#like the thing people seem to complain about the most of tiktok. where it sucks you in and ruins your attention span watching for hours

[accursedthing]

People on here love to post vines and say "tiktok can't do this 😏" and then none of the vines are even funny anymore

[peacelykerockets]

Out of Touch Millennials or Boomer Minded Millennials

When I was younger I made a promise to myself to not become like old people who go on and on about "kids these days", it has become a thing that I stay conscious of until this day and I try hard to not become the old man yelling at the clouds. As steeped as my mind was in youth culture in my teens to mid 20s one thing I always hated to hear is how my generation's music, the media we consumed, and our attitudes were all bad or didn't measure up to older generations. As a millennial who could probably be considered a prototype for a lot of what's considered stereotypical Gen Z behavior (weird music, "terminally online", socially awkward behavior, leftist ideals) I was not the common millennial, at the time in my late teens and early 20s I thought I was, but I was probably further from what would be considered an NPC/Normie millennial as possible, and so were a lot of people on Tumblr in the early 2010s. Being on this site back then shaped me in a lot of ways.

What I hate to see though is now a bunch of miserable millennials constantly waxing nostalgic and stuck in the past ready to pass the buck to a new generation for all the problems, scapegoating. As said I remember when boomers and Gen X wouldn't pass up the chance to tell us the music we listened to wasn't real music or paled in comparison to what they grew up with, or how video games were a waste of time despite the fact that these same people were glued to some TV for multiple hours of a day. That were soft, entitled, and had no future, sound familiar? It saddens me that some millennials have decided to pick up that baton and run with it and now we have to constantly hear about how Gen Z's music sucks, how video games these days are worse than the ones we grew up with, how these kids dress weirdly, how it's bad to be on TikTok all day.

What also gets me is just how out of touch some millennials are to a point where it sounds like a lot of us have stepped out of cryosleep from the 2000s like the 2010s never happened. They sound straight up like boomers, sometimes more boomer than boomers. I hear and read so much dumb stuff that I want to roll my eyes back so hard until the damn stalks break. Trash like "MTV DOESN'T PLAY MUSIC VIDEOS ANYMORE!!!" Like we haven't heard that repeated over and over again. What's even the use of MTV playing music videos when we've had YouTube since 2005? And even if MTV started playing music videos again it would be all that Gen Z music that certain millennials love to sit around a complain about. Dumb stuff like bring back TRL (which already happened and flopped in 2017) when if a kid wanted to watch a music video it interact with their favorite artists these days they have YouTube and social media. Yes let's roll the clock back for a self centered nostalgia of a generation that can't give up the ghost.

What's also weird to me is how many of us millennials think we're still the youth, the kids these days despite the fact that older millennials are in their early 40s and the youngest of us in our early 30s or just about to be. I don't see anyone starting new in the music industry now who is my age (35), the most relevant artists are in their 20s, and this is something that seems to be the thing for every generation. Just using the music industry as an example but I don't think the industry is trying to sell to some near middle aged people. Sorry if as a millennial you blew your 20s or something and now living in a world that's on it's way to moving past us ass "the youth".

I read an article that explained that the Kendrick vs Drake thing as the last breath of millennial culture before we end up where Gen X was in the 2000s. I feel like that's true, like grasping at whatever vestiges of relevancy with who are arguably the two biggest most relevant rappers born in the years and are millennials. Try to co-opt Gen Z slang ironically and cheekily and trying to laugh it at the same time.

It's time to let it go, it's time to leave the kids alone and let them take the wheel because it's look like we're hitting the guard rails. I'm not saying you can't still have fun, I'm not saying go have kids settle down and be an adult, I'm not saying you can't still enjoy things from your youth and be youthful, but god damn stuff talking down on these as if the things we enjoyed and did out youth weren't also talked down by older generations. Please get with the times.

DON'T BECOME BOOMERS!

[mousegirlballs]

Me and my friends were talking last night about how tumblr is trying to copy other social media with the whole algorithm talks, and tumblr TV and the UI changes and all the other horrible ideas, but we came up with one idea we think they could steal from a social media and how to market it to @staff

(The ad to staff is in colors)

Flipnote Studio. (Or r/place but better)

So tumblr users would love to have flipnote and share it with other users. "It's like r/place but less toxic." Flipnote could also be stored with less file space then an image or video cause:

1. There's a max canvas size (this is important do not expand the canvas, we need to SEE the pixels.)

2. There's a max video length and frame rate. (You can mess around with changing the, as long as people can set their own frame rate between the minimum and maximum we're good. And the max video length can be anything you like.)

3. There's only so many colors (this is important don't change this.) Flipnote is centered around only having red, green, blue, black, and white. I don't think anyone would complain about 1-3 more being added, but it wouldn't look like flipnote if you could customize the colors. This is an advantage though cause the pixels could be stored in an 8-bit integer, or if you want to future proof for adding a couple more 16-bit.

This part of tumblr could have it's own separate tab where you explore only things made in it with simple categories like "most reblogs today" "most recent" "most reblogs all time" and then a tag search where you could sort by a combo of tags and the above three sorting systems.

People would like this more than the rip off of tiktok we currently have. If we didn't already have tumblrTV I'd honestly suggest it as a name for this though. The name isn't bad.

You could also call it something stupid like tumblrnote, or tumblr studio, or crab animation.

I used tumblrnote in the poll, but I'm partial to crab based names myself. Just seems to fit the theme of "we did something dumb, enjoy."

[golbrocklovely]

From what I'm seeing of the fandom today, it's the twitter fans who are in the outlier on this one. Everywhere seems to disagree with them on this issue or at least don't seem to think it is an issue worthy of anger yet. Reddit, multiple discords, instagram, FB, here on tumblr etcetc. In fact all these locations just seem frustrated and annoyed by the twitter stans if I'm honest, none of them are being particularly nice about them. (I think the big issue people seem to have with them is they always seem to be stirring up drama alongside the tiktokers and the Twitter stans have claimed to speak for the whole fandom which seems to have riled a lot of people up)

i don't want to have to repeat myself but i will, just bc i don't want ppl to misconstrued what i think lol

again, i don't want snc collabing with joe rogan either, bc that seems to be where a lot of ppl's contention are with them. understandable. i feel the same. joe rogan can suck my nonexistent left nut. that being said, we can't control snc. they obviously went on his show over a year ago at this point bc it was a business decision. a business transaction so that they can reach a wider audience. and then on top of that, his daughter was a fan, and of course they weren't gonna shoot down a chance to meet a fan just bc her dad's an asshole.

i personally don't believe that snc agree with everything joe has said over the course of his career just bc they went on his show. miley cyrus went on his show once, and she's left leaning, so i highly doubt she agrees with any of his takes. i think some ppl are able to compartmentalize who he is vs what his job is. some just see him as an interviewer, which is most likely how snc see him. i'm not saying it makes it right. i'm just stating the obvious.

and i think that is also where the issue lies: a lot of fans want snc to do the right thing at all times, with no nuance. you're either doing the right thing or you're a bad person. and a lot of ppl, myself included in some regard, don't see their decisions as that. it isn't black and white, but some beg to differ. and that's where problems arise.

but again, in a perfect world, snc wouldn't collab with anyone problematic. i would love for that to be reality. but it isn't.

on top of that, the twitter fandom has an issue of constantly calling snc out, or making a mountain out of a molehill, over things that aren't important. they are the boy that cried wolf for a lot of fans outside of that space. and as someone that is online and follows and pay attention to a lot of ppl that do have the loudest voices, it's hard to take their opinions seriously when every other week they find something else to complain about.

most of which, as of recently, has been about k and m and how they're annoying. or snc are annoying for not "telling us" or confirming they're dating the girls. and it's just like… who cares.

and i know, pot meet kettle. i know i'm one to talk. but i at least do it on a site where snc aren't at. and i know it's not meant to be taken seriously. and on top of that, i know i don't know the whole picture, and i'm not owed it either. but some of these fans, loud voice or not, take it too far. and it ruins the vibes. and that's why a lot of ppl are sick of it.

[torifloop]

i mean, yes that is the easiest thing to do - but you can also use OBS to stream digital art, which is what I do. Its actually easier to NOT use a camera for streaming, hell, I haven't even talked for most of my TumblrLive streams cause I'm just working.

I do use other sites for streaming actually! I've tried most places on the internet - Youtube is so bad, its so annoying to use; Tiktok is also kinda broken and just bad to use; Picarto is SO DEAD, there's no discoverability on there and its disheartening; don't use Kick.; Trovo doesn't seem to work for a US user? idk; Glimesh died but was nice; ; and finally Twitch, where I started and stayed Twitch is really predatory and bad and the company actively wants to steal the money you make and the money your viewers have - they don't care about their streamers, and refuse to even consult their Ambassadors (partners who extra care about Twitch and the community overall).

Twitch stream culture kinda really fucking sucks. You get rewarded for never shutting up, for having sound alerts that are super distracting, or some other engagement gimmick, there's plenty of people who come in to disrupt everything, if you don't have anything interesting to look at (avatar, facecam, nice overlay, whatever) people complain, viewers come in an expect to be praised for giving you less than a penny (bits)

You dont have to do that here! Streaming here is so NEW, it can still be shaped into whatever the hell the user base wants it to be! Thats pretty AMAZING! There could be artists using TumblrLive to showcase their work - streaming while working is easy advertisement for the artist - and what better place to draw your favorite fandom things than the place that's built on fandoms? Hell, I've been drawing my own ocs while streaming here and sitting at 30+ viewers; on Twitch, i'd get maybe 9 if I did my own oc crap and less if I was mute mic - and I depend on ad revenue there cause Twitch subs are a scam. Sure I'm not making money streaming here but I'm having far more of a relaxing time, getting more work done and I have my Ko-fi URL clearly visible on my stream, where 90% of my art is. (Ko-fi has already said they arent doing streaming anytime soon, if ever)

So yeah, i see something like TumblrLive and see a possibility for use a tool for good, to boost artists and creatives and to have fun. So many of you are seeing it only as annoying, which is driving away artists from potentially using it If we flood TumblrLive with creatives, artists and other media, it could be really FUN

(and yes, i reference artists a lot because I am one and most of my friends are. i don't get to talk with many writers or other creatives aside from digital artists and 3d modelers)

TDLR: Most other places to stream really suck, Twitch is pretty awful, Picarto is super dead, & TumblrLive could boost creators on this site but yall keep calling it trash and scaring away people who actually want to try it.

FIXING TUMBLR LIVE

i know yall love to hate on tumblr live, its some trendy thing to do rn I guess but there's a way to fix it, I promise if you're tired of all the "bots" or "not real tumblr users" (as I've seen them called), you can help!

Its called using Tumblr Live

HEAR ME OUT its not crazy hard to use - install OBS, add a screen/game/window capture source, start the OBS virtual camera. Then go to TumblrLive, hit GO LIVE and select the virtual camera and a mic (it only allows for one audio source atm, voicemod works well for me) ((official set up guide here)) It doesn't have to be pretty or cool, you don't have to have a vtuber model or whatever the fuck, it can just be plain and it'll work And then you do whatever the fuck you wanna do - draw, play video games, write, idk, WHATEVER! and the more people do this, the less "bots/not real users" we see, the better TumblrLive gets

Artists need somewhere to go, streaming is a GREAT way to advertise yourself as an artist - Picarto has no discoverability and a mainly artist userbase, Twitch is a nightmare, Youtube streaming is kinda awful too. TumblrLive could be great. It has a long way to go but its not impossible, I swear.

PRIVACY CONCERNS ... do you use Twitter, Google, Facebook, Instagram or literally any social media? Yes? Cool, TumblrLive isn't worse than any of those, in fact, it's LESS. it does track more than Tumblr itself, yes, but not more than everything else. More info here, cause someone did a deep dive, Privacy is near the bottom

[astranva]

TikTok Compilation (pt.2)

Word Count: 1.8k

Category: Fluff

Warning: Some language, very, very slight implied smut; like, it’s a line.

Summary: Yet another compilation of Y/N and Harry content on TikTok as a couple.

// masterlist //

a/n i’ve been receiving loads of tiktok requests so i combined some here! y’all have been asking for this for so long, sorry it took me long to post! let me know what you think. stay safe, friends!

..

Surely, you had hoped life would have taken a turn a long time ago with the pandemic.

Going outside without masks and crippling fear seemed like a dream, despite it all having been a reality for most of our lives. And while it was cliché, you truly don’t know what you have until it’s gone, like the boring routine you had complained about but now wished to get back.

And in your case, you also didn’t know that one app could have the ability to make things slightly easier during these times – TikTok.

Call it as you may, but quarantine TikTok content was a blessing and while you could swear by that, so could the fans and everyone else on the app since the moment you (and Harry) joined.

Having had tried so many pranks, challenges, and dances, you showed no signs of coming to an end of finding humor and pleasure from the app that Gen Z dominated with the wildest spirits.

With wild spirits, came wild content and for a generation that is openly expressive, there was also wholesome content; all of which Harry’s fans had tagged you to do and try with him.

‘Make your partner impersonate you’

For that one, Harry seemed to be the most excited to do, face beaming with a thousand spiraling ideas of things he could do and say.

The moment the video began, Harry was seen under your white covers, your pink velvet headband that everyone considered iconic rested on his head to show that he was acting like you, pretending to be sleepy as he spoke in a softer voice than his, “Don’t want to get up. More cuddles, please, baby.”

Then video then cut to Harry in the kitchen, you following behind him.

“I wonder where H is, need to pinch his bum.” He said in the same pitch he used for the previous shot.

The video then cut to Harry sitting on the couch beside you, holding his phone, “Baby, look at that!” He showed you his phone, showing you a video on TikTok, “Can we do it?”

‘Wipe your lips after your bf kisses you’

For this, you were picking Harry up from the studio.

Waiting in the parking lot, you had your phone placed behind the box of tissues.

To stay safe, you began recording a normal video for you to edit later as you waited for Harry to show.

When he did, Harry looked right and left as he searched for your car before his eyes fell on you and despite the mask on his face hiding half of it, you could tell that he smiled.

Getting inside the car, Harry took off his mask with a sigh, “First time to actually breathe since morning.” He said before leaning closer to you, pressing his lips against yours.

Doing your part, you looked ahead as you wiped your lips with the back of your hand, noticing Harry’s body stiff as he looked at you.

“Did you just-” He paused, “Did you wipe your lips?”

You hummed in confusion, acting as if you hadn’t heard him as you looked at him.

“Did you-Come here,” he frowned before pulling you close by your hoodie’s drawstrings, pressing his lips against yours in a kiss again.

Again, you wiped your lips.

“Why are you doing that?” He asked, not only confusion being evident in his tone, but hurt, too, “Why are you wiping my ki-Babe, I’m clean.”

“What?” You asked, looking at him as you smiled amusingly, trying to contain your laughter.

“Why are you wiping my kiss?” Harry almost whined, frowning.

“I’m sorry, it’s for TikTok,” you giggled, breaking into laughter when he groaned with a roll of his eyes before he grabbed your jaw, kissing your lips more aggressively.

“Never again.”

‘Let go of your partner’s hand and see what they do’

If there was one thing Harry liked to brag about, it was knowing how to multitask; drive with one hand, hold yours with the other.

It was a natural occurrence for the both of you to hold hands when he drove, no matter what.

Deciding to try that one trend, you took advantage of Harry being focused on the road to film your intertwined hands on your thigh for two seconds before taking your hand out of his.

Instantly, Harry glanced at you, seemingly unaware to you tilting your phone in the other hand to film his face, “Why’d you leave my hand?” He only mumbled before opening his palm towards you once again, smiling when he heard you softly giggle as you put your hand back in his, cooing when he raised it his lips, pressing a soft and gentle kiss on your knuckles, “This stays right here.”

‘Film yourself acting like your partner’

Since the TikTok of Harry acting you like received so many reactions, among them were fans asking you to act like Harry as well, and Harry was down to watch that happen.

Harry recorded you, first shot of video being a little shaky as he couldn’t contain his giggles while watching you in his flared pants, an oversized shirt, his cross pendant on your neck between the valley of your chest, rings on your fingers that showed chipped black polish on your nails.

Your hair was gathered up in a scrunchie, one leg over the other as you sat on a chair, “I’m Harry Styles,” you began, “And like, I never explain my music, I let people interpret it the way they want because music,” you sucked a breath, “Is art. It’s a form of expression that isn’t limited, it’s, like, very open. Like the ocean.” You said slowly, mimicking Harry’s accent and smiling at the end when Harry burst out laughing.

For the next shot, you were in Harry’s white bathrobe, coming out of the bathroom before leaning on the doorframe and looking at Harry as he filmed you, “You sure you’re going to let me shower alone, love?”

Another shot was of you in Harry’s joggers and TPWK black hoodie, sprawled on your couch with the hood on, looking at Harry in disbelief as you still mimicked his accent and deep voice, “Excuse me? Why are you standing there and not cuddling me?”

In a grey tank top of his that you dramatically spilt water on to make it look like sweat and sweat shorts, you had Harry’s boxing gloves on your hands as you bumped your fists together, approaching Harry as he recorded, “God, I’m so sweaty, I have to go hug my girlfriend.”

For the final shot, you had Harry’s guitar in your arms, adjusting the strap as you stood, “I’m going to write a song that is so sexual and record it but I’m not going to release it because I’m a biiiiiitch.” You sang, dramatically strumming the guitar.

‘Pretend to take a mirror selfie with your partner then whisper something dirty in their ear’

You enjoyed the sun; the way it sneaked inside yours and Harry’s room from the sides of your curtains, lit up the room so warmly.

You enjoyed how the natural lighting looked for pictures.

You also enjoyed teasing the shit out of your boyfriend.

“Come here,” you made one grabby hand at Harry who entered the room, scratching his chin, “Let’s take a picture.”

Already used to random pictures being taken together, Harry reached you, standing in front of your vanity mirror as he wrapped his arms around you from behind, pressing a kiss against your temple.

Oblivious to it being a video, Harry leaned his chin on your shoulder, giving his famous smug look to the mirror as you held up your phone.

Turning your head, you made sure your voice was low so that your phone wouldn’t pick what you said;

“Want you to pound me.”

And instantly, Harry’s smug look faltered; his eyes widening, face brightening as he looked at you as you giggled before releasing a squeal once you felt him carry you and move you from where you stood, and to the bed as you laughed.

‘Tell your partner your ex wants to return a hoodie of yours’

Propping your phone up, you made sure it showed Harry as he cooked while you sat on the kitchen stool.

You folded your arms on the table, clearing your throat as you eyed Harry while he was chopping carrots.

“Hey, H,” Harry hummed, stealing a glance at you before looking back at his chore, “My ex called earlier,”

At this, Harry’s eyebrows furrowed before he looked up at you, putting down the knife and leaning his hands on the counter, his arms seeming to look bigger as he tensed, “What did he say?”

Trying not to laugh, you looked down, beginning to play with your fingers before giving him a shrug, “Just that he still has a hoodie of mine at his place,”

“Yeah?”

“And asked if I need it back.”

“What did you say?”

You gave him another shrug, “Said I’ll let him know.”

“Well, do you need it?” He asked, “Like really need it?”

“Yeah, it was my high school’s.”

“But baby, you have a lot of hoodies,” one hand of his reached to his lips, fingers grazing his bottom lip for a moment, “Can get it for you.”

“That’d be so awkward, H,” you sighed.

“Why? I’m your boyfriend.” Harry reasoned, “Maybe I can just come with you,” he said again before his face lit up, “I can have it customized instead. Just tell me how it looked like and-”

“Baby, no,” you chuckled, “It won’t be the same.”

“Come on, love,” he frowned, “He calls you 3 years later to tell you he still has your hoodie. You don’t think that’s suspicious? He knows you’re with m-Everyone knows we’re together.”

“Maybe he forgot,” you shrugged, “Actually, let me call and as-”

“Oh, fuck no!” Harry instantly rushed to you.

‘Aggressively tell your partner you love them’

Chilling on the couch, Harry was watching the TV, unaware of your phone that had been resting on the shelf to record you beforehand.

You stomped where Harry was, whose head snapped to you, his mouth chewing his banana bite slower as he eyed you carefully, taking in your angry state.

You threw your notebook on the couch beside him, “I love you!” You said aggressively, a frown on your face as you pointed at him, “I fucking love you!”

Harry took a moment, his face shifting to one of amusement before he raised his hands up – one holding his banana – before pointing at you, “I fucking love you, too!” He screamed.

“No, no,” you shook your head, still aggressively speaking, “I love you more!”

“I’m so fucking in love with you!” Harry said as aggressively, standing in an instant, towering over you as he pressed himself against you before wrapping one arm around you, “Why are we shouting, you weirdo?”

‘Stick your hand out and see what your partner does’

Harry was sat beside you on his laptop, music blasting from it as he emailed himself some tasks.

Recording him with one hand, you reached your arm out, opening your palm at him.

Harry looked down at your hand, a smile making its way to his face before he looked at you before placing his chin on your hand, closing his eyes as he gave you a dopey smile as you squished his cheeks while giggling, “Hiii.”

[sanderssideswriting]

ship: prinxiety, background intrulogical

genre: fluff

warnings: swearing, like one sexual innuendo, very breif mention of murder (as a joke, this is fluff after all) 

summary: Radio AU where Virgil runs the 11-1 am radio on his college and every night someone calls to complain about his music selections and request disney, and Virgil never plays disney.

Virgil sat in his swivel chair and put on the headphones “sup bitches I’m back and this time with like three monsters because finals are a bitch and sleep can suck my dick. The first song of the night is Lotta True Crime by Peneople Scott. Why? Because I say it is that’s why.” Virgil put the song on and worked on his final project as the songs played.

The phone rang and Virgil groaned and checked the number. This dick again. He picked up and put it on air since people seemed to love listening to him and disney guy argue. 

“listen asshole if you want to listen to Disney so fucking badly then apply for a spot and stop calling me.”

there’s a laugh “how about you just play some disney then? if you do I’ll stop calling. Because your music taste sucks.”

Virgil rolls his eyes “bitch apply for an opening and have a disney hour. And let me listen to my music, because not everyone loves fucking disney.” 

“Well many people do so why not play one song.”

Virgil snorts “first no, and second if I had to I’d make everyone regret it and play let it go.”

“Let it go is great!”

“bye bye Princey, stop calling”

Virgil hung up “and since Princey called you know what we’re playing? MCR because I know he hates it. So this one’s for you princey, up next after this ad because this place needs money. By the way if you’re not a broke bitch donate because this job is like kinda decent and I like making you all listen to the music I like. Blood by MCR is up next” Virgil played the ad and leaned back in his chair.

“Why do you take his calls if you know he’ll just be annoying?” Janus asks in class.

Virgil shrugs “since it started I get more listeners which is good for the station.”

“I think it’s funny, cause you two have cute pet names for each other, princey and emo nightmare” Remus says.

Virgil elbows him “they’re not pet names.”

“they are,” Janus says, moving so Virgil couldn’t elbow him.

Roman waits to dial the number, he had to admit he sort of enjoyed his and emo nightmare’s conversations, who refused to reveal his name or grade.

At first they’d been annoying and he’d genuinely complained about all the emo music and asking to play disney but it’d soon become a nightly ritual, that had very quickly ruined Roman’s sleep schedule.

He dialed the number “seriously, why all the emo music, emo nightmare?”

“you just answered your own question princey, why the obsession with disney songs princey? See? Sounds fucking stupid.”

Roman sighs dramatically “you wound me emo nightmare. But seriously what’ll it take to get you to play ONE disney song?”

“a hundred grand, that’s how much the station needs to keep running, do that and I’ll play ONE disney song.”

“four.”

“Three songs and a hundred and fifty grand, fifty grand per song. final offer. and I get to pick the songs.’

Roman nods “deal,”

“oh and, you have until the end of finals to get the money donated, and I’ll make the gofundme, not you.”

That’s like a month and a half away Roman thinks I’ll have enough time. “sure thing emo nightmare.”

Roman’s emo hung up. He smiles like an idiot.

“Why not ask him out? it’s clear you’re fond of him” Roman’s roommate Logan says from his side of the room.

“ask out a guy I don’t even know the name of? yeah sure” Roman snorts.

“what? Scared you’ll be rejected? I cannot believe I’m saying this, but Roman I am getting more dick then you have been ever since you started talking to your radio boy.” Logan says in an even tone.

Roman pretends to gag “you don’t need to tell me how much you and my brother have done it Logan, you two being together is enough for me to want to bleach my eyes.”

“you’re no better whenever you’re going out with someone, or even hooked up with a slightly above average guy.”

Remus barged in “Loooo I need help studying.”

Roman stood up “that’s my queue to leave.”

Remus watches Roman go “so what where you two talking about?”

“oh you know, he’s still calling the campus radio station to ask for disney songs” Logan says.

“Wait, Roman is Princey?” Remus asks, he starts laughing

“Yes? You didn’t know?”

Remus cackles “no! oh this is great! My best friend Virgil does the 11 to 1 radio, he’s Emo Nightmare and Roman is his Princey”

“We could set them up, Roam is so lovesick, I swear he’s head over heels for him and he hasn’t even met Virgil” Logan says.

Remus gasps “this is why I love you! Of course we’re going to set them up.”

Logan and Remus came up with a plan, they’d invite Roman and Virgil to a study session and then never showed up, leaving Virgil and Roman to wait.

Virgil puts on his headphones and starts loudly playing panic at the disco and reading over his shitty notes.

Someone taps him on the shoulder “hey can you turn the emo shit down, I’m trying to study and it’s really loud.”

Virgil turns it down a bit “that good?”

he nods “yeah, where you also ghosted for a study session?”

“Yeah I was, my best friend and his nerdy boyfriend where supposed to help me study, they probably forgot all about me.” Virgil says.

“Logan And Remus? Remus is my brother and Logan’s my roommate” Roman says.

“Yeah, well since we’re both here we could study together if you want” please say no please say no.

“Sounds good!” Roman says.

Fuck.

Virgil and Roman studied for awhile and Virgil very slowly started warming up to Roman. “ah shit I have to go, see you round I guess” Virgil says packing up his stuff, he wanted to have some alone time before his shift.

“ok Bye Virgil,” Roman says packing up, he had to go do his own thing, which would probably end up becoming a quick nap before his emo nightmare started his turn being the radio host.

Virgil sat in the chair “what up bitches, so far the goal has 10k, so no disney tonight, or ever because this is on a time crunch and 150k is a fuck ton of money for broke college students. And now onto Fuck you by Lily Allen. Why? Because she’s underrated and because I said so.” Virgil played the song.

Virgil got the call around 12:30 “you’re calling later then usual princey, and no, no disney tonight.”

“Oh I was just about to ask. And also I was asking how to find the gofundme.”

“It’s on the UCLA radio website, can’t miss it. Now let me do my fucking job” Virgil hung up and played MCR as was tradition.

What he didn’t know was Roman recorded the phone call and posted it everywhere he could anonymously and waited.

Virgil checked the go fund me in the morning “it has fifty k already?! What the fuck? Princey what did you do?”

Virgil waited for the nightly call “Hey what the fuck how is the goal at sixty k? How the fuck princey?”

He laughed “I asked the internet for help, I think most of it’s from tiktok, you’re going to have to play disney emo nightmare”

“fuck you princey and your stupid obsession with disney.”

“you have an obsession with my chemical romance and Brendon Urie”

“name three other artists I play on here then bitch.”

“Mother Mother, Lily Allen and as of late Derivakat” Roman says without hesitation.

Virgil was speechless for a second, then hung up. “fucking bitch, you guys know what time it is” he played Teenagers.

A week and a half passed and the funds had slowly been going up, and Virgil and Roman’s calls continued nightly as usual.

Virgil and Roman met up a few times to study for finals, sometimes with Remus and Logan, sometimes without.

the goal just barely missed the end of finals. Virgil smirked “No disney today, or ever because you people missed the goal byyyyy” Virgil checked the go fund me “three thousand dollars. I’d say better luck next time but there won’t be a next time.” he chuckled. The phone rang and Virgil picked up, knowing it was Princey.

“oooh too late princey no disney songs during my shift.”

“you might want to check the gofundme one last time my dear emo nightmare.”

Virgil refreshes the page “first of all, I’m not yours bitch second- what the fuck, how?” the goal had been met.

Roman laughs “play the disney emo. Play. The fucking. Disney.”

Virgil could tell he was gonna gloat so he hung up.

Virgil grumbles and gets the disney queued “ok fine the goal was met, so time for my suffering, I have queued Fixer Upper from Frozen because it’s a shitty song with a shitty message. Make a man out of you because I like Mulan and for everyone’s inconvenience I have How Far I’ll Go so have fun with that stuck in your head.”

Roman was a bit insulted when Emo nightmare hung up on him, so he called him back once the songs had ended “wasn’t so hard was it?”

“for you maybe, it was for me,” Virgil hung up and blocked the number.

Over the Summer both Virgil and Roman found themselves missing their talks. Roman so much so he applied for one of the newly opened spots for the next semester from 2-5 pm.

Virgil drove onto campus at 4, putting on campus radio and was met with disney. the song ended and the new host spoke “and I hope everyone liked that, up now is a short commercial break.”

Virgil nearly swerved off the road and pulled over and called the station.

Roman picked up. “Hey what the actual FUCK?” Virgil says as soon as he does.

Roman laughs “oh how the tables have turned Emo Nightmare”

“I hate you, I fucking hate you what the actual fuck princey”

he laughed more “You yourself said that working here is nice, and there was an opening, so I took it. You should be happy, I mean now I won’t brother you about playing disney.”

Virgil frowned “yeah yeah, whatever princey have fun with that.”

“oh I will emo nightmare, I absolutely will.” Roman hung up feeling happy in a way he hadn’t felt all summer.

Virgil unpacked his stuff in his new dorm, he was a little pissed but also excited. Maybe he and princey would finally meet face to face. Why am I excited about that? I hate him, at the least he annoyed me every day for months, but he did raise a bunch of money. Even if his disney obessed ass is super annoying.

Roman walked in at 6 “hey Virgil, I’m guessing you’re going to be my roommate?”

Virgil looked up from his laptop “I guess, don’t take my monsters from the fridge and we’ll be golden, or blast disney 24/7″

Roman chuckled “what do you have against disney?”

“Micky Mouse killed my parents in front of me after I said that Merida was my favorite princess.” Virgil said dryly.

Roman chuckled “that’s why I dedicated my life to the mouse.”

“That’s why I swore to get my revenge on the mouse.”

“I won’t blast disney 24/7 but you can’t blast your emo music.” Roman says

Virgil snorted “dude I have the worst anxiety I don’t even own a speaker. so you don’t blast your music, I won’t blast mine and we’ll be fine.”

“Deal,”

Roman called that night like always and Virgil was ready “aww Princey, did you miss me that much?”

“not really, but I’m still trying to get you to willingly play a disney song.”

Virgil rolled his eyes “you know what, it’s a new year, time for a new leaf, I’ll humor you princey and play a disney song.”

“wait really?”

Virgil queued up Mad At Disney “no.” he hung up and the song started.

Virgil and Roman went back to their usual routine of lowkey flirting with each other during Virgil’s shift, and sometimes during Roman’s.

They where getting along well as roomates but hadn’t figured out that they where each other’s Princey and emo nightmare.

Somehow he and Princey had gotten into an argument about if Cruella would be a good or bad movie. Roman had hope it would be, Virgil wasn’t so convinced.

“Princey, she is a completely evil character, she can’t be redeemable, she shouldn’t be. She wanted to make puppies into a coat, that’s fucked up. There’s no black and white she’s bad and that’s that.”

“Maybe if you gave the movie a chance!”

“fuck no! did you not hear what I just fucking said?”

“then how about we see it then we can see who’s right?”

“fine, I’m free at three this Satuday.” Virgil said, way too caught up in the moment.

“same, see you then emo nightmare, I’ll be by the doors waiting.”

“fine, but I’m going to be right.”

“then it’s a date!”

“I guess it is!” Virgil hung up.

he didn’t realize he’d said yes to going out on a date with a guy he didn’t even know until the next day.

The whole campus was freaking out about it since the station had blown up quite a bit because of Virgil and Roman’s nightly arguments. 

Roman left early, he’d dressed up a bit, and had a disney shirt with a little crown logo on it, it wasn’t that obvious but he figured it’d be telling enough.

Virgil put on a bit more eyeliner then usual and fishnets under his ripped jeans but that was about it, he chose to be petty and waited until about 3:20 to go to the doors where Roman wait waiting.

Virgil walked passed him at first. Roman saw him “emo nightmare?”

Virgil stopped “are you fucking kidding me?” he got a few glares from parents. “You��re princey? my fucking roommate?”

“I did not plan that, but yeah I am, and you’re my emo nightmare.”

Virgil rolled his eyes “still not yours princey, come on the movies about to start.”

They exited the movie and Virgil grinned “I fucking told you it’d be bad, I told you!”

“yeah yeah, you did it was bad. Want to get some coffee?”

“sure, I’ll pay,” Virgil said casually.

Roman grinned “I’ll win you over one day my emo nightmare.”

“stop begging me to play disney music and maybe you will.”

[boneheat]

Besides the gray ghost angstlist, what was the other fanmix you had for them? Also do you have any headcanons for them?

HEY sorry I took so long to get to this, had a busy weekend and also like, had just started working on another gray ghost mix the day before you sent this?? and was hoping to finish it before i answered?? but it's gonna take some more time to get everything together so!

FIRST OFF my secret is that i am always working on like a billion different gray ghost mixes, because i have a lot of songs for them and a bunch of different configurations for how they could go together! they have a lot going on!! right now the one i almost have done is more focused on the phantom/red huntress dynamic, and the most concrete idea i have for a followup is one specifically about the flirting with disaster moment where they were actually dating

and i do have some headcanons for them (as well as a pretty thorough understanding of how things would develop between them In My Rewrite but that's for another time)! under the cut because this got a little out of hand:

- tbh even when Danny turned his interest to Sam I still think he was really not over Valerie, the fact that Double Cross My Heart opens with him still pining over her and the rest of the episode is meant to convince us he and Sam are the real otp by having them fight the whole time... anyways

- I do think Val still has feelings for Danny at that point as well, she's just better at hiding it and also convinced it's her heroic duty to keep him safe! when Sam and Danny get together she tries dating other people (of any gender bc Val is bi thanks) but finds that none of them seem to get her the way Danny did

- For one they are not nearly as forgiving of her being late or just having to skip dates entirely bc of reasons she can't really explain, whereas Danny was fine with it bc he also did that all the time

- On one of their first dates they go see whatever Blockbuster set in Space is out at the moment and Valerie lets Danny complain about all the inaccuracies on the way home. Val texts Star that she can't hang out bc she's on a date with Danny and Star sends back a screenshot of this

- Valerie is by far the Coolest Person Danny's even been friends with, much less dated. Unless you count when Paulina was being possessed by Kitty, which I do not! Mostly this just means she's significantly less socially awkward than his other friends and follows normie meme accounts and knows tiktok dances

- Meanwhile Danny is by far the least cool person Valerie has ever dated, and she does tease him for being weird sometimes but also thinks it's cute and refreshing and it feels like he just likes her for her, bad parts and all (which really comes into perspective post-reveal)

-this is less a headcanon and more an observation but i think about the part in Flirting With Disaster where Danny tries to convince Sam and Tucker that he and Valerie dating is a good idea and brings up her having a ninth-degree black belt as a PRO like, constantly. The Fentons love women who can fight what can be said

- in fact Danny probably recognizes that if Valerie was the one with the crazy ghost powers and he just had the conventional weaponry he would be a little ectoplasmic goo stain by this point. He certainly does well for himself, but Valerie just has a natural athletic affinity and skill for this kind of thing that he doesn't

- she sucks at video games (in the way people who didn't grow up playing video games do) though, so ha

- i could certainly come up with more (and at multiple points in this i started to ramble about my rewrite timeline and had to cut it back) but this is already so long woops. thank you for giving me an opportunity to talk about them though this was fun

[420themanbehindtheslaughter69]

Found Diary...

This is 100% based on a TikTok I legit just saw by yoongi.xd so full credit to them for the idea :)

R/F/N = Random Female Name R/M/N = Random Male Name

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Fluff, angst(?), lemon(not really)

Au: Non-Idol au, High School au, Gender neutral! Reader, it's 2019, Yoongi is 17

Song: Bubblegum Bitch by Marina and the Diamonds

Word Count

Warnings: swearing,

Pov: alternating

POV - Y/n's First Person

High school... I hate it. I've always hated it. I feared going into high school since I was little. The only reason why I had any bit of motivation is that I got to see my best friend Yoongi.

Min Yoongi. The introvert who can do literally anything. It's crazy. I don't know how we ended up becoming friends, but we did. He's always been a tough cookie and had a hard exterior. Though it didn't take long for me to break into it.

It apparently took less amount of time for this bitch named R/f/n. They met about two months ago, and they're already sucking faces.

Which is what's happening right now.

"Can you guys like not to do that while I'm trying to eat?" I look at Yoongi and R/f/n and they pull away.

"No." R/f/n scoffs trying to pull Yoongi back in for a... I can't even call it a kiss. "No, R/f/n, it's okay. We can continue later, Okay?" R/f/n pouts and nods her head, making me fake a gag.

"Okay, Yoongi-Baby. I should probably get going then. I love you." She stands up giving him another kiss. "I love you too, R/f/n." They wave to each other and she exits the cafeteria.

"Fucking finally. I thought that you'd be stuck there forever." My comment makes Yoongi chuckle. "Yeah, she's really touchy. It's okay though. I like her a lot." He looks down with a shy smile on his face.

"Yeah, I know you like her a lot. And I'm so happy that you've finally found someone that makes you happy." He looks up at me and I smile at him. "What do you mean? You make me happy? You're my friend." The legendary words that make any fool break.

Being friends with him is great and all but I think I would prefer to be more. "You know what I mean, Yoongi. We're friends, not lovers. She makes you happy in a romantic way." I stick my spoon in the pudding of my school lunch and stir it around before deciding that there is no way in Hell am I going to eat it.

"Thank god you're not about to eat that. I probably would've thrown up if you did." Yoongi says chuckling before drinking the chocolate milk in a cardboard box. "It's chunky." He continues after setting the milk down.

I look at the pudding and pull a face of disgust. "Yeah, it's very chunky." I throw the spoon on the tray and look over at the clock on the wall. "We have 10 minutes to get to class... Do you wanna start heading there now?" Yoongi nods and we both stand up and throw our shit away.

As we exit the Cafeteria, this stupid fucking bitch, R/m/n, throws a basketball at me. I hate guys. "Yo Yoongi! You gonna play later? Also sorry..." He stops for a moment and looks at me. "You." He then looks back at Yoongi.

"Nah, I promised Y/n that I'd help them with their homework." R/m/n nods and walks away. I completely forgot that I had asked him to help me.

"Thank fucking god it's Friday. I literally don't wanna have to deal with these fuckers for much longer." Yoongi says wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

~ After School~

"Do you really need help? It seems as if you just wanted to hang out?" Yoongi drops the notebook onto his bed and looking at me. Obviously, I lied. I look away in shame, and he chuckles. "If you wanted to hang out, you could've just asked. We're friends after all."

"But it seems as if we've been so distant." He lets out a long sigh and he rubs his eyes.

"Is this about R/f/n?" Yoongi raises his voice a little bit, making me jump.

"No, it isn't about R/f/n. I mean it kind of is bu-" Yoongi lets out a long irritated sigh.

"Why do you hate her so much? What the fuck did she do to you?" He yells at me.

"I never said I hated her!" Even though I do despise her, I would never admit that, especially to Yoongi. "What the fuck is your problem? Why are you getting so mad at me?" Suddenly, I'm angry. All I wanted was to hang out with Yoongi outside of school after what seems like the first time in months, and he's getting angry with me for no reason? Oh hell no.

"Recently all you've been doing is complaining about the fact that we're never with each other, but you're forgetting that we literally go to the same school and that we have most of the same classes! It's so fucking annoying!" I'm furious now. I stand up and start packing up my stuff with tears in my eyes.

I'm not crying because I'm sad, I'm crying because I'm angry. I run out of his room and get my shoes on at his door. "Y/n... I didn't mean to-" He calmly states as he stands at the top of the stairs.

"No. Fuck you Min Yoongi." I finally walk out of his house wanting nothing more than to lay in my bed. I want nothing more than to be at home, in my own room, with my headphones in, curled up under my blankets. I stomp down the street speedily, I turn around and see Yoongi standing outside his house.

"Yeah... fuck you Min Yoongi," I mutter looking forward again.

~

Lunchtime... It used to be my favourite subject in school because that's when I got to see Yoongi. It's been about a week since our fight. It was such a silly fight as well. I also haven't felt like eating out in public, so I haven't been buying any lunch.

Yoongi seems happy. He's been with the basketball players, their girlfriends, and R/f/n. He's acting as if nothing happened, as if he didn't freak out at me. I only have two other friends other than him, and one of them, Tara, doesn't have the same lunch as me.

"Hello~ Earth to Y/n!" Tommy says, waving his hand in front of my face. Tommy and Tara are twins, and they both happen to my two other friends. Convenient, I know. "You've been staring at Yoongi for the past ten minutes." Tommy continues before taking a big bite of his sandwich.

A sandwich that includes turkey, bologna, provolone cheese, mayo, and tofurkey. For some reason, he likes the smokey flavour of the fake meat mixed with the real meat. "Yeah, I'm aware I've been staring at him." I roll my eyes, playfully making Tommy laugh.

Tommy. Twin brother of Tara. Both are seventeen and from America. He has messy brown hair and greenish-brown eyes that look green in the right lighting, and in another lighting, looks brown. Cheap warm-tones cafeteria lighting makes his eyes the in-between colour of hazel. He has pale skin with natural red cheeks, along with freckles across his nose. He's not unattractive but he's definitely not on most people's level of beauty.

"How are you after the fight?" He says nonchalantly, peeling the crust off of part of the sandwich he's about to bite into.

"I wouldn't necessarily call it a fight. More of a 'he flipped and I didn't wanna deal with it' situation." I pick at my nails anxiously. I don't wanna talk about this. Tara knows that, but I guess she didn't tell Tommy.

"Yeah... Right." He says squinting his eyes at me to show he doesn't fully believe me. "Anyway, you wanna hang out after school? My biological dad sent a new video game if you wanna try it with me." I look at him with wide eyes, making him chuckle a little.

"Fuck yeah! What time?" He stops and thinks for a moment.

"Four-Thirty? I have theatre club after school."

I also have stuff after school to do. Not like a club, I mean I guess you can call it that, but I just go and chill out in the Library, reading a book with a group of other students. It's not a club where you have to sign up to be in, but more of a free-range. It's fun and relaxing, especially since I don't have to talk to anyone there unless the leader really wants us to, which she's an introvert and doesn't want to.

~

Alas, the school day is over. It's two-fifteen, the bell has rung indicating that we can now leave, but I head over to the library. Oh, I'm the first one here. I take a deep breath as I sit in the comfortable cushioned rocking chair in the corner of the Library. This area is very isolated, which is why we sit over here. It's quiet and away from other students who are wanting to come in here and study or something.

Though it's isolated, in the seat I am in, I have the perfect view of the door, which is open from Seven-thirty to two-fifteen, and then after, the Librarian, Mr Kim, who isn't too much older than us, closes the door but it remains unlocked.

It's now two-thirty, most of the kids that usually show up are here reading their books, there are a few new students who just wanted an escape, and-

"Ayo Yoongi pass the ball!" I look over at the door and see a dude, I recognize as R/m/n catching the brownish-red ball from a shorter boy with dark hair, I can obviously notice is Yoongi, especially since R/m/n called his name. I whine slightly as I slump into my chair. I hear the girls who are misogynistic for their boyfriend's validation giggle as they watch the guys.

Please God... don't let them see me.

Luckily they didn't, and I continue reading until I finish the book. Then I packed up my stuff and decided that it was better off that I leave early.

POV- Yoongi's First Person

"Hey, Yoongi~" R/f/b comes strutting over with her friends with a notebook in her hand. That looks like Y/n's notebook... she never let anyone touch it.

"I found Y/n's diary." She smiles mischievously.

"Let's read it!" R/m/n says, and the others agree. "But Yoongi should be the one to read it." R/f/n rolls her eyes before handing it to me.

I don't really wanna have to do this...

"Dear Diary, I will be writing all of my important accomplishments or just important things in general here. So starting with today, we have a new kid. He's really cute, I'm afraid to talk to him though."

"Boring! Skip forward!" One of R/f/n friends say. I nod and skip a few pages. October tenth two-thousand thirteen... that's when Y/n and I met.

"Today is October 10, 2013. Oh, dear Diary, I met a boy. He made my dull heart light up with joy. He's shy and kind of mean, but I think I can become his friend. I'm gonna keep trying."  Oh god... I continue reading every few pages until the most recent...

"Dear Diary... we fell apart. He yelled at me and called me annoying. I had lied to him, saying I needed help with homework, when in reality, I just wanted to be with him. I wanted to be with him outside of school, with no interruptions from his basketball friends who always push me around when he's not there, with no interruptions from his snobby girlfriend to told me to go kill myself and to stay away from him. Just him and I. But when he noticed that I didn't actually need help, he flipped. I don't know what I did wrong... maybe it was because I kept it a secret that his friends are so shitty. At least I still have Tommy and Tara. They're the only ones I need. Oh, who am I kidding? I miss him so much. I love him." My heart stops as I continue reading. I look up at the people around me who just stare at me awkwardly and apologetically.

"Did you guys really do that to them?" I take them not answering as a yes. I look down at my watch to see it only just hit four o'clock. I have to go see y/n...

I put their diary in my bag and swing it over my shoulder before running out of the library. Everything seems to have turned in slow motion. My heart is pounding My friends are yelling after me, but all I want is to see y/n. I want to see their beautiful smile again. They like me... They like me. I was so blind to notice, but now I think about it, it was so obvious. I smile while running as I think about all the moments I have had with Y/n.

I finally arrived at Y/n's house, I'm out of breath and my legs sting. I walk up to the front door...

POV- Y/n's First Person

It's currently Four twenty-five, so I should probably start heading out to Tommy and Tara's house. Just as I open the door, I am greeted by someone I really don't wanna see. Yoongi.

"Y/n..." He lets out a long sigh and a small smile. "I'm so sorry. I fucked up. I don't even know why I freaked out as I did." I just stand there. I don't know what to say to him. I miss him... I miss being with him. I open my mouth to say something, but my mouth is dry and I can't say anything. Yoongi steps closer. My heart pounds out of my chest. His hand makes contact with my hip hand and...

The world around us has stopped. Nothing else is important. Min Yoongi is standing in my doorway kissing me. His single hand on my waist, slides around to my back, pulling me closer. We can't...

I push him away. "Yoongi..." I whisper. I didn't mean for it to come out so quietly, but with how nervous I am I can't help it. I want to kiss him. I've always wanted to... but now that it's actually happening-

"Y/n... I love you. I love you so much. I'm so sorry... please I need you back in my life... I never realized your feelings for me until just recently, and because I finally realized, that made me rethink everything. I never truly liked R/f/n... I never felt the way I do when I'm with you. You make me happy." He pants, pulling me toward my living room couch. I comply and sit next to him.

"Yoongi... I really like you. I always have. But you never liked me, why has that suddenly changed?" I want to cry. I feel so overwhelmed by everything. He shrugs before placing his hand on my cheek.

"Can I kiss you again... please?" I don't even care anymore. I nod and he pulls me towards him. His soft upturned lips make contact with mine. I move his silky hands from my cheek to my waist, and I hold onto his face. Yoongi's tongue tries to enter my mouth, but I allow it. I suck on his tongue as his lips are still pressed to mine.

Knock Knock Knock Knock

We pull away quickly. He laughs at the string of spit connecting us before I stand up and go over to the door.

"Hey, Tommy."

"It's five o'clock... is everything okay?" I look at my phone and my eyes widen. Has it really been thirty minutes since Yoongi got here?

"Yeah everything's fine, I'll be over in a minute though, okay? I might need to even wait until my mom gets home so she can drive me over since it's getting dark." Tommy nods and smiles. He waves and walks away, so I quickly shut the door and walk back over to Yoongi. "My room, now," I say softly and we both run up the stairs and into my room.

It's been a while since he's been in my room. I never told her, but my mom knew I liked Yoongi and as much as she trusted him, she felt afraid that he would do something.

Yoongi tackles me onto my bed after locking my door. His hands are on either side of my head. He dips down and starts leaving small kisses up my neck to my mouth, once he reaches my mouth he just barely touches it. "Yoongi... please..." I whine and he chuckles. I tangle my fingers in his hair.

Oh god, his beautiful dark hair. People wouldn't consider his hair curly, but it has some natural texture to it. So silky and soft. So healthy... every damn thing about Yoongi is perfect. His soft lips trail from my mouth to the soft dimple on my cheek, down my neck. He lingers at my neck for a little while, allowing me to feel how perfect even his lips are. So good at kissing, I guess that watching him and R/f/n make out had to lead me to think otherwise... R/f/n.

"Wait... Yoongi." He pulls away with a hum and looks at me. His dark lust-filled eyes have now turned into precious puppy dog eyes. They're glossed over and widened, as his lips are in a pout. "What about R/f/n?" He chuckles, making me embarrassed for asking.

"I'm done with her. Don't think about her, or Tommy, or R/m/n, or Tara, or Mr. Kim, or Ms. Jung. Think about us." I nod and he leans down to kiss me again, but before he can, someone knocks on my door.

"Y/n, I'm home." My mom says on the other side of the door.

"Okay, hi mom!" I call out, Yoongi flops softly onto the space next to me and wraps his arms around me.

~

"Tommy give me my phone!" I yell as Tommy and I run around my living room. Yoongi and Tara laugh at us, and I finally grabbed my phone from him and stuff it in my pants.

"Do you really think that'll stop me?" He says reaching towards me, but stops when Yoongi lets out a cough. "Sorry, Yoongi. Didn't mean that in a creepy way." He awkwardly apologizes and we sit down on the couch. I drape the blanket over Yoongi and I, as Tommy and Tara fight over who gets to hold the popcorn.

"I thought this was gonna be a calm movie night," Yoongi whispers in my ear with a smile. I let out a soft laugh and look over at the two twins.

"At least Tara isn't threatening to shove her fist up his ass again." Just as I say that, Tara then yells she was gonna shove her fist up Tommy's ass.

"I don't want anything else than to be here with you guys," Yoongi whispers again, placing a kiss on my nose. "I love you."

"I love you more."

[calypsoff]

Twenty Six.

Looking over at Robyn in the SUV “man, what you doing?” I said through my laughter “you are taking pictures of me again, excuse me if you start telling people about me and your toes we over” Robyn cackled “I’m not, just adding you to my story. I like to show off my man, but how do you feel? Virginia is coming to an end?” Side eyeing her “for you yes, I’m going back with the boys” Robyn huffed out “why can’t you just come back with me? Seriously? It’s not that hard Chris, come to California. Then go to Texas get your things and come back” she’s always planning “or I can go from here to Texas then to California? Better right? Then we have a big sex session before you go and then I wave you bye bye and have parties?” Robyn shook her head “I think prior to the revelation about your toe sucking and foot licking, I would have said no because you will have girls around. Boy I am not complaining, you do know my shoes just came off” looking out of the window, I am not speaking to her. She keeps reminding of something I know I did, she is annoying now “poppa please, do it for son, son. He won’t like it” Robyn tugged at my arm “poppa! Please, I’m sorry” she knows she’s doing the most and now I shall be silent with her “it made me wet when you did that to my foot?” Oh she’s trying to make things better “be quiet” I mumbled, I am done with her “ok fine I will let it go, I will not speak on it again. Robyn is done” Robyn is done but I am done with her, she can talk to her damn self.

Robyn is grovelling she wants me to care and I don’t “ok I won’t mention is again, deal?” I heard what she said but I chose to ignore her now “I was going to say I will do your foot but no, those aren’t cute” dragging my eyes away from my phone staring at Robyn’ face all in mine “I’m glad you’re happier, but at my expense” she is so cute; like I can’t even remain angry at her. She’s just being adorable “you can have a party but don’t mess up the house, see happy?” I shrugged “I suppose, but you still teasing about the foot thing. You going to stop that” that smirk on her face tells me otherwise “right well I’m going to drop you off at my mother’ house because I need to see TJ and Barry like this is not a lie and no you can’t come because the area is not safe for my love” Robyn is not happy; she is the pouting one now not just me “and you!?” She retorted “it’s my area twin, I know this area like that I can walk around. If I walk around with you then I am having to protect you because you close, so yeah. You need to go and stay with my mother while I see to them and then I will be back” Robyn is not agreeing but she will need too “so you really not coming with me to California. You are staying here for what?” I shrugged “I like my city you know” Robyn turned away “the city don’t like you, let’s not forget they trying to kill you” oh she is really not happy, I will let her get over it.

My mom is so pleased every time Robyn comes, she is like her second daughter and I find that cute “baby I will get your bed made, that reminds me” my mom pointed at me “thanks mom, Robyn is going tomorrow so I will come here for a few days and Desean I don’t have a large size for you” Tootie gasped “nigga take it the fuck back, you do not say that about my son” I snorted laughing “I am lying, I got you nephew. We about to do the photoshoot together, I am joking ok?” taking it back, I was joking with him, but I don’t want him to take it seriously “can I meet Drake?” shaking my head “yo nigga, I barely meet that nigga myself but one day. I got you. So yeah. I am going to meet up with Barry, also Robyn can tell y’all about the lovely time she had and what I did for her” Robyn is still pouting so I just kissed her lips without a care “you being too busy for me boy, when Robyn goes back we will spend time yes?” saluting my mother “of course, I will be back soon” Robyn is not impressed but what do I care, I just need to get my shit out there. Get my clothing line recognized so yes, I am busy sometimes “dad, I am taking your car. I will bring it back!” I shouted taking his keys anyways, he will hear me anyways.

TJ and Tina are so fucking weird, like the fact they are even together I find it weird, it’s just I didn’t expect it. She is practically home, his family accepted it “Tina liking that country life huh? Look at her” grabbing a can of Sprite from the side “it’s a lovely place, I do like it” Tina agreed “oh yeah, Mel” I clinked my fingers at Barry “what about her?” licking my lips smiling “you like her, go and proceed. I got her number so I will give it you, get on with it. Robyn said she a little lonely because Robyn got me and she got nobody” I shrugged opening the can “hey! Don’t be saying that about my girl, just she needs a man. Maybe Barry could be the one” I forgot about Tina being here or maybe I just didn’t care “so forget the Mel thing, did you and Robyn you know?” TJ placed his arm around my shoulders “have sex? Yes, we had sex and sex, and then more sex. It was delicious and the most precious moment of my life, I tell a joke, but it was a process time for us. It worked and I think it was needed for the both of us, we feel much closer now, well I do anyway but yeah. I came here for you. I had to leave Robyn at my mother’ home because bringing her here can be hectic, I don’t want that for her. I like her to have that normality so yeah, what is it?” drinking from the can “you are so protective of her, that is cute to see for my girl. I can’t believe she stayed there; did not she not refuse?” Tina asked “a little but I am the man of the house I told her how it is” I laughed “I joke, just said that it’s hard to just take you around like that, she understood” I shrugged, she did take it well, that is not a lie.

Sitting down on the chair taking in the VA sun, I have been relaxed since I have had sex with Robyn “does your sister fancy me or something? Why is she taking pictures of me” I asked confused “oh she is doing that TikTok shit” pulling a face “ma’am” I pointed at her, wanting her to know I knew she was taking a video, she got shy “so Seiko” I groaned out “now why do we need to speak on that, can we skip the conversation!?” TJ sighed out “I wish I could, but it is what it is, she is there because of my mistake. I am stuck, but she is doing a gender reveal and I of course is going but I would want my brothers there. I rather just work with her, my family is going, and you are my brothers so please come with me and support me” shaking my head “bro, that is my ex and she been talking shit about me and Robyn, I can’t be there. I ain’t going near that, why would she want me to be there” TJ rubbed his face “it’s not about you and her nigga, it’s about that fucking child that is a mistake, but I am stepping up. The blessing you needed because she would have pushed that on you, please be there for me. Just be there for me and then we dip, it’s just a gender reveal” licking my top lip, I do not like the sound of any of it, seems like too much would be done “her friends will be there, I fucked all of them girls. It’s awkward bro, I can’t be there” I don’t know what he wants from me “who cares? You the flyest nigga there, you ain’t done shit. You go with your head high and for me, please” he really wants me there “Barry is coming” taking in a deep breath “look, I need to speak to Robyn about it, but I don’t know, see what happens” that is the best I can do for him.

Imagine being there knowing that is my ex and she is pregnant but my best friend, I am involving myself in that and Robyn may not like that I don’t know “you still thinking on it?” TJ asked, he knows I am sat here thinking about that shit, I mean how the fuck could I go there and just act like nothing happened “I don’t know what to do bro, like it doesn’t bother me. Hand on my heart but I have a certain reputation to hold, you know? It’s like people see me with Rihanna and I can’t just be with my ex” I mean it will look like that “he is right TJ, he has to be careful. Places like Shade Room, and all those blogs will be on it if like his pictures start floating around about his ex and then Rih will be pissed off, and we don’t need that” Tina is right “but it’s not about that, it’s about me needing my best friend there. Barry is coming too, just be with me. Be in the back, you are family to me. I feel bad I did that to you already, I get it but we are coming up with some shit and the baby can come and see me alone” rubbing my face “I will speak to Robyn about it, I mean have you ever tried to ask Robyn anything like that. She is going to on my ass about it. She already wanted me to come with her to Cali and I said no I am staying here for a few days. Also I am going to Texas but then going Cali. I am staying at Robyn’ home. I am babysitting the house and I will do business from there. You are both welcome to come too. But before I do that I promised I would go on a few days of the tour with her. I suppose you could stay there with Rorrey until I fly back in. So yeah, I will be busy. We all will be” Barry’ eyes lit up “living in California!? Bruh, can we have parties?” I knew he would ask that “yeah, she said we can within reason though” I knew these niggas would come, they would never leave me alone.

Scratching the side of my face, Seiko still has me on her page like why. I do not understand why she hasn’t deleted the pictures; she deleted the couple pictures but picture she randomly took of me. I look terrible actually, locking my phone. Let me go and see what Robyn is up too with my family, closing the car door behind me. I think I am going to have my family in a bigger home, I want to get to that kind of place where I can put them somewhere private, somewhere much bigger. Like my nephew is growing, he is sleeping downstairs now that I am home so like I need to do that. Pushing open the front door “family!” placing the keys on the side and closing the door behind me, I find this home extremely small now when I am living well now, the places I have seen and lived in. It’s amazing to see that those types of homes exist “we are watching Taken!” Desean said “oh that, y’all boring. You bored?” I asked Robyn “no I am not actually” oh she is not happy “Robyn cooked for us actually, we will be eating soon” nodding my head “cool, erm. Robyn I need to speak to you” I pointed upstairs “Robyn also made your bedroom, I told her not too but she insisted and she made your bed and did your room up” letting out an oh “wow baby, you didn’t have too. Thank you” that is sweet of her “mhmm come” Robyn walked by me.

If she is moody then I don’t think I will tell her anything “uhm, why you moody?” walking into my bedroom “oh my room looks clean, thank you twin” closing the door “no, not you. I have enjoyed your family. Just the thought of going back to Cali, just depressing. But yeah, nothing to do with you” nodding my head, I guess she is feeling it “ok cool, well yeah I met TJ and Barry, we had a few drinks and spoke on something. TJ came out with something, well he asked me. And I said that I would need to ask Robyn before anything. So he’s having a gender party thing and he wants me to be there” Robyn just stared at me dumbfounded “oh wait, your ex is having a gender reveal and you want to be there?” Robyn put it in better words “uh yeah, but like I didn’t say yes because I am unsure of it. I mean the girl there will be the girls I have had sex with so it’s a little awkward, but I also want to support my boy” Robyn is not impressed “yeah why not Chris, a nice little reunion huh? I mean that is classless I don’t care what you say” well that tells me “you know what Chris; I won’t stop you going because I know you. I am not insecure, but I expect something to come out of it. I also want to say I am not happy about it, it’s a little trashy that my man will be there with his ex-girlfriend gender reveal because his best friend fucked her, and you had sex with all her friends. It’s trashy with a capital T and you know what Chris. Go, if I stop you then I look stupid and insecure because I know them rats will be speaking on it. But I am not happy about it, but I am stuck aren’t I? I would look the bad one stopping you but have fun. I just need to just go and think. Now I am going back to watch the movie, bye” Robyn is being childish “right” rubbing my face.

Pushing Desean’ head a little “let uncle sit there” walking around the couch, I want to sit next to Robyn. I do know she is hating me right now, but I still want to sit next to her, I know Desean hates me for moving him, but she has no choice in that “smile” sitting next to Robyn “for what?” she mumbled “I am here with you” placing my arm behind Robyn and then turned a little to face her “don’t be like that with me, yeah. We had a good time, and this is nothing. I get it you’re annoyed with me, but this is minor” staring at the side Robyn’ face, she is so cute when she is annoyed “you know you look cute when you mad” Robyn cleared her throat and then proceeded to place her legs over my lap “still find you annoying but massage my feet” Robyn is annoying “you’re not funny” she really isn’t “I am not happy still but that will kind of make me happy so proceed” she us doing the most, as she does but let me just massage her feet.

[cithaerons]

i think you might have misunderstood the complaining about men thing it’s not trying to say bisexual women should be with a woman if they hate men so much (or at least i didn’t think so) it’s saying about the trend on tiktok (that’s where i see it mostly) where women are like ugh men suck i wish i didn’t have a boyfriend so i could have a girlfriend is it not offensive to your partner regardless of gender to say for no clear reason they suck and you’d rather be with someone else i would understand if they gave a reason to complain but most of them seem to just be making a stupid joke because everyone else is or maybe i’m confused lol i hope this didn’t come off rude this is just how i saw it

i mean if the people are all referring to some specific meme on tiktok (which i don’t use) they probably should have specified

[ask-jaghatai-khan]

// I was looking through the Chaos mutation list and decided to curate some of my favorites. I have below the standout picks of the best and worst ways Chaos can mess with your meatstuff. Pretty funny, pretty terrible.

✴✴✴✴

✴Pretty Good:

Alluring – You become hot. Cool! It’s that easy!

Chaos Were – You can choose to exist in your human or mutant forms at will. Incredibly useful.

Crystalline Body – Tough but brittle, though no doubt spiffy looking. If anyone tries to steal your shiny flesh it turns into dung, so don’t worry about getting robbed for your hide!

Dimensional Instability – A weird one, but it essentially turns you into a half-daemon. You’re susceptible to holy magic, but it seems like you’re not consumed instantly by Chaos unlike other variations on this mutation. Could be very useful!

Evil Eye – You gain a cool black eye that can curse your foes!

Extra Joints – You can do that thing Marceline’s dad did in Adventure Time!

Fangs – Also includes tusks or weirder variants, but still we all know fangs are sexy.

Fast �� Just become faster. Neat!

Flaming Skull Face – You’re fucking Ghost Rider! Yeah baby!

Growth – You get bigger! Inconvenient for clothes shopping, but a benefit for most Chaos Champions.

Horns – You grow a pair of horns that are explicitly badass. You’re a real Chaos Boi now!

Hypnotic Gaze – You gain a cool white eye that can hypnotize people! Combine this with Evil Eye and you’re ready to start a Tiktok account!

Invisibility – Spooky!

Iron Skin – Every Chaos Champion’s dream, and an eternal classic.

Levitation – You just hover everywhere because you’re too damn cool to walk.

Magic Immunity – You become a Chaos Blank essentially. Only downside is that if you’re a sorcerer you turn into a Spawn. Great for Khornates, though!

Sorcerer – You become a sorcerer! Again though, if you followed Khorne he becomes Big Time Pissed.

Intellect – You become smart. Real good. Smart!

Overgrown Body Part – The actual description of this makes it obvious its normally a bad thing, but we all know what we’re really thinking.

Piercing Tongue – Cool! A little bit sexy…

Prehensile Tail – Useful and cool!

Radiant Skin – You glow. Kind of annoying if you want to be inconspicuous, but badass for pretty much anyone else.

Regeneration – You always were a troll, weren’t you?

Scorpion Tail – Again, cool!

Skeleton – Yeah baby! Welcome to the BONE ZONE.

Spit Acid – Pichoo!

Strong – Again, kind of bog standard but are you going to complain?

Telekinesis – You’re not really “magic” but this is still a fun way to troll actual wizards.

Weapon Master – You get really good at a certain weapon. Bam! Free of charge save for your immortal soul.

Wings – Well I mean, of course.

✴Not Good:

Addiction – Literally just a normal addiction. To anything. Sucks as much as in real life!

Atrophy – Your dick fall off. Thanks, Chaos!

Beast with a Thousand... – Specifically notes that all the thousand extra body parts you grow (arms, eyes, etc) are vestigial, so incredibly inconvenient.

Chaos Organ – A disgusting cyst that slowly grows and makes you stronger until it eventually sprouts off and becomes a doppleganger. Weird and potentially very dangerous if your double tries to usurp you. (It will absolutely try to usurp you.)

Chaos Spawn – Needs no explanation.

Cowardice – You become a coward. Lol, cry about it.

Detachable Limbs – You cannot die from dismemberment, but you also can’t put yourself back together and your limbs move on their own. Have fun being a head in a cage when somebody gets the better of you.

Enormous Head – Big head mode unlocked! Is of no benefit at all.

Fits – You just have random seizures. Another Chaos mutation that’s just an actual disability.

Foul Stench – There are a few mutations that do a similar thing, but this is the only one that doesn’t also provide some kind of Nurgle-esque extra effect. You just smell bad and that’s it.

Hopper – You become a monopod. Not great, chief!

Inside Out – You turn inside-out with your goopy bits on the outside. You will be incredibly easy to kill and in constant pain.

Intelligent Cyst – Like Chaos Organ but it’s sentient while still inside you and will try to control your body. If you die it sprouts off into a Chaos Spawn, so at least it can maybe avenge you after it gets you killed.

Mindless – You become a zombie propelled by a Warpstone brain. You die, but at least your body still has utility for your comrades.

Moronic – My good fellow, you have become as dumb as an Orc with a dent in its skull! Dashing bad luck, that.

Pinhead – Who you callin’ pinhead?

Puny – Specifically, your skeleton shrinks but your meat doesn’t. Funny, in a gross way, but not so fun for you.

Rash – Another one where you just get some mundane affliction. You have a rash.

Sensory Loss – Usually pretty shitty. Even if you lose your sense of touch and therefor pain, you also lose all your skin and just bleed out.

Soul Destruction – Crap for you, but pretty cool. Your soul is eaten by daemons and replaced by a substitute that could have been drifting along from any time or place!

Upside-Down – Your arms and legs switch places. Funny! Also terrible.

Walking Head – You become a giant walking head, which is also funny but terrible.

[acidmatze]

Im glad that many things overall are getting better.

When i did my job training in2010/2011 in the exact same place where i will work now as a disabled person, the people there seemed really sheltered. Like.. really. I guess most of them lived in the dorms that are basically opposite my apartment and rules were a lot shittier. There was no wi-fi for one. Also almost no one had a smartphone. Though it was 2011 and im not sure how wide-spread they were back then in general. But at least half of my classmates had one. At work i could count the people who had any cellphone at all on one hand. No one had access to internet, unless they lived with their parents and had a computer or used their parents computer. So the general consensus was "Gay people are icky because my parents and everyone around me say so. I dont really know why they say that and i dont understand the whole thing at all but why would my parents/caretakers lie to me?" It wasnt malice. There was absolutely no hate or malice in these words, more like.. confusion? We sometimes talked about these things in our downtime and since i was still in training i spend more time "hands-on" with the people than my mentors. Way more time. Actually, 100% of my time was in the group while the mentors were there for maybe... half an hour per day in total. Well, it was the home ec group and they worked super independently anyways so that wasnt a problem. If my mentor was sick and a social worker from another department would just come over maybe three times a day to quickly have a look, it never dove into chaos. Fights were solved quickly, everyone knew what their job was, i barely had to do anything besides helping with the tasks. What i wanna say is, they weren't "stupid". This isnt me criticising the people, its me criticising the system they lived in.

Anyway.... ten years later.... I was suuuuuuuuuuper smacked in the head positively by how things had changed. The internship was only two weeks but man... I heard that now its the law that the dorms have to provide free wi-fi. All the time. Always. To everyone. I thought this law was only for rehabilitation places like the one i was at in 2017 but apparently its for every place of that sort. Everyone who was somehow able to use one had a smartphone. Which means, connection to the internet. When i talked to people or heard others talking it didnt felt "out of touch" with what was going on in "the outside world" anymore. Recent news were discussed, national and international, internet trends, memes.. the works. It actually felt like 2021 and not some weird parallel dimension where modern electronics dont exist. Half of the old staff that i knew was gone and replaced by new people. The caretakers that i briefly knew from the dorms that used to be fucking sources of terror and misery were either gone or did a 180. The peeps in the dorms actually had "outside" connections now and went to events that werent linked to the organisation. The hard line between "outside world" and dorms had finally been erased. And. Gay people werent "icky" anymore because someones "parents said so". When i said to some in my group that Im gay and trans they actually knew what it was, cuz theyve either seen it on the internet (tiktok sucks for many reasons but at least you get some fucking exposure to all kinds of people) or had friends that were queer. It was great, honestly. All the complains and shit that left me with a sour taste in my mouth ten years ago were gone.

Also it was great to see most of the people i worked with ten years ago, even if they didnt recognised me, and knowing they are all doing well

[survivormagictreehouse]

Episode #4: “I am definitely sobbing 24/7” -Gavin

-okay so dan left eight to one a real... how you say... zzz. and then birch activates the earthquake and gives us... the best swap... ever...? i say us i mean ME so anyway the swap gives me... my alliance members of vi/collin/ruthie which YES. we already are half the tribe eat it UP. then i have cindi who im close to, who im also in a second game with rn. which BAM, and also... og tribe majority mmmmm delicious. THEN from the other tribe i get. BODHI who im also close to outside of this, and am also in another game with rn (where im about to vote to keep him in so woo we love  building trust...?). then i have rachael who is a sweetheart and TIMMY. ONE OF MY OLDEST ORG FRIENDS HELLOOO. this swap is kind of... too... good? all the people i'd wanna vote out are on the other tribe so the MO rn is to just sweep challenges ideally? thats the agenda. because rn the ones i want gone are birch/keegan/zachary/gavin... all of whom are on the other tribe. so we better get to winning even tho it might be bad for austin/jay if we do (but maybe timmy would go first idek)

-okay so... we just won jeopardy? that challenge truly had me weighing up and considering literally fighting a child because that zach is half child prodigy, half robot he was literally bodying the challenges... BUT THEN WE WON ASFJDKSAL. we literally just went for broke on the final jeopardy and it came THROUGH. im so so happy because i want all of my swap tribe at merge, they are all people i want to stick around so even one tribal would be a disaster. i think timmy might unfortunately be screwed just because jay/austin are really connected. also the annie tribe is probably gonna lose... another og tribe member. but HONESTLY what can you do. this is good for my longterm survival anyway hopefully they turn inwards and get rid of one of OG Jack even though its probably unlikely KJFLSAD.

-well, to start out, i am sorry this is later than anticipated. however, what matters is that i am doing it now... right? ANYWAYS... onto the confessional. i think the main thing i want to talk about this round, is the brilliant move i orchestrated during that challenge that gave us the win... and the fact that i got NO CREDIT FOR IT. OKAY Y'ALL... I SEE YOU. but anyways, i think it is clear that i am basically a mastermind. however, what really matters is that we won... so GO TEAM (me)! following the challenge this round i was added into an alliance chat planned by keegan and zach with rachael and myself. so, when jess wasn't included, i obviously had to go talk to her and subtly expose that alliance... and funnily enough, keegan added jess to alliance with birch! FUNNY. so, we basically figured out that keegan is trying to play everyone and anyone he can--which will definitely be useful information going forward. overall this round, i think i really strengthened some key bonds with birch and rachael specifically. i was on call with rachael for 5 hours straight and talked about personal things with birch for about an hour. so, i honestly feel pretty good going forward. and on the bright-side, if things start to look like they're going south, i always have that idol in my back pocket. until next time... xoxo, gossip girl.

-well, to no ones surprise... we swapped. AND I WAS SEPARATED FROM MY RACHAEL. i’m not crying... (jk, i am definitely sobbing 24/7). but on the bright side, i at least have jess with me. unfortunately due to zachs poor math skills, we lost the challenge that should have been an easy win for us given our lead going into the final jeopardy... but gavin is not bitter. so, unfortunately, we have to go to tribal with a brand new tribe. on the bright side, it seems to be looking in OG jack’s favor numbers wise, so i don’t particularly feel like i am in danger. however, you never know what could happen at tribal council. so, if worse comes to worse, i will have my idol ready to play—but i am hoping it doesn’t come to that. it appears as though austin or jay will be leaving—which is perfectly fine with me (even if i want keegan to go sooner rather than later, it’s best not to make any unnecessary waves right now. so i will continue to let him become a bigger target and try to take charge and snake as he does... and we will go from there.

https://youtu.be/R3zDNJfI3Pc

https://youtu.be/4QKj_KZhhCE

-I....am upset. You put me on a tribe with little cutie Gavin and then RIPPED HIM AWAY. I am beyond upset. I am outraged. SWAP US BACK COWARDS. Can't wait for the next earthquake to hit so we can be reunited. I miss him so much. He still sends me tiktoks though so thats cute. we are watching Hamilton together on Friday and I am so excited.

-It’s 1:02PM and I still miss Gavin.

-It’s 5:14 pm and I still miss Gavin. Hope he doesn’t go home, but I won immunity ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

So I forced a swap. yay! I also exiled myself, mainly to keep myself safe cause fuck getting voted out, Am I right? So I don't really have anything to report on. uhhhh, yeah. Go everyone!! 

-When your tribe mates don't listen to your wager advice and you lose the challenge :))))))))))))))))))))))))

-So a swap happened so that's fun.... I can't even lie I  have swap PTSD from my last Survivor. I was swapped into the minority, rocked myself out with an idol for a souvenir. THAT BEING SAID... This swap worked out for me! I think? At least for now? If I didn't have Gavin with me I'd be extremely worried but because I do believe he has an "in" with the bro's Keegan/Zach aka: a duo... I'll at least know if they are up to some shady shit. I also got Chips! SO PARTY. I'm really thankful we got a swap because I don't know if I would have survived a couple of votes on my previous tribe. I wasn't necessarily "in" with people. So a swap was welcomed but I was also scared shitless. This swap has really opened the door for me/Zach? I don't trust him the slightest BUT at least we have some sort of dialogue right now compared to the crickets we were exchanging on OG JACK. This swap also broke up the "alliance" of Zach, Rachael, Keegan...and Gavin. So now they'll need to find a replacement Rachael and I know I'm not as pretty as Rachael but maybe I'll fill the female quota in that alliance? Chips has opened up a LOT to me so far. We've exchanged idol searches but he feels on the bottom of that "alliance" and I don't blame him. I just don't know where we go from here after this vote. He flips? to Jay? Maybe a Jay/Chips/Keegan/Zach majority? He wants me to flip to a Chips/Jay/Timmy/Majority? I have no idea. We also get Birch next round! I do enjoy Birch so much but that's a number for Keegan and that makes me un-easy. Keegan is easily my biggest threat so far. Next round could potentially be a 6.vs. 2 majority and it can't be THAT simple. I'm going to focus on winning... I guess? I'm really enjoying Timmy so far even though he's given me a few red flags or I'm being lied to hardcore. Austin told me he had a vote reveal however, why would Timmy tell someone who he has said "treated him badly" about a power? So either Timmy is playing me or Austin is playing me. Either way they both can go?! Timmy gives me such weird vibes. I want to trust him but I also think he's going to be a super cut-throat player down the line and that SCARES ME.

Ok.....with the swap that happened and us losing immunity I really feel my game is over. Which really sucks bc i wanna work with ppl like keegan jess jay chips and zach but I dont feel most of those ppl wanna work with me.  I'm not gonna give up tho . I'm gonna try talking and making deals and doing what I can to save myself.  It's not over til tribal and I have plenty of time. Pleaseeeee atomic gods let me make it through this one vote 

Me never remember what my last confessional was about? The title of my autobiography. So, we swapped which is super unfortunate but the tribe I got swapped into has a majority OG Jack members. JESS, ZACH, GAVIN, CHIPS and myself against JAY, TIMMY Z and AUSTIN. And then we lose the challenge because math is apparently impossible? Like ZACH either threw the challenge on purpose or he’s just the worst person at math. Either way, we’re going to tribal tonight. The current plan is to stay tribe strong and vote out an OG Annie which is fine by me. JAY is saying he wants to work with me because we’re both previous winners which is a good point. But I’ve got some solid alliances already and I don’t want to mess those up this early into the game. As far as I can tell right now, the plan is to split votes between JAY and AUSTIN with AUSTIN being the primary target since he’s pretty bad at challenges and isn’t likely to work with us down the line. TIMMY apparently spilled the beans about a six person alliance that didn’t include himself or CINDI, so we’re trying to keep him safe and pull him in as a number for the future. Who knows what will happen though. There’s idols to worry about which is why we’re trying to split the vote. 

This tribe swap makes me so happy because I vibe with these people so much better and it gives me a new chance in this game to fix my activity level. On top of that, we are safe!!! Another round of not having to go to tribal is a good round for me. Who knows why the Annie tribe only wagered $3,000 because that made absolutely no sense but I’m not complaining. Overall, A+ round!

So this round, i find myself swapped into a tribe of people that are so much better then my old tribe. I was on the outs of that 6 person alliance and I am sure I would have been the next to go for sure. I get a really good vibe off of zach and jess, plus gavin and keegan are cool too. Not to sure about Chips but I have to put my trust in these people for the mean time. As for the challenge, we lost and i knew I was going to vote with the old Jack tribe. We plan on splitting the votes 3 vs 3 with austin and jay voting whoever. Of course in true them style, the moment they found out it was them, they threw me under the bus immediately. Hopefully everything goes as planned tonight and Austin goes home, if not it is going to be me. I have had good convos with people tho and hope that can get me through this tribe.

Well this swap completely sucks. In the complete minority, someone sold out the alliance to Timmy so I doubt he trusts me anymore. I just tried to be honest with him so he'd see me in a better light and I hope it worked. Beyond that, we lost the challenge and I think my head is on the chopping block. Earlier today Chips came and told me that he's pretty sure the votes are coming down on me and they're gonna tell me Austin to fake me out. And you know, that's probably true because Zach, Keegan, and Gavin have all told me it's Austin. What troubles me is that Chips doesn't seem to have a plan otherwise even though it seems like he wants to do something else. So once Zach told me it's Austin, I had more of a chat with him. He really seems to not want me to go anywhere, which is hard not to believe. Either he's telling me the truth or he's a fantastic liar. Same with Keegan, even though I think it's in both of our best interests to work together going forward. At this point it's clear that it's gonna split between Austin and myself so i worry if I don't vote Austin then I'm just automatically out. Shits really hard in the game right now and all I want is to survive another day.

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I am finally not at the bottom. My original tribe has minority and I have prior existing relationships with 2/3 of the og Jack tribe. Plus I have bodhi, whom I absolutely love, on my tribe. I am happy. 

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