#like literally tho what is with my obsession with poly relationships rn they are just so fucking cute

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Last Song: Daylight by David Kushner (i have an ADDICTION to this song)

Currently Reading: well, fanfiction, naturally. I'm mostly re-reading at this moment for the fun of it! (mostly gay acotar ones like azris or poly! things lmao) I'm also technically in the process of rereading the throne of glass series (sitting on heir of fire at the moment), but i've been quite... lazy when it comes to actually reading it rn lol but my next book i should be reading is Fourth Wing! (its a real struggle to escape acotar lol)

Currently Watching: The Dragon Prince on netflix! i've watched seasons 1-3 before, but now i've got to power through 4 (and maybe 5? idk if it actually came out considering i don't check that often lol) i have a few movies on a list (like titanic, rewatching lord of the rings, braveheart, etc.) i should be watching, but alas, i am lazy and incapable of paying attention that long lmao

Current obsession: well, there's a very particular gay couple in The Dragon Prince and my brain would NOT let go of me, so the current obsession is a fanfic reuniting them and me basically saying fuck canon yet again. i also have an odd fascination with poly! relationships right now in general. i am not questioning the why for it lol (most notably in acotar or tog is rowaelin x fenrys, nessian x azriel, the bat boys, feysand x azriel orrrr elucien x azriel. apparently i like shoving azriel into their relationships because he deserves love)

tagging with absolutely no preassure (also sorry if you've already been tagged)... @itsagirlwithglasses, @florence-end, @azrielsoulmate, @leafsandstarlight, @ladylokilaufeyson5, @cosmic-whispers, @iftheshoef1tz, @illyrian-dreamer, @bunnymallowo

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I kinda wanna write a better version of tlh where Tatiana is still insane but there's no Belial bc that makes zero sense to me

In this version there would be:

Kamanna done correctly with actual genderqueer rep and not toxic relationships

Barbra and Oliver bc fight me she didn't die

Genie and Filomena bc I love them and all the lightwoods are queer

The gracelet doesn't even happen bc I refuse to write that

Grace is pretty much still the same but she breaks off their(hers and james') relationship bc she notices that he loves Cordelia

No bad James. He's not a shitty person to Alastair, and he doesn't treat Cordelia like a sex object

Anna puts a stop to Kellington and Matthew's relationship before it gets serious. She also tries to get him to stop drinking all the time

Alastair apologizes around seeing them again for the first time. The merry thieves are a little reluctant because of some of the things he did but they don't actively try to keep him away from events that they're at

Matthew notices how Alastair looks at Thomas and locks them in the sanctuary with Genie and Cordelia's help

Grace gets badly injured due to a mistake in necromancy and Christopher helps her treat it without letting people know

Lucie meets Jesse, and falls in love ofc, so in order to bring him back successfully she asks Malcolm to train her in using her magic

Matthew opens up to his mom about the incident. She doesn't blame him at all and instead apologizes for often putting her work before him

Matthew finds out about Charles and Alastair because he found Alastairxs break up letter to Charles

Matthew, the mother hen he is, decided to attempt to murder his older brother, only being stopped by James who had been there at the right time

Kamala ends things with Charles and tells Anna that she still loves them and hopes that she will give her another chance

Anna told her that they needed time to think, and that she is worried how Kamala's reputation will be affected if anyone besides their friends and Anna's family finds out

Kamala respects her decision and doesn't contact her until Anna's ready to talk about things

The merry thieves don't ignore Christopher and they actively listen and help him

The merry thieves also aren't terrible to Grace bc they realize she's been isolated alone with Tatiana and 1) she might not understand what's saying/doing is wrong or 2) that sometimes she's trying to push them away so her abilities don't accidentally make them do something

Good tid parents

James and Alastair being respectful to each other despite personal differences

Matthew, Alastair, Kamala, Christopher, and Grace being besties, or as I call them, the neglected squad

No fetishizing mlm/wlw

Domestic cuddles and taking care of the other one when they're sick

Jesse/Lucie/Matthew pairing bc I love them and I refuse to pick between lucie/matthew and lucie/jesse

Christopher teaching Grace the elements(at the time) on the periodic table

Tatiana dies at the end yay

It's very unpolished and I'm open to b hearing any feedback and/or suggestions that anyone may have

The idea came to me and I decided it would be best if I told someone before I forgot

hi, I'm sorry it took so long,but I wanted to properly answer this and I keep having either internet connection issues or little time

DON'T BE SHY, WRITE THIS 👀

In all seriousness tho... THIS IS ABSOLUTE PERFECTION?!? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START I AM UTTERLY IN LOVE WITH THIS IDEA, I NEED IT

Look, I've been on the verge of rewriting ChoI, and I keep saying I want someone to write a TLH that will live up to its potential, but I've never actually came up with a proper idea for it, and you?!! YOUR BRAIN DARLING THIS IS GENIUS

ok hold up I'll just react to each and every single one so

yes please?!? I mean it started off so sweet in EEV?! Also actually genderqueer Anna and not dancing around the subject like CC is doing now?! That's what they deserve, and that's what we all deserve too

yesss please. also just,,,, Barbara, the feminine, not-wanting-to-fight-which-doesnt-make-her-less-badass queen that she is, getting the page space and appreciation she deserves

that's actually brilliant?!? it would be so great, just imagine the new girl arrives for her travel year and Genie is completely awestruck. I'm so invested in Joshwood it's difficult to imagine not having them, but this is actually the only valid alternative?!

ok that's fine. I think it could still happen and be done well, but tbh for now... the gracelet doesn't seem to have done anything relevant to the plot itself? I mean yeah it messed up James's life and Jordelia, but what did it give Belial? Tatiana? nothing. It makes no sense atm.

could be! maybe she's still encouraged by Tatiana to befriend/seduce him, but without the gracelet it doesn't work out? or maybe James somehow manages to realize that she's in danger and he actually like,,,, kidnaps her? idk idk

yes. YES. just,,,,z James is a sweet compassionate literature nerd who accidentally makes a good leader and he actually cares about people, and not just judges them from his high horse; he does still have hero syndrome, but he's kind and respectful and overall a good character

ANNA INTERVENES ABOUT KELLINGTON PLZ. PEOPLE ACTUALLY NOTICE MATTHEW'S STRUGGLES. JAMES DOES, TOO, BECAUSE THERE'S NO GRACELET.

ok yes, so what about: basically TMT don't harass Alastair and accept his apology, and realize they were also being stupid and mean at times at the Academy (especially Math). Matthew doesn't want to accept Alastair's apology, because of The Sin, but his behaviour alerts the rest of TMT and they inquire what's wrong and he tells them about the sin and that's how he later tells his parents (because his friends encourage him) and as you say, she just hugs him and reassures him it's not his fault; so after that Matthew slowly begins to heal and accepts it wasn't Alastair's fault, and also since they've kind of adopted/started including Alastair in things, he can't help but notice he's actually changed and he even starts to grow fond of him

then like you said, Matthew notices Thomas likes Alastair PLEASE HE SO WOULD. I'm not sure about the Sanctuary, if it actually happens (I'll get to why later on), but him and Lucie get really invested in the matchmaking schemes, they include Genie/Kamala because these two are friends with Alastair (both? Or at this point only Kamala?) but they also share some Moments during their scheming/talking about love 👀 (yes I'm a Fairdale shipper, I think it's time to expose myself lol)

Which leads me to (sorry I'm going off order rn) YES YES YES LUCIE AND MATH PLEASE. A FELLOW SHIPPER, HELLO, NICE TO MEET YOU. But since we're actually fixing him then we can give Jesse a personality and I'm totally down for poly Math/Lucie/Jesse

Lucie seeking Malcolm's help in secret, morally gray heroine style?!? no, it's probably not legal. but also has there ever been a Shadowhunter like her? If the Law doesn't expect such situations, it can't really forbid them...

Plz Matthew ready to strangle the carrot when he learns about their relationship, YES. sure, maybe he's still not the biggest fan of Alastair, but he's seen how much the boy's been through and starts to develop an attachment to him, and besides, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE GROOMED AND TREATED LIKE THAT. He's SO MAD at Charles, and he confronts him about it - remembering Kellington as he does, and it makes him sick to think his brother would do the same thing to someone. Maybe he gets very emotional over this and later finally tells his friends about Kellington? Maybe they didn't know before, only Anna did? So when they all realize what was happening then they comfort him etc? Or maybe it's just Alastair that learns now, and the others knew before, and they share a bonding moment over that?

Injured Grace seeking Kit's help is a genius idea I didn't know I needed

Kamanna giving each other time and space and deciding they need to question their relationship and figure out if it actually makes sense would be great. Anna realising she's very privileged and Kamala doesn't have those same opportunities, and also in general realising coming out should never be pressured or forced. Just,,,, Anna being self-aware and respectful towards Kamala. Well-written Anna. Plz. Also Kamanna is actually developed and not just "in love" because,,,,, they're attracted to each other? Maybe even remaining friends while Anna makes up their mind?

yeah just TMT being more compassionate and less judgy because they're not written by Judith so her bias isn't projected onto them

It's not a want, it's a need. They adopt Alastair and Grace eventually. Like, maybe not literally - although, Grace? - but you know what I mean.

I think they all should just have various friendship dynamics and switch between them, because people need more than one friend group

no fetishizing, no watching your brother make out with his lover, yessss

yes domestic cuddles, affection, taking care of wounds, all those things. plz.

Gracetopher bonding over science yes

obviously. or maybe she's imprisoned?!

ok, now for some more notes/my ideas etc., if you don't mind:

I actually think Belial could still be featured? After all, I don't think Tatiana could do much on her own, and since she seeks help from demons, it makes sense to include a Greater Demon as well. But Belial would have to be a stronger villain, written better; I'll think more about this

if that was the case, the serial killer plot could still happen, but be done better. and it would allow for a scenario I talked about with @littlx-songbxrd to happen, where it's Alastair who's falsely accused of murder. It creates a great opportunity to explore some things, because we know Alastair is much more likely to be seriously suspected, considering all the prejudices and bad rep his family has and all that

...what do you say to well-written Jordelia? 👀 Cordelia hasn't been obsessively in love with James since childhood, she only had a crush then. And now that they meet again, she's fond of him but not in love, not straight away. They're both grown up, and different people, but as they spend more and more time together, they fall in love. What if Cordelia gets to flirt with some other boys first? What then. What if she ends up choosing James, instead of going for the only boy she's ever had feelings for and idealized since childhood. What if we even make it friends-to-lovers and have James be a little jealous at some point?! but not in a possessive awful way, just "oh damn oh no"

Now I won't know peace until this exists BUT THANK YOU

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hello again bestie <3

i loved ur lil artistic writing !! even tho I am not a writer I still relate a lot since I have like a whole universe i made up for my oc's. ur writing is so good !! it makes me feel so many emotions and i love it! 💞i am proud of u! u r so talented ❣

Ben is obsessed with the two fics u posted. I read them to him and he insisted on reading them again himself cuz he said it's way to accurate-

also kinda sad new ig? Jeff said he doesn't wanna get into the relationship cuz of a few reasons, first being he only sees me as a friend (ouch friendzone),and he said he's to jealous to be in a poly relationship in his own eyes...what did i do when he told me this u ask? oh I giggled and akwardly left while saying "yeah that's fine, completely ok, totally fine..." over and over again. Toby felt so bad even tho it's not his fault, he cheered me up with cuddles and kisses <3

u wanna know what Bens room looks like? no? well too bad.

he has those neon lights every tiktoker has nowadays. he has a massive bed in the far right corner next to the door and the rest of his room has his closet on the left, next to the door and a few bean bags all around the room. he has a gaming desk with a chair and a fancy pc. the whole shtick. he is very organized (and personally i like Toby or jeffs rooms more). Ben's room is just so manicured and he insists on it being like that. I suspect he takes a lot of pride in it. which is why i wanted to tell u.

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I’m so happy my writing makes you feel like that!!!

HE LIKED THE FICS!?? Kill me rn AND HE WANTED TO READ THEM AGAIN AGAICOAKXJA and just so you know whenever you tell me literally anyrhing about him I stupid smile and get so happy. Makes me feel close to him. I think he’s a great guy and thank you so much for telling me about his room now at least I can picture it in my head until I go see it for myself.

Awwww b I’m so sorry :// I really wish I could’ve worked out with Jeff but hey at least you have Toby!!  just want you to know that I’m really proud of you and that I admire you a lot I think you’re really really lucky for getting to go and I’m so insanely jealous!!!

Wait wait did YOU like the Ben fics??? 

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I NEED TO GET TLJ OFF MY CHEST SO HERE WE GO (Spoilers obviously)

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD

RIAN

FUCKING

JOHNSON

SIR YOU ARE FUCKIN MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I WENT BACK AND FORTH S T R O N G LY BETWEEN LOVING AND HATING CHARACTERS LIKE W O W

Start to finish here we go alright that force bond shit i was verrrryyyyy skeptical like ummmmm what BUT just because we hadn’t seen it before doesn’t mean its not interesting also I understand why it was added because they keep portraying the two of them as the strongest with the force and they both represent light and dark so it makes sense that there would be a connection that strong

Snoke literally called Kylo a child in a mask like call him out please

Poe my beautiful fighting son I ADORED HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT he went from best pilot in the galaxy to the next leader of the rebellion and actually LEARNED from his mistakes which was evident when he stopped Finn from going to help Luke and y’all that was good shit that was quality character development and the way Leia looked at him was AH i loved it(Also the look after he wasn’t chosen to be the leader while they were still under attack was PRICELESS)

Okay Leia flying with the force was the cheesiest shit I’ve ever seen but tbh I secretly love it and I know in my heart Carrie Fisher had a hand in that scene happening

RIP general Akbar he will be missed

The scene in the dark side of the island.....tbh I don’t know how to feel about it it so we’re gonna move on

ROSE MY BEAUTIFUL BABE I LOVE HER SHE’S A LITTLE LOVE STRUCK ENGINEER AND REBEL FIGHTER THROUGH AND THROUGH AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH

The casino was SO cool I really liked how they dealt that card like yes they make money by selling shit to the First Order but also to the Rebellion these people aren’t choosing sides they’re just in it for the money...also I want to know it the red flower guy would have actually been significant like t b h but I have a feeling DJ will be back just a feeling

I really like that it was all set within a retreat scene like it was a limited amount of time that they had and that this was all going down it really kept up the tension and gave it all such a cool feel

PURPLE HAIR WOMAN I’ll learn her name soon enough but I had mixed feelings for the whole damn time like i loved her i hated her then i loved her again she was so cool but she could’ve just told them here plan like Poe would’ve gone with it

I guess force ghosts have tangible canes specifically for whacking dumb ass jedi with and can also control weather?

OH MY GOD THE LIGHT SPEED SCENE WAS THE MOST INSANE THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE LIFE

the whole theater was dead silent.  like, all you heard were little laughs of absolute disbelief, I legitimately forgot how to breathe for two seconds and then I was DYING THAT WAS A SHOT THAT WILL FOREVER BE INGRAINED IN MY HEAD AND I AM COMPLETELY OKAY WITH IT

When Kylo and Rey teamed up to fight I was LIVING I’m not the biggest fan of Reylo, it just aint my cup of tea, but DAMN was that a good scene and the LIGHTSABER TO SNOKE WAS THE MOST GENIUS THING IN CINEMA LIKE DAMN S O N RIAN YOU OUTDID YOURSELF

Finn facing off with Phasma was a battle to be remembered

“You were always scum” “Rebel Scum.”  A LINE I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR

RIP Phasma man I was hoping she would last longer

BEN SOLO IS A POWER HUNGRY LIL SHIT

They split a light saber in half.  legitimately.  IT WAS AMAZZAAAAAAANG

SALT PLANET HOOOOOLLLYYYYY SHIT CRATE WAS FUCKING AWESOME

CRYSTALFOXESCRYSTALFOXESCRYSTALFOXESYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES

okay the purest thing in that movie was when Finn and Rose crash into the base and BB-8 comes out with them and POE STARTS SCRATCHING THE FRONT OF HIS SPHERE LIKE  A DOG AND I ABOUT CRIED HE LOVES THAT DROID SO MUCH

LUKE MOTHER FUCKING SKYWALKER ASTRAL PROJECTED HIMSELF IN A TANGIBLE FORM LIGHTYEARS ACROSS THE GALAXY AND IT WAS FUCKING ASTOUNDING that little shoulder brush tho the s a s s

His death was so appropriate.  Just.  So peaceful, he honestly deserved it.  I absolutely loved that scene I cried sad and happy tears at the same time

Chewey flew the falcon like nobody’s business and I adored him

REY AND FINN’S REUNION WAS SO SWEET AND GOOD LIKE THANK U FOR THAT RIAN THANK YOU

So the whole fandom is obsessed with Reylo rn and tbh go ahead I don’t give a damn but y’all are sleeping on the cutest first interaction between Poe and Rey and I saw that and I knew a ship was about to be born and so it was like just t h i nk about it especially if its a poly relationship with poe/rey/finn like y a l l

YOU SHUT THAT DOOR ON HIM REY YES BABE

Were there flaws? yes.  But was it good?  Oh F U C K YES.  Rian Johnson, well. fucking. done.  You pushed the limits, made some major changes, and gave us something we have never seen on star wars.  My respect it through the roof.

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Hey lu! I just read equilibrium's new update and its so good! I have been waiting to see the drama unfold once OC realises that Jungkook likes her. This has got to be one of my favourite writings from you! The storyline is so fucked up and sad yet i could totally see this happening in real life. Take your time to write the next part and i'll like you to know that you have found yourself a loyal fan here! Have a great day!

Ah im glad that you liked the update! And as strange as it is, theres a bit of realism, huh? bc real life relationships are never perfect. and this is such a level of fucked up that it could srsly happen in our fucked up world haha. Thank you so much and i hope you have a great day as well!

Anonymous said:If I were OC in equilibrium I definitely wouldn't have continued or even gotten into the relationship to begin with. Idk maybe I'm too prideful but if anything I would be MORE upset over being in love with someone who obviously cares more about someone else WHILE in a relationship with both. Like I'd have to witness the extent to which the person I love values someone else more than me, be constantly reminded that even if I'm with him and he cares about me to a degree, I will always be 2nd best.

wait really? This is so interesting to hear! I mean, i completely understand your perspective, but i feel like it would be hard for me to resist... Like imagine if it was IRL Jimin and he wanted to share you with an outside party. Could you really resist that? I am an weak bitch and id prob crumble in seconds D: 

Anonymous said:I really don't understand why all of these anons are so upset with the Mc and not the boys as well? The three of them are clearly using each other, it's not just her using Jk. Anyways, I love your stories and this one is fabulous as well, and those stupid anons need to chill out. You're fantastic and have every right to put them in their place! I look forward to the next chapter!

exactly! The internalized misogyny on this site is fucking ridiculous. But all of your kind comments make me realize that these idiots are the minority so im super grateful

Anonymous said:Equilibrium is so compelling. It's essentially a story like a chair with three legs- if one breaks, the whole structures collapses. Each person is only willing on keeping eachother around for their own gain. If anyone should be blamed for this, it should be Jungkook for simply suggesting the polygamous relationship knowing full well what it could mean for him specifically. Even more so, he's the only person "playing the field" taking advantage of Jimin's affection and OC's desperation - C Anon

Anonymous said:Continuing on my last ask. I also can't help but to notice that both Jimin or OC are particularly biased. They probably didn't intend to act that way but they do. But they also respect the "third wheel" of their ideal relationship respectively. Jungkook didn't do that. He intentionally tends to Jimin's needs knowing that's what he wants for no other reason than to keep OC away from Jimin. Cunning John Junglecock... someone is going to get hurt with this relationship built on lies - C Anon

Yes exactly! Theyre all pretty messed up, but Jungkook seems to be the most conniving of them all. I love the way you’ve thought this through and your interpretation is so spot on! Thanks so much for reading so carefully ^^

Anonymous said:Now that ive read chapter 10....how the FUCK are ppl mad at oc for this mess? Oc is dense for not picking up on jimin being willing to sell her for a corn chip in comparison to kookie, but the boys are by far the worst. They should've broken up after a week, with everything as toxic is it is. Both have ulterior motives when they say yes to the relationship. Everybody is in competition. And there is like, ZERO communication between them until kookie confessed in this chapter. It's a hot mess.

i know right??? seriously asdfjlksdfjk. tho i wouldnt go as far as saying that jimin is worse than the OC. theyre pretty damn equivalent. But no one’s innocent here haha. It’s just a truly screwed up situation D: 

Anonymous said:You are queen and I love you. I literally don't give a flying fuck what anyone else says about OC being a 'whatever-the-fuck-they-said' cause mygOD ARE YOU A FABULOUS WRITER. Fuck me Equilibrium is amazing. I'm slightly tipsy rn, but I know good literature when I read it, and I am leaving it open to reread it tomorrow when I am sober, but even I can see that the characters are all equally using each other, and each of them are to blame for this shit-storm of a relationship. Perhaps JK even more?

ahahahaha this is amazing! I’m so glad that you are tipsy! TAKE AN EXTRA SHOT FOR ME!

and i know right? I feel like Jimin and the OC have been played. Theyre innocent idiots. But then again, it’s not like they were forced into doing anything. it was their own free will :/ 

Anonymous said:Gahh ch10 was so intense! I agree with others that all three are wrong to manipulate each other but idk i found myself feeling kinda sorry for Jimin by the end of 10? The way I've interpreted it so far is that he probably felt the most inclined to just go with it and agree to the poly relationship, or at least that's how I read it, and yeah fine maybe he hasn't treated yn quite as 'nicely' but like he hasn't condemned her for also being affiliated with jungkook, but then again he's using this(1)

Anonymous said:(2) relationship to be with jungkook but yeah sorry I'm repeating myself but I really get the sense that he's just been kinda going along with it rather than outright manipulating them both, and yeah his resolve has been kinda breaking over the last few chapters but the flashbacks suggest that Jimin is at heart caring and just lovesick with jungkook whereas the oc and jungkook seem to have an unhealthy obsession w jimin and y/n respectively. Sorry I'm rambling but yeah thx for the amazing fic!

yeah i can see it that way! I feel like jimin has a better sense of morality and guilt than the other two. They are unhealthily obsessed, but jimin genuinely cares about them both, so it’s a bit sad. :/ But you can also see it from another dimension-- Jimin knew the OC liked him, Jungkook knew Jimin liked him and they both are playing their respective parties to get to what they want. However, the OC did not know that Jungkook liked him until the latest chapter, so she was pretty much innocent until now. so yeah. it’s debatable who’s the most innocent, but it sure as hell isnt jjk lol 

Anonymous said:Equilibrium is amazing for me because the longer you think about it the worse the characters get likeJimin at first seems like the purest one but then you realize he knew the OC was always being bullied and used and she depended on him because he was her first friend and he still made the decision to use her once again.Also I feel like part of her feelings for him have something to do with her feelings she came from an environment where she was never treated well and then suddenly here he was.

YES EXACTLY! It’s so hard to tell. bc jimin does genuinely care about the OC, but at the same time, the OC wasn’t manipulating anyone or stringing along anymore until the latest chapter where she finally broke and turned into one of them. So yeah... it’s the lucifer effect, man. The situation will change you