#like i want one but also i dont want one ykno
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fuck it. talking about my brainrot for the past couple days. weeks honestly
cold/hero. as you may know im crazy about any hero ship. but this one in particular is just. i cant describe it man. i just love how cold teases him. i think hes very interested in how someone can be so noble and upright in a situation like this yet also sort of. cowardly. scares of ghosts, quick to suggest inaction, yet always wanting to do "the right thing". i imagine cold dissecting him like a little frog. also smth smth cold willing to do the things hero isnt. i sort of feel like if there Is a voice hierarchy cold is like. right below hero. like a right hand man. idk just my thoughts.
tower/needle. so. ok. two big women beating the shit out of each other. bats eyelashes. LIKE. ok. tower is this big commanding overwhelming presence. she thinks herself above flesh and bone. needle is All flesh and bone. big and overwhelming just like her, but physically rather than spiritually. tower talks and talks and talks, but all it takes is one punch to the face to get her to stumble. i think needle wld like the challenge of bringing her down a peg. they should make out sloppy style. covered in blood.
contrarian/opportunist. i think at a glance they're very similar. both doing whatever they want, kind of selfish, ykno. but. they have completely different motivations. contra feels trapped and like whatever he wants doesnt matter, so hes like. lashing out sort of. opportunist on the other hand, knows what hes doing. hes very intentional. like. UGH. this is getting messy. contra lets 'tunist hold him sideways and use his head like a battering ram is what im saying. is it toxic yaoi, do they fix each other.. who knows. its looney tunes yaoi.
paranoid/skeptic. i miss my wife tails.
witch/prisoner. chained dog stray cat yuri please god can anyone hear me. please its so dark.
burned/drowned. PLEASE GOD PLEASE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
cheated/opportunist. day 35. i cant feel my body anymore. i look in the mirror and i dont recognize the person staring back at me. i dont know how long its been since ive last spoken to anyone. i fear the walls are closing in.
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"what if you regret it when you're older?"
“Ok go.” Although the rough hand on her right shoulder kept her grounded, the tattoo gun vibrating dangerously close to the left side of her collarbone sent a shock through her system. The slightest prick was more than enough to sober her up immediately. “Wait. Wait! No!” The hero squirmed away, losing her balance and promptly falling off the kitchen barstool and onto the cold tiled floor.
“Coward.” The villain started down at her. The gloved hands that had hurt her so many times, gripping onto a tattoo gun. “Get your ass back up and on the chair.”
The hero could taste the bile rising in her mouth. Her excessive drinking paired with being inside the villain’s house was not a good combo. Add to that her tiny tank top she unveiled to give the villain access to her desired area of her very first tattoo. The villain drank as much as the hero did, but his steady hands suggested he was stable. Definitely not sober considering he invited her into his apartment and situated her in his kitchen, regardless he remained stoic if a little determined as he helped her back onto the stool.
“You said you liked the mock up. What now?” The villain’s voice was harsh as it always was, but perhaps the buzz of a few too many softened it into something the hero shivered at. Perhaps the hero really did drink too much. She took another look at the sketch book on the kitchen island, crowded between masterful doodles and absentminded pen strokes, was a clean lined and minimalist illustration of a sun. The hero had totally lost her mind.
“You said it’ll hurt.” the hero confessed.
“Getting a tattoo close to your collarbone probably doesn’t compare to being stabbed.” He traced a finger down a thin scar on her bare bicep. His hand lingered there like it did when he plunged the knife in oh so long ago. The stab back then was slow and deliberate, just like his touch was now. “I promise you can handle it, Sunshine.”
The hero burned red at the familiar nickname, a reminder and confession about the meaning behind her tattoo. They had coincidently been at the same bar, alone at that, and the villain hadn't mentioned it, but the way the edge of his lips quirked up at the bar when the hero brought the idea up meant he knew. He immediately seduced the hero by saying he dabbled in tattoos and had a kit at home. Extremely sketchy, but the hero had drank enough courage and recognized this would be her only chance.
“Why am I doing this?” she asked herself but the villain responded.
“Because you’ve never done a stupid thing in your life.”
“I got drunk and followed my greatest enemy home, that sounds worse than this.”
“In that case this should be nothing.” The tattoo gun started buzzing again. “Stand still.”
And the hero did. She definitely wasn’t drunk, if anyone ever asked she’ll say she blacked out and woke up in a tattoo shop. The villain’s gloved hands were cold on her collarbones, a shiver made its way through her body when the villain leaned in close and whispered in her ear.
“This'll hurt. Just hang on, Sunshine.”
The hero closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and nodded. The pain came sharp, and the villain found the hem of his shirt being gripped in the hero’s hands. He chuckled at her display and made sure to finish as soon as possible. When he finally stepped away the hero’s face was red and her eyes wide with excitement. It was a simple tattoo, a variation of which he'd done a million times but the villain had never been as proud and blown away by his work on someone before. They both looked at her tattoo through the bathroom mirror for a very long while, the hero relished in the sting, the villain taking in the view.
Years later, when the hero finally got back at the villain for the scar he left on her with a knife, she noticed a small crescent moon tattooed on his own left collarbone, right above where her knife plunged into him.
#hero x villain#villain x hero#original fiction#writing#enemies to lovers#to enemies againhahah#angst#missed yall#not proofread!!! sorry#i actually have no tattoos LMAO#like i want one but also i dont want one ykno
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Hey! First of all, I love what you do! It's really beautiful, I just wanted to ask you what software you use to make your illustrations? And what software for pixel art? Thanks in advance for your answers. Keep up what you're doing, it's really too beautiful! <3
Heya, thank you so much for the kind words! Fairly simple answer here, I use the same software for both- I work in Clip Studio Paint. I DO have asesprite and I really want to learn how to use it, mainly for patterning/tiling in pixelart. But currently all I use is CSP. It's served me well!
Pixel art can be done in basically any program that has a pixel brush luckily. But ye this is my usual setup! The one upside of working in CSP is that I can do my regular non pixel art concept sketches right there on the other side of the canvas in cases where i feel i need to haha
#i actually dont do detailed sketches like that trevenant often at all. i just did that one cus it was a bigger one at an extreme angle#also to xplore the colors i wanetd a bit#my usual sketches r closer to the ninetales! n that ws a pretty 1 to 1 recreation of the sketch which is rare i usually#change the pose and design when trnaslating to pixel art.#but yeah VERY loose sketches. mainly so i dont get too hung up on 'this has to look like x' cus it might not be able to translate to pixels#well enough. what i can make look good in pixels takes priority over the og sketch haha (also i dont usualy bother to pose the sketches lol#the tree as u can see had no sketch since ykno. just a tree!#i do all my pixel work generally in one#maybe two layers. a second layer usualluy only for bigger elements i want to be able to remove#in this case the second layer i have for the pixels is the white outline around the tree! for the lum/cress i posted it was the light#rings behind it. also i dont think i ever posted that tree here. sad. it was a nice tree.#maybe i should sometime. i was proud of it#not art#ribbon answers#i also need to finisht hat DAMN TREVENANT its just the bg i gotta polish
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Sunday Snippet
(is that a thing? idk but i literally just wrote this for FoD and it wont be posted for a few chapters--so a couple months minimum--but i just. really wanted to share it so. enjoy)
He casually points a finger at the hideous vase behind their heads, levitating it wandlessly and wordlessly. If he was around other wix, they would’ve been amazed and perhaps, slightly awed. That it was Muggles--and this particular set at that--meant they were almost vibrating out of their skin in fear.
Good.
“Do you know,” he started with a pleasant smile, bringing the floating vase closer to them, enjoying the way Petunia’s mouth opened in a wordless scream. He didn't even have to Silence them. “they thought I could kill 12 people, just like that, with one word. Not one person, not even my closest friends, believed otherwise.”
Once upon a time that statement would’ve hurt, it had hurt him everytime he was conscious enough to think about it in Azkaban. But he’d made his peace with it now, had accepted that there was a part of him that was inherently repulsive, untrustworthy, broken.
“There was a reason for why they did that. My brother--you know him, James--was murdered. They thought I lost my mind, and perhaps I did, a little bit.”
Because James was the last--and only--person who’d never turned away from him. He’d taken all of Sirius’ ugliness, all those rough edges he’d tried so hard to hide, cutting himself and the world in the process, and kept those with himself. Sirius never had to worry about himself around James, because he knew he’d take care of him. Wouldn’t let him break.
At least, that’s how it should have been. They should’ve grown old together, stuck at the hip until their hearts and their magic gave out. James shouldn’t have been buried in the ground at the age of twenty fucking one while Sirius still had to live without him, god, it was so unfair.
It was--
He shouldn’t be living without James. He was nothing without James.
It was that thought that sent a fresh wave of anger through his veins, anger he knew was very plainly visible on his face, reflecting in his eyes, because the moment he looked at the Dursleys, he could hear two distinctive whimpers at once.
“So,” he said, voice rough like gravel, almost unrecognisable to even him. He knew his eyes would be closer to black than their usual grey, the Madness stirring within him, wanting out. “What do you think I’ll do to people, to vermin like you, who touched my godson?”
His only response was a slow, trickling sound and a pungent smell filling the living room.
#sirius black#good godfather sirius black#take a wild guess why hes doing this#bet you'd only need one#but!!!!! im so excited for this!!!!#sirius is grey in this ok#unapologetically#neither he nor i care about the ethics of doing magic on muggle#fuck the dursleys anyway#also bc im me i couldnt not bring in james#sirius is INCOMPLETE without him#hes literally only alive bc of harry ykno#so#yah#i really liked this#literally unedited and the last scene in my doc so far lol#but i wanted to share!!!!!#also look dont get mad about the Madness thing i dont even know if it'll be in the final draft#but i had Thoughts about it#like magic worldbuilding thoughts#and i really wanted to#it'll depend on where FoD goes#but for now it stays bc ~drama#pen's writing#fic: foundations of decay
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. wanting 2 write stuff for bad ending rodimus but it scares me soooo bad
#i love writing him as being self destructive. however#its like. a specific kind of self destructive yknow?#i don't really share in on the sentiment that he'd completely let himself go to the point EVERYONE can tell he's let himself go#but mostly those who spent a long period of time around him would absolutely notice the change.#roddy's the kind of guy to be self destructive in private. i think he's always had a bit of a drinking problem but always managed#to keep it well hidden. extremely high-functioning alcoholic ykno#i think he haaaaates being in tc's ship and i seriously dont think he ever tried to keep in touch with anyone.#hes very much the kind of guy who doesnt really talk to people if theyre not present or text him first#and after a while hed think texting them would be too awkward and sort of intruding in the life theyve made for themselves#i think ratchet's funeral is the 1 time he lets himself go enough for it to be clearly noticed that hes devastated#and i think him putting meg's rodimus star was both sentimentally charged and a way to rid himself of the last thing he had#that kept him stuck in that life#i still sort of think Drift asking him abt the jump is a tad bit cruel. seeing he's the one guy to notice rodimus is in that state#but theyre both stranded. they dont rlly know each other anymore.#also to add to the funeral: rodimus 100% waited for the ceremony to be over so nobody else would get around seeing him in that state#i highly doubt he even wanted drift to see him like that considering he didnt even spend that long before trying to dip#anyway#those r my 2 cents. i guess. oops#ooc / misty forest
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reading book? too much effort. sitting down and writing replies?? can't focus.
youtube rabbit hole of in-depth Barbie history and architectural design of dream houses and playsets? i got all da focus in da world baybeee!
#barbie has always been an Interest especially in adult years since i more or less refrained from being#a hardcore barbie enjoyer because ykno not to gender talk on a tues but i rejected just about everything typically femme because i did not#want to be seen as femme or fully femme from a young age#so even if i really liked barbies i distanced myself from them pretty fast :'(#so now i think im compensating by like. instead of buying them for myself because i dont really want to collect. i just like lmao#obsessively info dive and watch commercial compilations and shit kdjfgdg#anyway did you know barbie has two younger siblings besides her main three that were actually her youngest ones#tutti and todd and they havent been seen since the late 90s? like theyre recognized in terms of history but in terms of#barbie lore and canon theyve been completely retconned out cuz theyve never shown up in sets or movies or anything#did you also know they were made of a bendable soft plastic as opposed to hard and the wires were prone to poking through and stabbing kids#and that the plastic stored like shit and if you put them (soft plastic) on your other dolls (hard) they would literally#melt into each other?? :)#barbie also has lots of cousins just got mentioned briefly and then annihilated from technical canon lol#oooh and then there's also Blaine who is an ex bf of barbie that was made specifically to date her briefly during a sort of campaign#barbie broke up with ken and got with blaine but ofc she got back with ken and after that blaine was never seen nor mentioned again. he deA#anyway happy tuesday im gonna eat my soup and try and break out of this info consuming trance so i can wrITE#oHOH and last silly trivia being barbie has lots of canon relatives that havent been retconned or anything BUT they've also never been made#into dolls. off the top of my head i think some of these include like uhhh her mom and dad and some aunts and shit#tho i think these are either just mentioned in passing or from the barbie movies or some in books
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raven with a distinct, but unplaceable accent. dure it may sound *similar* to this or that, but its not quite anything anyone has heard before...
#if its not clear its an azarathian accent that im talking about.......#i just want raven to always carry pieces of her culture with her ykno?#and i dont mean like how it is in canon where she literally contains the soul of every dead azarathian after her father destroys it#i mean like. the nice ways. like cultural foods and a language with slang terms and celebrations and traditions#i want to explore more of the culture of azarath!!!!!!! yes the people there are human but they are also totally removed from human society#and i want to play in that space!! what holidays did they have? what was their language based on? what were the flavor profiles of the food#like in my mind azarath is very much a subset of humans descended from people in india#given how many things about it take inspiration from indian culture already.#so it would be very interesting to take that thoight further ykno? like how the langauge evolved from a more archaic form of modern ones#how certain traditions stayed similar but others morphed and changed over time#what kinds of agriculture is possible in azarath? what do they grow? what animals do they keep? how prevalent is vegetarianism (bc raven is)#we know its a pacifist culture so perhaps the killing of animals for food is also something they dont person do in that culture...#aaaaaaaa i just want to know more i want to explore the world raven grew up in before coming to earth
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how to be normal about my cousins 4 year old dragging my plushies across the dirty floor while I broom and mop the kitchen

#WAAAAA#callate guero#NOT EVEN MAD OR UPSET AT HER LIKE SHE IS JUST A LITTLE KID#BUT MY COUSIN AND MY COUSIN N LAW DONT EVEN TELL HER ANYTHING 😭😭😭#😭😭😭 I know it may seem silly because I am a grown adult w plushies in my room but those are my items 😭#it’s respect ykno 😔#I also spent the whole day cleaning the house because everyone left and it was so bad….#then again for reference this is the side of my family that is rich and can afford maids and shit so </3#anyways#NO RESPECT FOR ME EVER EVER EVER IN THIS FAMILY#I AM BEING DRAMATIC BUT STRAIGHT UP I AM NEVER RESPECTED EVER AND I WANT TO KMS#no one respect my space my things my name my pronouns my kindness my patience#grrrrrrrrr#I can’t wait to leave and never come back </3#SPEAKING OF IM SO MAD ABOUT MY PASSPORT I TOLD THE LADY THAT DID MY SHIT FOR ME#I NEEDED A NEW PICTURE AND WORE NICE CLOTHES AND EVERYTHING AND SHE REFUSED TO DO IT#AND SO NOW OFC THEY SENT ME A LETTER WHY DIDNT I TAKE A NEW PICTURE LIKE!!!! GIRL!!!!#so I had to go to staples get my own pictures done and mail it over to them… all because the lady who’s job it is to do so#wouldn’t do it…. like GIRL!!!!!#NO RESPECT FOR MY INTELLIGENCE OR MY ABILITY TO KNOW THINGS#SIGH.#anyways…
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i love making random robot ocs for no reason that can barely fit into the stories of the bunches of robots i already have
#pings#current one puppy was supposed to be a part of yuzus story#but i feel like he might not fit well at least w how its currently going but i liek him a lot u_u#his main gimmick is he gets a virus thats sort of like the robot version of being a werewolf#but also its basically just ''arent u tired of being nice. dont u just want to go ape shitt''#puppy is a temp name thats def too on-the-nose but hes...pupy ykno
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erfhugghgh paraskep
i dont think skeptic puts a lot of stock into holidays and special events. like i dont think hed even remember his own birthday ykno. and getting into a relationship would only like. compound the problem ykno. like i dont even think he'd rlly use petnames a lot of the time, let alone set up romantic dates.
paranoid. probably wouldnt care THAT much? but its also like. you want your romantic partner to like. Be your romantic partner. they're not very romantic types but para'd be lying if he said he didnt wanna be swept off his feet a lil. just a tiny smidge.
all that being said, its not like skeptic is a brick wall. he's professional, but he Does have a heart. he blushes, he gets butterflies. showing it is another matter entirely. again, hes not this brick wall, but he Does have an image he'd like to maintain. para argues that he's supposed to be the One person skeptic can let go around but thats easier said than done. and he Does try. just. not very well.
so valentines day is not this big thing for them. it'd probably be just a normal day. maybe paranoid is a lil more prickly. and then skeptic checks a calendar and hes like "fuck" and tries to make up for it. key word being try. para, of course, catches on and while he's a little peeved that it took him this long its like. he'll take it.
and then para gets a lil wine drunk and their night ends with him ranting and venting through their nighttime routine while skeptic just nods and "mhm"s. he eventually tapers off when they get in bed. skep is too busy fiddling with the covers and pillows to notice until paranoid just. drapes himself over him and forces him to lay down. bc he rarely gets this and hes going to savor it.
they do kiss btw. i think the hand kiss is the most romantic kiss and its not too intimate and like. vulnerable for skep. paranoid usually initiates the mouth kisses. he likes how its a sure fire way to fluster him. verbal "i love you"s too. altho its sort of a double edged sword. theyre both kind of repressed.
rrrrrhfrfhfseASRSADGREHGGRRGG PARASKEP BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK
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i was reluctant ig bc i didnt want him to be Divorced cuz he doesnt rly have that energy & it messes w his wifeguy reputation but i do love the energy of like them both kinda being like hey you will always be family to me but we're both hurting too much rn...
i think having iktoms wife still be alive but they separated (probably mutually so? mostly?) after the death of their child makes sense. i did also decide that his dad is retired somewhere so maybe he lies with her... i was gonna be like well now i have to come up with some reason why iktom still has his family home/has his parents inn but i can see why his ex wife would want to put distance from it (and even though hes nearly 80 you would have to physically remove his father from the mountains to stop him from going back to working as a guide)
#child death mention#oc tag#iktom thorne#dazen talks dragon age#i think it would contribute to the crash out either way so thats probably fine. but i dont want it to be like#hes on bad terms with her#more just like#that was Another Life#thinking abt what he says to taash abt like.#leaving old lives behind. you take a little bit of what works from each one#but that also implies ykno. leaving behind what doesnt#is this anything#*lives not lies. on og post
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sydney rambles bc this is my blog and mom said its my turn with the communal barbie doll (obligatory disclaimer of this pertaining to my syd & doesnt have to affect how u view ur own games version! also will be referring to syd with he/him)
circle glasses for max moe points. eris buys him contacts after the 3rd time his glasses get broken. still sometimes wears glasses, mostly for aesthetic appeal or when hes too tired to pop contacts in. has absolutely fallen asleep with them in before. ouch.
wears hair loose now adays but will occasionally switch it up depending on the outfit and event. ties his hair with eris' teal ribbon that he was gifted after they started dating. (kylar has probably stolen that ribbon before, but eris just have sydney a new one lmao)
idc if it is or isnt confirmed, ive been thinking of DID sydney well before i saw the tumblr dollies talking about it (those posts only fueled me lmao) and i 100% hc sysney. at least 3 bad boys are in that noggin; pure syd, corrupt syd, third secret spicy option syd that hes not aware of & is the cause for the "huh? what do u mean i just did xyz thing i dont remember that :-)???" scenes.
in my heart of hearts i do believe sydney is capable of knocking sb the fuck out & he would if push came to shove. the warnings he gives arent just for show! would he feel bad after? nngghh.... maybe. more like hed feel guilty for letting it get that far & have a mini spiral about how hes out of control & oh god plz forgive him,,,
only time hes getting to that level is if his partner is in active danger right in front of him. this is secret spicy 3rd sydney's moment to shine. (fyi eris thinks this is Hot AF & reassures sydney he did nothing wrong. ---purity loss interaction lol)
looks a LOT like sirris (dad in my game) but gets sheepish when compared to him. eye & hair color from mom.
this bitch is packing bc i think its so thematically funny for pure syd to go thru the stages of horny grief while ImprisionedTM & during his descent to corrupt sydney. fallen sydney is a lot more confident with his size! if i were to put a numbered range on what in game "huge" is id probably say were talkin pornstar level 9-11in and OUCH but also ykno what. size queenkings geddit. sydney personally? 10. maybe he was locked up for the good of all of doltown lmaaaoo
as ive seen others put it: sydneys got big "sleeper build" body type. you dont expect this nerd behind the library counter to be ripped but when he flexes u see the muscle and its a big slap in the face to ur arousal meter. Q&A's have also stated sydney to be strong but lack stamina. thats fiiine its just something to work on :^)
idr if its been stated in any Q&A's (sighing again that most lore is locked away in fucking discord Q&A's...) but Personally! i think sydney has a beginning low, to medium awareness after corrupting but! his psyche is fucked and he is ACTIVELY denying any supernatural stuff bc he just. cant handle it.
or, at least, most of the alters cant; i do believe on a deeper level once you get past the trauma fueled denial, he does know and acknowledge shit isnt right. faithful alter will always deny it, fallen alter is a 50/50 leaning towards willful denial, and its probably the other more volatile alter that pops up from time to time that fully acknowledges the supernatural aspects of the time.
i have my game set to not really acknowledge genitalia in regards to pc pronouns bc fuck u. HOWEVER realistically i do think sydney learning that eris was trans literally during the rite of promise would be a very pika gasp moment and hes rolling with it bc he loves him but afterwards he Does ask questions bc he doesnt fully get it but he wants to and eris is patient about it but also mildly on the defense bc he doesnt want to be seen any different than before,,, but sydney's respectful! and after a few months of contemplation he confesses that he never really put too much thought in gender outside of "it just is what it is", but that he himself sometimes feels like an ambiguous question mark.
he still uses he/him, but having his eyes opened to the world outside of cishet normatives definitely puts some things into perspective. he DOES have to learn not to be pushy about certain things, like how ur well meaning friend who's still learning will immediately jump to correct somebody even when you urself dont wana cause a fuss lol. but its all in good faith!
no. he will not ask his dad outside of what is absolutely necessary to ask, bc he knows he's just going to leave that conversation embarrassed. he makes the mistake of offhandedly mentioning queer gender theory like Once and sirris is going on a spiel about how its normal in the animal kingdom for blahblahblah humans are the only species to have so many societal rules and blahblahblah. (sirris is very encouraging and tries not to push but he also makes a big "if theres anything u need to tell me syd, u know i love u no matter what" scene that has sydney running away at top speeds bc AAAAA NO NO U MISUNDERSTOOD AAA;;; )
probs the oldest student LI. once read a post saying something along the lines of "sydney needed to stay in school longer bc of the thing with his mom/hospitalization afterwards" and i think that fits. closer to 19 going on 20, taking remedial classes and kind of in this weird grey space of student & teachers (librarians?) aide bc of his age. +being sirris' kid. it makes for a weird reputation amongst the student body, further alienating him from others who see him as "a teachers pet, teachers kid, & a weirdo whos too old to still be in school". (theyre all over 18, but if i had to place them id say: pc/whitney -> robin -> kylar -> sydney. dont ask for my source this all vibes baybeeee).
i refuse to believe sydney would listen to dad rock. idc if it was a joke by the devs or if it was serious my disdain for dad rock forbids this LMAAAO honestly he probably isnt a very big music listener and just passively lets the radio do whatever or lets sirris choose when they drive together. non lyrical instrumental music is probably his preferred go to music, but i can for sure see him getting catchy top 20s pop songs in his head and humming them under his breath b4 catching himself and grimacing bc its not even a good song its just stupidly repetitive,,, eris' music taste is pretty broad and sharing his tunes is a love language in itself so syd gets a good dosing of different genres over time! he gravitates towards whatever eris likes in true sydney-can-never-choose-for-himself fashion buuut i could see him genuinely enjoying hard rock as a kind of cathartic stress reliever.
big baby. we already know this, but i just wana reiterate it LOL. no matter how much fallen sydney tries to be tough and seductive, hes crumpling whenever eris holds him. they are so disgustingly codependent post-rite lol
however, and maybe im delusional!!, i still think sydney leans on the caretaker/submissive top side. yes he likes to be babied to a degree but we've seen in game how he can and does take initiative once hes comfortable enough. what he lacks in skill he makes up for in eagerness to please. faithful syd may be more pillow princess but i think theres enough instances in the game to show that theres also a side of him thats actively willing to lead and will take initiative! (again, didney hc - the differences lie in the altars but we must remember theyre all still aspects of sydney as a whole!)
its loosely talked about in game, that he likes the ocean but hasnt done many beach activities since the mom incidentTM — but i like to think he has beach mementos in his otherwise very standard bedroom. post romance routing him and going on more beach dates, that collection slowly begins to grow again. its a kinda bittersweet thing, and he probably separates the mom-collection from the eris-collection.
i stated it before but again: i think hed be capable of handling a polyship (a 3 person poly relationship only, including himself) but itd have to be corrupt sydney and hed be a bit reluctant - more or less so depending on who it is youre trying to bring into the relationship.
eris canonically has sydney and kylar set as his LIs, which i feel would be the easiest to accept for sydney given their shared history. (kylar is a different story but this post isnt about him lol). hed still need to warm up to it tho, being the king of dol slowburn, but eventually hed be fine with and even include kylar in things.
now how much of this is his "i need to please pc & tailor myself to their preferences" thing mmm. depends on the third person! maybe a little something like this from most to least easily accepted: kylar -> robin -> whitney -> alex -> avery/eden -> BW/GH simply bc ur fucking with his perception of supernatural shit if theyre beastpeople & hes 100% skeeved out if theyre not.
anyways thats all for now :] ! if u hate my opinions eat my shorts its ok bc they dont have to affect ur game's worldstate or how u view ur own version of sydney!!! if u like it, woohoo! questions about anything i didnt mention? feel free to ask! *im not in the discord, im not a dev or contributor, nothing i say is canon, these are just my hcs, etc etc disclaimers.
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hi saw your daddy kink post discussing the phenomenon of giving grown characters surrogate parental relationships, and I understand where you’re coming from, but i really feel like it’s just a matter of the circles you run in, and the assumptions that you might make because of that. you mention how platonic reads of these dynamics are more uncommon than kinky reads, which i just don’t think is the case, and I think that arguing that people don’t even realize that they’re writing a kink is a little bit bizarre, and sort of assumes that you know more abt them than they do by projecting your own experiences onto them.
it isn’t inherently sexual to crave protection or a parental relationship that you may have missed out on, and it is certainly not universal. in my own family, my “grandpa” isnt my biological grandfather (nor do I really consider him to be my grandfather), but he’s my mother’s surrogate father and has been since she was in her twenties. an adult. he sees her as a daughter. she sees him as a father. there’s absolutely nothing kinky about it. and anybody who automatically assumes that must have their mind deep, deep in the gutter and/or the stranger side of the Internet. really, i find it a bit of a strange argument to randomly post in the first place—as if it’s a problem that so many people enjoy non romantic and non sexual relationships, and that these people must, in fact, have a daddy kink that they are unaware of.
that said, i do absolutely agree that fans bringing any part of that into phil’s chat is weird and they should Not do that, and that infantilizing characters is also very weird, and personally i dont even see him as being father figure to anybody on that island except his eggs, wilbur, and MAYBE an argument could be made for tubbo (which other cc’s on the island have joked about), but to each their own and all that.
sorry this is so long. TLDR, i get where ur coming from in terms of “warning , some people might read your stuff differently than you want here” but really not everything is a kink and paternal dynamics can easily happen in regards to adult characters, particularly young adults, without there being any inappropriate connotations. i know nothing i said will change your mind, obviously it’s set, but ykno diff perspectives and all that. hope ur doing well
Thank you for the ask! I see you were on mobile, I believe. :D I am also going to push the character limit with this response, I fear.
I agree that it isn't inhernetly sexual to go after a parental relationship that you missed out on, and there are many such cases. I'll even go so far as to say that it's not inherently kinky to go after a parental relationship that you missed out on, because there is such a thing as non-sexual kink, and heaven knows that MCYT writing is full of non-sexual kink. Lots and lots of stuff that is platonic that is kinking on fear, or being drugged, or kidnapping, or hypnosis, or familial relationships, etc— there's lots of people who aren't doing that. There are tons of people out in the real world (and in fiction), who are simply just expanding their family as an adult, and that's awesome. When I was in college there was this older couple who kind of adopted me and invited me over for thursday dinner, and they were awesome. There was nothing untoward going on there.
But look. I am an emduo fan who likes to see my guys be murdery, and because of that, I've ended up reading a bunch of Dark SBI. I've ocassionally gone "this cannot be what everyone is doing" and I've read stuff tagged as "family fluff" that I find recommended. I am aware of where the genre is going, particularly with the rise of "dadbur" and "dadnoblade" interpretations.
And look, you have just got to trust me on this one. People are writing stuff that in any other fandom I would be recommending they put kink tags on the work so that people who liked that trope could find it and people who didn't like it would avoid it, but that comment in DSMP would just lead to people getting doxxed, so I just grit my teeth and go "i guess that's baked into Dark SBI or Tooth Rotting Fluff now, I sure hope that doesn't hit anybody's triggers".
Like I PROMISE you. The first draft of this response included excerpts of fics that I've read and I was like "can YOU pick the ship fic from the /p fics here"? But I have a horror of ever leading to someone getting cancelled on twitter, so nothing that could possibly be identifiable of these writers. But like—
Some of the ways that Tommy gets treated in the narrative are almost indistinguishable from a bodice-ripper romance. Some of the tropes being used— within DSMP we've all clasped hands and agreed to interpret it being platonic, but in any other fandom, you are going to start getting comments that you might not want to get. The tag is FULL of stuff that is DD/LB in everything but name. Maybe my mind is in the gutter here, but if you move out of this fandom, you are going to move into circles where a lot of people's minds are in the gutter, and you are going to get a very different response from your comments!
And I was talking about daddy kink here specifically, because I see that one come up a lot and it's gotten egregious lately, but this also applies to dehumanization, and fearplay, and predator/prey, and "instincts" (in every other fandom that's gonna get people in a mashup of A/B/O, Hypnosis, and sometimes Agere responding to it), and kidnapping/drugging, AND the way a bunch of "piglin instincts" stuff is just a BDSM au now where the Brute (dom) needs to be callmed down by their Runt (sub). The SBI tag is super kinky right now. And I don't have a problem with that idealogically, write your truth, but a) please don't bring that up in front of the streamers, b) if you move to another fandom you have got to be prepared that not everyone is doing their kink platonically.
Like I'm assuming that people don't know what tropes they're playing into, they're just building them from first principles, because the other alternative is that they are deliberately and knowingly writing kink and posting it in the & relationship tag with insufficient trigger tags, and I prefer to believe that people don't know.
I'm glad we agree about people bringing that into Phi's chat, or Pol's, or Luzu, or any of the other streamers that people have decided is So Old. A lot of people aren't comfortable even being assigned dad, as we saw with Felps, so bringing it even further is just— uh oh, no.
I do not have a problem with people liking non-romantic and non-sexual relationships. I find it a bit odd that much of the fandom can't concieve of a non-romantic and non-sexual relationship without making it familial and specifically lately father-son— don't you have close friends?— but I am fully in support of gen writing. I primarily write gen! I'm an avid commentor on gen fics!
But some of the tropes at play in the fandom are kinky, there is no way to avoid that. The fact that they are set in a familial relationship doesn't negate that. Some of the ways that the DSMP characters get treated would be distinctly non-familial if you ever brought it out of that context. And I am just warning people, if you bring it out of that context, be prepared for the response you get.
You cannot take DSMP tropes and apply them one-to-one in other fandoms, with other streamers swapped in, and expect them to be read the same way. Like i'm sorry, but that's just true. If you are posting the same sort of stuff that for Cellbit & Phil that you would post for Tommy & Phil, people will assume that you have a daddy kink, because usually when a relationship between a adults that are actually similar in age is refered to with paternal language it's a kink thing. That is how the broader internet works. (And anon, if I had a daddy kink, would I be complaining about the fact that I can open any SBI fic and have about a 40% chance of hitting it and I'm seeing signs of this appearing in QSMP? I assure you I'm not "projecting [my] own experiences onto them" here.)
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helloo i was wondering if u have any tips on how to start learning how to draw?? i’m gonna try it for the nth time and force myself to not give up and since i absolutely LOVE ur art i was hoping you could help me?? thank you in advance and have a happy new year 🥰
omggg i just saw this :O!! i havent been around here so i didnt see :C but anyway!!! im not sure what advice or tips to give tbh so ill just share some things that helped me 🙇
knowing what im drawing (basically...using reference lol ) u might've seen this tip a lot but its true 😆 think of it as like... training wheels on a bike AHSAHSAHHA u use training wheels for some time until u can be good enough to ride a bike without them or something like that.... its the same with using reference. u have to know and get familiar with what an object looks like first before you're able to draw without it and with confidence. tbh i dont always do this bcos sometimes i just wanna mindlessly draw ykno 😔 and thats okay as well!!! just remember that reference is very helpful when u hit a dead end with ur artwork :D also learn from real life!! look around u! sometimes id stare at something and nod in understanding. ----------------------------------
draw what u love <33 honestly, i only got back into drawing when i went down the vtuber hole a few years ago LMAO i would draw vox akuma eveyday 🙂↕️ and then my love for one piece got revived so now i draw my favorite characters every chance i can get bcos its all i can think abt!!! its honestly a good motivator. ----------------------------------
accepting and learning from mistakes ive always struggled with perfectionism and that really took my enjoyment and love for creating🥹 and that also stopped me from experimenting and exploring coz id always think that it wont come out as i hoped it would. SOOOO for the past 2-3 years i think?? i make it a habit to STOP ✋ being super critical when i see or make a mistake. the perspective is wrong? noted. the anatomy looks wonky? okay!! i let them exist in my artworks bcos how would i even know where to improve in if i dont know what it is 😅 i also make sure to keep those errors in mind so i know what areas i should be working on. u can always correct them on ur next work!! and the next!! again and again!!! its never-ending! ure always improving, always learning. ---------------------------------
i also have a board of artworks and styles that i really really like and i look at them when i need inspiration hahaha sometimes u just have to scroll thru pinterest for hours and draw nothing lol
personally, i think one doesnt have to draw everyday to be good. i mean, you can if u want to! but u might burn out fast if u force urself to draw everyday. just.. pace yourself. remember to rest and be good to yourself as well :))
thats all i can think of right now. i feel like i could share more but im just not good with words or explaining things. forgive me 😔🙇 our experiences may differ and what helped me may not be of use to u,,, but i hope this can help u even juuuuust a bit :"D be proud of every piece u make. u worked hard on it after all <33
(also sharing my art throughout the years!)
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also pigeon evbo is fuckin awesome i love the idea that the species he is reflects how people treat him n stufz and as for the other ppl in the noob level i like to think theyr all just some type of like bird you see everywhere here in my country theres mayas literally everywhere and nobody rlly pays much attention to them just maybe feed them every once in a while and then they just blend in with the surroundings like how the pros dont rlly care that much abt the noobs so they dont rlly notice them that much hehe :33 not sure abt what other avians they could be tho!! and if in this au everyones a creature of some sort what would the pros be? and the masters? oh my gof wait thought just came through what iff emf gained the ability to like shapeshift once they became champion omg i originally thought like emf is normally how they look like canonically but like all misty? not entirely solid but has like ykno particles floating around and once theyre champion they can go full mist mode and change their proportions and apearance and stuff but still kinda look like themself? but honestly the idea that emf can shapeshift into any form and chooses to be ominous as fuck is hilarious lmaoaoa anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk there will be more
OHHH IM SO GLAD YOU AGREE!!! AND ALSO EXACTLY!! SHAPESHIFTER EMF MY LOVEEE <33333
but to address your other point,, we’ve established that the noobs are different species of avians, and if you wanna get real angsty with it they’ve all probably had their wings clipped so they can’t fly or save themselves when missing a jump and the fighters are vampires, but what about the other species?
so!! honestly i want to say the masters are also shapeshifters, but like- to an extent maybe? as in they can alter their physical appearance to some degree, but it increases exponentially if they become champion. and that might actually be a pretty cool incentive to do so, if they go from being able to vaguely alter how they look to changing their fucking state of matter lol.
tbh, i’m not quite sure about the pros!!! there are so many options, i’m not sure which one to pick!!! (if anyone wants to drop a comment or an ask you are so so welcome to do so!!)
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so i told my friend that i wouldnt repurchase rdr2 if i had the choice bcos they used real horses for the motion capturing, which i thought about ig because in the animations u could see the horse acting fearfully which was pretty upsetting cos obviously thats how the real horse felt? ykno so thats why i said i wouldnt rebuy. but it got me thinking cos like, while video games dont usually use real horses for the mocap (at least not the indie ones i play), movies almost always do...like in wicked they had that horse. and it was really obvious the horse was in pain (because of the tossing head and gaping mouth, and the actor was HAULING on their head). so should i have not gone to see the movie? but then yknow, the food in movies is often dead animals and for costuming they use skin and stuff so following that logic its kinda all movies and tv shows i shouldnt see?....idk what do u think?
I think that this needs some thought about what is ‘practicable’ to avoid. Pretty much all film sets will have served meat in production; it may be consumed on film, costume will be made with animal fabrics, horses may be trained and used, or dogs. I’m also not convinced that boycott for this reason would even be registered as dissatisfaction by the studios.
I think we can boycott and draw attention to particularly gratuitous examples though, and campaign for animals to be kept out of the entertainment industry. While I don’t think it’s reasonable to expect every vegan to do this, we all draw our lines in different places, and if you want to boycott a particular game or development studio and advocate that others do the same, I think that is completely legitimate.
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