#like ive been rage bolusing all day

[architectureenthusiast]

It's that time of the month when my insulin doesn't work when the sun is up 🥳.

[clatterbane]

Medical PTSD be like...

Yeah, I'm still trying pretty hard not to beat myself up too much over a "bad' day yesterday.

With the 24-hour graph at the bottom. Those single red dots over to the far right were recalibration readings, because this sensor was actually running a little low before that. (Partial explanation for the red supposed hypoglycemia line while I was asleep. Found out that xDrip+'s alarms are very effective at waking me up! 😒)

What happened there? An awful lot of pasta, plus some misestimation of how much insulin it needed to cover it. Then some borderline "rage bolusing" as the numbers kept climbing.

That really is not a bad day at all by a lot of other T1 standards. The usual professional goal to aim for is 70% time in range or more. That 24-hour prriod still exceeded that. But, being wound too tight? Mine has been averaging around 99%, with mostly the occasional mild brief high.

With some backup, my pancreas is apparently still squeezing out a tiny amount of its own insulin in response to food--which probably helps too even if it's not so predictable. Those final few beta cells may well have been on strike last night. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The past week visualized. Where the white line is median levels, the more solid blue is the range it's stayed in 75% of the time. The lower dips during my night owl "overnight" are mostly from lying on the sensor funny, which is a very common way of getting false lows that bounce right back up after you move. (The other part of the equation with that red line earlier. I lay in a bad position for hours straight.)

Anyway, the more transparent blue is an outlier and should not be counted--or so I keep telling myself. That was HEAVILY affected by last night's pasta oopsie.

Guess I'm not actually doing too bad when that's the highest I've gone under my own power over the past several years since I got a CGM.

(They have done at least that bad with the IV glucose a couple of times during procedures, but I had fuck all control over that. What with being knocked out unconscious, and also a couple of hospital floors away from my insulin at the time.)

I do try to keep this in mind, and also take glucose readings as data points to learn from rather than hanging personal value judgments on them. [Strictly rhetorical] Lord, do I try. It ain't always easy, and it really doesn't help when you're feeling physically hungover from a rollercoaster. That can make it easier for some unhelpful mental scripts to start up.