#like how much was truly them during 1d days?? makes u wonder so much how much they kept quiet and disguised

[louiswmalik]

your tags lmao girl are you ok

no man :/ im not lol i feel like im not really me like life is a bit weird in a haze if u will, ot4 have all performed on their own and the boys have supported each other separately its a WEIRD CONCEPT IM JUST GETTIN USED 2 ??? like they r doing their own thing…. these days ill hear all 5 of their new singles in 1 car ride and like im hearing of them a lot more than i ever heard 1d on radio and im just so torn.mp3 because i loved ….them… togetehr …….. but then im like THEY R DOING BETTER FOR THEMSELVES, AND THEIR INDIVIDUAL SUCCESS SEEMS BETTER THAN THE GROUPS IN THE WAY OF AUDIENCES!!!?? and like niall performed at a place hes been wanting to since he was 12 and thought that was such an achievement even tho hes played at sold out areas like im fuckign just disorientated bc its like theyre all new comers on the scene tryna earn their place in the industry n whatever even tho theyve been around for 7 YEARS anyway bye idk i am just mentally comin 2 terms with the fact that they have gone different ways and by the way things r goin a reunion is soo far in the future………………. 1 half of me is like so overjoyed for em and feel like a group album again will sorta be pointless (cos theyre finally doing 100% what they want n making what they enjoy n bein successful at that) but also the other half wants so bad for it to happen cos i miss that but i know the nostalgic POV of it all is only imaginative bc we’re never gonna get the old 1d days back.. and if they DO reunite its not gonna be how it was  which is a hard thing 2 grasp but its so tru, they’ve all matured n grown differently - in personalities, music, overall - and its just DIFFERENT!!!! just like frank ocean said , “ain’t a kid no more, we’ll never be those kids again” :/ 

thnks for asking lmfaooo bye its chill lets have a shot n forget abt it all 

[wellthatwasaletdown]

Larrie posts would get 10s of thousands of likes. It was like a huge wave that carried you along.//// I was there. And honestly, I still go through some Larry theories once In a while. Just for fun. I recently read one of the scarlet letter and how both HL signaled their lives pertaining to the themes of the book- and it’s prob just a coincidence and the person who wrote it is obvs delulu but damn was it Interesting. Especially as a literature geek, that was a fun post to read. Very engaging. Bulletproof larrys blog is a hilarious place. And I am absolutely not a Larrie bc I just don’t have the time and energy to read into this now unlikely theory anymore. Not when all logic points to it being false all along. And not when the cult leaders are doll lady and Gina the fan fic lady. Both misogynistic assholes who are solo harries in disguise.

But the 1d fandom has been such a core part of my life that I simply cannot let it go. And why would I if I love being here? My happiest memories are 1D concerts and tumblr discussions and jokes and all types of ppl who ship different things and have different lanes and opinions coming together to just have fun. Like the day Eleanor and Lou broke up most of us were genuinely there for each other, just making jokes and talking abt how we miss and love her(bc god was 2015 a mess and what came after was all the crazy theories and confusing times). Only the toxic larries like I doll lady and lassurex(I think?) were being assholes that day and onward. The tumblr community on here was, by in large, a wonderful (dare I say safe for my introverted ass w only online friends at the time) place. And this fandom was SO SO SO huge that we usually squashed the rude peeps under a boot and went back to making jokes.

I do have plenty of friends who are still Larry shippers/larries, engage in the fandom, etc. It isn’t that deep for me or them- we’re just doing our thing. And they’re Def not toxic or crazy like the cult leaders. They’re just spectating and agreeing w certain things. I can’t relate- but I don’t like argue w them. I’m still streaming their music till this day( u can’t tell me what a feeling isn’t a BOP like it’s a B O P). (And strong has no right making me feel things in 2021). I still play the last 3 albums a couple times a month.I still watch some old videos and interviews where their youthful and vibrant personalities shine through… especially the ones from the midnight memories era bc that was the best era. I still read Larry fics(💀) bc it’s just fun. One of the best things I’ve ever read is that young & beautiful fan fiction. Truly a skilled writer. And yes in a fictional world I do ship it idc if all the other anons will have my head for it. The chemistry was v much there during those years, U won’t convince me otherwise. U can’t make me Unsee what I still see when I watch those interviews and vids. I do see the nature of their relationship during those years as suspicious and very intense and idgaf if I’m just crazy for it cus I’m not actively pushing it and pretending I know the facts. And fuck is it fun to do these things in my free time. And that’s the purpose of fandom. To have fun. None of this is that deep. And this was a fandom for those of us born in the 90s/early 2000s. Our middle school or high school or college years WERE these 5 kids. Some maintained their authenticity. Some fell off. Some- Idk. Some’s solo stuff I enjoy, some I don’t. Some I think are secretly assholes cough mr homewrecker, the rest I think are good at their core(Exept Liam I’m eh on him but I wish him the very best.) I don’t Stan them per se anymore(though I’m still emotionally attached to 1/2 of the Larry ship cough it’s not the one we hate on), but they’ll always mean a lot to me. And when any of them drop an album I will listen. Even when hs3 drops I’ll be a masochist and listen to him whine about cockburn. That’s just what it means to be a directioner. And yk what the Larry ship was so much fun for us fans but it caused sm harm to these real ppl- I wish ppl would’ve accepted it’s just a fantasy of two men who just have this intense chemistry, and likely a deep bond(that WASNT A ROMANCE.) I wish ppl would’ve accepted it when they denied it, even if their behavior was, like I said, intense and suspicious, it’s not the fandoms business. These boys were overworked asf I’m sure they didn’t appreciate us bugging them 24/7 abt it. And clearly, larries were wrong abt their perception of this bond. And if Larry ever were something *more* it’s sure as hell over now. Mr Donny chav and mr homewrecker probably never want a teenager daughter who’s allowed on the internet bc us teenage girls basically ruined a lot for them. And yk what? I feel guilt for the very minimal part I played in it. Even if it was never too serious for me- I should’ve called out some Tin hat behavior some mutuals displayed.

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