#like hiii i'm here i was the anon multiple people saw it I was the anon that started It why was I not there at all? Was I even mentioned in-

[lizzerswillpoststuffmethinks]

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[aingeal98]

hiii i consider u a cass expert and since this has been eating at my brain for a few years at this point; do you have any thoughts on the way cain's poor excuse for parenting impacted cass on more of a cognitive/developmental level? like children need stimuli of all kind that she clearly didnt get even outside of literacy and social interaction and i think its super interesting to explore how cass has complicated relationships with things most people take for granted (like... did cain allow her to have any toys? to play any games other than the "two for flinching" thing? does she struggle with the fine motor skill needed for writing bc she really didnt have smth similar? omg is she ok?? i want to peel her like an onion so badly) sorry for brain vomiting over here i have thoughts and feelings about cass cain and its incurable

Anon you've come to the right place for incurable thoughts and feelings about Cassandra Cain! And you raise such a good point like there's no way Cain's abuse didn't leave her with more than just aphasia, illiteracy, cptsd, all the emotional issues... OK well he left her with a lot of stuff but still! You're definitely right that there's more. I'm no expert but one thing I know how to do is ramble about Cass, so:

In flashbacks we see young Cass doing a jigsaw of a rose in the dojo Cain's raising her in, which makes me think he did want to find ways to make sure her cognitive skills functioned even without words. Of course this is just me theorising but in terms of toys I think he would have carefully selected things that would stimulate her brain and improve her motor skills even without reading and writing. The image of David Cain carefully buying Jenga and Operation and making sure all the packaging with words on it never reaches Cass is now permenantly stuck in my head so thank you for that.

I do think she was definitely deprived of a lot though, and things like the jigsaw were clearly meant to be filler stuff for her before the actual fun games like "getting shot and dodging the next few bullets". I don't think Cain would have ever wanted Cass to be relaxed and comfortable enough to actually fully enjoy playing with toys, you know? If she was actually able to find things like jigsaws meaningful and fulfilling then his conditioning of her to associate getting shot with "fun game of dodgeball" wouldn't have been as successful. Cass may not have liked two for flinching but she did love the fighting and the dodging. Any thoughts of "why am I in pain when I could just be playing Jenga" would have never been allowed enter Cass's head. Which would be easy enough because (understandably so given the isolation) Cass looked up to Cain and got joy and fulfilment from seeing him smile. He doesn't care if she finished the jigsaw other than getting angry/worried if she fails. Whereas being able to assemble and break apart a gun while blind makes him light up with happiness/pride. So naturally, even with Cain making sure her brain isn't TOO different for her not to be able to function as the perfect weapon, she would still be deprived of important cognitive skills and stimuli.

The writing specific fine motor skills would definitely be impacted imo because while her training makes sure her hands can work a massive variety of weapons and probably permenantly injure a man in multiple places with each finger, writing is such a specific task that only comes naturally to us because we learned it so young. It can be learned later in life of course but the natural act of holding a pen and writing would feel so alien to Cass. And that's before you factor in her dyslexia like no wonder we only saw her pick up a pen once 😭 Cass being able to write the alphabet with any sort of ease and lack of intense focus would be a massive accomplishment given David Cain's fuckery.

And just in general being so isolated for most of her childhood would have impacted her brain so badly like even without the autism Cass must have been in overstimulated sensory hell after leaving Cain. So many voices talking, which she'd never heard before. So many smells and sounds and new textures and sights that are too intense for her eyes to handle. She missed out on an entire world and only got to start experiencing it when she was 8, that's got to have a longterm impact. I think as well as autism Bruce and Barbara had her tested for adhd due to all the symptoms she displayed. Doctors aren't clear if she actually has it or if its something different brought on by her upbringing. She spent nine years homeless and travelling so she's more adjusted than she was at the start but there's still times that the whole world just goes blurry and whoops panic attack time need to find an empty place and hide.

I'll stop here so I don't rant forever but thank you for giving me the chance to yell about head. canons and theories. Cass is indeed the most fascinating onion, and the layers are endless. Feel free to rant in my inbox whenever you want I love hearing other people's thoughts on her!

[miupow]

hi lia! i'm thinking about that ask you sent me abt me being a sfw blog, and i read some of your old posts to try to get to know you better and i saw some things about you wanting to write sfw more + you not being sure if people want it from you :( i hope you don't mind that i share my thoughts as a sfw writer?

first of all there's no shame in being a nsfw blog at all! personally it's not my cup of tea but from the things i saw while scrolling through your blog, a lot of people clearly admire your writing which is really cool! writing good smut is also a skill!

second: i hate to admit it but yeah it's true that sfw seems to have a smaller audience here, it did take me a long time to grow my sfw blog. that said, i personally believe in "if you build it, they will come" - there are people out there who read and enjoy sfw and will gravitate towards sfw work, you just have to put it out there for them to discover! and it's definitely a quality over quantity thing. even if there are fewer readers, some of them will enjoy your writing enough to interact and gush about it. i've definitely been surprised by people in my inbox or replies who talk about loving my writing style esp if they were lurkers 🥺

so yeah! no pressure to write sfw if you don't feel like it ofc, but i hope you find the people who will love what you write <3 --bhj 🖤

hiii bhj!! 💗💗 thank you for stopping by and scrolling thru my blog even though ur not big on the content i write, i really appreciate it!! pls don’t ever be hesitant to interact or share your thoughts as a sfw only blog, i love hearing different opinions from different perspectives <3

one of the main reasons i’m mostly a nsfw blog is because i just find nsfw content easier to write, it comes more naturally to me i suppose? i also maintain better motivation to finish nsfw works over sfw ones

yeah, one of my insecurities about my blog is over how much nsfw content i write— i love sfw content and i’d love to write more of it, but between not being the best sfw writer and how most of my followers are here for my smut exclusively… a lot of my mutuals have told me smut writing is a skill, but i just wish i was a better writer overall. im starting to focus on writing whatever i want though, so im focusing on putting out more sfw works in the future (actually working on a beomgyu fluff rn!)

one thing i have noticed about sfw blogs is that they retain followers more than nsfw blogs. they get more asks that aren’t just requests and more interactions about their work and their lives as a whole. a lot of nsfw readers seem to hold some kind of secrecy or shame about it, so they either won’t interact off of anon or won’t interact at all. it’s disheartening, i feel like my followers are embarrassed to be following me. plus we get so much more hate than sfw blogs.. i’ve been told to kms or deactivate MULTIPLE times

i would be lying if i said i write for myself though. i write for the people who show me endless love and support and who keep me on this hellsite regardless of all of the shit it’s put me through lol. but i’m trying to focus on myself more, work more on what makes me happy.

thank you for stopping by 💗

[t4tbruharvey]

hiii! the thoughts haven't been quite collected yet but yesterday I had a discussion with some friends that I feel like you'd get a kick out of:

we were talking about how it's funny people keep insisting Batman is straight, but also that the rogues serve as extensions of Bruce's psyche/ as representations of aspects of his personality - some of those aspects being obvious, some repressed - and that they're foils to him because....a very big part of his rogues gallery is either canonically queer or heavily queer coded so if they are representations of (hidden) parts of his psyche then :) mr. batman sir if you're straight why are all your foils queer ? :)

(to paraphrase the friend I talked to: "The Joker: [is supposed to represent Bruce's repressed thoughts and urges, the chaotic parts of his personality he doesn't want to admit he has] -- Also the Joker: [is heavily queer coded and crossdresses multiple times in the comics]....funny thing that :)")

also sent them that "I know I look queer but I'm not ashamed anymore..somethingsomething flag of TwoFace" post I saw you reblogged so thanks for that one akbsbs. Hope you're doing well today!

HI ANON!!!!!!!!!!! take as long as you need with the thoughts (i'm going away tomorrow and i'll be back on wednesday so if they're ready by then that's great it'll be a fun thing to look forward to when i return but equally if not that's cool too)

batman being straight is like soooo interesting to me bc him being presented as the heterosexual power fantasy was a deliberate choice after the comics code authority was loosened i think? and it happened in tandem with them deliberately queercoding the joker, so it's meant to be a direct contrast between them BUT it can read as extremely gay (which extends to the rest of the rogues gallery, shout out to canon bi riddler rip canon bi twoface 2ever in my heart) and like i think i've talked abt how the joker can read as just a straight up gay allegory if the k*lling j*ke is taken as his canon origin (emphasis on allegory here - hashtag not all gay people are thrown into acid) so if i find that i could like. ahaha *twirls hair* i could dm it to you.... maybe....

i'm happy ur friends enjoyed the flag of twoface post lol! have you seen the joke 'tonight harvey dent fucks men' panel? it's not like funny in the same way but it does warm my heart IMMENSELY despite almost certainly not coming from dc

[b-lessings]

Hi Heartstrings Anon here! I just saw your post on here about your day and seeing someone get attacked and their phone stolen :( I'm sorry your day was like this. I'm sending you love and prayers 🧡 be safe out there

Alright, hiii pumpkin 🧡🧡🧡

Lemme tell you the ugly truth, the attacks and the stealing that's part of everyday life in the capital. I lived there for almost 5 years and I would witness incidents like that at multiple times a day, one time it happened to my own sister when she was going to school someone stole her phone in the subway. But like, I was kinda immune to the ghetto life style then. Now, that I started going back to the capital ( because I am going back to school ) and I don't go just to visit the fancy places or in someone s car, like no I have to take public transportation and be a part of the everyday hustling life, it's all coming back to me lmao. I keep thinking " I forgot how bad and dangerous life here is ". And tbh, it is the most dangerous out of all the cities in the country. Also, I now live in the statistically safest city in the whole country ( Tataouine - in the desert) so the contrast is really high ..

Anyways, I crossed the country back and forth from the farthest south to the top north and came back in less than 24 hours and it's gonna happen again and again when I'd be having exams at school.. and then I go back south to teach. So .. umm.. my life is going crazy rn but that's basically who I am 😅 as a person, I do not identify as bipolar but my life sure as hell is. I either hibernate for a whole year not doing shit just sleeping and watching netflix and reading books and putting on weight....... or suddenly I find myself taking on of my biggest life projects if not the absolute biggest, all at once. But thank God, that now, I am surrounded with people who push me to be the best I can be and believe in me instead of the people who used to always drag me down 🙄

I am optimistic and hopeful ( for now ) let's see how will I survive this upcoming month :D

But on a side note, let's see how will I survive this day because it s like 2 degrees outside of my bed and I have to go out, get groceries and be an adult OUTSIDE OF MY BLANKETS ❄❄❄⛄☃️

Alright, m gonna shut up now 😅

What's going on on your side? How s the job hunting??

[officialbillhader]

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DID YOU LIKE MY COUNTDOWN!? That was fun! I had fun. That was actually more fun than I thought it would be! There were too many good posts to name. It was very fun reading all your comments and theories.  Though side note: animal anon has no problem with people joining her BUT it must be animals and it must not mess with my countdown. No statues! Animal anon does animals, not statues. Side side note: can someone settle the debate of if that emoji is a hedgehog or a porcupine? Because I have no idea. Side note side note side note: sorry if you got multiple asks in a day...my system isn't perfected yet so sometimes I send two (or three) because I forgot I sent one and didn't want to accidently miss anyone (also sorry if i did miss you, still perfecting the system, no one has been animal anon blacklisted, i promise!)

Anyway, GUESS WHAT TODAY IS!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 It's been one year since I started animal anon! How exciting is that?! Phew, what a year we've had together! I mean what better way to start this second year than some chaos since that's how animal anon started to begin with! I will admit, it was slightly stressful coming up with something to meet the occasion of this event. I hope the countdown and this post live up to it. No, I'm not going to reveal myself just yet.. maybe that will be for year 2...😏😏. BUT I will give you some fun facts about me! So let's see; first, I'm from the Midwest (so not Canadian, but close so I do have a slight accent), but I currently live in the TriState area. Second, I am a MASSIVE theater nerd. No, seriously I have been to 21 shows since Broadway reopened in September and I'm actually going to my 22nd tonight. I don't know if this makes that fact better or worse, but I've really only been to about 12 different show because out of those 22, 10 of those are one specific show. Third, I am fluent in German and English. Though, I suck at writing in German, I never learned how to, so don't ask me to do that please. Fourth, my favorite color is red, so you can guess my favorite Taylor album (and coincidently also the show I've been to see 10 times on Broadway...). Fifth, I love to talk A LOT if you couldn't tell by the essays I send yall. And lastly, I can also confirm I am not Taylor...but I will say that I do share something very important with her... tell me your guesses down below as to what very important thing you think Taylor and I have in common, and I'll send some extra animals to whomever I see gets it right first!

So contuining on with my dissertation here, this week I have been trying to figure out a prompt to live up to this occasion. As I already mentioned, my system isn't perfect! And I've been thinking a lot about community lately and how that's been lacking for so many because of Covid. So what I want yall to do is if you get this dissertation of mine, please send a message, post, anon, whatever you want to at least 1 other blog (though you can do more), telling them something you like about them and giving them an animal emoji! That way we can keep spreading the love all day long to as many as possible! 🥰

As always, you are all brilliant, kind, worthy, beautiful and as this past week has shown, hilarious and unique human beings. No seriously, some of your posts had me kneeling over in laughter. If you would so like, you can tag #animalanon so I and everyone can read all your lovely posts! IM STARTING EARLY TODAY SO WE CAN PARTY ALL DAY LONG BECAUSE I LOVE YALL SO MUCH 🎊 🦥🦁🐯

Hiii animal anon!!!! Dont ask me how, but i jist knew you were midwestern. I felt it in my midwestern bones!!! I saw someone else guess that you share a birthday with taylor, so im stealing that guess bc i like it.

I love you animal anon!! Youre so kind and sweet and fun and you gave us a fun week of guessing what the countdown was for