#like lowkey i feel ostracized from my class and especially from my friend group

[goatboard]

sorry for venting so much on this blog recently but im not gonna stop

[musicallisto]

hi i was wondering if i could request a percy jackson, harry potter, & mcu ship? i am a gryffindor who strives to do the right thing & can tackle any given challenge; i am a child of apollo; i'm kind-hearted, supportive, & friendly - and very ambiverted. i like reading, daydreaming, & being with my friends; i tend to fall in love with my friends. my favorite classes are language ones & i hate math so much. if there's one thing i wish i could do forever, is travel & see the world. thanks!

I Ship You With...

Luke Castellan (Percy Jackson)

Luke is already pretty bold and reckless on his own, but his bravery gets multiplied when he’s with you. You have the kind of energy that gives him confidence to tackle anything, but at the same time you’re there to keep him grounded and rationalize his hubris. When he gets the idea of something too arrogant or stupid, like, I don’t know, bringing the Titans back to life as payback against the gods for being selfish divas, you advise him against it pretty adamantly. It’s true that he sometimes gets caught up in his grand ideas of revenge and glory, but you remind him that there’s no point in all of that, and that if he gets some funny ideas you’ll be there to pry them away from him in an instant.

Luke may be a charismatic leader, but that doesn’t mean he enjoys the company of others - he’s more of an introvert, actually. But he enjoys spending time with you, even when he’s drained, because you don’t feel like another presence, rather a comforting source of light, finally a beacon of hope sent by fate so he doesn’t go mad. Also, talking with you is a way for him not to wallow in his hatred and ire.

You help him open up to your friends, and to the rest of Camp Half-Blood. After ostracizing himself, turning his back on his former friends, and not dealing properly with his grief after Thalia’s disappearance, you’re able to help him reconcile with his past and his old wounds. You’re not here to heal him, and you make it clear, but he’s motivated to be more open and affable when you’re around. Your friendliness is inspiring, and he finds out that he actually wants to be a par of the warm dynamics inside your close-knit group of friends. It takes a litle while, but Luke is finally able to trust and love other people without fear of being abandoned, like his father did to him.

Still, there’s no one he’ll trust or love as much as you.

Sirius Black (Marauders Era)

Well, your relationship is not necessarily what most people would have bet on at Hogwarts. Actually, it took a few years after leaving school for you two to finally get together, although those with the keenest eyes had been able to decipher the strange tension between you two. Sure, you were friends, but your personalities so different - you so very sweet and kind, somewhat popular but far from cocky, hardworking student and bookworm; and him, not a bad apple by any means, but definitely much less well-behaved. You, pastel tones; him, neon hues. Well, turns out it worked, and much better than anyone anticipated - even his friends.

You notice a rise in your creativity when you start dating Sirius, especially when it comes to your poems and general writing. It’s as if you’ve finally found your muse, and you overflow with words to describe him, to elevate him, to love him in the best manner you can. Sirius reads and loves every single one of your poems, but he loves them even more when you slip them in his things in the morning without him noticing. Whenever he leaves your shared apartment to go to work or something and he finds the familiar parchment with your perfume still adorning it, he can’t stop the huge smile from spreading on his face.

When it’s his friends from Hogwarts he’s out to meet, they obviously tease him about how much of a softie he’s become, and at first he will try to defend himself because that’s what guys do when they’re with their friends, they become ten percent dumber, but at some point he’ll just admit with a chuckle that he doesn’t mind being a softie if he gets to be with you. To which James will pretend to gag, until Remus reminds him of all the scenes they had to suffer through - Lily this, Lily that -, and he eventually shuts up.

That’s alright - you can be softies together.

Peter Parker

Peter is so cute and sweet that it practically takes him half a million years to admit his feelings for you. By then, you had guessed them already, and it didn’t come as a surprise to you at all. To be fair, the boy isn’t especially subtle either... but it was a lot of fun to see him struggle to hide his true feelings and the blush that crept on his cheeks whenever you would cross paths in the hallways.

Needless to say, he’s more than relieved when you tell him that you share the feelings, and that you’re more than eager to go on a date with him. He thought he might have to do some convincing and that, he was definitely not ready for.

Your first date is simple and lowkey, merely grabbing milkshakes at a cute but still active place in SoHo, and talking about your common interests and your childhoods. Coincidentally, the spot you chose for your date happens to be on a street where a tremendous amount of dogs pass by. There may have been a lot more dog petting than actual deep conversation. Well, who said petting dogs together is not a bonding activity? At least you learned that Peter is a dog person - actually, he’s an animal person, and you couldn’t be happier about that.

You go on other dates with him, each more fun than the last, if it’s even possible. Your favorite remains the one where you went to a karaoke bar with him and discovered that he knew the lyrics to a lot more Ariana Grande songs than you imagined. Your rendition of Into You might have been horrible, but at least you had a lot of fun, and now you know what artist you’ll be desperately awaiting tickets for when she comes to Madison Square Garden.

[sorjomagazine]

by Fabliha Anbar

Walking down in a field of sunflowers, a young woman with a black shirt tucked underneath a cherry red flowy dress passes by. In one hand, she holds a camera, and a notebook filled with untold stories laced in nostalgia in the other. 

photo credit: @@taraolaa

Meet Tara Olayeye. A 22 year old filmmaker and content creator who grew up in the suburbs of Texas. Tara, also known as taraola, uses her storytelling ability and visual art to convey her messages and experiences involving friendships, racism, entering adulthood and Black girlhood. Although the message she’s presenting can be intense and can bring back painful memories, she still provides fun femininity and an nostalgic energy in her short films. 

Tara’s short films have captured thousands of hearts, specifically more than 14,000 subscribers on her Youtube channel, and quickly gained attention. In Spring of 2017, she co founded Emory University’s first female production group, FemmeFilms, whose first film Petals won a Jury Award, the Silver Tripod award at Campus Movie Fest 2017 and was even nominated for a National Golden Tripod Award. 

With her art, Tara connects to young souls and reassures teens, especially teens of color, that they’re not alone. 

Creator and Editor in Chief of Sorjo Magazine, Fabliha Anbar, talked to Tara about how she finds inspiration to create films, the importance of storytelling and how she navigates her space in social media as a young black artist. 

FABLIHA ANBAR: When and how did you start having an interest in creating short films?

TARA OLAYEYE:  It’s kind of weird because I never really had a huge interest in making films. It’s only become a recent passion. I mean, I’ve always been a fan of movies and music videos and stuff, but I never thought to actually make my own stories until a few of my friends in college kind of forced me to take a narrative film making class with them fall of 2016. I had been making videos on Youtube before taking this class, but I was super intimidated and nervous to start this class because I had no idea what stories I wanted to share and how to make a film. I thought of film making as this thing that had a set of rules and practices, like there was a linear, standard way to make a film. But after I made my first narrative film, I started realizing that film making really can be a personal and artistic journey and I instantly fell in love with it.

photo credit: @@taraolaa

  FABLIHA: Your short films have a distinct artistic style promoting fun femininity and youth in teenage girls of today. What or who influenced and inspired you to develop your aesthetic? 

TARA: Not one thing or person really inspires the artistic style of my short films. I’m really inspired by so much and try to seek inspiration everywhere. I’m really inspired by music that I can dance or slay to, bright colors, nostalgia, and energy.

  photos credit: @taraolaa

FABLIHA: The short films you have created explores a wide array of topics that young teens face on a daily basis. Issues from sex, friendships, and even being the token black friend. Why do you think it’s important to emphasize on these topics?

TARA: Emphasizing these topics are important because of how relatable they are. These are real stories that are often silenced or minimized. I feel like it’s so necessary to shine light on these types of conversations and conflicts because seeing yourself/your struggle in film (or media in general) can really be a healing tool and it helps you feel less alone.

Tara created a short film called Token, which explores microaggressions black teens face. She says;

“I made this film to express and reflect on racially charged microaggressions and inner turmoil that I have dealt with growing up and I still deal with (Kemi O is lowkey baby me! surprise!). I hope that this project can work as a voice for all the black kids out there that don’t want to speak up/defend themselves because of the fear of being severely misunderstood and ostracized. Your choices are valid! AND I hope that this project will spark conversations about these issues.”

Watch Token here:

  FABLIHA: Each of your videos are completely original and holds their own stories with beautiful visuals as well with an inspiring narrative. Take us through your creative process and your routine of how you think of ideas for short films.

TARA: I don’t really have a process. Honestly each journey to make a short film is so different. I do a lot of brainstorming, just writing down ideas even if they aren’t the best. Hearing a song that I really like [helps makes me] grow super connected [and also] ignites ideas as well. Once I have a solid idea and write up a script I ALWAYS make a moodboard! . This is one of my favorite parts because I love visuals and figuring out the look and feel I want for a film project.

FABLIHA: Who are some other content creators (artists, writers, poets, Youtubers, etc.) that you’ve been interested in lately? Who are you inspired by?

TARA: I’ve been really intrigued by this band called St. Beauty. I haven’t actually listened to their music but there was a clip from one of their music videos that I saw on Instagram that blew my mind.

Content creators and fellow young artists that I’m forever inspired by are; Julia Ling Kelleher, Rian Phin, Glenda Lissette, Mark Aghatise and Mostyle. I’m also incredibly inspired by Issa Rae and Solange.

FABLIHA: You’ve posted a video a while back called ‘Internet Fame and Why It’s Discriminatory/Racist’ exploring the limited options for marginalized groups on social media and explained how popular social media influencers get the attention they receive mainly because they’re white and conventionally attractive. How do you navigate and create visibility for yourself on the internet while also creating a safe space for people of color with your short films?

TARA: I feel like I navigate and create visibility for myself by just being me. By creating what I want to create and doing what I want to do with my art. Being both black and a woman on the internet is a challenge and can be terrifying at times. I’ve experienced the fear and anxiety that comes when people attack you simply because you’re black and a woman demanding space online, but out of love for myself and a desire to share stories that people like me can relate to, I’ll continue to raise my voice by creating what feels right for me.

FABLIHA: Do you have any advice for young creators who are having difficulty getting through their creative block and are trying to navigate their own style?

TARA: Creative blocks are tough but trying to fight it or resists can make it worst. Just embrace the fact that it’s happening, it’s all a part of process and it will pass. 

My advice for finding your own style would be to really tap into yourself as you make your art. It’s so easy to look at other creators (especially online) and feel pressured to make work that’s similar but honestly your greatest power as a creator is your personal perspective. If what you want to make isn’t trendy or super “in” at the moment, that’s fine. Do what feels right for you. If you have no idea what your style even is, I think the best way to find it is to just create. Even if you’re not happy with what you’re making. Just create. No one knows what they’re doing or going when they begin! The most important thing is that you’re creating something. You’ll be surprised by how your personal style naturally unfolds and blooms.

FABLIHA: Lastly, what are your long term goal(s)?

TARA: I’m really just taking life one step at a time so I don’t really have any super long term goals. I just want to continue creating and growing as an artist and filmmaker and see where my work and creative energy takes me.

It’s easy to get lost in the world and feel as though you’re alone. Thanks to Tara and her extraordinary magical art, she’s breaking barriers while constantly connecting to thousands of teen souls with a camera in one hand and a notebook filled with untold stories laced in nostalgia in the other. 

Subscribe to her channel here & 

follow her on instagram @taraolaa

Meet this young filmmaker who’s connecting to teen souls through storytelling

by Fabliha Anbar Walking down in a field of sunflowers, a young woman with a black shirt tucked underneath a cherry red flowy dress passes by.

Meet this young filmmaker who’s connecting to teen souls through storytelling by Fabliha Anbar Walking down in a field of sunflowers, a young woman with a black shirt tucked underneath a cherry red flowy dress passes by.