#like my poster posts are blurry af

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WHY IS TUMBLR SUDDENLY EATING UP THE QUALITY OF ME AN MY MUTUAL’S ART THAT IVE SEEN RAAAAAAA

they’re literally so blurry and/or pixilated what the shit-

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Sugar Daddy Eddie/Venom idea

I'm elaborating on it bc I was talking about it with a friend and it's a good distraction while things are going haywire in my real life so here's a post dedicated to the idea:

Warnings: Daddy Kink, Age Gap, E/V x OFC, Self-Indulgence at it's finest, Bullet-Points, Problematic, The Coward's Way of Not Writing An Actual Story is just to blab about it on tumblr

Eddie is touch-starved and wants human contact

He loves Venom and the symbiosis is of course mutually beneficial, but Eddie misses how things were when he was with Anne - an independent partner - too

One night when he's suffering acute insomnia because he's a struggle-bus, Eddie winds up on a message board and makes friends with one poster who makes him laugh

Venom enjoys it too, and after some time begins to look forward to going home to chat with their internet pal

Meanwhile, our OFC that I'm calling Zoey, is struggling to survive in a ridiculously overinflated San Francisco and gets a tip-off to a sugar baby website that her friend has been using

It's gonna be sketchy no matter what, but Zoey finds one cool dude whose profile pic is blurry but seems as legit as it gets, so starts chatting and becomes friends w/ him

They get closer, to where Zoey keeps him up-to-date on shit happening downtown and on campus that deserves coverage and Eddie actually helps her with buying textbooks and real food when he gets a payout

He never asks for actual "sugar", and while Zoey is grateful, she feels both more uneasy about this whole thing because it makes her indignant - why doesn't he want her?

She goes out on a limb one night and just invites him out, wanting to actually meet and solidify their friendship, no ulterior motives whatsoever yeah right

Eddie agrees but internally freaks the fuck out about getting back into the game and wondering if he's actually down for sex and she's clearly younger than he is and Venom is just '???' why are you screaming internally?

Holy shit tho They actually manage to meet and damn is her sugar daddy pretty

"Oh fuck, you're Eddie Brock too?? Wtf?! Omg what really happened at the Life Foundation? I'm so glad that asshole Carlton Drake is dead."

Zoey's not the smartest duck in the pond, but she's astute enough to ask if Eddie saw that giant goo hot af monster when he was involved in that whole fiasco, idk who wouldn't be. It catches Eddie off-guard, but not as off-guard as Zoey clearly being thirsty over Venom of all things

Venom meanwhile nearly takes over Eddie and invites the nice lady who thinks he's an attractive mate over to their apartment bc he's suddenly very interested in human copulation now

The symbiote def thought this entire daddy kink thing was weird, but when they're actually in the middle of things, he's wayyyyy more confident in it than Eddie is

Eddie has been squirmy ever since he realized what that 'message board' was actually meant for, and then the conversation with Venom that followed concerning human sexuality and kinks

But Zoey is cute and confident and she's honestly very considerate and into consent, and thinks it's endearing how Eddie is so excited that it's almost like he's trying to 'eat' her face

I just love the idea of these two humans getting it on before Venom can't take being in the background anymore and just fully takes over Eddie's body midway through

'Holy fucking shit I'm banging the demon of san francisco??? Is it my birthday?' - Zoey, probably

Eventually they all fall in real love and blah blah blah lots of mind-blowing symbiote sex ever after

[bluesideboy]

my bangtan experience in chicago

*i made this post on my old blog back in 2017, right after the concert. i’m reposting here to keep the memory!*

(that’s a shitty gif of my view during the rainbow army bomb encore)

the trip~

I won’t spend too long talking about the general trip since I know you all want to get to the concert details, so I’ll just take this paragraph to do it. first off, riding the train to chicago was honestly so amazing. my girlfriend and I posted bts content on tumblr while riding it, it really built the hype for the show. once in chicago we couldn’t get phone service anywhere and thus couldn’t map anything. that’s also why I couldn’t update on snapchat like I wanted. so we spent hours trying to get to our hotel (which involved talking to shady people, getting asked for money, missing our bus stop, jaywalking across busy af roads using medians, and trying our hardest to communicate to friendly foreign people). but we got there safe and sound and made it to the concert early enough to wait in the long, cold, windy line.

pre show~

waiting in line with other fans was great, they made the awful temperatures better. there were so many more hobi stans than I expected, as well as jin stans!! so many of us hobi lovers yelled out “J-HOOOOOOOOPE” while we waited, like a damn signal to each other. made my heart so warm. in line we all sang converse high, cypher 4, am I wrong, etc. together. outside the venue some very kind girls were handing out these beautiful yoongi photocards

in addition to the photocard of my lovely and beautiful cloud, I got these three small posters from the wonderful girls seated in front of us!

front: 21st century girls. back: spring day

not today (lyrics+chant on back)

wings theme with namjoon’s mama quote

I didn’t buy any merch sadly because the only thing I had in mind to buy was an army bomb but I didn’t have enough money :/ plus I just wanted to get to my seat. and once we were seated, I couldn’t believe how close the stage was!!

it wasn’t super close but it was pretty good, I think!! better than I expected it to be.

they had their music videos playing on the screens while we all got seated. it was great to hear the crowd singing together before the show even started. and it was hilarious to hear us all get quiet during most of the korean parts. I remember when no more dream was on the screen and jimin lifted his shirt, there was so much cheering/screaming you would have thought they saw the real jimin lmao

one of the coolest fans I saw there was this yoongi fan dressed exactly the way yoongi was in the fire mv. (the orange/yellow shirt with the palm trees). honestly so amazing, I wanted to compliment them but I was much too far away. so, dear yoongi fan, if you happen to be reading this post, awesome outfit I love you. *(originally I had a pic of them up, and even though it’s blurry af and their face isn’t showing, I felt a little uncomfortable having a pic of a stranger on my blog without them knowing/allowing. took me almost 5 years to grasp that one.)*

I was disappointed when, just before the show began, they announced that no videos/pictures/live streams were allowed or else you may be kicked out. I tried to listen for the most part. (I managed some videos/pictures. my girlfriend got recordings of mama, awake, stigma, and dope).

the show~

hearing that first note of not today as the curtain dropped sent my heartbeat off the charts. I think I blacked out during that performance because all I remember is tae (wagging his rude ass finger and his rude ass eyebrow lift and his bandana and my girlfriend stumbling backwards because of him) and of course hobi. tbh I think I blacked out during most of the concert because I could not believe that I was in the same room as hobi and all of bangtan, I couldn’t believe they were real and so close to me. but here’s what I can remember:

yoongi made me cry. first love was such a powerful performance. I could really feel all of yoongi’s passion, and since it’s my favorite solo, one that I really connect with emotionally, I couldn’t contain my tears. especially thinking about how far yoongi has come. while he was performing I just kept remembering how he used to really struggle to be able eat, how he struggled through mental illness, how he had to work unbelievably hard to get to that stage in chicago. to me it looked like his eyes were a little watery at the end of the song, but maybe I saw wrong. all I know is he made me feel so much, and I love him more than I ever have.

seokjin made me cry. the way he looked during/after performing awake hit me hard. he questions whether or not he can ‘fly’ like the other members, but he was stood on that stage hearing us all cheer and scream for him. we were being so loud for him, and I saw him crying at the end. the fact that he couldn’t help but cry at the sight of all his fans, people who love him and believe in him and support him, there to see him perform, screaming all of that love right to him…it was so touching. just like yoongi, I love him more than I ever have. (plus the orchestra during that performance was damn beautiful).

namjoon made me cry. I didn’t think this would happen. I’ve always loved namjoon, but he’s never made me cry before. hobi, yoongi, and seokjin have, but not joonie. but as he performed reflection, when he said “I wish I could love myself” and we all chanted “we love you”…I had to cry. it was so incredibly beautiful. army spoke as one, and for once I felt like all the love I felt for him/bangtan was being communicated. not to mention the beautiful whale/space background. I will never forget that stage. (also he ran into the phone booth from the short film and actually answered the phone, transitioning into stigma which made me cry too).

kookie is self aware. cutting right to the chase, kookie had on some beautiful bunny ears at one point. he knows he’s a bunny, we all know it and he knows it too. before this show my mind battled with the fact that he’s a bunny but seems like he’s rude often enough to raise questions. but tbh, he didn’t act rude/sexy as much as I expected. he was more passionate vocally and in his zone, very smooth and pretty. even his voice is much cuter than I expected. that paired with his bunny ears has me convinced he’s mainly still cute/soft guy. (also his choreo for begin was amazing, I loved it so much).

jimin+lie is my aesthetic. those red lights were honestly so gorgeous. jimin’s choreo, his blindfold (which is both my k*nk and aesthetic though it didn’t stay around long at all), and his voice had me so shook. he is truly a performer, and the lie stage really drew attention to that. aesthetic af.

taehyung’s high notes could deliver my soul to heaven. stigma messed me right up, it made me remember just how great the song is and how great tae’s delivery is. it was obvious that he was feeling the performance. and honestly, his voice is more beautiful in person. when he hit those high notes I think I shed a tear. my girlfriend blacked out for a majority of stigma. (at one point I think she snapped back into reality because she suddenly screamed when no one else was screaming, probably trying to catch up all her excitement or something).

their stage presence. I already mentioned that kook’s stage presence was different than expected, less sexy and more innocent/pretty. he’s cute and I honestly can’t remember a time when he did anything rude. same with jimin. jimin wasn’t overly sexy, I mean his jacket started to fall off again and he had the blindfold, and near the end he smirked and said, “did you like that?” but mostly he was so damn adorable. and small, too. jimin has a graceful presence, kind of calm at times. he flashed a lot of two handed hearts and even kissed into the mic at one point. I always knew he was small, but he seems smaller in person. that brings me to little yoongi. I honestly expected yoongi to be my soft and adorable cloud, but wow was he showing his aggressive side. “LOUDER.” excuse me min yoongi, no more growling ‘louder’ for you, I want to live, thanks. apart from first love, which had him calmer, yoongi was more energetic/aggressive than I was ready for. he’s kind of bold and I really enjoyed his performances. my favorite yoongi moment was when he took his lil earpiece out during introductions and did his signature hand-behind-ear/eyes-closed thing as he listened to our cheers. so cocky, so attractive, so iconic. namjoon didn’t surprise me too much really, I was just really proud of his communication to the fans. seokjin also didn’t surprise me, I just loved seeing him run around all happy and smiley and full of energy. (seokjin’s dangly earrings were so sexy I will never be over them). tae was a bit more serious during the concert, I expected more smiling but I think he was just really in the zone. he did a lot of eyebrow things and finger things and all around rude, sexy things. near the end he smiled and said, “I love you…I really love you!” that made me feel so very warm.

hobi. I know I know, you were all waiting for me to mention hoseok! honestly, I don’t even know where to start. first off, he is so damn gorgeous. his voice, his presence, him. the most gorgeous boy in the world. tbh hobi is the performer of bangtan. his mama stage was so energetic and bright and passionate. the choreo saved my soul, his voice enlightened me, his smile made my vision blur. when he slowed down and emphasized the “ttang wi geu mueosi nopda hario” part I think I felt my heart grow. he was meant to be on stage, and he loves every second of it. he was like that with every song really. boy in luv, when he jumped over them for his verse…wow. when he rapped his verse in dope !!!!!! bless. boy meets evil kind of murdered me because that is my k*nk and I saw it in the flesh. everything he did was incredible. and he is a rude man. the amount of smirks and rude body movements he did was unforgivable, and at the end of one of the performances he turned away from the camera and wiped his damn lips with his beautiful hand. I cried he is even more rude and unnecessarily sexy in person. but even when he was being pure I was dying. let me highlight my favorite hobi moments:

“I’m your hope…” okay listen. listen. “I’m your hope. you’re my hope. I’m j-hope!” why did he have to say that and be so damn cute that was literally the best moment of my entire life I screamed I cried I think I started imploding or something because holy hell that was amazing. wow I fell so in love with him in that moment.

hobi’s new hat. I don’t remember what they were coming out on stage for, but suddenly hobi had on a black and white shark hat. immediately I screamed because it was so damn cute. then namjoon asked about it and hobi was like, “yeahhh. I bought this hat.” AND HE SAID IT IN THE CUTEST DAMN VOICE EVER. guys…he is the cutest boy, that hat was the cutest thing. he bought it at the aquarium and I suddenly imagined a cute lil hobi going to buy it with a huge smile on his face. there is nothing more pure in this entire world. he even let seokjin wear it and my heart melted.

I love hobi more now. “but carter, you were 100% certified hoseok trash before the show.” yes, I was. and somehow I’m even more in love with my favorite boy. seeing him live (and sin in person help) was all I could have ever wished for, and I’m so happy I got to do it. (and I’m glad that my wedding was so beautiful and that I’m now married to jung hoseok my light. march 29).

cypher 4. I forgot how much I loved cypher 4 until it started playing and those 3 lovely boys rose up from the floor of the stage. hoseok looked like a sugar daddy, yoongi growled the night away and looked great and cocky doing it, and joonie really slayed me. when they splashed the water and threw the bottles I not only died but died twice. cypher 4 saved my life and that was my favorite performance of the night. I jumped like a madman.

bangtan jacked all the water and sprite from best western’s vending machine. after the show, my girlfriend and I got back to the hotel and immediately searched for a drink. upon trying to purchase water and sprite and finding those were the only two drinks sold out, we concluded that bangtan needed more water to throw during cypher and hobi needed his fix of sprite, so they jacked it from the best western. kinda rude, I was thirsty.

random comments. the vcrs were gorgeous. seeing a mix of hyyh and the wings short films gave me such a nostalgic feeling. I remember when “one heart shared by seven boys, a boy that shares seven hearts” showed on the screen at the end, and I cried. there was a lot in that vcr but I really can only accurately recall that part. it really hit home, and from that point on the tears didn’t stop. hobi singing in spring day really got to me. I remember when the song first came out, how much I loved it but was heartbroken that my favorite boy didn’t have a moment in such a special song, so seeing him sing it live meant so so much to me. I couldn’t believe I got to be so lucky. 21st century girls was amazing. yoongi/tae singing “all my ladies, put your hands up/now scream” was a religious experience. (i may not be a lady but my hands were in the damn air). hobi saying “you’re mine” had me on my knees almost. such a great thing to witness. the medley of older songs was true art. it was great to have that little flashback. the rainbow army bombs during encore were enough to make me fall in love with being a bangtan fan. it was truly a beautiful sight and I loved that moment. 2! 3! was so touching. hearing the english speaking crowd try to sing those korean lyrics so passionately is something I’ll never forget. such an important moment during such an important song. and lastly, namjoon asking, “stay with us ‘til the end?” I can’t even describe how that made me feel. I’ll always be with bangtan.

all in all it was so very amazing. I wish I could live through it again because it was one of the best nights of my life. thank you bangtan for being such an amazing force in my life. thank you for putting on such an amazing show and working so hard doing what you love. and thank you hobi for being such a positive and beautiful person for me to know.

march 29, 2017 was unforgettable~

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okay so i woke up to discover i've finally reached 3k!!!! honestly this is just incredible and i'm so happy & in so much shock and i just needed to celebrate (despite the fact i'm already backlogged with requests) (oops + yikes)

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