#like my mom proved the point that she prioritizes her religion over any emotional damage she caused me | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nunyverse-scribe · 4 months ago

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Me when my head is pounding from crying over a conversation that kinda just reinforced all the shittiness I went through while also throwing me for a loop on whether or not I’m valid for feeling the way I feel, but I have to repress all of that bc ✨employed citizen✨

#do you know how shitty it is to be feigning some sense of energy while my parents’ words are rotating in my head #like my mom proved the point that she prioritizes her religion over any emotional damage she caused me #but then minutes later she comforted me and let me cry in her arms and asked softly if later (aka after work) I wanted to talk #and it’s just like…#what the fuck am I supposed to do #like to an extent she seems remorseful #but at the same time she doesn’t seem to understand the scope of the pain & refuses to acknowledge that she’s a big part in the pain #and my dad…#my dad is being an asshole & doesn’t understand ANYTHINg I fucking say but then he says shit and I start to doubt my own judgment #I need to leave but I don’t want to abandon my sisters in this hellhole #especially since rn they’re like the main target of aggression #I was originally gonna like reach out to ppl ik abt this but like then it became an hour or two passing (bc again—at work)#& I gave up on the idea of venting #idk #I’m tired #I need all my siblings to just escape #I need EVERYONE to be free from this shitshow #I wonder constantly how happier my parents would be without kids #vent #venting #rant

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