#like ok you chaotic shit this is why your sweater is red youre always on your red life you bastard (affectionate)

[maigetheplatypus57]

watching scar and joel's episodes first and hearing impulse shouting that grian knew there was a cave system when he suggested the vertical mining thing and I was thinking "lol I'm sure grian figured that there was a cave system below but i don't think he knew for sure" and then i watch grian's episode where he stumbles upon the cavern and starts cheerfully explaining how he hopes the vertical mining will end up killing someone for demise and i just. i should not be surprised like yeah ok typical grian behavior.

[earthghoul-mp4]

Idk what am doing(Also Trigger warning !!Abuse, Self-harm mentions, Drug use and Self starvation!!)

Alright so context: These characters are the Alternate versions of two other characters which is why there reffered to as “Alter Siri, Alter Subaru, Alter Kou, Alter Rina, Alter Melon’ and ‘Alter Akai” Subaru, Kou and Melon are all vampires in theyre universe and all of the (except Alter Siri) are part of the Crimson rose’s mafia (I didnt come up with most of this stuff, This happened a while back when I had discord) Alter M(Melon) has been shown to have a crush on Alter R(Rina), Alter S and K(Subaru and Kou) are dating. No one really knows about Alter Siri. Alter A(Akai), Is a dick-head brother. He and Alter M are twins with her being the younger of the two. Alter A has always been abusive, physically and mentally. So Alter M’s trust issues and low esteem, stem from him. Alter M and Alter S, intentionally chose, not to bite Alter R or Alter K. (Even though both have been very adamant about them doing so-) Alter R is in fact a Demon- (Not really sure what kind though-) UHM- Oh yeah, Alter M and Alter A’s parents were murdered when they were very young and Alter A was thought to be dead as well. (WHICH HE WASNT) Alter R’s mother was killed by Alter R’s hand and Alter R’s sister also died. Alter S and Alter K have been trying to set up Alter M and Alter R because its painfully obvious they like each other. THE MAIN THINGS TO REMEMBER: Alter A is a dick, Alter M is SUPPOSED to feed off Alter R but refuses to do so, Alter S and Alter K are the chaotic duo of the four, and Alter Siri stays out of their bullshit at all costs. Alter M and Alter K both have ADHD

Alter R lay awake on her bed staring up the ceiling. The storm outside was making it pretty hard to sleep, so there wasn’t any point in trying. There was a quiet knock on her door and Alter R looks up to see Alter M  standing half-asleep in the doorway. “Cant sleep either, huh?” Alter M shook her head and walked over to Alter R. “Storms are always so pretty but they make too much noise..” Alter M  whines as she flops onto Alter R’s bed. “Sounds like you-” Alter R realized how that sounded, but apparently Alter M didn’t. “Nuh uh, I dont make nearly as much noise as Kou-chan, and Baru-chan” Alter R laughed a bit “I’ve always found that family dynamic you three have very interesting.” Alter M sits up “Whats that s’posed to mean?” Alter R smiled “It just means that you three never cease to confuse me, Especially you” Alter M folds her arms across her chest “What’s that supposed to mean?!” Alter R sighs “I just mean, Ive never understood you, Or any of you for that matter. I’m not good with people, and probably never will be” The storm outside seeed to die down some to the point where it was just rain and Alter M smiles. “What’s got you all smiley?” Alter M’s hands ball up into fists and shake a little “Hehe! The rain! Do you hear it?” The gentle pitter-patter of the rain on the roof had Alter M’s brain go nuts, and Alter R found it adorable “Yeah, I do. It is a nice sound, huh?” Alter M smiled widely and nodded happily. Alter R laughed “You find the strangest things amazing, Alter M” Alter M drew her face into an angry pout “Nuh-uh I dont.” Alter R looked at her skeptically “How many people do you know can go from crying to almost perfectly fine when given a frog plush?” Alter M didnt respond “Thats not fair! Buttons is the best comfort plushie!” Alter R laughed. Alter flopped backwards onto Alter R bed and turned over to face the wall. “Aw c’mon-” Alter shook her head “Nu!” Alter R took a minute to decide what to do. “Hmm...Hehe...” Alter R decided to pick up Alter M. It wasnt hard with how small Alter M is. “Put me dooown, meanie” Alter R sat Alter M in her lap “Better?” Alter M was not prepared for that “HHHHHH-” Alter R was kinda oblivious to Alter M’s crush on her since she felt like she didnt deserve to be loved so she hid her feelings for Alter M, and hoped they’d just go away. Alter M hid her face in the collar of her sweater “Thats not fair...” Alter R laughed a little “How?” Alter M turned away “Cuz!” “Pfft- “cuz” how?” Alter M flapped her arms quickly “Cuz because!” Alter R realized how tired Alter M looked “Hey...When’s the last time you slept?” Alter M didnt respond “Alter M...” Alter M shrugged “I dunno...two..three days ago?” Alter R sighed “Its not my fault! Trying to sleep is hard” Alter R knew how that was. There were countless nights where she couldn’t sleep at all even if she tried. “When’s the ast time you had any water?” Alter M drew a black once again “Alter M!” Alter  pulled her collar further over her face “I’m sorry!” Alter R sighs “Stay here, alright?” Alter M nodded. Alter R got up and walked down to the kitchen. “I shouldn’t be so hard on her, Its not her fault...But she’ll keep doing if someone doesn’t tell her other wise” Alter R sweared under her breath and folded her arms on the counter “Ri-chan...?” Alter R forgot Subarus and Kou’s room was down the hall from the kitchen “Hey Subaru..” Alter S walked over to her “You okay?” Alter R nodded “Yeah I’m fine, its super early though. You should get back to sleep.” Alter S just looked at her. “Yo hear yourself right? I should sleep? Whens the last time you had a full 8 hours of sleep, huh?” There wasnt an answer “Thats what I thought. Now what been keeping you up at night? Somethings bound to be wrong if you’re the one distraught” Alter R walked over to the fridge to get some waters “No ones distraught, alright?” Alter S knew better than that. “Then why is it that every night this week, without fail, You’ve been up in the middle of the night....For what?” Alter clenched her fist around one of the waters “For the last time...Its nothing!” Alter S let it go this time. “Just take of yourself, alright?” Alter R nodded and headed back upstairs. Alter S sighed and got a cup of ramen “She’s the one who worries me...She stretches herself thin for everyone else and just acts like she’s fine. I just wish she didnt keep everything bottled up. Both of them! Her and Mel-chan” 

Alter M had fallen asleep on the end of Alter R’s bed “I didn’t tell her she had to stay awake..” Alter R picked up her phone to check the time “Damn...Its already three- thirty..” Alter R threw one her extra blankets over Alter M. Alter just curled up underneath of it, “pfft- That’s not how you use a blanket” Alter M picked up her head “Hm...?” Alter M sat up sleepily and looked at her. “Nothing, Nothing. I didnt say anything” Alter M hugged Alter R “Oh- ok...?” Alter R was never really one for physical affection, shes only ever really let Alter M hug her, any physical contact really. “Hey...You can let go now..” Alter M only hugged her tighter and Alter R realized she had fallen asleep. “Ah...Jeez...” Alter R was too tired at this point to care, so  she just laid own with Alter M still hugging her. Around seven or so Kou came around to check on Alter R since she’s usually up by then. “Awww!” Alter R had held onto Alter M the whole night. Its not uncommon for Alter M to e hugging something especially when she’s asleep. Its more uncommon to see Alter R hugging anyone for long periods of time. “I dont think either of them have actually, slept, in a while” Kou walked off leaving Alter R and Alter M to sleep. Kou went to go get Subaru who had ultimately fallen alseep on the couch “Oiiii! Subaru.” Subaru rolled over off the couch “AGH- Shit!” Kou kicked him “SHHH- Ri-chan and Mel-chan are still sleeping” Subaru punched him “B!tch” Kou gasped dramatically “Ooo Ouch what a burn” Subaru just looked at him. Alter R stared down at them from the top of the stairs. They both knew they fucked up, Alter M appeared behind her looking half dead. “Im going back to bed...” Alter M turned on her heel and walked down to her room.  “Wait yall two was in the same room???” Alter R walked down the stairs “Uhm...Yeah?” Alter S nodded “Mhm...” Alter R just gave him a confused look and went to get a coffee “And your still sure you dont have feelings for her?” Not many things can catch Rina off guard...This however, Caught her very off-guard “Yes I’m sure!” Alter S and Alter K gave her a look like “Uh huh” “Yeah well your face just about as red as your eyes” Rina threw a spoon at him “You shut your mouth!” They both started laughing and Rina just sipped her coffee “I’m gonna kill you both in your sleep...” Alter M stomped out of room “If y’all don’t shut the fuck up, I will burn all of your clothes” Everyone just looked at her “Let this be a godammned warning” Rina just kinda looked at her “Uhm- Okay then...” “Kinda saw that oe coming she’s always pissed off about something- Its just easier to piss hernoff if shes tired” Alter M threw her shoe at him “Ya damn right” Rina laughed and so did Kou “Thats not funny that hurt!” Melon went to grab a redbull but Rina stopped her. “Eh?” Rina looked her dead in the eyes and just told her “No” Melon just kinda looked at her “Fine” and went to go sit down. Rina grabbed her wrist “Subaru, Kou...Out. Now” Subaru and Kou knew something was boutta happen but when Rina said something ya best listen. Both of them left the room. “What?” Rina leaned back against the counter “....” Melon was throughly confused “What did I do??” Rina looked up from her mug “Whens the last time you ate anything?” Melon looked away “That requires an answer...” Melon refused to meet Rina’s eyes “Alter M...” Melon simply walked outside and into the woods Rina followed her but from a distance. “Maybe she just need some air...?” Melon sat down in the middle of a clearing and just stayed there

                        (End of part one cuz Im Lazy \(030)/)

What should happen next???

[reflectionsofanicequeen]

Purple Bruises and White Lies

I stared through angry eyes around my room, wavering at the window bench seat where I knew I would never sit again, enjoying the warmth of the summer sun while reading my favorite J.R.R. Tolkien novel. My heart was pounding through my chest, as I began remembering all the times my little brother, Tyler, would crawl under the covers with me because he had another nightmare, or when Freedom, our German Shepherd, would hop into bed with me because I couldn’t stop crying from hearing Mom and Dad fight. I remember watching Dad from my reading spot, cutting himself because he had covered up Mom’s tattooed name on his arm and felt guilty. I felt the hot tears slipping down my rosy cheeks, wishing this was all a dream as I laid one last hand on the soft folds of my comforter.  

“Get the fuck down here. I want you out!” Mom screamed from the bottom of the stairs as I swung the green tote over my shoulder and tried to navigate the large crate down the stairs with only the most important of my belongings I could fit. I didn’t have much time. Mom and I had been coming to blows for months, ever since Dad moved out and she started dating again, coming home at 3a.m. with her pantyhose in hand, stumbling drunk as if she couldn’t see through her smeared mascara. I was beyond angry from having to watch my brothers every night while she went out and got blasted but knew that they needed someone to protect them. I grunted as I lifted my things off of the last few steps, entering our dining area.

“You have three choices. You can go with your father, Nana, or I can call the cops.” Mom was literally spitting with anger as she gave the ultimatum as if any of those choices were better than the others.

“Call the cops,” I said. “Let them come so I can tell them all the fucked-up shit you’ve put us through.”

“Oh please, Ashley. Always so dramatic. I’m calling Nana.” Mom starts dialing the phone and I put my belongings down on the hardwood floor, smelling the sweet smell of Pine-Sol and wood stain that I knew I would never smell again without remembering this moment.  

“Mom, I need her out now. Can she stay with you? Yes, well, she can’t stay here. I’m not doing this anymore.” Mom hands the phone to me and folds her arms, eyes red and tired. I almost want to laugh at how crazy she looks, especially considering I can smell the Bacardi still tingling on her lips.

“Hi, Nana. I’m not coming with you.” I look at Mom quickly, sensing her daggers, then divert my eyes to the ground.

“Ashley, listen. Your mother needs a break. You need to come with me for a while. You can’t go with your father. He is bipolar and psychotic and needs help. Do you really want to go with that?” I can hear her sneer through the phone, knowing she has never had room in her heart for my father. I’ve honestly just had enough at this point of everyone bashing on Dad, the only parent who was trying to better himself.

“Look, don’t talk about my father like that. Go fuck yourself.” I flip the phone closed and hand it back to my mother.

“I’ve already called Dad. He will be here in twenty minutes.” I start to shimmy my crate towards the door, placing my bag on top of it and getting ready to say goodbye to Freedom, cowering in the corner from all the drama that has unfolded in the last hour.

“Just for all the heartache you’ve given me, I’m calling the high school on Monday to let them know you don’t live here anymore. You will have to finish off senior year somewhere else. We’ll see how you like that.”

“Honestly Mom, you’re going to hell for all the shit you’ve put us through.” I am literally at my breaking point, but I know Dad is on his way and I have to maintain my cool. I walk towards the door when suddenly Mom comes up behind me and I feel her hands slide their way around my neck.

“You will not talk to me like that!” Mom screams as she turns me around and starts pushing me into the wall, knocking down her display of baseball memorabilia, as glass shatters to the floor.

“Mom. Stop. Please.” My eyes plead as I beg her to let go. My head is starting to feel like it’s about to explode. Please don’t pass out. I beg myself.

Mark and Tyler come in from playing baseball in the yard. I can hear them kicking off their cleats and throwing their gloves on the table, fighting over who could pitch the fastest. Please don’t let them see this. I’m gripping mom’s wrists now, trying to prevent her nails from digging in any deeper.

“Mom, stop! You’re hurting her!” Mark starts screaming as Tyler immediately bursts into tears, holding the dog back as Mark lunges at our mother, pulling her off me. I run my hand up to my neck, hot with anger and bleeding from her nails.

“Get out! Get out!” My mother screams as I unlatch the front door and start running. Trying to catch my breath while running at the same time, I stumble as my bare feet smash onto the rocks along the side of the road. Just half a mile, I tell myself, just make it half a mile.  

I pull out my cell phone as I’m running, trying to frantically explain to Dad what’s going on. I know that if Mom calls him first, he might believe whatever story she decides to tell.

“Ash, you have to go back. The neighbor called me. The cops were called. You have to be there.” Dad tells me, his voice shaky but stern.

“But Dad, she tried to kill me!” I start crying again, hot tears and snot running down my face.

“She’s not going to touch you again, Ash. But you need to be there when the cops get there. Mark and Tyler need you there. I will be there soon. Promise.” He disconnects the call and I take a second to catch my breath. My hands are trembling on my knees, trying desperately to keep my balance. I’m tired and shaken but I know I must turn around. I shouldn’t have left Mark and Tyler with her.

I start wondering if she will hurt them while I am gone. After all, Mark did pull her off me. She seemed to only be violent with me though, probably because I challenged her the most. It just made me so angry inside that she stopped being a parent. She used to tell me that getting pregnant with me ruined her teenage years. Whose fault was that?

I finally catch some air and sprint back home, to find the police still haven’t made it there yet. Mom is in her room and Mark and Tyler are on the couch, both with tear-streaked cheeks, holding onto our dog like their life depended on it. I tell them it will be okay and grab a sweater in the top of my bag after noticing the purple marks up and down my neck. In the mirror, I see the reflection of red and blue lights on the front lawn and I go outside, closing the door behind me so that they don’t see the broken glass all over the front room.

“Good afternoon, miss. Do you live here?” The cop looks at me as I sit down on the front steps, pulling my sweater tight around my neck.

“Yes sir, I do.” I’ve somehow gained composure, even though my face is still burning up.

“The neighbors called and said there was a commotion. They heard yelling and saw you take off up the street. Everything okay here?”

“Yes, officer. Just had a disagreement with my Mom so I took off up the road. Needed to clear my head.” I look the officer dead in the eyes because I want him to believe my story.

“Is anyone hurt? Did anything get physical? The neighbors said it seemed a bit chaotic over here.” The officer looks at me, clearly skeptical at my story.

“Oh, nothing like that, officer. Just some yelling and I knocked over a shelf on my way out the door. I’m awfully clumsy, you know.” I laugh, despite that fact that I am literally screaming inside.

“Are your parents’ home?” The officer starts looking towards the driveway and I am suddenly thankful that the cars are in the garage.

“Nope, just me Officer. My Mom left when I did. We just needed some time to cool off is all.” I shrug, really hoping he doesn’t press further, though I know he should.

“Well, if you ever need me, here’s my card.” The officer hands one to me and takes one last hard look at me.

“Thank you, officer. I appreciate you checking on us.” The officer tips his hat and walks away, getting into his squad car and pulling back onto the street. I look back and see Mark and Tyler peeking through the blinds and I glare at them as they quickly close them.

I sit on the steps and contemplate what just happened. I ask myself why I lied and try to think if that was the best move. I think about all Mom has done to us and wonder if I shouldn’t have just spilled it all out then and there. Yet I know why I lied. Dad has been sleeping at a friend’s house during the divorce and I didn’t want my brothers taken away if no one was able to take care of them. The thought of them in the custody of DSS made me shiver. I tell myself one more year and I will fight for custody of them myself.

“Hey Ash.” I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts that I didn’t even see Dad pull up. He’s rolled down the passenger side window of his silver Ford, waving at me.

“You ok, Fluff?” He looks at me with concerned eyes. God, I hate that nickname.

“Yeah, I’m good, Dad. The cops are gone.”

“Gone already? What did you tell them?” I can tell he is panicking a little by the tremor in his voice.

“Nothing. I lied. I needed to protect them, Dad.” I look at him and notice his face harden. He knows that I know he is not ready to take them.

“Fluff, I know this is hard for you. Things will get better. I promise. And when I am able, I promise to fight to get them away from her. Let me help you grab your stuff.”

Dad enters the front of the house. Mom is still in her room. Mark and Tyler run and hug Dad, telling him how they saved me and crying between giggles as Dad tries to tickle them and cheer them up. I watch this image, knowing it’s one I will never forget. Mark and Tyler hug me and I feel the warmth of the sibling bond we share.

“I’ll see you guys soon. Dad is taking us to Canobie Lake next weekend!” I try to smile despite the fact my heart is breaking having to leave them.

“Will you ride the Corkscrew with me, Ash?” Mark looks at me, his round face enhanced by his piercing blue eyes and happy smile.

“Don’t I always? You’re my daredevil buddy, remember?” I kiss the top of his brown curls.

“And the Spinning Teacups with me?” Tyler screeches as he jumps into my arms, with his blond hair flipped up in the front and his toothless smile.

“Of course, it will be a blast!” I grin, knowing I’m about to cry.

“Why don’t you guys practice that throwing arm some more too?” Dad says to them. “Next weekend, I will play catcher and you guys can pitch to me. Better be ready!”

“Okay. Love you, Dad. Love you, Ash.” They both say goodbye nearly in unison.

“Race ya!” Mark says to Tyler, as they take back off into the yard.

“Let’s go, Fluff. They’ll be fine. She won’t hurt them.” Dad grabs my crate, I grab my bag, and we lift them into the back of his pickup. I take one last look at my brothers in the yard. I’ll be back for you, I say to myself. Promise.

*A.M.E.