#like idk dont take it from me but first sebastian lies to her about there being vampires

[cloudcountry]

there is no way the ikevamp guys are being such assholes in jean's route i must be dreaming

[lunchador]

ok but!!! what happened!!! im screaming!!! you finished the game but there are no details!!! friend i need details!!! who sided with who!!!! im just!!! so excited about ur playthru and i need any and all details about how u feel about anders rn especially!!! i think there was less different paths because funding but i still would like to Know

 SO!! MUCH!! HAPPENED!!

It was funny, cuz, y’know, in comparison to DA:O where the END OF THE WORLD is hanging above your head at all times, I felt the pacing was considerably more relaxed in 2. And in retrospect, it definitely was building up in ways you weren’t quite piecing together (Or am I dumb? That’s usually the case) as you aren’t even sure why you have the derogatory title from cassandras mouth of Champion. Champion, of fuckin what? I do chores for people.

So like most of the game feels like you’re chilling. Talk to some people, do some small quests, learn some lore.

Then like, the qunari attack happened. Which, I assume happens regardless, correct? Man that statue of me looks douchey as hell. Flaming sword?

ANDERS CAN SUCK SHIT. That fucker lied to me? and made everything OH SO MUCH FUKIN WORSE. Oh boohoo I want to rid justice, distract her so I can MURDER PEOPLE ACTUALLY INSTEAD?? Like, MAN, I really like him on paper, healer of the needy, activist, cat lover. But he is so warped in his thinking and self hate. Also I know I joked about this somewhere but our second conversation ever (first one being when I met him) he gives me a big speech about how he could see us together but how he’s so bad he’s a monster boohoo so i need to stay away from him romantically and I’m standing there like.......yeah ok man. 

I SHOULD HAVE KILLED HIM - I was legit SO mad he did that. Everything was bad as is, and he made it worse. If I hadn’t have helped in that quest would it still have happened? AUGH. Almost everyone wanted him dead but I still felt bad. Of the companions, I think i bonded with him and sebastian the least. I tried really hard to side with the mages, cuz, i’m a mage, i dont think magic is bad but bad people can have magic, and Meredith IS a dick and instigated it, BUT THERE IS SO FUCKING MUCH BLOOD MAGIC IN KIRKWALL, WHY.

AND FUCKIN SEBASTIAN - SO MAD - was like if you let him live i’m coming back with an army to attack. like...bro what happened to being a peaceful monk or whatever the shit? I thought I told you taking the crown wasn’t worth it if you don’t want it? fuckin jude law looking motherfucker. But i barely played with him and i figured anders healing would be useful for the end. so, i took anders with me. So now I guess I’m gonna hear in inquisition about this dude coming in to attack kirkwall later idk SIGH

So yeah, I tried to side with Orison. Then that bitch ass gave in to blood magic too and turned into that disgusting abomination. I HATE when you try to defend someone and they too turn into a jackass. Fuck you, man. And Meredith of course is off her rockers with red lyrium. I hate all of these people. I tried to save the decent mages where I could and that bit me in the ass with one of them at the end FUCK YOU, UNGRATEFUL.

A N Y W A Y S,

since I’m sooooooo good at these games (how am I so so so bad??) Hawke basically...lost everyone. I didn’t officially romance anyone. Though in the epilogue, it says everyone eventually splits from Hawke except Isabela. I figured she had a soft spot for me. I think I couldn’t fully romance her because I didn’t get her the boat? Idk. I didn’t like the romance system in this game. Like, yes it makes sense for story plot reasons but it’s terribly confusing for someone not in the know and I hated looking at guides because they had spoilers.

My mom got murdered by a serial killer blood mage, r.i.p. My sister is dead. I am SO surprised Carver sided with me in the end. I thought he was genuinely about to pick being a templar over me and fight. I TRIED TO BE SO NICE TO THAT FUCKER.

i’m surprised cullen sided with me too. the few interactions you have with him in origins and here he’s kind of a dick. and i know all that shit going on with his VA so i am not stoked for him in inquisition

I tried/failed to romance Fenris. Man, I got SO attached to him?? He tries so hard to be grumpy but you get under his skin. Every time he called me his friend or smiled I was like YES, YOU FUCKER, YOU LIKE ME. But being a mage is such a cockblock. FUCK. I’m definitely kissing him next time.  But I can at least brag that I guess I did his companion quest correctly enough and he was maxed out cuz he didn’t leave me. He seemed begruding that he was gonna defend mages but he was gonna do it for ME. BFFs til the end.

how the fuck did fenris turn around and settle for compromise while anders was still pissy as hell? I guess anders just feels so much for others. also the whole tranquil shit was sooo fucked. Also I love they’ve known each other for 6 years and they’re still disgustingly snippy with each other - FIGHT!!!!

MERRIL TRIED TO CONFESS FEELINGS FOR ME. HOW? I kept pissing her off by not supporting the blood mage shit. I HAD TO PULL THE LIKE A SISTER LINE. MERRIL IM SO SORRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY. She’s so sweet, yet her quest was incredibly fucked up oh my god?? We had to kill the dalish group and I FELT AWFUL. WHY SO MUCH BLOOD MAGIC????????

I thought this game was going to end with assigning a new viscount. ANd I was like man that sucks, Sid isn’t the type for permanent responsibility like that but like, if it’ll get everyone to shut the fuck up ok. But...that wasn’t the ending. I hope that gets addressed in inquisition? I felt like that kinda got cliffhanger’d. Also I’m assuming Aveline had to run too being she was associated with me so the guard is probably in shambles too.

oh my god what about dominic? D:

anyway, I would die for varric, and while I understand the story reasons for not letting him be romancable, it still sucks cuz he pairs SO well with a snarky Hawke, sigh

but yeah there may have been less big decisions but there certainly were a lot of smaller ones I felt I fucked up. I’m just.......so good at that. I got so many people KILLED.

def some replay value in there!! I tried to do a lot more sidequests in this one than origins. so we will see how inquisition goes. It’s been super hyped to me and I’m told it’s pretty long

Its just crazy all the shit hawke got caught up in without even particularly trying. Like the warden is there because, yeah, they’re a grey warden, one of the few, but in 2 its just kinda like..............oops lmfao.

[dcngereuse]

Kathryn Merteuil, 24, bisexual, demiromantic, cisfemale, ENTJ Enneagram Type 3w2; model, heiress, socialite, entrepreneur is it just me, or is that literally Kathryn Merteuil from Cruel Intentions?

Do you think I relished the fact that I had to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 so I could be considered a lady? Fuck that. If I had been honest about myself before the age of politically-correct twitter, Mœurs would’ve never made it big. I was the Marcia fucking Brady of the Upper East Side, and I still wanted to kill myself. There's your psychoanalysis, Dr. Freud. Now drop the People Magazine, and let’s just do what we came here to do. I’m depressingly sober, and I wanna fuck. Tell me — are you in, or are you out?

full name: kathryn odette merteuil

birthday: 2 april 1995

signs: aries sun, cancer moon, leo rising

love language: quality time, physical touch

soundtrack: “ still sane ” by lorde ( alt: if u seek amy by britney spears )

Bio Points — addiction tw, drugs tw

born and raised in paris, france, kathryn is the daughter of xavier merteuil, chairman and CEO of a multinational luxury goods conglomerate, and as his only child, she is also the sole heir to the corporations. when the french billionaire married the a-list actress margaret simmons, attention stuck to them and never left. born to a life under the spotlight meant it followed kathryn around, too

kathryn’s parents were a mess and the press loved them. she was thirteen when her parents divorced. her mother got custody of her due to a minor allegation against xavier and his company — one of mommy’s brilliant plans, kathryn soon realized. after that, she went to live with her in new york, seeing her dad in paris from to time. not long after that, her mother remarried and suddenly, kathryn had a two new men in her life

kathryn has been modelling both couture and commercial ever since she was born. the media liked featuring the disaster couple, but they adored the little princess that charmed her way into everyone’s lives — the french sweetheart beloved by all

at 18, she started her own fashion empire, mœurs — a luxury brand that sold high end everything from accessories to lingerie. convinced that she held nothing but promise, her her father supported and funding it all the way. his only condition was that she get a business degree to solidify her hold on his corporations which she did

when kathryn was 14, she started to develop a not-so-loving relationship with drugs. she started with mj and eventually worked her way up until she owned a a little crucifix that doubled as a vial for coke and had it with her at all times

she hit rock bottom late last year. drug scandals, celebrity drama, twitter stans and haters — all that stuff. it was a mess, and everyone loved seeing how the kathryn merteuil fell from her gilded throne. as punishment, her parents made her take a break from new york, so she ended up in shermer. her inheritance, her contract with her modeling agency, and her time in the spotlight was all put on hold. she had to recover and get on the wagon. now she’s trying to clean up her act, still somewhat torn whether or not she’s doing it for show or for real this time

Personality

actually a smortie — kathryn’s got p big brains ok, she just never bothered to showcase it in school or wtvr bc she don’t need it; she hot n rich. she kinda has some principled views on things, but they’re also shoved in the dark and end up twisted because of what she wants to preserve n achieve. her love for how people see her superceded all that wordy brainy jazz. so long as they know she’s pretty and business smart, she was golden

image-obsessed as sheet — the list of things kathryn wouldn’t do for the sake of preserving her name is barely a list. she did everything she could since ‘95, and then it all went to shit. still, she remains as charismatic and strong-willed as ever. things may have fucked up, but she’s still confident in herself. it’s other people that’s shitty, not her

manipulative as phuck — she doesn’t care how she gets there or who she hurts, she has to get there. makes sense bc she doesn’t handle emotions well at all. kathryn has slept, lied, and, twisted her way to get what she wants, and she always got away with it. the pretty rich girl always does in her world

Possible Connections

the pop culture savvy — it’d be cool to see someone sorta fangirl about her. good way or bad way, but just someone who has kind of actually Knows Her yknow ? do they love her mom who has been in a bunch of diff genre films but were gr9 ? do they hate her father but love his brands ? do they think she’s a crazy hottie or a business icon ? do they love her and stan all that she is and about ? come @ me, boiz n gals n nb palz

kathryn who now ? — opposite of the first one, basically. someone who rlly dk who she is. “ u look familiar but i cant put my finger on it ” typa shit thatd make kathryn go a lil bitch wtf but idk maybe they wanna know her and it strokes kathryn’s ego to talk abt the good shit abt herself or wtvr ? i aint sure but lets discuss 

lil’ devil — mayhaps someone who is sorta urging them to hop off the wagon ? sleep around again, manipulate people, flip off the press ? idk just smth !

savior complex personified — basically someone who thinks they can right all that’s wrong w her. romanticized her to the nth degree and just wants to love her woes away

Established Connections

step-brother, sebastian  valmont — tbd soon, but they a mess, wbk

( a lotta holes here im not ecstatic abt it but thnx for reading, ya sweets. again, this what i get for birthing twins. as always, i’m open to anything ! just drop an IM or hit dat like & ill slide in ur dmz w love & plots & rainbows x )

( also ! she’s supposed to be really popular, think kardashian-jenner goes thru britney’s 2007, so if you would be so kind as to have your muse play along and at least recognize her unless they rlly dont follow pop culture, i would be ur bitch. tysmily )

[startwithbrooklyn]

THE GREAT ND REWATCH OF 2021 / OCTOBER 5, 2019 // return of josh

oooookay folks! that's a wrap! below are my comments about tonight's ep + additional expansions on previously stated opinions. i'm not combining s2 ep 1 with this bc s2 is dead to me! so is s3! i only did this to gather up all these loose thoughts i had when this show with its one lonely season became such a comfort to me that i developed a second consciousness about it. but with these posts i am done! the evil is defeated! i will carry on through the 3rd and hopefully final season of nancy drew with less emotion and better spirits. thank god.

-"talk to owen" nancy firstly thinks of talking to owen only to see what happens w the agleaca; saying goodbye comes as sorta an afterthought mirroring tiffany's possession of george. yet nancy was unable to say goodbe to owen just like w kate. knowing this reveal about kate, i wonder if this was foreshadowing that something big will be revealed about him later? unlikely but still

-nancy + the reality of broken things: 'totems' like broken sand glass sculpture (good place) to show you it's not a dream; "owen broke that" ghost trap to ground him to reality, like how she reached for her locket in the good place, lucy's charm, ace's bear ('totems' idea borrowed from inception)

-george has never been an affectionate person, even with other women- so why does pda with nick suddenly become so important?

-lots of comments about ryan + women but what about carson/kate and karen? again with the hypocritical (interestingly, there is an aspect of violence to women connected with ryan (even though that violence is not his fault); but its not like kate or karen fared well either)

-ryan feels useless- relationships with women as stated by nancy- he seeks to redeem himself by showing up where nancy goes to prove he is good to have around/necessary/needed - but now that he is attempting to act as a parent he has to break through nancy's defenses all over again- firstly she didnt really consider him any kind of threat bc he comes off as incompetent- ie bad business deals- i think i mentioned last ep, their hauntings equalize them as they both attempt to gain peace by searching for answers but now ryan has changed the terms of engagement so he's back to square one, with carson. (which is how we find them s2 cowering in ryans car stalking nancy together)

-ryan's relationship to nancy exposes an interesting layer here. so far she doesnt know about nick/george but they still hold the cards (ie george gets one over on nick's ex/"the new girl") with the revelation of ryan being nancys father, nancy gains an interesting trump card in navigating the social fallout of being nick's ex. like george would take the new spot but then nancy comes out with george's ex in a much higher category. this plays out later on in the ep when george confronts ryan. george wants to talk about "them" but ryan shows up completely focused on nancy, thus illustrating the trump

-"i thought it was whitney with another insipid question" to me this sounds like whitney took bess's advice earlier about "asking aunt diana what she wants" (only to learn it actually annoyed the hell out of diana lmaoo)

-"then you need to fight for it" this hearkens nancy earlier by asking "arent you in by virtue of dna?" the test was positive; she is a marvin just like nancy is a hudson. thats not a fact that they can change. however, diana really acts like it can be changed- and in s2 we see it does change. its interesting for bess to be told to fight to be in a family she's already in and also foiled by nancy trying to fight her way out of her own family. would like to see bess stand up to diana and say something. i mean, she exists. as much as she may want to erase bess from the family, diana cannot erase her existence

-hannah's rolled up sleeves 💙

-"previous keepers records" -from s2- were those not her parents??

-mistaken murderers- everyone incorrectly assumes lucy was murdered just as they assume the agleaca killed owen

-even if owen weren't the price, how can they pay the toll without one of the people who called? i mean if it was anything other than owen and he still died they still wouldve been fucked

-"you don't need to check, i'm not even driving!" okay and giving up the goss. cassidy is me. lmfaoooo

-wonder if this locked marvin industries box will ever come back

-UNPOPULAR OPINION: george's confrontation with ryan comes waytoo late to do anything. i think i brought this up in an earlier post. its literally just her screaming at him now. like he is clocked out moved on. you know a good time for this scene? in the claw when he comes by to "check on her". hes vulnerable, fresh from rehab. and she has a chit over him for punching bookcases/the fuckin country club deal. therewould have been a perfect time to confront ryan on what happened- "what you did to me" okay sis. you admitted ep 1 you werent in hs anymore. youre of age now. admit you fucked up. take the L to force him to swallow the bigger L. and imagine how much more powerful the scene would have been- in george's domain, literally her own office, something ryan doesnt even have because HE DOESNT DO SHIT. ryan is SO EASY to trap but nobody notices. instead they have george try to get some kind of apology out of him when hes already done with that, and only for the sake of her establishing a new relaionship to boot. imagine how much more empowered she would feel if she just got that closure for herself- because she needed it, not so she could trot straight back to nick being all proud of calling a grown man to some random estate only to scream at him in a parking lot and have accomplished nothing. 🤦🏼‍♀️

-i get patrice thinking nancy is lucy but yeahhhhh this isnt how dementia works 😬

-i almost cant with nance and josh. how do you save your would-be murderer? (+ lucy's best friend and brother are in jail, her mom is lost to her mentally; all she has left is nancy and ryan)

-tbh i had no idea how to spell agleaca until bess said "theres no i in agleaca!" i thought it was igleaka like 😂

-damn how george just stares at nicks hand and then gets out herself is just so sad (like she immediately rectifies it but still...)

-"curiosity" part II; nancy who comes back to the sea after her mother died in it- agleaca drawn to lucy's trauma/to agleaca, lucy died fir "love"- would nancy be willing to risk the same? // this is also one of nancy's "mirroring mom" moments: winning sea queen, going to the velvet masque, getting caught by celia, having a "chat" with everett, and "falling" off the bluffs

-the collector 🎵👌🏻

-i wonder if there's any significance to the locations/means of their deaths; nancy's is pretty straight forward in terms of where and how, but why george and nick drowning, in the truck specifically? drowning in love? idk. ace's at the claw i get, but he gets himself caught? in what precisely? what does the fish hook mean? and bess's makes the least sense- burning alive? in the marvin estate? maybe the agleaca picked the most painful death for the marvin blood relation? idk. up for debate lmk ya thoughts

and lastly:

-i remember seeing this ending for the first time and i had just been traumatized by avengers endgame and since black widow is also a redhead seeing that shit at the bottom of the cliff it was like 😰😰😰 TOO SOON

-random thoughts-

these are just things i noticed, feel free to grapple with them or take note of them for extrapolation in s3 (lord knows i wont be) they probably belonged in recaps for previous eps but i either didnt find them in my notebook or couldnt fit them in

•nancy and truth/the perception of truth: using facts to suit theories instead of creating theories to suit facts- nancy often plays with the perception of truth and the details that fall between the steps; but she is also a victim to them by people who also know how to play the game (ie Carson) ex lying about the dress (tea cups and knives, trash got picked up, bail paid 1 hr ago) her inferences can be off from what others tell her ("people always lie") but she can also come to the wrong conclusions organically (carsons trial) more willing to believe the best in others/wanting them to be innocent (think nick ep 1) but later finding out the truths hurts more so she chooses to isolate herself and avoid involving others to be spared pain

•maybe i'm dumb, but who is "mr marvin" exactly? owen? the bald guy from the funeral? this comes from the guy who takes sailboats out like ep 4ish and says "ive worked for the marvins 20 years" she compliments the ship, he says "mr marvin and i just took her out this morning" so?? who is that? plus last ep just saying cassidy and isaac are her "late husbands children" dows thet mean sebastian? like did diana marry in? i feel like it would be odd for her to so embrace the "marvin way" if she wasnt a true born marvin

•ik college becomes a more s2 topic but none of the crew have ever been to college 🤔

•nick + the relationships with people whose reputations are tarnished: tiffany with investigating the hudsons/marvins, josh with murder/attempted murder, kate and 'stealing'/lying about nancy (esp compared to her almost preternatural kindness i mentioned before), george and her mom/family's reputations --> this kind of segues into nick + the concept of believing people you love could be capable of horrific things- accidental or on purpose (see- having to tell his family what happened)

•at the beginning, nancy kind of seems to be the "i'm sorry you're upset" kind of apologist and knows it. she also doesnt usually apologize earnestly bc shes never really sorry (she always has to get what she needs first ie coins mess) and she doesnt want to lie; to me it seems she doesnt like to bother with other people bc they require certain cues/niceties that are often lies- they ask "how are you" without meaning it, they dont really want an honest response except "fine", they dont like it when you call them out on fakeness, etc/ they require apologies for their bruised feelings even if youre right (and nancy can be pretty rude/nasty if provoked- a harshness unsoftened by sympathy)

•cont'd from the good place ep- since kate apparently means nothing to nancy anymore according to last ep ("stop calling her my mother") is her policy of "always seek the truth" now null and void? this mantra is now tainted bc the person who gave it to her broke it so much. can nancy disengage w it now? does she fall from grace to be complicit in "mysteries" of her own like everyone else? does she lose some of her "god-like" holier than thou act bc she is now literally born and raised in the "darkness" of sins/ugly truths like everyone else's? (ie truth is ugly but not to nancy, until now)

•did lucy disappear because her "murder" was finally solved? or simply because her trauma was addressed- she never meant to tell anyone about her suicide plans, the twisted trauma of which was too great to contain/unable to move on due to "sin" - or unable to move on because secret of nancy's parentage still remained? "lucy never wanted me to figure out how she died" she only wanted nancy to figure out her parentage without solving the mystery, yet did lucy see/witness nancy's revelation at the claw, or with carson, or even ryan? waiting for karen/josh to know? or just vanished?

•concept of imperfect mom figures- lucy, kate, celia, victoria, even karen- who all struggle with failings

•since karen dispelled one of lucy's attempts at nancy's haunting at the garden party, is that proof she isn't haunting karen?

•the crew + needing adult help: george's possession and victoria, club busted and owen, car accident and mcginnis, thom and cipher, larkspur lane and sal, bones and john, agleaca and hannah

•everett is always sitting- at his home office, at dinner, at yacht club (wonder if that was his actor + had to do with his recasting?)

-dad talk-

•both her dads think negatively on her "girl detective" thing but ryan sees use in it as a means to get answers, carson would never 'use' her in that way

•nancy + carson : suffering

"what about what i wanted?" + carson being imprisoned for weeks but she immediately rejects him (the DAY he gets his freedom no less) with no regard to his suffering (caused by herdiary!!) in regards to her own from this new knowledge (she does suffer a lot- "almost dying is my new normal" but still)/ the "thankless job" of parenting

•nancy + adults - connected to cop thing a few posts earlier : nancy is v precocious and smart for her age- she is "old enough" but also has trouble with the "adults" in her life- fathers, moms, karen, and cops letting her down but depends heavily on "adults" she cantrust- hannah gruen, john sander, lisbeth- highlighting her youth and occasional naiveté; nancy is unafraid to hold adults accountable for their actions (ie karen) but also loses them as allies along the way. both hannah and john are very nonthreatening and also experts in their fields, while her fathers and karen are revealed to be "just another brick in the wall" average, capable of mistakes, and not the people she expects them to be, while characters like john and hannah can only benefit nancy because either they do not mean as much to her or have no reason/nothing to gain by lying; they are purposefully shown to be small, demure, gentle, and nonthreatening as foils/opposed to karen, ryan, and josh whom she previously trusted; carson (+kate) is nonviolent as well but has the biggest betrayal which is perceived as an act of violence to her very personhood/shattering who she thought she was so she cannot be that anymore (admits truths to john "everytime i dig i hurt everyone" and hannah-agleaca) : unclear if redemption is possible for anyone :

•nancy bonds with carson over loss and then ryan over haunting. but actually, nancy rejects carson over loss bc she wanted to say goodbye and wasnt allowed to- so carson was with kate but nancy was not. nancy and ryan are more equals about haunting bc they both start around the same time and conclude together as well [nancy and ryan bond over thinking their parents conspired to kill lucy- think sitting on the floor at velvet masque] nancy is appreciated by ryan for her ability to get answers- he has no qualms about going through her/outside of police bc he wants results/instant gratification and thinks nancy is more so the expert in her field/respects her even through her age- once again acknowledging she is braver than he is (think lucy + claw parking lot) and her portent in the car freaks him out bc shes usually always in control, esp with him

•bc nancy was told "you can't be afraid of the truth" until she was / ironic bc shes braver than him except when the truth is they are related then she's scared to tell him while he actually starts to take some initiative

•nancy picked "the wrong person" to help her through her grief in her dad's eyes like her mom's best friend was somehow a better choice? carson truly "parents" nancy even during grief and haunting (which she rejects) whereas nancy and ryan are really equals in all their situations which is actually better for her and easier for her to maintain- nancy's expectations are low so anything that ryan gives is a bonus. nancy's expectations of carson were shattered by his lies so now she has nothing to connect with him about- they could barely even connect when sharing the same grief- carson actually very hypocritical hence nancy's upset at karen revelation yet carson doesn't agree bc hes the "adult" and shes the "child" not realizing she hadnt been one for a long time (hidden staircase perhaps?) whereas ryan better treats her with lack of controlling parental nature bc he is impressed with her competence before he receives that knowledge; "lucy was smarter than me too" acknowledging her intellect negates his ability to "parent" ie control her to leave him solely with caring about her wellbeing in her situations + aftermath - i honestly dont think carson would ever admit that shes smarter than him* bc he thinks shes not "all grown up" yet ("youve kept me on the bench for years"); ryan is more willing to meet her where she's at which is so important for all her good relationships - ace, owen, etc

*carson asks for nancy to figure out "who to trust" in ep 12, finally admitting that she is useful/ie acknowledging that her skills/abilities do help, are necessary, and can in fact save lives --> this is then s2 follow up by working for him (but it takes him that long)

•ryan/nancy/carson venn diagram - using sex to escape trauma

•if not carson vs ryan then what about celia and everett vs patrice (and josh)? at this point in the narrative, do you think ryan's parents would take his side should the knowledge become public (without their involvement), or deny nancy?

•"we were a family" + the disruption of family dinner- kate was really the one holding that family together and her death makes it unsustainable

okay!! that's all folks! i have exhausted my plethora of nancy drew thoughts + knowledge. you will never have to hear from me again!! TYSSM 😘

[cassiejade]

July was a pretty good reading month for me, even though I had placed a lot of pressure on myself to participate in a couple readathons and that stress kind of took a toll on me, I still had a good time and that’s important.

I am very proud of the amount I was able to read, I did end up reading a total of 16 books but I did not fully stick to my tbrs.

  Ash Princess by Laura Sebastian my rating: 3 out of 5 stars

I had a hard time with this book, I didn’t care for the first-person perspective at first because it made the character seem really good at spying when she was pretty terrible at it, but once the character was called out on her bullshit I began to enjoy it a lot more. Aside from that, the rest of the book was pretty mediocre for me, I’m not sure if I’m going to continue on with the series.

The Falconer by Elizabeth May my rating: 3 out of 5 stars

This was another one I had some mixed feelings about, I loved the Steampunk Edinburgh setting and I desperately wish that there had been illustrations because you can bet that I would have poured over those.

Charlottes Web by E.B. White my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I read this to fulfill one of the challenges for the Goodreads Summer Reading Challenge, the challenge was to reread a book you loved when you were younger. I used to love Charlottes Webs and I still enjoyed this reread but I did find myself getting annoyed with Wilburs attitude.

Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden my rating: 5 out of 5 stars

This was so weird for me! I think this was a reread for me like maybe I read this over ten years ago but I don’t remember reading this, I love the movie and have seen the movie several times but I kept remembering little details and minor characters that aren’t mentioned or referenced in the movie. So I must have read this before but I just don’t remember. I did really love it, I love the storyline and Chiyros journey.

  European Travel for the Monsterous Gentlewoman by Theodora Goss my rating: 5 out of 5 stars

I love this series and I have so many good things to say about it, its so fun to read and see all of these classic gothic horror characters. I just can’t get enough.

Captain Marvel Volume 1: In Pursuit of Flight by Kelly Sue DeConnick my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I really enjoyed this, the art style alone is fantastic, it has a bit of a Zack Snyder feel to it, like some of his movies have that gray overcast and this had that as well. There was also this badass women’s squad fighting in world war 2 and they all had fun and spunky personalities. Just an overall fun read.

Red Sister by Mark Lawrence my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Idk why but I had a really hard time getting into this world. I think I’m going to reread this soon and I feel like I’ll have a better time around since I’ll be a little more familiar.

The Thousandth Floor by Katherine McGee my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I really enjoyed this, I was a little surprised by how much I loved this because I had heard quite a few mixed reviews. I did think that the storyline was a little basic and predictable but that didn’t make it any less enjoyable and the world-setting is so interesting and really makes up for it. This is another case like the Falconer where I wish there were some illustrations.

  The Golem and the Jinni by Helen Wecker my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I was pleasantly surprised by this, this was a case where I couldnt remember why I owned a copy of this. I dont remember buying a copy, I dont remember being given a copy of it, but am I glad I had a copy because I really enjoyed this. Chava and Ahmed were really cool characters to read about and see how they interacted with the world. The story wove together in a really amazing way and tied all the characters together very nicely.

Meet Cute by Helena Hunting my rating: 2.5 out of 5 stars

I fell so let down by this book, I did write an entire review for this expressing why I was let down so I won’t go into much detail here.

The Husbands Secret by Liane Moriarty my rating: 3 out of 5 stars

This was another one that I felt kind of let down and underwhelmed about. If I had read this before Big Little Lies I think I would have enjoyed it a lot more. It was a bit predictable and some of the drama wasn’t quite believable.

Furyborn by Claire Legrand my rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I enjoyed this as I was reading it, the characters are interesting and the fact that everything is taking place a thousand years apart is also interesting. I’m excited to see where the story is going from where it left off, most of book 1 felt like a build-up so I’m expecting book 2 to be explosive.

  Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon my rating: 5 out of 5 stars

OH MY GOD. That’s it. That’s all I got. Just OH MY GOD. I haven’t stopped thinking about this ever since I finished it, I almost want to reread it, it’s phenomenal and I don’t know what to say or what I can say, just this is worth the hype. I loved everyone and everything.

Vengeful by V.E. Schwab my rating: 5 out of 5 stars

You should all know by know how I feel about V.E. Schwab and her books if you don’t the words “pure love” might sum it up accurately and completely. This book was no expection, I felt like I couldnt breath I was in so much anticipation. Marcella is an amazing villain and I just wanted more of her.

Favorite Book of the Month: European Travel Least Favorite Book of the Month: Meet Cute

July 2019 Wrap Up July was a pretty good reading month for me, even though I had placed a lot of pressure on myself to participate in a couple readathons and that stress kind of took a toll on me, I still had a good time and that's important.

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1 - Who was the last person you texted? i sent a video to a groupchat and i was left on read

2 - When is your birthday? december 31

3 - Who do you want to be with right now? i honestly dont know, id like to see my grandparents cat, that would be cool

4 - What sports do you play? i dont play any

5 - Who is the first person in your contacts? my mom 6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment? katatonia soils song

7 - If you were stranded on an island with your best friend and ex best friend, how would you feel? it would be kind of weird i guess, but it would be fine idk

8 - What do you feel right now? idk man im tired i kinda wanna take a nap

9 - What chocolate is your favorite? literally any chocolate i dont care

10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have? none

11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account? well i created my first one in like 2014 i think because i was curious and didnt know what tumblr was

12 - Do you have a Facebook? yes

13 - Where do you want to be right now? im in my room so idk im fine

14 - What do you want to be in the future? not sure, something cinema related probably

15 - When was the last time you cried? Why? cant remember

16 - Are you happy? nah

17 - Who do you miss? quite a lot of people because i suck at maintaining relationships

18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life? i mean there are some aspects id like to change so yes i guess

19 - What was the best thing you were given? idk man probably my sebastian stan autograph but i kinda gave that to myself because i waited for him next to a door to know i wont miss him so i have no clue man

20 - Who was the last person who called you? probably my mom

21 - What is your favorite dish? lasagna damn

22 - Who is your bestfriend? dont have one

23 - What is your biggest regret? every single decision ive ever took mostly

24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner? no

25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with? no one

26 - Name someone pretty: Hale Appleman and Jason Ralph

27 - Who was the last person you hugged? a classmate, mada

28 - What kind of music do you listen to? alternative mostly

29 - Are you over your past? no

30 - Who is the last person in your contacts? a classmate

31 - What kind of person do you want to date? someone id get along with duuh

32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night? nah

33 - From whom was the last text message you received? well two friends talked in our groupchat last night

34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt? jeans

35 - How’s your heart? idk man ask her

36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “C”? no

37 - Do you like someone as of the moment? not really

38 - What would you do if you were stuck in a vault with your current boyfriend/girlfriend and your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend? well idk man i dont even have a current boyfriend or an ex

39 - Do you have any phobias? sort of

40 - Did you try to change for a person? yes, and i did and i kinda lied to myself in the past but i think im over that period now and im more real

41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone? idk i put quite a lot of effort into the presents i give people so i hope every single person who has ever received something from me liked it

42 - Have you ever been backstabbed by a “friend”? fuck yes oof 

43 - Are you in a good or bad mood? im neutral

44 - Name the people you can’t live without: ummm 

45 - Describe your worst nightmare: the magicians getting canceled

46 - Describe your best dream: the magicians cast coming to east european comic con :(

47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

48 - Have you ever been kissed? yes 

49 - How long is your longest relationship? welp

50 - Do you regret your past? some bits of it yes

51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else? yes oof

52 - Have you ever cried over someone? yes

53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone? yes, sort of

54 - Are you a crybaby? only on the inside, thanks cancer moon

55 - Do people praise you for your looks? nope, they only tell me they like my hair sometimes

56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t? hell yes but ithink im kinda over it now 

57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret? yes oof im a shitty person so i do that more often than i should

58 - Do you like getting hurt? ehh no

59 - Does anyone hate you? i hope not, i dont think ive ever had an impact big enough on someones life to make them hate me

60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “A”? yes

61 - What hair color do you prefer? literally any color, rn i really like dark hair

62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it? id make myself skinnier

63 - Do you love someone as of the moment? i guess

64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself? 

65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school/college/workplace? i mean yes, there are people who annoy the fuck out of me but i can ignore them because i dont have any reasons to waste my time on them

66 - Can you live without internet? yes

67 - What’s the song that reminds you of the person you like? rise against - saviour and until the ribbon breaks - one way or another

68 - Are you good at holding back your tears? hell yes

69 - Do you think first before you speak? usually yes

70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical? i guess

71 - Are you a fan of musicals? yes, they are pretty cool, but i dont think i know enough musicals to call myself a fan

72 - Do you study hard? i mean yes because i wanna keep my scholarship

73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love? i dont think so

74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight? no

75 - Have you ever ridden a boat? yes 

76 - Did you have an accident last year? no

77 - What kind of person are you? annoying probably

78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone? who hasnt

79 - Have you ever been jealous? way more often than i should unfortunately

80 - How many jobs do you have? none at the moment

81 - What are you thinking right now? that i should stop procrastinating and start cleaning my room

82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts? anna

83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase? nah, i dont think i wanna erase anything

84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel? i mean i think maybe

85 - Did you ever badmouth someone? yes

86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone? yes

87 - Do you have trust issues? fuck yes

88 - Are you broken-hearted? trying to recover

89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?

90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it? maybe in some cases

91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”? not really

92 - What do you want to do this weekend? just relax because i wont have time to do that next week

93 - Do you believe in destiny? ehh

94 - Have you ever thought “I am unloveable”? yes

95 - How do you look right now? like a mess

96 - Do you believe that things will get better? maybe one day, that would be pretty cool

97 - Have you ever drunk dialed someone? no

98 - What should you be doing right now? cleaning my room

99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends: never had one!!

100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough? always