#like its a good thing i know bc this person was posessive and toxic to one of my friends and wouldve been the same w me and maybe worse yea

[horrorwebs]

today i found out i dodged the bullet of having a potential relationship with an insane person but also its like. hm. when do i get to have experiences as well?

[fics-lovebot]

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last updated: 25/11/2024

yandere / mafia / bad boy

romantic dreams - ( @kooktrash ) yandere!jungkook, tattoo artist jk, boxer!jk, UGHH ITS GOODDD, he´s so toxic frfr, namjoon is sick of his ass lmao, totally obsessed with reader, jealous and possesive af, he´s crazy sdlfjs but i´m into it

toxic noona - ( @aajjks ) yandere!noona, toxic controling relationship, jk is a victim, he´d rather die than leave, reader likes to make him cry, manipulation

yours insanely - ( @smileyoongle ) yandere!jk, serial killer jk, detective!reader, he kills women who look like you, so interesting to read

darknet - ( @darkestcorners ) yandere!jk, the internet is scary, human trafficking, jk is scary dangerous, it´s a LOT, just wow

who is in control? - ( @ctrlsht ) yandere-ish, lawyer!jk, posessive jk, obsessive jk, toxic relationship, stalking, manipulation, secret relationship, he´s cray-cray

hybrid au / soulmate au / super hero au / alien au / supernatural au

bunnytalk - ( @woncon ) bunny hybrid jk, owner reader, jk is a sad bunny bc reader won´t return his feelings but it´s all just a misunderstanding

night vision - ( @bonny-kookoo  ) e.r, alien!jk, suggestive, lowkey smut, bunny hybrid reader, jk has tentacles ,,,,,nothing else to say, flirty fluffy jk, this is dIFFERENTTTT i love it

closer - ( @blublublujk ) smut, step siblings au, noona reader, yandere!jk, jk is obsessed with him older step sister, WHEWWW this is intense, very detailed, loved it

your eyes tell - ( @angellesword ) soulmate au, angst, fluff, happy ending, artist!jk, lawyer!reader, "you live in a world where people see in black and white. The solution to finally see the colors? It's simple. You need to meet your soulmate and look at him in the eyes, but what if the person bound to you is already contented with the monochromatic world? What if your soulmate, is already in love with someone else?" a whole 2020 throwback, we don´t see fics with multiple chapters often, back then they were so good, like this one!

obsessed with your scent - ( @angelguk ) soulmate au, alpha werewolf!jk, omega!reader. jeongguk’s obsessed with your scent but he doesnt know he’s your mate bc you take suppressants. PLEASEEE I NEED A MOVIEEE, miss author you really made my 2020 better, thank you and ily

slice of life / university-college au / idol

you make him go crazy - ( @onlyswan ) fluff, idol!jk, slight angst, multiple scenarios, reader is constantly making him go nuts, he is STRESSED lmao, it´s cute anyways, reader is kind of a careless brat but jk wouldn´t have it any other way

you wear his clothes - ( @nochukoo97 ) fluff, thing is...HE gives you his clothes, he´s so boyfriendd

screw up; over wine - ( @koocycle ) finance major jk x model!reader, first date drabble, he is really into reader so he takes her to a fancy pricey wine and dine but guess wHAT.. he is broke lmao so he straight up PANICS, lowkey highkey secondhand embarrasment but it´s jk so it ends in a cute way

kiss me better - ( @jaykaysthicthighs ) angst, jerk jk, mean jk, misunderstanding, manhandling, he is crying bc he assumed she was cheating but he was sooo wrong, now he is begging, crying, throwing up,,, they make up anyways, its angsty in a satisfying way

you´re sleepy but you promised you´d go grocery shopping with him - ( @thvhoe ) e.r, its cuteeeee

couple questions with vogue - ( @kjdkive ) fluff, e.r, idol!jk, supermodel!reader, I LOVE THISSSS, he is the best boyfriend/fiancé soon to be hubby EVER UGHHHH its so cute

devoted to trouble - ( @jeonsweetpea ) fluff, lil angst, smut, comedy, spiderman!jk au inspired by seven??? a masterpiecE. the world finds out he is spiderman but he dgaf bc he only cares about you, #pininggg, reader playing hard to get, man i love tHIS

show you what devotion is - ( @thvhoe ) boxer!jk, ballerina!reader, fluff, angst. you´re like his safe place, it´s giving exes to wannabe lovers, they deff like each other and jk wants to eat her uP but he´s wants it to be romantic and stuff, idk idk I liked itttt

you surprise him for his birthday - ( @nochukoo97 ) he´s so boyfriendddddd, this is so wholesome and cute

he can´t sleep bc he loves you so much - ( @onlyswan ) now THIS makes me want to drink bleach and die bc of how cute it is, THEY ARE SO IN LOVEEEE, there´s a lot of giggling, a lot of praising, a lot of disgustingly sweet loving talk after sex :´)))))) its such a good read i promise

fighting heart - ( @kooktrash ) boxer!jk, fluff, angst, he´s so stressed sldfkj, reader gets in a small accident and jk went crazy when a nurse answered your phone

daft pretty boy - ( @jeonqkooks ) basketball cap!jk, classmates to lovers ig, see he´s smart but when he´s with you he gets nervous and forgets how to exist, he lowkey confesses and he´s sraightforward with itt, he´s got a hUGE crush on you lmao

ride - ( @ohjeon ) strangers to lovers, fluff, angst, jk is a fucc boy on campus, reader has tattoos and rides the coolest bike, jk has an instant crush, love at firts sight i would say, got him blushing and sweating lmao, this is an on going series but I KNOW it´ll be gREAT, I love it already

in your arms - ( @kookslastbutton ) e.r, fluff, smut, morning secs, waking up by his side for the first time after moving in

encore - ( @jjungxkook ) game designer!jk, he is cool af, has a fat crush on reader, this is just the teaser of the fic but I really like it

crave you - ( @7deadlysinsfics ) idol!jk, crack, smut, fluff, hispanic choreographer reader, texting, taejikook, jk is HORNY but he´s a softie too, he´s got a big big fat crush, strenght kink bc we all know he can throw her around like a ragdoll

pretty girl - ( @bts-trash-blog ) smut, tattoo artist!jk, chubby reader, THIS IS ITTTTT, he´s tall, dark and handsome, flirty af too, "pretty girl" stFUUUU, they both want to fuck so he shoots his shot at the tattoo appointment

easy - ( @itsamejin ) angsty, fuckboy jk, bet!trope, jk plays you so he can get his rent paid, i read this one a lawwngg time ago and decided i was an angst loving hoe

Inevitable - ( @ahundredtimesover ) angst, fluff, smut, lovers to exes to lovers, baseball player!jk, dad!jk, parents au, you break up with jk years ago after you got pregnant bc you wanted him to follow his dreams and now he´s back home just to find out there´s a boy who looks just like him.. this is a masterpiece, honestly one of THEE best jk series out there, it has it all fr, the angst is angsty and the fluff is FLUFFY, i love it sm i´ve read it 3 times and never get tired of it

finish line - ( @bonny-kookoo ) fluff, nerdy!jk, racer!jki loooooveee itttttt, so cute, so fluffy, this blurb uGHHHHH, just read the whole thing pls

ungodly hour - ( @explicit-tae ) crack, smut, fluff, college au, broke college student!reader, lowkey slutty!reader, jk is thirsstttyyyyy, simping atp, "who´s dick do i have to suck for a hulu account?" this series is honestly so funny ksjakskjs

disney + and bust - ( @1kook ) angst, fluff, smut. yall already know i love to see man crying and begging for forgiveness :p, so kook is ur succesfull "app developer" bf and he says some very hurtfull things to you out of anger

rattled - ( @gukslut ) complete series, single dad au, angst, smut. honestly? one of the best fics out there. I read this a long time ago and i´m still in awe. The way this is written makes you feel every word. also, the plot is so so unique. i love it.

pu$$y fairy - ( @angelguk) smut, college au, non-idol, fuckboy!jk, virgin!reader, this is a 2020 old but gold, i read this a long time ago and still love it to this day

sweeter than strawberries - ( @cinnaminsvga ) shy baker!jk, college student!reader, noona!reader ??, s2l, mutual pining, cute cute cuteeee, another 2020 banger, i love how lenghty they used to be

you wrote jk a confession letter but he didn’t see it - ( @angelguk ) fluff, small brain big heart!jk, college au, non-idol, LMAOOOO this was funny asl, 2020 did it again, i loved this

frost impressions - ( @fortunexkookie ) soccer coach!jk, teacher!reader, gamer au, work au, idiots to lovers, one sided pining at first, it´s a longggg one. another 2020 masterpiece, one of my favorite fics out there, he´s so disgustingly smitten with his new coworker that he ends up making a terrible first impression. so so so entertaining and fun to read, jk is silly af lmao, can´t stop putting his foot in his mouth, theres a bunch of cute second hand embarrasment situations

ceo au / sugardaddy au / rich bf au / coworker au

Over The Odds | The Confession - ( @jungk0oksthighs ) ceo jk, sugardaddy jk, jealous bf jk, sugar baby reader, he gets mad and yells bc he is lowkey insecure of her ex but reader is equaly in love. this is a series

wrong time - ( @spideyjimin ) smut, angst, dilf!jk, ceo!jk, exes to lovers, workaholic as a scape mechanism, the one that got away type of stuff but she broke things up first for valid reasons, big big heartache but she´s still the love of his life

don´t blame me - ( @ctrlsht ) sugar daddy!jk, ceo!jk, soft yan!jk, obsessive!jk, student!reader, unhealthy behavior on his part, manipulative behavior on her part, jealousy on both parts, he goes a lil too far but reader is bitchy and annoying, he lit gives her everythinggg she asks for, the man is..creazy about her in a very unhealthy way and she takes advantage of that, toxicc

failed quickie - ( @vminizzle ) cowerker jk, suggestive, they´re about to fucc on an elevator but it didn´t work, he likes his hair pulled!!1!

someone older - ( @bonny-kookoo ) smut, ceo jk, divorced jk, 30 something yo jk, taehyung has a kid, younger oc, its a nice read, would do it again

break up au / cheating au / fuckboy au

night after night - ( @brown-bi-beautiful ) smut, angst, crack, fluff, semi-retired fuckboy jk, red flag jk, stalker jk, break up au, lovers to exes to lovers, he fucked around and found out so he is FREAKING ouT, also he is beggING okk.. we love that, he also has a Harley bc he is bad boy™, they make up anyways bc he is pussy whipped.. or in love, whatevs you wanna call it

seven plus one - ( @jvngkoos ) smut, angst, they break up for like a week and that shit got him SIMPING fr, standing under the rain begging and stuff, the man is obsessed, we love it

pwp / fwb

you good?? - ( @mono-moonchilds ) drabble, smut, "what if you gave jungkook head?" is righT bc i´ve been thinking about it for a min!!! he is mean ok yall know he is a brat buT, the head is too good to do all that, the man was shaKINg for godssakeee, so good he had to answer with a thumbs up bc reader drained him fr, left him so brain dead he couldn´t even speak

afterglow - ( @elitekook ) smut, fwb!jk, slight possessive!jungkook, dirty talking, degrading nicknames, but he cares ok, he´s trying to get out of the friend zone

come sit on my lap - ( @euphoricfilter ) pwp, lots of praisingg, they way this is written is good yall, "use me" , “so polite” shUT UPPPP im literally blushing, AND he is also cute at the end?? i hate it heREEE :´)

he has a lot of cum - ( @euphoricfilter ) boyfriend!jk, the title I- , he DOES have a lot of cum, lots of stamina, lots of everYTHING, and on toP of those small details, wdym he wants to see how many times he can cum in you before it´s too full and it starts to spill????? somebody stop this man

riding jungkook´s nose - ( @euphoricfilter ) we´ve ALLL thought about this, and if you haven´t you´re lying, periodt. pRAISINGGG, he´s in a pussy-drunk frenezy, he likes feeling used, he likes getting his hair pulled, he likes getting his face wET, it´s sickenINGGGG goreaditplease

fucking in the gym - ( @euphoricfilter ) this was inspired by that one pic of him and jimin with their back out, I SEE THE VISION, fucking with ceiling mirrors

wicked - ( @noteguk ) smut, incubus!jk, big big corruption kink, lots of dirty ploting and dirty talk, yupppp this is a good one, so detailed, love me a fic that lit makes me see what i´m reading

fuck buddies - ( @angelguk ) smut, angst, non-idol, fwb au, jk wished you were more than just fwb

[suguru-getos]

hi, congrats on 2K!! can I get a matchup please? 🥺

ok so for starters, I'm a taurus with aries rising and cancer venus. also an INTP.

at first I'm a very calm, quiet and patient person. Always helpful and understanding, but once you get to know me I become annoying, witty, sarcastic and a little too honest (sometimes I hurt people's feelings with my honesty but I swear I don't do it on purpose!). My love language is quality time (I can also go for physical touch and gifts), and because of my introvert nature, I enjoy spending time with my loved one in comfortable silence. I don't hate talkative people, it's just that sometimes it's really tiring and annoying dealing with them, so I'd rather be with someone who doesn't feel the need to fill the silence in the room all the time. I'm also a jealous person but I manage to hide it from my friends, but I can be very passive agressive with my mate (I'm not the toxic kind of jealous, I'm the normal kind). speaking of passive agressive, that's how I react in an argument, I'm not the type to scream just the arrogant and prideful type. I'm so stubborn I swear I'd rather be silent than admit I was wrong .

Just like most INTPs, I am very oblivious to others feelings towards me, if you want an example: I had a friend who always gave me gifts on my birthday and even paid me snacks more than once, I only found out he liked me after 2 years of friendship when he asked me to be his girlfriend (I thought he was being nice 😭).

I love cartoons, cooking, games and drawing (I actually hate everything I draw but I like doing it anyway idk if it makes sense). I also love trying/learning new things.

hope you have a wonderful day/night and don't forget to eat healthy meals and drink water 😙

p.s: sorry if I wrote something wrong 😔 english is not my first language

hi thanks for participatin’ <3 i’m an aries w taurus moon :3 so we have 2 signs in common eh >.> pls tc of urself and have a merry christmas if ur celebrating.

the char i’d match u up w is diluc ragnvindr

now u would never b annoyed at him bc he talks less ok? he hates small talk. hes ur friendly neighborhood intj so ya’ll will be quite compatible. i had an intp bestie so i’m speaking from experience uwu

also, he appreciates ur honesty. his feelings aren’t hurt. infact, its u he approaches to for any constructive feedback he wants. but expect the same from him, he can be quite clear about things w you; not often understanding if you get upset.

he is QUITE posessive, so he will also make sure he isnt leaving anything for u to be jelly about. man is a gentleman, wine tycoon for a reason <3

ur passive agressiveness that comes out sometimes baffles him. he would either pin u against the nearest wall 😗 or just soffly ask you whats botherin you. but both ways it ends up good for the both of u.

[xiaosweetheart]

"you're the most possessive man i know." / "you know other men?"

characters, ranked from most to least possessive: venti, xiao, scaramouche, childe, diluc, kaeya, kazuha

genre: slightly(?) toxic, technically sfw

warnings: gn reader; THESE R NOT YANDERE HCS (except for maybe scara lmao there is no "healthy relationship" w him 💀💀💀); just what breed of possessive/how these men r possessive over u; idk these r realistically how i think their Possessiveness would tie into y'all's, otherwise healthy, relationship; mentions/talks of murder; slightly suggestive (kaeya), small spit kink; stalking (venti, xiao, scaramouche, childe, diluc)

a/n: "most to least possessive" as if they arent all stupid fuckin possessive over u 💀; POSSESSIVE ≠ JEALOUS

:: venti ::

         ↬ god of freedom ranked most possessive on this list uh oh 😦‼️ "but cali, why would the god of freedom be so possessive?" BECAUSE he's the god of freedom fool

         ↬ venti is. So Old. and he has seen So Much come n go and has lost so much. so when he's acc in a relationship w you ??? aha ! good luck ever trying to get rid of him — venti is genuinely so Obsessive and Possessive ?;((,?;??? but in such a casual way 😭💀💀

         ↬ like. everyone, yourself included, thinks it's just him being stupid clingy ("what's new🙄" yk) so they never rlly think too much ab it

                 ↬ and he's so direct too ?? LMAO he's a bit ("a bit" 💀) of a stalker too, so like, if u actually managed to go somewhere w/o him, he'll outright ask the townspeople if they've seen u around anywhere, n they always tell him if they've seen you bc "oh it's jus the bard lookin for his lover" no one's gonna bat an eye at that

         ↬ and bc he's usually such an attention whore, he has absolutely no problems just throwing himself into ur lap if ur at the tavern if ur paying Too much attention to anyone that's not him, or pulling u in for a kiss that's a little (way) more heated than it should be if a vendor seems a little too chatty or friendly than they should be

         ↬ he's not above threatening or killing others either 💀💀 like childe (cali writing outta order again), venti wouldn't outright threaten anyone while ur around, he'll glare them into their grave (esp w the way his eyes glow 😟) whenever ur turned around, and maybe make some sort of vaguely threatening gesture, but its more than enough to get his point across to the other person

                 ↬ and if he does kill, he always gets away w it too (and he Knows it) 🥰 he tries not to, for ur sake, but he's certainly not above it. he's the anemo archon and what ???? "a wandering bard" ?????? no one's gonna suspect him, and if they ever did, he could very easily drop off the face of the earth — and take you w him

:: xiao ::

         ↬ jesus christ r y'all rlly surprised ???? he's an adeptus, he's 2000yrs old, and you are one of the only good things to have ever happened to him so you'd be outta ur fucking mind to think xiao's not gonna be insanely posessive over you. AND he's got Hella jealousy problems to add insult to injury 😭😭

         ↬ xiao ............. can exhibit some stalkerish tendencies i cannot even lie to y'all. it's not all the time, but from time to time he'll end up acting as ur shadow n following you around, just out of ur line of sight, and keeping an eye on you. his reasons are pure !! bc in his head he's jus making sure u stay safe !!! (even if that's not how others may interpret it)

         ↬ othertimes, he just. Will Not. leave you alone ??? that's not to say he's all touchy w you (in public anyway), more like him following u around right by your side; BUT if someone's flirting w you or looking at you in a way he doesn't approve of (which is more often than you'd think), he Won't hesitate to wrap an arm around ur waist, or, depending on the severity of the situation and/or his jealousy levels, he will 100% pull u in for a very heated, very out of character, kiss while making direct eye contact w whoever his jealousy is directed at

         ↬ tbh i think he Unintentionally ??? acts like you're his, and his alone ?? he doesn't mean to, he really doesn't, but :(( you're so pretty and perfect and he's so, so scared of losing you, that sometimes he acts like you belong to him.

         ↬ another overprotective mf (i say this like he isn't the second one on this list, i'm just writing out of order 💀💀). xiao is just. he worries ab you a whole lot, and he doesn't even begin to know how to express that, so it comes off as him devoting himself to you, and acting as ur personal bodyguard

         ↬ xiao wouldn't actually kill for u, i don't think. his karmic debt is more than enough as is :(( he will, however, rough (read: stab) someone up for u !!!! but only if u request as much, or give him the ok (whenever his temper gets the better of him). but overall i rlly do think xiao would prefer to keep violence to a minimum (archons knows he's had More Than his Fair share)

:: scaramouche ::

         ↬ stares. blinks. oh lord. y'all alr KNOW what i'm ab to say. 😭💀 now, if i had not included xiao and venti on this list. this mf would be no.1 without a doubt. it's just that. xiao is xiao, and venti is a literal god so 🙁

         ↬ anyway. SOSOSOOOOOO STUPIDLY POSOSEESSSSEIIVVVVEEEE OHHH MYN GOGOOOODDD you r by his side 24/7, or somewhere where he can keep an eye on you (bc he doesn't trust Any of his subordinates to watch over you)

         ↬ in scara's mind, he genuinely believes that u belong to him ??? and as a result he almost treats u like a doll (ironic 🙄). don't be surprised if he actually gets u a collar w his name on the tag as a gift 😭😭😭 and the way he genuinely gets offended if u don't wear it ????? yeesh

         ↬ STALKER ALERT STALKER ALERT 🗣🗣 unlike xiao, scara's stalking comes from a place of control (and ig 🙄 ur well being 🙄🙄) but mostly control and obsession. he hates how infatuated he is w you but . there's nothing he can do ab it. so he gives in to it. stalks you, makes you live w him, keeps u under his direct supervision (the way he is just genuinely a yandere 😭💀💀)

                 ↬ he's also the type of stalker to write things down ab u too i think 🧐 none of that surface "all ur likes and dislikes," bc he rlly doesn't care, but little notes ab your mannerisms he's noticed, any sort of sensitive information that u told him, all that 🥰

         ↬ he's not afraid to show you his violent side either !! (such enthusiastic punctuation for someone whose ab to write ab murder ............) scara doesn't really bother to hide the fact that he killed someone for whatever reason (someone complimenting you or vice versa; bc scara Has to have your Full attention.) and if u ask ab who he killed ???? he almost gets mad 😟 and internally, it justifies his killing, bc you're STILL asking/thinkin ab someone who isn't him !!!

:: childe ::

         ↬ even in a healthy relationship childe is genuinely like a borderline yandere 😭😭 he treats you so insanely well fs, but he's so stupidly fucking possessive and everyone knows it too

         ↬ it usually plays off as him being clingy bc yk he's just a light-hearted dude (me when i kinda? lie 💀), but. he plays it off as light-hearted bc he doesn't want to like ?????? scare you ????? the only time he cares ab his image is when it comes to you 🙏 but it's not that hard to flip that silly/serious switch LMFAO

         ↬ he'll accompany and escort u places whenever he gets the chance to, actually. he's often busy w fatui shit but that doesn't mean he won't make time for u. like diluc, he's possessive in a sense of overprotectivancy ??? so whenever he does escort you places, or if ur just out in public in general w him, then he has a hand on you At All Times. doesn't matter where, but he is always touching you

         ↬ and. and bc hes a harbinger he would Actually kill for u !! he won't if it can be avoided for your sake, bc ur happiness outweighs his bloodlust but he Would Not hesitate to kill for you (or if u wanted someone dead but 🧑‍🦯)

         ↬ tbh childe isn't actually super jealous ???? like. he has his moments, 100%, but he's not nearly as jealous as you'd think ?? bc he's so secure in ur relationship n knows he doesn't have to worry ab other guys (egomaniac yasss king 😍 /hj) and also. who in their right mind is gonna flirt w tartaglia's partner ?"'?";,:??(),?;??? someone w a death wish, that's who !

         ↬ after a vv enlightening convo w @artiepooh, i'd like to say that childe is, in fact, responsible for several "accidental" deaths and ruining several people's lives all bc he thought they looked at u the wrong way (and tbf, they did !! he's just keeping his darling safe <3)

                 ↬ he's put so many merchants out of business and mislead so many travelers (to their doom🥰) all in the name of ur safety. get urself a man like childe yasss slayy murdering for you in a healthy way 😍😍😍😍😍

:: diluc ::

         ↬ ok so just to create an idea of what kinda possessive diluc is, IF these were yandere hcs (they're not), then he would would be the type to either a. not ever let u leave the manner, or b. keep u under his constant supervision; u would go everywhere w him and he'd be by ur side 24/7

         ↬ that being said, realistically and healthily, "healthily," anytime he's going somewhere, he does extend an invitation for u to come as well (is internally bitter if u decline or say ur busy, but he doesn't ever hold it against u (yasss bare minimum king 😍), it's just apart of his overprotectiveness, and he rlly can't help that :(( )

         ↬ always, always offers to escort u home !!! doesn't matter if you two r in two different places, he will go out of his way to go wherever you are so he can walk you home (this is also partially for his own peace of of mind). he knows how dangerous mondstadt can be, especially at night, and you're far too precious to him to risk ur safety like that (doesn't matter if u can fight or not, he Insists on walking u home)

                 ↬ he has a handful of stalkerish behaviors that he's not very proud ab, but like xiao, it comes from a place of genuinely wanting to keep u safe !! on nights that you turn down his escortation invitation (cali the rhymer omg), he'll still drop whatever he's doing to come to wherever you may be, and he'll watch over you from the shadows instead

         ↬ diluc wouldn't kill for you unless he deemed it Absolutely Necessary — total last resort. he doesn't, however, have any problems beating someone up for u 😊 i don't think he'd (usually) ever be one to instigate anything tho ?? he'll only fight if provoked bc yk. wealthiest man in mondstadt, heir to the company, image to maintain, appearances, reputation, blah blah blah

:: kaeya ::

         ↬ first and foremost if u have ever said that kaeya would cheat on his s/o i hate u w my whole heart and ur fucking Wrong

         ↬ like. r we talking ab the same fucking character ?? kaeya alberich w debilitating abandonment And attachment issues ??? cheating on his s/o ???? drop dead [disrespectfully] kaeya is Stupid Fuckin Loyal to his partner go argue w the wall ab it 😡😡

         ↬ anyway 🥰 kaeya's def not the jealous type by any means HOWEVER he's stupid possessive (he just genuinely wants u all to hiself; kaeya is not a "sharing" sort of man) !! anytime y'all r in public together. he just simply Does Not leave ur side if it can be avoided (it's even worse in private, it's like y'all r attached at the hip 😭😭😭)

                 ↬ he always has an arm around your waist or shoulders whenever yall r out and about

         ↬ he's like. only rlly possessive possessive when prompted ??? like if someone's flirting w u or getting a lil too comfortable w you, shameless kaeya is quick to pull you in for a v sloppy kiss in front of whoever was trying to steal ur attention away from him — he'd even spit in ur mouth if he felt the situation called for it (i'm so sorry i don't know how i keep managing to put a spit kink into every single thing that i write)

         ↬ finally someone whose not a fucking stalker. i mean. no i mean finally someone who isnt a fucking stalker LMAO he'll keep a watchful eye out for u whenever ur around, but he won't go out of his way to track u down unless it's dire or whatever

:: kazuha ::

         ↬ another casually possessive one ??? but not in a relaxed way like venti 🧐 its all in his words for the most part. thinks back to when he threatened to brand that hoarder's forehead w a whitehot iron. hm. so. emphasis on the Most Part. 😊😊

         ↬ OH i got it, he's possessive in an almost gentle way ?? bc you and everyone else can see how his gaze softens whenever ur around and how he seems to just absolutely melt under ur touch

         ↬ but both the way kazuha speaks of and to you is enough for everyone to know that you're His. he's genuinely a v intimidating guy when u think ab it, and his words never leave any room for arguments, so everyone who knows ur w kazuha would never dare to make a move on u

         ↬ and for the few unfortunate souls who Have tried to make advances or flirt w you ............. 🙁🪦

         ↬ IM KIDDING (mostly) LMAO but that's not to say kazuha didn't scare them half to death w a verbal threat that would haunt them for a Very Long Time should they ever get close to u again

         ↬ don't let him fool u tho, in regards to you, kazuha has little to no patience and if his words don't get through the first time, he's quick to resort to physical threats and isn't above actually branding someone 😭😭

         ↬ kazuha is. hm. he would be a stalker if he didn't insist on going everywhere w you — and when he's so sweet n protective with u how could u turn him down ?? u know kazuha takes very good care of u, and you've honestly grown addicted to his presence, so ofc u let him escort u or tag along w u everywhere <3

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Would you mind sharing your thoughts about vex and Beau being cross campaign foils?

so!!!! first things first: apologies for taking weeks to answer this, finals + having adhd sometimes makes my brain turn to mush and forget every ask ive ever recieved. second of all, i’m assuming you sent me this bc of what i said in my vm vs. m9 how they view the world meta. and i’ll be real with you. i have exactly 0 memory of what was going through my head when i wrote that line, so i am simply going to type out a bunch of thoughts that i have on the similarities and differences between beau and vex and i hope that lives up to what you were expecting jsdflksjdksld

I'll detail some specifics in a moment, but overall, I think beau and vex share a very similar kind of trauma of exclusion in their formative years, that's caused them to have a lot of similar traits that manifest in different ways - for vex, she maintains control through her material posessions and beau finds an emotional control in her asshole-ness. I've broken this down into 5 points on which I think comparing the two really emphasizes that claim:

1. daddy issues: both beau and vex have awful no good terrible very bad dads. both syldor and thoreau can suck my ass. they both raised their kids with little love and impossible-to-meet expectations, alientating them and leaving them with lifelong feelings of inferiority and unbelonging. If beau and vex were to meet, i think they would have a very friendly toast to shitty dads, and then have a good drunk vent about it an hour later.

but, at the same time, the actual minutae of their trauma and the ways it manifests are nearly polar opposites. syldor wanted nothing to do with vex, or else wanted her to somehow become a full elf. her issue was that she would never be able to belong, despite her desire to, and as she grew up it lead to her being overly protective and even possessive of the people she found who DID accept her as she was. 

With beau, rather than exclusion, her father created an environment of toxic inclusion. He created a role for beau to belong in, disregarding her distate for actually fulfilling it. And, as such, she ended up making herself into someone who could have no expectations and pushed away anyone who tried to set them up for her. In the end, they both came to love themselves by abandoning the woman their father wanted them to be but for vex it was the laying down of an impossible dream and for beau it was the picking up of a mantle she had feared to wear.

2. brothers: now, on the topic of family, I also think its really interesting how their interactions with their brothers play out. We've got vex and vax, tied at the hip til the very end and then some; and then we've got beau and TJ - decades apart and with beau barely acknolwedging TJ's existence. But, even that distance between beau and TJ didn't stop her caring for him when they actually met. She gave him lucky Jade, and she entertained the idea of kidnapping him to get him away from her stinko dad. 

And I'd espeically like to talk about what she said outside the hag's hut - "I think Luc and TJ could be best friends", in comparison to the way Vex reacted when Vax told her was going to Zephrah with Keyleth for the year break. There's an aspect to the way they interact with their brothers that lets them slip back into those bad habits they formed growing up (NOT that i'm claiming vex and vax were like toxic for each other. but even good relationships can have unhealthy moments). 

With Beau, when she offers to give her happiness so TJ can grow up safe, she's trying to take on the role she's ""supposed"" to fill - the big sister, the protector - because she failed to fill the one her father set out. And with Vex, when she grows jealous of Vax, it's because she's afraid that his leaving with keyleth is a sign that she no longer belongs in his inner circle, and she falls back on that childish, desperate desire to do anything to be accepted unconditionally. 

3. romance: spoilers for 5 or so most recent m9 eps (115-120)  if you haven't watched them ahead!!!! at this point, both vex and beau have an endgame romance - percy and yasha respectively. Obviously as the m9's campaign is still playing out, that could change, but like. yasha wrote her a love letter and they're officially going on a date so i'm counting that as at least endgame-track rather than just random flirting. What's interesting to me is that they both seem to flip between the SAME roles between their (in-game) general perception and their actual pursual of romance. 

Vex gets characterized as a pretty big flirt, right? She's got the winks, the casual "darling". She's flashed grog her boobs on multiple instances with little prompting. Beau, similarly, has easily the most game out of anyone in the m9. She's slept with two guest characters and at least one more npc in the events of the game. Caleb made her a fuck mirror in her room in the mansion. And yet, in both of their actual romantic endeavors, they became the shy, uncertain type. 

Vex only confessed her feelings when Percy was laying dead before her, and not an hour of game play before percy kissed her in the woods, she had a talk with vax about how she was pretty sure he didn't like her that way and she didn't want to pursue it. Beau, similarly, spent a very long time convinced that yasha wasn't looking for love after zuala, especially not in anyone like her, asked everyone in the party if they thought yasha ACTUALLY liked her, just to be safe, and then still terrified to ask her out after recieving a literal love letter. I'd argue this shift comes from that same sense of unbelonging - they're very good at pretending they fit a role but doubt their actual right to take it when the opportunity is presented. This time, the role is the lover rather than the daughter.

4. authority: Both vex and beau grew up shunned by the upper crust of society, and grew to mistrust those kinds of people. And yet, both of their arcs result in them assuming such a position. Vex, thrown out of high society gets her place as a baronness, and Beau, running from leadership of her father's business ends up a top member of the Cobalt Soul. There's not a lot here, but I find it interesting how both of their stories involve them shedding their baggage regarding authority and power and assuming it in a way that they feel comfortable in - invitation by someone she trusts for vex, and a promise of freedom of will and control for beau.

5. their deadliest sins: this is the point at which their similarities culminate and transform to a fundamental difference. despite everything they share - shitty childhoods, the small piece of family that's still good, flirtiness masking shy love, and a mistrust of those in power - vex and beau are such different characters because of their biggest vices. Vex, both in game and out, is "the greedy one". She's stingy with money, she haggles for everything, she mourns the loss of physical objects. Beau is "the mean one". She cares little for people's feelings if they're not in her immediate circle, she focuses on her tough guy image, she laughs at things she knows she shouldn't. 

And, over the course of the campaign, as they find unconditional acceptance, they grow away from these traits (I won't say they grow out of them) because they heal from the things causing these vices to begin with. I've always been vocal about vex's greed being a manifestation of her class insecurity, and beau's asshole-ness stemming from her fear of being forced back into another position of complacency. And I stand by that now - all the similarities in their backstories are what tally up to these different women.

Despite her careful tally of party funds and her reflexive bargaining, vex is not cruel. she is not angry on her own behalf. She saves two boys from the market in the city of brass at great personal cost, she relinquishes an entire dragon's hoard to the devastated city of Westruun, she took the time to save a baby bear from a cage when she could have just cut and run after escaping her own. She's the first one most people go to when they need a shoulder to cry on, and she's devastated when they don't (thinkin about when Scanlan left). She carved "forgiveness" into the bow she stole from a man after killing him by proclaiming how much she loved someone, because she knew anger had no place in her heart.

And Beau, Beau is a bitch and she's harsh, but she doesn't hoard or protect like vex did. she spends her money without much of a second thought. She pitches in to help her friends buy a ton of glowsticks, and she loves to indulge in material desires like drink and good food and the nicer inn room. She's a member of an organization that's about making knowledge public rather than guarding it. And, though this may be controversial, I think her position with bowlgate of "its not our problem what cali wants to do with it", her long-standing mistrust of their alliance with the bright queen and  and more recently with the tomb takers of "i want to go in and talk, rather than assuming they're antagonistic, even if it puts us at a disadvantage" are both examples of this non-possessiveness too - she has no need or desire to get involved in controlling what other people are doing.

so, i guess the general conclusion here is: vex struggles to let go of things, of money, of people. beau struggles to let herself be known in case she gets wrongly interpreted again. they both fight feelings of inadequacy, they both fight the feelings of not belonging, of 'doing it wrong', they fight the perception of them as shitty people because of the shells they hide in despite their absolute hearts of gold.  but at the end of the day, vex's story is one of having to lay down what could never be hers so she can carry what is, and beau's story is one of allowing herself to be known so a place can be made for her.