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littletrumpetcat · 2 months ago

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i hate being so noise sensitive because of my shitty upbringing*. the people above me, who's minds are physically incapable of thinking of other people, were blasting billie eillish and i was instantly just unable to think or focus on anything except for How Painful This Is To My Ears. i can definitely blame my university for being incredibly cheap when designing these apartments back in the 60s because there's very little soundproofing and that's a whole separate issue regarding the for-profit education system and the university's decades of neglect regarding these complexes. but i think if u need to blast your favorite albums through your bluetooth speaker in order to be happy or get housework done, you need to live with other people for a little bit.

#or tell me if this is normal #shitty upbringing as in #my father would blast his TV as loud as he could with like an entire surround sound setup #the worst gift any of us have ever given him was #my older brother gifting him an electronic turntable setup #because he outfitted that shit with speakers all over the basement #he blasts shit so loud the bass makes the house shake #my ears would hurt from the opposite side of the house #a lot of fighting for my life to get him to stop and eventually he would only play it when i wasn't home #but like. occasionally he'd ask #'can i please play one album?'#and if i said no he'd say 'i can't wait for you to go back to college'#like the 2nd week i moved back in btw lolll #i already had this on my mind because #im moving back home next semester to student teach #because student housing is like 4x the value of anything not affiliated with a university #and anything unaffiliated with the university means id need to pay out of pocket every month #when im not going to be making money while i student teach AND paying tuition #it's not a fun system #so im forced to move back in w/ my abuser #who is still a huge pain to live with #but im really excited to student teach #kaya rambles #the thing that sucks is that #my university's portal for applying to scholarships is rarely ever fuckin open #and it seems like none of the scholarships that i can apply ofr apply to me #ive never gotten shit from this university lol #but im gonna try like hell to find some scholarships or something

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