#like the way Lily recovers herself in this EP

[psalmsofpsychosis]

Maybe it's simple Maybe it's quiet Maybe your soft self acceptance Is a rebellious riot

Maybe it's time Who'll one day be your friend Maybe it's temperance Who'll love you most in the end

Maybe your heartbreak Doesn't mean that it's over Maybe your empty bottle Doesn't mean you need to get sober

Maybe one day you will listen To the small voice in your head Not the one that berates you But the one who calls you friend

Maybe you'll go to a movie Maybe you'll go to a show And maybe your resurgence Is the greatest triumph that you'll know

Maybe you'll be special Even just in your own eyes And maybe when you're dying Is when you'll feel most alive

Broken isn't over And empty's not alone Breaking is for people Who want to meet their soul

Maybe you'll be different Even just this time around And maybe you'll feel better Maybe you'll be found

Maybe it's all over Maybe it ended long ago Maybe the seconds that you're counting Are the greatest living show

Maybe your voice is playing In some far off galaxy Oh my God you are spectacular I wish that you could see

Maybe it's alright That you didn't pass the test That you're some unusual creature Some mangled beast at best

But maybe you are perfect And the earth loves you still Maybe you're her greatest achievement Her greatest attraction on the bill

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 3 - “Seaux my tribe sucks” - Karen

I know I just said this, but damn, I'm goin to say it again!! FUCK SAM IN THIS GAME.... SHE CAN GO.... I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR HER FAKE ASS ANYMORE.... SHE LOST ME 100%... AND LOSING ME AS AN ALLY WILL ONLY HURT HER IN THIS GAME!!!

okay who the FUCK do i have to fight to avenge nicky getting rocked out????????????????

Well i survived! This is a lot for me I dont know how i survived a tribal in the pacific island series. So here is were I think things Stand. Me and Stevie are good with each other, Gage and Billy are obviously together because of teriyaki sauce. Brandon voted for me no surprise there. Andrew is like never on but he is with me and Stevie. and Kevin I think now that Lily is gone will be with me possibly. I wanna see if me and Stevie can go with Billy & Gage so that they dont think about getting with Kevin & Brandon and killing us.

I highkey still think it's me.

Oh fuck Sam.... She's digging herself in a fkn hole with me. Our tribe better win fkn immunity..... Because if not I am worried! I NEED TO STAY! FUCK!

sam has been being really fake to rhea about not voting rhea even tho ashleys got screenshots so me Ashley & rhea are really close and if we go to tribal we need 1 more which we are trying to get Gabriel to vote with us so if we go to tribal tonight sam is probs going which I'm ok with

So Jose gave me my idol which was like rightfully mine with some convincing. I played my idol and poor Karen got rocked out because that dumb bitch Rhea didn't vote punpun with us. I basically hate everyone except Jose, I'm just going to have to do good in the challenges so I keep going to exile because I'm in the minority rn. I mean I got 4 votes bye. The good thing coming out of this is now Rhea doesn't trust Sam and now me Jose and Rhea are a thing. We're trying to get Gabriel to possibly flip.

So um most likely will be fucked up later tonight because my dumb ass won't get home till 7:30 and if this was regular challenge or even on a nonbusy day I would be able to play the challenge but I played myself and it's probably gonna be going home. The one good thing is that I'll be able to be reunited with Nicky!!!! But otherwise yikes

to quote my friend Andrew "snake is very depressing they have to give him mice that won't fight back so he won't bite himself" and I was like "accurate." also snakes do not work like this and snakes can easily avoid biting themselves, breaking your snake's neck is clearly another way to lose. and a revelation I really realized you have to have a super steady hand for this game, and because of my autism I can't stay still to save my life. so if anyone is wondering why I suck at everything so much that's why.

me when the hosts say tonight is an instant tribal for whoever loses: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guys, did you plan to use this challenge BEFORE or AFTER casting Sam, because honestly, I can't tell the difference between the two of them. 

I love how Katie and I had a mini competition to see who could get the best score. She comes out with 5350 and she's like "beat that!" and I'm like "lol k hold on" and whip out a 7150 20 minutes later. I love competition.

I’m really glad the past 2 immunity challenges although flash games have had tiny db functions so that I could save my high score just incase it ever comes into question that I cheated- which I have been accused of in the past.

So I noticed that Nicky submission for immunity......DEFINITELY speculating another twist like yurei. This game may have just become so much more ugly

Not to sound full of myself or overdramatic because I would never be those things but my mini-challenge-redemption arc in the span of like an hour was iconic and I know it probably had no influence on the challenge results at all but I'm gonna pretend I #that. So um good news is Samantha the queen is safe tonight I believe, and honestly the whole Kyaal tribe or whatever is full of icons but I hope it's like ashley bc idek her. I think I managed to recover things with Brandon. He's paranoid again this time about being in the minority but as far as I know he's safe because there's no alliance. Andrew and I both agreed that Gage has been kinda shady. According to Andrew Gage played a shady floater game in Hawaii, and it looks like old habits die hard because Gage was the swing vote at the first tribal council. Do I hypothetically want him out next tribal? ...Maybe. I don't know if it's possible, so that's the problem. I want Andrew and David and I think I want Brandon as well, but it's hard to keep all the people I want together when they don't necessarily want each other. So idk. It's hard to plan ahead in the case of swaps and whatever, but if I had to choose someone to eliminate in a heartbeat I'd choose Gage.

Anyway seaux my tribe sucks, not one challenge beast on our tribe? Interesting The vote is gonna be 3-3 hopefully, 3 votes for Jose and 3 for me and hopefully pun and gabs don't flip on me and hopefully we can scare Rhea into flipping I have a trick up my sleeve to sway her if it does tie. And we go to rocks? Then good for me bc then I'm safe seaux :~) 

So, I have made my choice. This could cost my game moving forward, but it seems like smartest move for MY game right now. It'll piss people off, and possibly puts me on the bottom, BUT, I think I can make it past this. I can't risk rocks. I can't be Jessica, I just can't. :/ Had she just switched her vote to Hannah.....,