#like the thing is my first beatles phase got me through some of the worst years of my life which is great

[menlove]

the Issue with getting really back into a band you were obsessed with as a lonely & actively being traumatized 11-13 year old when u associate songs with memories is that. Well. sometimes u associate songs with memories.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #455

“but you didn’t have to cut me off  /  make it like it never happened and that we were nothing”

Are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship or just friends? We're besties! :') Has anyone ever pointed out that your laugh was unusual? No. Would you get a lip piercing? I already have a vertical labret. I've considered getting spiked snakebites (they might be called devil bites?) too, though. With a vertical labret, it looks sick as FUCK. It might be a bit much too close together for me, though, idk. Nose piercing? I want my right nostril re-pierced. What are you currently waiting for? Girt to message me back. I've decided what I want out of our relationship and just want to see him. Do you have feelings for anyone? Hit me pretty hard through a lot of examination of my feelings that yeah, I do. Have you ever run over an animal? Oh my god no, I would be DESTROYED. Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? bro what the fuck When people sneeze do you say ‘bless you’? I do only out of expectation. I don't want someone to think I'm an ass or something for not saying it. When was the last time you were on a bouncy castle? A few years ago for my niece's birthday. She was scared of how loud it was and was very reluctant to get near it, so my fat ass got in there with everyone else to show her it was fine lol. I can't remember if she eventually got in. She loves them now, though. :') Have you ever went on a bouncy castle whilst drunk? No, but thanks for the idea, ha ha. Have you ever entered an art competition? Yes. What is one thing you will never do? Try hardcore drugs. What is one food that you detest? Asparagus. Did you have a rebellious phase growing up? Not really. What religion were you brought up with? Roman Catholic. Are you still that religion? GOD NO. Do you often find yourself questioning your future? That's my full-time job. How many friends do you have on Facebook? 124. What sort of music did you listen to when you were in high school? The same I listen to now. What pet names do you use with your significant other? I'm single rn, but usually, I go for "sweetie/sweetheart," "hunny," "love," "dear," stuff like that. What’s the name of the store you usually get your groceries? Wal-Mart. Have you ever seen a theatre show? Yes. What’s your favourite vegetable? Broccoli. Have you ever missed a flight? Yes. I was SO fuckin upset because it was on Sara's birthday and planned in secret, and I was supposed to wake her up. It still wound up being a big surprise to her when she walked into her room and I was chillin' at her desk, ha ha, but I still wish it coulda gone as originally planned. Do your neighbours have any pets? Have you ever met them? Yes; they have a yappy-ass dog that doesn't shut up. I haven't met them. What color is your bedroom door? White. If you were ever to become famous, would you grow annoyed at fans? This may sound very ungrateful, but I have heard A LOT of celebrities say it: it would get old, being stopped constantly in public for signatures, pictures, etc. Like yes, I still WOULD be grateful, but I'd miss just being off the radar and able to go outside carrying out chores and stuff like a normal person. Have you ever met your favourite band/singer? No. :( Are you embarrassed by any of the songs/singers/bands you like? Nah, not nowadays. Have you ever written a story? Yes, a kinda short one when I was little. Think of the last poem you wrote: What inspired you to write it? The breakup with Jason and the fact we're just strangers again. It was really short, but I like it a lot, honestly. Do you have a chance with the person you like right now? I think so. What’s the weirdest thing you were scared of as a child? A skeleton in my closet, lol. Literally. Are there any embarrassing stories your family tells about you? alkdsjflakjwle yes In your opinion, what is the funniest TV show? That '70s Show. 3rd Rock From the Sun is high up there, too. What is the maximum number of children you’d ever have? HYPOTHETICALLY, two, but I'm pretty damn serious about having none. I just always feel kinda bad for children without a sibling, but three would make me pull my hair out. Have you ever been concerned you had a serious illness? Yes. I overreact to even minor symptoms to ANYTHING. Are you comfortable with who you are? No. Pretty much everything about myself embarrasses me, even if it shouldn't. Would you date someone even if you knew you’d get made fun of for it? Yes? Others' opinions don't affect how I feel about someone. Does popularity matter to you at all? No, outside of trying to be a successful photographer. Would you ever consider homeschooling your children? If they really wanted that and it would benefit them, yes. Who told you about the band/singer you are currently listening to? I discovered them myself. Do you ever read fanfiction? Nah. Would you rather die in a plane crash, ship wreck or fire? Jesus. A plane crash, I guess, because in a lot of cases, it would be an immediate death. What are your top five favourite TV shows? Meerkat Manor, Fullmetal Alchemist (and Brotherhood; shut up, they go together), That '70s Show, Ginga Densetsu Weed, and Deadman Wonderland. What is your favorite superhero movie? Logan. If you died next week, what would be the cause of death? Uhhhh idk... I guess maybe a heart attack? Judging by doctor appointments, my heart is just fine, but the fact still remains that I'm technically obese, so that's always a risk. Have you ever taken a break from Facebook or other social media? Why? Facebook, yes. It was just depressing me. I was playing the comparison game REAL hard. Who is the most talented person you know? I dunno. I know many people talented in a lot of areas. Are you currently platonic friends with anyone you’ve had sex with? No. Where did you and your current interest go on your first date? Bowling. Have you ever experienced two people fighting over you (physically or mentally)? What happened? Jason and Juan pursued me at the same time. They'd known each other in the past, and Juan hated him for "winning" his ex-girlfriend. Then when Jason and I got together, Juan wasn't the happiest for sure. Have your parents ever thought you were gay? What happened? Before I actually came out as bisexual, I don't think so? Are your parents more liberal or conservative? Conservative. Mom is more open, but still conservative. I think. What year are you going into at the beginning of the next academic year? I'm not in school. How far away does your closest family member live? I live with Mom. If you’ve seen both, did you prefer the Disney version or the Tim Burton version of Alice in Wonderland? I actually strongly prefer Tim Burton's. Would you have sex before marriage? Why or why not? Yeah. I just want to be in a long-term, serious, healthy relationship to reach that point and be as safe as possible about it. Are you more liberal or conservative? Liberal, but I do have some conservative beliefs, too. Who is your favorite Harry Potter character? I don't have one, given I never got into that franchise. What’s the worst that could come out of letting gays marry? Not a goddamn thing. What’s the most sexual thing you’ve done? Done "the thing." Name something that you are against. I'll go with an unconventional one that's a problem as of the late: making owning reptiles illegal. Why are you against it? Because reptiles are perfectly capable of being brilliant pets and, most importantly, can tame people's fears of them. I think that it's very important to see the worth and beauty in all animals, and reptiles are one of the most unappreciated families out there. :/ Have you ever played the Tomb Raider games? I played some of either the first or second one. I could never beat it. Old games are hard, man. Do you like it or hate it when your partner is clingy? I absolutely believe that it can get to an extreme that I don't like, but for the most part, I don't mind a clingy partner because hey, I am too. Beatles or Rolling Stones? Stonessss. When was the last time you changed your opinion on somebody? It'd been on my mind for a while, but I *officially* realized that I really do like-like Girt a couple days ago. And since then it's gotten a bit hardcore and all I wanna do is talk to him bc fuck me and how attached to people I get. What was the last thing that made you feel proud and why? Every single time I go to the gym, I feel proud of myself because it REALLY takes a lot out of me. Do you feel uncomfortable when people you hardly know confide in you? Nope. I'm willing to be a shoulder to cry on for like... anyone. If you're hurting, talk to someone. I'll be there as an easy option. What was the last thing to fascinate you? It was... INCREDIBLY disturbing and almost nauseating even for me, but I saw a video of a dead whale explode. It was GRUESOME. Guts just kept coming and coming and coming and :x Is there a certain noise/sound which scares you? Hmmm... I'm sure there is, but what, it's not coming to me. Sudden, loud noises are an obvious answer. Do you have a favourite microorganism? ... No, I can't say I do. Out of the people you know, whose birthday is next? Girt's, actually. It's in October. If you have pet fish do you bother to name them? I did when I actually had them as a kid. Do you keep your eggs in the fridge? Ye. Have you ever owned chickens? No, but that'd be cool. Fresh eggs from a properly cared for chicken taste SO much better. When did you last listen to music? Currently. NOW I'm obsessed with Melodicka Bros & Violet Orlandi's cover of "Somebody That I Used to Know." It's done in a gothic metal style and is amaaaazing.

[sevenclowds]

ang's epic adventure 2k17

The extremely long-winded, full director’s cut, bonus edition of 4 days spent chasing round the country after Frank Iero. I don’t expect anyone to read all of this, but I wrote it for my benefit bc I don’t want to forget any details of my epic adventure. Warning: very long and emo. Scenes of crying & general fangirling.

LIVERPOOL Sept 21 2017

I got the train down from Edinburgh to Liverpool in the morning and arrived around lunchtime. It felt weird being on my own so far from home yet this area is where I grew up so I was both home and far from home and it was the oddest combination of feelings. I wandered around the city listening to the scousers and enjoying hearing that accent again. My hotel for the night was Parr St Studios, a really cool place that is still a working recording studio that has been used by the likes of Coldplay, Pulp, and The Smiths, but still manages to find space for a few hotel rooms. I have to say, even though I was forewarned about the noise on the website, it is without doubt the loudest, least restful place I've ever stayed in. Imagine trying to get some shut-eye on the floor of a night club and you might have some idea. I still loved the place, don't get me wrong and would stay there again in a heartbeat because it was so cool. I sat in my room that afternoon listening to the same guitar riff being played downstairs over and over and over for 2 hrs. It was pretty catchy until they added some autotune vocals which, if they want my opinion, sorta spoiled the vibe. But I was in Liverpool, the home of good music, in a literal recording studio, looking out at The Arts Club, where Frank and the boys would be playing that night. I was happy and buzzed. Life is good!

View from my window:

The Arts Club is that building with the checked brick design. From my perfectly placed spying window, I could see the band coming and going out the side door. Matt came out for a cigarette, Frank came out to make a phone call, Derek Zanetti came out in his floral sweater and hugged some random person, one of the Paceshifters crew paced and shifted. It was compulsive viewing. (If you zoom in really far you'll see Matt outside smoking.) I see you, Matt Olsson.

At 7pm I made my way down in the rickety lift (one of those old fashioned ones with the grille and concertina door that gives you a workout just trying to get in the damn thing) and walked next door to the Arts Club.

THE SUPPORT BANDS Paceshifters This Dutch trio consists of a pair of super-cute brothers with nice hair and a half-naked drummer. They've obviously listened to a lot of Oasis/Smashing Pumpkins bc the lead singer has a similar grungy nasal voice. Some of their songs go on a bit and have quieter contemplative moments that are probably great to listen to at home, but make the folks at the show head for the bar. Overall, a promising act. I liked them a lot but I think they were maybe just a little too nervous to project their presence fully.

The Homeless Gospel Choir Derek Zanetti, aka THGC, arrives onstage and instantly owns it. With his flowery sweater, slightly out of tune acoustic guitar, big earnest blue eyes, large glasses, and his heart on his sleeve, he proceeds through his set of "folk punk protest songs" like an endearing steam train, gathering speed and the audience's attention as he goes. "This is a protest song!" he yells before every single song, and we can't stop smiling and laughing and cheering him on. He's the very definition of punk: an outcast, no longer trying to fit into any mould, proud to be different, and reminding the room that we're "never gonna be normal cause you're a punk!" I luff him.

Dave Hause & the Mermaid So after all that excitement, on comes Dave Hause and his mermaid friends. I'd love to like this band, but for some reason they offend my musical sensibilities. To my ears, their sound is very middle of the road rock, the kind of thing I used to listen to in the late 80s/early 90s before Frank & co were old enough to invent good music. Perhaps that's my problem with them, they remind me of past times, and I've moved on from the Bryan Adams phase of my life and don't particularly need to revisit it. The band is competent enough, but I just wish they had some songs that made me feel alive and want to clap my hands of my own accord, rather than being forced to clap by a frantic Dave Hause whose sole purpose in life seems to be to make every single audience member clap along to every single second of the show while singing 'Oh-oooohh", which incidentally, seems to be the chorus of every song. Two identical blokes near the front pumped their fists and sang to every single word, so obviously my lukewarm opinion wasn't shared by everybody. Plus, Evan clearly enjoyed them, because I spotted him up on the balcony taking some video during their set:

FIATP Finally, to the dramatic strains of the Interstellar soundtrack, our heroes took to the stage. As the first guitar chords rang out, they were completely captivating as usual. Their set consisted of a mix of old and new, BFF and No Fun Club from the new EP, and Helter Skelter to please the Beatles fans in the audience. Frank told us, "We're going to play some songs tonight that we haven't played in a long time. There's some songs that we don't normally play. There's some songs that we do play a lot so, uh, you can just pretend to be surprised by all of them!" At one point someone shouted, "Matt Olsson is sexy as fuck!" to which Frank shot back, "That might not be true!" Nice to see some Matt love :) The crowd, although very enthusiastic, wasn't quite as lively as I'd imagined a scouser crowd would be, and nothing like as rough and bruise-inducing as the Glasgow crowds I grew up going to shows with. I think a lot of that was to do with the stage being so wide which made the audience seem a little sparse. Even at the back, there would be only about 10 people in front of you. Overall, though, it's a wonderful venue for being able to see the band because everyone is close and I got some great pics and video :)

Videos: BFF | I’m a Mess | Helter Skelter | Matt Olsson love

After the show, I wandered among the merch booths. The Paceshifter boys were looking a little sad and lonely so I signed up for their mailing list, took a sticker and told them I liked their stuff. I felt like a mother trying to give encouragement to her kids. You did great! Keep up the good work! I made Paul Paceshifter smile so my work was complete. Then I bought a 5 quid patch from the Homeless Gospel Choir and Derek was so appreciative you'd think I'd just paid off his mortgage. He asked my name, took my hand, looked at me with those piercing blue eyes of his and thanked me profusely for my generosity. I got a photo with him. "We're two peas in a pod!" he said. I'm not sure what he meant but I just laughed and agreed...

Then I noticed Evan on the stage, coiling up cables, and figured I'd annoy him next. I shouted his name and he came over and we chatted about the fact that I'd met him in Baltimore (I don't think he remembered me but whatever, I still consider him to be my friend dammit!) and that we'd had a conversation about Nando's being his fave British restaurant. I asked him if he'd had his Nando's fix yet and he said yes he'd eaten lunch there and then proceeded to natter about how good their chicken is and how he can't get it back home. He said he'd felt really off tonight because of jet lag and that he'd played probably his worst show ever. I told him I disagreed and that I thought he did great (again with the parental pep talk wtf). Then I remembered that @phantomseverywhere would kill me if I didn't get a pic of Future Husband™ so he came and sat on the edge of the stage and we got this pic:

He said he was so exhausted that he didn't think his image would show up in the photo. Bless. Poor Evvie.

I went outside and there were so many people out there. It's a busy night club district and apparently Thurs night is party night for Liverpudlians. I went back to the hotel briefly to get some wifi so I could send updates and pics. Then I came back down at midnight to see if the band were out yet. There were a fair number of fans standing around waiting but gradually they all trickled away until it was just me, a 14 yr old called Mia and her dad, and a small group of maybe 6 people. I struck up a conversation with Mia because she was sweet and had X's on her eyes. This was her first time seeing Frank and she was super excited. Then Frank came out, wheeling a box of equipment down the road and across the cobblestoned street (they must hate Europe!). Mia was like, "It's Frank! OMG it's FFRNAK!" and we got to shake his hand and get some photos and he said he'd come back out and chat after they'd loaded the van. He looked very cold with at least 3 layers, hood, hat and thick gloves. It wasn't actually very cold at all. Bless our Frank and his lack of circulation.

All the bands were loading their own equipment into the van. I guess I thought they might have crew to do that for them but they only had a skeleton crew. (So very proud of that joke! Sorry, couldn't help myself.) I kinda felt like asking them if they needed help (again, mom mode) but would they find that weird and I expect they're very protective of all their expensive kit and wouldn't want the likes of us touching it. A group of drunk girls walked past, and asked if they were famous. "Who are you? Have we heard of you? Are you famous?" To which Alex replied, "Yes, we're all famous!" but the girls obviously didn't believe him and walked off. I said, "Alex! I know you're famous. Can I get a photo with you?" and his little face lit up. He complained that no one ever recognizes the bass player, to which I reminded him that I did indeed recognize him and here we were taking a selfie and could he please shut up and smile ;)

Then Frank wandered over to us, clearly ready to sign things and chat. Mia had a sharpie so we all got stuff signed. Someone said they would be at the Glasgow show in Oct and he said that show is on the year anniversary of the accident. I asked him how his shoulder was and he said, "It suhks! I'm in constant pain." :( I asked him if he was getting massage therapy and/or physical therapy and he said he was getting PT. He told me he'd torn the tendon from the bone, so it sounds like a rotator cuff injury, which are notorious for taking many months and even years to heal :( He said he'd been offered surgery to fix it but didn't really want to go under the knife. "I don't want them to cut me." (OMG could he be more vulnerable and lovable?) He said, "Is it getting any better? No. But is it getting any worse? No. So I'm just going to wait it out for now." I left feeling so immensely grateful that he puts on shows for us and plays that damn guitar even though he's in pain. Props to you, kiddo! You're amazing!

I went back to the hotel and spent 2 hrs coming down from the high of meeting Frank. I'd finally met him. Bloody hell, it's been 12 years and I got there eventually, due to a gargantuan effort, meticulous planning, and much expense  in plane fares and hotel bills. Totally. All. Worth. It. I messaged my husband and he was so excited for me. He posted to Facebook, “If your wife’s going to run off with someone, it may as well be Frank. No shame in that.” Love that man and his tolerance of my weird hobbies :) At about 3.30am I eventually figured I might be calm enough to sleep, but the noise was un-fucking-believeable. My window was locked open which meant my room was freezing and all the nightclub sounds from outside in the adjoining building were so loud. I might as well have been outside. Even with earplugs, a hoodie, and a pillow over my ears, it was hopeless. I maybe got 3 hrs of low quality sleep and at 7am figured fuck it I might as well get up and go to Leeds.

LEEDS Sept 22 2017

Took the train to Leeds and checked into the hotel right next to the Key Club. I love a venue right next to a hotel. Makes things so easy :) It was a trendy hotel and I wasn't sure I liked this cricketer in my shower who freaked me out every time I used the bathroom.

I had too much nervous excitement to eat but I forced myself to have a bowl of soup for dinner. I wasn’t feeling that great tbh. The sleep deprivation was starting to get to me and I wondered if I'd be able to stand for the 4 hr show again that night. What was I thinking? Teenagers can do this night after night but can old people? Do I have the stamina? Was this all a big mistake?

I made my way to the Key Club and Paceshifters were already on stage. The venue was small (tiny!), long and narrow so that only a few people could be at the front. It was dark, cosy, and welcoming. Instantly, I was home again and I tucked myself into the crowd, all tiredness evaporating. I couldn't think of anywhere I'd rather be. I was living! How stupid I'd been to think I needed sleep! Nope, what I needed was 4 hours of live punk music. Yes!! I saw lots of familiar faces from the previous night. The two identical Dave Hause enthusiasts were there, fists pumping and heads banging during his set, and I got chatting to a couple of girls who had come from Canada and Germany to this show. Then FIATP came on and the room went fuhkin WILD!!! Congrats, Leeds. You definitely won the prize for most energetic crowd. Bloody. Hell. The room moved in waves and I didn't really stand a chance of doing anything but go with it. I impersonated flotsam for a couple of songs until I managed to extricate myself and get to the side of the room. Frank later informed us that it was a sold out crowd. Go Leeds! We were treated to Helter Skelter again, and also It Ain't Easy (a Bowie cover). Loving the covers, guys. During the encore break the crowd started chanting "Oh Jeremy Corbyn!" which was the greatest thing ever tbh. It was obvious that a bunch of Americans weren't going to know who Jeremy Corbyn is and Frank came out looking amused and confused. "To be honest," he said, "I have no idea what you guys are saying but it sounds fucking awesome!" Haha omg.

Videos: Oh Jeremy Corbyn! | It Ain’t Easy | Remedy

I didn't hang around to meet the guys after the show because 1) I didn’t want to bother them every night and 2) because I really needed to get an early night. The show finished at 10.13 and I was back up in my hotel room by 10.15. Get in!

THOUGHT BUBBLE Sept 23 2017

So this was going to be my day off. All I had planned on my itinerary was "Hang out in Leeds". The next show wasn't until the next day so I thought I'd have an easy day wandering around before getting the train to Manchester. But then I found out about Thought Bubble, a comic con which was happening. In fucking Leeds. The actual place I was already in. That day. The actual day I had off. So what's a girl to do but go see Gerard Way. Might as well meet half of mcr during this trip. I purchased a day pass and wandered off to find where Gee was. I found him in Leeds Town Hall, right in the corner, sort of trapped there signing things all day. Not sure how he does it, but it didn't look like the most fun a guy could have. I'd already decided not to stand in line to meet him because I'd heard someone say the queue snaked though 4 rooms in the building and down the stairs outside (I was hearing 5 hrs wait) and I'd already met him 2 yrs ago at NC Comicon. So I just snapped a couple of pictures from a distance, content with just seeing him in person, reassured that he was still real and alive and well. I wandered around some of the comic tables but I wasn't even in the mood for it. Turns out a comic con isn't much fun on your own. It didn't seem right to be there without my comic-loving hubby and kiddo.

There was still 5 hrs to go until the Young Animal panel. Why was it scheduled so late? If I went to that then I would have to get a later train to Manchester and would arrive in the dark, which isn't the best plan for a girl on her own. What to do? I debated for ages with my buddy @gerardwaay. Should I get the earlier train, arrive in plenty of time and get some much-needed rest, or should I attend the panel which ends late and travel in the dark and risk getting killed horribly in Manchester? So of course, I chose Gerard over my life. You would have done the same, right?

There wasn't exactly a queue for the panel yet, but I could see a crowd of what were clearly "my people", waiting outside the panel venue. I recognized about half of them from the Leeds and Liverpool shows lmao. There was a guy with a Black Parade jacket, so many girls wearing fishnets, people with FIATP and Umbrella Academy patches. Yes, I was in the right place. These were my people :)

After about 2 hours of waiting we were allowed into the auditorium and we all spent a very happy hour in the company of Gerard and co. The girls next to me in the queue had been laughing about the fact that they'd spent all day at the comic con and hadn't seen any of the comic stuff at all. All they'd done was literally queue up to meet Gerard and then queue up again to see Gerard. That man is single-handedly propping up the comic book industry lmao.

MANCHESTER Sept 24 2017

I spent the day catching up with an old friend of mine who I hadn't seen for 13 yrs. We had a great time comparing fandoms: she's into One Direction and Harry Styles. She's never heard any MyChem songs, but then again I've never knowingly heard a One Direction song either so it's all good. As we wandered around Manchester we saw many more of "my people" and I trained her how to spot them and inducted her into the secret world of the Frank symbol. This is how we communicate with each other, I said. Through the use of this symbol and the initials "FIATP". Does Harry Styles have a symbol, huh? Huh? I actually don't know the answer to this.

At 6.30pm we parted ways and I headed down to the venue. I had had very little to eat that day and was feeling hungry-sick but literally couldn't eat anything. It was a good job this was the last night because being on the road is tough. I honestly don't know how the guys do it, and once again I’m enormously appreciative and in awe of all they do for us.

The Manchester show was so nice. It felt like a big party. So many familiar faces, people starting to know all the words to The Homeless Gospel Choir songs, the Jeremy Corbyn chant popping up again, Dave Hause doing a tribute to Oasis by doing a few choruses of Wonderwall. I think this was my favourite show of the 3. I was getting into the swing of being on my own and I had an absolute blast! The only thing is that it was so HOT. Frank said he had trench foot because his shoes still hadn't dried out from the previous show. I don't think they'll be drying out anytime soon tbh.

Videos: Blood Infections | They Wanted Darkness | World Destroyer | Joyriding

After the show, I got a taxi back to my hotel and as I walked to the lift, a sudden wave of emotion hit me. By the time I reached my room I was a sobbing mess. I stood in my room crying, big wracking sobs, not of sadness, but of joy, gratitude and love for these special few days I got to spend with my band. I am so immensely grateful to have them in my life. Do they know how much they mean to me? DO THEY KNOW???! Thanks to @phantomseverywhere for letting me cry at you until I calmed down :) I was just processing a lot of emotions at once. It had been an intense trip, traveling on my own, trying to keep myself safe, meeting my hero and his lovely friends, and partying to my favourite music every night whilst surrounded by my people. Thank you thank you thank you. I am the luckiest girl in the world :D

[adella-the-romantic-blog]

Get To Know Me (even tho literally no one asked lol)

*PERSONAL DETAILS

Nicknames? Kirbs, mostly. My coworkers at an old job called me Kirbstomp, which birthed the name that I use for literally everything. My family calls me Sue because they thing that “Kirby Sue” is a better southern name for me. Where do you live? lol south Louisiana kill me pls What’s your age? 24 Hair color? Black Eye color? Brown Height? 5′2 on a good day Date of Birth? November 16th What’s your star sign? I’m the truest Scorpio you’ve ever met hello Element? Water How many siblings? Two half siblings How many pets? I have 4 dogs (Harley, Gizmo, Bandit, and Kokomo), two of which technically live with my parents, and a corn snake named Peach Obsessions? Pokemon, Disney, snakes, slime (don’t u fuckin judge me it’s so cool) Bad habits? Drinking until I pass out does that count really? Phobias? Falling, the void

*ABOUT YOU

What makes you happy? Rainy days, 50 First Dates, spending time with any other human ever What really irritates you? Hot air, water left on the edge of the sink, spending too much time with any other human ever What makes you sad? pft everything hi i’m depressed What makes you angry? People who slow down too much while trying to turn, living in the south, Trump’s America What makes you scared? Under cooked chicken, when a friend doesn’t text me that they made it home, Trump’s America (see I did the thing again) Who is your best friend? Julie, who I met through the last Disney rp I was in on Tumblr, Alex, who I met through this Disney rp on Tumblr, and Wade, who I met through Ms. Roxie’s pre-k class.  Ever broken a bone? Yes, broke my tailbone playing softball. What was the last CD you bought? Christ, um... maybe... Paramore? Brand New Eyes?  What was the last book you read? It’s Kind Of A Funny Story by Ned Vizzini Who was the last person you spoke to? Like spoke-spoke? My mom. Texted was my friend Becca. What was the last thing you ate? Mushroom rice What was the last thing you drank? Uh idk some V-8 stuff that tastes like the gummy watermelon Lifesavers What’s the best thing you’ve ever bought? My gaming computer, probably. What’s the worst thing you’ve ever bought? My gaming computer, probably. What’s the best thing you’ve ever been given? A house. What’s the worst thing you’ve ever been given? My mom likes to believe that she’s good at picking out clothes to give me for Christmas. She isn’t. What are your future goals? My current goal is to make it out of Louisiana in one piece. One step at a time. Describe your bedroom? Woo okay. It’s like a small apartment. I have a fenced in yard where Harley and Gizmo can run and play and not get lost in the woods, and a covered, wooden porch with a table and chairs where I keep my crystals laid out so that they can be in the moonlight as much as possible. There’s fairy lights strung up around in the rafters of the porch roof. The door opens into my room, to the left is my bed in the corner with grey sheets, a black comforter with a gold mandala inlay, and a giant Maui TsumTsum that I cuddle with at night. There’s a star map tapestry on the wall next to my bed, and in front of the bed is my TV stand. There’s a basket in the corner that holds all of my records and a small table that holds my record player (Fleetwood Mac Live is on the player now). Next to my closet door there is a small terrarium hung that holds some sand and a succulent, and the same goes for th terrarium hung next to my window. I’ve framed concert posters of the Beatles and Elvis (fight me) across from my bookshelf. Who do you consider the most beautiful woman in the world? Well, I mean *unrolls mile long scroll* have you got time to talk about our lord and savior Idina Menzel? If not there’s Karen Gillan and Natalie Dormer and Elizabeth Gillies and Who do you consider the most handsome man in the world? Maybe... idk maybe Ryan Reynolds? Favorite thing to do on a hot summers day? Swim so that I don’t feel like my skin is melting off Favorite thing to do on a snowy winters day? PLAY IN THE SNOW GIVE ME THE CHILLY GOODNESS If you were granted 3 wishes, what would they be? A better life for my dad, the money and willpower to make something of myself, so much money. If you could go back in time to see or change something, when would it be and what would you do? Wow um... there are so many things I’d go back and change honestly lmao What’s the first thing you think about when you wake up? Is it cold yet? or Please don’t let it be 9:30 yet. Do you believe in the after-life? EhhhHHHHHHHHH???????? Where do you see yourself in 10 years time? I honestly have no idea What’s the funniest joke you’ve ever been told? “It’s just a phase.” *aggressively turns Pokemon music up* Any hidden talents? Does telepathy count? I can kind of sing too? Dream job? Zookeeper Who is your hero? Honestly Idina Menzel Describe yourself in 3 words: Loyal, charismatic, lazy

*FAVORITES

Favorite color? Pink Favorite number? 3 Favorite animal? Snake Favorite sport (to play)? Volleyball Favorite sport (to watch)? Football, baseball, volleyball Favorite Show(s)? Golden Girls, Steven Universe Favorite movies? Aladdin, 50 First Dates Favorite band? Paramore, Fleetwood Mac Favorite song? Dreams by Fleetwood Mac, I Wanna Dance With Somebody by Whitney Houston Favorite room in the house? My bedroom Favorite food? Pizza Favorite drink? Bahama Mama Favorite place? Coyote Drive-In in Fort Worth, TX Favorite cartoon character? Garnet on SU, Princess Jasmine Favorite day of the week? Thursday Favorite day of the year? Halloween and my birthday Favorite season? Fall Favorite Holiday? Halloween Favorite girls name? Kalista Favorite boys name? Emery Favorite country? England Favorite smell? Coconut Favorite sound? Rain Favorite accent? British Favorite Ships (in or our of BDRP)? Pft mine (I think Octoclam might be my favorite don’t tell the others or Alex) Favorite Fandoms? Critical Role, Steven Universe

*PREFERENCES

Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi Pen or Pencil? Pen Day or Night? Night Cat or Dog? Both? Both are good. Summer or Winter? Winter T.V. or Radio? Radio Brains or Beauty? whY THE FUCK I CAN’T HAVE BOTH I say both Cup or Mug? Mug Tea or Coffee? Also both Gold or Silver? Silver, but like gold is cool too Brush or Comb? Pft neither City or Country? City Early or Late riser? Late Blond or Brunette? Brunette Scary or Romantic movies? Scary Board or Computer games? Um how dare you I need both Half full or Half empty? Depends on the day Happy and poor or Sad and rich? Happy and poor Glasses or Contacts? Glasses Flowers or Chocolates? Flowers Love or Money? Love Hugs or Kisses? UM both but like kisses if I had to choose

And now, pictures that you didn’t ask for.

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15 Weird Hobbies That'll Make You Better At Wedding Singers

There are a couple things. If it fails to play with songs that you would like then search for a different one. So in the event that you would like your mobile to operate with a number of bands, you must have multi band mobiles.

You need to determine the type of singer and band that you desire. Singers find other types of singing tasks to allow them to make a money. But session singers simply work it's vitally important they can get the work done well without sight see and the should rehearse. Choosing a singer for your wedding can frequently be an intimidating experience.

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The song was an effort to ease her grief. In reality, his songs still market steadily all around the globe. The song is intended to celebrate peoples diferences. In addition, you need to be sure the band plays songs that you desire.

The preparation which went into the terrorist plot was a good deal of years. The music company can be a cruel and hard spot for artists. It's very glamorous to have a singing job, and they're able to provide pay that's why they are wanted by numerous singers.

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You know, once the show was great. The show is certain to have you singing together with a few of the best Bee Gees hits and dancing. If you are attempting to find a tribute show it will be discovered by you in the city of Vegas. Have a peek at why the show was made by you in the location. Near the actual Michael The show was a one it was along with the performances were cool! Seeing a series is a part of the Vegas experience. You must look what you've made, if you're generating that display or TV Shows that have flopped.

Tickets for the five rows incorporate a souvenir colour booklet. Your tickets weren't valid for entry. Tickets for a show and dinner is an excellent way and there are a lot of shows.

There are those who can not live without amusement. It can be quite soothing to body and the mind. Apart from the above, it may be used for purposes. One of the typical things for individuals to cut out is their entertainment.

There are lots of wonderful strategies to locate amusement for next to nothing. It's not confined to dance and tune numbers. It may be observed as a business. A good method to receive entertainment that is free would be to visit the library and find a novel or a film.

10 Signs You Should Invest In Tribute Band

You've got to supply information and your organization logo as the corporation will design number of items that range to invitations and other materials. Needless to say, not every business is able to be this avant-garde in their promotions. There are.

You are able to use music at your house or your backyard. We are likely to get to get a path that is different if you're among the lucky individuals who wish to know more and develop into your type of music. The fundamentals want to be strong since it's a kind of music in which a guitarist must play on distinct scales and chords. Together with a lot of practice, you may be playing some quick and smoothjazz songs.

If a ring doesn't have sound and video samples to their site or even worse, don't have a site that raises serious red flags. Of course you are likely to want a band that may play a number of your songs and artists but you wish to amuse your visitors. A band we hear is merely a part of this but a fantastic deal can be indicated by it. Themed rings are rather popular that you might opt to initiate a tribute band! Any fantastic expert wedding band ought to have a site with video and sound.

You might never consider music after you have been subjected to this Ukes' musicology. If you trade songs either in online or person the penalties can be a lot worse. It is about to go and I want to think is classic, so I want to think it could be released by me at anytime. You don't want to be told that you can play music that is real time as soon as you have paid the ring their deposit.

PERFECT TIMING It can be hard working out the period of time you and as soon as you are considering getting the ring would like them to perform for. A previous thing for our tribute band is the character of their material. There are numerous more tribute bands out there competing for the same audience that is specific than there used to be so make sure that your tribute group is. Look through the gig listings and odds are you will discover as singers and many tribute bands because there are acts.

Does Your The Tribute Act Pass The Test? 7 Things You Can Improve On Today

Your favourite recording artist probably employs a singing sound near their voice that is speaking. So music is still one of the things which come to my mind whenever I think of my father. The music of d'Agostino can be bought on his site or downloaded from internet retailers.

In the event the celebrity has lots of info they would like you to share with the audience, either memorize it or have a bit of paper out on stage alongside you. The live performance creates. Such performances carry the event's character to a different level.

For growing out your hair the process depends upon your planned length. Can you discuss the top methods technology is shifting the experience of visiting the health care provider. The principal focus now is currently obtaining a couple of songs up to speed.

Parts of your hair will grow out at rates that are distinct. If your hair is long enough, then you're going to be in a place to hold up this in various ways. Cleaning your hair gets important. Based on how quickly your hair dries up, every two to three times you may be shampooing and conditioning your hair. As a very long hair that you don't wash!

Once they get to the phase their own hair cuts. Your hair will get in the way and could wind up on your meals! Hair that is long that is growing isn't for everybody.

Tribute acts have turned into a sound genre all their own. The first acts they are patterned not always welcome them after. The tribute act was performed all around the nation to rave reviews and features 2 sets of Cole's finest hits.

Every band have their own stipulations that customers must comply to appreciate their expert services. A thing for our tribute band to think about is the character of the promotional material. Bands begin they will need to have the ability to play with musical instruments to start with. Tribute band are rather popular among residents due to their concerts. Have a look at our catalogue to discover the best choice for your event if you're searching for the ideal Beatles Tribute Band for a Wedding in Liverpool.

The moment you understand what type of songs you want in your wedding, then you're all set to have a band. It's documented that those songs can be particularly lucrative for the service which might explain their reluctance. It is not the music which makes the group one of the greatest Beatles tribute acts in vegas. In addition, the band might be a tribute act in the area where they play music that is only in your favorite band. The majority of the instances, the most economical band may not be the option. Using a website or a media site characterises the music band that is perfect.

In several ways, the genre has transformed to a joke. First and foremost, jazz isn't dead. This music became a type of treatment in the middle of painful experience. In case such as mine and several other that are currently posting this music it's not for material or monetary gain. Everybody has that tune. This extraordinary album has to be categorized and also a myth needs to be dispelled.

The Worst Videos Of All Time About Hire A Band

There's no clearer singer, than the Motown folks in conditions of the words as an example. It's extremely important they can find the work done nicely with different singers without sight see and the should rehearse, although many session painters work by ear. Singers find other sorts of singing jobs to permit a money to be earned by them. There continue to be musicians which are recording their prior age. When you meet people that are such geniuses, so iconic and they're normal and so nice, it's so inspiring.

The competition is strong. Also, it's an effort at attempting to mimic the manner songs of different genres, to their listeners, are being presented moreover jazz. It's very glamorous to have a singing occupation that is whole, and they can offer pay that is why so many singers desire them. A house is much more than a home. If you're looking for a enjoyable night out, heating up the dance floor at one of many clubs is almost always a choice that is enjoyable. The mood is depressing by means of this track and the following.

When you look back following your wedding it becomes memories you are able to laugh for several decades! It is important to request from those who have organised weddings. You might want to be certain that everybody is happy and entertained at your wedding day. At the specific same time, there are few which are well-known for playing weddings. Organizing a wedding on a budget that is tiny can be an extremely daunting job to do on the component of the engaged couple.

You don't wish to go ripped off if it's to do with obtaining the wedding decoration. You may need to be certain you're currently interviewing the wedding singer to make sure that you're getting what you pay for. Many wedding singers deliver sound systems and excellent quality backing tracks so the outcome is professional and a ring won't be missed.

Wedding is the most special day in the life span of boy and a woman that are very likely to begin a new life. At length schedule a one time interview with the person. Without having to spend a lot on the expensive stuff, you might have a gorgeous wedding.

By the book's close you're likely to be enjoying some terrific songs. You might want some identifying tunes about love to supply the background music if you are celebrating Valentines Day in your home. It is a simple fact if it's written nicely that a song wo find old. Father daughter wedding songs are more important than you might imagine. You may locate the list below useful if you would like to select music for an wedding.

The concert will happen about the plaza.

It is not straightforward to categorize the things they do as a tribute'. Among the tribute that is distinctive and original indicates that's survived the test of time.

A person may receive a wide collection of premium tickets. Maybe the tickets to hear the true artist are costly. A souvenir colour booklet is incorporated by tickets for the five rows.

No one under 18 years-old is allowed. The easiest way to celebrate Valentines Day or some special occasion is to generate dinner reservations in a quiet restaurant. Day of show could be available. Don't neglect to take pictures, if you find yourself with a romantic day planned with the man who you love! All you need to do is make sure on the day of this event, you've got safety and team which is able maintain everybody who comes secure and to produce your platform light up like never before. Any moment you're feeling lonely, grief anger or resentment, all you need to do is think. You can make confident you are not likely to have a moment's peace till you have taken your kids to observe the movie.

How To Explain Wedding Singers To A Five-year-old

If you're likely to use a ring, have them play with the types of songs you're considering to observe how it feels and learn whether it fits your theme. Alternatively, you can want to use a ring that plays audio, so as to warm the atmosphere up. A band with Pilipino style may be a superior alternative.

Should you wish to know how to advertise your band and raise your probability of acquiring a record deal ( fast and cheaply), here are a couple of do-it-yourself ideas which will help get you started. A High School Dance Band it is possible to opt to employ a ring but that will be a bit costlier. You'll most likely want to use a chamber or band orchestra.

There are a couple things to keep in mind. If it fails to play with songs which you would like then search for a different one. According to what exactly the rings offer, you might discover that the bands that are higher priced are the better value.

If you decide to employ a ring make certain they understand how to play your songs. You might have to employ a group that specializes in a caterer that specializes in that sort of meals and that sort of music. Rings are ready to accommodate requests within reason.

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1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?: I mean more than likely we’re all just in a simulation so… reality is tho I definitely doubt my own existence before I doubt anyone else’s 

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?: I’m not afraid of the dark, I am afraid of what lies in the dark. 5

3. The person you would never want to meet?: Donald Trump

4. What is your favorite word?: serendipity 

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?: Willow tree for sure 

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?: holy fuck I did not sleep 

7. What shirt are you wearing?: it’s a crop top that says “I

8. What do you label yourself as?: a human being I guess?

9. Bright room or dark room?: dark room 

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?: umm I think I was being emo and making tik tok videos lol 

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?: 21 

12. Who told you they loved you last?: my mom 

13. Your worst enemy?: myself, I tend to ruin everything 

14. What is your current desktop picture?: it’s a professional Halloween picture of my ratties Piglet and Igor 

15. Do you like someone?: ha yea 

16. The last song you listened to?: right now I’m listening to Skyscrapers by Lil Peep

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?: I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I was the cause of someone’s death, no matter who they are

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?: Erin if she were a boy 

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?: Davey Havok and I would make him explain in length every intentional meaning of every song he has ever written 

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional): uh I have weirdly almost identical thumbs, besides that my tattoos are pretty tight 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?: been there done that ain’t goin back homie 

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?: I can say the alphabet backwards really fast 

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?: stairs. well like I guess I’m not afraid of them, I just have to walk really really slow up and down them and I have to stare at my feet the entire time or else I will fall

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal: oh fuck, portobello mushroom burgers are pretty fuckin tight 

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?: I’m spending it on weed bro 

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?: New Zealand, tho it would be scary as shit to go to another country by myself lol 

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?: uhhhhh svedka vodka isn’t bad I guess? like I usually don’t throw up when I drink that lol. but honestly I love pineapple flavored alcohol, it tastes like candy 

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?: no heteros 

29. What is your favorite expletive?: bitch 

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?: Uni my stuffed unicorn that I’ve had since I was 6 

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?: oh god just one? if I could take back ever meeting Valencia that’d be nice I guess 

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!: New Zealand or Ireland yo 

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?: Jessica of course, she deserved the chance to grow up 

34. What was your last dream about?: I was on a bus with my cousin and a big white dog. oh also @dirt-goth was there 

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?: I’m a good listener 

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?: yea I had to go to the hospital a couple months ago because of an accidental overdose, and then I had to go right back because I got pneumonia 

37. Have you ever built a snowman?: I have no memory of doing so, but I have been in a snowball fight before 

38. What is the color of your socks?: I ain’t got no socks on, free the toes 

39. What type of music do you like?: I like a variety of music, if it slaps it slaps 

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?: sunrises. there’s just something about how quiet everything starts out, how still everything is, and then it’s alive again

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?: strawberry for sure 

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer): I only know of the Chiefs lmao 

43. Do you have any scars?: yeeeep 

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?: I didn’t graduate, but I think it would be cool to be a photographer or a professional piercer 

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I want a dick yo 

46. Are you reliable?: I would say so yes 

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?: will anyone ever actually fall in love with me?

48. Do you hold grudges?: I try not to, I mean I definitely am bitter about some things. But I’ve really been trying hard to better myself this year, and I think a big part of that is letting shit go yaknow 

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?: I ain’t fuckin with nature bro 

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?: I have had, so many. I guess the last weird convo I had was with my friend Katie when I told her that if she ever needed someone to take high quality feet pics of her so she could sell them that I got her lmao 

51. Are you a good liar?: I’m a good actor, but liar I think not. At least not anymore, through the years of lying every single day, I just gave up. Because even if people know how much pain you are in, they still really don’t care so what’s the point in lying

52. How long could you go without talking?: a long ass fuckin time. I haven’t said anything out loud today or messaged anyone yet

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?: the fucking Beatles bob jesus christ

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?: hell no I burnt fuckin pizza rolls once

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?: not for long really, I do a weird Russian accent when I’m trying to be funny?

56. What do you like on your toast?: I love peanut butter

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?: uh, me gettin fucked by this one dude in a car lmaoo

58. What would be you dream car?: hippie van or cool ass school bus 

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain: I don’t sing in the shower, I used to when I was a kid but not anymore. I just have my speaker playing music. Sometimes I will turn the shower on and sit down like I’m sitting in the rain

60. Do you believe in aliens?: it would be incredibly ignorant not to tbh 

61. Do you often read your horoscope?: sometimes, it tends to be relevant when I do 

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?: D

64. What do you think about babies?: I love all my siblings, and like other people’s babies are cute and stuff. When they get past that weird old man potato lookin phase of course. But there ain’t no way in fuck I’m ever having a baby. I’m adopting a kid, I don’t ever want to walk in on my baby one day covered in shit smearing the walls ya feel (babies do this more often than you would think)

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of: hmmm, how long have you been sober for? I’ve been sober from coke since Halloween of 2018 and from Xanax since December 2nd of 2018

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Coming Of Age Comedy: A Soundtrack of My Emotional Journey in H.S.

Freshman Year is a an entire stream of consciousness that I have willed into being a blur since I loved myself too much and acted and dressed and felt like a bashful fool. So that year’s soundtrack will not be addressed.

Sophomore Year

September-November, 2014 - Make Me Wanna Die - The Pretty Reckless

                                               - Heart-shaped Box - Nirvana

Left in the haze of my grunge, drugs (but didn’t do drugs), and partying (but I didn’t party) phase, that section of my life went out in a bang when I discovered the sounds of the Pretty Reckless. This phase ended because of my feelings of loneliness subsiding because I met some pretty great(?) people that year.

December-March, 2014-15 - Love Shack - B-52′s

                                             - All You Need Is Love - The Beatles

                                             - You & I - One Direction

At this stage in my life I fell in love, with my friends, the feeling of belonging to a group. I thought that I finally found a group of friends who understand me an accepted me and embraced me with love and friendship. I was loved up, and felt confident, because of them and them introducing me to One Direction.

 May-July, 2015 -This Is What It Feels Like - Banks

                           - Cherry Bomb - The Runaways

                           - Undone - the bird and the bee

                           - Losing It - Summer Camp

The Summer I felt like a typical teen. I’ve always wanted to feel the way the characters in movies seemed to feel. During summer there was this gust of confidence and personality on the screen. I wanted to feel that, and I did. This was the summer I actually had friends to be around and hang out. This was the summer I got my license and started talking to my first soon to be boyfriend. This was the summer my friend and I liked the same boy and made a choice. It sounds like a movie and it was one of my best summers ever.

Junior Year

August-October, 2015 - Feels Like We Only Go Backwards - Tame Impala

                                     - Gold - Chet Faker

                                      - It’s Too Late - Carole King

This was when shit started to get bad. I’m probably misinterpreting the meanings of these songs as I add them to this portion of my emotional stream, but they have the feel and idea of how I felt during this period. I had a small batch of depression wave over me. I was trying to take care of myself while also appeasing someone else and my friends. This was the worst time to get a SO because I physically and mentally could not be present. I tried to push them away and be with friends more for some normalcy. But I felt like I couldn’t take care of myself because of my mental state, oncoming stress, and family. My relationship wasn’t a relationship because I couldn’t be in it emotionally.

November-February 2015-16  - Tainted Love- Soft Cell

                                  - Aladdin Sane - David Bowie

                                  - Baby’s On Fire - Brian Emo

This was when Shit was bad. I stopped associating with other people in hopes to figure out what was going on with me. I fell into glam rock because it seemed to reflect my mental state. I began worshipping Ziggy as if he was a real god, because the music of the glam rockstars seemed to express how I felt. At this point in my life I was pretty isolated and didn't want to do much (which is usually usual, but I mean less so)

 March- May 2016 - Dreams - Tish Hyman

                               - Cry Baby - The Neighborhood

                               - My Song 5 - HAIM

At this point I almost got over my depression and was functioning again. But when I woke up from my mentally draining haze, I realized I lost 75% of the very few friends I had. I can’t remember what happened exactly, I remember there was no one right answer, but I do remember how it felt. The feeling was pretty bad, because I used to move around a lot. I knew what it was like to leave friends that way, but I was not prepared for just drifting a part. That never happened to me before. I had a hard time accepting the fact that I still thought they were my friends months after they stopped inviting me to things and hanging out with me. So, yea. That hurt.

June-August 2016 - Fooled Around and Fell In Love - Elvin Bishop

                               - Don’t You Worry ‘Bout A Thing - Stevie Wonder

Looking back, I started to appreciate myself more. I used to think that I was distracting myself with happy thoughts and acts to maintain a content mental state, but I think I actually started loving myself slightly more. It was more a feeling like: “ya they dropped you, but why tho”. I asked why  A LOT. To give the reader an idea of A LOT, I mean, I got into my car wreck over the summer because I was asking myself “why did they drop me”. That summer I kept wondering why, but I also prospered mentally.

Senior Year

September-November 2016 - 3AM- HONNE

                                              - The Night Has Opened My Eyes - the Smiths

At this point, I would like to say I was over it, but not really. Seeing everyone again after summer, when I just put myself back together was pretty bad, and I kinda felt like one of those cliches in movies that hardcore believes high school is hell just conservative Christians hardcore believe Jesus is our Savior.

September-January 2016-17 - New Person, Same Old Mistakes - Tame Impala

                                               - High For This - The Weeknd

                                                -Mary Jane - Rick James

We’re almost done. Sorry this is so long, but this is what I went through. It was long and almost unbearable, which is what you are now going to endure with me as I relive this. Nothing really significant happened at this point though. Just the normal stress that comes with college and senior year.  I was a new person, with some old mistakes. I didn’t think enough funk was being represented so I added some classic Rick James. And I just like this Weeknd Song.

February-May 2017 - I’m Still Standing - Elton John

                                  - Dancing in the Street - David Bowie and Mick Jagger

I was pretty indifferent to the feeling of high school ending. I wanted to get out of there, but I’ve already made new relationships and wanted them to last. That probably doesn’t make sense. I was happy, as you could tell by the music of the time, but was basically chill.

Present Day - Wham Bang Shang-A-Lang - Silver

Now I’m done, I’m past high school. I’ll still be feeling even though it’s over. My thoughts and emotions about my time spent will constantly change, and I’ll have to update it. Right now I’m feeling a lot of emotions I want to incorporate into this part, but that’s for another blog post.

The point of this was because I’ve always wanted to make a soundtrack for my life, and what’s more cliche than another typical high school soundtrack. I also just wanted to give people (who probably don’t care) insight to how I felt while they were around me in high school. This was just a normal blog post, but with a twist, to make it memorable, so that I always have to look back at it. 

Thanks for reading!!! 

P.S. listen to the last song, it sums up the entirety of this post...

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I was tagged by my lil Angle™️️ @dreamingjaemin​ (and little bamboo,, that’s actually the cutest wee thing omw)

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning, when you are finished you have to tag people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!!

1) Are you named after someone? Lowkey.  Like my name is Zahra, and it turns out that my Dad has a cousin called Zehra (that’s the Turkish spelling) but when I was being named my Mum didn’t know that so,, lmao I don’t think I explained this v well

2) When is the last time you cried?  Valentine’s Day or maybe Wednesday,, I think.  But I also nearly cried when I was watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 yesterday

3) Do you like your handwriting?  My handwriting tends to vary depending on current levels of pain, but I guess it’s not the worst?

4) What is your favourite lunch to eat? PASTA, SPICY SAUSAGE AND CHEESE

5)  Do you have kids? lmao I am a kid

6)  If you were another person, would you be friends with you?  I doubt it.  I’m quite standoffish to those who don’t know me.  Like, unless a person decides to make a conscious effort to try and get to know me,, we’re most likely not gonna be pals

7)  Do you use sarcasm?  Ye, but not as much as I used to

8)  Do you still have your tonsils?  Nope

9)  Would you bungee jump?  Maybe at some point?  Idk, I’m a small lad so I’m kinda scared I’d be bouncin’ about all over the place

10)  What is your favourite kind of cereal?  I tend to go through cereal phases, but rn I’m proper lovin’ coco rocks.  But like, I also love a good rice crispee hehe

11)  Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?  Sometimes, depends on my mood and the shoes I’m wearing lmao

12)  Do you think you’re a strong person?  Kinda,, like, idk how to say this without it looking like I’m being cocky, but usually if I’m going through a tough time I can get myself sorted.  I’ve had a lot of hospital and medical stuff and I’ve gotten through that and I like to think it’s made me stronger?  It really depends on what type of strong we’re talking about here.  Emotionally, kinda,, I like to think so, but physically, nah m8910 that’s not happening lmaoooo

13)  What is your favourite ice cream flavour?  CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE

14)  What is the first thing you notice about people?  It usually depends on the person.  Like, I guess I tend to notice what they’re wearing the most?  But I also tend to notice the way the act and carry themselves.  If it’s a lad I find to be 💯💯💯, then their lips hehehe 🙈

15)  Red or pink?  Red

16)  What is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself?  Probably my chin.  It isn’t as developed as the rest of my face bc arthritis decided to restrict it’s growth ffs.  I’m also not too fond of my nose and hands??  But I’m coming to terms with them!!!

17)  What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now?  Black jeans and black converse

18)  What was the last thing you ate?  Eggs, sujuk and bread

19)  What are you listening to right now?  Korkma Kalbim - Serdar Ortaç

20)  If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?  Purple maybe?  I was once sent a thing relating to what colours people saw you as and the person picked out mainly purple/lilac colours I think

21)  Favourite smell?  Oaky, I’ve got a few so get ready.  I absolutely love rose jam, it’s like my top favourite smell, but I also love the smell of the Yoga Bomb bathbomb from Lush, which I think primarily has sandalwood in it.  Then I ialso love the smell of Daisy Eau So Fresh by Marc Jacobs, and, this one’s a bit more personal I guess, but I really like the smell of suncream mixed with seasalt?  It reminds me of being in Turkey hehehe 🙈

22)  Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?  My mum

23)  Favourite sport to watch?  lmao

24)  Hair colour?  Brown

25)  Eye colour?  Brown

26)  Do you wear contacts?  Nah, I just stick w my glasses

27)  Favourite food to eat?  Oaky, so I prefer savoury things so even the desserts I like are kinda savoury.  My favourite UK thing would be this wee microwavable meal you can buy and it’s spaghetti, cheesy sauce and bacon bits.  But my favourite Turkish foods, right, oaky, let’s go.  I absolutely love dolma,  börek, acma, meatball soup, spinach cake, lokma and baklava those are all the ones I can think of rn lmao

28)  Scary movies or comedy?  Comedy

29)  Last move you watched?  Never Been Kissed (1999) the sad reality lmao

30)  What colour of shirt are you wearing?  Black and white stripy!!!

31)  Summer or winter?  Summer, I can’t cope in the cold lmao

32)  Hugs or kisses?  I’ve only ever been hugged, but I can imagine liking both lots hehe 🙈

33)  What book are you currently reading?  Nothing 😪 School is taking up too much time

34)  Who do you miss right now?  Too many people

35)  What is on your mouse pad?  Em,, I don’t use/have one

36)  What is the last TV programme you watched?  Riverdale and then the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air

37)  What is the best sound?  BamBam’s voice and his laughter💕💕💕

38)  Rolling Stone or the Beatles?  I’m not really a fan of either,,,

39)  What is the furthest you have ever travelled?  The UK to Turkey

40)  Do you have a special talent?  Doubt it tbh lmao

41)  Where were you born?  The UK

42)  People you expect to participate in this (although it’s completely optional)? @taeyongfireeyes, @jeonesque, @imxjaebeom, @spicypancakedoyoung, @chimchim0726, @captain-alec, @ikemenyuta, @markleesgiggle, @angel-spices, @strawbaimee, @kathryine, @oh-sehunnie-94 and @bowtrckle

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18 Questions About Music

I was tagged by @and-so-are-you​ who is my husband/soul mate/trash can friend. Follow him for art and soft-goth vibes x

1. Which bands/artist do you own the most albums by? this question goes two different ways for me because i own whole discographies of many artists/groups and, some of these artists will have longer careers than others so inevitably they will have more albums, you feel. reality is that i own literally everything Maynard James Keenan has recorded and released in an official capacity either with Tool, APC, or Puscifer - plus soundtracks he’s appeared on. The Beatles because i took all of my parents collection and ripped it to my laptop. i own A LOT of Bowie and Prince, all of Muse’s albums, every Joy Division/New Order, The Cure, Deftones, White Lies, IAMX, Elbow. generally, if i get heavy into a band i become a collector. 

2. What was the last song you listened to? The Human League - Seconds

3. What’s in your CD/Record player right now? i was listening to Cocteau Twins Heaven Or Las Vegas while i cooked dinner because you can kind of just yodel along without actually focusing on words

4. What was the last show you attended? white lies at music hall of williamsburg last month

5. What was the greatest show you’ve been to? oh jesus. there’s been a few tbh. elbow at reading 2011 was insane because i was back in the UK and a fucking rainbow erupted over the stage while they performed the birds and i totally lost it. a perfect circle at lollapalooza was the time i became someone Other. IAMX in London last year was emotional as shit cause i was coming down from a stomach flu, was with @simonjpg and @and-so-are-you and they played This Will Make You Love Again and wow. Muse’s War Child gig with fuckin DEAD STAR and the whole of the internet erupted asking me if i was ok which, no i certainly was not. i saw Stevie Wonder for free two summers ago which WOW. funny i’m naming legends but once i saw O’Brother open for Biffy Clyro and they blew me the fuck away. i’ve been a fan ever since and i’m so pleased they’re doing really well now.

 i’ve been blessed with some incredible gigs.

6. What was the worst show you’ve ever been to? yikes. ive never been to a show where the band i’ve paid to see are awful but ive suffered some horrible openers, let me tell you. the worst was when i went to see brian fallon and his opener, i literally do not remember who, was so terrible i got a headache halfway through the set and had to leave the entire gig because i was in agony. 

7. What is the most musically involved you have ever been? uh, in what capacity? well. i play violin and am a singer, i sight read better than i sight sing though. sight reading means im kind of okay at piano although my left hand prowess is non-existent, really. but i mean, if we’re being open and honest, i actually am employed in the music industry, so that’s pretty damn involved if you ask me lol.

8. What show are you looking forward to? SO MANY. ive got some huge festivals this year - Gov’s Ball, Glastonbury, and Lollapalooza (supposing i get tix to the latter). elbow in november, New Power Generation at the start of April. who knows what else will get announced - hoping for some official Franz Ferdinand dates (besides their gov’s ball set) or an APC tour. 

9. What is your favorite band shirt? i have this v-neck black shirt from when i saw The Cure last year. the only size they had was xxl and i got it just because im compelled to get shirts at every gig i attend. its honestly the most comfortable shirt i own and i use it as pajamas. 

10. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day? honestly, id love to spend a day with Dan Smith from Bastille. im not even like super, duper heavy into the band (i love them but not how i love many others) i just want to get some sandwiches and talk about movies with him. we’d have so much to discuss. probably would also love to hang with lorde and osmose some of her glamour. 

11. Who is one musician or group you wish would make a comeback? like...from the dead? bowie or prince, full stop. come back and make a new album, Fair To Midland. such a specific, identifiable sound - no one is filling their space now they’re gone. 

12. Who is one band/ artist you’ve never seen live but always wanted to? BOWIE AND PRINCE. im haunted by the time Prince came to NYC when i was in college and i was too fucking poor to see him. rammstein have decided to play an NYC date for the first time in fucking years and i just so happen to be at glastonbury when they’re here (i am bitter). TOOL is on this list but WILL BE REMOVED IN JUNE, CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE. also, recently lady gaga but specifically during her fame monster years. she came round when i was in college and my housemates went - regret it because she seems like an amazing performer. 

13. Flawless albums? shit. wow. ok. ive got many. Radiohead - In Rainbows, Tori Amos - Little Earthquakes, Prince - Purple Rain, NIN - Year Zero, Cocteau Twins - Heaven Or Las Vegas, White Lies - Ritual (i swear to god, you have no fucking idea how far ahead of its time this album was- it’s six years old and it sounds like it was produced yesterday), Manic Street Preachers - Everything Must Go, elbow - the seldom seen kid, Ghinzu - Blow, and Echo & The Bunnymen - Ocean Rain - to name a few. i find when you listen to a lot of music, you wind up discovering how much art is really out there which is probably why my pretentious ass has a longer list than most idk

14. How many concerts have you been to, total? please don’t make me count. a very high number.

15. Who have you seen the most live? Muse

16. What is your favorite movie soundtrack? I have three really. The Fountain, A Single Man, and Pride & Prejudice. Also, not films but Braid, Bastion, and Transistor are some of the best video game soundtracks. I can’t really go a month without listening to them. 

17. What was your last musical ‘phase’ before you wisened up? i turned my ‘phase’ into a career, i think we’re shit outta luck on the ‘wisened up’ front. 

18. What is your ‘guilty pleasure’ that you hate to admit liking? i love the shit out of K-Pop. it’s been like a 7 year quiet thing in the back of my mind, but if you want to learn some SHINee/EXO/f(x) moves, i got you!

i forgot im supposed to tag people omg uh ok @zombeesknees because she is my queen and i want to know what she’s into; has @simonjpg done this yet? idk, do this if you want!