#like sorry for being an emotionally unstable 30yo i guess?? are u really gonna try to shut me down abt it?? | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

trujellyfish · 3 months ago

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thinking too hard abt how this rise of "mental health" discussion still only seems to focus on the Cute and Quirky symptoms and still demonizes other mental health (personality) disorders

like my carefully curated tumblr space is fine, but everytime i get sucked into insta reels i inevitably see tens of different reels of the same 3 symptoms of autism/adhd

like im glad theyre getting this positive moment but it just kind of fucking sucks to listen to people talk about how they ToTaLlY have a "touch of the 'tism" and ur friends are sending u "relatable adhd memes" so u think u have a little more support and understanding but then u mention how ur struggling with self harm and suicidal thoughts and violent/disturbing intrusive thoughts and suddenly everyone's like

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whats the matter babe, my mental health problems not palatable enough for you? :/

#told a coworker that some ppl have intrusive thoughts like assaulting ppl #and his face was just like the emoji #'ur not a terrible person'#would u still feel like reassuring me if u knew abt the thoughts i was beating back with a stick?#like i could absolutely use a therapist #not for a diagnosis mind u just for. fucking. counselling.#bc obvs i cant be chronically relying on my friends to emotionally support me #they have their own stuff and emotional labour is a lot and i know that but still #sometimes i just feel like. fuck. like just.#could u just listen to me for five fucking minutes #and reassure me that im not a terrible person #and that everything will be alright #because i can tell myself and do self affirmations but fuck #sure would be nice if i felt like someone other than me believed that too #like i think i could rely on my roomie but she doesnt do physical contact lmao #and i could prob talk to my sis or mum but i would Rather Not plus they would probably cry #and i want someone who's gonna be calm about it hahaaa #dont ask if im back on my meds yet <3 #as unhealthy as my childhood friendships were they were also the most honest #we were Very Open abt how fucked up we were #unfortunately we just like fed into each other #but now trying to be honest just feels like a Fucking Joke #and not even in a 'trying to downplay so i dont cry' way #more like 'im not taking this conversation seriously Unless ur crying'#gods i feel like a fucking teenager trying to get ppl to take my emotions seriously again what the fuck #like sorry for being an emotionally unstable 30yo i guess?? are u really gonna try to shut me down abt it??#like who are u my father lmfao fuck OFF #like im fine with the person that i am!!! why isnt anyone else?? im not a child!!!

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