#like ok all of the eras I LOVE and makes me go weak in my knees and are all *chefs kiss* bc i dont think bin has ever had a bad era?

[yoredoesmore]

hallooo,it's me again:)) may I request soshiro x reader forced marriage angst but happy ending

I hope I'm not bothering you:). it's ok if you don't want to make it

a/n: i could never say no to such a beautiful request! i love writing angst muahaha

pairing: hoshina soshiro x blind!reader

cw: forced marriage, physical and emotional abuse

genre: angst/ hurt comfort/romance/fluff [wc: 2,9k ]

a/n: this story takes place in the meiji era!

a/n: i am so upset the fic idea in my head was so cute but now that im proof reading its ass 😭 i am so not satisfied with this but maybe a part two will safe it idk rip 😭 and i have to post something can't have u guys go to bed/work/whatever unfed 😔

edited a/n: is this even forced marriage omg 😭🐵

still, enjoy!

A Vision of Love | Hoshina Soshiro

The world around you had long lost its colors. Your vision was plagued, cursed to pick up the world in vibrations and tones instead of images.

The gods have plotted against your existence long before you had been born, cursing the path you were destined to walk on with failure and hardship.

“You are no child of mine!”

The feeling of your father's hand was imprinted in both your memories and mind. A gruesome sensation, one that had no problems seeking you unannounced. On some days the beast would simply barge into your chambers, striking you to his heart's content.

And for what? All for being unable to carry out his legacy.

“Blind and weak, we should have killed you the second we saw those impurities!”

No day passed by when he wasn't cursing your existence but you had been all too used to it..

You sat kneeled on the engawa of your estate, scrubbing the long corridor facing the entrance. It was one of the many tasks given to you which had to be completed by noon. Pearls of sweat accumulated on your forehead, dripping down the side of your face and staining the cloth of your clothes but that told you that you were almost done.

You heard voices chatting in the distance. Some belonging to your family members and others to the Kaseifu, yet you were able to make out three voices foreign to your ears.

“Please come this way.”

Your father greeted the guests with fake hospitality. It irked you immensely, listening to him put up an act of dishonesty but there was nothing you could have done about it.

As soon as you finished up your work, you brought away the cloth and the rag and hurried back to your room using the back entrance. No using the main entrance when guests are around– another strict rule you had to follow.

They stopped bothering you a long time ago, the harsh rules and strict regulations forced upon you by your family. It was unfortunately not just your father who harassed you but also your mother and siblings– though their approaches of breaking your spirit were more subtle. They whispered and gossiped, calling you all kinds of names to lower your spirit.

All to make themselves feel better.

Your family was a renown clan known for its fighting skills and birthing people of strong flesh. In the world of Kaiju slayers, your family stood on top with another handful of carefully selected clans. But as dysfunctional as you were, ripped of your vision at birth and your laughable body, there was no place for you in the limelight. Thus you had been hidden away in the back of your clan, mixed with the maids and housekeepers to keep the knowledge about your existence to a minimum.

But all that was about to change.

“Lady Y/n.”

The voice of Madam Kiyoko called out for you, the only woman to treat you with kindness in this place.

“Yes, Madam Kiyoko?”

The woman's voice was gentle and sweet, like honey and milk. It calmed your heart and made you feel loved in a way you were unable to experience anywhere else. But this time something lingered in her voice? A hint of grief? Frustration? Even without seeing her face, you somehow knew that the woman was not displaying a smile on her lips.

“I was sent by your father. ..You are to pack your things immediately and prepare yourself for permanent departure..”

“Permanent..excuse me?” The tone in Kiyoko's voice painted your ears, so much that you wished to cover them and hide away.

“Your father has..given you away to another family, therefore I wish to congratulate you on your engagement.” The fabrics of Kiyoko's Kimono shifted, hinting to you that she had gone down to her knees.

There was no word that could properly describe the look of horror on your face. Pain, disgust and vexation– all these emotions tugged on your heart, forcing it to fall into unbearable agony. You suddenly felt all strength leaving your legs, forcing you to fall to the ground.

Hot tears ran down your face as you allowed muffled cries to escape your mouth. You wanted to scream and curse, run over to your father and rip all air from his lungs..

But you of all people knew too well that this day would have come sooner or later.

How else were you going to get engaged? You, who was unable to leave her house without supervision. You, who was seen as garbage in her own home. This was long overdue.

“Lady Y,n..we mustn't waste any time.” Madam Kiyoko spoke, her arms wrapping around yours to lift you back up.

“No..I don't want to, they can't do this!” Although living here was torture, it was the only home you have ever know. A small part of you always hoped to just die here. Life was cruel but at least there was food and a bed waiting for you at the end of each day. There was no telling how the people outside these gates were going to treat a blind woman like you, especially a family selected by your father. The unknown was much more intimidating than the familiar horrors.

“Child, I beg of you to grasp your heart and look at the future with confidence.” The woman tried to encourage you to take the situation with pride. But you couldn't. The fact that someone had accepted you as a wife could only mean that they were worse off than you. Who else would accept such worthless and weak soul into their family? Or perhaps they were like your family, looking forward to abuse and make use of you.

“You musn't refuse your duty as a woman, Lady Y/n, as a daughter of this house. I beg you.” Madam Kiyoko pulled you back up and dusted your Kimono.

“I know that this treatment is unjust and sudden, but anywhere in this world is better than here.”

“But I don't mind the horror! The pain and the humiliation..because I have you..”

Once again the tone in the woman's voice tugged on your heartstrings. The truth in her statement tasted bitter on your tongue. You did not wish to admit that she was right, that living here was a hell your body couldn't bear much longer.

Madam Kiyoko walked you to your chambers and helped you pack your belongings. There wasn't much, only a few essentials which you held dear. As you were preparing for your departure, you heard a soft chuckle from behind you.

“I heard that the Hoshina clan is as good as useless in this modern day and age, since the Kaiju have grown in size.” One of your sisters snickered from behind you.

“Yeah, and that their sons are as incapable as they come.” Your brother mocked.

Their voices were mere background sounds, easy to blend out. Your fingers traced themselves over the silver hairpin in your hand, a gift from the Madam.

“I will forget all about you once I leave this home. The memories, your voices and your scent. What a blessing it ends up being to be born blind, as I have no faces which I will have to wipe from my memories.” Your words stung your siblings in the guts. One of them stepped forward, your brother, ready to strike you down. But madam Kiyoko quickly extended her hand to shield your body from the abuse.

“Do not dare touch the Lady. She is an engaged woman now and therefore no longer under the rule of this household. Striking her would mean raising your hands against the Hoshina clan and I highly suggest that you do not make yourself an enemy of them.”

“She won't survive a week outside these gates. Compared to the people outside, our treatment was merciful. In this day and age there is no space for those who cannot protect themselves, tsk.” Your brother gave you one last glare before he and your sister left your room.

“This family can no longer harm you, child. So look at your future and smile, don't listen to his nonsense.” The warm hands of the woman embrace you in a comforting hug. If only you could take her with you and start your new life together..it was a hopeless wish but one you hung onto regardless

x

Nobody came to send you off besides Lady Kiyoko. With your bag packed and your heart set to leave, you approached the front gate. You refused to look back as you walked into your new life, each step feeling foreign and intimidating.

You were raised in a traditional household. From the building to the rules it reminded you of the old times. Therefore standing in front of the public transport with no navigation or sense of familiarity deeply frightened you. You could feel them all watching, the people on the train. Surely they were judging your lack of vision and pitying your weak form.

It took you quite some time to arrive at the destination, the lack of any known directions making the journey much more treacherous. But after two hours, you finally arrived at the Houshina estate. If it had been for the old couple you met at your station who guided you all the way here you would have been lost for sure.

“That is just the path we wanted to take!”

They said and took you by the hand. It felt strange, putting your trust into two unknown strangers. For a good minute you believed that they were leading you to a nearby cliff, for whatever reason. But your doubt slowly vanished as they began to talk about their day and all the errands which they had to run.

You took a deep breath and fixed your Kimono before knocking at the gate. There was no guarantee that anybody was going to hear you but this was the only way you knew how to make yourself known.

After around five minutes and almost giving up hope, you heard a shift in motion. The gate opened and before you stood a stranger. They didn't say anything and simply looked you up and down you assumed. Then they spoke up.

“Oh, it's you.”

What an interesting dialect..

Unsure of who was standing before you, you went down on your knees to show your respects.

“My name is L/n Y/n and I am the betrothed of Hoshina Soshiro. It is my utmost pleasure to meet you.”

“There is no need to be so formal, please. And get up, ya Kimono is getting all dirty.” A pair of strong hands suddenly placed themselves on your shoulders and helped you find your way back up.

A scent so sweet was attached to the stranger, one that had a strange note to it. Yet you stayed focused and continued the conversation.

“Did you come here all by yourself??” The stranger sounded almost appalled.

“Yes..is there a problem with that?”

“Your family reassured us that they were going to send someone with you, since you are..”

His eyes locked with yours. Light gray orbs sat in your sockets, robbed of all light. Yet there was a glimmer inside them, one that shone brighter than the sun itself.

“Excuse me for asking, but who am I speaking to?”

“I am just a housekeeper. Anyway, let's get ya inside and perhaps, you must have a long journey behind you.”

“Thank you very much.” The housekeeper took your hands in his, a soft warmth spreading over your entire body. His bold action startled you slightly but you did not allow your discomfort to display on your face.

“Not having an official wedding must be quite frustrating I believe?”

Is this..smalltalk?

“I never clung to the desire of partaking in such festivity. I was told from a very young age that I wasn't deserving of a wedding, let alone marriage. My father eventually giving me away to a family with no future was to be expected.”

“A family with no future?”

“Oh my, I didn't mean it like that! I apologize for insulting your masters..”

“No offense taken. I understand what ya were trying to say.” The soft sliding of wooden doors indicated to you that you were now entering the building. Almost immediately you were greeted by the sweet scent of lavender and tangerines, two odors that completed one another perfectly.

The housekeeper continued to guide you through the building, holding on to your hand so tight you feared he was going to melt into you. Yet despite his grip being so fierce, his touch was gentle and almost protective. You were not used to such kindness, therefore you found it difficult to express your gratitude once he let go when you arrived in the space which you believed was your room.

“When will the rest of your belongings arrive?” The housekeeper asked while taking the bag from your hands. Your silence said all he needed to know.

“If you need anything, don't hesitate to–”

“Young Master? A letter has arrived from the Anti-Kaiju Defense Force, requesting your presence. Oh and has the young woman arrived already? We heard the gates–”

..Master?

Your head turned to meet the voice at the door. A young woman, you assumed, stood at the entrance of your room, her words and turn indicating that she was talking to the housekeeper.

“Oh, she is already here?? Why wasn't your father notified!” The woman scolded.

“Thank you Ayame, I will see to the letter shortly. And I wanted some alone time with her first, I'm sure my father will understand."

All the woman did was sigh, as if she was too used to his behavior and excused herself from the room.

It didn't even take you five seconds to realize what was going on. Your face froze up upon realizing, a soft gasp leaving from your lips.

“I..apologize for deceiving you.” Soshiro sighed. “I didn't know how to properly introduce myself when I saw you back then and just went with the moment.”

Embarrassed? Shame? Anxiety? You did not know what to feel first. The words you spoke only minutes ago suddenly came back to hit you like whiplash. You just told your soon to be husband that you had no faith in his family, to his face, the gods were probably laughing at you right now. Not just them, but also your siblings and parents.

Their voices rang through your ears, eating at your consciousness. Not even a day had passed and you already managed to screw up, what a twisted joke this was.

“Ya ain't upset with me, right?”

All thoughts suddenly started to disappear into thin air as his fingers once again wrapped themselves around your hands. Only now did you realize how soft they were, like sunflower petals. And the distant scent of vanilla that lingered on his skin, it was soothing in a way you could not describe.

In an instant you found yourself calming down and remembered that you were no longer in that household. Five minutes have been spent in this foreign place so far, yet it felt much more comforting than your old home. Why was that?

“Saying that your family has no future when I am the one who lacks the ability to function properly..I am so very sorry..”

“Don't tell me yer apologizing for being blind?” Soshiro placed one of his hands on your head, gently caressing your hair with his fingers.

“I don't know much about ya or what you went through before. All I was told is that your family did not think highly of ya and therefore signed you away to the next available family. But just by looking at ya I can tell that you are much more valuable than ya think.” And with that said, Soshiro gave your head a light squeeze.

These gentle touches were so new to you. Being embraced in such a loving way and taken by the hand as if you were too important to lose– and not to mention by a man you just met..it all felt quite unreal.

Soshiro suddenly started to move away from you, the lack of his warmth mildly bothering your conscience, but he had somewhere important to be.

“We shall converse more once I return from my appointment, most likely together with my father. The others will want to meet you so prepare yourself for that. If they barge into your room feel free to send them away”

“Send them away? I could never do that” Hosanna laughed although you didn't say anything funny?

“Im looking forward to future interactions.”

“I..me too.”

To have something to look forward to..did you ever have that in your life? The feelings in your heart were difficult to describe. Was it truly possible for you to find happiness in a place full of strangers and foreign emotions? To seek comfort in the arms of a man you barely even knew? As Soshiro walked out of your room, you quickly searched for the hair pin that Madam Kiyoko had gifted to you. Your fingers embraced it tight, trying to recreate the warmth which you felt moments ago.

Something deep down in your heart wanted to trust his words and believe that you too could experience true happiness in this lifetime. Therefore you desperately held onto this vision of love, in hopes that one day your future would be painted in its beautiful colors.

[gutterfuuck]

ok ok mark is amazing && all that but i’d really love to see our favorite absolutely - caring && perfect dad nolan grayson！

apologies if this is a bit much but nolan who slaps reader when they anger him but he says it��s so that they learn from their mistakes？ love it saaaur much！

maybe even reader develops a liking to it && purposely misbehaves､ nolan catches on quickly n well. things escalate

sincerely､ maimai anonnie ♥︎

i have had this in drafts since a long time!! i am so sorry for slowed production, hopefully it is explained by my exams hehe!! i am so exhausted and plus, my wifi has been out so it is hard to write when i cannot access files 😅 i hope you enjoy this, i am trying to release more and on time but it is quite hard to juggle long exams and my day and then to write!! there is only so much hours in a day, haha!! hope you enjoy!!

cw: mdni, smut, slapping/impact play, sparkie comeback era, this one is super short and i am not very proud of it, i am sorry!!! more stuff is on the way 😅😅

your face is rocked to the side as you’re thrown backwards off of your feet, tears prickling at the corners of your eyes as you instinctively rubbed the new red mark you had on your cheek. you hardly had time to recover before he’s stomping towards you, picking you up by the collar of your shirt and slapping you in your face so hard you almost see stars. he was going easy on you, obviously. you cried out, trying to pull your face away from his and shield yourself from any more attacks with your eyes closed tightly, trying to keep tears behind your eyelids as to not show any weakness.

“no, look- i said look at me, here.” nolan booms, gritting his teeth when you open your eyes slowly, still trying to prevent tears from rolling down your face. you failed as soon as you looked at him, piercing blue eyes staring back into your teary ones with a burning fire glowing behind them. you felt as if you didn’t obey him, you’d be torn in half in a second. you whimpered pathetically, bottom lip quivering as you let out a few heavy sobs expecting to be met with some sort of empathy.

you were so wrong, your hope dissolving as he tapped at your cheek with his palm firmly, slapping you lightly but just harsh enough to worry you, just enough to make you think any second he could just slap you so hard you’d hear ringing in your ears. “n-nola..n-! m’so s-sorr.- hgk-!” you’re cut short with a strangled noise as he wraps his hand around your throat effortlessly, holding you half off of the ground by your neck.

“crocodile tears, you weren’t this upset when you were misbehaving earlier.” nolan glared at you like he wanted to kill you and for a second you thought he would, flinching when he let you go and raised his hands to continue threatening you.

large hands plunged into your sides, pulling you up off of the ground almost violently, hardly letting you take a second to stand and gain your footing before nolan’s knee is pushing up between your legs, pressing it into your crotch while he stared down on you, face twisted up in disgust at you and your weak form. he could feel your wetness seeping onto his trousers, his eyebrows furrowing in a sudden anger, “you’re being messy. do i have to beat manners into you?” he asked, you shook your head in response.

“c-can’t-.. sorry, can’t help it..-“ you apologise, thinking about how you’d have a black eye by tomorrow if he kept slapping you so hard like that. you flinched again when he raised his hand up once more, though relaxed as you realised he hadn’t hit you this time. you sighed in relief before the impact, the harsh sting of his large palm against your face sending your head spinning and vision sparkling, a faint dizziness taking over you as your ears rang momentarily, soft and inefficient protests bubbling out of your bruised lips, blood slowly building up at the corner of your mouth.

he drops you and you crumple up onto the floor like a piece of paper, rubbing your neck and looking up at the large male that towered over you with his fists clenched, fearing that if you even breathed wrong he’d start punching you in your skull. some strange part about it made your hips gyrate ever so slightly, bringing a familiar twisting heat to your stomach and face. you were a fool to think nolan didn’t notice, he saw damn near everything you did whether big or small.

you’re such a crybaby, sobbing heavily with pained pleasure as he bounces you up and down in his lap, landing firm slaps to your ass every time you took him all the way to the base which made you jump up, sending shivers up your spine. your cunt stretched around his thick cock, so heavy that it curved downwards with the weight, thick veins throbbing. SLAP! “ow- owww..-!” you mewl, your head pulled back as he tugs on your hair harshly with his hips bouncing you up and down, small clapping sounds coming from the way your fleshy ass met his firm and muscled thighs.

he shoves his fingers into your mouth, coating his digits in your saliva as you stay moving in his lap, light squeal coming from you when he started flicking your hard clit, lubing it up with your own saliva, “ha, disgusting. so weak a mere stroke could be able to make you dissolve.” he notes, landing a light slap to your cunt with his cock still stretching you out painfully. his hand reels back a little more, tapping your pussy lightly. you can’t help but let drawn out moans slip from your lips hoping he hadn’t heard you.

“was that good? you don’t want it there, hm? don’t tell me how to treat you, pet.” nolan growls into your ear as he shoves his thumb deeper into your mouth which almost made you gag, pulling it out to circle the rim of your asshole before he presses into the tight ring of muscle, taking pleasure in the way you let out a high pitched squeal which inspired him to fuck you with your own underwear in your mouth, maybe with duct tape across your face and binding your limbs to keep you from wigging around and screaming like a little bitch.

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Eyes On me [Ft. IVE's Liz]

Tags: panic attacks comfort, fluff, girlfriend!Liz

Author's note: It's been a while since I wrote for IVE, but I hope this one will do well. Plus, this will be a callback to my wattpad Era, where I used to do more comfort fics.

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there are three kinds of nights in your life.

The first kind is the normal nights, which after hitting the gym, eating dinner, taking a shower, and living overall like a functioning member of society you find yourself falling asleep at 11 PM, maybe 12 AM if you are really not that tired.

The second kind is the nights where you decide to laugh at the concept of sleep, channel your inner shut in and play video games for the whole night, or just goof off with your friends on discord until the sun rises

However, sometimes you have those nights where you find yourself in your bathroom at 3 AM, throwing up all of the food you ate in the entire day and overall being miserable?

Unfortunately, tonight was the third kind of night.

Do you have any idea how you got to this situation? Nope, all you could remember is that around 1 AM, you could only feel your stomach hurting like crazy, your anxiety levels going to the 11 forcing you to go to the bathroom to try and calm yourself

However, even after an hour this was to no avail since still you found yourself throwing up while your eyes were full of tears. "Absolutely fantastic, now the one thing that can fuck me up is-" your thoughts were suddenly stopped by a light touch on your shoulder

As you look up you find your girlfriend Kim Jiwon looking at you, she was wearing a white sweatshirt, which was probably stolen from your closet.

Long black hair just like the night sky and eyes that could show sadness was the only thing you could see from your fully teared eyes as your girlfriend kneeled down before you, letting her arms wrap around your body.

"Another anxiety attack?" She asked since those events were not new to your girlfriend, at least once a month she had to stay up all night with you to try and relax you, to the point it was impressive how she still wanted to stay with you

5 minutes of brushing your teeth and a spare change of pajamas later you walked toward your shared bed with Jiwon as she looked at you with a weak smile, but it was enough to make you feel happy and in the same time: somehow guilty

"Do you know what happened that you are feeling like that?" You simply shook your head in response as she just sighed, "Oh well, it's OK... let's just go to the bed ok? After you brush your teeth" she added, trying to close her nose to block the scent of the puke.

"I don't deserve you." That was the first thing you said while you inched slowly toward Jiwon as she laid her head on your shoulder.

"Ahhhh, so that is what you are anxious about?" She asked while she turned on the TV to a random episode of friends. You could only nod as your girlfriend pulled you into an embrace

"I just..." You hesitated, which in reaction Liz leaned and kissed your forehead. Even after numerous times, she has done that it still surprises you

"Just what?" she asked, he eyes pleading for an answer as you couldn't handle it anymore

"That I am too anxious for you" her reaction could only be puzzled as she tilted her head sideways, letting you explain

"You just... deserve someone who isn't depressed all the time or a scar-" You were shutted by your girlfriend's lips on yours, their sweet taste however was short.

"I. Will. Always. Love. You, " Liz said, each word was spoken clearly as your cheeks turned red from embarrassment. However, as you tried to turn away, both her palms on your cheeks, forcing you to look at her pleading eyes.

"Eyes On me okay baby? I will always love you, say it" she requests as you have no choice but to sigh and comply

"I will always love you" you recited her words as she smiled cutely and pecked your lips.

"Good, now... let's go sleep okay, baby?" She asked, however, as her hands went over to your back she could feel you shake.

"...you are still stressed, right? It's ok, let me help you relax, " she said as her hands reached to your back under your shirt, her fingers lightly tapping on your back, causing you to instinctively let your head find its rest on her chest.

You slowly start to destress yourself by taking deep breaths, "Good baby...I'm here for you," she said while pecking your forehead, "you need this sleep...more than me" she added as you finally close your eyes, the first snore is able to be heard from your unconscious self.

And the last words you manage to hear before fully drifting into dreams.

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[sergeifyodorov]

I’m curious because of how you rank Cale, who do you think are the top 10 players in the league? (We can exclude goalies because they’re such an entirely different skill set but would love to hear their separate ranking)

oooh ok this is. an inchresting question... under the cut bc dashclog Et Cetera.... the cody sergeifyodorov unoffishul players rankings at This Very Moment In Time. get mad at me if u want idk let's dance

number ten: sidney crosby. Old Man Still Has It, More At Ten

number nine: david pastrnak. arguably -- and i am going to argue it -- the best pure shooter in the league. the reason hes not like theee goalscorer of all time is bc he generally lacks puck carriers/space creators/isn't much of a puck carrier or a space creator of his own, but like. based off shot alone? hundredth percentile.

number eight: elias pettersson. two way centre... the usual vancouver oish% boost but also just a fantastic dual threat AND a legit lady byng candidate with a penalty differential big enough to severely boost his value just based off that. like imho there's nothing that petey is specifically Good At (like how pasta is a pure goalscorer) but he's basically got no weaknesses. and hes gay

number seven: cale makar IS very good. conn smythe norris etc but most importantly he did win a hockeyblr babygirl of the year award so theres that too. some crazy bobby orr pointgetter. real good defensive results too. like hes crazy good and they say hes crazy good for a reason

number six: ill concede. leon draisaitl

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number five: quinn hughes. i don't know what fuckass magic this sad little man has. decent finisher. great playmaker. best power play quarterback in the league. makes anyone who plays with him appear to be "oh shit, this guy's a great partner for hughes!" (i have seen this with at least 5 diff players, not one of whom anyone would consider Quite Good on their own.) L + ratio + oish% + makar has devon toews + youngest captain in the league + you bet that conn smythe and norris combo is his soon enough

number four: nathan mackinnon. best dual threat in the league (no one who's a better passer than him is a better goalscorer, and no one who's a better goalscorer is a better passer.)

number three: nikita kucherov. i want you to do something for me. i want you to go to espn dot com. i want you to go to espn dot com slash nhl. i want you to go to espn dot com slash nhl slash team stats tampa bay lightning. it should be sorted by points for you. there's dearly beloved creepy eyes keeta right there in first. 94 points as of me writing this. crazy number for right now. wolfboy of all time brayden point should be in second. take a look for me rn at the difference between those two in points. what the fuck

number two: auston matthews. is this leafs bias? sure. im a leafs guy. im just saying that he's a better goalscorer than ovi in his prime, and he's a centre and great defensively too. i could tell you that he is fifth all time in goals per game, and two of the four guys ahead of him were born in the 1800s. i could tell you that he has 48 goals in 52 games right now, and 0 empty netters. i could tell you that if you only counted goals he scored when the leafs were down one or tied, he'd be in the top ten in goals this year.

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number one: connor mcdavid. he has almost as many assists as the second-best in his draft class (mitchell) has points. he has 930 points in 620 games. he is the only player in the salary cap era to have a 150-point season. idk there's just fuckin . no one like him. like generally an untrained eye can't really see how much better or faster any given player is than the rest but like. you can with him. he just Looks a step ahead of the pack. top five all time, and he's in his prime rn!!!! lets go connie all my homies love connie

[ego-meliorem-esse]

Could you talk a bit about Matthew and Alfred relationship? Our boys need love too

The lads! The fellas! The absolute units!

Bear with me here I wanna give a little bit of a context and a personal explanation as to why I'm really fascinated with these two countries in general.

If there is one nationfolk relationship that comes as close to pure and friendly as it possibly can, it would be the Us-Can one. Of course, it has major problems and unavoidable disputes. But let me tell you, as a balkan, ex-yugoslav cretin, I cannot help but be intriqued with the way these two comunicate. They make fun of eachother sure, they have disputes and squables, sometimes outright clashes, but when there is crisis in the US for example, all I hear is Americans straight up saying "ok well time to move to Canada". It's fascinating to me! As a Croat who, after returning from Serbia from a 3 day trip, brought home souveniers (key chains mostly, with the Serbian flag) I was yelled at by my dad who afterwards didn't talk to me for a few days. All because I dared to bring this enemy countrys flag into our home. Now, I was born in 1999. I have no connection to the war 8 years prior. No excusable, personal vandetta. But still it' s very much acceptable to hate so strongly. And even if it wasn't 8 years that passed, but 80, there still would be a widely accepted resentment. But alas, I am not talking about people, cus frankly people are just people. Alliances and relations between countries are another thing. Imagine sharing a huge fucken border with another country and being friends. My euro brain is imploding. Uncomprehensible.

Now I do understand the US is often described as a bit of a phycho, and frankly Canada is an expert at dealing with the phycho. Kudos. Keep the yanks from whipping out their home protection assault rifles and unleashing hell fire is risky shit. Canada manages tho. What I'm really interested in is the USA's view of Canada. They aren't a threat. They aren't suspicious. They are a force to be reckoned with tho, but they are friends. If there is one ally the USA can rely on its the maple sucking french/anglo bastards up north. So much history in such a short time. Fascinating.

To relate this to the bros, I think these two understand eachother better than most. Matt is quiet, obsetvand and passive (mostly), while his unit of a brother is loud, idealistic and prone to thinking the world owes him time on the world stage. And it works. Matt is the one to talk to his brother in a way that gets Alfred to listen. H speaks Alfreds language and can communicate with him freely. I think that that is a skill and in the modern era, a privilage that not many have. Not many dare to tell Alfred to his face that he fucked up majorly, but Matt can. He knows he can. Alfred knows he can. So he does. Matt can pull his brother aside after an outburst, and for the lack of a better word, humble him.

Alfred respects his brothers oppinion more then other nations'. He went from seeing Matt as a weak, self-pitying and ambitionless dominion, to accepting his views, ideas and even asking his oppinion on certain matters. I like to draw a parallel here. Matt had to sacrifice everything and himself to have Arthur call him into the war room and ask Matthew for his oppinion. Alfred is not much different. It takes time for Matthews voice to be heard, but when the time comes, it's desperately needed.

Alfred tho, is and always will be Alfred. And if somthing else catches his attention, he will ignore the house on fire across the street. He is prone to isolation and ignoring his brother for extended periods of time, just sending him a tiktok every month or so. That being the only indication to Matt that his brother is alive. Alfred has so much shit going on and his 13 braincells have to spread evenly across to cover it all. His brother is a constant in his life, stable and therefore forgotten.

That being said, I don't think there is another person on Earth Alfred loves more than his brother. Showing it is not something he ever learned tho. He knows he cannot buy his way into showing his love for Matt, so with his lack skills of other forms of love expressions, he does nothing.

As for Matt, he checks up on Alfred as much as he can. His history and past have tought him to expect nothing form the people he loves. So he doesn't. He knows Alfred is his closest ally and best friend, but doesn't ask for anything Alfred himself isn't giving. He is a person who waits to be asked to hang out on Saturday instead of asking his friends himself.

So while almost all I talked about is sad and somewhat negative, I do think the bond and conversations these two share are one of the most honest and true expressions of brotherly love. And by god I usually don't use the world love when describing nation-folk relationships, but in this case there isn't a replacement.

sorry for the personal shit and Alfred slander, I love him.

[randymarshiszaddy]

Ermm since it’s the month when being gay is ok in coprate culture here’s my trolls fruity headcanons cause te hee I’m spreading the woke agenda

Branch ( they are currently trying different pronouns because buddy had 20 years of paranoia and did not have a moment to think “dam maybe I’m not a boy” anyway poppy is accepting and finds new punny names to use instead of boyfriend . Also I feel like Branch would not care what gender you are all they care about is being accepted. Also maybe cause I’m sick of the pansexual stereotype that we are all out going and bubbly but let’s move on . ( I’m pan)

Poppy She/Her . She’s got a whole lotta love to share . She would run the parades she will be there helping out any lgbtq member be accepted.

Barb ( aka my favorite) They/she. Yeah this is a butch is you ever tell me no your wrong. They definitely had a fling with Carol the cheddar whiz troll. She would absolutely hate coprate pride merch from big time companies and bully the hell out of them . They would make everyone know that pride was a riot

Alright Mr WOOPS let my older brother projection spilt up my family . John Dory is an obnoxious ally and will wear those “ I’m proud of my gay brother” but hey you know with him being a 40 year old guy show a bit of gratitude to him. Wouldn’t really actually care for singing about sex and wanting to hold girls so he and Bruce made an agreement that Bruce would be the headliner hot one for Brozone.

Clay . He transitioned before brozone started and really wanted to be seen as the fun one so his whole sad book club thing wouldn’t be seen as weak and reminded people that he was afab( he was in his Kalvin Garrah era of internalized misgony and gender roles ) but viva definitely knocked some sense in to him. He definitely is a big ally making sure the put put trolls still had pride events in hiding

BRUCE . Yeah bi icon right here . Although John Dory at the time of brozone was like “ we already have a gay member you have to be in that closet “ yeah but after the toxicity of brozone Bruce went on a journey of self love and realized that he was finally able to be the sufur chill guy he was always destined to be . Holds the biggest drag show at his bar we’re any drag queen/ king royalty can sign up and perform

Floyd . Yeah he’s gay that’s it everyone and their mother knew with that one earring . Surprisenly John Dory was fine for him being gay as it gave the band brownie points for being inclusive .( who said that 🫢

Viva . Yeah she’s transfem fight me . Also pan cause you know what she can be . I feel like she would not care about gender of the person she’s dating . She just can’t wait to have all the sister experiences she misses out on

HONARY MENTION

Basically canonically accurate . Had a baby plus that baby was a clone of himself so self love king who doesn’t need to settle down for anyone.

[moonshynecybin]

Ok but post Argentina 2018, and Marc doesn't choose Vale anymore, and he keeps choosing Dovi... and they eventually fuck

valentino saw trap number one… see i know you want me to construct a beautiful dovquez hurt/comfort story here which i do enjoy occasionally like a lil treat bc they are much healthier than rosquez (computer. the way i loved you by tswift. now computer.) but alas my greatest passion is creating situations where hot people get soooo divorced so i’m going to use this to talk about how repressed i think valentino rossi is… and generally i don’t think he’s very repressed at all ! but in regards to marc. oh my god. oh jesus christ. good lord.

like. crucially not in a sex context! i think he is a sex haver to the max no problems there BUT in terms of like. genuine tender feelings. desire to commit and connect. awareness of his trauma and how it relates to his relationship with marc. lol no.

so like. post 2018 marc chooses someone else (DOVI <3) which has NEVER happened before even at their worst and he thinks they fucked (they didn’t marc is in his celibacy era dovi understands and marc cries a lil about it. like maybe they fuck like 8 wins later it takes TIME if they ever do) and vale tries. SO HARD. to convince himself he didn’t want marc anyways and that he’s unbothered but like. he DID expect marc to pick him and when the message did not come through from race direction after podiums and he realizes marc chose someone else, his face does about eight complicated things his youthful impish smile FULLY drops and he starts feel like his stomach wants to eat itself and his heart literally hurts. eminem voice palms are sweaty. knees weak arms are heavy. like you can convince yourself you don’t care but that doesn’t make your body not feel your feelings lol.

anyway he puts up the facade again pretty fast before anyone notices but he is literally fucking nauseous every time marc wins after that 5ever and he tells NOBODY. like the concept of the winners rooms is so delicious for repression and divorce bc it introduces a halfway intimacy where he can break up with marc and still sleep with him without like. addressing that he loves him and craves closeness with him lol. like they broke up but were still so closely intertwined… still counting on that next win… never truly closing the door…and now he doesn’t get that halfway point anymore! he doesn’t get to hold him anymore in any context! marc CHOSE someone else. it’s actually over. which is fine. it’s what he wanted. he doesn’t think about it at all actually. it’s fine. he isn’t thinking about marc and dovi alone together doing things that make marc make noises that used to belong only to him. it’s great. dovi probably doesn’t even know how he likes it. and he just represses that spiral so hard until 2019 when marc wins like TWELVE TIMES and he feels literally insane enough about him hypothetically fucking other people (he is still. not doing that lmao) that he sucks it up and actually talks to him about it lol

[enderdeservesbetter]

RATING SPEAK NOW (TAYLOR'S VERSION)

With 16 votes in the poll above, I'm going to listen to Speak Now (Taylor's Version) for the first time, I think I've heard some bridges but nothing more.

Ok, I don't have much more to say, so let's get started.

I have found MANY songs from my childhood here, so don't pay attention to me being happy because I listened to songs and they brought me good times

SONG LIST:

Mine (Taylor's Version) 3.5/5

+1 From the instrumental I can see Taylor dancing in the fearless outfits on the eras tour <3 // +1 She sounds so jovial, even if it's a re-recording she sounds SO GOOD // +1.5 some lines sound a little strange, but there are others that are SO GOOD

For an album opener, it's strange but it's beautiful and how it prepares you with a soft and jovial dance energy. I can tell you that I have experienced the situation you describe, and all with the person who made me feel TSMWEL.

Sparks Fly (Taylor's Version) 4/5

+1.5? I REMEMBER THIS INSTRUMENTAL AS IF I WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, it's so beautiful to listening after so many years 🩷 // +1 something the vocal feels a little empty, but it's ok // +1.5 I remember only hearing the 'drop everything else, meet me in the pouring rain' and it's so nice to find the song where it came from.

Believe it or not, it was one of the few songs that I heard on the street before 1989 in my country and that's where I know that lyric existed.

Back To December (Taylor's Version) 4/5

+1 I know that I have heard this song from somewhere else, but I don't know where, in my childhood. // +1.5 She sounds sad even on the rerecording wow, she really screwed up // +1.5 I HAVE HEARD THIS LYRICS IN MY CHILDHOOD, I KNOW, IN THE SUPERMARKET

While I said I hadn't heard any songs from this album, the bridge came up a lot in compilation videos and I thought I wouldn't like it as much, but the song is really nice

Speak Now (Taylor's Version) 3.5/5

+1.5 I think I focused so much on the fact that these songs are almost from my childhood, that I forgot to comment that it is so beautiful to listen to instrumentals without so much synth-pop // +1 I remember this song sung with an almost childish tone, and now I hear it with a voice of a completely mature woman and it is so... shocking and beautiful // +1.5 Sorry, the whole scene so beautifully described and making sense when sung is an enormous achievement and she was 20 years old (or so)!

It feels like that time I accidentally got lost in the supermarket and a similar Taylor song was playing and I swear I think I can find it on this album

Dear John (Taylor's Version) 4.5/5

+1.5 It's a 7 minute song, but hey it's enjoyable... // +1 HER VOICE IT'S STILL BROKEN :(( // +2 MY GOD, JOHN, you can't be that shitty! I'm kidding, you are.

Ah yes, a 7 FUCKING MINUTES song how beautiful! But as a person who was groomed when I was 12 and he was 19 (Taylor's age when she made this song, and the age I am now...) this song is strong, I haven't started crying because I mourned that month years ago, but I think the scar never goes away and is very visible. What I mean is that it's not something you live with and say "I have no regrets."

Mean (Taylor's Version) 3.5/5

+1.5 The instrumental feels fuller than the original, without being overpowering and I honestly like it more than the original // ... 1 Something I don't like is the beginning of each verse that seems like a tongue twister, but when you read it quickly it's not difficult, but it's difficult to understand Taylor when she sings it. // +1.5 I love the imagery and the way of describing the words, the weakness, the feeling of inferiority and the hope that the situation will change and the other person will see that they cannot make you feel bad again.

Something I've noticed in the songs so far between this album and Reputation is the structural pattern, it doesn't exist in Lover anymore... And honestly I like this pattern better

The History Of Us (Taylor's Version) 4/5

+1.5 That instrumental is one that I would love to listen to without lyrics! // +1 She sounds so beautiful, such a sad song in such a happy rhythm // +1.5 The lyrics are so rhymically pleasant that they scratch parts of my brain that were hidden and it's 2AM and I can't start dancing

Another song that is part of my childhood, please someone save me! It feels like I'm listening to the music on the 5 a.m. radio when I'm with my grandfather for morning coffee, and at the same time it feels like a walk through the mall while I help my mom buy food for the week and sing songs that my father would definitely forbid

Never Grow Up (Taylor's Version) 4.5/5

+1.5 I didn't even listen to the song twice and I was already crying // +1 I'm aware that she doesn't know me but I feel like she's telling my story (minus the moving part) and she's talking to my little self // +1.5 She sounds so beautiful and the lyrics are so vivid!

Now TTPD feels bland "but it has a lot of analogy and and and" no, thank you. It is insipid and lifeless, not that it lacks complexity. (Another note) THANK YOU FOR BREAKING MY HEART AGAIN WITH A SONG RELATED TO CHILDHOOD AND INNOCENCE

Enchanted (Taylor's Version) 4/5

+1 I've heard this song everywhere and I didn't want to listen to it in its entirety and it's so beautiful // +1.5 She sounds so dreamy it feels like I'm interrupting something very private // +1.5 I think I'm going to give it an additional point because despite the repetitions, and the fact that it's 6 minutes, it didn't stand out at all.

Another 6 minute song, I complain a lot, but how I am enjoying this! It feels so nice, full of life after TTPD, I mean I know it's the concept and everything, but honestly the more I hear from Taylor, that album is one place lower in my ranking, only surpassing Lover at the moment

Better Than Revenge (Taylor's Version) 4.5/5

+1.5 OH MY GOD THAT INSTRUMENTAL IS ALL THAT'S GOOD!! // +1.5 Seriously, this whole album sounds so in her style that it makes me want to listen to Fearless (Taylor's Version) right now // +1.5 I love the change of lyrics, and I love how she describes the person but well, she wasn't the best person and Taylor definitely had no qualms at that time

Innocent (Taylor's Version) 4/5

+1.5 The instrumentals remind me of The Anthology ���� // +2 Another song that goes on my playlist called little child, it's so beautiful

I think the songs that never failed to hit me are the songs related to childhood and innocence, and this album is full of them.

Haunted (Taylor's Version) 4.5/5

+1.5 I can't stop loving the instrumentals! // +1.5 She sounds so good in this style!! // +1.5 The lyrics go so well with the instrumental and THOSE HIGH NOTES FOR GOD! I swear I understand this lyrics to heart

Everything makes so much sense in this composition, the occasional violins, the electric guitar, the high notes, EVERYTHING

Last Kiss (Taylor's Version) 3.5-4/5

?1.5 I don't know whether or not to give this instrumental a point because it's late, I'm sleepy and I'm falling asleep listening to it // +1 she still sounds very heartbroken :( // +1.5 She waited for that kiss like I waited for that "last.... kiss"

It is incredible to know that she wrote such works that one says "now there are people who do it" "there were before too" I still haven't found anyone who does it so vividly, with such accuracy and ALSO that you can see yourself in the music and that you also appreciate that other history

Long Live (Taylor's Version) 5/5

+1.5 This album should stop having such good instrumentals! // +1.5 I feel like she is telling me these stories as if I were her daughter, and as if she were giving me an old book of these same ones. // +2 I can't help it, this yes or yes is my favorite, the imagery, the way of putting it into words, the message in general. I can't not give it a 5/5

How bad would it be if I dedicated this song to my brother, who was always my best adventure partner even if now we are not as close as before?

Ours (Taylor's Version) 3.5/5

+1 The first sentence was right, this song sounds like an elevator song // +1 She sounds so happy, I guess it's a bit of an act, but it may also have been that reconnecting with this part has helped // +1.5 Another song about getting into people's lives and with such a beautiful message in between (not the muse, I care so little)

I would listen to this song while I am doing homework or other things, it is one of those songs that you put on to sing and it becomes the soundtrack of the chore you are doing. I'm not saying it's bad, but it doesn't grab my attention THAT much.

Superman (Taylor's Version) 3.5/5

+1.5 Another song that she song that she would dance in the Fearless dress // +1 She feels so comfortable in this element that it hurts // +1.5 Oooh how I feel this lyric! She is so dreamy and so free at the same time, how beautiful 🩷

Seriously, every time I think she changed the type of dress indicated because there were no colors or because of the representative colors of the albums because I don't think you can dance this in a ball gown, but I guess that's not the vibe she wanted to give either, but hey, the Eras Tour is about to end and it was still magnificent

AND WITH THIS, WE END WITH THE ORIGINAL VERSION OF SPEAK NOW

Electric Touch (From The Vault) 3.5/5

+1.5 How do I not download every instrumental on this album??? // +1.5 I love Fall Out Boy and I love that he had a whole verse and it sounds so good with Taylor... // ...1 That first moment of meeting a person and having everything vibrate with anticipation, it is something that I wouldn't change for anything.

I feel that it is a very tender song and at the same time very passionate, even hormonal, and although I love it with just one listen, it doesn't quite fit with Speak Now, but it doesn't fit with any other album.

When Emma Falls In Love (From The Vault) 3/5

+1 That soft piano at the beginning🤍 // ...1 I'm going to be honest, there is a second voice that bothers me and all the "ss" sound like hissing. // +1.5 It's such a beautiful song, about a person who handles love in his private life in a fairly healthy way in Taylor's environment is incredible

Imagine that you are the inspiration of a talented friend and on top of that she makes a song, and tries to learn from you. Well, it doesn't happen to me, but it does to Emma Stone.

I'm not saying that this isn't a spectacular song, but the AUDIO QUALITY is horrible, and the whole experience is...

I Can See You (From The Vault) 3.5/5

+1 I can't believe that even though it's a different genre, the instrumental automatically reminds me of imgonnagetyouback // +1 She sounds so sexy and with such a high rhythm, it's almost perfect but I don't know what she's missing :( // +1.5 It's definitely a song that would be on Reputation, with a different rhythm, with such daring lyrics.

I'm going to be completely honest, I'm listening to the YouTube playlist, and I'm playing the MV in the background. Honestly the story is great, but it bothers me that there is no clean audio on the official playlist.

Castles Crumbling (From The Vault) 3/5

+0.5 It has many synthetic touches aaaaa we were going so well :( // +1.5 HOW HAYLEY SOUNDS, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL HARMONY! They sound so good // +2 The song that was about fame and how it affected her life was missing on this album :( this song is sad and tragic and beautiful at the same time

Foolish One(From The Vault) 3.5/5

+1 What beautiful instrumental // +1 She is singing the song to me who doesn't talk to any human being apart from my family. // +1.5 Definitely my song

It's strange but I feel like the quality has gone down on the From The Vault songs, but they are still beautiful

Timeless (From The Vault) 3/5

Here the lyrics feel like a mixture of ideas that is difficult to make sense of in a song with these lyrics, I guess she wanted to make an overly complicated image OF HER OWN STORY, But if she was simply talking about people and how time affected love in general, and not directed at a single muse, the whole scene would have been better, but HEY, this song already came out like this so ...

Conclusion: I know I've criticized TTPD a lot, but I remember reading many times that Taylor Swift's last album was similar to this one, because of the number of long lines, and yes they do. But to TTPD, TTPD lacked life, not emotion, life. I don't know how to explain it, but even Midnights had more life than TTPD. I understand that these are all individual concepts and completely difficult to put together.

Further, speaking about Speak Now (Taylor's Version) there are some VERY good things on the original album and others that are good, but I feel that in the From The Vault section the quality dropped a lot.

3.5-4/5

[bazzybelle]

20 questions for fic writers!

Thank you @spockandthings for tagging me in this game!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I currently have 42 works on AO3.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

306,632 words. Which isn't too terrible, I don't think.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Most of my fics are from the Carry On Universe (Simon Snow Trilogy), but I have been writing a lot of Sandman fics as well.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

They are all from the Carry On universe.

I Just Want Your Extra Time And Your..... -> 611 kudos

Falling Back To You -> 511 kudos

So Close, We've Always Been -> 431 kudos

Thighs and Prejudice -> 304 kudos

The Best Game You Can Name -> 276 kudos

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do, but I am terrible at being consistent with it. If I am able to sit down and just get them over with, then yeah I can do it. But if I'm disrupted, then it'll take me another length of forever to get back to them. To whomever's left me a kind comment, I see you, and I love you.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't like writing angsty endings... I'll write a ton of angst within a fic, but I like to make them happy... You know, I think With Open Arms - Don't Stay For Me might be the angstiest one. It was my first fic and it was my attempt to process Wayward Son and all the emotions that came with it. It was also the first fic I wrote after not writing for almost a decade so...

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All my fics have some sort of happy ending, but I think the one that is my favourite happy ending is Speak My Language of Love, because I liked how both Simon and Baz were able to express to each other how much they love.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Thankfully no.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Ooooo yes... I do. I have written all sorts of smut. Sexting, rimming, frotting, switching top and bottom... But I've mostly written Simon and Baz smut. I haven't written Dreamling smut... yet. What's funny is that I did a search of how many E-rated fics I have, and it's only 10.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not yet. I DO want to write a Watford-era crossover fic between Dreamling and SnowBaz, where Morpheus and Hob just view the events of the Trilogy, but through an outsider's perspective. Yes... I plan on making it very snarky.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. I certainly hope not...

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I would love to! I have several authors both in the Carry On and Sandman fandom that I would love to co-author with.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Oh that's just mean. I'm currently obsessed with Dreamling, but SnowBaz will always have a special place in my heart.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have been slowly chipping away at Youth Without Youth and No One To Save, but my motivation to write SnowBaz explicitly has all but diminished. It's been difficult to get back into the habit of writing because I have been feeling burnt out since last year, and so I am only writing when I feel an urge and I'm only writing things that give me a happy motivation.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I have been told that I write angst and fast-paced action scenes really well. I have also been told that I am really good at world building.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Grammar and syntax. I also repeat sentences and words and phrases. I m also not great at descriptive, flowy prose. I tend to be very choppy with my writing.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I mean you do you. But if you plan on doing it, please provide some sore of translation if you want me to understand what's going on.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Ok so... I have been playing in fandom since Prue died on Charmed (so like 2001, I think), but the first fanfic I wrote was in 2004, I think and it was a Charmed fanfic with Piper/Leo. I found it the other day, in one of my OLD emails and OUFFF... I've been writing on and off since then, taking hiatuses especially during school and most recently during a decade of fandom repression and depression. I have written for Charmed, Grey's Anatomy (RPG), Criminal Minds, Carry On, and now The Sandman.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Oh that's difficult. Ok so for Sandman, I loved how How Beautiful it is That We Exist turned out. For Simon Snow, it's a tie between Thighs and Prejudice, The Best Game You Can Name, and Falling Back To You

Tagging: @carryonsimoncarryonbaz, @amywaterwings, @namistrella, @aroace-genderfluid-sheep, @sleepsonfutons, @mentallyinvernation, @mallory-x, @windsweptinred, @seiya-starsniper, @ninemagicks, @tryan-a-bex, @wellbelesbian, @messofthejess, @artsyunderstudy, @valiantstarlights

[just-call-mefr1es]

ok, you wanted it, so you're getting it MORE EPIKAMU FACTIES!!!! they'll be angsty, fluffy, some suggestive but NOT nsfw! be warned for the suggestive ones (if i actually do put some in). Remember to answer each individually! -- -Epimetheus has nightmares. These nightmares can range from the death of his planets, the death of the universe, or worse; the death of him and his husband. He wakes up in a cold sweat when he has these nightmares, and thankfully, Kamu is there to comfort him, always showering him with as much affection as he can. -Kamu has semi-blindness. Usually it doesn't affect him much, but sometimes, It can get him almost killed by comets (usually punched away by Epimetheus.) -Epimetheus is actually the one who's a bit more stronger, despite being energy drained by Kamu. He's able to easily pick up Kamu, but Kamu can't really lift Epi up that well (LMAO weak ass) -Kamu cries a lot. A popular folktale among Eburonia's lifeform is that the Second Star cries when he feels powerless, and that is slightly true. He cries a lot when something bad happens, and Epi is there to calm him down. -Eburonia has the power to make any memory be suppressed into the darkest recesses of someones mind. Since all the planets had their memories of the Proto-era recessed due to trauma, Epimetheus and Kamu, however, didn't have their memories suppressed. This leaves them with so much guilt for their actions of the Proto-era that the planets (Except Eburonia) don't remember. -One of the most popular Taenarum System sports is Comet-Punching. It's a sport where you flare your fists up and punch as many comets as possible. Kamu is VERY proficient in this sport, and Epimetheus always likes to watch him, cheering him on. (He's his husband after all!) -When Kamu sleeps, Epimetheus is usually very much awake by then. In Earthling time, it's usually 4pm. Epimetheus likes to watch him, sometimes waking him up by surprise with a firm kiss (He loves him that much!) -Kamu is very self-depracating. He blames himself for many of the tragedies that happen in the Taenarum System without thinking about how the guilt will take hold of everyone, and Epimetheus is always there to calm him down about it, reassuring him with a kiss that it's not his fault. -Kamu has autism and Narcolepsy! He also has a lot of game consoles (He's a gamer like me) and likes to invite some of the planets to play with him when bored! -Epimetheus has insomnia, with his case being caused by stress. He has to take melatonin to sleep more easily. -EpiKamu share a bed!!! Wholesome fluffy husbands are real PAST THIS POINT IS SUGGESTIVE HCS, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!! -Sometimes when they kiss, Kamu likes to bite down on Epi's lips with his fangs, which results in plasma surging from his lips. Kamu always licks it up (You've seen this in my fic!) -Epimetheus is VERY forward with the stuff they do privately, but always makes sure consent is involved! He doesn't want to make Kamu uncomfortable with what they do together. -The middle point of Kamu's neck is the most sensitive spot of his body. I'm just going to leave it at that. ok the suggestive hcs end there back to the regularly scheduled program -- -Epimetheus would be the Sun's best friend if they met, but Kamu would judgingly stare at the Sun from afar, almost like he's mad at the Sun for something. (he's just jealous lol) -Epimetheus and Kamu would get along with Jupiter really well, mainly due to the facts that Jupiter shares. -Kamu would harbor an immense hatred for Earth, mainly due to his past actions. But eventually, due to Epi's influence, this tension would be resolved. -Epimetheus and Kamu are bounded together by fate. This means that no matter the universe, time, place, date, year, month, day, or hour, they would always meet, get together, and marry. They are meant to be.

i love sharing these lmao

RAHHHI CSN ALREADY TELL THIS IS GONNA BE GREAT (im gonna try to answer each individually im kinda brainded rn skxjsjdjmss)

wowza, starting off strong with nightmares^_^ i love that trope sm and jt fits these goobers so well im exploding. DAMN epimetheus is the truest alpha, punchin the comets away n lifting kamu up like thst while he can’t on the other hand (i agree, WEAKASS). and AWWW, i love how eburonia’s lifeforms came up with that folktale of kamu crying. folktales are honestly so cute sometimes. epimetheus calming him down!! fucking adorable!!

the memory thing?? you come up woth the coolest shit holy fuck. live laugh love carried guilt🫶🏽 comet punching sounds fun when is it going to make an appearance in the next olympics? kamu being a gamer fits so well i love it lmaoo, and inviting the planets to play with him?? i just love that oml. epimetheus is so me fr except i dont share a bed with my wife 💔/sarc

now the suggestive part yayza💪🏽 yes, i have seen the bitijg lip plasma licking thing in ur fic! i honeslty thought it was a pretty neat detail ngl! YAYY CONSENT😻😻🎉🎉 consent is hot, guys, remember. i dont know whqt to do with the fact that the middle of kamus neck is the most sensitive:3

grrr epimetheus n sun tea party when? love that (and ofcourse kamu would be jealous lmaoo). and i can just picture the two at a table with jupiter just chatting, its so sweet:3 LMAOO kamu has beef with earth canon n epimetheus is a live saver fr. STOPP THE FATE THING IS SO CUTE I LOVE IT WHEN CHARACTERS ARE BOUNDED BY FATE (and this time in a positive way! so fuckin adorable)

snd the doodles💗💗 my hesrt💗💗

sorry i didnt get time to read these ofer sooner, i had to help my parents setting up shit for my bday lmao

[squid-ink-symphony]

ok time to talk about my fav agent ships bcuz i am v normal (also i am a multishipper so i like a lot of stuff)

First off: 4 x 8!!!! my beloveds!!! and they were roommates! i see this sort of a mirror of pearlina in a way since 4 would show 8 around and 4 is also a chaos gremlin(but more competent than pearl in a lot of ways). and 8 rlly looks up to marina i think(pearl too ofc) and i like the idea of marina teasing her like "wow u also have a short squid gf?". also just like.. their dynamic is so everything to me. both of them are so gender like 4 is a boy who is kind of a girl. and 8 is a girl who is kind of a boy. do you see my vision? they are made for each other. and i can see them being like pearlina but in a new era since 8 doesnt have to worry about telling 4 shes an octoling. so both of them can get to know each other and share their cultures in a way that pearl and marina couldnt up until post octo expansion. just like THE PARALLELS OK???? and i dont just like them cuz i also like pearlina. i like them for their own unique dynamic. they just fit together so well. i think they compliment each others strengths and weaknesses while also not being so different that they cant get along.

next: 3 x neo 3. i thought 4 x 8 was underrated... but this??? ig its just cuz 3 has more popular ships and neo 3 is so new. i know a lot of ppl view them more as a mentor situation w neo 3 being much younger. but in my mind i just cannot picture the agents hanging out w 3, 8, and 4 all being late teens/early 20s and then just..... 16 yo neo 3.. it does work sometimes if u view them as like a younger sibling or just the younger one of the group. or even just like.. there. i can see them as an apprenitce of sorts to 3. and thats cool and all but since im not that young and i project on my agents when i play as them in my mind neo 3 is in the 17-19 range. but i see them as 18 specifically. so 18 yo neo 3 and 21 yo 3. and in my mind 3 is kinda silly(have u seen them in splat1?) but trying to be professional and takes a look at neo 3 w all their terrible looking ripped up clothes and questionable hygiene and scavenger swag and goes "how could i not be attracted to that?". and 3 tries not to show it cuz like.. this is their new recruit??? and yet 3 finds themselves going easy on neo 3 andbeing rlly sweet. and callie or marie catches on and probably teases them about it in private. and callie tries to play matchmaker or see if neo 3 likes 3. and on the other end..... neo 3 is probably distracted when they first meet 3. but when they are taking a break at the camp hanging out w lil buddy they finally notice 3. and neo 3 finally takes a look at them. and its like?? not love at first sight like it was w 3. but neo 3 likes them. no offense to agents 1 and 2, but neo 3 immediately lowkey distrusted them since they looked too "pristine" if that makes any sense? so neo 3 sees 3 and is like!!! !!!!! this is my new bestie!!!! and starts becoming attached to 3. and so neo 3 comes to bother 3 at their seat and talk to them and 3 gets so flustered but doesnt show it and only 1 and 2 can tell. and they continue to poke fun at 3. and lowkey try to hint to neo 3. but neo 3 is a brick wall when it comes to sublety. but then eventually they realize they like 3. so they gather a bunch of cool rocks and shiny things off the floor and walk up to 3 and go "here take this and also please be my partner" and 3 is so in love. and they flirt constantly and both of them hate taking showers and have to be reminded to . and also little buddy is their new child (jokingly. i see lil buddy as neo 3s younger sibling) i can see neo 3 coming up to 3 and flirting w them and 3 flirting back and them getting distracted and aro marie coming in to jokingy make fun of them and tell them to get back to work. and when the rest of the agents meet neo 3 they would jokingly get mad that neo 3 gets special treatment from 3.

anyway.... also 3 x 4 x 8 x neo 3..... it is a top tier poly ship. all of them. i think 3, 4, and 8 would get to know each other and date after octo expansion takes place. and then when 3 has to deal w splat 3s story mode they meet neo 3 and fall in love and they meet back up w 4 and 8 and is like yooo..... uhh... what if i just.... expanded the polycule? and the other 2 were like ur literally so swagless (but we love u) how did u do that? and then 3 brings out neo 3 and the other are just like.... oh god theres another one. anyway i think they would get along w neo 3 too and maybe end up dating them as well

ALS MY MOST OBSCURE SHIP YET 4 x neo 3. this one is so good, like both of them are chaotic and goofy. yet 4 is a nerd and neo 3 is probably a war criminal. so like.. opposite sides of the insanity spectrum. they would hang out and neo 3 would ask how bombs are made and 4 would explain it thinking its just curiousity and then look over to see neo 3 contrusting a bomb out of everything around them. and its not like neo 3 is dumb. they are also smart just like.. not in a geeky book smarts way like 4 probably is. more like ... idk how to describe it but different? anyway their dynamic would be SO good. you just have to trust me on this.

[kotemf]

20 writer asks

Thank you for the tag, @lonewolflupe.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

29 but a lot of them are just oneshots around 1 000 words.

2. What's your A03 word count?

206,827! I had no idea it was this much tbh, last time I checked I had like 150k, lol. I'm actually proud of this achievement, especially since it hasn't even been a year since I started writing fan fics.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Star Wars, usually Clone Wars but I write so many weird AUs that it doesn't even matter.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Cody Learns to Love with 644 kudos

Cody Learns to Live with 150 kudos

CodyWan Oneshot with 102 kudos

Another Chance with 99 kudos

Visible Confusion with 98 kudos (no idea why this work of all the works I have has so many kudos...)

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I have no idea, I usually write happy endings or more like the fics that are supposed to have angsty endings are the ones I haven't finished yet. For now it's probably my fill for day 5 of CodyWan Week 2024 but it's not really the ending that's angsty, it's the stuff that happens before that...

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I don't know, I have a lot of happy endings but I'm going to mention A Lifetime Supply Of Homemade Meals And Knit Sweaters For The Coruscant Guard which is one off my fills for CorrieWeek 2024 and I really wish this thing got more attention so this ending is happier than the other ones because I said so :).

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really, I only received one hate comment in my entire "career" and it was some hater who got banned before I even read that comment for commenting hate on many works so that wasn't directed at me. I'm glad that everyone I've met are polite.

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

No. I have no iterest in reading nor writing smut. Also my mom reads my works.

10. Do you write cross overs? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't really like crossovers, they tend to get confusing and I like it when everything makes sense. Hope that makes sense.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No and I search my more popular works in the browser just to be sure from time to time since I've heard horror stories of fics being sold on Amazon and stuff.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No. I was playing with the thought of translating my works into my native language but decided against it since it probably wouldn't get much attention anyway and, more importantly, Star Wars in my native language sounds incredibly cringe. Like I'm sorry, I love my language, ok, but translated Star Wars is terrible.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No but I would love to.

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

Uh... hard to tell. Probably CodyWan or Foxiyo. I also love SabEzra but I've never written anything from the Rebels era.

15. What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever wilI?

That Was Not Supposed to Happen. This is my... second? fan fiction ever and I still love the idea but I haven't written it in so long and the parts that I've written already would need A LOT of editing.

16. What are your writing strengths?

So... I'm not sure what exactly this question means...

If it's about what I write the best, you tell me.

If it's about how I write, I have this huge almost super power I would say because I literally go, sit down and write. I can even skip the step of sitting down. I never realized how much people usually struggled with getting into the writing mode and stuff until I got Tumblr. Like sure, sometimes I get a block but I usually really just decide I want to write and then just write.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I want to write about topics I know nothing about. I write about stuff I know nothing about. Like I write about children but really, it's just my imagination of how a little child would act. Or for example any social workers reading my Cody Learns to Love Verse would probably be surprised at how the galactic social services work. Because I just made everything up.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Actually, I use the fictional language of mandalorians - mando'a - in dialogues quite a lot since I headcanon that the clones speak it and I also love mandalorian culture. I don't think I would use any real life languages in fan fiction but if I was writing an original work, I would sure include some of my native language and also some Spanish because I love Spanish.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Star Wars. I still write for Star Wars. I don't think I'll ever write for anything else in the near future because there is still a lot of Star Wars stuff I haven't explored yet and my obsession isn't fully satisfied. I want to read Jango Fett: Open Season in the near future so probably expect some traumatized baby Jango.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

A hard question but probably Cody Learns to Love since I'm still proud of finishing a fic with over 100k words.

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NPT: I can't really think of anyone to tag but whoever wants to participate can.

[stargirlfics]

ok but-

alfred's condescension and patronization, i mean i feel like only you can express it right ngl

imagine a night after some intense sexcapades, and you've finally gone full vocal guttural moans and squeals for him;

after hours of fucking, you've finally come out of your shell and got to the point where you let it out - "unhhnh...i like it when you make me all sticky alfred, fuck", "please, make it hurt, please i want it", "more more more...more, please!", all that dirty, deep in the spankbank trauma bin primate-fucks-bc-heat shit.

the ego on him, it traverses all space and time, bc holy fuck that was a good night. evidently he's still got it in spite of or alongside his salt and pepper hair and new silver fox era. he got his shy, prissy prude babygirl to go full wanton whore, and let the slutty whines erupt and tell him exactly what she needs and wants-

imagine walking into the kitchen the next morning though, seeing him resting against the countertop; taking in your form, hiding a knowing smirk. his intense stare never ceasing, yearning to make that eye contact that he just knows'll induce a virginal-catholic kind of shame, and he just revels in watching you squirm, utilising his intellect and social manoeuvring skills to patronize and condescend like a king oml help

First off thank you for blessing my inbox with this bc holy fucK 🥵 and second, I have such a soft spot for playful condescension and the thought of Alfred using it to tease you, and make you squirm oh my god!

It makes him so weak and boosts his ego all at the same time, hearing you let loose and say filthy shit, loving that your reserved and shy walls are coming down and you’re revealing that slutty side of yourself he just knew you had, it’s always the quiet ones 😌

And he’s giving it back just as good as you’re giving it, responding to your pleas, his personal favorite being you whimpering about how much you like it when he makes you all sticky, because the way you feel so good and wet and messy around him is so hot to him and he loves that you find it a turn on just as much as he does

Silverfox daddy still has some strength and stamina and if you want him to make it hurt, he’ll do exactly that, cooing in your ear, “aw, are you sure you can take it, love?” and you’re unabashedly letting words flow, not caring how obscene they are, begging him for it, telling him you want him to ruin you, turn you into a mess, the heat of the moment making all the dirty talk come up (which is honestly so good when it happens during sex like wow fave!) like ugh I’m just thinking of him going “i know, baby. tell me how good it hurts, that’s it.” and I’m losing my shit!!!

The avoiding of eye contact the next morning but feeling him looking at you is so !!!! ahhh cause I just love the fact that he knows it’s gonna fluster you so bad and it just adds to your sexy ass chemistry because you know that he never wants you to feel ashamed for feeling safe to show how much you desire him because he makes sure to remind you of it constantly

Also just loving the cheeky vibe of the morning after a wow-i-got-my-back-blown-out kind of night! Perfect!

[thundercrack]

ok joining the club... February reading report! I'm mostly just mouthing off... Read at your own risk!

Dune by Frank Herbert

The Friend by Sigrid Nunez

Look, I'm a sucker for a classic. I'd been vaguely meaning to read this since I saw the Timmy Chalemet movie...and I generally have a tolerance for fairly long scifi/fantasy. I enjoyed the first maybe third of this book...and then I got bored (needless to say I will not be reading the next four Dune books although I did finish). Don't get me wrong -- I'm glad I read it. In many ways, Dune still culturally relevant, both within the world of genre fiction, and (especially because of the new film) in debates about orientalism, the Cold War, humanity, etc, etc. I found Herbert's explorations on this future version of Islam and future version of Arabic pretty interesting, but by the end of the book, I was really annoyed by the main character. There's a lot of really interesting discussion and criticism around this book, so I'm glad to be able to understand a little more of those conversations as well. Also, now I retrospectively sort of know what was happening in the movie!

I was too young to read this book. It was good; it was not for me. Revisit in thirty-five years.

Utopia Avenue by David Mitchell

Lincoln In The Bardo by George Saunders

Why did I read this? I've never read any other David Mitchell. This book was an exercise in 1960s musical fantasy, where nothing goes wrong and the truest joy is from celebrity encounters, powered by the author's love for the era, rather than having anything to say. This was a book about a rock band going straight to the top, without any real interrogation into the cultural forces and pitfalls of the 1960s, weak characterization, random tie-ins with his larger universe, and next to no tension. I'll probably still read Cloud Atlas at some point, but this one is a hard pass.

This was one of my old roommates favorite books that I gave another go after DNFing in maybe, 2018? Again, I think this might be a book I'd like more if I were older. I thought the structure and format was well-done (I especially liked the history excerpts, of course); the story itself, I was maybe luke-warm on. I thought the prose was good (especially the dialogue) and the characters were interesting. I'm not entirely sure what's making me luke-warm on it, but I liked it enough to be glad I read it.

Human Acts by Han Kang (trans. Deborah Smith)

This was the best book I read this month, hands down. Maybe this year as well. Kang masterfully weaves together a number of stories around the Gwangju massacre of pro-democracy demonstrators. This book was at times, extremely brutal to read (and I would say I have a fairly high tolerance in text). It was clearly well-researched, well-lived, and well-considered. The topics it tackled were both grains of sand and the meaning of humanity itself. I really, really, enjoyed this book; I highly recommend it, and I definitely look forward to reading The Vegetarian in the future. Bonus reading: Han Kang and the Complexity of Translation

All The President's Men by Woodward and Bernstein

I constantly get this one mixed up with All The Kings Men by Robert Penn Warren (also good). One of my college friends had just read this and sent me a number of random updates throughout their reading, mostly focused on Woodward and Bernstein's....tense relationship. Like most Americans, I've been vaguely aware of Watergate my whole life (I even saw that movie The Post!), and I think this book really did a good job laying out the reveal of the story as well as sort of the in-house tensions that were going on. My copy (from the library) was the original 1974 edition, and I sort of wish that I had a more recent version with a little bit more distance on the events, but it's kind of fun to have been "right in there." I generally do like this style of expanded-reportage book (see Ronan Farrow's books, or in another genre, Jon Krakauer), and Watergate still looms so large in the American political imagination, so I'm glad I read this one too.

Beyond Babylon by Igiaba Scego (trans. Aaron Robertson)

This is a book I would have really liked to enjoy. I didn't. I kept saying to myself -- well, maybe it's just the translation that didn't work for me (the whole book was a bit clunky to read). There are a lot of really interesting themes in this novel (fluid identity, colonization, language, coincidence, politics, choice and nature, etc), interesting characters, play with language, a sweep of history that could have been fascinating. However, in practice, it didn't work for me. The different storylines sometimes were confusing, the plot at times eluding me, seemingly unnecessary tangents taking me nowhere. It was a slow read. There was just a lot here (and maybe it's just through my background that I was missing pieces)...and none of it quite fit together.

Murder by the Book by Claire Harman

Totally random book I picked up at the library. It's not really a topic or like...an era (the metropolitan center of Victorian Britain??) that I care about, but I was like, hey, cool cover, I want an easy read this week, etc. I thought it was well written and well researched, and I definitely learned some stuff about the literary scene of the era. It was also amusing how some of the debates around "base literature" are...pretty much the same today as they were in the 1830s.

Beasts of a Little Land by Juhea Kim

Look, you ever read a book and you can just tell it was written by a Harvard/Yale/Princeton grad? Well, this was one. This book was extremely readable. It's got decent characters who are fairly easy to get invested in and a structure that pulls you through the text, all while set across a complex, divided, and rapidly changing backdrop of early 20th-c Korea. However, the narrative itself rung flat, and the book's promised complexity disappeared before I got through the second chapter -- it's almost a completely sanitized view of two very complex worlds: that of high-class courtesans, and that of orphans/gangs who become politically involved. Narratively things go wrong, but it's almost never because the characters make bad decisions -- except perhaps in love -- which collapses the once-promising characters. Also, it jumps from 1945 to 1964 at the end...not very successfully (the opening/closing of the book was extremely trite and not terribly well-done). This book was almost disappointing because it promised more than it could deliver, falling straight into the chasm of mediocre novels by diverse graduates of elite institutions. I didn't do it any favors by reading it so soon after Human Acts either, although they're very different novels.

The Thousand Crimes of Ming by Tsu Tom Lin

The advertising around this book does it poorly (do not go in expecting anything Cormac McCarthy-like LOL). Don't get me wrong, I liked this book -- I do enjoy a modern Western and I think Lin does a great job highlighting the role of Chinese workers on the expansion of the railroad, as well as the curiosities of the era through a fantastical magic troupe. The NPR review of this book highlights how each character plays with genre, which was true and definitely one interesting part of the novel. Thematically, I thought this book was interesting if a bit restrained, and the characters were neat. Unfortunately, though I enjoyed giving this one a read, at the end of the day, it's all a bit forgettable.

Dumb Luck by Vu Trong Phung (trans. Nyuyen Nguyet Cam and Peter Zinoman)

Tumblr bookclub read! Like I said to A and Rhu, I found the introduction "Vu Trong Phung's Dumb Luck and the Nature of Vietnamese Modernism" by Peter Zinoman more interesting than the text itself, but overall, I'm glad I read the book. It's always really interesting to read these sort of big, foundational texts -- even in fairly recent translation. I haven't read a lot of satire and really don't know that much about Vietnam before American involvement, but the thrust of the text was definitely quite interesting (and brutal -- one review described all the characters as antagonists) even if I didn't fully understand all the conversations, it was taking part in.

Heart of Darkness (3rd Norton Critical Edition) by Joseph Conrad (ed. Robert Kimbrough)

Confession: I think I'd read this before and almost entirely forgotten it. I didn't particularly enjoy the book and literarily, I'm not sure that I got what quality elevates it to a "great novel." I especially enjoyed the back-and-forth among several scholars (especially around Achebe) about its relationship to colonialism, inclusion in the canon, and European self-definition against Africa as a "primitive other." I'm glad I read it mostly because I feel like it gives me a better sense of the larger conversation around Leopold in the Congo and the literary/related discourses around the scramble for Africa. So, thematically, glad I read it; literarily, whatever.

The Last King of Scotland by Giles Foden

The end :) maybe I'll do this again someday!

Another confession: I pick a lot of books by wandering around the library and just grabbing one that looked interesting. I did read Heart of Darkness before this for a reason. I quite liked reading this one -- I thought the narration was really interesting and the narrator's complicity in the brutality of Idi Amin's rule was neat. Certain scenes were very brutal (and the book was certainly well-researched). I felt like at times, the time-skips didn't quite work, but the general disconnect between Garrigan, his identity, and what was happening around him was interesting. I think I had to watch the film that was a loose adaptation of the book in class in high school. I think I could probably have some more interesting thematic and political comments on this one if I sat on it a little longer, but I'm kind of getting tired of writing this and also I finished it like, twelve and a half hours ago or something.

[goldennika]

back for more keeps making me go back for another listen 🤭 okay the choreo is so on point, and the studio version definitely adds the mj flare with the adlibs being more audible now. the beat is great, and overall it has a sensual vibe that is just so palatable. you mentioned before how they're able to tread the border of being sensual without it being overpowering, and I totally agree! I can't think of any other artist at the moment that has the same ability to deliver something overtly sexy without allowing the sex appeal to overshadow the other creative components of the song or mv. I'm really digging the tasteful way that tnc has delivered this (and will inevitably continue to deliver for this comeback!).

Having said that, I would have loved it if the stylists gave them something besides those suits and white shirts idk when I heard disco latin pop I'm expecting some bling bling. at the very least give these men some shiny earrings or accessories!! Oh and a moment of silence for them not including that epic organ intro from the VMAs.... 🥲 biggest disappointment, do they realize that adding those 20 seconds would only enhance the song and not detract from their goal of charting w a short song??! anywho. it's a bop, and I can't wait to have it on replay when I run some errands after work today. How are you feeling?? 🤭

before anything else i just wanna say i love how each had our own little brain dumps to share with each other hahaha my notifs have been buggy though so i might have been missing some notes! :( my initial thoughts are here !!

omg yesssss the adlibs are so much audible in the studio ver and i am living for it!! Just lovely textures all around and idk, i feel like “back for more” is still playing around with themes of temptation but in a slightly messier, maybe more urgent kind of way? So having the MV the way that it is (lots of lights and shadows going around, the layered vocals, the captivating beat that gets stuck in your head) kinda mirrors that sense of desperation to get the (formerly?) tempted back iykwim ???

like on the surface the tempter seems cool but there is a faint franticness to everything else around them somehow…. 🤔 WHICH REALLY MAKES ME CURIOUS ABOUT WHICH TIMELINE/UNIVERSE WE’RE IN FOR THIS 😩

going back, huge yeses all around for tastefully sexy txt (i have not been the same since the invitation cover stage dropped). it’s never super explicit or in your face and even when they’re taking off their clothes in their choreo (has the sleeveless kai era begun???), it’s in a more teasing, or rather tempting manner than straight up stripping. my brain is telling me this is a queer thing but i’m likely just projecting hahaha something something hidden desires

ok ok i’m weak for txt in a good suit but i get what you mean!! they could have afforded to add a little more playfulness to the styling butttttt i think they’re really just trying to lean in to the darker theme overall ??? which i am also a sucker for lol if txt were the devil fr, i would given my soul to them hakabsjsvsbs

[possibilistfanfiction]

your latest rebloghad me snickering i never have understood the obsession with her. anything youve been listening to lately that you rec for someone looking for something new?

ok before anyone comes for me lmfao i do want to say that i generally find her music mostly fine, sometimes good, occasionally a song will make me absolutely feral for no discernible reason lol. i think she's an eco-terrorist basically but like... her music is fine & ppl being normal fans is... normal lol

what is BEYOND to me is when ppl will literally like... post abt her like she's their friend, or defend her music when like sometimes artists u like make mediocre shit! that's fine! lol like i have two lorde tattoos & i do think overall as a project solar power is beautiful & cool but was it earth-shattering like pure heroine or melodrama? no! which is fine! i don't need it to be! i also have no idea what lorde is doing day to day lol

also i will say i love pop. i love being a fan of pop. i think the world runs on pop music & it should! i named my dog after charli xcx! not everything i listen to (or consume in general) aligns with my personal politic of a free palestine & a free world! my ultimate weakness is drag race! so the level of insanity surrounding taylor swift (& beyonce tbh) by (at least in my community) gay white men (or gay men trying to perform whiteness / gain proximity to it) is just... bonkers! i could go on about this forever but i will not lol. [if u like podcasts tho, a bit fruity did an ep on the political power of taylor swift which is quite interesting. their episode becoming a woman with miss benny also talks abt gayness, femininity, & pop (in an illuminating way!!) -- check them out if u want!!]

ANYWAY SORRY. some stuff i'm currently loving:

tierra whack's new album whack world. super funky, smart, heartfelt, she's the weirdest in the game & we are all better for it

BRAT ERA BABEY aka charli xcx's new singles. my favorite is club classics atm but B2b & von dutch (& the remix w/ addison rae) are summer bops. can't wait to be drunk on the beach listening to them

constantly going back to ethel cain's preacher's daughter, especially when i'm in nature w/ char. it's one of my favorite albums of all time; so fucking beautiful. hymns.

as the world's no1 bangerz apologist, & bc of jojo siwa being absolutely delulu & kind of iconic lately, i've been returning to 2013 miley for a laugh, & bc that album is so good. feels rly sad now? idk. her cover of jolene ate so hard no one will ever come close, sry

random but a cover of breezeblocks by taylor rae

honestly also whatever i loved II MOST WANTED lmao. it's gay. the only reason ppl are saying it's not is bc beyonce is on the track. it's gay i will die on this hill

lastly listening to a lot of lonnie holley