#like obviously oliver IS a creep and a predator

[shisogelee]

not to be a hater but certain medias should simply never be found by the actor x reader crowd and saltburn is a perfect example

because with that array of fascinating characters and insane displays of queer psychosexual depravity? imagine being like yeah actually the most interesting part is the math nerd with 5 minutes of screentime

[tempural]

FIRST SET OF GORL SCOUTS FOR GORL SCOUT DAY!!  My latest drawing of Liv, and some of the first ones!

An essay under the cut:

The current state of my girl Scout has taken many years to simmer.  Before becoming invested in Liv, I was unfortunately struggling to write girl characters.  The media I consumed as a kid informed my storytelling vocabulary, and I must admit that much of the stories I consumed as a babby excluded girl characters.  Ed Edd n Eddy, BatMAN, SpiderMAN, x-MEN, hell, video games like TF2 have ONLY male classes!  The only female characters in TF2 are Scout's voiceless/faceless mom, the late addition of Pauling, and the Admin's disembodied voice.  Mainstream media tends to feed us men as the default/leading characters with so many varying designs and personalities.  Women are rarely written with much depth in comparison, and rarely have designs that go beyond ‘cute/hot girl’ or ‘hag’.  I recall reading writing advice for men that suggested that if one was having trouble writing women, they should think of her as a male character.  It’s a little silly how mainstream media tends to think of female characters as “the other”, barely humans!

Female characters that fall under the “schoolgirl” trope often exist just to be fragile babies or objects of sexual desire (or both at the same time!), and are rarely written with complex wants or sexual autonomy.  See: the Aerosmith video “Crazy” where Liv Tyler (the song singer’s at-the-time 17 year old daughter) plays a schoolgirl, gets upskirted, is ogled by a gas station attendant, pole-dances, has a lil’ pillowfight with her friend, and strips naked for skinny-dipping.  There’s nothing inherently seedy about the video’s subject.  Of course teenagers go on road trips and do “crazy” things!  But I find it extremely repetitive and boring to constantly regurgitate the sexy schoolgirl trope in which men (both the director, viewers, and characters in the video) are openly lusting after young girls.  

Even media that seeks to subvert that trope still play more on the lust of men rather than the desires of girls.  See: Hard Candy.  Elliot Page plays a 14 year old girl who lures child predators by playing on the innocent schoolgirl trope, then plays up the sexy schoolgirl trope to trap them into torture and murder.  In this case the girl is “in control” -- yet she isn’t.  Her personal wants are dictated by the desires of men, and the entire concept is predicated on the girl posturing as prey for sexual predators..  I really enjoy the movie, but it’s a very straightforward take and something in me wants a little bit more twists and turns.  There just doesn’t seem to be a world, even in media fantasy, where girls have desires but are not the object of desire.

The earliest form of a girl Scout/Liv that I have are these designs for what I labeled as the “Japanese Groupie” from 2013.  It plays upon the same concept as Hard Candy although I hadn’t seen the movie yet at the time:  She lures in sexual predators, and chops off their peepees.  She’s mistaken as a child, though she’s actually 35, and plays up her short stature and babyface for her trap.  She’s also mistaken as Japanese, although she’s Chinese, and she also plays that up because westerners are more enamoured with Japanese pop culture.  I still think the concept is fine, but too much impetus for the story is given to the predators, and too much of it plays on the viewer being aware of the identity stereotypes (while people still lack self-awareness in real life: people still mistake me for a child, or mistake me as Japanese)!  Not enough story is moved by the girl!  I want MORE.

The Scout-Chan SFM is the greatest piece of art in the history of TF2.  When I re-engaged with the game in 2018, I was SHAKEN when I discovered it, and had to tell everyone I knew about it!!  This is the POV I’m talking about, lads and ladettes!  I was enamoured!!  The SFM perfectly captured what I liked about the Scout and Spy dynamic!  Scout has a crush on Spy, and Spy doesn’t do anything about it (but helps Scout fight crime at night?!!).  I love the Sukeban Boy design design for Scout, the whole pun with Sailor Scouts is fun, and I grew up with Sailor Moon so it hit my nostalgia prostate button real good.  Most importantly for me, the SFM never shows Scout and Spy in a ”relationship”.  They remain distant, but close.  I love that.

I had to spread the word of Scout-Chan the only way I knew how.  I drew a couple of comics and sketches inspired by the SFM!  But they were obviously tinged with my own tastes and perhaps experiences.

My ideas got very off-topic from the original zombie-slayer Scout-Chan, and I wanted to make my own Scout that was a girl.  On the way, I drew variations that became other girl Scouts with their own personalities (but always the same face and body!  My Scouts are infinite, indistinguishable, and disposable!).  I eventually settled on basically the same outfit as my boy Scout, Ollie, with a ponytail that was in between the hairstyle of my 2013 dickchopper OC and Scout-chan.  She was to be named Liv, partially because it’s a feminine form of the name Oliver, and partially because of the aforementioned Liv Tyler moment.  There’s some interplay with how strange it is for Steven Tyler to cast his own daughter as a sexy model, and how many people compare the Scout and Spy relationship to a fatherly one, with all of that being tossed into a dumpster fire and coming out as a reversal of older-creepy-man into younger-girl-who-creeps-on-her-mentor-figure.