#like hey brain. you're literally disabled stop trying to shoot for the level of overworking that the childhood energy shield gave you. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

anarkhebringer · 10 months ago

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I'm blown away at myself for being surprised that I can't do anything yet, because I was so caught up in the euphoria of FINALLY having a slow mind and emotional stability that I forgot I was being fucked up by black mold infestations for almost 7 years, without meds for 5, and in those 5 years I was so depressed that I was basically reduced to rotting in my bed nearly 24/7.

Like my brain is more than likely deteriorated beyond repair at this point, and I've noticeably regressed with my mental functions, I can't expect to ever bounce back to where I was before.

#I occasionally get upset that I'm not magically able to focus and do shit but then I remember this #like hey brain. you're literally disabled stop trying to shoot for the level of overworking that the childhood energy shield gave you.#I'm just glad I came to terms with this while I was in the depths of despair and not in a giving up way #but in the way of knowing what's happening and resigning myself to being happy with any level of improvement #and I am don't get me wrong it's just the whole ADHD thing #you know how it is when you get that streak of Good you get that ADHD Hubris and try to shoot for the stars instantly

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