#like the original was ao much better but this is the one that got approved for publication so its fine

[charliethemanticore]

So I have a short story getting published in a book in like... a week and a half. And I know my mum is gonna want copies for family... But I also don't want the first bit of my writing that my grandmother reads to be about an MC who gets eaten by their house... y'know?

[lilydalexf]

Old School X is a project interviewing X-Files fanfic authors who were posting fic during the original run of the show. New interviews are posted every Tuesday.

Interview with Sheryl Martin

Sheryl Martin (aka Sheryl Nantus) joined the online X-Files community very early on in the run of the series. She has 229 stories at Gossamer, some of which are also at fanfiction.net, where her X-Files story Little Helper is the first story ever at the site! She's well known for her Dragon series (at Gossamer) posted from 1995 to 2000. I've recced her story Family Matters here before and have other favorites too, like The Game. Big thanks to Sheryl for doing this interview.

What do you think of when you think about your X-Files fandom experience? What did you take away from it?

Well... I met my husband through it, so I'll never say a bad word about it! For those who don't know - when I originally started posting fanfiction, it was on the Usenet group alt.tv.x-files.creative newsgroup - and you could only post small segments at a time. I got a few emails back, fan mail from readers who enjoyed my writing.

One of them was from a lovely young man who really enjoyed my stories, and Jackie St. George - an original character I made up. (Yes, classic Mary Sue, but different in that she did NOT want to hook up with anyone!) I answered him back, as a good author should, and he wrote back and... We've been together since 1993 and married for over 20 years, so I'd say I'm pretty happy with the fandom experience. ;)

Social media didn't really exist during the show's original run. How were you most involved with the X-Files online (atxc, message board, email mailing list, etc.)?

I practically lived on ATXC and Usenet - I was running on a cheap Mac, using the Toronto Freenet to zip in, grab email and post, then duck out. I was dirt poor - no AOL for me, no university email or web page! It's hard to imagine, but back then it was hard to get online if you didn't have money. The Toronto Freenet gave a free, easy way to pick up email and get online - but only for a short amount of time. When a generous fan asked if they could put up a Geocities page for my fanfic, I was thrilled - there was NO way I could have done that.

What did you take away from your experience with X-Files fic or with the fandom in general?

A husband! And a chance to cut my writing chops on creating stories and characters without fear. The fandom was fantastic in giving feedback on what they liked and didn't like, letting me improve my writing skill with each story.

What was it that got you hooked on the X-Files as a show?

Dana Scully. A tough, inspirational woman who took no guff. She stood her ground when many people, I think, would have broken and either sold Mulder out or abandoned him. Damned inspirational.

What got you involved with X-Files fanfic?

I wanted more than what I saw on the show - I imagined what would happen after the episode ended, what they'd be doing or saying. Or filing paperwork... ;)

What is your relationship like now to X-Files fandom?

I still get fan letters every now and then from readers - I'm still enjoying the show in various ways, the videos and the recent "revival".

Were you involved with any fandoms after the X-Files? If so, what was it like compared to X-Files?

I wrote fanfiction for Stargate SG-1 among others - my most recent being for The Orville and Agents of SHIELD - but XF has always been my first love. I've never engaged with fandom as much, I think, as with XF - which is odd, considering we were at the start of the social media craze.

Who are some of your favorite fictional characters? Why?

I've got so many... The Widow from Into the Badlands, Rita Farr from Doom Patrol (the new series), Sara Lance from Legends of Tomorrow... I love seeing strong women on the screen, doing what women do without throwing it all away for a man's approval.

Yeah, I'm like that.

;)

Do you ever still watch The X-Files or think about Mulder and Scully?

We've got so much XF in the house that I can't! Books, action figures... *laughs* And I follow GA online, so they're never too far from my mind. We still make references back to shows when we see something on the television. ;)

Do you ever still read X-Files fic? Fic in another fandom?

Not really - I'm too busy doing original fiction and reading original fiction, sorry. But I do dip over to AO3 every now and then to get inspired with some random fanfic from the shows I'm enjoying.

Do you have any favorite X-Files fanfic stories or authors?

Jeepers... it's been years... I loved Cincoflex's stories, but can't bring a title to mind. And Paula Graves, may she rest in peace. We chatted a bit not long before her passing. [Lilydale note: Paula Graves is Anne Haynes.] Heartbreaking to lose her at such a young age. :(

What is your favorite of your own fics, X-Files and/or otherwise?

I do still love, despite all the bad writing, the Dragon series. They're part of what let me become a better writer, with all the practice.

Do you think you'll ever write another X-Files story? Or dust off and post an oldie that for whatever reason never made it online?

I doubt it. But never say never...

Do you still write fic now? Or other creative work?

The occasional one, as I said above - The Orville, AoS. But I put my energy into original fiction, as you can see - over twenty books published online, from various publishers.

Where do you get ideas for stories?

Anywhere and nowhere. Usually just sitting and staring into space until something tweats at me, begins to whisper in my ear...

What's the story behind your pen name?

Don't have one.

Do your friends and family know about your fic and, if so, what have been their reactions?

Positive - more so from my mother, who noted I found a husband through it. *laughs* Some of them still don't "get" fanfiction, and that's okay. All they know is that I write. :)

Is there a place online (tumblr, twitter, AO3, etc.) where people can find you and/or your stories now?

AO3 has my more recent works, and of course I've got one of the oldest stories on ff.net! My website is www.sherylnantus.com where you can find my original works.

Is there anything else you'd like to share with fans of X-Files fic?

Glad to see people are still reading and enjoying it, twenty-plus years after the fact! Keep on boosting the signal, and keep believing! :)

Take care and stay safe!

(Posted by Lilydale on October 20, 2020)

[9misorai]

I have finally reached the latest chapter of brt manga. Yes I will try my best to shorten every name I have no energy to do a complete review so some things I wanna say:

1. The artstyle........I still prefer the original's, but they grew on me. At least after some chapter the kids stopped looking like 5 years olds. It gets better, I think. 2. The story is......well for now it's so so. But I like Kwki so I will still read it. The story is really focused on one goal so there's not really much character depth. Which I'm a disappointed about. Not much subplots but I'm kinda wondering why the script writer decided to make Mujina arc focused on the daimyo's kid while it's entire purpose to the story is to introduce Kara org & Karma. Though I do like Mujina arc. Another thing about the story--honestly I think it'd be better if they didn't try so hard to reconnect the story with the plot of Nrt like the juubi and byakugou no jutsu. 3. The characters. Man I've heard a lot of they nerfed Nrt in brt mang but I'm in complete speachless during the Nrt vs jigen battle. Like srsly NRT HAS SENNIN MODE HE CAN SENSE E V E R Y O N E AROUND HIM BUT HE NEED SSK TO TELL HIM WHERE JIGEN IS WHEN HE SHRUNK HHHHHHH. Other than Nrt. Well as I've said before no character depth whatsoever. But I like Kwk. He's the type that looks tough outside but softie inside. It's really cute how serious he is to fix the vase. He's just a lost child, and eventhough he got nerfed Nrt understands him. Brt calls him "brother" like he approves his father to adopt him like kahsks that was cute okay. Other disappointing thing is other than Kwk, Brt, Nrt, and the villains, no other characters get to the spot..? Even Srd and Mtsk. It feels like they're just supporting characters and that was sad. Speakin of supporting characters. Ao. I don't know the purpose of reviving Ao just to make him dead again. Everyone has accepted Ao's death with Shikaku and Inoichi. Ao is magically survived but just to make him a temporary villain like for what. Why. Brt personality is very different from the anime. If brt's manga is similar to the anime he would have no problem with making Srd the captain of the team, he respects Srd so much in the anime, so even if his tsuntsun is showing i think he'd say something like "WHY SARADA IS THE CAPTAIN but I guess it does make sense huh". But in The manga he was like "okay but it was only because i have no choice!" With annoyed & disapproving look. Also. #GiveMtskMoreHighlightPls :( 4. Other things: I have no problem with the constant talk about the scientific tool. Sure it wasn't "Nrt style" at all but I'll just accept that this story is and will be different from it's prequel. Which also made no problem to me too about how chakra absorbing is so common. The OP-ness of the kids are still a bit irritating though.

[goodheartedfool]

Nat’s Verses

Here are the already existing verses I have for Nathanael. They are in the order of how much they have been used. Top four has links to more detailed pages/posts.

Marvel: Nathanael has the ability to manipulate ‘life force’, giving him the ability to heal, but also to drain life from others. No, he didn’t acquire the skill, he was born with it. In some threads, he works for S.H.I.E.L.D., in others, he tries to go unnoticed, not trusting what others would do if they found out about his abilities. In this verse, like most others, he’s a paramedic.

Star Trek: Here Nat is a half-bajoran Starfleet medical doctor. AOS is my to go to verse, but any of the movies or series works too.

Ancient/Spartacus: Here Nat, or Lucius as the Romans named him (real name is Narding), is a slave. He came from a Germanic tribe and were captured around the age of seven. Sold to a man with the liking for boys, it was eventually discovered that he had a natural talent for healing wound and illness. As his Dominus had lost most of his interest for him, but still wished to make his slave useful (and hos Dominus is a bit of a hypochondriac as well), he made sure he got the training needed to become a medicus. What happened after this is verse dependent, but his Dominus has a liking for gamble, wine and games.

Camp Halfblood/Demigod: In this verse, Nat is a halfblood, a demigod, and his godly parent is Apollo (which obviously mean his mum is human. If preferred, this verse can also take place in ancient times.

Modern: Not much to say about this. It’s modern time and Nat is a paramedic. he got bullied as a kid and his mum refuse to speak with him since he came out as homosexual.

Supernatural: Nat is a paramedic here too and he’s seen some rather weird stuff due to that. One night he happened to get in the middle of couple of hunters fighting a demon. One of them were severely injured, but Nat helped save him. Since he’d seen that whatever they had killed hadn’t been fully human, he kept asking what it had been and he was then introduced to the world of hunters. Instead of being a hunter himself, he continued to work as a paramedic, but helping hunter with various injuries on his free time.

Criminal Minds: In this verse, Nat studied psychology instead of emergency medicine, ending up with a PhD in Forensic Psychology (yes, he’s young, but considerably smarter than many give him credit for). Since he’s not really of the ambitious kind, having studied what he did because he genuinely wants to help people, his skills went by quite unnoticed as a consultant for the local law enforcement, until the BAU encountered him during a case. Ten months later he got an invitation to join the team and he accepted.

The Expanse: Originally born on Earth to a rather wealthy family, Nat didn’t see much suffering until he could roam around the streets on his own. Having always been of a sensitive nature, he got an intense need to help once he realized the amount of suffering around him. Once he had finished his medical degree, he wanted to put his knowledge to use where it was most needed, the Belt. But being an Earther in the Belt is usually not an easy thing, not even when you offer free (or rather pay what you can, meaning free for some, but not all) medical care.

Killjoys (SyFy): Nat was born on a planet governed by the United Republic. He was never much for school, being too restless for sitting still for so many hours at a time, though he has always liked learning new things. When he was eleven, their town were attacked, but the IMUR came to their help. Having been separated from his family, he was taken to a refugee camp and it was there that he got to witness how a doctor seemed to miraculously (at least in his eyes) making people better, even calming those who were distressed. Since then, he had as goal to become a doctor himself and tried to work harder in school so he could get a scholarship to the university. Unfortunately, he didn’t manage it, so to be able to afford becoming a doctor, he signed a contract with the Marines. If he agreed to work five years for them, they would pay his education. Once he had finished medical school, instead of doing his Residency at a hospital, he did it on board a IMUR ship. However, he never got to finish it. After nearly eight months on board, they were attacked and eventually boarded by space pirates. One of the ‘things’ taken by the pirates were Nat, a doctor would be valuable to them. Being who he is, he agreed on helping them, even though he don’t approve of their methods, but they don’t trust him and put a tracking anklet on him, making him unable to flee even when they are on a station or planet side.

POI/Leverage/Crime 1: Nat made one small mistake and took a fall he’d never expected to do, which included losing his license to practice medicine. He’s now working as a night cashier at a local convenience store, a job he hate. However, he also has a side job, he help those who, for some reason, can’t go to a legal clinic when needing medical care. Some of them, illegal immigrants and homeless people, he treat for free or for a very low fee, but he also treats people he maybe shouldn’t treat, criminals. Why? They pay well, unlike his ‘real’ job, and he can’t just let someone bleed to death, criminal or not. Nat also has a habit he need to maintain. He’s addicted to opioids.

POI/Leverage/Crime 2: Back in the States after having worked in Pakistan for MSF (doctors w/o borders) for a years, Nat’s life is put in danger. Unaware about it, he have seen something he shouldn’t have seen and someone wants him dead.

If you belong to another fandom than these, feel free to contact me if you’re interested in roleplaying. Most things in the different verses are not ‘set in stones’, in other words, I’m okay with changing some of it depending on the thread.

Each verse will get more backstory and an own page when needed.

[kristenvalentin-blog]

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[anothergirlrecovering]

Lynn 56 two days ao

I got to session and Lynn was wearing glasses today. I told her that I liked her glasses and she said that she had to wear them because her contacts dried out and then it’s very annoying because she needs them to see far away so she has to keep moving them every time she looks down at her paper. She asked me how I’m doing and I said I was OK. She asked what’s new in my life and I told her that I turned down the group practice she acted super surprised but said good for you and asked me how it all went down. I explained how I had sent Josh the email and have been very thorough in explaining why I probably wasn’t the best fit. She was saying that’s great and she suggested calling the insurance companies and seeing if they can just change my information over to an individual provider instead of the group rather than having to completely re-apply for everything. I said actually hadn’t thought of that and could give them a call tomorrow and see. She suggested a couple different insurances but honestly I don’t really remember offhand, I just remember she said I think Humana was one of the ones that you can bill for an hour. We talked briefly about the different insurances and why certain ones are good, especially with EMDR and how it would be good to get on try care if I wanted to work with vets but at the same time. They are also high-risk and sell I would also have to see if I want to work with a high-risk population. I said for sure and explain that I’m currently being asked for my notes on a military client and that stresses me out. She said she didn’t really know my area but that in her area and no one has a hard time staying busy and so she thinks that I will be fine to go into full-time private practice one time on insurance boards. We ended up talking about when clients email or call to set up appointments and how she was like you can tell when a borderline person calls and leaves a long message and that that’s going to be a high stress client and how you can only take so many really stressful cases at a time. I reminded her of the time in session when I had asked her to basically not terminate me if I got better and I asked her if she had thought that I was borderline because I was freaking out and she had brought up the whole I’m not on call thing. She laughed and said she hadn’t thought that I was borderline and that she could tell that there were some obvious attachment issues there with wanting her approval or whatever and I was like well I didn’t want your approval as much is just I was anxious that you were going to terminate me like Erin did and I didn’t want to get more invested and really like you and then for you to terminate me. She laughed and basically was like well that’s obviously something for us to be working on because the goal would be that eventually I don’t need to be seeing her or that I am eventually just doing booster sessions as needed. She said that she has a guy now who comes literally every six weeks and she tells him that he doesn’t need to be there but whatever reason he just likes to come and they talk about literally the same things every time and she just expects it. She had laughed and said that she stays busy as it is so she hadn’t worried about handling herself on all of the insurances because when she was on a few of the major ones and was already super busy, she didn’t have a reason to get on any more. I told her about how at my current job I get a salary but I literally only have to be in the office for like six hours a week so I can basically do private practice while maintaining a salary and benefits so currently my plan isn’t to leave yet. She said that made sense and that was pretty sweet and she didn’t know how they got away with doing that. I said I guessed it was because they can’t really put a number on the time I am putting into being on call because technically I’m on call form the therapists under me but that I just have to answer within one hour which means that basically even if someone called during the session I could always call back after a session. She also had me cracking up because she was talking about how it’s so much easier to email people back then it is to call them and how she has basically a system for if people call she tries to call during their lunch break at work or after they’ve left work that way she can give them a voicemail that says to email her LOL.  So then I told her about my health issues. I first said that my vitamin D was really low and she was like well yeah that makes a lot of sense. I told her they gave me a prescription dose and hopefully that will work. I told her about the potential thyroid issues and I didn’t really get into my anxiety around it. I just said I need to see an ent and they’ll look into it firther. She pointed out that it confirmed what I had been thinking with something being off and I said yeah because I just feel too exhausted all the time for it to be normal given how much sleep I’m actually getting. I told her quickly that my family had been fighting and my brother called me to ask about my parents being controlling. I told her that I was annoyed by him calling and dragging me into it but that I had agreed that they were controlling and that he had told my parents that the biggest proof of them being controlling was the fact that we had both moved away.  She and I had very poor at least somewhat different takes on it because she was more interested in the fact that my brother validated the fact that my parents have control issues LOL. I also quickly told her about my mom sending me that article on Facebook. Lynn pointed out that it was a weird kind of validation from my mom because  she never acknowledges anything with the eating disorder. I said yeah and I really wasn’t sure how to feel. And then we got into EMDR and she asked me how I was doing with my target memory. I said I guess that it didn’t really bother me or evoke a really emotional response or anything but that I just get kind of sad when I think about it and kind of annoyed that I was led to believe a certain way.   She told me to just notice the sadness and we will go from there. She did EMDR and I noticed that as a kid of course I was going to be prone to magical thinking and I thought about the little kid in my session today he was just happily making believe and playing by herself and thought about how of course what they were telling me would seem like it makes sense for little kids when imagination is part of their development and it just upsets me that my family taught me to essentially be delusional and not necessarily that it was exploitation but it was sort of a manipulation of power because I was too young to realize what was delusional and what wasn’t. I noticed that I’m very grateful for my current church and I exclaimed have a pastor had listened to the podcast that I told him about about religious abuse and that I feel good knowing that there’s some ability on my part to have influence and that it’s not an us versus them and Tallardy. I noticed that growing up there was always an us versus them mentality, and that I was always very keenly aware that my grandparents were going to hell because they were Jewish and it was always very much us versus them in regards to our religion was right and no one else was. I explained how in the podcast that talked about Colts maintaining an us versus them and Tallardy and how that really hit home because it was always very judge mental. I noticed that a lot of the people who I grew up with really didn’t stay on that super religious track, although now that I think about it there are some that I hadn’t thought of that did go down that path. I explained how the daughter of the pastors had moved in with her boyfriend and how she got a tattoo and everybody was kind of judge mental and thought that she was just settling because she was getting older and how in general everyone there was so judge mental about everything and I noticed how my brother isn’t super involved in church and none of my cousins are either and we all grew up there together in that bubble. I noticed the yellow deli cult and asked Lynn if she had eaten at their restaraunt. She said no and asked if it was the Mennonite community. I said no and she explained that she had friends from church who were wonderful people but they basically got roped into doing the Mennonite community and they cut contact with everyone and it was really sad and hard on them. I jokingly said I apologized for bringing up her bad memories and she said it was ok it was just a really sad situation. Lynn asked me what the sud score was and I said I guess it was a zero because it doesn’t really bother me to think about, but when I think of that memory I just think that it wasn’t my fault that I was delusional because I was just a little kid and little kids by nature are into magical thinking and are going to follow with their parents and church preach. She tried really really hard to get me to point out a positive believe about myself and I just kept saying I didn’t know but that I would just say that it wasn’t my fault and she was like well if it wasn’t your fault that you were delusional then what does that say about you and I was like I don’t know and she tried to make it more general statement like if my original negative believe was there’s something wrong with me then the positive office it would be there’s nothing wrong with me and she asked how true that is. I said it would be a three on the VOC scale and she was like whatever fine we will just go with that so I just noticed that and when she tried to strengthen and I was like when I just don’t want to lie and fake it but honestly it feels the same because then I start remaining on that one memory where I was in the car and had to recite Bible verses. Feeling maybe she forgot about that memory or something but she was basically like oh OK well then noticed that so I did and I just explained how I just get really anxious thinking about it and how I just remember being squeezed between my mom and brother and having this severe panic attack and being so anxious because I knew my grandma was so mad at me because I wasn’t able to call myself down and no matter how hard I prayed and said the Bible verses I just could not calm down. She asked me what I thought would happen if I couldn’t call myself down and what that would say about me and I was like I don’t know and she was like well if God doesn’t answer your prayer and help you calm down then as a little kid what might you interpret that to mean and I was like that God doesn’t care and she was like and if God doesn’t care what happens to you when you die and I was like I guess that you go to hell and she was like so notice that and I was like well I noticed that I don’t think my church ever really talked about hell all that much although that might have been more of the case for the children’s church but that I think I was more afraid of the disconnection and judgment because everyone knew what was going on but no one ever gave a shit and everyone just kind of either looked away or frowned upon it or yelled at me and I explained how you know we would pull up to church and I would have just associated for the last 20 minutes and keeping my head looking out the window I would I’m back on myself and then run inside and sit in one of the classrooms and cry and call myself down or when I got older I would just go to the bathroom and cry and try to wipe my tears and not make it look so bad and I remember opening the door once I’m being absolutely mortified and embarrassed and ashamed because a teenager was there waiting to go to the bathroom and I was obviously just crying. She said that was a good stopping place and she really wants me to dig deeper on all of this and bethinking about if there was any chance that as a little child I would have been thinking that I would go to hell and that would explain some of that fear. I said I didn’t think so but I would think about it more. She said that the way that I was talking through everything was very logical and very rational and she was saying that given all of the dissociation from that time, she wasn’t entirely sure that I wasn’t dissociating in session which I was like I don’t know maybe. She said it was just the way that I was explaining everything felt very far removed and distant and gave her that sense. She wants me to dig deeper and we will see him next time and try to get to the bottom of all of this.  I paid her and we scheduled for two weeks out. I asked her how her sons play went and she said it went great and now it’s on to college applications. I laughed and said it was kind of like insurance paneling. She laughed and said yeah and she really shouldn’t complain because her son is actually pretty agreeable it was her daughters who were difficult. She said safe travels and I headed out.  

[werewolfmind]

AOS s3 / s4 under the cut

taken from my random posts off my rp blog as I was watching

“And you, Phil? You never killed someone just because you hated him? Hate’s a good motivator.” “You’re not wrong.” Well that was…relevant to TW currently

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“I’m changing my orders. Don’t hurt [Agent]. Kill him.” HOLY SHIT COULSON WTF

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STOP CALLING DAISY A FREAK  #IM GONNA REACH THROUGH MY SCREEN AND PUNCH SOME PEOPLE #SHE LOOKS LIKE SHES ABOUT TO CRY

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“Alfie [Mack] works for SHIELD?” Daisy: Yeah hes one of the best–did you just call him Alfie? Wow. Thanks for that, I cannot wait for him to get back now

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Lincoln: I uh, never saw the original Terminator. Coulson: Youre off the team #amazing #THE FACT THAT HE CAN JOKE ABOUT THAT NOW MEANS LINCOLNS OFFICIALLY IN

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COULSON CALLED HER SKYE AGAIN  #‘and for gods sake skye–come home’ #THEIR FATHER DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP IS THE BEST SINCE ALLISON AND CHRIS

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“yeah. Day got weirder” Coulsons quips are the best  AND SO IS DAISYS REACTION 

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ADDING AOS 3.16 TO MY LIST OF VOID INSPIRATION THINGS TO WATCH CAUSE GD THE TWIST THEY JUST PULLED WITH STEPHANIE AND HIVE KILLING HER  (I SAW IT COMING BUT WHATEVER ITS BRILLIANT)  #and brilliantly sadistic #Void approves

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“For one reason or another, each of us has been given a gift. Let’s put ‘em to good use.” And with 2 sentences, Daisy manages a good speech, a good exit, and a good heart I love her a lot ok

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#wait #do mack and yoyo have a Thing going on 

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#Coulson #no #(nope no him not trusting daisy i hate this) 

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“We’ll be stronger next time. You’ll see.” CRIES LOUDLY

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#FITZSIMMONS IS THE CUTEST WTH #the jokey rambling and the cut off kiss #LKJHGFD 

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#well #holy shit #ok #I shouldnt like this as much as i do 

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#FITZSIMMONS GETTIN IT ON #YES FINALLY 

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#also daisy threatening fitz hurts my soul 

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#FITZ’S HACKING AND FAST TYPING SKILLS #THAT DAISY TAUGHT HIM #JUST SAVED THE WORLD #YOU GO FITZ #TEHYRE SUCH AN UNDERRATED TEAM #AND I LOVE FITZ SO MUCH #YELLS LOUDLY #THEY JUST SAVED THE WORLD

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“Daisy. You were brainwashed.” “So was Ward.” …… OW THANK YOU FOR THAT  #this is always going to be an otp #she loved him

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#Daisy feeling guilty for what she did #and pushing Mack away #and then just #sobbing #IM CRYING #that hurt

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#NO #NOPE #I SWEAR TO GOD IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO FITZ 

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LOUD SHRILL SREAMING  #DAISYS WHAM LINE #TAKE ME BACK #WHAT THE FUCK #HIS IS FUCKING ME UP #I THINK I KNOW WHAT SHES DOING BUT #FUCK #IM #I THINK MY BRAIN JUST BROKE

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#well that was a mood whiplash #im crying and watching daisy cry #and then #????? #what is hapening??? 

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me, starting s4 of aos: why does Daisy look like Winter Soldier and also wtf is going on?! #seriously lay off the eyeliner maybe? #also the vibe of this is very #NOT aos #i mean yes its a show about spies but thi feel very #summer action flick #:\

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#Fitz and Coulson highfiving #seriously next to Daisy and May  #Coulson’s relationship with Fitz is the best 

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#COUSLON HIGH FIVING HIS NEW HAND #IM DYING #HES THE BEST 

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#'what. the hell?!’ #FITZ MEETING AIDA #HISVREACTION IS AMAZING OMG 

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#'do it. i deserve it.’ #THE THING IS #I CANT TELL IF THATS A PLOY #OR IF SHE REALLY BELIEVES THAT BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE DID FROM HIVE #GDI CAN WE STOP BEING SHADY ABOUT WHAT A CHARACTER IS GOING THROUGH RE THEIR PTSD AND SURVIVORS GUILT

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#daisy threatening robbie while making unblinking eye contact and sipping coffee #DAMN #CHILL

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#ok #we get it #new director is making SHIELD all bureaucratic #guy talks like the politician suspects on Castle #Coulson was better #and you can see him bitchfacing behind the smile #because he knows it

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#DAISY SERIOUSLY WTF ARE YOU DOING 

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#fitz angry at daisy #'she turned her back on us!’ #this is such an important friendship #you can see how ashamed she is to be going behind them #how fitz yelling got to her #how betrayed Mack is #cries #what happened to my team

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#literally how STUPID and PREJUDICED do you have to be #to watch your friend #save you and a lot of other innocent people #from gunmen trying to kill HER #and you STILL go 'youre one of them’ and 'youre not my friend’ blah blah blah #i mean this isnt even being afraid #its being STUPID #WHO THE HELL CARES IF SHES INHUMAN SHES A GODDAMN SUPERHERO THAT SAVED YOU #THATS GOOD ENOUGH TO STAY ELENA’S FRIEND #i am so upset rn

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#'all right you ready?’ #’–hell NO Im not ready! We’re about to kill her!’ #I love the writing on this show

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(okay but lets talk about how both recent seasons of aos and tw have had an antagonist called Ghost Riders and played around with versions of alternate realities

#AND a villain who takes one bad thing that happened to her personally#and then lashes out at all of that kind as#'vengeance’#I S2G

And then theres both Fitz and Stiles using a fire extinguisher as a weapon… 

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#HE FINALLY GETS THE WHIP #YES #ALSO DAISY CAN YOU STOP BEING DUMB AND GO BACK TO SHIELD #JEMMA IS TRYING TO HELP YOU GDI