#like seriously highschool is so depersonalizing to me i have basically no say over anything and i just do what im told for a certain number | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

grymmdark · 1 year ago

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im just running on survival mode huh. like the derealization and depersonalization and lack of motivation or passion for anything and need for constant low effort stimulation all so that i can make it through the day without having to face all the shit I'm actually feeling. and i cant do anything because im not in a place where i can face the shit im dealing with

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #i cant wait to get out of highschool and my parents house and actually be able to be a person #like seriously highschool is so depersonalizing to me i have basically no say over anything and i just do what im told for a certain number #of hours for a certain number of days a week #and like yeah i know college and jobs are that too but at least people see you as a bit more of a person in those. like you can choose more #stuff. in highschool the most choice you get is between languages or something.#and the worst part is i cant not go to highschool. its not optional. and yet it's actively harmful to me #it makes me so upset but im just stuck and i want to do something but i cant. there is not a single thing i can do about it

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