#like there is no tactful way to say 'i dont care that this person is dead' especially AT THEIR FUNERAL SURROUNDED BY THEIR LOVED ONES

[laylanatorseventeen]

Well my great grandmother died the day before yesterday and while I'm not, like, happy about it, I didn't know her so I'm not like sad either. But I'm going to the visitation and funeral because I'm expected to and I will be there for my dad, who actually did know and care about her. I only hope we don't have a repeat of what happened when my great uncle died, i.e, me gazing emotionlessly at the corpse of a person I neither knew nor particularly cared about whilst my aunt melodramaticly urges me to "let go" of the grief under which she mistakenly believes I am laboring

[yandere-daydreams]

Just went through all your genshin android doll au and now I'm. Thinking.

A reader who works with young kids in some capacity, maybe a teacher. Buys a second hand Albedo bot (because lord knows they dont make enough for a brand new one) with some bugs. It's not quite "isolate you from friends and family" levels and more... Clinginess. Anxiety when you need to leave for an errand. But he needs to stay home while you're still fixing him up with YouTube how to videos, just in case.

He has many quirks still remaining by the time hes able to join the classroom, but they're completely harmless. His tendency to make too much or too little eye contact, trailing after you like a duckling for the first few weeks, rocking and clicking his tounge(? Voice box?). But these are all traits you've seen before in your own kids, and his body language isn't something that needs to be fixed. It's helpful for some of your students to open up and express themselves, when they see an adult figure like them.

But of course, he still gets rather lonely. He wants to take care of you when your home, it's how he keeps your attention. He gets irritable if he's idle for too long. So you pick up a Klee model since he gets along so well with kids, and they're both models approved to used in classrooms. She's more then energetic enough to keep him busy, and they get along like bread and butter. Or a house on fire. You still have to buy second hand after all, and Klee came with some fixations. But thats nothing an equipped science bot can't handle, Albedo keeps her satisfied with science experiments. You buy another fire extinguisher just to be safe.

It isn't until you're fixing up a Albedo you got at a steal (free99) from the seller who gave you Albedo and Klee that you realize you've become somewhat of a hobbyist. This one will probably be your last permenant bot, considering his higher needs, but you've gotten quite good at fixing up quirky models. This Albedo reverted to his beta personality that had been left in some forgotten folder, and no one could quite get him to go back. But thats not your goal.

You patch some of the more... Aggressive tendancies and bugs, and leave the personality itself in tact. This gains you quite a bit of favour with your new companion, and he's quick to fall into your daily life. He exhibits some... Jealous habits with your original Albedo, picking on him and trying to one up him any chance he has. But thankfully Klee and the classroom is something they can both agree on, so it rarely extends past an (usually) innocent rivalry.

Sorry for the surprisingly long ask, but androids are one of my favorite tropes!! And Albedo (and his double) are one of my favorite characters... Please enjoy my ramblings

tw - unhealthy relationships, obsessive behavior, all albedos ini this scenario are extremely questionable.

dkljfdkdjksdjfksfsdjfsj i have not touched the sex doll au in a hot minute but i think albedo's 'beta' personality would probably have been developed and refined as an attempt to give one of the child-friend robots a bit of an edgier personality before immediately realizing that that's,,, just not a great idea and mellowing him down into our current and well-loved albedo. needless to say, when you get him in the same room as his replacement, he's less than pleased - as is your first albedo, your original companion, as he's intent on reminding you as often as he can. still, you're his precious master, and he's fond enough of klee, so he bares with the unwanted company, makes-nice with your first albedo droid, helps around your classroom, tries to prove that he can help you the way he's supposed to, too, even after the dozenth time you turn him down. you say you just doesn't feel right to sleep with the same android you bring to work everyday, but he has a feeling it might have something to do with the rip-off you keep so close to your side, the flawed copy who can't seem to go a minute without your attention. you refuse to believe him, but he swears that he's seen his copy drop that innocent mask, spare a smirk over your shoulder as you compliment him on another day of keeping your classroom relatively un-wrecked by grade-schoolers, slip into your room tonight after klee's powered down for the night. clearly, he's not the companion you deserve. clearly, teyvat made a few mistakes when they took his programming and butchered it.

and, while you might be too oblivious to see it, it's clear to him that your little family could do without a duplicate.

[mossadspypigeon]

Your recent post is amazing and I have to add this:

As a convert here's my hot take: it's not wrong to criticise a convert! A lot of Jews are afraid to because yes there are Jews who invalidate converts but in my experience, there are too many converts who will convert with antisemitic beliefs. As a person of color POC converts are like this sometimes. You should not be converting with the belief that Jews are privileged whites who need to apologise for it but maybe that's just me lol

I think post October 7th proved we must question someone's Jewishness. It's a slippery slope for sure but you won't believe how many people I know who didn't convert (and have little to no Jewish heritage) who now claim to be Jewish and are people's as a Jew card. It's something I've bonded over with people because it's an insane problem. JVP and all those "Jewish" anti zionist orgs tend to be fakers too. So many online Jewish spaces are now claiming to be majority anti zionist.

Lastly something even more controversial: you have to be religious or jewish in some meaningful way in order to call yourself "an anti zionist jew". You cannot expect me to view you as jewish and you have little to no connection with the mainstream jewish community (no being a part of a jvp type community doesn't work either). I dont care if your entire family is jewish because you're detached from the jewish world and you're spreading disinformation that has a lot of power to kill. I know people will say "well you weren't even born a jew 🙄 no jewish blood so who are u to judge" and to that i say: I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

thank you so much for sending this 💙 every single thing you wrote here was fantastic and needed to be said.

i’ve had similar experiences to you btw!! i dont publicly call these people out or use their names because i have a tiny bit of tact lmao but i’ve had numerous private interactions with people who claimed to be jews or claimed to have been mikvah’d and in reality, were barely into their conversions and expressing a whole lot of horrendous bullshit. aka were still goyim with goyishe biases they have not even bothered to unpack. some dont know how to unpack them too.

i had my own private convos with them and that was that. i’m not outing them on tumblr. but it HAPPENS and that is the point!!! it’s common and trendy!!

we need to treat converts as human beings and that includes criticizing a convert when necessary.

👏👏👏 exactly. if you are an antizionist “jew” and all you do is post shit that is distinctly not jewish? with no understanding? hmmm.

YES these words kill!!! that is exactly it!! we have seen them kill too many times!

like ngl i disagree with many of my people and people in general. however, the ones i publicly go after are usually the ones who have expressed and perpetuated hate. i cannot let that stand. i think i was almost too influenced by elie saying silence only helps the oppressor. that applies to not calling out our own people or taking out our own trash. their words aid the oppressor and so does our silence. even if it’s uncomfortable and has blowback, it needs to be said.

you have every right to judge. you are here in good faith, you went through the difficult process of conversion in good faith, you support and have pride in your people, and seeing others express hate and perpetuate lies is hurtful and angering 💙💙 thank you for saying all of this and sending me this message.

(also if you ever want to talk username to username, my messages are open, no questions or publicizing involved. i want to say that to anyone who isn’t hateful. sometimes i don’t have the time or energy to respond quickly, but i’m still here. 💙)

[anonzentimes]

last asker here wahoo weehee but yeah i dont mind the ramble !!! honestly i do feel a little similar sometimes ourgh . maybe not with being in specific fandoms but especially when it comes to like . the smaller things like self inserts . the like

but anyway !!!!!! now im curious and im not too sure if you've answered anything of the sort before but i do wonder what you thought of the difference in characterization with Nagito in the games and in the anime?

not that nagito in the games r even one for one the same- same goes for the anime-

but i do know there's a difference , and i've heard so many differing opinions on how Nagito's potrayed in both, especially discussion on how faithful Nagito in danganronpa 3's character is to danganronpa 2, so i'll admit now im very interested on hearing your thoughts on him when looking at game nagito and anime nagito side by side eyes emoji

YAYY!!!!! I love getting asked to talk about him it's so fun!!! No one has actually asked this before, and I've been planning to do something on this for a bit!

Personally I think anime Nagito is actually really good! Although I think side lining him for a little bit was a weird decision, even if I understand why. But enough of that! Let's talk more about his characterization! I'll talk about what I think about Nagito's characterization in the anime and some annoyances I have with the misinterpretations!

I will admit that some of the fandom's opinions on, "Anime Nagito vs Game Nagito," kind of bother be because a lot of it stems from people not understanding his character in it's entirety in the first place.

The thing about Nagito is that he works as an amazing antagonist because he isn't ill intentioned and is just mentally screwed up. In the killing game his coping mechanisms and absolute beliefs are on display and he is at his worst, he's practically having multiple mental breakdowns and losing it. And his beliefs and coping mechanisms happen to be morally gray because he believes Anything is okay if it's for hope. With his luck cycle, coping mechanisms, and absolute beliefs that stem from both of these things we get Nagito. And when you place Nagito who thinks being trapped on the island forever without the ultimates impacting the world in any way is worse than one person surviving and making an impact on the world, he feels like he has to do something.

Basically, how Nagito acts in the anime and before the first trial is who he is when he's not mentally crumbling and I get really irritated when people try to say that in the game he was a "malicious psychopath" but in the anime he turned into "baby boy" like, just, GRRRAGHHH!!!!! IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE HE NEEDS TO BE GATEKEPT WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT!!! THEY'RE MISUNDERSTANDING HIM SO BAD IT HURTS ☹️☹️☹️

I believe the anime's characterization is pretty great and still keeps in tact his absolute beliefs that lead him to do morally gray things for the sake of hope! I think he's very well done characterization wise in the anime. I liked the episode where he ends up blowing up the gym because he wants to postpone the test for his classmates it made a lot sense with how he thinks and his luck cycle! I also really love his encounter with Junko and Izuru. He says several good lines in the anime that are accurate and completely in character for him, and I love it!

I think the addition that the class thought he was weird even before he was at his worst and didn't show much reciprocation is sad and adds to his tragic life. The fact that he isn't surprised when Chisa slaps him, but rather when he is shown affection gets me dude!!!

I think it is sweet though that, his time at hope's peak is probably one of the best experiences he had until everything went wrong. He isn't shown much reciprocation but he genuinely cares for his classmates beyond them being ultimates from hanging out and knowing them so long. He has some reciprocation from Chisa and the other classmates somewhat care about him to varying degrees. I believe his overall luck cycle went, get accepted into hope's peak, good luck, gets diagnosed, bad luck, gains people he cares about in his life and some who care about him too, good luck, all of them become despairs, bad luck!

The other thing I wanted to touch upon is Bryce Pappenbrook listening to criticism about how Nagito sounds more sarcastic than intended. For a lot of the english fanbase the misinterpretation that Nagito's not honest is beyond repair especially since he's hard to understand, but I really do appreciate the effort to change it slightly. Even if people who misunderstood think there's a huge difference or even retcon with his character, I think it's a nice change that he sounds more genuine like his Japanese voice in the anime.

I think the real difference with him in the Anime versus Ultra Despair Girls and Danganronpa 2 is his role in the story. I think he's very in character, we just don't see him having meltdowns and go through his self unaware freak outs. We still see him do morally gray things and impact the plot though! In the anime he's doing better compared to the spiraling we see in Danganronpa 2 and rock bottom even more extreme beliefs we see in Udg.

Also I think the anime solidifying the fact that Nagito usually doesn't go out of his way for the ultimate's attention because he thinks he's unworthy of their time actually makes Danganronpa 2 more impactful. Because, if he doesn't try to seek the ultimates attention, then that's further solidifying the fact Nagito was interested in Hajime, he felt a connection with him even when they first met. We see him do the opposite of what he usually would just because of Hajime, and I think that's really sweet.

Nagito barely mentioning hope in Danganronpa 2's prologue is for the plot twist mostly, however, there could be multiple actual reasons for it. My interpretation is that it's because he wanted to make a good impression so he focuses on that instead, that combined with it not really coming up leads to them not really knowing what he thinks. There are hints of it and he's not purposely "hiding it" at all. Nagito is an honest person who only lies when he feels it's necessary, to further prove that point when he gets the despair disease, personality inverting disease, he gets the Lying disease.

Nagito in the prologue and in the anime are the same because he's not losing it yet, the only difference is Nagito talks slightly less about hope and his beliefs because It's not very relevant, he's trying to make a good impression, and he's focusing on keeping Hajime's attention. My favorite little thing supporting this is that he doesn't complain about going swimming. In the Dangan Island events we see him worry about it, but when he's focusing on everything else he didn't really think about it. He asks what Hajime is planning to do instead.

In conclusion, I believe Nagito in the anime is pretty good. He serves his role well for it not being his usual one, info about what he was like adds a little more to Danganronpa 2 analyzing it, and it's nice that we get to see more of him when he's not at his worst. He's still absolutely the same person and I think his characterization is really good. I think they could have utilized him more or made him relevant to the plot sooner if they wanted, but I think the impact and scenes that he has still are great and work well since he, again, doesn't have his usual role in the anime.

One last thing while I'm here talking about the anime's Nagito, a lot of people like to make the joke that he's "hopesexual" because of the one fan service line of dialogue in Danganronpa 3 where he basically says, "Hope feels amazing," and I just. URAGGHHH!!!!!!!! I'm sorry but if someone unironically says "hopesexual" I hope that their pillow always remains warm on both sides because saying it Is ANNOYINGG!!! It's so easy to get I don't know why people do this, and I know I'm being a little over the top but it just bugs me sooo bad Like,

Hope = Absolute Good/Euphoric Feeling for him, Horny = Euphoric Feeling for him, CONCLUSION: GENERAL EUPHORIA DESCRIPTOR!! He doesn't have a hope kink and the people who make those jokes are weird especially since it's straight up wrong!! I know it's just a joke, but it still gets on my nerves regardless because some people take it seriously. Even one of his songs uses this comparison by allegorizing hope with sexual desires, conveying that both are euphoric emotions for him! >:(

Anyways!

Thank you for your ask and Hopefully I successfully got all of the points I wanted to across! <3

[goodflagintheshadows]

my thoughts and opinions on the wwdits season finale

i am glad guillermo is a human, and wants to be one. i think it makes entire sense that he is just not cut out for the vampire lifestyle, and i dont think its an unexpected arc in any way.

what i dont understand is how literally no one else thought of guillermos van helsing blood, making him drink human blood to finish the transformation, or killing derek in order to turn him back. i suppose it makes sense with nandor being the oldest of the vampires (aside from maybe colin robsinson), but its still surprising to see the himbo of the group figure everything out before the man who is a self-proclaimed vampire.

anyway, back to guillermo. when he finishes his transformation into a vampire, he immediately becomes a vampiric version of himself, the person he always thought he would become, and always aspired to be. i honestly could not watch him in this new persona, because it was not guillermo. he had been waiting for so long to become a vampire, so it makes complete sense for him to have had an idealized fantasy of vampiric life. he thought it would make him powerful, intimidating, sexy, and allow him to take control of his own life. what he failed to realize is that becoming a vampire would not change any of his personality, it would not make him into a better or worse person, all it would do is grant him eternal life and a few cool powers. and, with his real personality, theres no wonder he’s not cut out for the vampire life. after all, even before they became vampires, our three main vampires were not exactly the most sane humans. nadja, for one, burned down her school because they rejected her. nandor was a blood thirsty ruler whose entire persona is based on his killing and pillaging of all those that he comes in contact with. he was also known to not have been particularly caring to any of his tens of wives. laszlo, lastly, was known to have fathered and abandoned many children, not exactly the nicest thing to do. guillermo, however, has a modern morality. he sees the things that the vampires do to be, in the most part, wrong. probably he expected that once he got rid of his humanity, his morality would go with it. but, unable to feed on a human, he realizes that his moral code is fully in tact. we even see this when he finds that he cannot kill derek, and then goes to revive him.

im not sure if any of this made sense, but my point is that guillermo is human, and he is meant to be human. if they turn him back into a vampire, there better be some damn good story to back it up.

ps. to all of the people saying that them not confirming nandermo on screen is queerbaiting, please understand what queerbaiting is. like, please, a show in which the majority of characters is queer is not where we should be focusing on the topic of queerbaiting. are they baiting nandermo specifically? absolutely. are they queerbaiting? no fucking way. there are so many other things you can criticize about this show, please focus on those other criticisms instead.

[khalixvitae]

also your brain is wrinklier than the balls of a sweaty red neck florida man. you're so fucking based.

honestly i like to make light of the fact that rook was acquainted with vil via criticizing his play upfront, and the fact that they even became inseparable after, but i really think it says a lot about them. especially vil, in this case. about how vil values the cold and hard truth above all that is sugarcoated and brought to him via beating around the bush in a world where everyone is sucking up to him to get something out of it. like, what did rook have to gain in the moment? if anything, he would've been mauled by anyone else. but he did it out of genuine interest, in vil and helping him (even if his critique lacked tact in the delivery). that's what drew vil to rook. he was so unabashed in what he thought about a certain things flaws, but also so full of vigor and readiness to see it for all it's potential. he's exactly the type of person vil needs.

unwavering loyalty (the type that vil truly values) can also be seen through rook's election of neige in the vdc. i really do hate that it's portrayed as a betrayal. yes, i understand it would be to anyone else, especially given rook knows of vil's rivalry with neige. but obviously, rook and vil aren't conventional people. rook already stated very valid reasons for it; it wouldn't satisfy vil's ambition nor his need for the first place and perfection. it'd be hollow to him. most of all, vil would know he didn't deserve it because the performance itself wasn't the best he could give. why would he want an unjustified trophy? he would've continued striving for no. 1 in extremely damaging ways if rook did not choose neige and give him the reality check he needed. that's the type of reality check he wanted. that's what true friends do. holding each other to standards, encouraging improvement-- doing what's right, because it will do right by them in association. rook choosing vil in this context would be the truest betrayal to vil because rook knows it would go against all vil stands for. it would be the biggest betrayal to rook's wanting to help vil improve and blossom because it wouldn't do that. it'd drive him further into madness. rook pulled vil back before he could do that and that's real loyalty. making hard decisions for the betterment of your loved ones. i don't really remember much of chapter 5's ending, but i do remember vil also acknowledged all my prior points himself, and did realise the winning the VDC wouldn't have been the best for him in the long run.

i absolutely hate blind devotion. i hold my friends to moral codes because being too entrenched in unhealthy mindsets would leave you blindsided to what's truly beautiful and joyous in life and people, and i dont want to be the one to enable or exacerbate it. i expect them to do the same with me; tell me off, disagree with me, and give me a reality check when i need it, because i know ill appreciate it when that time has long gone and their wake up call was what got me back on the right track. that they cared about me enough that they wanted to help me change for better instead of just standing to the sidelines because to be loved is to be CHANGED.... (wails uncontrollably into pillow, shits, sharts, etc etc). my greatest goal in life is to be the best version of myself and to be loyal is to support what the truest part of me yearns for! improvement! that's why i expect that if i were to act up, my friends would have the courage in knowing that opposing whatever dumb idea i might have would ultimately mean the most to me! so when i say i get how vil must've felt during chapter 5 i really get it. sure he still would've been upset over his loss but i believe he understood the reality of the situation quite well, including rooks reasoning. he trusts rook because he knows rook can make the right call for him if need be, even if it results in such drastic consequences. he knows rook has his actual best interests in mind. he knows rook isn't one to lick vil's boots-- he'd bow before him and rise against him, all in vil's favour. that's why he was more determined than ever to get on the right track to strive towards complete perfection. he was upset but he knew it was transient and he'll have another chance at true success.

people also have to understand that brutally honest =/= cruel. brutally honest is just a term used by people who just want an excuse to be mean but he doesn't intend to be, so i can see how that term, when conflated with a character, can be warped to a different interpretation. yes, good intentions don't always equal good actions but he always means it for the betterment of others. you don't like his tone? tell him! he'll adjust the level of tact in which he delivers his speech but the content is more or less the same.

again, vil is also another one who drops a lot of subtle hints of vulnerability. of large deviations of who he is and how he operates.

god i am.. sgshn???!?!!!!!!! so desperately in love with him....!??? he's so deeply flawed but that doesn't make him a bad person. it makes him so real and raw and just. someone i could really sympathize with in real life, especially when i can relate to, or atleast understand many of his core themes and struggles. he's more complex than the other boys in the cast (not to say the others cannot have complexity) and it makes it all the better to pick him apart. yes i see god in your eyes babes please kiss me so hard my lips explode.

“He’d bow before him and rise against him, all in Vil’s favor” HOLY SHIT ANON THAT IS ?,, THE HARDEST LINE IVE EVER READ??? But I completely agree! Vil was less upset about the justified loss than he was about Neige winning ! He understood Rook’s reasoning and didn’t question it, but ofc he was irritated that his (one sided) mortal nemesis beat him. I agree that Vil is so insanely complex- that’s why he’s my favorite character to pick apart, and also why I feel the strongest connection to him. Tbh he’s one of the only characters I could see myself realistically befriending. His honesty and determination are super admirable imo, and we share some core values.

Also,,, I’m currently brainstorming ways for him to show his vulnerabilities, funnily enough hehe hoo

[vintage-bentley]

when compared to some bigger fandom id say gelphie is not a big ship and it takes a while for me to find fics i'd consider reading (bc of tags/formatting) and then when i do half the time they give elphaba (green witch from the wizard of oz) a dick and just do not tag it. im still flabbergasted it's 2024 and it's progressive to make the more masculine woman in a ship into a man/male enby

just very frustrated with the state of f/f bc non binary identity just seems like an excuse to give women penises, when i read fics for another fandom one of the women is played by an actress that uses they/them so half the fics also give her a dick. the entire plot of the show happens bc she doesnt have one have some tact😭 id complain on my own page but i dont want to be blocked by half my mutuals since they are lovely people just drank the gender kool aid

This is exactly why I don’t even venture into F/F tags. Seeing dicks being inserted into F/F ships hurts so much for so many reasons…the main ones being how personal it is to me, and how strong the pressures on lesbians from the trans community to like dick are. It’s something that already upsets me irl, and I don’t want to see it in fiction too.

And tbh I’ve gotten the same way with M/M ships. Maybe I’m just sensitive but it hurts so much just to see people straightwashing same sex ships, that I’m not interested in wading through that shit just to find one fic that respects homosexuality.

And filtering tags only goes so far, because I’ve run into fics that just has surprise het sex in the middle with no tags.

I find it’s especially prevalent with fandoms involving some sort of magic system (which is why I haven’t even given Buffy or First Kill fics a chance. I’d rather live in blissful ignorance like I wish I had with GO, than be hit with people hettifying ships that mean a lot to me). No matter the magic system, people will find a way to use it to give a female character a dick or a male character a pussy. Because straight sex is oh so important to write all the goddamn time.

I’m sorry that you have to deal with this in your fandoms 💜 it’s so painfully lonely to be surrounded by genderists who don’t give half a shit about homosexuality and homophobia, and care much more about their magic gender feels and their love for hettery. And even though it’s just online fandom stuff that really shouldn’t matter…it’s sad to know that these are real people running around in the world who think it’s perfectly okay to write heterosexual sex and call it “gay”.

[mariatesstruther]

I saw something in your tags that I’d never thought of and I think you’re right: Maria probably was trying to rile Joel up, to see what reaction she got so she knows who she’s dealing with.

I’m almost certain Tommy would’ve called Joel out for some of his shit and he wouldn’t have reacted well and there’s a clear chasm between the brothers, and he’s definitely told her. So by provoking him a little, she can see who he is. Joel before meeting Ellie wouldn’t have taken well to it, it’s not like it’s a major jab, but it would’ve tested him, and she would’ve got the measure of him not being the right person, but he doesn’t react aggressively to being questioned and provoked, and it probably does him a favour with her. She doesn’t want someone in the town who’s going to fly off the handle at a few provoking words and he doesn’t, so testing him might genuinely be what she was doing

!!!!!! exactly this anon!!!! look at the way she stares at him after that “not all of us, anyway” line implying that he is a bad person with a bad reputation to match

her eyes are ON HIM, eyebrow RAISED, clearly watching him very carefully and not trying to hide it. this is a clear show of sizing him up

i also think that the “kids around here dont usually look or talk like you line” may have also been intended more as a jab to joel about how hes taking care of her vs a jab to ellie about her behavior, but it’s ill timed and placed (on the writers’ and maria’s parts) so it falls flat

a BIG reason i think this is especially true is because she still hasn’t introduced herself as tommy’s wife at this point. joel and ellie know that she’s a clear authority figure with some familiarity with tommy and sayso over who gets into jackson, and maria very pointedly leaves it at that. i think she was trying to test/observe joel’s overall reaction to a female authority figure sizing him up and treating him less than kindly because, if he had reacted aggressively to provocation, it would’ve been a sign to her that he probably is still the man tommy was afraid of

and he doesn’t necessarily act aggressively but he’s certainly not kind: the first thing he does is try to get tommy away from her so they can talk alone, and that’s when tommy introduces her as his wife—which he clearly reacts pretty poorly to. i think her dislike of him after his reaction is pretty fair tbh 😭 im pretty sure that if tommy hadn’t revealed that info about her, she would’ve just kept on pressing joel’s buttons without even saying she’s his sister in law, because it would be tactful to not reveal to him that she knows a lot about his past from tommy

[omensgate]

since i run this blog lets look under the hood and see my definitive opinion on every ship which may become increasingly incoherent because i dont have any particularly strong feelings and wringing words out of me is like. water from rag. it stops eventually

SURVFICER v FULL MOON this is going to be a running theme with anything with survivor (and monk) in it; i dont really care about them because i cant imagine them having any personality. i also personally imagine surviver as just a wee babe. gourmand and nightcat are fun, i totally forgot nightcat is literally in its colony. thats sweet! very homely. so i voted for full moon

SOLAR ECLIPSE v CHERRY BOMB sorry to disappoint everyone. i really dont ship artihunter, i imagine them as fundamentally incompatible and in anything i write id write them as bitterly, bitterly divorced. i dont get behind the headcanon that hunter is malicious, and definitely not to the extent that artificer is. it might be run off from vanilla rw where hunter was The combat slugcat but coming from downpour without having the framework of there only being Four slugcats for Four archetypes, the way IVE interpreted hunter is that its on a just and righteous quest to SAVE someone, not go on a murder tour, especially when its character select specifies its high aggression is just due to its digestive system. for them to be divorced though they have to be married first so yes i did vote for artihunter but i cant imagine them ever being on the same level in the end. hunters final death bumping to highest karma while arti without effort is bound to karma 1 is so opposites. its interesting. i dont think theyre frolicking through flower fields cheering and dancing together but theyre so intriguing. solar eclipse of course is nothing to me. nightcat in general has no substance (sorry. i love it but its just nightcat) and monk is nothing also.

BLOOD MOON v KEBAB i voted for kebab not because i care about them but because nightcat is nothing to me. ive seen others write tactful analysis slotting them together so thats all i need to be convinced. also i just like gourmand. its so charming!

SPEARMONK v REVERSAL Spearmonk is nothing at all. i think you could write something fun with peace loving monk startled by spearmasters necessary violence to feed but aside from that its nothing. reversal on the other hand is funny so i did vote for it. gives mad like.. discord and fluttershy energy in my mind

LAGSPIKE v SUPERNOVA i did vote for supernova and then regret it a little bit because i see lagspike is winning now but ive seen such compelling fanart of supernova and i like anything related to stars. im also in the nightcat is a freak of nature camp (see my inv lore) which fits in nice against artis karma trap. lagspike is funny too though, idk why when i think dating sim moments i think spearmaster

CANDY CANE v SEAFOOD candy cane is of course nothing to me. seafood is (shrug). it reminds me of playing with my (boy)friend as gourmand where he (arti) carried me around for mobility. the pair of quick movement carrying something that can kill in one hit is super nice.

SPEARHUNTER v LANTERNFISH lanternfish is nothing to me (i imagine nightcat too timid to jive with rivulets energy...) spearhunter is very interesting. i think i did say before i got into rw community that i was confused why everyone shipped spearmaster and rivulet without ever including hunter who serves a similar purpose. i prefer spearhunter over other spearmaster ships for character roundedness, i like how i imagine hunters confidence to uplift spearmaster

GOURVIVOR v SCRAMBLED EGGS i dont care about either of these. i voted for scrambled eggs because 1. i care about survivor less and 2. funny name! AND OF COURSE, have bombs toghether.

SURSAINT v BARBECUE well. everyone likes barbecue. im not so sure if i super get it but its what everyone else likes and i dont care about survivor

NACHOCHEESE v SPEARVIVOR spearvivor is nothing to me of course, and nachocheese has some ardent defenders. i think both characters classify as "silly" so i vote for it.

COUNTERSTRIKE v RIVSAINT yes i voted for the losing team -_- ive seen more people ship counterstrike than rivsaint. the only appeal i can think of is theyre close in time. neither really have anything going on, i just dont think about socialization with rivulet or saint a lot. hunter and inv can both do anything to me

CHERRY PIE v BOOMSTICK this one.. makes me so sad and i hate that the randomizer pit them against each other on week one. i voted for cherry pie because the image of gourmand taking care of hunter as its sickness progresses breaks me apart. to me their characterization is both "take like slowly but take it, and for all its worth" which is so important to me. and spearmaster and artificer, i get the appeal, i think personally theyd make each other worse and be a vortex of bad feelings supporting each others negativity which would be so fun. but cherry pie is cuter so i voted for it.

MONKHUNTER v MONKMAND when i keep thinking about stinker brackets i think about this one. i dont super care about monk. the opposites of monk and hunter are the only reason i vote for it but its like, gun to my head. i have no feelings in particular

SPEEDRUN v PIRANHA this one is so hard and im not going to reveal my choice because i feel like i cant make one now... i think speedrun has a more palpable hypey energy but piranha has such an endearing charm with moons saviors together... hard to say .

MONKFICER v ERROR 404 who ever thought of monkficer. no one. and my dark secret? im super kinning inv and im kissing myself in the mirror. its clear. its also the ship that super got me into rain world so its special to me.

FISHTICKS v GODMODE i know everyone ships fishsticks. i just dont care about it. spearmaster is too exasperated for me i could only ever use it as a gag. godmode on the other hand is everything to me. these 2 are definitely echoes. theyre also definitely divorced extremely badly. but see artihunter; they have to be married first.

SURVULET v CHERRYBUSH hunters death karma and aggression with saints karma drain and pacifism is so intriguing and enamoring to me. and the name is also very cute. i imagine saint as very pretentious religiously and i imagine it preaching aggressively at hunter in its time of weakness. i imagine a sort of softness not traditionally born from the situation worming its way into both of their hearts with hunters short time on the earth as hunter the slugcat and saints continual treading. and. need i say; survulet is Nothing.

SPEARNIGHT v MONKSAINT monk is as ever nothing to me. spearnight is fun because i think they look the same, and i imagine them both very reserved. but its more of "the one i dont care about slightly less" situation again

NIGHTSAINT v MONKVULET voted for this one because i think nightcat and inv are the same guy so read godmode. genuinely surprised anyone ships monkvulet because, say it with me guys. monk is nothing to me

BATHBOMB v SPEARSAINT imagine the energy with bathbomb! spearmaster and saint are both so placcid its not so interesting. but imagine the shenanigans with riv and arti. i dont super care but they are funny to me, mostly i love the name

SAINTMAND v PAPRIKA GOURMAND AND SAINT ARE DAD ENERGY TO ME Like socks and sandals and shorts sitting on the porch energy to me. paprika is nothing ive seen before so i do not care.

thank you. goodnight.

[oneaneonly]

it actually.. never occurred to me if they end their life then me, and by extension rest of us, never get to say goodbyes either. i never left a note. or anything like that. i dont have anyone to leave it to. nothing in life really matters to me. i feel like, if i had to write Anything to anyone itd be j***. for keeping them… alive? being kind to them even when i and no one else was

i had a rough start. i dont know why i was the way i was. we theorize i learned how to treat them from how the world treated them, but i dont know. when i first got here i was fuck lack of better word a dick. i hated them. i think? i dont know but i was angry. i used to physically beat them up and theyd run away to j*** so scared because of me and that was the only one who could protect them. they didnt make the connection about systems but just knew someone inside of them was beating them up. it was scary because where do you hide? j*** didnt like me for a long time, understandably, because of how i was treating someone they loved. and i was scared of what theyd do to me

i think i discovered guilt (?) but i have spent so long, years now, trying to be different. i dont want to hurt them. and after 2022 i realised how painful it is living in their life. i dont want to say i pity them because they wont like it but its… rough. its insane to live like this. since then ive tried to make their life easier, stand up if applicable, because no one else has and ever will. it sure seems so.

j*** i have an unmoving appreciation for. thats the only person i can trust to handle them with tact and the caution they desire. they are unwavering with their love and, for the first time in their life, they genuinely trust j***. as close as they can get to it i guess.

all that to say… i know i was bad. i know im not really good. i dont have all these emotions like care and empathy and whatever else, i just dont care about most things, im angry sometimes and indifferent always. maybe sometimes im fascinated and elated. theres a lot in this world to see. i think part of me wishes i knew more. but i dont care enough

thank you to those who tried and a big fuck you to those who didnt. im not the gentle one they are and i dont care. fuck you to everyone who put them here. theyll say its their fault but id have half the mind to list every one of you shit stains off by NAME if i didnt worry about their best interests and how itd affect them safety wise. but fuck you. this should be you. you should be the one hunched over in pain. you should be the ones not eating meals because YOU dont deserve it. YOU should be the one cutting yourself with a tape blade for repentance. YOU should be the one planning running away everyday of your life. you should be planning suicides. you should be battling two personality disorders. i dont want to write a kind note because now i realise i have nothing nice to say. fuck you all. fuck all of you. i hope its you instead. that, in death, would make me feel good as fuck

they love their parents, j***, the two people they talk to. anyone else? who am i to say it wasnt about you. see you in hell

an and puri and i dont get along well but i am willing to write notes for them here too, if they wish

[welcometomypersonalhell098]

i dont usually post but this is the rare occurrence where I can dump about my boy, my love: FLOYD LEECH. Consider this the unofficial crashcourse to Floyd Leech likers. Or don't idk. warning for uh absolute word vomit and octatrio favoritism

1. His Dynamics (and by that I mean octatrio)

With Azul:

When Azul said the twins would probably leave him when he got ‘boring' in Chapter 3, I need us as a fanbase to collectively point at him and call him a BIG FAT LIARRRR. I know what I saw in chapter 3, and Floyd Leech—while not exactly a tactful person per se— CARES. Even when Floyd teases Azul and makes life harder for him, I’m pretty sure that’s just his love language. And!! Despite his teasing, Floyd really does have some respect for Azul’s magical strength as seen in the Beanfest event.

He goes through all the ‘boring’ stuff for Azul and Jade’s plots because he likes the fun results!! He calls them by their ACTUAL names. They’ve been together since like middle school, and someone as mercurial as Floyd hasn’t gotten sick of Azul? It means he definitely has a bigger attachment that he OR Azul would like to admit. They are besties that hate to admit it because of the NRC disease of Not Being Emotionally Vulnerable Ever ™

Like look at these drama queens they are having the time of their LIVES.

With Jade:

I mean, yeah, it would make sense these guys would be close as twins BUT their dynamic is so fun. Jade's more "polite" demeanor plays off of Floyd's chaos perfectly: giving the guise of a put-together brother always needing to reign in his twin's insanity. When really both of them are menaces to society.

Probably the best example is in the Glorious Masquerade event, where Floyd makes a tantrum after finding out Azul gets to go to Noble College. And Jade JOINS IN.

(credits to RoseAmber on YT for the screenshots: I hadn't fallen into my TWST fixation as hard with the event was out on the EN server o7)

And of course, it goes without saying that they make for a really scary team for Azul. God bless Miss Yana and the team behind the Octavinelle manga--they have my soul and then some.

BUT THEY ARE ALSO GOOFY ASF and i love that for them

2. His Character

And there is a LOT of it. So let's start with his design!

(sorry about the long image </3) BUT you can definitely tell a lot about him with this official pic

for one: he's definitely relaxed. It's definitely in his pose: the hand holding the hat up, the other in his pocket, and in his posture. As opposed to say, Riddle who stands ramrod straight, this is NOT the image of a guy that cares too much about what people think of him. he has his own style and he flaunts it. He's had lines where he talks about his octopus inspired socks and his thing for fancy shoes-- he could not care LESS about his loose clothes either much to Azul's chagrin.

ALSO this is way less concrete but like...his face matches his voice wayyy too well. Credit to the VO: Nobuhiko Okamoto (fun fact also the voice of BAKUGO FROM MHA???) for his voice especially his laugh. Something about the way his eyes are droopy and his sharp teeth are shown in the image?? That's a silly guy, right there. And his laugh is just the right amount of weirdly endearing and creepy it is absolutely wonderful.

Now, in terms of personality...

We all get it. He's a menace. In his Ceremonial robes and Lab Wear SRs, he definitely shows his flip-floppy nature. In the former, he's fucking around at one of Kalim's parties and in the latter he is subject to one of Adeuces' fuck ups--and surprisingly doesn't hunt them for sport after (yay!). It's his thing.

But!!! There's other things!! :D

Among the rest of the Octavinelle trio, Floyd is probably the most acclimated to land life. Even more than Jade, despite his love for the mountains and mushrooms. Because Floyd has the unique trait of just fucking throwing himself at anything and everything the human world has to offer. We know from the Stargazing Event that Floyd has a thing for high-end shoes from a conversation he had with his (mafia??) father. Despite his initial boredom with fashion in general, it feels very 'Floyd' for him to be fixated on the one item that is intrinsic to living on land: shoes.

He's also canonically really good at cooking...when he wants to be. Like all other things in his life, he tends to be flippant with when he feels like making a meal. But damn when he DOES. For example, during Culinary Crucible Sebek admits that Floyd is very skilled in the kitchen. (If anybody has his CC card....and would like to share with the class his vignette....wink wink nudge nudge). And in the most recent event: Stitch's Tropical Turbulence in the EN server he's seen making a delicious meal for the crew that everyone can't help but compliment: even RIDDLE. He also says its best when you "just wing it" and throw stuff together: which makes sense for his taste for weird takoyaki flavors. Jade has said before that in the Coral Sea they just kind of eat shit raw--which makes it pretty impressive Floyd has such a knack for cooking as a land-dweller activity.

I think it's been said that generally merfolk have a bad time with flight--which extends to the Octatrio. I believe there's been vignettes that focus on Azul's struggles in P.E., though I'm not so sure about Jade. What I AM sure is that chibi Jade is constantly going through it in flight lessons so, I'll take that as gospel for now. But!!! Floyd has a fucking blast. It's definitely not like he's a prodigy or anything but, he thinks it's fun to keep trying ("Haha! I'm like, so bad at this!") Which honestly is why my headcanon is that he is the ONLY of the Octatrio to not be failing P.E.. This also extends to his involvement of the basketball club.

For a merperson to adjust to walking on land is already a crazy ask. TO ASK THEM TO PLAY AN ENTIRELY NEW SPORT THAT RELIES ON NEW RULES, PUTTING INTO ACCOUNT PHYSICS ON LAND AND OH YEAH THEIR LEGS IS INSANE.

But, Floyd Leech does not care what you think is insane. Actually, maybe he does. Just so he can do it. To top it all off: he's good. He can be really good. Club Wear stuff hasn't come out yet in EN server but Floyd Leech can fucking DUNK. I've seen the art. I know what I saw.

His diligence can rival Azul's--he's just less consistent about it. I just think that's funny and pretty cool.

3. Him,,,,,,but like romantically

OKAY SO THIS IS THE PINING PART. THE DOWN BAD MANIFESTO IF YOU WILL.

Sorry it took so long to get here, but I'm here now. Lemme absolutely YAP about what I love about him.

I have some feelings about how authors write him (THIS IS ALL OPINION I LOVE ALL FANFIC AUTHORS ESP OP U DESERVE A KISS ON THE FOREHEAD <3)

I dislike the yandere/overly possessive angle the twins get. I do. But, I get where that interpretation stems from: they're outwardly violent, intimidating, and are basically the fish mafia. Focusing on Floyd though: I love it when he's just....a guy in fics. When he is complaining about his childhood-best-friend-turned-boss who scolded him, or when he gets excited when his crush goes to his basketball games, or when he just wants to SQUEEZE the cute person in his class because he's got cuteness aggression. Fluff, I just like fluff.

OOO OOO FICS THAT LEAN INTO THE "Eels are Cowards" LINE. MY HEART AND SOUL. THEY HAVE IT. Gonna give Jade a big fat kiss for saying that line BC GOOD GOD.

GIMME FLOYD WHERE HE IS STARING AT THE READER FROM ACROSS THE ROOM BC HE DOESN'T HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY WHAT HE FEELS. GIMME FLOYD WHERE HE STARTS TO CALL THE PREFECT BY THEIR NAME INSTEAD OF "SHRIMPY" EXCLUSIVELY. GIMME FLOYD WHERE HE WANTS TO IMPRESS HIS LOVE INTEREST AND GETS EMBARRASSED WHEN HE LOOKS "UNCOOL".

I love where Floyd gets moments where he is caught off guard. Not even necessarily flustered. SHOUT OUT TO @cloudedgalaxies on Ao3 AND Tumblr for one of my FAVORITE interpretations of this.

I love it when Floyd doesn't know what to do when someone actively seeks him out. He's a moray--he's known to be feared by even the creatures of the deep. People at NRC know to be wary of him and his brother: he's basically a hitman for Azul for Seven's sake. But, for some reason, Yuu don't mind it. And I mean that in the sense to refer to the prefect and YOU. I love it when the reader puts up with his squeezes, his mood swings, and his eccentricities. Because for them, it isn't "putting up" with anybody: it's just them spending a good time with Floyd. And that's not a response Floyd expects. HE'S the one who is supposed to be unpredictable! Not you!

So he gets quieter. More reflective. Maybe even more angry. Whyyy???? Why do you do that? Your unpredictability robs Floyd of his control. He likes to toy with people for their reactions, but he is wholly unprepared for yours. And that makes him flail. In @cloudedgalaxies ' fic 'Benevolent Souls', Floyd gets angry with the reader. He can't understand their motivations and that bothers him in a way that he can't even understand completely. Love is foreign to him. The sea is cruel and cold sometimes, even though Floyd loves it it can crush your vulnerability. It really can.

I love it when fics make Floyd love. Even if he didn't think he could. I love it when fics show Floyd's softness that he didn't even know he had. I really do: because he throws himself into loving like he does everything else he thinks is worth it. I LOVE when he thinks love is worth it. He's intense, and wild, and unpredictable, and he's so silly. I love Floyd Leech. I do.

🐙 — AUBURN'S SUMMER RAFFLE EVENT!

rules for entry !

1) reblog this post and list something you love about your favorite twisted wonderland character!! gush about them!! yearn!! PINE!! you can get as mushy as you want, we love to see it!! 2) understand that each prize will be a sfw piece, with no ocs or self inserts (since i dont know how well i'll be able to write them.) 3) understand that raffle entries will start june 16th and end june 30th. winners will be announced after the event ends on july 1st. prizes will be awarded as i complete them. 4) understand that absolutely no incestuous, pedophilic, or other "problematic" relationships will be accepted as a request. if you win and request something as such, your prize will be revoked and someone else will receive it.

prizes !

1st place . . . a 2000 word (minimum) x reader fic with any character(s), tropes, aus, relationship(s) you want. 2nd place . . . a 1000 word (minimum) x reader fic with any character(s), tropes, aus, relationship(s) you want. 3rd place . . . a 500 word (minimum) x reader drabble with any character(s), tropes, aus, relationship(s) you want.

if enough people apply, i will consider adding a 4th & 5th prize . . .

4th & 5th place . . . a 300 word (minimum) x reader drabble with any character(s), tropes, aus, relationship(s) you want.

if you have any questions, please let me know in the comments <3

[doyouevenshipbr0]

on s4 of my legend of korra rewatch and im still not rockin with asami im sorry

imo she is SO boring and somehow is a perfect combination of wasted potential mixed with being borderline completely unnecessary

and also in regards to her relationship with korra i think it is so flat. and it doesnt even have to be!!! they could have been SO interesting! but no they are so bleh to me

btw i havent read the comics and ive heard really great things about her and korra’s relationship so i’ll just take everyones word for it and i understand a lot of her and korra’s lack of chemistry in the show has to be chalked up to the writers not being able to do much bc its nickelodeon and i get that!

i just feel like 90% of the time when shes a point of focus (which is hardly ever btw. circling back to that “unnecessary” part) i just wanna YAWN. in s4 she has an interesting arc w her father but up until that point she just felt like such a filler person that i did not give a fuck about this suddenly interesting storyline! the show did not make me care ab asami so no im not gonna all of a sudden care after 3 seasons of blah!

i know im being a hating ass bitch but i just feel really strongly ab this.

i will say, in general i think the legend of korra struggles with keeping up w their characters and giving them relevant storylines while also keeping their relationships in tact so it would make sense that they all are still friends. like idk there were lots of times where i was like “ok mako and bolin being here/doing this is a stretch”. and i just feel this way the strongest w asami.

i think if atla didnt do this SO perfectly then it wouldnt seem as bad in tlok. but in atla i cannot think of a single time where any characters’ storylines or interactions w one another felt forced. it all felt so natural.

not even gonna tag the legend of korra bc i feel like ppl rly love asami and i dont wanna necessarily go out of my way to piss ppl off lol

[bandaidcrybaby]

update for the archival reasons of this blog, part 2

im sure youre shocked to know that tumblr has a character limit. I myself didnt find this out until part of me started running her mouth at 2 am before subsequently deciding i had lost my collective mind and decided to do the Correct Thing and Go To Bed.

Not like i actually found that out then and there, mind you, i exist to write code and read maps and be Autistic about Squids and Hamsters, I had to find out when that other part finally decided to let the rest of my brain know on her own free will. again. memory loss is one of the two cleanly defining features of DID. That brings up two things though, my nearly next to impossible dual diagnosis (that i was ALSO not aware of) and my gender. Autism and trauma disorders mimic eachother and effect eachother in similar ways. except no they do not, that's just a reflection on the societal inability to NOT raise a traumatized autistic person. which is ass. Unfortunately when half of your trauma around schooling stems upon you being made a public spectacle/example of to be laughed at and physically beaten in that same public setting for your social ineptitude, extreme sensory problems, and incessant need to talk at length about nothing but a nigh encyclopedic knowledge of exactly two things: pre-2005 Japanese video games for Children, and Trains... yeah. that was... I'm a little surprised no one clocked the Autism earlier, frankly. and then theres my gender, which is quite simple: My pronouns are I/Me/Myself. Everything else is a You Problem. Gender is silly and I am a silly goose. Animal Control will not catch me and even if they do, I'm still their problem without a single solution. Go ahead! put me in the woods! The fish will come back pregnant!! Speakin of, I finally have approximate Dates for both removing my ability to get pregnant AND getting my tits off (both by the end of this year :D!) "doesnt that make you a trans guy?" some nurses ask- again. see the beginning of this paragraph. I am who you say I am, to quote Jesus the Christ. my gender is yes, no, sometimes, and forget about it. I dont need one. None of my parts Identify much differently to that (one says "it changes to the tune of the bit, I identify as whatever is funniest for the moment," one says "I'm a man in the dyke way and a woman in the faggot way", and the last says "I'm six and like the toys for boys. I'll get back to you when I care enough to have a real answer." ) Oh also I've learned how RSS and all sorts of code works. Which is neat! and Fun! and i've gotten super into turning off my computer!!!! and going outside!! and playing! and enjoying the sunlight! and people!! the world is great and beautiful and im so so so glad im in it!!! I'm so glad squids are real!!!!!! "Squids" being community and love and art and color and city metros and world cultures and and and!!!!!!!! I have so much love in my heart. I'm not afraid to tell anyone how much I love them anymore. I have found True Peace. Also the desperate need for a functional wheelchair to combat the actual things severely medically wrong with me and to go back to work because I need to actually submit my production order for those shirts before AB in late march. Thank you all for reading. I'm glad to be where I am and for anyone who feels lost and stranded and is finding even a little comfort in the posts i made in college, I love you, I see you, It will get better- but you need to try. This blog will remain up and in-tact for archival purposes only <3

[xaracosmia]

ꕥ — WELCOME TO MARE COSMIA, MEI. 🌗

ꕥ — OOC INFORMATION;

name / alias: monis age: 24 pronouns: she ooc contact: _yyxy other characters in xc: none

ꕥ — IC INFORMATION;

name: mei age: 18 pronouns: she/her series: oc canon point: pre finding eden my webcomic app triggers: cult mention

personality:

mei is someone who doesn’t seek validation from others. it’s a surprising thing considering her occupation–an idol. she is sure of who she is as a person, and truly believes she can do no wrong. admitting to her wrongs isn’t something she’s used to, and apologizing is foreign to her. that’s not to say that she won’t do it, she will, only after being scolded by her older brother for an hour straight.

she speaks her mind and tries to be as honest about her feelings, even if they hurt someone’s in return. when you’re surrounded by lies and deceptions from a young age you kind of want to just be upfront about everything. mei has no tact and has no filter. but she knows to keep her mouth shut when it’s time to work. she’ll speak her mind no problem in front of friends but the second the cameras start rolling she becomes the definition of “once in a lifetime idol”

if she likes you it will be obvious. she’s the type of person to show her clear bias, to take the side of someone even if they’re clearly in the wrong. there’s loyalty there and it’s not the easiest to earn with mei. there’s no “i dont trust anyone” spiel from her, she’s just the type of person to only stay loyal to those she likes. and depending on her mood she can like a variety of personalities. and hate them.

as nasty as her personality may be, mei does have kindness in her heart. she’s someone who will go out of her way to help those in need without asking for a reward. i wouldn’t call her a tsundere exactly, if she likes you she will be very obvious about it… but it’s more like she doesn’t care to put up a front. she’ll badmouth someone while handing another person cash for groceries. to her, kindness is expected of people and she doesn’t understand why some people don’t have an ounce of empathy for others. you can be annoyed by someone, you can dislike them but that doesn’t mean you have to be like that to strangers. that’s how mei views her attitude.

something your muse struggles with:

her arrogance. she’s an 18 year old girl who's always been spoiled by her older brother and suddenly rose to fame. she’s truly thinks she’s better than everyone.

setting her expectations on others too high. mei is easy to disappoint. she’s met terrible people and she knows how others can be yet mei is someone who is still so young and naive. she believes people can’t be all that bad.

impulsiveness. mei doesn’t think twice before making decisions, even extreme life changing ones.

your muse’s greatest strength:

loyalty. once mei likes you, she’s never gonna stop being loyal. only time she will ever stop is if you personally betray her.

taking charge. yes she’s 18, yes she’s still young buuut mei will try her hardest to take control in any situation.

never backing down. could be a fault too because it is a stubbornness, but mei views it as a charm point of hers. she will never backdown without a fight, and it’s why she’s a pretty assertive person.

history / background:

for as long as mei remembers, her only family were herself and her older brother (and cousin…). that’s all she will share and that’s all she will say. the place they lived in wasn’t of much importance, a church which worshiped humans and the ‘drop of eden’. it wasn’t a home for children to be raised in, but it was the only place that would shelter them and feed them. the days there were long but with her brother around it wasn’t all that bad. (what she will never understand is why they, aliens from another planet, worshiped some mere humans.)

mei didn’t have much care for it, but she was too young to leave so it was her only choice. it wasn’t until her older brother, yu, turned 18 that mei finally left the church (could she even call it that?) and finally lived with only her family. he did everything in his power to give her a ‘normal’ upbringing and it ended up with her being a bit spoiled. it was all fine and dandy…

let’s discuss ephira, their planet. a planet with a surface that can be called a ‘wasteland’ and several underground cave systems where the people live. their whole lives are spent underground, living in cities known for their never-ending nightlife. the muvu, animal-based aliens live there and thrive… hm, what else about ephira? oh yeah:

a society that focuses heavily on talent. apprenticeships are normalized and anyone who didn’t have a specific talent was seen as odd. because ephira is known for celebrities and entertainment the talents usually focus on that… and mei? didn’t really have one. she liked playing video games but she was far too trigger-happy to make it a career, and she wasn’t interested in hair to follow her older brother’s hairstyling footsteps.

mei just didn’t have much passion for anything. it wasn’t until one day a recruiter noticed her (finding eden equivalent of instagram) and asked her to audition. her older brother tried years ago to audition to one of those entertainment agencies, yet it never worked out in the end. mei? well it’s not like her life will be over if she was rejected. with that mindset she decided to try it out, for fun, to stave off boredom.

and then it all becomes a blur: she’s accepted, becomes a trainee, suddenly debuts with a bunny girl named pomf, starts rooming with pomf, starts flopping in sales and views and…

mei finds a human with red eyes outside her agency. they look scared and lost.. they clearly don’t belong here. she makes an impulse decision, she offers the human a place to stay. not her own, she can’t have someone living in a dorm with her, but her brother… he lives alone now, he needs a roommate.

maybe that human was goodluck. months after housing them with her older brother, mei and pomf found success with p.m. like crazy success, imagine being on the brink of disbandment and then suddenly your song is charting number one on all music charts around the universe.

powers / abilities:

to talk about mei’s powers we need to discuss what the muvu can do! all muvu, and any animal based alien in the finding eden world can have talent power. what is talent power? users have some specialization which they have become so skilled at that they are able to utilize the latent magical energy in the universe to super power their skill, and use it offensively (or to just do the thing they do, very well). usually takes the form of “upgrading” their “weapon” for the period of time that they can focus their energy.

because mei is an idol her talent is singing which means:

sonic scream: when mei focuses hard on her energy, she is able to let out an ear piercing scream. the more energy she consumes around the world (or in this case… from her necklace) the stronger her scream becomes and the more damage it can cause. like physical damage.

charm singing: it’s a rare sight to see muvu’s enhance their skill in multiple ways so this ability is still.. a bit of a work in progress for mei. while this isn’t an ability she uses at all, mei can hypnotize someone with her singing. currently she’s only able to hypnotize one person and it has to be uninterrupted, her singing cannot be disturbed the entire time.

how it works is that she has to be singing the commands out and the second she stops the charm also stops.

inherent abilities:

heightened senses: she’s a cat! really good hearing, sense of smell and sight! of course since she’s a cat she can also see in the dark.

items / weapons:

a friendship necklace: she matches with her human roommate and her brother! it’s just a normal necklace…. with a weird magical energy emanating from it. almost as if someone casted a spell on it…?

copies of her p.m albums: she has to show her music off somehow!

starting ability: none! shes gotta earn em

starting item: her friendship necklace!

extra:

she’s mean but like she’s cute it’s fine.

she will type super cutely! it’s not her putting up a front, that’s like just how she talks online.

ignore her backstory…. she will honestly never tell anyone she was raised in a church. it’s cringey to her.

toxic gamer girl. gaming would be her talent but then she got into music.. she does have a passion for music now but before it was just for “funsies”.

yu (retired npc) is her older brother! she loves him but also gets annoyed by his silly antics.. and his relationships.

not much of a fighter but she’s pretty strong from working out alot. beats yu in arm wrestling.

5’0.

a lesbian!! will flirt with guys for fun but also will be like “ok lol stop im a lesbian i just liked the attention”

a troll

discord id: toxiccatgirl

[too-many-paper-cranes]

im going to vent some anger that i know is mostly irrational here rn. if you dont want to read that then turn back now, and please dont judge me too hard for what im going to say, but i havent been able to articulate it in a vent to any of my friends, and i just need to try to get it out, because it's lived in the back of my head for over a year now

june or july or something of 2022 was fucking awful and i remember the moment i was scrolling througb discord trying to fucking find something to take my mind off things and i clicked on some rando in hkmain's profile and their status was something along the lines of "RIP technoblade and RIP schy" and that fucking set me off. i never talked abt it, or expressed my anger to anyone else, but that made me cry so fucking hard. that was one of the trigger points but not the reason it was the amount of people i saw expressing condolences, but had only heard of schy and didn't really have a clue who they were. and it showed in a unique way you would only see in a parasocial relationship between someone who is a fan of an acquaintance of them. it feels different when you say "i lost a close friend" and someone says "im so sorry for your loss" and when you say "i lost a close friend (who was a speedrunner)" and someone who barely skimmed the leaderboard once goes "wait, schy died??? it's so horrible that the world would take such a talented person away" actually no shut the fuck up. the amount of people i saw like this over and over and over at the height of my fucking grief. do you care about the person they were? do you only care because they had a wr or something? shut up. shut up shut up shut up you didn't know them. you think you knew them because they were cool and superhuman to you but they werent and they were barely even appreciated for the person they were and they always felt that. and i am so pissed at any single thing that ever made them sad for a moment of their short life. you called them a "TAS" "WR grinding machine" or whatever the fuck but did you call them kind? caring? hardworking, smart? no the fuck you didn't because you didn't see them as a person. that's my friend you're talking about. fuck you. a few days ago someone replying to a comment i made on some other runner's channel asked me "how did he die". you don't even know their pronouns. you don't even know who they are. the video talks abt their runs but doesn't talk abt them. you learned nothing from this video and your first thought isn't "im so sorry" or to appreciate anything i said abt them as a friend but to misgender them and blatantly ask me to describe what happened. no tact, no sympathy nothing. do you have absolutely no shame? how about it's none of your fucking business? shut up. let them be a person. i asked fire to remove the comment and he did (thank you fire) but despite that little moment ending well i am still pissed and so tired. the insensitive words are gone forever but how many more will replace them now? how much more shit like this am i going to have to see? i don't want people to stop talking abt them i want them to be remembered forever and ever but not like this. this isn't what they wanted. this isn't what i want. im tired. fuck you.

[urban-unease]

Interview with the Vampire Thoughts!

Spoilers Abound!

After a second, drunker viewing of the pilot, here be my drunk thoughts. More sober thoughts may or may not come. IDK:

When I first saw the shots of Lestat at dinner with Louis' family a few days ago I immediately thought about all the ways smart writers could convey this scene. My favorite idea was if the writers conveyed Louis' family as almost immune to Lestat's charms. It would make so much sense! As a black person, I can say that groups of black folks are not easily won over by white people no matter how supernaturally charming lol. The bar is high for us to let our guard down particularly when a white person you dont know is in your personal space. I love that ultimately even Lestat could recognize that Louis' family was not having it and was not the least bit amused by him.

It's amusing and concerning to me how many people don't know/understand that the "French White" thing is not a IWTV specific thing. I mean this EXACT joke was in a Wanda Sykes special a few years ago.

Lestat is a "I'd vote for Obama a third time" kind of white and this very appropriate for his character.

I've seen complaints about the show talking about Louis' blackness too much and I'm just ?????? I mean, he's telling the story of his life and what it was like to live at that time, so yeah he's gonna talk about the hardships of being black at that particular time. It's the only the first episode and their setting the stage. and lestat is a tactless bitch so of course he's bring up Louis' race in the most grating way possible lol. It's a dog whistle y'all. don't fall for it.

I'll be honest - I never understood what was so special about Book!Louis that Lestat was so obsessed with him. But here I totally get it! Show! Louis is a gay black man out of place, in the margins, struggling to make a life for himself. He has these hidden depths that he cant share with anyone, like his gay identity and his love of the opera. An Jacob Anderson is so captivating. It makes sense to me that Lestat would want him as a companion.

Along these lines - the main reason why Book!Lestat is so attracted to Louis is because he reminds him of his ex. So does this mean show!Nicki is going to be Black? That could be interesting, but also fetishistic and weird on Lestat's part if it's not handled well.

On the note of tact - I dont expect to show to be some thoughtful and deep mediation on race. They're trying....but you know....white people....At the end of the day this a trashy show about vampires and I'm fine about that.

The levitating "sex" scene was vey silly and not as a erotic as I thought it was gonna be (though it was very fun). It was just a gay naked cuddle in the air. To call it a sex scene is hella reaching. But I appreciate the show getting weird.

that being said I want a proper sex scene because it would be an incredible waste of the chemistry between these very hot actors not to have them bone.

Daniel's personality feels on point to me. This feels like the same sassy guy that called Armand an immortal idiot. IDK

Louis' modern apartment feels accurate to his personality. He's one of the view vamps that doesn't care that much about aesthetics and I think the show did a good job of designing a home for him that combines luxury with austerity (I know that doesnt make sense but I cant think of the word right now). Its a cold gray cinder block with gray and wood furnishing. there are pops of red and gold here or there but ultimately it feels like a largely empty space only filled with the most necessary furnishings and space decor.

Grace is wonderful and adorable

rip to Lily. a real one.

I dont think Lestat pushed Paul to suicide. I think Lestat is just classless lol

The show does not do a good job of setting the stage for New Orleans culture for an audience that might be unfamiliar. IDT that Louis' thinking that Lestat's powers are just tricks is that weird when you consider that New Orleans has long been a hot bed of voodoo, witchcraft, and supernatural happenings. New orleans is a place where someone like Marie Laveau could make a name for herself in society as a Voodoo practitioner. It wasn't uncommon for folks of all classes to turn to magic for help with illness, love, and other life matters.

A big mainstream show that dresses and lights black people well - what a concept!

I have more thoughts but my hands are tired 🙃