#like i’m about to explode w nut rn

[casiia]

i’m going to write sub!keegan where reader walks in on him jacking off. (ENEMIES TO LUVRS.)

[oakh4rt]

aaa

I really want to talk about moving w the ppl I live w but I don’t want to be annoying and I feel like I bring it up too much

my partner is working full time now and there’s a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom apartment within our price range that’s gonna be available the first week of january which is still a pretty good amount of time away and therefore more time to save/prepare but I’m scared to bring things up multiple times bc I don’t want to push ppl but it’s also driving me nuts 8))))

like things are going alright at the house rn but it’s still. 7 people. and I’m just really worried about things during the pandemic because it’s getting worse and obviously like we probably won’t be able to move out before the holidays regardless but. ahhhhh Idk I’m just insanely antsy and I don’t do well with ambiguity I need some kind of plan even if it doesn’t actually go the way it’s supposed to

I just really wish it wasn’t eating at me so much

I’ve just been having that kind of feeling where it’s like. things are more or less stable for the time being (Idk if/when shit will explode again but it usually does) but my brain doesn’t want to accept that it’s okay because then I just start invalidating every other stressful experience I’ve had here because it’s hard to wrap my head around the idea that “things can be ok and good sometimes in an unhealthy situation but your experiences and feelings about the things that have happened are still valid even if you acknowledge improvements have been made”

like I’m GLAD things seem to be improving around here but it’s just. bleh. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. I’m very restless.