#like im just feeling very crushed by the weight of my mistakes rn
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ikyw-t · 5 years ago
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#sorry im not participating in selfie night rn it's one of the best aspects of this fandom#but it's also a little overwhelming when there's so many ppl idk sorry#also i might be having a small meltdown#i just realized that i should've gone to france or germany for college three years ago#i shouldnt have listen to my toxic and asshole bf when he convinced me to stay in az and just go to school here#i shouldn't have ever dated him#i shouldve applied overseas then#bc now im already im my third year#and so i will apply to college in germany but it's gonna be a lot more difficult bc they dont count community college#so i probably wont even be accepted bc it's like i didnt even do anything in their eyes it see.s#but i wanna get out of arizona so bad#nd i just got this overwhelming feeling like it's too late and that im just three years too late#and if i wanan study in college does that mean waiting two more years and then getting a masters in Europe?#i have no idea if i even want a masters but then if i dont i will have completely missed out on my dream of studying in Europe#and for what? for my mean narcissistic selfish and just awful high school boyfriend?#like im just feeling very crushed by the weight of my mistakes rn#i just cant believe that I LET him convince me to stay here when itd been my DREAM to study abroad#and i gave in so easy?#i hate him and i hate him for being so selfish and for lots of other reasons#but i just hate that i let it happen#and now i feel like since i wont be accepted to study there i wont ever get the chance to live in a dorm with other students#and make friends bc im literally down to 0 friends rn and it's just a lot#it would've been so easy for me to apply to Germany right out of highschool and i didnt and I'm just going to sit on this regret for forever#p
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sunflowerseraph · 3 years ago
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HEEHEE! hits u back with the character game uhh thor or bucky :33
!!! I'll do... BOTH >:D ! It'll be long tho so I'm putting em under cuts :}
Here's the ask game btw!
Thor!
How I feel about this character: OH he's such a bi disaster. But he's trying his best. Textbook himbo. Crushed under the weight of his father's expectations of him alot of the time. Probably struggles with self worth nowadays too,with the battles and family he's lost! Also he's very much like those memes abt dudes/dads where they'll mention some horrible childhood trauma and then have some funny song playing in their head like nothin even happened.! I feel like he cares very deeply for the friendships he's made and the found family he's gained with the warriors three [rip] and the avengers! Overall? Kind himbo who respects women and forgets how smart he is sometimes.
All the people I ship romantically with this character: honestly this is such a hard question cause im sure if u presented me with like,good reasons for most people then I'd be on board. But so far one of my Main ships for Thor rn is Bruce and Thor <3 GammaHammer makes me happy :} I've seen thor n valkyrie stuff too which is like aight they're all bi4bi t4t prolly,but honestly a polycule or some shit w Bruce Val and thor would be Inch resting :} I'm not sure tho! Oh and Jane Foster I Guess but she's not rlly up there.
My non-romantic OTP for this character: OH absolutely thor and loki ! Brothers 🤍 I rewatch the thor movies the other day and seeing them fight together and hang out as kids made me so 🥺❗ yknow? I also think Thor n Darcy are a fun pair! Thor and the warriors three make me :} as well bc they're all buddies! That's his little family yknow!! Or. Was.
My unpopular opinion about this character: listen i know I just called him a himbo but he's smarter than people give him credit for I think. But also he's pretty cocky at times with his fighting ability and I feel like that's his greatest downfall. He tends to sorta think he can do everything on his own,and he doesn't rely on others until he really needs to and it ends up w him or his companions hurt :(
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.: ough I wish we could've gotten more time to see him experiencing earth stuff! In other like shows n such (like one of the animated series) its funny to see him interacting with mortals and I feel like we don't get that enough. Like sure we got the "another!" Scene and if you watched the YouTube mocumentary he obviously doesn't understand money or jobs. But it's still funny and I'd like to see him go "I don't understand what that means :D" like an optimistic puppy yknow :]
Uhmm yeh that's for thor! OK Bucky time 🤍
Bucky-
How I feel about this character: I feel like. They should do more w him in the mcu! But that's just bc im a kinnie ig but it makes me sad that he's just viewed as Steve's Sidekick when he's got a personality and works so well as Sam's partner in TFAWTS! I like the representation he can bring to the table though,regarding disability (I mean even though. He's an enhanced person but yknow.) And mental health! He also shows that your past doesn't need to define you and you CAN be free and work past old mistakes.! I feel like he's a little out of touch sometimes bc of the time shifts and mental stuff goin on,but I'm not saying it's a bad thing,its just compelling to meeee
All the people I ship romantically with this character: I USED to ship stevebucky I won't lie,but I much rather prefer SamBucky bc its just better LMAO Sam is much cooler than Steve in many regards and to me Sam is a better influence on Buckys life ig? Like. Idk how to explain it well enough but their banter is better and they compliment eachother rather than one of them taking the reigns all the time. I just like the level playing field where it still feels like Bucky can be a Sidekick but his partner at the same time rather than Just Bucky Barnes. Idk if that makes sense but !
My non-romantic OTP for this character: honestly I'm not sure? I feel like if they could both get over association's with like...almost killing eachother Bucky and Nat could be friends :] both were molded to be Weapons and have to deal with their traumas and mental health. Obviously I also wish Steve would've stuck around bc I hate that he like.LEFT his best friend and new family,but whatever.
My unpopular opinion about this character: I think bucky is sort of a dork actually. Alot of people make him very stoic and Winter Soldiery but that's. Not all he is! He's a complex person who's been used and weaponized and its annoying whenever people try to say he's a stoic person or whatever. Like no bro ur thinking abt the winter soldier. Ofc the winter solider was/is part of him and that doesn't just shut off but I think it's bs to boil him down to Killing Machine Assasinator Ooo Scary! When he was also a soldier during. Fucking Ww2! He was also like shown to be a bit of a dorky guy who liked to dance and be with chick's n shit lmao,like he mustve been a charmer. And even after,like during tfatws he's shown to still have bits of that personality. He messes around with Sam's nephews and offers help without prompting and just overall wants to live a more peaceful life while still managing to be social and humorous. ("How old are you anyways?" "106.") Anyways I think what I'm saying is ppl tend to forget to split him and tws.!
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.: this is sort of similar to the Thor thing but discovering new age shit! Like I wanna see him be bad at tech or be confused by new slang. Also wanna see him like, get annoyed at how the tech is where he's at vs. The wakandan tech. That shit probably blew his socks off and then he had to go hang w Americans and went :(?? How do i use a flip phone. The beads were so convenient in Wakanda HFNEBDB. I also wish we could've actually seen how bucky Healed in Wakanda?? Like however he was helped yknow? I'm sure they (mcu) can't like do much besides say he was Magically Cured Of Mental Illness so I guess I'm glad they left it up to whatever but. Still 😔
Anyways uhm yeah! Sorry this is so long sjdjf it prolly doesn't make much sense but 👍❤
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pinkorbing · 7 years ago
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all the marvel asks, lets go !!!!
Avengers: What superpower would you like to have? already answered Iron Man: What is your favourite piece of technology? remote control carsCaptain America: What is your sexuality? uhm who caresBlack Widow: Share a secret. no its a secret for a reason bitcjThor: What is your religion? idkHawkeye: What is your favourite movie? already answered Hulk: How strong are you? SUPER. i spend all day lugging corn and pulling weeds okayyy i have abs of steel Loki: What is the biggest mistake that you have ever made? not being honest with myself. im still working on itScarlet Witch: If you could change one thing in the world, what would it be? for people to be more compassionate and understanding of each otherQuicksilver: Have you any siblings? yea 3 younger siblings Vision: What weight are you? i havent weighed myself in soooo long. last time the scale said 138 lb? Ultron: What is the last text you sent? "do you have everyone?"Ant-man: What height are you? 5'5"Wasp: What's your full name? theo elliot [REDACTED]Bucky: Who is your best friend? ..you knowFalcon: Which fictional character would you like to hang out with? ponyboy from greasers. or sodapop i would fall in love with himSpider-man: What is/was your favourite subject in school? physicsDoctor Strange: Name a special talent you have. hmmmmm nothing? im very disappointingly averageCaptain Marvel: What do you want to achieve in life? who even knows. my entire life has been "just live to be 18 just live to be 18" and now i am turning 18 soon and i have no plans or goals or dreams because ive spent so long working on wanting to be alive. so i dont know. Black Panther: How responsible are you? it depends. i can be really responsible if the situation gives me mad anxietySpider-woman: What is your favourite smell? (:Nova: Do you prefer the moon or stars? starsLuke Cage: What job do you want? i dont knowJessica Jones: What is your favourite memory? idk last night was #fun and #healingDaredevil: What is your favourite song? rn its one of us by ummm i forgot. also any song from bmc. especially smart phone hour or michael in the bathroom Iron Fist: What is your favourite food? idkMs. Marvel: Who is your idol? idkX-men: What social issue do you feel strongest about? (sexism, racism, etc.) all of those? Professor X: What are you thinking about right now? how tired i am. also im thinking about the cashier who checked me out at walmart and how im really paranoid she thinks i am rude. because she complimented my eyebrow and i just smiled/laughed because i didnt hear her and ahhhh im thinking about that a lot okay that compliment meant a lot to me i zone out a lot in conversations and i need to work on thatCyclops: Do you wear glasses? yahhhhRogue: What is your crushes name? hmmmMagneto: What country are you from? usaMystique: What is one thing that you would like to change about yourself? i wish i was more secure in myself. and didnt always feel the need to overthink everything. i just want to live but i cant put myself out there hmmWolverine: What are you afraid of? growing old alonePhoenix: What is your favourite book? a-z encyclopedia of horsesStorm: What is your favourite type of weather? snowing at nightBeast: What is your favourite animal? frogs or inchworms or dogssAngel: What is your MBTI type? enfp. but who knows my personality is so very inconsistent Magik: What is your star sign? capricornGambit: When is your birthday? 01/07/2000Shadowcat: Have you any pets? yea a dog and a cat and a fishGroot: What is your favourite flower? idkRocket: What languages do you speak? english and i can understand spanish? but i forgot how to speak itStar-Lord: What is your Harry Potter house? hufflepuffDraxx: Who do you love most in the world? jen if i could only choose one person. but i love my family and all my friends more than myselfGamora: What is your worst memory? hm not on the internet!!Medusa: What colour/length/style is your hair? its really short and choppy i got a pixie cut but i hated how feminine it looked so i took a pair of scissors to it. my mom hates it. oh and its blackBlack Bolt: What is your accent like? minnesoooooootaGhost Rider: What is the worst thing that you have ever done? wow i dont know ive done a lot of crappy things but i cant think of one that sticks out as really badDeadpool: Post a picture of yourself. maybe
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