#like she doesnt think before she speaks and says the nastiest of things

[carvajalsdani]

It’s really nice to know that all the help I offer in this household will never be enough for my mother all the bills I pay (half the lightbill, the Internet bill, 3 cellphone lines, 2 insurances), all the cleaning I do around the house, ALWAYS cleaning up after the dogs, when things get broken or need repair I always pitch in, I buy toiletries and water bottles and stuff like that for every1 every time I buy MY groceries (bc I don’t wanna take my family’s food when I can just buy my own and they can have more) and translating all of the cellphone calls for appointments and random calls and things like that... it’s not enough for her she’s always complaining about how I can do more and it’s like....... I barely have enough money to treat myself to something nice every month and sometimes treating myself just means getting a fucking meal from Panera lol like that’s $15 I’m saving to help me stay sane and that’s it the rest of my money is going to my family !! my brother and his gf have been living w us again for like half a year and not once have they ever chipped in for the light bill (even tho they sleep w the light on and leave the lights on when they’re away) eat all the food including mine and never ever clean up after themselves also my brother literally stole my dad’s car from him and has the audacity to not pay the insurance bill or the remainder of the title and I’m the 1 that needs to help out even more??? I’m never going to be good enough for her and I’ve tried so hard these past couple of years to establish a better relationship w her but she just doesn’t want it I guess I’m at the point of just finding an apartment or roommates or something bc I cannot live in this toxic household anymore my dad won’t even listen to what I have to say bc he thinks I’m being silly w my mother (he does appreciate all I do but won’t listen) I’m tired of not being appreciated it’s frustrating to know it’s never gonna change like why do I need her approval so bad ???? Fuck that and fuck her im done trying to fix something that’s not gonna get better I just cannot do it anymore