’re trying to accomplish. Cause, I don’t want to bash people who are just trying to cope by making some old guys cry I’m each other’s arms, ya know? Like, can people just have things? If that’s helping you emotionally, go for it. But also, the idea of stan pines- an old man who grew up in the 60-70s- going to therapy and being emotionally vulnerable the way some modern teenagers are is just,,, in my version of his world it is going to take a Lot of growth. I have family members that are very similar to Stan (except very Italian instead of Jewish lol) and it’s just funny to imagine someone who is literally the same person as my great uncle John getting the owo treatment 😭😂

So anyway that’s a lot of words whoops. I’m less of a hurt/comfort writer and more of an Hurt writer and then sneak in some comfort but let’s not make eye contact about it