#like how she would’ve always known Rose would turn out to be mutated no matter what

[wreniriis]

Guilt

[beast-feast]

I'm a sad yearning man, I like reading sad things that make me cry and imagine myself with my f/os, here's some quotes from A Softer World that leave me in shambles:

"There's a whole world off this island. All it takes is one long swim to start over. Tell my mother I love her."

"Looking back on that day, I can't help but wonder: What if I had brought more bread for the ducks? Did I bring this on myself?"

"They pulled our names out of a hat, and when he broke down crying in the parking lot, I wondered if I was making a mistake."

"Go ahead, invite some man to live with us. You think he'll clean your hair while you sleep. You think he loves you like I do?"

"On my mom's birthday, I put on my best suit, I get a haircut. I pretend she's coming home."

"A girl in my class killed herself last week. Everyone says there's a note she left behind. Everyone says she mentioned me."

"Everyone expects me to be jealous, instead of relieved, to have his hands off me."

"We bet him five dollars that he would drown. A bittersweet victory."

"As a child I killed animals. Not for any rush, but because they seemed so sad, and I didn't know what else to do."

"Through your bedroom window, you look so sad at night, and I imagine that I am what you need, but realize- that's crazy."

"I woke shaking from a dream where she died in that desert, and you held me and said; 'I'm here,' which wasn't good enough."

" I have a list of stupid things to do before my suicide. I keep going back, though, making sure I did everything right."

"On days like this, I would just disappear if it weren't for you and your love. Like nails in my feet."

"Truth and Beauty are wonderful words, but shrapnel is shrapnel, and at the end of the day, I am alone with the things I have done."

"I am going to build a new boyfriend out of garbage and dirty feathers. No one else will touch him."

"We are terrible for each other, and, yes, we are a disaster. But tell me your heart doesn't race for a hurricane, or a burning building. I'd rather die terrified, than live forever."

"Home is where the heart is, until we get a chance to bury it."

"I love you like crazy. If anything happened to you, I wouldn't know what to do. Turn myself in, I guess."

"I woke up and everyone on Earth was gone. This is going to be like a nightmare. Any day now."

"I never wanted anything to happen to my parents, but a hero needs an origin story."

"We can see the mushroom cloud and we are going to die soon, no matter what we do or ear or say. I wish I had known this all along."

"At first I was angry you had fallen in love with someone else, but you seem so happy now. I didn't even know you were sad."

"I have done up a list of pros and cons for suicide, and both sides are equally full of bullshit."

"She wasn't perfect, but I loved her, y'know? I would kill everyone here to bring her back. Anyway, good luck, class of 2008."

"All my dreams came true. I just didn't think them through."

"Before we met, I was so scared of dying. But if the end comes today, this will have been enough."

"Judge if you want. We are all going to die. I intend to deserve it."

"I've been keeping a fake diary, so when they make a movie of my life, people will think I was happy."

"I wish you were dead. But then I would hate myself for waiting by the grave, instead of the phone."

"Roses are red, and violets are blue! I love you baby, and you love me too. Or you certainly will, if that Stockholm syndrome thing is true!"

"The world is ending and people are taking pictures that won't last."

"Today it occurred to me I could murder someone, if you were with me. You make the old things fun again."

"I always thought violence didn't solve anything. Until one day it did."

"I love my puppy. I love that he is so young and full of life. And that he will still die first."

"I love you, but I don't love you enough to give up falling in love."

"Maybe the Earth would be better without us. Safe and clean and perfect, like a toy nobody ever played with."

"You are a good person and I love you. This just isn't the life I hoped I'd have."

"I wish I could just push a button to make you happy, when I feel like it."

"Sometimes I wish I was born a girl. I'd like makeup and pretty dresses, instead of just having this vagina."

"I used my one wish to make myself smarter. Smart enough to wish I was more kind."

"I wish there was a better word than 'sorry'. But then I'd probably need a better word than that."

"I know that I don't deserve you, but that's okay. Life's not fair."

"You are the love of my life so far."

"You make me want to pretend to be a better man."

"I finally developed a computer with feelings. It just doesn't have feelings for me."

"This town isn't big enough for the two of us. Let's run away together!"

"I know you don't love me, but there must be something I can do to make you a better person."

"You won't live forever in their memories. The way you treated them will."

"If you died, I would go through hell to bring you back. That would be easy. I'm not sure how to deal with us just drifting apart."

"Okay, now imagine I am falling in love with you. Can you picture it? Now picture it backwards."

"I never meant to hurt you. You have to believe me. I wasn't thinking about you at all."

"You were my everything, which, upon reflection, was probably the problem."

"I would sell my soul for a soul worth keeping."

"I don't believe each person has just one true love, but sometimes we don't have enough time to find another."

"You are never so low that you deserve to be lower."

"I'm the best at what I do, and what I do is think about my mistakes."

"The worst person you can think of gets scared sometimes, too."

"Do you ever get the feeling that God has a plan? And you're the only one who can stop it?"

"The more things change, the more you still don't love me anymore."

"I think up ciphers to trace onto your skin, because it doesn't feel safe to just say I love you."

"When I look at you, I can't help but think Hell must be missing an angel."

"You don't love me, but you used to. I wanted to say thank you for that."

"The terrible things that happened to you didn't make you you. You always were."

"When I look at you, all I can see are the mistakes we are going to make."

"I wish being a good person could erase the bad things I've done."

"You aren't really a good person, but god damn you make bad look awesome."

"I don't know how to make things right. So I'll just keep pretending that nothing's wrong."

"I wish I'd never met you, so I can meet you again."

"I can only infer that love exists from its effects on others. I know I want love, but I have no idea who will make me happy. Emptiness doesn't know its own shape. I do not believe in love at first sight. But god damn. There are so many first kisses in the movies. But if they had ever kissed you, they wouldn't dare. Waking up next to you is like other people go to sleep in and keep dreaming. When the world ends the sea will boil, the skies will turn to ash in the lungs of everyone who isn't safe in your area. Good just keeps going and going, until it seems more like 'okay'. I can't remember our first kiss. Was this really all it was? Nothing can change the way I feel about you. I wish it could. For a long time I thought that I deserved better, but the truth is we both deserve better than this. I wish there was a word that meant 'goodbye' for someone who was already gone. I don't want a world without pain or loss. I just want them to mean something."

"I'm in love with the you I wish you were. I only stay with you because you look like him."

"Just once I'd like to fall in love with someone who will ruin things before I do."

"Hello, what is your return policy on animals? I think this dog you sold me knows what I did."

"I would never hurt another human being, for free."

"Sometimes I want to ruin my whole life so I can start over without feeling guilty."

"The only thing we leave behind when we die is fear."

"I wrote you a love-poem computer virus, that self replicates and mutates and lives for your smile."

"All I want for Christmas is you to still be alive."

"If I ever get murdered, don't tell the cops a goddamn thing. It's what I would've wanted."

"I like to secretly alter my friends' diaries and put in ghosts, visions, happiness."

"I know my mom loved me. It's called Domestic Stockholm Syndrome."

"Your touch brings me to life. Not like Frankenstein, like HAL."

"I want to carve our initials in the bark of everyone who ever hurt you."

"I'd love you more if you were someone who could love me."