#like if it weren't for people who enjoy crocheting there wouldn't be any crocheted stuff

[lillybean730]

i like that crochet can't be easily replicated by machines like knitting can, it makes it feel more important that i can do it you know?

[pbandjesse]

Today should have been great but sort of fell apart at the end. Because of other people. Ugh. It's fine. I am looking forward to going to sleep.

I slept okay last night. But James woke me up early with turning on lights again and I got real upset. But I got a little more sleep. And would feel alright. I laid in bed for 5 minutes waking up and that helped a lot.

I got up and dressed and felt good. I had a bagel and packed a very snack filled lunch. And then I was off to the school for my outreach.

I had 4 programs today. With 90 boxes to unload. I got a parking space right away so that took some of my stress away. I'm glad we looked yesterday because I knew where the non two hour parking was. I loaded up my wagon with some stuff and went to the front door.

Some nice ladies helped me bring the wagon inside. And I went to check in at the office. They would call my contact teacher. Who came and got me.

She got the maintenance man to open the elevator for me and he would help me unload all the boxes from my car. He was the most helpful person I met all day. He was super nice.

The teacher showed me the room we were using. The reading room. But the reading teachers apparently didn't know and weren't thrilled. Felt awkward. But it was fine.

I thought I would have a moment to check in with the contact teacher about the program and the schedule but that would never happen. I never really spoke to any teacher today. They would just. Drop their entire class off with me and go away. They didn't even ask my name. It was super bizarre behavior and seemed super unsafe. Like I'm a stranger? You closed the classroom door with me inside?? Like yes I know I'm safe but that's not cool.

Thankfully though the kids were great. The first two hours the kids were so sweet and I really enjoyed doing the whole program. And really it was fun. They were super excited that they got to keep the flashlights.

After the first two programs I had an hour and a half break. I checked in with the office again and let them know I was going to eat lunch in my car and I would be back.

So that's what I did. I had my little lunch. I watched videos. I crocheted. I finished my cream yarn!! Which means I'm done 75 squares!! Amazing.

The afternoon groups were harder. They were larger. And louder. And the reading teachers would ask a teacher to come stay with them and they wouldn't. And then the reading teacher left and I was alone again. And we were doing okay. I was a little stressed but we were holding it down.

And then a child got elbowed in the eye. And I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to call for help. There weren't any teachers in the hall. So I called Jessica at the museum. She would call the front office and ask them to tell a teacher to come to me. In the mean time another student walked the little boy to the nurse office and they would come back with ice. He was more startled then anything. But I was upset that I was alone still.

A teacher would all of a sudden come in about 20 minutes into my last program. I tried to say hello and she just started telling the kids to give me a box my materials and they needed to clean up and I'm like. Hey there is still a half hour left? And she's like well they called me to support you but I have a class on 10 minutes so I can't stay. So she made them all give me their pushpins (that they use to make the light bright) and the kids started getting upset. And then she just left again.

So I tried to get control again and finish up the projects. Then their teacher, their actual classroom teacher, came back to get them but she didn't have them clean up before they left, something all the other classes had done. So I was left to clean up the whole room alone. It upset me but I just wanted to go home.

I asked the reading teacher to call the maintenance man because he had said he would come back to let me use the elevator. But she didn't know how to. So she would go to the office to find someone with a key. And I would get my wagon. And get out of there.

I let Jessica know how it upset me. And she felt like it was unacceptable that they left me like that. She said they would make it more clear in the future that someone needs to stay.

I got to my car and packed everything away. I got a call from the biologic nurse line and I talked to her my whole drive home. She's really nice. She asked me if I had any wellness goals as the medication helps me feel better and I told her I want to try rock climbing and get back in to circus arts. And she thought that was wonderful. It lifted my spirits to think about it.

I got back here at 3 and laid in bed for 3 hours. This is not ideal but I was really sad and tired. When James got home at 4 we laid together. Cuddled with sweetp. James made us an excellent dinner. My dad called and we talked for a while. He sounds so healthy lately. It's great. And I got contacted by the nursery school about coming back to sub! So that's really awesome.

And once James got on their call for their podcast I went to work on the studio.

I made my examples and poster for this weekend. I want to fill it in more because I didn't make things as large as they probably should be but it's fine. I caught up on my rain blanket. Which is finally getting long on the loom so I can see what the weave is going to look like. It's much more open but I think it's going to be so nice. Super different from my temperature blanket in a nice way.

After I did that I laid all my crochet squares out to try to figure out where my final 25 will go. I have the black yarn to do it so I can get to the full 100. And I'm really thrilled. I know the actually putting together is going to take a while but that is okay. I'm excited still.

I got a shower and felt kind of bleh. But I really ma just tired and a little dehydrated. So I am sipping water and juice now. Hanging out with Sweetp and listening to the rain.

And now it is time to sleep. I have a nice day at the museum tomorrow. I hope it is fun.

Sleep well everyone. I love you!