#like i first applied in 2019 and they turned me down so i've spent the last three years collecting diagnoses like pokemon

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18 months of red tape bullshit but i Finally got my disability benefits awarded today which means i can Finally get a decent wheelchair . on the outside i am still and quiet but on the inside i am screaming and jumping up and down

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A totally self indulgent compilation of my favorite works on this blog of the year June 13, 2019 - June 13, 2020

I wanted to do this for the blog's first anniversary but then completely forgot about it lol.

The following lists are all in chronological order according to the date each post was first published.

Top 10 panel edits:

#1: Don and Gilda - Chapter 138: Demon serch (1)

Date: Jun 14th, 2019

Time: ~ 1:30 h

My very first redraw from my very first edit posted here, so it deserves an honorable mention. Back then I was young and inexperienced, I didn't even apply a gray filter (lmao I was so unskilled I even unintentionally scratched the picture, I hadn't realized until today). I'm actually very happy my first redraw was of Don, boy deserves all the love.

#2: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!

Date: Jun 28th, 2019

Time: ~ 1 h

Back then this looked like so much work to me!!! And to this day, I think it turned out pretty well. I'm particularly proud of how the bow turned out. This is one I was really proud of right after having finished it; it gave me the confidence to try redrawing bigger areas. Also, the edit were I first applied the opacity of layer / opacity of brush for the gray filter that would have stuck with me.

#3: Krone's birthday edit

Date: Jul 15th, 2019

Time: 15 mins

I don't know I just really like how Krone's hair vanish to a more sketch-like style here– and consequently, how I managed to replicate such effect. I think Krone's beautiful.

#4: Emma, Norman and Ray - Chapter 153: Coward

Date: Oct 4th, 2019

Time: 4:07 h (and 67 layers lmao)

Probably the single panel redraw I'm the most proud of. That Norman panel was beautiful and very poignant at the end of a chapter I adored, so I believe it deserved all the time I've spent working on it. It's far from being perfect - the back of his head is too plain, and the difference between my brushes and the original brushes is pretty visible - but I still like it very much and am extremely attached to it. The horn looks kinda big but I honestly believe it to be more of an issue with the original than with what I had redrawn lol. Funny enough, the whole picture didn't make it to the final edit and had to be trimmed.

#5: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough

Date: Oct 11th, 2019

Time: 29 mins

I don't have a particular reason for this I just think Emma's hair turned out amazing. It took just half an hour and I didn't even use references like. Wow. @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back

#6: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born

Date: Nov 17th, 2019

Time: 2:09 h

Sis I love this so freaking much. The shift from redrawing almost exclusively people and clothes to redrawing this mess was so fun and refreshing. Even though it's a mess I think it turned out very clean and overall it looks beautiful? I remember after finishing this I felt so powerful, like now that I had redrawn this thing I would have been able to redraw anything I set my mind on lol.

#7: Emma - Chapter 161: Never Be Alone

Date: Dec 13th, 2019

Time: 57 mins

Again no particular reason except this is a very cute Emma and I think the redraw turned out pretty well. There's this big lock on the left that doesn't make a lot of sense but overall I really like it. Cute Emma is cute, and I love her determination.

#8: Emma - Chapter 166: Going Back Home

Date: Mar 9th, 2020

Time: 3:45 h

I'M SO FREAKING PROUD OF THAT RIFFLE I have not the slightlest idea why this took so damn long BUT I'M SO PROUD OF IT

#9: Norman's birthday edit

Date: Mar 21st, 2020

Time: 1:04 h

This is cool! I didn't know I could manage to draw this, but I did it! The feathers were particularly hard to clean but I think they turned out fine.

#10: Full Score Trio - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)

Date: Apr 6th, 2020

Time: 2:11 h

I just think they're very pretty? I can't understand if I like Ray's face a lot, or not at all, but I think overall there was a lot to redraw and it turned out pretty cute! Sorry Gillian.

(Also insert pretty much every panel from the chapter 177 Isabella edit– I've spent so many hours on basically every panel there's no way I could choose only one).

Top 5 edits as whole:

#1: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!

Date: Jun 29th, 2019

Complessive time: 2:57+ h

The very first edit I'm actually proud of; I'm really attached to it. It's the first edit I had put all of my effort into, and I remember feeling anxious people would have left it without notes. It kinda feels weird to think about it now, because I really don't care about notes anymore; yet, it somehow makes me happy to think that past-me wasn't let down. Thank you @neverlandstrio for your support, you may not remember but it really meant a lot to me back then! And it still makes me smile. You're the best!!!!!!

#2: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born

Date: Nov 20th, 2019

Complessive time: 7:12+ hours

This whole edit was an hella wild ride. It's midnight before a school day, when I think: "Mh, it's been a while since I last made an edit, why not make one about Musica and the queen from the last chapter?" And seven hours after this was born. I'm particularly proud of the queen's redraws on the 3rd, 7th and 9th picture (ofc), the areas which have been redrawn are pretty huge yet I think the difference with the original is almost impossible to notice?? @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back (part 2)

#3: Emma - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)

Date: Apr 12th, 2020

Complessive time: 6:53+ h

I think the panels that were selected work very well together, especially considering the close-up / full body alternation. I love Emma, and I've always been kinda sad noticing that edits that focus one her take the less notes... She deserves all the love. Also, fun fact: for the last but one panel, I had redrawn Emma's whole left ear before remembering she doesn't have one, so I had to redraw the panel from the start. Besides from the error with the ear, the reason why this (and all the others after) took so long is because official panel take way longer to clean.

#4: Isabella and her children - Chapter 177: Mother

Date: May 22nd, 2020

Complessive time: 13:41+ h (ahah.)

Lmao tbh I can't understand how this has so few notes it's like. Technically speaking, probably the best edit I've ever done. I don't even like Isabella that much, I haven't got the slightlest idea why I decided to spend so many hours on this. Anyway, I find the composition (full body on the left / headshots on the right) really good looking in this as well! And I think the redraws turned out fine, especially Isabella's.

#5: The Promised Neverland manga ending countdown→ 1/7 chapters: chapter 1 - Grace Field House

Date: Jun 9th, 2020

Complessive time: 1:59+ h

I don't know how I came up with that idea for the composition but I find it really beautiful??? I think it does a pretty good job conveying the sudden, terrific shift of atmosphere from the first chapter, and I think that sharp bridge is very nice. I'm very, very proud of this.

Honorable mention #1: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough

Date: Oct 13th, 2019

Complessive time: 3:44+ h (+ 1:13 h of working on a panel that ultimately didn't make it to the final edit)

A very good chapter, and the edit turned out surprisingly amazing??? All the redraws look great and make it almost impossible to distinguish them from the original; honestly I feel like I'll never be able to redraw so neatly again lol.

Honorable mention #2: Don and Gilda (+ Norman) - Chapter 160: Shackles

Date: Dec 11th, 2019

Complessive time: 3:14+ h

That one is really one of my favorite scenes; I'm telling you peoples, Gilda and Don are a blessing to the earth. I think I've never mentioned it, but Gilda's hair is a nightmare to redraw??? More specifically, it takes me h o u r s to fill the texture without making it look too weird, it's the worst.

Honorable mention #3: Norman and Ray - Chapter 179: Compensation

Date: Jun 6th, 2020

Complessive time: 4:16+ h

I was so glad to finally be able to make a Norman / Ray edit, and it turned out it was just in time before the series' finale. I like how it turned out and I'm pretty satisfied with the redraws (even though my sister helped me with the lineart of some panels - it was exams time and I really couldn't afford to spend more time on it), too bad we didn't have more chapters that focused on the boys. Ray sweetie one day I'll fix your ear it's just today's not that day.

Btw, I justed realized I have never done an Emma / Norman centered edit? I'll have to make one eventually. I remember considering focusing on them alone for the chapter 154 one, but then I thought "even if the manga is gonna ignore Ray, I will chose to do not" lol.

Top 5 long posts:

#1: Reconstruction of how the Grace Field children were settled in the three bedrooms

Date: Aug 28th, 2019

I just had really a lot of fun doing it. I love putting all the little things to their own place, it's so calming to do and that's why I love making this kind of things. Also, loved how @temporoom contributed to the post! It was so nice of them to add what they had noticed to come up with more exact conclusions, that's one of the things I love the most about the internet.

#2: A study of how many times the characters of The Promised Neverland call each other through the first season of the anime

Date: Sep 10th, 2019

I REALLY LOVE IT! I mean it *was* kinda stressing to note everything, but it was very also very satisfying to see everything methodically divided and organized! And it's not just that– it's also the fact that it looks good. That's one post I have fun rereading because it's actually pretty! Also, even though it can be very stressing to learn to use new programs and sites, it's always very satisfying to look at the final result. Again, I really adore compiling these tiny little details! I would love to make more posts of that kind if i had the time.

#3: The Promised Neverland musicals headcanons

Date: Oct 27th, 2019

I mean it's literally. Putting my two favorite fandoms together how could I not love it. This is another one I really enjoy rereading, I find all the musical / character associations so fitting! I really want to make a second part, I hope to find some time to do it.

#4: Considerations on the reward / eventual series' finales (and Emma's sacrifice)

Date: May 7th, 2020

It's always nice to put down all your thoughts regarding a particular matter. It can take a lot of time (at least for me it does because... I need time to think about things), but it's so satisfying to see all of them there once you're done. Bonus points when, like in this case, it was something asked by someone else because “Wow! Somebody wants to hear my opinion on this subject! I'm flattered (◍•ᴗ•◍)”

#5: Some other considerations on the series' finale and Emma sacrificing herself

Date: Jun 13th, 2020

Pretty much the same as above. It's like some kind of clarity when the post is done and signed. Another fun fact, I had to censore the post a lot; the first version was extremely sharp and harsh, but I believe it's right to express your opinions calmly and politely.

Bonus: A thread of what the tpn characters would wear at the Oscars

Date: Feb 9th, 2020

Imagining all the children in those pretty dresses makes me so incredibly happy (╥﹏╥) I go back to look at that post a lot. I really love red carpets, I love looking at pretty dresses!!!!!

Lmao it's so funny how the post of mine I like the most are also the ones with the less notes

Anyway this was just a personal report! You don't have to read it all (or any of it actually). But it was indeed fun making it! Here's to many more months in the fandom!!!

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2018

January

2 weeks into the year I cut my hair, probably like 80% of it. Which I quickly regretted. It just seems like every year starts with me doing something to myself, except this one. This January there'll be no surprise, promise.

I also had to decide what schools and courses I wanted to apply to until the 15th. So being the person that I am, at 23:20 on the 14th I submitted all the forms. Earth science, civil engineering or software engineering? I had another 6 month to find out which path my life would take.

February

This photo was taken at around 6 in the morning when I was on my way to a nearby city to take a language certification exam. I was so nervous because I was going into the C1 level right away, basically blindly with no exam experience whatsoever. I remember arriving and meeting 3 other girls who were there for the exam too. We started chatting and they all said that they took the B1 level previously because their teacher advised them. One has already failed, this was her second time. One was there with a whole book of exercises. They all looked so prepared and for a moment I panicked. If I were to fail that day, I'd have had 40 less points for my university application. And a lost bet with my girlfriend. But I didn't fail neither of those.

I also got my girl into MBTI that month, which quickly became the new astrology of our relationship. ENFP-INTP pairing. Cute, huh?

March

This was the month where I kind of chilled down for a moment. It was totally unjustifiable but I still did, thinking I've got plenty of time still till exams would start. I was going to school, doing some small preparations but nothing major.

April

Now this was the month where I regretted all the laziness back in March. My days were counted and I know that makes it sound like I was about to be executed but that's exactly how I felt.

On top of that, in the middle of the month my mum got hospitalized suddenly. It was supposed to be just a check but they didn't let her leave after it. My days were spent with visiting her instead of going to school. She scared us shitless but slowly she started getting better with each day and by the second week she was already coming home.

May

Oh May. I had graduation right at the beginning of the month and 2 days later my week of exams started. A peaceful image of my table right before maths exam. 20 minutes later it wasn't as peaceful anymore.

School ended for good and we had a monthish time before the second part of it all, which are the oral exams.

June

So many papers, hundreds of pages littered everywhere. Stress, overthinking, contemplating why I even applied for software engineering when I was so sure I'd fail the comsci exam, procrastinating, some self pity and over all panic.

One of the exceptions was this day, my mum's work did a little event. They work with old people, helping handicapped elders. A school building full of people who long left the classrooms, doing all kinds of crafts, little games and even some shooting outside. We sat around painting on glass, doing things we probably haven't done together in like a decade.

29 out of 50 so be careful, sharp shooter right here.

July

The 25th came around and at 20:00 sharp the point limits went live. The website instantly crashed by the tens of thousands of people and my blood was loudly rushing inside my head. Once it finally let me in I was scanning through the names of the different universities, then different faculties and lastly the different courses. Earth science. 290. Less than the previous years. A lot less actually. I got into the place I wanted to so badly. I got in by a ridiculous amount of points.

August

An accidental snapshot of my feet while I am having a mediocre melt down in the middle of a bridge over the Danube. The morning started horrendously, I left my student ID at home but I only realized it on the train. Which meant I couldn't buy discounted tickets but I didn't have enough money for the full price ones. So I called mum who called a friend who has a car that they have to come to the city with my ID within 20 minutes because if I miss the train I'll be late and won't be able to enroll to uni. That got solved last minute when they arrived 4 minutes before the train left, which then arrived to Budapest an hour late, the tram was out of service so I took one of the replacement busses but they only went till the Pest end of Petőfi bridge. Which meant I had to walk over when I was already running late so we could very well say that I was done at this point with life and everything.

September

With this picture we can confirm that I wasn't late for enrollment. This is the place most of my days are spent at. The days leading up to me having to move were filled with a weird type of anxiety. It wasn't the kind I was familiar with, it wasn't as scary. As consuming, as toxic. It was kind of exciting, like the feeling you get before getting on a roller coaster. My girl made it feel like that, the security of having her. If there's one good thing about LDR then it's the fact that I can literally have her anywhere with me and it feels like not much has changed. The calmness that this gave me was beyond understandable. I still had her, so there was no need to panic.

Of course it was still a little challenging, the whole change in our schedules and although it sometimes got a little frustrating, she was understanding and I need to thank her for being my safe spot, for making me so brave when I used to be so scared. Without her I would have never been able to do this and she knows that.

October

This is my view everyday when I go to work and back home. A city of so much magic and beauty and also a city that I can't wait to share with my love.

We had our first anniversary. A whole year of being together. I got off of work just in time before it turned midnight in the Philippines. I had a bag of cookies I made the previous day to show, cute, heart shaped ones. Maybe it wasn't the most ideal way or how I imagined it but the meaning behind it is still the same. A year of loving eachother, slowly changing, slowly realizing who we truly are as a team.

November

I made that! My job's description would most likely be miscellaneous. I stand at the counter, make coffee, help customers, sometimes clean or go to the post office, I'm responsible for the paper bags and cups, but on the weekends, I bake. I spend all my Sundays there quietly doing my job. Cookies, pies and as it was getting closer to Christmas gingerbread as well. I had the most tiring days, one time I spent 12 hours there building 6 of these trees and around another 400 of normal figures. My hands got inflamed by the end of the night because of all the icing I had to squeeze out. But nonetheless this is a good first job. I get to learn around really nice and helpful people. Not even mentioning all the free food I get.

December

A happy girl living a more challenging life than ever but still enjoying it like it's nothing.

Decembers are nice. I think back to all the things that happened this year and how different they were compared to last year. I was whining for 66.66666% of the 2017 post. And for the 2018 one all I can think about are the good good things that happened. None of the bad matters. I had one of the worst and one of the best years of my life after one another. No doubt about that.

So yeah,

2018 was a year that will truly be missed. I loved it. But no need to mourn anything because 2019 will give me even more things to write about at the beggining of 2020. Not to even mention 2021. This is far from the end.

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Platformer Development

Ok wow so this week was...insightful. Learning the ins and outs of GDevelop took a lot longer than I was expecting, and I spent even more time just trying to get the platform-spear throw idea to work.

Thankfully the tutorial provided me with a pretty decent skeleton for a platformer, basic jumping and enemy "AI" so they can patrol around and be menacing, I basically just ripped this project for my own development as a good jumpstart (I even kept the name Bingus Platformer because the default model we were given looked like a good Bingus to me). In Chapter 7 of Game Design Workshop a Playcentric Approach to Creating Innovative Games (Fullerton, 2019), Fullerton discusses the loop/technique of visualising, building, playing, then refining or building upon a prototype, this method of design was much more helpful than I would have thought and I found it to be very fluid and engaging. She also emphasizes that a design should almost solely focus on "the fundamental mechanics, and if these mechanics can sustaint the interest of playtesters". Using this knowledge, as well as a bit of my learning from IGB181, I built a white-box style space with a single enemy in it to playtest my mechanics as I was designing and developing them. This would also force me to play the same pieces time and time again and eventually helped me polish and tweak little things here and there (such as the enemies model being slightly too high to jump over, so I added a double jump to make it easier and more expressive to move around, plus its cool ninja stuff).

Spear Mechanic Development

First things first was the core mechanic, throwing a spear. Immediately I realised I had absolutely no idea how to do anything more complex than a jump in GDevelop so consulting youtube was a must. I found a few tutorials recommending the use of bullets, which made a lot of sense to me I'm basically trying to create a projectile that sticks into walls. The bullets worked in that they shot out when I pressed the Q key and it was pretty straightforward to make it kill the enemy using collision/delete logic, I even gave it a spear model, but for the life of my I couldn't get it to stop when it hit a wall and turn into a platform.

Eventually after playing around for far too long, as well as realising that the the enemies "AI" was basically just a blank sprite with a force applied to it, I found my solution. Instead of creating bullets I could just create a platform object (I eventually made it a jumpthru platform) that looked like a spear and apply a force to it from wherever the player was standing and determining the direction using the same direction text variable assigned to the player, then if it hit a specific type of wall it would simply stop all momentum. Honestly this revelation alone felt amazing and it worked exactly how I wanted it to, at least at first glance.

Unfortunately because it was a platform the player would glitch in and out of it until the spear was safely far enough away, this required all kinds of weird fixes like fine tuning a spawn displacement over and over again.

Above is the basic whitebox I worked with to test features, at this point I added some simple instructions as well as an ammo mechanic, since I was planning on making ammo management part of the puzzles (EDIT: there were no puzzles created past me was far too ambitious, also the character is mid jump because screenshots require holding shift which is apparently a default jump button, fun).

I let two of my friends play this very basic concept as they were partly watching me develop the game on discord. One friend thought he was very cheeky finding an erant pixel outside the map to stand on.

and another found that a spear would get stuck in the wall if you were too close to it, the sacred benefits of testing have already become apparent (but also no, I didn't bother fixing this)

"Finished" Development

So its now been a week since I implemented the spear mechanic and here's what I've done .

I was far too ambitious in my pitch but this is the completed version for now so let's break it down with some quick thoughts.

Wanting to develop extra skills and abilties to unlock was beyond what I should have realistically expected given the time it took to develop what I have so far. (maybe slightly lazy but time was also a big factor)

A nice-ish backdrop was added as well as a decent level

While creating the level I realised it kinda bland to just have the same enemy over and over again, it was also pretty hard to think of new ways to throw a spear at a wall.

A jumping frog enemy was added, the samurai enemy could not be jumped on but would always drop a new spear, while the frog enemy was the opposite and forced you to risk goomba-stomping him or spend a spear

I added a little floating cloud (and a recall button to pull it to the starting point) the player would stand and have to keep up with while navigating a little challenge

Bonfire finishing point

Easter egg if you can finish the level with a spare spear and jump over the wall next to the bonfire (the easter egg has not been shown as while it adheres to player reward theories discussed by designers and academics, Im not so sure they would approve of my reward (no, its nothing vulgar just an inside joke for my friends who will playtest the game shortly))

A lot of this process was pretty straitforward thanks to me prior experimentation in my "white-box", I felt pretty comfortable coming up with new pieces of content and implementing/iterating upon them. One particularly interesting mechanic was in response to my friends very initial playtesting where they found it was cumbersome not being able to drop down from through your own spear (Terraria platform style).

I figured out how to make his suggestion work by disabling all spear objects platform behaviour upon pressing the down key, then re-enabling the behaviour once the player was falling fast enough (I tweaked this amount to be just enough to fall through and be caught by another spear just below it)

This logic for this mechanic is shown below, I've also thrown in the spear-platform logic as well because why not

So that's that, my level is finished in my eyes, time to move onto player testing and then the postmortem before checkpoint 1. Here's the link if you'd like to play it, not sure why the background doesn't work though: https://games.gdevelop-app.com/game-56eaf9d8-8391-4669-ab73-60f081963ef2/index.html

Fullerton, T. (2019). Game Design Workshop: A Playcentric Approach to Creating Innovative Games.

Re-Logic. (2011). Terraria [PC].

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07/11/2019 DAB Transcript

1 Chronicles 11:1-12:18, Acts 28:1-31, Psalms 9:1-12, Proverbs 19:1-3

Today is the 11th day of July. Welcome to the Daily Audio Bible. I am Brian and it is wonderful to be here with you today as we continue moving forward, step-by-step, day by day through the Bible this year. This is a big day because today when we get to the New Testament reading we will conclude the book of Acts, which will lead us to begin the book of Romans tomorrow. And, so, we will move into letters from people to people as we continue forward through the Bible. But we’ll talk about all that as we go through it. Let's not get ahead of ourselves. Let's be right here and finish the book of Acts well but before we can do that we have our Old Testament reading from the book of first Chronicles. Today we’ll read chapter 11 verse 1 through 12:18 and we’re from the New International Version this week.

Commentary:

Okay. So, we concluded the book of acts today, as we mentioned at the beginning. And the book of Acts concludes with Paul…well...with Paul finally ending up in Rome. But yesterday we were in the ship with Paul being buffeted by the wind and the waves and all hope was lost. And then there was an island. And as it turned out, the island was called Malta. So, if you just look at a map of the Mediterranean Sea and you find Caesarea, so way at the east end of the Mediterranean Sea and Israel and then you look at where Rome is and then you look at where Malta is then you realize how fortunate it was that that they landed on Malta because if they had missed out island, well, they would probably for sure not have survived. The wide-open sea and a watery grave would've been out in front of them. And, so, as it turns out Paul tells everybody there gonna live and they do and the Maltese people were friendly and there’s a bonfire and a beach and a snake incident, right? And we’ve seen this with Paul before. They communicate and then people start thinking their gods and they want to worship them. So, there's this snake that attaches itself to Paul's hand, he shakes it in the fire, and everybody's like he's a murderer, and he's gonna die and he doesn’t. So, instead of a murderer, they think he's a God. Obviously he’s not a God and obviously he’s not trying to say that he is, but he does use the opportunity when people are listening to walk right through the open door and share the gospel of Jesus. And, so, during the three months that they spent on Malta Paul healed and ministered. And then when they sailed away they sailed away with great honor. Malta’s still an island. It’s still a place. We have brothers and sisters who listen to the Daily Audio Bible who live on Malta and we’ve heard from them over the years. Malta ended up being one of the first of the Roman colonies to convert to the faith of Jesus and they still honor Paul's visit all the way until today.

And then we also have to talk about what we read in Proverbs because Proverbs 19:3 pretty much lays out an experience that we have all had and is kind of the normal posture of the world toward God. “A person's own folly leads to their ruin. Yet their heart rages against the Lord.” And that is as true a statement as it gets. We’re all guilty of blaming God for whatever happens to us, right? God, as I've said in the book Reframe, has become the cosmic trash sheep for all of our suffering and while we’re heaping that blame we’re like taking steps backward away. We’re like…we’re trying to remove ourselves from being culpable at all. Like, if God is sovereign and all-powerful then He wouldn't have let this happen. Have you ever heard that one before? I mean have you heard that before? Have you ever said that before? Probably heard and said many times. But when did we become above God and strong and powerful enough to comment on and make assumptions about what He does and doesn't do. He is the sovereign Almighty God, Creator of all things. I mean, the fact is, blaming somebody else for something that you have done is a horrible thing to do, but it's also not healthy. It's like a disorder. It’s devastating to relationships. So, why do we continue to do it to God when He's the only one willing to stand with us no matter what may come. Like bad things happen that we navigate ourselves into, right, our own folly, our own foolishness, and it leads to our own ruin, and then we want to blame God for what happened when actually He's the only one that is still standing with us in it. He’s not to blame. He's in it and can help us navigate out of it but we’re trying to transfer blame. So, a good relationship happens when people are willing to own their own lives and actions. So, it's kind of time that we apply that not only to our other relationships, but also to our relationship with God. There's nothing He's gonna leave us and abandon us over if we’re walking with Him. There’s nothing He’s not gonna guide us through if we’re walking with Him, but He also loves us enough to let us walk away if that's what we’re after. And we need to stop blaming Him and we do. Better yet, we should stop walking away at all, ever. Or as the Proverbs says, “a person's own folly leads to their ruin.”

Prayer:

Father, we've experienced that on number of occasions, big and small in our lives. We can certainly appreciate and validate what's being said here in the book of Proverbs, but we also have to acknowledge the ways that we try to shift the blame. And when we can't find any person to put it on we put it on You and this pulls us apart. No relationship can stand like that. If we were in a relationship and the only thing that was going on was transfer…transference of blame, that's pretty…that's a pretty slippery slope that’s not heading in a good direction at all and we’ll end up with the ruins, the relationship. And, so, we shouldn't be surprised in how we’re continually confused about our relationship with You, and yet even in that we want to blame You. Help us to look in the mirror today and Holy Spirit, help us to see. Help us to see what we’re doing. Help us to see that it's not healthy. We surrender to You. You are the sovereign God and we acknowledge that when walk away from You, life does begin to spiral, but it's not You who pushed us away, it's we who walked away. Forgive us, God. We return to You. Come Holy Spirit we pray, in the name of Jesus we ask. Amen.

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I want to remind you about…about the family reunion that's coming up at the end of August, first part of September, over Labor Day weekend. We have a fantastically beautiful camp out on Percy Priest Lake that we just locked down for us. We needed to try to increase the capacity from what we tried last year and so we've done that and so there's availability and hope you can come. And I want to mention a couple of things about that. We locked down all of the cabins there. So, as many of you can stay on site as want to…they cost a little bit more than a hotel around here, but not by much. And there the size…they’re the size of like a house. I mean they’re laid out like a bunkhouse, but they have their own shower and bathroom and all of this in it. But they’re huge and spacious and right on the grounds and we have a few of those left but we’re gonna have to release them back to the camp in another week. So, want to give you heads up on that. And also want to tell you why you should come. This past year, this year of 2019, this year of maintenance this year of maintaining, man, at least for me, one of the most poignant words, advanced words that I've gotten and as I hear feedback from the community, yeah, maintenance, maintaining that takes a lot of focus. And at least for me, halfway through the year now I've…yeah know, I don’t know what the second half of the year completely looks like, but halfway through here I can say, “man you can't really be involved in what you can't maintain otherwise you need to question whether you are involved in it, because if you can’t maintain it then you’re eventually gonna have a problem. And then just in terms of my relationship with God, I realized, if I want more of God than I have to be with God more, which means all these things that I’m maintaining, I have to question whether I should be. And one of the things that Jill and I realized coming into this year was that we…we were coming to an end of the More Gathering on Sharp Top Mountain in Georgia. We didn’t know what was next or for that matter still really don't know exactly what's next we just knew that was supposed to happen. And, so, in obedience we did. And at this point now we know, oh, next year were not gonna be doing all of the things that we've been doing. Next year were supposed to be doing some things that we've been trying to bring to resolution for years and also God is inviting us onto some new paths. So, we won't be doing the More Gathering in 2020, and we won't be doing the Family Reunion in 2020. We will be going to Israel in 2020 and that…that pilgrimage is about sold out. There’s a handful of spots left. And, so, if that's been on your…on your list to check into, I would check it out. But I'm saying all this to say, this Family Reunion is really meaningful to us because, you know, we’ve been at this for 14 years, seven days a week, and the Lord is inviting us in the next year in 2020 to breathe and to dream again. So, this family reunion is meaningful to us because it puts us face-to-face with you and not just seeing you by voice but seeing you in person. And, so, I hope you can be there. I hope you can come to the rolling hills of Tennessee and see what all the magic is about here and visit our hometown of Nashville, which is the destination place. For whatever reason, we just watched our city explode with a lot of energy and excitement. So, Daily Audio Bible family reunion is coming up August 31st through September 2nd here in the rolling hills of Tennessee and you can find out all about it at dailyaudiobible.com in the Initiatives section. Just look for Family Reunion and you can find out about it in the app as well. And hope to see you there.

If you want to partner with the Daily Audio Bible then you can do that at dailyaudiobible.com. There is a link on the homepage and I can't thank you enough. Summertime comes around and it's when we have to make some of the most risky decisions with the least amount of resource to do it with as we head into the end of the year. So, thank you profoundly for your partnership. If you’re using the Daily Audio Bible app, you can press the Give button in the upper right-hand corner or, if you prefer, the mailing address is PO Box 1996 Spring Hill Tennessee 37174.

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And that is it for today. I'm Brian I love you and I'll be waiting for you here tomorrow.

Community Prayer and Praise:

Hi Daily Audio Bible, this is Rebecca from Michigan, July 6th. You know what Brian, I want to thank you for reading all those big names in the Bible because I think I would get totally discouraged and put the Bible down if you didn’t read them because those are huge names and it’s like you’re almost speaking in tongues. It’s like I was so amazed at how you went through all those names in the Chronicles. And I’m like whoa. So, yeah, I appreciate your reading every single one of those names in the book of Chronicles and I thank you for the Daily Audio Bible because it’s like a big world Bible study, a big world reading of the Bible all over the universe. It is like one big gigantic Bible study learning about the people in the Bible. And sometimes I think in the past some things in the Bible have been very frustrating to read but you have made it come to life, alive in our spirits and our physical world and emotional and mental. It’s like if the Bible’s just coming to life in our present day and it’s like we’re living back in time kind of like super book. I don’t know if you remember that when I was little I remember super book. But yeah, it is like amazing how you read the Bible all the time. And I actually picture myself in the shoes of those people living there or like how do they kill all these people and all. But, yeah, thank you very much Brian. I appreciate it a whole lot, you reading the word of God to us. Thank you and…

Hi DAB family this is MK and I’m really needing your prayers right now. I’m in such a bad place. I’m so angry. I currently hate my church very much I finally feel like I hate everything, and hate is such a strong word but that’s what I’m feeling. I feel so much rage towards my leaders, towards my pastors, just towards everyone right now because of a situation that occurred where there was injustice. But I need you to pray for me and that I would remember that I go to a good church, that every church has…has issues and that there is a need to…of a revival in my church and that as I a church member, a child of God, I need to pray for my church but I ask you to pray for my heart ,that I’d feel peace, that this anger would leave me and that I be able to move on from the situation with God. Please pray for me DAB family. Thank you for your prayers and I pray for blessings and prosperity in all of your lives and for more renewal in Jesus’ name I pray and I say Amen and I thank you. Bye.

Hi there, I just need to ask for some prayer. I lost my job a while…a couple of months ago and I was supposed to give up my apartment, I’m living with a friend and I recently __ thank God I recently started working again and I managed __ but unfortunately, I’m __ living __ six __ at the moment. That’s how many times I’ve thought about __ . He kind of just ignores me and still tries to have sex with me. And I’ve started drinking just because it makes it easier. And recently I’ve looked in the mirror and I realized I can’t…I can’t notice myself anymore. __ God’s really bad and he actually went there for cigarettes and I realized, that no, that’s how many times he __ interested in your body but __ he smokes or he’s interested or whatever. I’m just so run down that I don’t even try and fight it anymore, even when he’s been smoking cigarettes out. And I just sat there, and I took it. And when he tried to have sex yesterday…that’s how many times __ he said to me you’ve just gotta stop. I’m never gonna know the country. I don’t know anyone here. I can’t breathe at the moment and I don’t know how to __…

Hey, it’s Andrea from Kentucky and I just wanted to encourage you with a prayer of encouragement for an everyone. So, Father I just thank You for Your goodness and Your kindness. I thank You that You want to co-labor with us, that You want us to speak with You on a regular basis. I thank You that You are destroying the lies of the enemy and You’re destroying his darkness over our lives. I thank You that You are opening up our eyes to the truth of who You are. I thank You that You are creating a deeper intimacy within Your people, within Your body. I thank You that You are delivering us from the God of this world, that You have already delivered us from the God of this world, that You are teaching us how to be wise stewards and wise managers over every area of our lives so that we can be faithful in the small things, so that we can be ruler of the greater things. Father I thank You that You’re destroying poverty off our minds. I thank You that Your destroying the lottery kind of messaging of our minds when it comes to our finances but that we have a healthy understanding of finances. I thank You that we are increasing our skill sets in finances so that we can go out and do the will of God, to take care of the sick, to take care of the widows, to take care of the orphans and take care of those who need someone to speak up for them. I thank You that You are moving the financial mountains, the financial burdens of our life so that we can be free people, free people to pursue all that You have put in our hearts to do. I thank You that Your delivering people right now from suicidal torment just as You have delivered me from suicidal torment. I release that testimony into the airwaves to the people that are listening, and I thank You for releasing people from depression, oppression, suppression in the mighty name of Jesus and I thank You for healed relationships, healed marriages, healed bodies in the name of Jesus. Yeshua You are worthy…