#like im disabled by the abuse and stress after 30 years of trying to survive
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I can't even talk about this abuse bc i feel like people irl who talk to me on social media some of them have used this stuff against me either immediately or later down the road. I can't trust anyone. I hate holding shit in but I guess I "have to" because people always take advantage and say nasty shit. I'm so tired. I hate that my dad is always baiting suicide my entire life and treating me like a huge inconvenience and burden and problem while also begging me to take care of him and fix his life as if I "have" to even though I damn sure fuckin'g DONT. he couldve ended his life with any amt of dignity or tried to repair this relationship like ive tried to but instead just makes it worse and eventually he's going to die either way with a legacy of being a fucking asshole who no one loved and NO ONE wants that for him. NO ONE. but i cannot fix ANY of this and i am SO upset.
#i would NEVER say this to anyone irl#but i wanted to be like ok then fine#dont take the walking aid and lose your ability to walk#youre not gonna drive off a cliff and blame me asshole#youre not gonna kys so PLEASE just care for your life right now and be a fucking adult#i hate that this is my life#its so fucking sad#im trying to heal with meds and therapy so i can work again#like im disabled by the abuse and stress after 30 years of trying to survive#and everyone treats me like a fuck up and a problem#ive done so much for other people just to be torn down and fucking destroyed for fun
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