#like i cannot come up with an agenda for this bitch myself!!!! i dont know who she needs to meet with or who's available!!!!

[queenerdloser]

super annoyed bc im off of work today on sick leave and i was JUST snuggling down for a much needed afternoon nap when i got a panicked text from my coworker bc one of the faculty members i work for needed to know the agenda for a visiting speaker next week. and she’s full on like can we add soandso to meet with her and is anyone getting breakfast with her and can you arrange her to meet with soandso before she leaves? and im like. okay i have the agenda but i asked you literally LAST MONTH if you wanted anyone to meet with this person and your ONLY reply was that you couldnt and the division director couldnt. so no, there’s nothing else on her agenda because as far as you told me no one could meet with her. maybe. you should have considered her agenda. before the WEEK BEFORE she gets here. like i asked you to. a month ago. then this would be done and you wouldnt be scrambling to pull people out of your ass to sit down with this speaker. 

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 3 - "I can feel my fangs coming in...tail growing...literally about to snake someone tonight and idk who it should be." - Owen

Out of all the people to take out 9-1.... you take out Beastman? Like when Nehemiah- THE PERSON WHO WAS ALREADY VOTED OUT- was there? Like what kind of fucking logic is that? Seriously, had you all used your heads and actually THINK- that should've been the 9-1 vote... Not for Beastman. Literally livid right now, and while I love the immunity of the safe zone, I do not want to tempt fate and throw this next challenge. I am here for myself, and any agenda that I have of wanting this asshole of a player gone- needs to wait or I need to have others do it for me. Praying that it is the latter over the former.

Well, I’m sad that Matt B. Was voted out. I felt that I could have worked with him in the game. Now there is still 10 complete signs and Nehe (Pisces) in the game. We need to win the oasis atleast so we can talk to people because not being able to communicate with anyone else is really gunna hurt us. I rather be in the oasis than warzone. This next immunity looks like we have a chance to win but it is gunna be lucked bases and if anyone wants us to be in the warzone. Hopefully no one does and we can slip into the top 5 now? and hopefully top 3.

Matt will never read this but it's okay, I wanted to type out my reasoning as to why I was chill with him being voted out. 1. I'm trying to play a game that's a little more selfish and a little less selfless to see if I can catch lightning in a bottle and get a TS win. 2. I really liked Matt and had things gone differently I would have been all about a long term alliance, that being said if I'm going to work with someone I need them to be able to keep their name off the unanimous block. He didn't talk to anyone at all til it was too late. I need an ally that if I things gets sticky for me then they need to he able to have pull to help me out of it. 3. This is a long game and we only have quick snippets of time to make connections and I'm not about to throw my vote to spare someone's feelings and get 8 other people start to think I'm swishy washy. They need to believe they can call upon me if they need to. Sorry about the 9-1 vote, but it's a game and we have a long way left to go.

Only remaining Matt! And boy do I feel powerful. However, I feel worse than ever regarding the challenge, it’s just extremely complex and it requires myself and Adrien to put a lot more effort than we are putting in. It’s hard because with only two people there’s no one else to rely on but ourselves, and honestly it’s consistently easier just to defect to him so at least something gets done.

I am getting really worried. My partner hasnt been on today and hasnt really help with the challenge. Im sooo worried that we are going to lose. I was just meh about it so i dont even fucken know if the list will be good and the target list is like my own thoughts even if i told Renee it was random.orged. I just wish no one wants to target us and we are atleast in top 5. 

Well we lost immunity. It sucks. But I get to talk to Madison again and also Stephen which is good because I can try and like solidify something with them. Timmy is here too so I can try and work with him but we do have org history with each other. I just hope Renee and I arent targeted this round.

Most likely gonna stick with doodle and nehe this round, it was either nip that alliance immediately or ride it till its time to flip, flipping now would just antagonise everyone.

I feel like I’m doing well socially but thats on my side. I dont know how people are perceive me. 🤷‍♂️ I hope that I’ll be good for tonight. Timmy and I talked last night and it was really good. It was more of life than game. I enjoyed it. I really want to work with Timmy, hopefully its mutual.

Narrowly avoided tribal this round, probably thanks to Cancer and Virgo making their entire list for the challenge "do nothing". I'm not sure if they threw it on purpose or if that was some type of strategy to keep signs from being mad at them, either way it's a damn challenge, people can get over it. Especially when you can target a sign that has consistently been on the top on challenges in Capricorn. I don't care, I'm not going to tribal, in other news, I landed another hit in battleshits. I need to get that ship sunk before someone else happens to find it as well, if I can grab another advantage that's one more someone else can't use against me.

I want to get Stevie out. I don’t think it’s going to happen but i want to try. I would go for Owen but people tend to tell Owen things if he name is mentioned because he just has that personality. I don’t think Stevie would have those connections and it would be nice to limit that tribe since they went to the Oasis twice already (I think that’s what it’s called). I just need to look back to see if he is already the weak link on the tribe because then it might be better to keep him but honestly I’d still rather see him go. So I’ll try to get people on board for some plan.

I uh threw out a name out to Timmy. I really feel like we can actually work together in this game my target as of now is Stevie. He’s really nice person but havent really talked to him outside of the warzone chat. Timmy had the same idea so hopefully it could be an easy vote tonight. Timmy seems on board so he could get his partner Trace. Doodle amd Stephen want to work with me and Renee so we’ll have their votes too. I need to talk to madison but hopefully they would want to do Stevie too. Leaving both Capricorns on the outs which sucks cuz i like Owen.

This vote is getting closer and closer. I’m slightly getting more nervous. Its being very calm and quiet again. Stevie is still the target for me so we’ll see how that goes. I’m just worried that there would be messy scrambling the last hr or 30 minutes that would switch targets but right now it feels like Timmy is on board for Stevie and hopefully Stephen would be too.

for the first time, I spend the day in the Oasis. Winning 3rd place is a blessing and for it to be on this challenge, an even bigger one (not seen as a comp threat, can pretend we tried to flop but not make it obvious to the Pact). I am glad that I get to socialize with Willow a bit again. And hopefully I can socialize w Matt and Adrian a bit too. Cullan is lowkey dry and idk if he likes me at all but idk why he wouldn't. Tonight, the people I like are facing tribal council. Owen, Madison and Jacob cannot go home but Renee could! I hope some miracle pulls through and that b*tch is sent packing. I did not come for her in any way shape or form in immunity bc I want to be able to disingenuously rebuild w her if we make it onto the same tribe or we both make it to merge. Renee's ass did NOTHING BUT GRAB AND SRATCH ME HOWEVER. FUCKING BITHCHCISOAFHISHFSKLHGSHGKLS I DIDN'T EVEN LOOK UNTIL NOW. I HOPE OWEN LOOKED AT RESULTS AND IS ON THE SAME WAVELENGTHS AND GETS THAT BITCH OUTTA HERE.  Kait and Thomas also grabbed/scratched but nowhere near as much as Renee's dumbass did. She's an idiot, she has no game. I'm getting her ass out the fucking second I have a chance. Does she not remember how easy it was to get rid of her the moment I wanted to in Kanto? forget you, go home, goodbye! I mean, this is embarrassing. You threw every wrench you could at me yet still I am top 3 and I do nothing to you and still you are in the bottom 6. anyway, prayer circle for renee to go back to the fissure where she came from.

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Okay soooo i did something bad LMAO I told Nehe I wanted to work with him and then I told madison/Jacob I wanted to work with them and then I told Timmy/trace I wanted to work with them hehe so my plan was to vote Stephen/Taylor or maybe go for renee but..... Nehe wants to vote anyone BUT Stephen taylor/ and madison+trace both don’t want to do maynor/renee.... fuck my life 

So basically I have to either turn on Nehe which would kinda suck or somehow convince madison and jacob to do renee or maynor but I feel like they might even go for Nehe and ughhh how did I put myself between this ALREADY My horoscope was right I am dying today

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I can feel my fangs coming in...tail growing...literally about to snake someone tonight and Idk who it should be. I THINK that right now it’s: Timmy/Trace/Madison going for Taylor, Nehe/Stephen/Taylor going for Renee, Maynor going for Stevie. I have no clue what renee and jacob want. Theoretically if stevie and I vote for renee it could be 5-4-2 if renee did stevie but I also think that madison could try to get renee to do taylor.... ugh. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to lie to Nehe, he was the one who told me that Maynor wanted Stevie out. But I can’t screw over madison/Jacob/Trace/Timmy.... Maybe I could vote renee but Stevie could vote taylor,???? And then I tell madison and jacob that Stevie did renee? But I tell Nehe that I did renee??? Idk this is all just too complicated and some people like Stevie and jacob won’t ANSWR ME

Jshdia I am dying how messy this vote is getting. The names that have been thrown out are Renee, Doodle, Stephen, and Stevie. Hopefully we can have the votes stay on Stevie but im worried about Renee. I just hope Im safe tbh. It is a single games after all.

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I am dying right now. Its either gunna be doodle or stevie tonight. Me and Renee are hearing mix signals. Ugh I just hope it isnt me or Renee going. It would totally suck if i leave and it would be bad if Renee left. Its gunna be a crazy tribal thats for sure.

Ok so today has been interesting. It's been such a back and forth between Taylor and Stevie going but at this point it's going to be Taylor. I know I said I wanted Stevie earlier, but honestly it's not me going so I don't care too much tbh. Stevie's name has already gone around once now so it's not going to be too difficult to bring it up again in the future. I'm just hoping for a twist tonight honestly. Something needs to change about this game.

Ooo i dont know if anyone caught that in the warzone chat but Stevie posted he was pushing for Taylor then removed it. I was dying if this was an accident. 😂 but im just crossing my fingers that its Stevie tonight. Doodle seems like they wants to work with me so I want to keep them around.

I ACTUALLY CANNOT HANDLE THIS RN DSAKFJHFSKJD UIGHHHHHHHHHHHH okay so madison tells me jacob and timmy want stevie out and then shes like "wait maybe not" and im like ok and she's like "taylor it is" NNNN OK SO FUCK JACOB AND TIMMY FOR CONSIDERING STEVIE BEHIND MY BACK?????? now I feel extra bad for betraying nehe... but stevie wants to do taylor 100% and renee is seeming to do taylor too? idk if I should just vote taylor and do damage control with nehe/stephen or ifi  should vote renee and try to pin it on stevie idek anymore. im worried ppl are being sketch with me and voting me??? but I think if they were votin for me they wouldnt be trying to tell madison stevie or taylor or all this. and idk if taylor/stephen are rlly doing renee like nehe says....or if theyre doing stevie with maynor???? ugh idk. and renee I have no clue about this is just too much but whatever ill make up my mind when tribal comes and pray it isnt me

The Oasis was nice as a change of pace from the warzone definitely!! Sad I missed the movie tho

one good thing about the warzone.... i dont have to deal with nehe yelling at me tonight

I had a really good time at Oasis! It feels good to succeed at something and I’m glad I got to talk to new people, but it also really reminded me that there is so much game left to be played and so many new alliances that need to be made. Thor Ragnarok was good but I was literally waiting for Chris Hemsworth to yell an idol clue or something... and now there’s a swap so I can shit my pants about that

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Pants have been shat. This war zone thing AND being on a tribe with any of the 3 people I’ve talked to is freaking me out like sauerkraut. I just gotta keep showing up enough for these challenges!

Haha i am dying. Both times o switched my target. This one tho might have not beed good but i think it was because me being able to adapt is part of this game and willing to sacrifce someone is 🤷‍♂️. Now lets hope i can get something out of this search i have hit 3 slots with tonight at 11:11pm will be my 4th hit. Cross your fingers for me. This swap is good and bad. But i just need to stay away from the bottom 5.

Lmfao. I swap with the one person that i don't want to associate myself with, like at all. which means that my road to getting 15th is already settled. which i literally hate because i do not want to do anything with Nehe and he has the audacity of messaging me: "we good or nah?" like.... you do the fucking math. you screwed me over and you ask that? like ofc we're not good. like im gonna make it my mission to screw you and your allies that you have made over the course of the past 4 rounds. you are a fucking little snake and im here with a vendetta. and that is to get you OUT!

Honestly Nehemiah is so full of shit. Him telling me the move is Renee when he knows there are no numbers there. I want his ass OUT

[gaydemiboy]

I can't sleep and I just found the need to rant

Alrighty so, I'm pretty sure I suffer from anxiety for a very long time. I mean, years. Have I tried to tell my parents? Oh yeah, multiple times. My dad's always like "Back in my day we didn't have depression and anxiety" or "It's like the school system is telling you to be depressed". Honestly, he isn't too wrong about the latter, but sometimes depression starts at home. I even told him that and he gave me this look, like, "Are you tryna blame me?" And honestly, I kinda can. I mean, whenever I told my dad and mom back in sixth grade that I had attempted suicide over 5 times in multiple ways, they shrugged it off and were like "It's a phase". Literally, I wanted to kill myself and came closer because I wanted to get a point across. Then I got my prescription for glasses, and hoooo boy, that was one hell of a ride. Now, I knew that I needed glasses for a very VERY long time. Like, my school would send letters asking my parents to let me see an optometrist of some sort. But I finally got my prescription for glasses and. My. Parents. Flipped.

Literally lost all their shit, like. They say that if I wear glasses I "don't look normal" and that "my kids are gonna have to wear glasses and they're gonna hate me for tbe rest of my life". And honestly? That fucking broke me into a million pieces, because basically my parents were calling me a freak for something I didn't have control over.

Then I try to come out to my mom ad bisexual (I used to be bi) and she was like "Oh you're just confused" and "It's a phase, it'll pass" So yeah, I just love getting my feelings rejected by my own mother. Woop woop.

Seventh grade, I got sexually harrassed by a childhood friend. When I told my mom, she was like "oh im sorry" And hugged me and was kinda awkward about it. So then she told me dad and older brother and they told me to tell the principal. I just, i just needed someone to hug me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. I needed someone else to do the talking because i didnt feel brave enough to tell me principal. So, they send me to school like any normal day as if nothing happened. Externally i looked dead and numb, while internally i was screaming in pain, betrayal, and just. Many more more bad emotions. I told my vice principal (who was my gym teacher) and she promised to help me. And she did, the boy got in school suspension. I remember the day i told her, i didnt cry. But my voice was dead and my eyes were lifeless. Mostly because i hadnt gotten a wink of sleep that night. My family moved on as if nothing happened meanwhile i was left to deal with all that emotional shit by myself because i didnt know anyone who had been through someone like that. And my parents didnt know what to do either so they were like "eh she can deal with it herself".

Then enter eighth grade. I finally told my ELA teacher (whom I love very much and I am forever thankful to) that i was suffering through depression. I had started cutting in eighth grade, i used scissors. I basically told her everything that happened up above and some other stuff. My hands started shaking and i started crying because i never realized how much that had really hurt me until i said it out loud. I will never forget the look on her face. She looked really sad and shocked. You see, im a pretty decent student. I keep my grades up, am a good athlete, im pretty smart, and i stay outta trouble. And im also known as a quiet kid since i dont speak much except to my friends. So i kinds guess thats why she was shocked. After i finished, she hugged me really tight and said, "Sh, everything's gonna be alright. I'm so glad you told me this" And i cannot express how that made me feel. It made me feel heard, it made me feel loved. And i hugged back and kept crying. She then took me to the counslers and was there with me and helped me talk to her. I haf basketball so we walked down to the girls locker room and she hugged me one last time, "im so glad you told me this Jenny" And i hugged back them went to change. It was empty with other girl's stuff because practice had began like 30 minutes ago. I remember i started crying, but not because i was sad, i was happy. I was, extremely happy. I finally told someone and they listened and they are helping me. I quickly wiped away my tears and got changed and sprinted to the gym for practice.

Time skip, i see a therapist and my parents are finally understanding a bit better. But they mostly still think it's all in my head. My dad had the audacity of telling me, "Hey the therapist isnt cheap so like. Could you try to have less anxiety?" And honestly? That felt like a slap to the face. In my head i was like "bitch what. Did i hear right??? DID HE JUST ASK ME TO HAVE LESS ANXIETY????" and externally i was like, "um, its pretty hard to have less anxiety when ive bern dealing with it for years" And he kinda gave me this glare and turned away. I felt hurt (yet again) and so i didnt say anything else. My teacher was the only one who truly understood me. Somedays, i would skip classes to go to the counslers office because i wasnt emotionally or mentally good. ELA was my last core class of the day, so one day i go back to class. That day i had skipped my first, second, and fourth period (i had gym my third period). Then when i entered class her face seemed to light up. She was walking around, tslking about the lesson of the day. She was writing something down, then when she passed my desk she left a sticky note. I discretely grabbed it and when i looked at what it said i felt like crying. She wrote on it, "I'm so glad you're here today! ❤" And drew a heart.

This gets better.

Okay, so its the end of the year and i finally had figured out i was genderfluid. I really really really wanted to tell my ELA teacher because she is basically the only adult i trust enough. So, we went to the library one day to return our books. I was known as a bookworm and i came to the library often during the week so the librarian knew me well enough. My teacher was at the desk typing some stuff in, then i came up to her with my school agenda and pencil in hand. I told her i needed to talk to her. Then i wrote down, "I'm pansexual, demisexual, and genderfluid" She read it and gave me the biggest smile, "that's amazing to hear! You're part of such a great and beautiful community." My teacher has a part time job in the weekend as photographer. She told me she was a photographer for a gay wedding (one of the groom's later came out as trans) and i felt so happy and proud. I couldnt erase my smile off my face and like, ahhhhhhhhhh.

So, moral of this rant, please dont commit suicide. Dont think that life doesnt get better, because it does. I went from suicidal everyday to being constantly and truly happy. I am forever thankful to my teacher, Mrs. Davenport, for showing me that i dont have to go through everything alone and that someone cares. I love you, Mrs. Davenport ❤

Anywho, if anyone ever needs to talk about something, im always here and ready to listen

I hope you sll have a great day/night/afternoon

Signing off,

Jack

[survivor-rotuma]

Ep. 7: “don't @ me I'm a gemini” - Marie

marie

well felix is not very happy

marie

mkay felix I get that you're pissed cause you don't rule the numbers but I frankly don't care. If you want to go for me go ahead because I wasn't the one who got blindsided

zest

so, it was the first blindside of the night. honestly, i was expecting it but I was also sort of confused about what happened. There is a lot happening socially and I am not sure if I can keep up. I am trying to. Really hope that the bruschetta alliance stays authentic, honest, and loyal. Cassie leaving was bittersweet. I hope she knows that I really did enjoy our conversations but I do have to remember that this is an individual competition.

marie

I hope my bye bye's don't become too iconic and noticeable oop Felix

These bitches are shady. I mean I already knew that these people were smarter than they let on, but I didn't expect such a dramatic twist. Brianna is their goat and Joey is mine. Let's see how this goes. I'll fight for a chance to stay, but I ain't playing kind anymore

Flint

Well that tribal did not go as planned. I need to step it up and form a new alliance otherwise I’m a goner 

Felix

I am going to target Apollo for the rest of the game. He is an incredibly dangerous player and needs to go. I've told Marie (though I do not trust her at all)  and Lysandre about how Apollo is in 3 different alliance chats and to not trust him. I am going hard on this because I feel secure that Apollo should go. I have an idol in case people do not want to follow my lead, and I'll hopefully get Apollo out this round. He needs to go so everyone can begin to either think for themselves or think for me. I want to do something about what has happened, but I need the power. My list is now Apollo > Marie > Brianna > Zest > Boris > Lys. This is my preferred order and I will go the end with my goats Flint and Joey.

Felix

Who do I trust? Joey and Flint Who do I plan on talking to? Lysandre and Boris Who am I targeting? Apollo and Marie Who is irrelevant? Zest and Brianna

Lysandre

So my plans ended up working out perfectly!!! Cassie went home in the end and Boris didn't recieve a single vote to my surprise. Felix, however, is pissed. He is really upset with me and Marie. Well moreso Marie because of the great plan I developed last round of making Marie look eager to make a big move while I didn't want to. I did this when Felix found out Marie said his name and I did it in order to save myself from losing Felix's trust and it worked out perfectly. He confronted the both of us and popped off on Marie while I sat there and ate my food. I simply had to further push the blame on Marie and Cassie.

Flint

Well it looks like the game is on. After that blindside I know where I stand within the group and have been approached by a few teammates with apologies of the Cassie blindside. I understand that it's part of the game but I need to find a way to orchestrate my own blindside, preferably Marie's.

marie

ok but like if I'm cross w/ you don't @ me I'm a gemini

marie

apparently to the people of this game I'm a social threat oop

marie

how am I a social threat???? I just convince people ton vote for who I want out, is that a threat??? ughhhhhhhhhh

Felix

I love playing cracked! This game is so much more fun when you don't give a fuck phew! Marie, 11:47 AM: how are ya doing 11:47 AM: I'm good Marie, 11:47 AM: thats good to hear! look, i can't force you to talk with me or work with me but i'd like to work with you 11:50 AM: Ok. But tell me this, who came up with the plan to vote out Cassie? Marie, 11:51 AM: it was a group of us that came up with the plan but the one who said it should be cassie was me 11:51 AM: Why Marie, 11:52 AM: i couldn't trust her and she really wanted some people i was working with out also she was a threat 11:53 AM: So you're working with Sumi then, right? Cause the main reason I hear that Cassie was wanted out was that she was targeting Boris Marie, 11:54 AM: i voted with sumi, yes. but that doesn't mean i'm working with them. according to someone i was talking to you apollo and i are the biggest threats. i was surprised to hear i was seen as a social threat 11:56 AM: And we wouldn't be if we had voted Brianna (kept it simple to make sure none of us had a target on our backs) and if you hadn't been saying my name and spreading it around like the plague. I was surprised to hear I was a social threat by you Marie, 11:57 AM: if i'm seen as a social threat what good would getting out other social threats do for me? it would make me a bigger target 11:57 AM: Then why get rid of Cassie? If she was a threat, then you should've kept her Marie, 11:58 AM: she's more of a strategic threat to me 11:58 AM: We need big targets in this game or else we'll be next on the chopping block Marie, 11:58 AM: and i'm not seen as one of those. no one thinks i'm a strategic threat and i'd like to keep it that way. if the threats worked together we'd be much better off and i realize that getting rid of cassie, a threat, isn't going to be helpful to me right now 12:01 PM: Is that the pitch you gave Cassie and Apollo when you made the Leaders alliance? I'll be honest with you. I do not trust you. But I trust Apollo even less. You can regain that rust my telling me exactly how this vote is going this round and keeping me in the loop Marie, 12:01 PM: the leaders alliance wasn't my idea. cassie and apollo came to me and said they wanted the tribe leaders to work together. i'll keep you in the loop, but i don't know who the vote is. who do you want gone 12:04 PM: Why do you want to know? So you can use it against me like you did Cassie? I'm not telling you who I want gone Marie, 12:05 PM: i want to know because i can't dictate who's going home. i need to know who other people want so we can pull in numbers. and when you say things like that it makes me think you're targeting me 12:07 PM: I'm not targeting you but think about like this: You got Cassie out because she was targeting people you wanted to work with. So, if I say who I want to target, then you could use that against me. I'm not going to trust you with that info because you've already proven that you cannot be trusted with said info. I'm not campaigning against anyone this round. As long as it is not me, I'm fine with whoever you guys tell me to vote. But do not expect that level of trust after you've just betrayed me Marie, 12:09 PM: i respect that because blindsides suck. i can probably pull most of these people in but there are only 2 people i would not vote out currently other than you 12:09 PM: Cool then I'm not taking a risk. Cause I don't know who those people are. I don't care to know either Marie, 12:10 PM: you can never have too many allies but you can have too many close one.i will work with anyone to accomplish a vote but just because i work with a group of people once does not mean they are my alliance like the group who voted cassie out, there are some whom i may never work with again who knows. if i dont know who you want out chances are we can't get that person out tonight unless everyone else wants that person too. i don't doubt that you might try to pull people in to blindside me or one of my allies, but its better if we stick together 12:17 PM: You're right: Who knows? I certainly don't, but that's the thing. I don't know if I can trust you. You have never proven to me that you want to work with me so why should I suddenly start working with you. Furthermore, by my account, your only actions in this game is going against me. You have your own agenda and I am not playing into it. I'll vote with you this tribal council, but I am not saying who I want gone. 

Felix

Anyways, Marie is snake and she's sniffing around for names. She needs to calm down before making any moves. She so wants to be seen as this mastermind snake person, but I am not letting her have that. She also now wants Joey out which is a big no-no for me. I need to convince her to vote out someone else, possibly either Brianna or Zest, in order to make sure my final 3 comes to fruition. 

Felix

Marie really thinks I'm brand new. We never had a true tribe swap in this game, so people are going to end up sticking with their original tribe because that's the people you bonded with for the majority of the game. She cannot understand that the reason people are targeting Joey is to get rid of numbers from the stronger tribe. Sumi will have a run of this game sooner or later if we do not start targeting them now. I can guarantee that Apollo wishes to have Zest and Brianna, two non-entities in this game, as his FTC. If Marie cannot understand that this is the game now, she will not win

Felix

I think I am at my most dangerous when I am playing reckless

marie

ok call me a snake all you want but this snake bites bitch so watch your fucking back and think before you call me a snake

Felix

Apollo is insinuating to me to not trust Marie or Lysandre. I mean I'll not trust them as much as I want because they ain't going to come with me to the end. I can't trust either of them. But, at the end of the day, it's good to know that he doesn't trust them either. The information will be good for later on. I just need to take out a Sumi this tribal council, no matter who it is. I want this immunity so bad because I want hat guarantee that these snakes cannot target me at all. Maybe then I'll have a vote that actually goes my way. 

Lysandre

So the current development that is happening is a BIGGG altercation between Felix and Marie, two of my presumed allies. They're arguing in PMs and such. Felix is stuck on getting out a Sumi player and Marie is considering doing so but I'm not with it.. Felix ended up calling Marie a snake ajsjsjsjs so like drama but the only thing that mattered was that both of them still had trust in me. And both of them are going to protect me. 

Flint

Talking with Marie a bit today and she is a very aggressive and upfront player. Definitely not my playing style but she has seemed to charm the majority. I hope to last longer then her but it might be hard to convince the group she has to go. a snake apparently (marie)felix is going home tonight as far as i'm concerned cause snakes bite bitch

Felix

These results are.... interesting to say the least. I was voted villain of the season, closest ally, should go home this round, least trusted, most likely to flip on my alliance, and most likely to have an idol. Absolutely wild. So if they think I have an idol, then I might as well play it. Though they know Apollo is going to win based on his track record. We'll see how this happens then

felix

Marie with the delusions! She really thinks she's running this game phew! She doesn't get numbers, she doesn't make her own moves, she's not sneaky. I've clocked her game already. I'd love to get her out ugh

Flint

Well it looks like I botched another immunity challenge. So far I’ve been on the bottom for both challenges and seems like I’m on the bottom of the tribe. Gonna be hard to fight back but hopefully I can find a crack to weasel into 

Felix

Marie is the snake that I knew she was. She cannot keep her mouth shut or her info to her chest. She thinks she's playing THAT game but she is just Walmart to my Gucci. The nerve! I'm so glad Boris can be trusted and he is willing to vote with me. But I'll be using my idol this tribal council to make sure that I do not go home at all! I will outlast her and I'm not going down without a fight.

Lysandre

See Marie is both a blessing and a curse. She gives me access to info that I don't readily possess but she's also like a little teapot with holes in it,  unintentionally spilling tea on the table instead of the teacup. She gives me a better social outreach than I have especially with Briana and well the now dead Cassie.

Lysandre

So the immunity challenge is touchy subjects!! I feel like its really early to have this challenge but I'm here for it not really?? I feel like Felix may win this one just because he's a good social player but lets see where that goes. 

Brianna

Okay okay. So I haven’t confessed in awhile but here is what is going on. Apollo won the challenge good for him yada yada. Basically me and Marie have been talking a bunch of strategy based on current events. She started off with telling Felix that we wanted to target Joey which he wasn’t happy about. Then later after the challenge he said it needed to be a sumi out. Marie told me of course and she didn’t want to do it and it made us want to get out Felix more. So we decided to devise this plan. We are going to tell Felix that we will vote zest. Giving two votes to zest from Felix and Joey. Marie and lysandre will vote Joey. And sumi and flint will vote Felix. Don’t know if flint will do that we will see but it still shouldn’t be too bad if he doesn’t. I also brought up the idea of making an alliance of me, her, lysandre, and flint. She seemed on board for it. Of course this would give me my two main alliances of the BABes alliance with me, apollo and Boris and then the previous alliance I just mentioned. Meaning I get to be a messy middle player and hopefully zest and Joey will go out soon giving me that double sided protection for as long as possible. 

Flint

Felix is my strongest ally in the game but with him being so visible and me being so invisible I wonder if and when is the best time to distance myself?

Lysandre

So the game is going on crazy!! Felix is targeting Marie and Marie is targeting Felix!! Apollo us immune so he can't go home. This is my crazy idea. Since Felix won the most likely to have an idol advantage I think that his advantage was a one round idol that must be played or becomes null. He's gonna use that on hisslef. I could use my idol on Marie this round and therefore save both of the people who are going to protect me in the end. And then I would vote out Zest or Joey. Thats a very risky play and I'm not sure if the outcome would be worth ut. In theory I could just stick with BorPollo but i think Boris has zest and maybe Briana as a number. If Felix goes home then there's gonna be a group of me, Briana, Marie, and  Flint formed to most likely take out Apollo. If Marie goes then I lose my connection to Briana and therefore Flint. If felix goes then I become more of a threat. Its very tricky and I'm weighing my options.

Apollo

I’m super excited to win immunity, I’m busy all day today. I honestly don’t care who goes home as long as it’s no one from Sumi.  I pray Boris and Zest make it through unscathed 

Brianna

Well. Felix and Marie are arguing in the tribe chat...akjawjbeebkebe. All I can say is wow. The non sumi people are literally just...targeting each other??? Why??? Like I was trying to think of plans cuz I figured I’d need to jump off the sumi ship once it was seen as a threat by ratting out zest. But...like. Maybe I’m gonna be sticking with the sumi strong for awhile longer. FlintIt’s shaping up to be the clash of the titans, Marie Vs. Felix this tribal. I’m loyal to a fault so I will most likely stick with Felix but I don’t think we have the numbers to pull it off. However I have been approached with blindsiding Joey by Brianna which is also a strong possibility. It’s gonna be a tough tribal and my vote will remain up in the air until the last minute. 

Felix

So much has happened today. I got into a fight with Marie because she is playing a very snake-y game, but she doesn't want to admit it. And I don't know what the Irrelevant people are so up her ass this whole time. Then again, Marie does not realize no one is going to take her to the end if she keeps going like this. Furthermore, I just don't like how she is acting all innocent about all of this. I'm going to take a risk with my idol now too. Lys said he is voting Joey, Apollo said he was voting Joey. I don't trust Apollo for shit, but I do trust Lys and that might be my downfall but at this point it doesn't matter. I just need Boris to come online to confirm to me that Joey is the plan. This has been one hell of a round though.

Lysandre

So it looks like I got what I wanted. Joey is going home and I don't need to use any advantage. Next round it looks Marie is going home and I'm fine with that. She's gotta go eventually right? Felix still trusts me and so does Marie and so does BoPollo so I'm feeling good as gold. The only possible threats to me are about to be eliminated but my eyes are on Apollo, Zest, Brianna.

Apollo

I’m super excited to win immunity, I’m busy all day today. I honestly don’t care who goes home as long as it’s no one from Sumi.  I pray Boris and Zest make it through unscathed 

Felix

So everyone is voting Joey. I guess that makes my idol play correct then. Hopefully they don't try to back stab me and vote me cause that would be the wrong play. But I'm insinuating that I have an idol that is being played on Joey. So we'll see how this tribal goes. If Tuai is still here, then we did it. If I leave tonight, I died fighting. Let's get this bread!

joey g

so touchy subjects was not kind to me lol. i was sort of hoping people would just see me as a goat after that, but it seems like i’m a target. felix told me to trust him & and i do, so who knows what the hell is gonna happen!! marie is on a crazy power trip so we’ll hopefully take her down this round, otherwise it’s bye bye joey g

marie

I handled that better than I thought I would

zest

ALRIGHT JAY, here is what's up. A few days ago, Apollo told me that Felix was trying to get me or Brianna off the island. NOT CHILL! I feel as though I have played an honest game and been a friendly person. So, this made me sort of sad. But, hey, that's survivor. I do not vibe with the villains of the Mauri Tribe, but, they don't know that. I was also surprised by some of the touchy subject answers as I noticed that I am not on many people's radars. I have been loyal to my bruschetta alliance and I hope to remain that way. Yet, Boris' response to this week's tribal question had me questioning his loyalty to me. I am pretty certain that he and Lysandre are working together. Just from context clues, I have discerned that Lysandre, Boris, and Apollo have either a)played this game before or b)played this game TOGETHER prior to Rotumna. I have to figure out if Boris and Lysandre's friendship is more important than the Bruschetta alliance. It seems to be like that, as Boris has changed since the merge. Apollo doesn't feel he is running this game and he's right, JAY is. Apollo is a great ally and has been an excellent confidant to me during this game. I think he is an admirable player and I hope that he or Boris win this thing. Last night, Apollo and I had a really great conversation about our loyalty to each other. I hope he is being honest and authentic. He is trying to reassure me and I am trying to believe him but it is so hard in this game to do that especially when you aren't in person. I have learned a lot through this entire process and am proud of my growth as a player so far. Trusting people has always been difficult for me. I have been betrayed in the past and that is causing me some anxiety. If Apollo is not being truthful, I will be sincerely hurt. I wasn't expecting this thing to get so intense emotionally. I think I have still a lot of determination to be in this game still and I want to keep competing in challenges. As for the Marie and Felix drama, I think Felix took it WAY too far. I am going to stay out of it because, I really don't want either of them to get to FTC. I have my own strategy and goal for how far I want to get.

[survivor-themyscira-blog]

OKAY SO, I just realized that I might not have sent in a confessional pre-tribal. I actually wrote part of this confessional ahead of time, didn’t submit it, and just now noticed it sitting in a word document. So this is what I wrote.

…

WELP. Tonight’s about to be a hell of a lot messier than it was yesterday. I thought that it’d just be a clean 10-1 vote with Ian dipping out, but I guess it’s going to be something more chaotic. I don’t know exactly how much fault I am to blame for that, but right now I’m just trying to harness the chaos and figure out who’s doing what.

I can see myself, Ian, or Kai being the targets tonight. I think that a lot of people are trying to reassure me that I’m safe, and it’s worked a bit because I’m not as on-edge as I was before. I mean, I’m still anxious as hell but it’s a different kind of anxiety. Now I have to figure out what I’m gonna do about this idol thing I’ve got.

According to a few people, everyone assumes I’ve got some sort of advantage as it is just because I came back and didn’t have a power out in the open for everyone to see. I figured there’d be some sort of suspicion around me not blatantly being immune for my first tribal council as a returner, so the quicker I can toss this thing out in the open, the better.

Jack, Logan, and I believe Rhone (I could be wrong on that one) have all pretty much said that Ian is receiving their votes tonight. And it sounds like a great plan and all, but there’s a lot of suspicion on whether these people want to actually go ahead and tell me what’s going on or not. I think that Kai is their best bet at getting rid of someone on the bottom, and they aren’t sure if I’ve caught onto that or not.

Emily and I were talking and she listed four names that had come up. Me, Ian, Kai, and Nicholas. I hadn’t heard Kai (but had my suspicions) and certainly didn’t expect Nicholas to come up either. I’ve been really concentrated on grouping everyone into two factions: Jordan Pines’ Alliance (the majority), and The Minority. Publicly, everyone can view me as being in the middle. Certainly, the majority doesn’t need another number as the minority is so small that it doesn’t make much sense to bring me into the fold on any votes.

…

I cut it where I left off so there isn’t any issues with it being like, false. Anyways, at the time, my plan was to definitely idol Kai because I was thinking that there was a chance I was being fooled, or that there was a plan to split the votes. I figured that Toph was going to vote for Nicholas just on a whim, as Emily said that Toph was the one to bring up multiple names, including Nicholas’.

Let the record show that this entire time, I’m telling Kai and Ian that this idol in my possession is only eligible for this first merge vote with me included. I’m a bad liar and kept over-selling the point so it’s possible everyone saw through my bullshit, but NOW I’m telling Ian and only Ian that the idol was not a one-time thing because like, there’s no point in lying. I cannot tell Jack the truth because he’s only going to get madder at me.

God… This vote was really fucking crazy. Let’s get caught up to speed. I had NO clue that Rhone was going to go home tonight, and I certainly would’ve been way interested in voting off Rhone over Nicholas as it would’ve saved me a little bit of time and energy. I made a group chat with Ian and Kai and like, tried really hard to solidify an alliance but these bitches totally just screwed me and didn’t say a DAMN THING about this vote.

Ian gave me the “well its better if less people knew” argument. And like okay, cool, I’m fine that we got rid of a threat BUT I even said “lets just do Rhone maybe!” because I felt as though Rhone was a bigger threat. I was the person telling them who to vote for. It’s not like I was running around trying to blow up their plans or anything, I was feeding them my personal agenda. But they shot it down and said nah, Nicholas is a bigger threat.

It saves them a lot of face, though. I’ll give them that. There are a lot of people who are gonna take more heat for this entire fiasco than either of them ever will. I wish I had just stuck to my guns and went for Ian, but like… clearly that was all for nothing because NOBODY followed through. I think I’ve put myself in a really hair situation now because not only am I down an idol, but TONS of people are capital Pissed at me for playing it on Ian when THEY WANTED IAN GONE. I tried to fuck them all over, doesn’t matter that Rhone went home or not.

Another thing is that this really opens up a lot about Toph’s game. I’m actually really impressed that he was able to pull this stunt off because of his double vote advantage. From what I understand, this helped people believe that voting out Rhone was totally within reach. Yet… none of those people came to me to talk about that deal. I think that I’m the person taking the biggest fall for the vote because my plans utterly failed.

Idk man. I’m worried about jury votes now, too. I definitely burned those on the bottom not named Ian or Kai, but I think Ian and Kai are resting pretty on the top?? With Madeline and Toph?! Fuck.

I did what I could today to apologize and make amends with the nuHippos from when I was voted out. I don’t know if they’re going to stick around much longer but I think that the apologies were received well. I’m still watching out for Toph because he seems like such a shady little shit, but clearly Ian and Kai are in cahoots with him enough to blindside half the tribe.

I don’t know for certain if playing my idol was a good move or not. It was just messy. It was kind of an unnecessary risk by telling Ian and Kai in the first place, but I knew I needed to deposit some trust in them so they could at least return some interest. It was all for nothing as they didn’t tell me about the whole Rhone blindside, so I’m kinda hurt by that… but I tell myself that I cannot be a baby about it right now. I simply can’t get upset that they did that to me when I did it to them long ago. Maybe this is my karma. I can feel completely unsteady for one more vote before I finally find a path in this game.

Also, Jack spilled some major tea on this five person alliance he is in. I figure its Jack, Logan, Emily, Nicholas, and possibly Rhone with Lily as an affiliate? I’m not sure though, he didn’t specify names. Just Emily and Nicholas plotting to get me out at the final ten, go figure. I guess I was supposed to vote for Ian to prove my trust to them, even though literally Logan doesn’t trust me, Nicholas is a douche to me, and Lily thought I was gonna vote her out. Awesome. Jack is like, genuinely upset at me for not sticking to my word and working with them. I’m going to have to do some SERIOUS damage control with all of these people and figure out wtf I’m gonna do next. Maybe by me voting for Nicholas, I proved trust to those I thought were in the minority – a newly banded Majority in the wake of the Fall of Pines. So maybe I found my footing again, who tf knows.

I think at this point, my game is officially demolished. I’m staying positive and looking at this like a house of cards. Though the cards are lying on the floor around me, I can start over again and I’m on an even playing field with everybody now. I’ve got a reward challenge and an immunity challenge to act as a buffer before we have to go back to a messy ass tribal.. I hope I can win one or both of them to get my hands on some sort of immunity, be it an idol or a necklace. I DO NOT want to get tenth place, I’m going for gold this time around y’all. If my messy ass can beat Jordan fucking Pines, what can’t I do?

I CANNOT BELIEVE WE DID IT AGAIN. ANOTHER IDOL PLAY ANOTHER SUCCESSFUL BLINDSIDE LMAO

[11/9/17, 12:15:30 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: what makes u think I’m gonna get idoled out!!!

[11/9/17, 12:15:37 AM] Emily: OMG

[11/9/17, 12:16:13 AM] Emily: I didn’t know who to put I didn’t think you’d be likely to get a majority of votes for things should an idol be played like that might be the only way

[11/9/17, 12:16:16 AM] Emily: I don’t know

[11/9/17, 12:16:23 AM] Emily: I read into touchy subjects too much

[11/9/17, 12:16:29 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: Hehe

[11/9/17, 12:16:44 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: Can’t get idoled out if ur the one w the idol tho

[11/9/17, 12:16:48 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: :)

[11/9/17, 12:17:11 AM] Emily: I also said you for date for my personal BUT I TAKE IT BACK

[11/9/17, 12:17:13 AM] Emily: IF UR MEAN

[11/9/17, 12:17:16 AM] Emily: oh wait what

[11/9/17, 12:17:20 AM] Emily: LQOABJANAJA LOGAN WHAT

[11/9/17, 12:17:22 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: HEHEHEHE

[11/9/17, 12:17:26 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: I found it the other day!

[11/9/17, 12:17:36 AM] Emily: LOGAN

[11/9/17, 12:17:38 AM] Emily: ANKWNWKWNWKWNWJ

[11/9/17, 12:17:40 AM] Emily: IM SCREECHING

[11/9/17, 12:17:41 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: I KNOW

[11/9/17, 12:17:48 AM] Emily: WHERE WAS SHE

[11/9/17, 12:17:58 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: BEHIND THE STATUE OF ATHENA

[11/9/17, 12:18:09 AM] Emily: WOW

[11/9/17, 12:18:15 AM] Emily: I’m so shook

[11/9/17, 12:18:40 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: i was shooK

[11/9/17, 12:19:20 AM] Emily: NAKANKA

[11/9/17, 12:19:24 AM] Emily: I AM TOO

[11/9/17, 12:19:34 AM] Emily: so like who knows about it???

[11/9/17, 12:19:42 AM] Emily: not like I’m going to tell I won’t

[11/9/17, 12:19:54 AM] Emily: is that even a good question to ask

[11/9/17, 12:19:55 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: Only u so far

[11/9/17, 12:19:58 AM] Emily: omg

[11/9/17, 12:20:02 AM] Logan Bee-Culpepper: i don’t want it getting out

[11/9/17, 12:20:09 AM] Emily: I won’t I promise

[11/9/17, 12:20:14 AM] Emily: my lips are sealed

SO LOGAN JUST FKSDJFKA TOLD ME JFDSKLJAL HE HAS FKDSAS AN IDOL AND I AM LITERALLY GONNA SHIT MYSELF JDLJFALS THIS IS SO COOL BUT IDK WHAT TO DO WITH THIS INFO BECAUSE LIKE U KNOW IM VERY MUCH LOYAL TO DUDES, DAMES, AND A DEUTCH BUT ALSO LIKE LOGAN HAS THIS IDOL AND IM....... WHEW I DONT WANT TO TELL DDD BUT I THINK I MIGHT BECAUSE THEY'RE WANTING TO GO AFTER LOGAN AND FJSDKJFALS WHILE MADELINE IAN AND JACK ARE OFF ON THIS REWARD (IM FINE WITH MADELINE TAKING JACK IT'S GOOD THAT SHE DOESN'T REVEAL HOW CLOSE WE ARE) I CANT EVEN TALK IN DDD AND KAI IS ASLEEP FUCKING BRITS WHATEVER JFKDSFLAJFSALD HOSTS IM SCREAM IM SCREAM I AM A SCREAM

https://youtu.be/t5G5JomnL9A

Whew. I've been severely lacking in the confessional department.

SO. I found a fake idol after being left out of yet another vote. Which is great. Emily and Kai think it's real, Jack knows it's fake.

Kai and I had a blowup and now?? We're working together.

I think it's gonna be 6-4 Nicholas Jaiden but I just don't know

Rip

So I do like that Madeline has taken to calling me Golden Boy, that's one thing I always wanted to be called in a survivor game. I don't like that everyone is now pointing out the fact I have been immune for three rounds... Hold up guys, I didn't win the first two immunities. I played Kai's idol the first time to take out Jordan because well EMILY WAS THE LEAK. The second round the idol played on me didn't really matter, Rhone would have still gone home. I swear these people don't pay attention at all. Jack was like, "It feels good surviving a tribal while not being immune" HOMIE, I would have survived the Rhone vote because my allies were/are better than your allies.

[survivorindia]

His attitude? It ain't helping his whiny ass. - Julia (Episode 6)

I'm still angry espically jaiden he can go fuck Off i hate him like please go block me some more jaiden with your dumbass

Ruben is the most self righteous asshole I've ever met in a game and it pisses me off so bad that he gets to walk around like he is the shit, when in reality the bitch amounts to probably nothing in this game past the new Parvati tribe. His attitude? It ain't helping his whiny ass. It's so annoying like i swear he can quit complaining about challenges he dosent like and maybe actually try and win them by a landslide and not by a point, than we would really not have to go to tribal? I hate having to be nice to him because he is soo fucking annoying. Go back to your other community than bitch if you don't like this one. Fuck off.

I feel like every fucking confessional I make is to bash these people but I honestly don't like them. My game is in their own hands, and I can be leaving because of it. Like go ahead and form your all newbie alliance, see where it gets you and your dumb fucking asses in the merge when you have majority returnees. And not to mention I bet sarah wouldn't be happy if i left

Mastermind was great, I was surprisingly really good at it!!! Getting a tie for the lowest score on my tribe also makes me look good, so that's a plus! 

Well here we are, the dreaded tribal council once again. But WHEW, what a round. So Jaiden has hopefully been called out on all his shit. Me Dom Sarah and Julia all compared notes and i think we've established that he his a lil shit and none of us trust him. Ummm Whitney is probably going this round, probably unanimous with her self voting. I think it should be fine everyone seems to realize she is just given up. So i think I should be safe this round. let's see what happens :)

http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/mreidjr/78051217/7913/7913_900.gif So I just went on call with Dom. And you know what he told me? He said that Sarah and Julia have told him everything I said about him. From how I felt like he was too much, how I didn't like him at all, how I wanted to use him to get further in the game. All that shit. That's why I voted for him, according to them. It's real funny because for a while, I did believe those things to be true. Sarah was the first person I talked to about all that. I thought she was my friend, I really did. But I see why she's on the villains tribe, because she's a heartless, cold-blooded viper. The entire Dom vote came as a result of her and Julia wanting him gone. Certainly, I didn't help with them coming to that decision, but it's become evident to me that this is the person everyone parades around and claims to be best friends with. We talk about that Bangladesh final tribal where Sarah cries over how Eddie betrayed her so badly, but then here she is, acting like a complete hypocrite. She can say that these two situations are not the same, which they are not, but the knife she plunged into my back burns the same. I can't say that I didn't see this coming. I fucked up, so it makes sense why everything spilled out in front of me on the dirt floor. Now I have to work on making people like me again, because I don't think they'll trust me for a while. We can say that I have a long road ahead before I can regain their trust, but the truth is that I have a much steeper path to the finish than before. They might not ever trust me, so I need to give them a reason to understand me. I don't know how, but I'll try. I'll take the knife that was firmly planted in my back and return it to its rightful owner one day. I did these things for her, and while she was always on my hit list, no matter that she was low, I think she's found her way to the top. Karma is a bitch, and so is she. Maybe I won't win this fight, but I think I'll die trying, and I'm at peace with that.

So last tribal council was....interesting lol. Going into tribal council I had Alex trying hard as fuck to get Dom/Me and Lexi/Robin to split our votes. I could tell he knew we were all close and when he suggested the girls vote this way and boys vote this way plan, I immediately caught onto what he was trying to do. He definitely had a hidden agenda. What I didn't think about at the time and I should have, but how did he find out about the four of us being close. And my question was answered when one, Jaiden tried getting me to throw my vote on Alex and two, Jaiden fucking voted with Johnny, Alex, and Julia against Dom. This pissed me off because I trusted Jaiden with every ounce of my soul. Between him and the other 3 people of my "alliance", I thought they were all the only people I could trust in the game. Yet he went behind my back and tried voting Dom out. Luckily Dom pulled out his idol, took out Johnny, and gave us the majority going into future tribals. However my trust for Jaiden is gone. And Alex/Julia are both viewed as shady fucks in this game in my eyes. I see how they wanna play the game now, which is fine because they are so predictable... Anyway with Johnny gone, it gave my crew the numbers despite Jaiden playing both sides HARD. He made it clear that he was closer to Alex/Julia when they both told me everything I had said to Jaiden while Jaiden was not telling me this. It's fucked up, because Jaiden went from on of my closest allies to one of the shadiest guys I know. Still, I kinda need to keep him on the good side with me because I already don't know many peeps in this game. Moving on to the next challenge it was revealed as the "Heroes Challenge." Everybody said it was a potential swap with the volunteers from each tribe being captains. And even if that wasn't true, I was confident that whomever competes for their tribe will also receive a clue to the idol. Therefore rather either of those two were true or not, I wasn't about to risk someone like Alex or Jaiden getting that advantage. So obviously I volunteered, despite me thinking I would probably lose or even throw the challenge lol. However I ended up BARELY winning the challenge. I decided I wanted to win it for two reason. One, if I won I might receive an idol clue and Two, I wanted to send the other tribe to tribal to hopefully see Whitney or Liam voted out as I knew they were apparently targets. Plus I guess I sort of wanted to look like a Hero of the tribe. So moving forward, I think I want to lose challenges more. I don't want to miss an opportunity to get out Julia or Alex (thinking that keeping Jaiden around might be smarter for me personally. Especially since Jaiden now has a fucked relationship with Alex/Julia). Still, if it's another volunteer type thing my allies HAS to be the ones to volunteer lmao. The idol must stay out of their hands!!!!

Let this flu kill me. I can't even think rn.

yes im crazy

Watching the NBA Dunk Contest as I write this, but a lot has happened as of late. My #1, Alex, is now in a compromising position given the last tribal on his swapped tribe. Jaden is a snake. I'll finish this confessional after tribal. The Liam vote is mine by the way!

I can't wait for this merge to come up soon. I definitely thought we were swapping with it when Ruben/Sarah went head to head. Now that we didn't, I guarantee the two of them got some special prize for putting their head on the line there. I just need to make the merge or swap with Gavin. Us two are really tight and there's a lot of things that can go wrong to where we can't meet back up and run things. So I'm just praying at this point.

Welp we're voting for Whitney because she is dead as fuck.

Oh no we lost for once. Whitney is prob going tonight cuz who even is she? We dont know.

Hello again, we’re going to tribal for the first time as swapped tribes, which is the thing I dread most in the game. It’s so irritating because I can’t connect with these people excluding Jordan. Casey is never on to talk about the game and doesn’t seem like she ever wants to strategize which is annoying due to the fact that she is the only one from my original tribe. We also have Sarah who I’ve heard speaks to everyone in the game and will barely talk to me. Liam and Whitney haven’t replied to me and Whitney just has not been online at all. Gavin speaks to me every once in awhile but rarely about game and is acting overly suspicious after I notified him I heard Whitney from multiple people. He didn’t agree and didn’t disagree so he does not trust me and does not seem to want to vote Whitney lmao. He can go soon enough even though we could align and make a big move against people who are noticeably aligned with a large majority of the cast. I hate people who want to float by and do nothing while they get played by these power players; it just dulls the experience. I like a lot of the people on the other tribe so being swapped onto this tribe was just a big letdown. Here’s to hoping I’m not voted off over someone who’s never here which would be embarrassing but more so to the ones who don’t know what a big move is.

As for me personally, I’ve been trying to play the dumb role and acting as if I don’t have a clue as to what’s going on most of the time. I also let others see me as trustworthy, make alliances for me so they cannot be traced back to me starting them and will let Jordan assume that I’m his puppet. I considered voting Jordan so I could blame the vote on someone else and I would assume he would believe me over others since we’ve had multiple heart to hearts. It’d bring some necessary fun into this game because quite frankly it’s been dull. The only reason I could not go through it was due to the weird prior connections everyone has had from original tribes and the way the votes would shake down wasn’t 100% so if they decide not to vote Whitney then it would unravel and such. I’ll just try to keep myself safe for now and then would have enough time to make big moves further down the road. Perhaps Whitney could hold off on coming online for a little while longer and just be removed?

I'm so happy I've gotten this far in the game! I'm guaranteed 15th place at this point I believe which is much better than I had anticipated after going through the struggles of being on the bottom in the Nayak tribe. I'm glad we won immunity but I'm also concerned. Jaiden doesn't seem to be doing too well. It looks like a lot of person issues exploded between him and a few other people. Game wise, this is great for me because people play with their emotions so they're more likely to want to get rid of him than me. He's like a meat shield for me. I've talked to him though and I feel bad. It's an online game and I don't think people should be taking these things personally. This should be fun and not affecting someone's mental health negatively. I hope he feels better and that he finds some way to get himself in a better position in the game. I wouldn't mind helping him out with that.

So jaiden betrayed us in the last vote and we had no clue dom was getting votes until the last minute so good thing he played his idol. I wish ruben would of lost that duel challenge so we could of sent julia or alex out the door. Keeping jaiden is beneficial since her and dom will just be at each other and not us.

[survivordivergent]

EPISODE 8 - “PLS LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME CATFISH HAPPILY” - LUCY

We merged. Awesome. Ed and Payton are still here. Peter is not. Perfect.

Reaching the merge is definitely a big deal when you're on a cast of 20 and there are only 11 left standing. I wish we could've gone to another tribal council to vote out someone like Lucy, but since Riley sucks and chose to do nothing like usual, we must move on. I'm pretty sure the jury starts now, so there's that to look forward to if I'm the merge boot of this season, but I don't wanna go to Ponderosa when there is still a ton of game left to be played!!! We JUST barely passed the most inactive period of this season, and now we've got a lot of game left to play before the final tribal council.

I'm nervous as fuck because I have a lot of unsettled business left in the game with people like Payton, Ed, and Jill, too. I definitely worry that we don't have the Six numbers to conquer the original Four tribe, but I don't know where Kyle or Lake truly stand with that old tribe. It would help if Lake and Kyle ever responded to most of my messages, but that's the recurring theme of this season I suppose.

I finally have the opportunity to meet Melissa, Jill, and Eliza btw! That's pretty cool. Right off the bat, I started talking to Jill and I can tell she's a huge fucking threat and needs to go sooner rather than later. I've done a really bad job at making anyone like me this season, so I think they're going to all come after me sooner rather than later and my friends are far and few between. If I'm not mistaken, Jill has that Dauntless idol which means she's easily the biggest threat left in the game. She was playing dumb and it was very obvious and I cannot stand one thing more than the fakeness.... ugh. Ugly.

At the merge, we have three Candor, one Erudite, two Amity, three Abnegation, and two Dauntless. Those traits represented are honesty, intelligence, peace, selflessness, and daring. Jill is the fakest person I've ever met, so I don't know how she's Candor, and then there's Lucy, who sits there and is actually completely unaware of anything going on around her and probably doesn't know what a puzzle is if it hit her over the head. Ed and Kyle are impossible to read and I think they've got really secretive agendas, so they're definitely not peaceful or anything. You can't determine a person's selflessness by just talking to them, so those three are also excluded from the count. Then we have the bold, the daring. Me and Otto. One of us actually did something, while the other has received more votes than anyone simply for doing nothing. Awesome.

We were placed into our original factions not by our true virtue, but by an arbitrary test we took when we created these identities. We have become someone that is possibly more accurate to who we are inside, compared to who we pretend to be in our daily lives. This is our mask, but it's a thin veil, and I don't think anyone so far has changed a bit. Neither have I. This is why I'm worried about the merge, because not only was I the only person playing, but also the only person who was the self I've always been, inside and out.

I still want to win, but I've got a long road ahead of me before that becomes possible.

Dani: All the idols are taken! Don't bother looking! Me: https://media.tenor.co/images/f8f72a4126ab93243ce92ff4a9b18c87/raw

Ed is swapped instead of out, fuck

Dani wastes idol, fuck

People think i'm following Dani's lead, good but potentially fuck

We get RIley, Lake, and Kyle; okay

Percy is targeted instead of me or Kyle, fuck

Dani flips and votes Percy, fuck

me and now f2 Lucy are on outs, fuck

Auction and I get challenge advantage for next one, yay

challenge is mess and i dont use my advantage, fuck? does it still work?

riley is medevaced, YES!!

peter is voted out, fuck

merge, YES!!!

six is one member down cause of dani, fuck her

ed and payton are out on six, fuck

me, lucy, and dani are potentially alone, fuck

grammar all haywire, fuck

We merged.

As soon as we did I messaged Eliza telling them everything that happened on Six. They didn't reply. I asked them if they're ok. They didn't reply. I asked if I did something wrong. They didn't reply. Yet between all these messages they are still talking in the tribe chat. But you know who is talking to me? Payton. Don't think I won't flip to them in a heartbeat.  You have no reason not to trust me Eliza because you are the one person that I have kept our conversations secret. Eliza Jill and Otto might be next on my hit list.

Smarten up.

I named the merge tribe I named the merge tribe

I'm so happy that I finally named the merge tribe, it's really cool for me.

There was two mess ups in translations though. I wanted to do something with "alias" the theme of the season. I originally wanted to do it backwards but i was like salia, hmm no. Then I was like ahhah! An anagram of alias, Silas! I sent that in to the hosts but afterwards I was like, oh shit, that's not an actual anagram. it has two a's not two s'. I was like oh well he's a guy from survivor still, Silas Gaither.

The announcement came out and I was like oh, it's supposed to be Silas, but I'm cool with the name still though lmao. The merge tribe is SALIS!! It's such an honor and then Dani saying, why not just name it alias, bitch im so over you rn, i might try to get you voted out in case jury hasnt started yet and i'm a petty hoe- actually fuck all of these people im salis you can all die queen lucy is going to win this season bye pill, diena, dead

I am latin salis Jill dont talk to me or my lithuanian salis ever again!

Lithuanian Salis should be the name of alliances, voting blocs, and trust clusters in this game from now on.

http://prnt.sc/dw3w8s

I am very Latin Salis rn and I'm getting rid of the mandatory confessionals for this round.

I love dani, but for someone who's anti-weed, she sure likes to stir the pot

Merge is so stressful right now, because on top of having to meet a ton of new people, I also need to make amends with those that I've wronged in the past, particularly Payton and Ed.

I tried to talk to Payton, and all she's doing is telling me how good she is at this game... Like... what are you doing?? I was so pissed off and it just irritated me the most. I can't believe that she has the audacity to tell someone who already went against her how much power she has in this game. And how she beasted in challenges. I know who Payton is and I love her as a person, but rubbing in my face that she's so much better than me is not a way to continue our friendship, or even gain my respect as a juror if I make it to that point.

I was set on making a deal with her to go to the final two, but now I'm starting to believe that it's pointless. She's saying how I cannot vote Ed off under any circumstances if I want her allegiance. Sorry girlfriend, but Ed wants to vote my ass out the first chance he gets. I can't stand the thought of them getting further than me simply because Payton couldn't hop off his dick for ten seconds to realize he's the biggest threat in the game.

Another thing that pisses me off is that Lake goes on and on about how no one talks to him and how we're all ignoring him and stuff. As far as I know, no one is ignoring him, they're all just inactive as fuck. I'm trying my best to play two worlds right now - my real life and this alias life. I can't be online for both 24/7 like he seems to think I can and talk to him all the time, so if I miss a couple messages here and there then what the fuck ever. He truly needs to get over himself. Going into the tribe chat and saying "if you guys are just going to give me the cold shoulder then you may as well vote me off" is the same kind of passive-aggressive shit that I tend to pull in everyone's PMs, and I do not need another diva on this tribe.

As far as things look, it's possible that I could skate by a couple votes if necessary. Otto should be the first merge boot and hopefully he doesn't get the luxury of jury because fuck that. Then we can start the bloodbath that's been waiting to occur, and all the big threats can begin to fall. Hopefully I'm not one of them.

It's hard balancing two (well, really three) games at once. It's taking all my energy to socialize, but I'm making an effort. Eliza and Melissa have both been super social and I feel really bad about not being able to put in the same effort they're putting in. But, hey, at least I'm trying to do something.

Payton, as always, has been an all-star even with her rough circumstances. I feel so bad for her. The more paranoid side of me is questioning if it's a Fairplay kind of play, but even I'm not that much of an asshole that I'd think it for more than a few seconds.

Dani immediately sent me a message to apologize post-swap and I forgave her. But I don't forget. It's going to be very hard to trust her going forward. Geo, too.

Glad to be back with Kyle. We had a good thing on Amity. He's a great #2 ally to have and I'm hoping he can team up with Payton and myself to go far.

Eliza, Melissa and Jill are all awesome too. I wouldn't be upset with any of them winning... though that's not to say I wouldn't go down swinging.

Lake... hard to tell. We just started talking yesterday, and blowing up in the main chat isn't a great first impression.

Otto – who? Geo – see Otto. Lucy, I'd work with but she needs to talk a little more.

Salis (which is a weird tribe name but not as bad as Shailene) is gonna be a weird tribe as far as dynamics go. I'm glad I got Payton onside early because she's going to be a huge difference maker for me.

I feel so out of place in this game :(

Even if I go home next I STILL GOT 15 COOKIES AND I HOPE THAT'S MY LEGACY

I know all I talk about is my dead daughter and that's literally not even a strategy I'm heartbroken and maybe it'll get me farther? But I don't care. I'm here to have fun and I'm gonna give this game my all until I get cast in something else.

Touchy subjects is probably my favorite challenge, but I always suck at it so if I end up winning, I'll be completely shocked. This immunity is particularly important because no one wants to be the merge boot and I still need time to assemble friendships and alliances with the other players, especially the ones I haven't met yet.

Through conversations that I've had so far, everyone responds the same: "Ed and I are BEST FRIENDS", basically. Everyone has something nice to say about Ed and that's really concerning. He's becoming friends with everyone, and who is the number one person that has pissed him off in the past? Me. Payton already warned me that he's coming after me, and that's really scary, because her egotistical attitude will make it impossible to convince her that she's actually playing for second place to Ed. She truly thinks she's playing the best game this season, and that's why she's going to be the perfect goat to take to the end. Especially now since no one is going to come after her, but instead try and take a shot at Ed?

Stupid me eliminated all of the soldiers I could've had going into the merge to take out Ed. I kept Kyle who is simply a number for him, and that didn't change our relationship in the slightest. I fucked up, so I have a lot of game to play in order to catch up and get even. Hopefully everyone else secretly realizes Ed is a threat too, and then we can do battle.

I'm? Lowkey considering quitting. Not because the game is bad or because I'm going home, but because I owrry that my depression is going to ruin this for me.

Congrats! And @all who put me down for romantic date... that bulge in my pants is not an idol, so nice try ;) - Ed

FUCK

Sorry Geo sorry Geo sorry Geo but I'm going w my majority alliance because you! Are going to be fucking blindsided.

I MADE MERGE. AND IM REUNITED WITH PAYTON WHO I LOVE, AND GEO JUST WON IMMUNITY WHICH IS GREAT. but i'm also at the bottom i feel, dani just came to me and told me its probably between me and otto for the vote.... she said people are saying they want to "kill the inactives" but like thats so ridiculous because i've literally tried to have a conversation with lake like 5 times and he never responds but they're all ok with keeping him... sus. anyway i don't trust dani at all but she;s one of the few that actually fills me in on things. i'm also pretty sure payton and ed have an alliance with the people on their old 4 tribe, because ed won the idol clue  and i didn't hear of anyone i know getting a chance to look for it. idk it seems realistic... I'm gonna approach kyle maybe about an alliance or something to try and get on his good side bc he seems like a power player, but also seems like a straight shooter.. we'll see. also dani literally makes every conversation with her into her trying to figure out who i am and its so annoying like I'm irrelevant in the survivor community you probably don't know me and i don't trust you so pls leave me alone and let me catfish happily!

anyway i think I'm fucked this vote but maybe i can find someone with the other half of the idol.

but i think geo and payton will be loyal for now, and with payton comes ed i feel, and if she can convince whatever alliance she's in to keep me too then that might buy me some time. we'll see, its not over till its over!!

Lucy I did want to work with you, but if you go home tonight it's only because I need to stay loyal to what my majority alliance wants so that I can win. I need to win. Have fun on jury, I really love you <3

When I feel like I'm going home but dani tells me to vote out lake and I come up with an idea to flip the script and blindside dani bc I don't trust her but she's also literally the only person to respond to my pms so I can't even work this blindside and AHH I'm so annoyed. I also literally don't trust anything dani says especially because she voted w/ lake and against me last tribal. We'll see,  let's just pray someone wakes up in time to do something! Otherwise, it's been fun! Let's hope I at least made jury so I can drag all these messes at the ftc

I honestly didn't think that I had any game plan going into this tribal, but I found a little crack and I'm going to force myself into it and break some shit apart.

Basically, Kyle found out that Payton was going around, gathering votes to get rid of him this tribal council...even though that was my plan originally. I don't know if he is aware of that, but all of the information got passed to him through Eliza. Interesting. Eliza seems to have a ton of time to talk to everyone else but me, so I'll take note of that. Meanwhile, I decide that it's not time for Lucy to go yet, and I start to bring up the idea to the most eager person, Payton, that we should get rid of Lake instead. Of course, she agrees and says it's the smart move, so that's that with her and she wants to bring Ed in. I tell her to hold off, because clearly information given to Ed gets passed down through everyone else it seems, so keep it away from him.

I told Lucy that she might be going home, so she should vote for Lake tonight. I'll talk to Geo, too, and hopefully I can convince Otto the same... or maybe get him to throw his vote idk. We'll have to see what I can do.

As it stands, the original Six tribe minus Ed should be sticking together with Otto as an additional number to make five. If Payton can convince Ed to vote with us to oust Lake, then he'll believe he has the opportunity to flip next round. We'll be at final ten, and hopefully I can find an idol by then to eliminate either him or Jill because dam they are huge threats!

So anyways, I informed Payton that Kyle was totally aware of her throwing his name around, thanks to Eliza. I'll see what angle I can play with Eliza if she ever messages me back (spoiler alert: she won't). Payton got nervous and said that she's probably going home tonight, which is weird because that's definitely not happening and it would make zero sense from a strategic standpoint. I then told Payton to go to Ed, spill the tea that Kyle might be trying to get rid of Payton this vote (which is not true). If Ed thinks that Kyle is coming after what is believed to be his number one ally, then Ed might just be willing to flip and get rid of Lake tonight, too. They're going for our easy vote in Lucy, so we'll go for their medium vote - Lake! :)The strategic value behind getting rid of Lake is that he is such a freaking fruit loop. He is so aggressive and always gets mad if we don't answer his PMs, even though he never answers mine, and I think he's still super attached to Kyle... basically, he's a target. If we can't get rid of Kyle, we can get rid of him. I might hatch up a plan to get him to split his vote away, as like a decoy with me, Lucy, Geo lmao. Even though Lucy and Geo will never split and actually we're just voting him out, hehe :~) I feel bad because I like him a lot, but it's the best move for my game right now... sorry, Lake, when you're reading this. If you don't go home tonight and you're completely shook by this revelation, at least now you know. 

IF I GO HOME TONIGHT, KYLE, I WASN'T COMING FOR YOU, KNOW THAT

I don't really remember what I talked about in my last confessional, and its too far for me to scroll back up, so if there are repeats, oop. So Melissa, Jill and I formed the Big Hero 5 alliance with Payton and Ed and we voted out Peter, but really, where's the loss? We kind of agree to stick with each other at merge, which happened rightafter tribal, but honestly, I dont really know if that will hold up. I am SOOOOOO excited to get Ugly Fruti back together! I missed Kyle, and it was nice to be able to talk to him again. Fast forward a bit, Ed wins reward and gets to take 4 people with him to search for an idol. He picked Jill, which is great, but you would think, if he were so loyal to Big Hero 5, he would have picked all of us. But alas. Anyway, Jill shares the idol clue with me and we FINALLY get to the end of the Erudite idol path. It's just the last riddle we are stuck on, which tbh doesnt matter bc apparently Ed already has the idol. Shoutout to JENNA, btw, for making the most difficult idol path I have ever seen! Anyway, we do immunity, which is Touchy Subjects that I hate. I don't remember everything I got, but one was "Who would you most like to see win the season?" Which, is nice to hear but.... That gives everyone a reason to vote me out. I'll be okay with being voted out later I guess (and ONLY because I've already won a storybook season), but I'm not about to be first merge boot again... So Geo wins immunity, and Jill says, "I wanna flush my idol, let's blindside Ed." This is the guy who also has an idol that everyone knows about...... eh... idk if it will work. Kyle doesnt want to, but Jill is adamant about doing it behind his back, and Melissa seems okay with it. Lucy is campaigning to me and I'm trying to build trust and make a solid plan, but everything is all over the place and we still have 4 hours before tribal... Let's see what happens

Did I make a confessional yet?  I think everyone is voting for Lucy but I will probably vote for Otto just to make it interesting.

I'm not voting Dani. Because I wish she hadn't revealed herself. Otherwise I wouldn't care. But I do, because I know. So I'm not voting Dani, and I'm not voting lake, I'm voting Otto.

I don't know what the fuck is going on this time? I'm voting for Dani but I've heard like 8 different names. Mine has not been one of them so I'm probably leaving. Jill is a messy queen, the bitch had better live. There are gonna be a lot of problems after tonight, this account is about to be more important than my real one........

I think if I go home tonight, it means I was playing a good game. A dangerous game. Or maybe they hated me, I don't know. I had fun. I made friends, I think. I probably won't retain any of those friendships, especially if they all hated me. I played an idol, I made some mistakes, and I guess I probably threw a good portion of my game into the trash for the sake of making big moves. I'm not disappointed, I just wish I could've done better strategically. But I've learned that I can be resilient, and I've gotten myself through some sticky situations. I hope tonight is no different because I still want that opportunity to finally plead my case to the jury on why I deserve to win, even if it's not as Jaiden. I just want to feel the accomplishment of finally doing something right.

I didn't come here for the purpose of entertaining anyone other than myself. I didn't need honesty in order to further myself, and although I would be going home before people who probably don't deserve to be here still, I think I made the right decision. I don't know if I have the votes I wanted on lock, and I expect to get some tonight thrown my way. I'm anxious as always; that's something I'll never be able to change about myself, alias or not.

I'll leave this experience pretty much unchanged. Maybe next time I'll be a little more loyal, a little more honest, but chaos is fun. I'll never change that about myself, either, because becoming someone else was never what I wanted to do. I shouldn't have to pretend to be someone other than myself for acceptance of others -- but most importantly myself. I was blessed with the dream to become someone that I am not, but Danielle is not the person I wanted to be. I still wanted to be Jaiden in a Danielle mask. I hope that my friendships I developed will last outside of the game, but once it's over, I'm putting the mask in my dresser and they can accept me for me, or forget about it.

But, if Lake goes home tonight, then I guess this was all for nothing. I'm not done playing, and I'll be back for my revenge if everything ends up failing and Lucy goes instead. Jaiden would've made it clear to not play with fire, but with Danielle, they never saw it coming. I guess that's the beauty of being the fakest of them all.

2 in one day?? Hm... this tribal is literally all over the place and I have no idea what is happening.. tbh, I won't be surprised if i get votes...

You know how I said Lucy is my final two? Yeah I was joking about that. I don't have any final twos at the moment.

Dani was an ally but she was definitely untrustworthy, which could've helped me out later in the game, but she dragged my game down by her very risky plans and making me seem like her bitch, as long as she was here, we would be considered a duo because we did vote Ed out. It's a double edge sword her leaving because a six leaving is stupid for a six, but it gives me more options changing people's perceptions of myself. I think she could also be a vote for me in the end if I make it there.

Lucy screwed me over by flipping, believing what four was telling her, and not telling me what was going on. I had a feeling that there was something sketchy going on with her one word answers. I do believe she has my back, it made sort of sense to get rid of Dani for her, but she gave four the majority. Getting rid of lucy probably wont be good for me because she's a number for me still and I hands down beat her in the end imo.

Ed gave me a search for the idol which I appreciated, but it was definitely strategy because he doesnt want me gunning for him and he wants to work with me at the moment.  If he makes it to the end and im in jury he still doesnt have my vote, hes been voted out with an idol and i know hes still salty.

Payton is probably the person Im closest with now because shes active and i do trust her. If she makes it to the end however, she wins hands down, in my mind. Shes strategic, social and pretty physical as well. I would give her a vote. Shes going to be mia for a bit which is totally understandable because of her circumstances.

Eliza, Jill, and Melissa? Yeah they all are bitches and they really mesh well with their boring ass personalities. Im asking questions and they all are like im a gas station worker yep, thats it. DEEPEN THE CONVERSATION!

Ottos dumb hes going to make the end for doing nothing and people are letting it happen.

Lakes an emotional bitch and they can choke on their own tears. Kyles a brick and boring too, bye.

oh, I won immunity with 19 points and these people are stupid and im perceptive as fuck this is my second touchy subjects win dumbasses. here ends my nick maiorano downfall edit that started with me targeting kyle, naming the tribe, winning immunity, and strategic trying to put together a vote for stupid people.

Hello I'm about to get snatched but at least I made merge!

So Lake just gave me what i consider one of the biggest powers in the game?? What??? He gave me a Simulator, that I can play at any time, and it will redo the round at the end of the cyle... redo challenges. Redo tribal. What??? Im.... speechless?? I mean, I definitely trust Lake a hell of a lot more now than i did about an hour ago but... why would he just hand this to me??

lake . - Today 7:24 PM > So I feel like you're defienlyy better off for this game than I am. And I've thought about this a lot. And I want to give you something.

> I don't want to end up going home with it in my pocket at some point and I feel like you would have a better idea of when to play it than I do.

Im... speechless... PRAYING TO GOD that it isn't me tonight and that this last minute blindside of Dani actually pans out. I feel bad not telling Lake, but he's been running his mouth, which is why we switched to Dani in the first place. Ugh hurry up 9 o'clock!!