#like sometimes i wanna enjoy being trans and not have a panic attack or trigger my agoraphobia because thats where the people are
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charliethemanticore · 2 years ago
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#im so tired of how the world treats trans people#and how i seem to be expected to be constantly up to date on 100% of the terrible shit thats going on#even in countries i do not live in and have no power to influence#im so tired of 'youre trans? but you dont post xyz about it&#like im tired yall#ive got so much other stuff going on in so tired of being expected to fight every fight all the time#but its not even fighting itsnjust doom scrolling and making my quality of life actively worse by triggering preexisting mental health shit#like. i wasnt able to go to the Brisbane protest because i was recovering from covid#but also im disabled and the route was long and hilly so i wouldbt have been able to fo that anyway#but that means that im bad#and in my class dealing with current issues it was just assumed id wanna focus in trans issues#i dont want to spend all my time thinking about how the world wants me dead#thats normal right?#like to not be expected to fight tooth and nail all the time?#like sometimes i wanna enjoy being trans and not have a panic attack or trigger my agoraphobia because thats where the people are#being trans brings me so much joy and im so annoyed that the default setting#is me being expected to consume nothing but negative content about how much the world hates me#i love being trans#its one of the things about me that brings me inherent joy.#so much about my body is broken#i dont want to be reminded that a lot of the world thinks thats one of those things#im tired#i want to be allowed my joy#ive had to stop looking at a friend's social media because everything he shares is miserable#like bro you keep saying youre anxious all the time#how does watching and sharing 80 reels a day about American policy help anyone?#how does what you share to your stories help you or any other trans person?#he doesnt follow me this isnt a vague post this is just a ramble#im sorry im tired.#delete later
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carolingarts · 1 year ago
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Man okay. Imma talk about the new lore drop because hooooly shit what cool fucking lore. Evil imagineer/magician guy turned scientist?? Or (and this hit me) what if this guy legit was just a scientist guy taking *advantage* of Henry? Like then he's like "I could make shit too but he's better" so I'm like. Amazing. Showstopper. Let's gooo.
As I'm observing the discourse however I'm like...why is it the internet tendency to just *instantly* jump to the "let's just focus on the worst things" and I think like...
I have the weirdest relationship with fandom. The last time I had a fandom like this I super cared about I went full "bad guy can do no wrong (even tho bad guy was legit the *worst*) and like. I was in a bad place IRL and those threats hit me in a deeply bad way.
Like a bad way.
Like in the kind of way that stuff happened.
Now. This is fandom and honestly I got a lot of help and I'm better now. And I tried to find other fandoms put together I'm transgender but then y'know both the shows I got into got cancelled after one season so I'm like, fuck it maybe I just need to make my own thing or write about it.
The thing is that like. That's exhausting. Writers deserve a lot cause it's fucking hard sometimes and I have stuff that I can look at dealing with that but LOL round 2 and I'm observing the same stuff.
I'm legit serious. Evil bad guy scientist dude who is most definitely evil who uses what amounts to like themepark tech to murder ppl? Amazing. Better than HN. So fucking cool. I'm into it.
So...I am forced to ask, why am I triggered by this discourse and after an evening of being upset and mild panic attack I have come the following conclusions.
1) for a generation and fandom full of people who care about mental health 1- there's gonna be a lot of people who are hurt over this and I hope y'all talk to those people and talk about people sending death threats and maybe like. Make safe spaces for people who are systems and fictives. Encourage them to talk so they can like...process it. Y'all did it for bl*eycapsules. Or just remember (and I have seen this) that like this new thing is canon but your au is valid keep up with- your au.
2- would it fucking kill y'all to use tone indicators even if it's an actual joke and seems obvious completely omitting me like. There might be people who don't get it haagha edgy humor. I mean. This guy's a shithead *should be obvious* but speaking just...as me. An old asshole. People miss shit.
(I am actually a really really big proponent of "hey listen this canon version sucks *ass* why not make your own thing then change the names and make a comic about it and y'know you could add your own flare like maybe it all turns out to be the backrooms or something. Enjoy the slasher-killer but if you connected to the dude be like 'fuck you Scott and canon I'm gonna do my own thing and it's gonna be better.'
That's one of the things I love about this fandom. It *was* sandbox-like and Scott seemed to like and encourage that. Don't ask for star wars. Ask for something super cool that you can make your own even if nobody listens.
3- final note. Gonna not get personal but maybe a little bit? Idk how this might be read. So this is a warning. I'm in my 30s and I'm old. Take that into account reading this pls.
I'm trans and this space is aligned with all my special interests (themeparks, creepy entertainment companies) and I wanna be here but Scott could maybe we have another adult who...isn't a villain and isn't Vanessa?
Hear me out. I love Vanessa but I'm on a gender struggle bus. I'm old and trans and I love her but I'd like a cool...idk. just another person.
The world: Kyle! But what about Mike Afton-
Im...old. and Mike means a lot to a lot of other people and maybe this is my neurodivergency but like he and Jeremy just belong to so many people in warm and fuzzy levels...I'm old. I don't go here.
The world: ok but the animatronics-
It just doesn't work for me. Sorry. Believe me I've tried. believe me.
Anyway. Dear Scott and Steel Wool are the only like decent human beings your 2 throwaway cops in the novels and a bunch of parents who have no names and Vanessa? I know this is a kids game and it feels weird to ask but could we have grownups who are masc presenting who aren't Mike Afton and aren't y'know. Creeps like Luis?
I know it sounds stupid but it really is my neurodivergency and it is so hard to explain like. Mike and Jeremy etc belong to so many other people and what's cool about this is idk I feel like I could share that and maybe not feel like a weirdo
Anyway. Those are my thoughts. I'm just getting it out there.
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crowned-ladybug · 6 years ago
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Marvin from the rivals au for that character thing or just in general bc I love him so much and I want to know more about him
This got so long, I’m so sorry. This is like 2k words bc if allowed to talk about this boy then i could talk Forever. Oops
(With the meme it’s here btw)
Occasional sleeptalker. Usually just incoherent babbling, andJackie finds it hilarious to listen to if he's awake for it
Can braid his own hair perfectly without any trouble. Fear him
Shows his love of certain ppl by buying them lil gifts but hatesthe confrontation and awkwardness of giving them to them so heusually just leaves them in places he knows they'll find them,usually with no indication that they're from him either
Colour codes Everything
Has his own way of organising things that makes sense to Him okaybut he can't really explain it to anyone else. It annoys poor Jamesonto no end bc he organises shit to help with his anxiety and MarvinKeeps Ruining It
His reaction to Chase and Jackie wanting to get up to impulsivefun shit is "sure, go ahead, just don't hinder whatever I'mdoing" (or sometimes he joins them) and Schneep is sodisappointed in him for not helping him keep them in check instead
Has a fuckin perfectly figured out skincare routine and he'sdragging all the others up with him
Generally v good at lazy/spa day kinda self-care
Has ADD (tho all the egos have ADD/ADHD tbh)
Chase has absolutely compared him to Mettaton X at some point andMarvin doesn't know how to react to that
Gets cold super easily and Hates It. Is an absolute lil bitchabout it and won't stop whining until he can get warm again(favourite way to do that is to cuddle Jackie, and he just goes allhappy and melty from it, but I still wouldn't try to talk to him if Iwere you. And Jackie is a good bf who puts up with Marvin's stupidcold hands and face)
Has two modes when cuddling btw, he either just lies peacefullywith someone (mostly Jackie) while having an arm draped over them orholding their hand or pressed up against them, or he turns into afuckin octopus. Good luck trying to get up, you won't succeed
Which has led to multiple instances of someone needing Jackie forsomething, only to find him unavailable bc he's completely trapped bya sleeping Marvin even if he himself is wide awake. But he enjoys ita lot too bc Hell Yes Affection and would never have the heart tomove him and wake him up
He's also p damn pointy so he's not really the most comfy personto cuddle but Oh Well
Also wakes up slow and says a lot of bullshit in the process (orstuff he'd normally filter out and not get to say, like sappy shit)
A flirty lil bitch
Knows Jackie blushes super easily and enjoys the fuck out of it.Constantly trying to figure out how little it'll take for him to beall red in the face (And he knows Jackie doesn't mind and he backsoff when he's told to. Don't worry. Consent is still there)
He on the other hand doesn't blush often so when he does it meanshe's Super Flustered
Ik i said this last night too but he knows how to dance and doesit p well tbh?? He used to dance a lot when he was a kid/teen butdropped it when he realised he was trans bc then he tried to be AsMasculine As Possible bc he felt like if he didn't he'd be "fakingit"
(Grew out of that eventually. He's so glad he did)
Insecure about more stuff than he would ever let you believe
Once he starts really caring about the other egos he tries So Hardto be good to them and secretly beats himself up sometimes for stillbeing an Asshole when he messes it up. Yeah it's angsty. He'd takehimself apart just to make it up to his friends for having been anasshole to them before
Not a morning person but he can still function if woken up early,he'll just make sure you know that he's Not happy about it
Very rarely gets dysphoric, really only if continously referred towith the wrong pronouns/gendered terms or if called his deadname
At some point he started shooting Jackie flirty looks while sayingbullshit in French (Jackie doesn't speak French) to fluster him butit got to the point where Marvin realised that if he wanted to keepdoing it he'd need to Actually Learn French instead of just spoutingthe same limited amount of bullshit all the time. And that's thestory of why he started studying a Whole Other Language
Likes flowers but knows fuck all about them
I don't think I'll ever properly type down how he got his scar sohere: before Marvin pledged alliance to the other egos, Anti alreadyassumed he would, and so he captured him and threatened to torturehim to get information out of him/possibly force him on his sideinstead. Marvin called his bluff and told him to fuck himself. Antigot angry, waved his knife a lil too close to Marvin's face duringone of his threats and ended up actually cutting him. Anti was superhappy bc holy shit I Did Something, and Marvin decided that he's hadenough and since he'd been saving his energy all this time, blew up acharge of electricity in Anti's face. He then proceeded to teleporthome (with the chair he was tied to still attached but uhh. That partof the story is a lil less dignified so shh)
Anti has had a special place in Hell for him ever since (and withthis I'm realising that Anti is actually p fuckin bad at his job??Wow)
Says he doesn't like his hair messed with. He's lying.
But you gotta be Special and Important To Him to have permissionto touch his hair (or a hairdresser I guess). But Jackie is one ofthose ppl so he can mess with Marvin's hair all he wants (he evenlearned how to braid hair just to surprise him and lemme tell you,Marvin was Absolutely v surprised) Stroke and pet his hair longenough and he'll go all melty
His teeth are a lil bit pointier than average (and Jackie is sofucking gay for that and I'm shaming him)
Used to write poetry as a teen. Don't bring it up, he'sembarrassed.
Shoves all his feelings and problems in a box and hides them inthe attic bc He Doesn't Want Them
Can sing okay but doesn't do it often bc it's not Perfect so it'sBad. Hums more often tho
He's scared of a bunch of stuff in horror movies (and triggered bysome) but No One is allowed to know that. He's glad most of theothers don't much like them either and thus they don't watch themtogether anyway. He really doesn't want others to see him scared bche thinks it'd make him look weak and ridiculous
(Yes, he double-standards himself vs other ppl a Lot. Being scaredor having bad mental health or messing up is only bad if he does it.But you didn't hear that from me.)
Pokemon is one of his biggest and longest-lasting hyperfixations
Holy shit I've never drawn him in a suit but my dudes he looks SoPretty in a well-fitted suit, Holy Fuck. Give him a lapel flower andit'll be Perfect. No one can resist that amount of charm
Knows how to walk (and even run and dance) in high heels but can'tfucking stand them (no pun intended, he just finds them reallyuncomfortable)
Will be stunned silent if anyone assumes he doesn't absolutelyAdore Jackie, both bc How Dare You and bc he's trying So Hard to be agood bf is he really That Bad at it?
Pressure is not his main stim but it's the best way to bring himout of a panic/anxiety attack and just ground him in general, espwhen he can't use his magic or doesn't think to use it. (He doesn'thave any weighted stuff so in others words: lie on him.) Once hecalms down enough he'll hopefully start doing his vital-readingmagic, which should help calm him more
(Also yeah, the whole vital-reading that I've probably talk aboutjust Way Too Much already but jic I'll mention it again anyway: hecan use his magic to read other ppl's vitals. It calms and comfortshim. He mainly does it to Jackie, who has given him blanketpermission for it)
Favourite stim is fondling with squishy things (like those foamanimal keychains??) and scraping stuff like candle wax or soap (itwould probably be chewing if he actually realised that that is aValid Stim but he Doesn't)
Has his own apartment for a while still after moving in with theother egos bc he doesn't expect it to last. He sells it about a yearlater
His job is being a magician too and doing his shows that bring inAbsolutely enough money for him to not have to get another job or doshows like every other night. Ppl don't know he has Actual MagicPowers which makes a lot of things easier for him
His masks are all self-made bc he didn't wanna chance lettinganyone else do it, and he's had many less fabulous ones before bc healways wants Better. The gold patterns on the one I've drawn him withbefore are covered in glitter. He has a couple other ones he usestho, all different styles and shapes and colours for the sake ofvariety. He always wears matching make-up (mainly eye make-up andlipstick) for his shows
The scoreboard on the fridge (a piece of paper where they trackevery time him and Jackie defeat each other in Anything At All) washis idea, but it was Jackie who drew the stick figure renditions ofthe two of them on it (so it was a joint effort, really. Yeah,ironic. Or typical)
Has no shame when it comes to PDA as long as it isn't suggestive,but Jackie is a lot less sure about it (esp when out in public) soofc he respects that
That also means that if Jackie decides to hold his hand in publiche gets So Fucking Giddy you have No Idea and also you wouldn'tbelieve it even if you saw
Speaking of giddy. If you manage to get him to start talking aboutJackie (not a hard thing to achieve tbh) he will get so happy andgiddy and excited and Will Not Shut Up okay. Or at least it'll takehim a While to realise that he's rambling and has completely shed hiscool exterior. He just really loves his bf okay and he kinda justwants everyone to know how great he is
Can remember names and face p well but numbers and dates? Nah son.You better believe he has to make memos and calendar entries on hisphone for Everything. He's glad he can remember his own birthday,almost everything else he just kinda remembers (so only as specificas season or month). He feels bad about it tho, esp when he has tocheck like twice a day coming up to an important date that yes, it'sstill two days away, he didn't miss it
Has the kinda handwriting that's v pretty to look at but is anabsolute Pain to try to read
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cjfanfics · 8 years ago
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Overwatch Fic Rec
Hi guys! I’ve taken a break from sherlock fic for a while and been reading lot’s of OW fic. Most of it is mchanzo, with some mcreyes, genyatta, mcgenji and other assorted ships, will be divided by ships below.Any fics with *** before the tittle were my personal favorites.
ENJOY!!
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MCHANZO
curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back by obliviates
“I’ll be darned. If it isn’t Hanzo. What brings you round these parts?” His accent was thicker. That was the first thing Hanzo noted. Even though he’d only been in the South again for about two months, somehow Jesse McCree had gotten more cowboy. And for the first time, it’s not just the two of them and his music and the simulated campfire. And for the first time, it’s not just the two of them sitting in a pleasant awkward silence, other than the occasional soft song on McCree’s guitar. And for the first time, Jesse McCree asks something Hanzo doesn’t know how to answer. (Trans!Hanzo)
***Hang The Fool by AlmaMeDuele (Of course)
How the heroic organization Overwatch acquires the talents of one Hanzo Shimada, and how gunslinger Jesse McCree will probably suffer because of it for the rest of his days.
twenty-one guns by starscry
Hanzo has been haunted by ghosts all his life. The phantoms of his past, the lingering presence of his brother - he just never thought he would be haunted by a real one.
Yes, Sir by Deadlockdarlin (Dokuganryu)
"I wanna be at your mercy"
Blurting it out wasn't how Mccree had intended to approach this subject, but he'd spent the last few hours with a knot in the pit of his stomach, the words seemingly stuck in his throat every time he'd tried to speak about it, and what better time to do it than now? Right in the thick of a battle. (Bondage)
Your Touch, My Comfort by Luddleston for SizzlyCrisp
Hanzo rarely felt at peace these days, but a week of leave was a blessing like no other when one had someone to spend it with.
Hanzo and McCree spend an afternoon together while they're on vacation. It involves a lot of kisses and a little bit of biting.
The True Meaning of Patience by lyraorion
McCree makes some mistakes on an operation because of hastiness, so Hanzo decides to teach him a lesson about taking your time to do your job right.
And boy, does he. (Minor Gunplay, Trans Hanzo)
If you Wanna see a Miracle, Watch me get Down by Luddleston
Hanzo and McCree are undercover in a bar, when they realize their targets are nowhere to be found.
It works out just fine, though, because Hanzo has other ideas of what he can do with McCree, a few drinks, and a place where nobody knows their names.
Wings of Love by mysterixn
Hanzo is assigned to be Jesse McCree's guardian angel. What he expects and what he gets are very different things. (Temporary character death)
Guns and Scales by Fledgling
A series of one-shots featuring McCree and dragon!Hanzo, as well as appearences from the rest of the crew.
Like The River by Goodluckdetective
Dragon Spirits don’t trust just anyone.
McCree never expected for them to ever trust him.
Or how McCree gained some trust, won a shootout, almost caught the flu, and proceeded to be the most handsome damsel in distress Overwatch has ever seen.
Ignore all Distractions by southdragon
Hanzo takes a job with Overwatch, and is isolating himself from who he is working with out of his own bad habits. But what happens when someone refuses to let him sit in isolation?
Tease by Samdragon
In which Hanzo rides the cowboy.
Run (No More) by rainbow_Velociraptor
Alternatively titled "The Story About How Hanzo Lost His Legs"
"My son ran into your arms like a wild dog runs towards a hunk of meat. Now I made sure that he will never run again."
*** Trust Knows No Fear by Jesse
Hanzo drew in a deep breath, his thick shoulders rolling as he slowly exhaled. He stared at the floor, and then at his feet, not looking up at Jesse. “Is it so bad that I am trying to spare you from this?”
Honestly confused at this point, McCree knelt down in front of Hanzo, trying to look up into his lover’s face. “And what do you mean by that?”
Closing his eyes, Hanzo turned his head away, the scarf in his hair spilling over his shoulders. “I don’t want you to have to see me like that.. without them.”
A oneshot fic in which Hanzo doesn't want to remove his prosthetic legs, not wanting McCree to see him without them. Jesse helps Hanzo to overcome that fear, as well as having a bit of fun afterwards.
Why Don’t We Just Dance by Anna_Blossom
Hanzo let a quiet laugh escape his lips. “You are embarrassing,” he said after a few moments.
“But you love me anyway,” McCree teased, and Hanzo rolled his eyes.
“Unfortunately so.”
(the one where McCree serenades Hanzo)
*** Pains, Gains, and Automata (SERIES)
Die nine times. Get up ten.
The invention of respawn, the nearly instantaneous reversal of death, has won wars and forever changed how Overwatch operates. Ammunition is infinite, nanobots repair wounds better than new, and expiration is a slap on the wrist. For some, respawn is nothing short of a miracle.
For others, it's the apocalypse.
Hanzo Shimada has no strong opinion on it one way or the other, but as he's enveloped in Overwatch culture, makes friends, discovers enemies, and fosters a vitriolic love for one Jesse McCree, he finds that every death has consequences, and respawn offers no sanctuary.
Trick Shot by andsylphy
At this point he was admitting to himself that half of him couldn’t end the competition due to pride, and half was wanting to impress McCree.
Dragon Heart String by Mchandsoap
Where dragons form a type of heartbeat soul bond with people they cherish, and Hanzo and McCree spend lots of time together.
Do It All Again by BulletproofFurniture
Hanzo had been sure when McCree suggested it, that he had been joking. He hadn’t looked up from cleaning his bow, and had waited for a more serious suggestion.
Until nothing came. Hanzo looked up at Jesse, eyebrows high in disbelief. McCree’s hands were on his hips with a confident grin on his face. “Jesse,” Hanzo said slowly. “We aren’t going skinny dipping.”
Jesse thinks he and Hanzo need a night off. Hanzo thinks Jesse is out of his mind.
To Make It Right by canterville
McCree’s never fancied a fella who didn’t make him worry some.
Bloodshot Eyes by twitchtipthegnawer
Hanzo Shimada is strong, and brave, and hot as all hell, and underneath it all he's even stronger and braver than McCree would have guessed. McCree knows it, and while he'll never admit the way it makes his heart feel (fluttering in his chest like a goddamn butterfly, what is he, a lovestruck teenager) he can admit that he never wants to spend another day without the knowledge that he has seen every side Hanzo has to offer.
Undercover by lyriumveins
Hanzo is a new member of Overwatch, working undercover in a coffee shop with a few other agents. He’s adjusting to his new life – and making good progress on his missions – when he starts finding ridiculous messages scrawled on coffee cups… Messages that are, apparently, for him. While he’s convinced it’s all just a ridiculous prank, D.Va calls them “pick-up lines” and insists that he has a “secret admirer.”
A Long Way by holdontoyourhulahoops
Hanzo and Genji have a long overdue conversation.
*** four days by starscry
“I have an embarrassin’ favor to ask of you,” Jesse says.
Hanzo stares at him expectantly, a single brow arched. “And what is that?” he asks.
“Y’see, my family might currently be under the impression that I’m bringin’ home a date for a few days next week. And, the thing is, I don’t really have one. So, I’m currently S-O-L and would really, really appreciate it if you came home with me for a few days and, uh. Pretended. To be my boyfriend.”
He stares down at his plate and jabs a fry into the enormous puddle of ketchup gathered in the center of it. If only the fry could be his hypothetical four-day boyfriend, he thinks; it would save him an enormous amount of embarrassment. It would be tastier, too.
[ Or - McCree desperately needs a fake date to bring home to his family, and Hanzo never does anything half-assed. ]
greedy by ahegao
As it turns out, untying McCree is not necessarily tantamount to rescuing him.
Sad Cowboy Songs by MooeyDooey
They say that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach, but sometimes it is through his taste in music.
*** Trauma by Demon_Apostle
It turns out that a sword can trigger a panic attack in Hanzo. He now needs to start a journey to rid himself of his trauma.
A little Anticipation by Astheroze
Hanzo had been downright ignored all day, left to suffer in mild arousal and wonder when Jesse would get on with it and press the godforsaken button on the idiotic little remote in his pocket. He hadn’t touched it all day- he left Hanzo to stew with the radio-controlled menace inside of him. And hadn't. Turned. It on. Once.
Petals on the River by bamfbugboy
Hanzo didn't know what to expect when he left Japan, but with his brother at this side, he would do anything to keep him safe. Even leave everything he knew, loved, and understood behind. Fleeing to California seemed like an extraordinarily outlandish idea, but his brother assured him that the southwest was a land of mystery, beauty, and romance--at least that's what his novels told him. He doesn't want to look over his shoulder for the rest of his life, so without hesitation, Genji closes his eyes before the train station's map, points, and tells his brother that's their destination. A little town out in the desert, away from the lights and busy streets of Los Angeles, where they'll start anew.
*** Magic McCree by Cawaiiey
Hanzo Shimada does not want to be here, he does not like strip clubs and never has. And Genji is wrong, he does not need to 'get laid', no matter how long this dry spell has lasted. He knows he'll regret being here tonight, and he needs a drink. And the tall glass of water clad in plaid that just bumped into him could be what cures his thirst. 
Points on a Circle by Hubris_And_Crafts
It began when Jesse McCree summoned one of Hanzo's dragons in the middle of battle.
It began a month ago when Hanzo looked at Jesse and realized he's already in love.
It began an hour ago when Satya heard the word 'magic' and refused the believe.
It began six months ago when Genji introduced his his brother to Jesse, not knowing the two of them have a past.
It begins. (Side genyatta/gency, sombrasong and sympharah)
Amor is for Protection
Everything about Hanzo was just so delightfully attractive. His silky hair, his well-groomed beard, his satisfied smirk. It all felt like it’d been specifically tailored to get McCree hot and bothered. Which was all well and good, but what was McCree supposed to do about the fact that Hanzo’s archery glove was the sexiest part of his ensemble? (GLOVE KINK)
*** Draw by Khateeah
Hanzo has an unhealthy fondness for Jesse's gun. (GUNPLAY, TRAUMA, UNHEALTHY COPING MECHANISMS)
Popcorn Redemption by Wyntera
They say life isn't like the movies.
Well, partner, they ain't never worked for Overwatch.
Desperate Measures by justlikethelionking
There is an itch that secretly-alpha Jesse Mccree cannot control. And the itch may be nearer than he thought.
What could go wrong, goes in a much different direction. Jesse is not complaining. (ABO)
*** The 85th Annual King County Bake-Off by venvephe (WIP)
It’s October first, and it’s all come down to this.
The cake is perfect. He’s been waiting for this moment all year, since the previous baking competition. This is his chance at redemption, at reclaiming the crown of the best baker in the county. It’s a title only the winner of the county fair can hold. He’s waited a year and spent hours upon hours at work. Early mornings and late nights, scrapped ideas and tons of flour and sugar went into his masterpiece. It’s all led to him to standing here, awaiting the announcement of the winners.
This year, it’s going to be Hanzo. Last year’s winner - his rival, his nemesis - is going down. Hanzo’s not going to let his mortal enemy take the crown for a third year in a row.
What kind of name is Jesse McCree, anyways?
*** It’s All Your Fault by Cawaiiey
Hanzo Shimada joins the ranks of Overwatch and finds that he quite likes teasing the resident cowboy. That is, until a single compliment ruins his thought process, and he has to deal with feelings he's not exactly well versed in.
Dragon Rider by cellostiel
"You don't- you don't get it. I am a beast, Jesse. Not some cuddly creature."
"I dunno, you seemed pretty cuddly the other night."
"You're not taking this seriously."
"'Scuse me, but my boyfriend's a dragon. What part of that 's serious?"
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So turns out Hanzo can turn into a dragon sometimes. Who knew? (Trans!Jesse)
Silver Screen by  DerpyMcButtface
It's far, far in the future. The heroes are dead, old, or getting there fast. They're making movies now, about Overwatch, but not everyone's happy about that.
Be Sure To Hit The Mark by ceasefire
"Lie back, darlin'. Relax."
McCree's voice is rough and low, sounds like gravel crunching brittle underfoot from years of smoking cheap cigars and drinking cheaper alcohol. Hanzo can still taste smoke and moonshine on his tongue from when they'd started kissing, and the memory alone is enough to make him lick his lips as the flavour fades. (TITFUCKING)
Only Sweeter Thing by ceasefire
"I have never done this before."
McCree paused for a moment, his finger rubbing soothingly over Hanzo's skin. "With a man?"
Hanzo lets out a soft breath that tickled the whiskers on McCree's cheek.
"With anyone."
In which Hanzo is not as inexperienced as McCree assumes, and McCree is determined to make sure Hanzo's first is memorable for the right reasons.
***Good Fences Make Good Neighbors by vandoodle
Hanzo Shimada regrets ever joining Overwatch after he is paired with Jesse McCree, known cowboy enthusiast, and dropped off in the middle of American suburbia. Forced to blend in with the environment, endure neighborhood cookouts, and share his new living space with his so-called 'Husband', the two prepare to preform the ultimate sting operation: taking down the Vishkar corporation once and for all. He can't help but think this will all go horribly wrong.
Or, alternatively titled: the undercover fake-marriage fic that every fandom deserves.
GENYATTA
You Keep Me Stable by Semageon
Zenyatta can't help but desire his sparrow, and Genji is more than pleased to be able to finally be intimate with his master. (HORSE DICK WARNING)
That'll Do Fine by volsung
Genji and Zenyatta have been together a while now. They decide to bring McCree into the mix. (MCGENJI TOO)
*** Challenge by NeonCandies (WIP)
Genji Shimada was a man who never backed down from a challenge. From the weirdest challenge to the most extreme, he'd say yes to the dare and do whatever he could to accomplish it. So when he's dared to try and woo a particular Omnic monk, Genji barely thinks twice before he's agreeing. If only he knew how twisted his previously normal life would become the moment he accepted this dare.
*** And No Orchids Grow
A mountain cannot stop the road; it can find its own way across.
No Mistake Was Made by berlynn_wohl
“Your old body is gone,” Zenyatta said. “But we do not lament when the caterpillar's body is gone. We rejoice at the sight of a butterfly, do we not?”
Meet Me in a Safe Place by volsung
Genji pines after someone he cannot have, but finds the person he really needs. 
MCREYES
Always by makeuswise
Gabriel fucks Jesse's face and Jesse's in love.
Sweet by ghost900
Jesse’s going to kill him one day.
*** the death of by v_darkstar
Jesse is pure, smug and so darn happy that Gabriel can't keep down the urge to completely destroy him. McCree burns so bright, so much like Jack used to.
*** Dust Into Diamonds by whiskeyandguns
Jesse McCree has zero patience for sniping, good thing he's got Commander Reyes talking in his ear to keep him company.
Sexed Up by writing_ramblings (Series)
In which Reyes starts aching for sex and Jesse is that good of a human being to cease that pain.
Sickness & Health by smarshtastic
It's a strange thing, being cared for, being taken care of, after so many years of having to do it all himself.
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Jesse has a cold, and Gabe does his best to take care of him.
Pink by tordarroch
Gabriel's latest mission goes on longer than planned. When he returns, the stress he is under is too much. As usual, his source of relief is Jesse but this time, things go a little differently.
Squats by Marshmellowtoast
Jesse come a long way since joining Blackwatch, building up his physic, and Gabe is all too happy to appreciate it.
Cave of Spleen by 6xoji (WIP)
McCree is drowning in his own blood when he realizes he loves Reyes.
Crooked feet by northernmongrel
Jesse McCree falls in love with a man who happens to be the king of the pacific.
Love Me by dorking
Is this how people make love?
If that were true, he'd have felt loved a long time before he met Reyes. (Past Abuse)
Treading Water by smarshtastic
Jesse coughs himself back to consciousness, curling up onto his side as the water he swallowed comes back up. His chest aches and his head is spinning and he can't quite get his eyes to focus right. He sees several pairs of dripping boots and someone's got their face close to his own. They're haloed by the lights over the pool so Jesse can't quite see who it is. Jesse blinks. It's Commander Reyes.
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Jesse's fear of water means he never learned to swim. Gabriel Reyes is determined to fix that.
*** volcanoes (melt you down) by bonebo
For some reason, Gabriel had always imagined his first time having sex would be more…poetic. (Age reversal)
Home Is Where the Heart Is by hanzopanzo (floralstiel)
Gabe loved coming home to a good, home-cooked meal and, of course, his pretty little wife. (Feminization) 
*** Life Size Ghosts by northernmongrel
Jesse buries Gabriel, but decides not to leave. (Death Fic)
Crossed Wires by smarshtastic
Jesse flips the camera open on his comm, snaps a couple of pictures. He strokes himself lazily as he flips through them: shirt rucked up, stomach exposed, a bead of precome leaking from the tip of his cock. The lower part of his face is in the frame, lip caught between his teeth. He hits send before he can think too hard about it.
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Jesse accidentally sends some junk mail to his commanding officer.
Making Plans by fabrega
"I was really hoping we wouldn't have to have this conversation." Gabe hasn't looked up yet; he can only imagine the look on Jesse's face. 
Substitute by crimson_wake
Ana tells him he's in over his head.
[reset] by bonebo
Sometimes Gabriel just needs a break.
*** nox by bonebo
In the Soldier Enhancement Program, before the days of Overwatch and when the world teetered on crisis, heroes were made.
Jesse’s heard the stories, just like everyone else--heard of the brave men and women who volunteered for the project, gave their bodies to science to take and break and reinvent, recreate in a better, stronger image. He’s seen the plaques at the museums dedicated to the Crisis, golden lists of names as long as his arm: those who tried, and failed, to make themselves good enough, fast enough, strong enough, to save the world.
Not everyone could be a hero.
*** Exodus by fabrega
Gabe thinks about what he owes Blackwatch, and Overwatch; about what Ana had told him; about white picket fences. He thinks about all the time he's spent fighting for a peace he might never get himself. He thinks about the last time he felt happy.
"Leave with me," Jesse repeats.
And Gabe says, "Okay."
Elemental Forces by winterwhite (SERIES)
Sometimes trouble comes to Jesse. Sometimes Jesse goes to trouble. Sometimes something bigger is brewing around him. How it all happened, in slices.
home is where you hang your hat by WordsAreScribbles
A young Jesse McCree has been invited to join the elusive Blackwatch. There's some paperwork to be done first, though.
Teacher's Pet by tordarroch (SERIES)
Jesse is Gabriel's favourite recruit. (WATESPORTS AKA PISS)
Face to Mask by tordarroch
Jesse was used to being on his back for Gabriel. Unsurprisingly, he ends up in the same position for Reaper. 
Good Ideas by fabrega
Not for the first time, Gabe is struck by how much he loves Jesse McCree.
Honeymooners by smarshtastic
Jesse thumbs the ring on his left hand. It’s heavy and thick and wholly unfamiliar - but he kind of likes the way the cold metal has warmed to his skin. He really kind of likes it. He’s not exactly going to admit that to Gabe, who’s taken on this mission with his usual unwavering professionalism. Still, it’s weird to see him in off duty clothes - weirder still that it’s a Hawaiian shirt and shorts.
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In which Jesse and Gabe pretend they're newlyweds as a cover for a mission at a fancy island hotel.
*** Bad At Making Friends by fabrega
"Every few months, Reyes disappears for a couple of days," Sombra says. "No indication of where he's going, no real warning, just poof and he's gone."
"But he comes back, right? So you don't need to know. You're being nosy."
"So this time," she says, "I tracked him."
The Lemon Song by flashrevolver
In which Jesse Mccree is hot for Commander Reyes, and overhears him moaning his name in the shower.
*** down by the highway side by rustandstardust
There's a rumor in the Southwest, more of an urban legend. A story to tell in the dead of the night. A horror story so chilling it turns the warmest of blood into ice, a love story so poignant it tugs at heartstrings like they’re controls for a marionette: one about a just man and Death.
so you were never a saint by leonshardt
“You know I don’t like sleeping on planes,” McCree mumbles, eyelids already sliding shut. “Always dream of falling, one way or another.”
“Yeah,” Reyes says, “I know that.”
Dorado by abrasive
Fluff about Reaper and McCree exploring Spanish and their somewhat similar and simultaneously very different heritages and childhoods together.
I've Got It Bad by mysterixn
Gabe starts teaching McCree how to play the guitar, and the two end up figuring out their relationship. Set during Blackwatch era. 
ASSORTED SHIPS OR NO SHIPS
*** The Upgrade by robotfvckers
Zenyatta installs an upgrade and gets more than he bargained for.  (DUB-CON WARNING)
*** Broth by artvinsky
The scent of the stock wafting about the small kitchen and the rest of the unit is enough the bring back faded images of long days of training in Genji’s mind, when he was younger and where he would end his day sitting at his father’s left hand, Hanzo across him looking tired from a day for meetings with the clan elders but happy for the bowl of shoyu ramen in front of him, and all of them eating as a family away from responsibility and duty only if for a meal-
But then he thinks of this family he now has, their ragtag bunch of ex-heroes-
He wants to cook them a good meal.
Unfortunately, he cannot taste it.
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aka. that one ramen fic involving the Shimadas and the rest of the team. (Background mchanzo and genyatta)
Pillow Talk by Deathtouch (LUCIO/REINHARDT)
in which Lucio orders an escort to help him sleep at night, among other things...
He found himself face to face with an impossibly broad chest. He had to tip his head back to look this guy in the eyes. His heart rattled against his rib cage. Lucio had asked for the largest escort they had, and boy he was not disappointed.
Three Times Lúcio Utilized Reinhardt's Muscles to Complete a Mundane Task (And the One Time it Got Him Laid) by Doctorziegler (LUCIO/REINHARDT)
Sometimes, having a boyfriend whose arms are the size of tree trunks can be useful.
***I Will Be Your Shield, I Will Bring You Together by letmeshinebright (LUCIO/REINHARDT) 
Overwatch has just been recalled by Winston, and the old crew is trying to make up for lost time. Members are joining, missions will soon begin again, and justice will be dealt. Reinhardt thought that Overwatch was a mission left for history to reflect on, but now back in the thick of things he is ready for action. With the further Overwatch goes, the more ghosts seem to be reappearing. And with old ghosts, come old memories.
Get ready for that slow burn.
*** Transgressions, Sins, the Unforgivable by Vrunka (SERIES)
They have done this a hundred times. A thousand. Jack has no more rights to pre-mission jitters. But Gabe could die, he could die and those thoughts Jack just can't take. (Religious imagery, blasphemy)
*** Genji76 by AnonymousFragger (SERIES)
Genji had been waiting long enough for Jack to make a move after their last interaction. He decides to jumpstart things. (Trans!Genji)
Help for the Lost by robotfvckers (Mondatta/Hanzo/Zenyatta)
Two shambali monks find the lone, wandering Hanzo.
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