#like fjdj i know people love me but still. i want them to make me feel like im important

[littlegoldfinchh]

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[thewhizzyhead]

before I sleep, here is my definitive ranking on all the NPMD songs and some rambles on why I placed them there - also the ranking is based on how much I vibe with them (music production and lyricism have different rankings)

1. Hatchet Town (aka the hatchetfield trilogy theme song like this tune perfectly encapsulates the chaos Hatchetfield has to go through with every Starkid project pos-2018 and I love it - kinda wish it was a number that is more integrated with the plot with the kids tho BUT I REALLY DID LIKE that this melody was quite prominent in the other songs too)

2. High School is Killing Me (I've watched many teen centered musicals and believe me when I say that this song is one of, if not, the best introduction numbers out there for this genre - also it's a really great opening hook for a show)

3. Nerdy Prudes Must Die (FUCKING AMAZING HONESTLY - amazing way to REALLY re-establish a villain back from the dead and to establish the main theme for the nerds here: "I'm Not A Loser" (tho i fucking wish that motif was used a bit more))

4. Just For Once (everyone cheer for Lauren Lopez flexing not just her high tier soprano skills, but also how amazing of a fucking actor she can be like the concept of this song is quite layered and to pull it off both comedically and emphatically takes great lyrical and acting prowess)

5. The Summoning (a well-anticipated onstage introduction to all 5 of the LiB that balances out befuddling neon-entertainment with genuine fucking menace)

7. Cool As I Think I Am Reprise (A FUCKING GENIUS REPRISE I CAN'T STRESS ENOUGH HOW COOL I FIND THEM RECONTEXTUALIZING THE OG SONG AND IF I LOVED YOU TO FIT THE SITUATION AND BOTH OF THE CHARACTERS GROWTH. LIKE IN TERMS OF THEMATIC IMPLICATIONS WITH CHARQCTER DEVELOPMENT, THIS SONG AND ITS SCENE WOULD BE THE TOP)

6. If I Loved You (I think this song could be a bit more honestly like I know how much Starkid has explored Steph and Pete's relationship in their other projects and I was really hoping that they would have it more portrayed here - however the song is a bop nonetheless and it matches neatly with their themes and the harmonies are top tier. I placed this higher than the next just due to my personal bias like I really do like the song)

8. Dirty Dudes Must Die (A GREAT TWIST THAT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER MUSICAL ABOUT GRACE CHASITY'S DERANGED SELF - also the new context of the song Grace is reprising here makes her a villain even scarier than MAX of all people but that's just me)

9. Literal Monster (A very catchy beat and well structured song that provides a good introduction to a jock-bully with the god complex. also kinda foreshadowing to nerdy prudes must die)

10. Cool As I Think I Am (the instrumentation reminded me of Dear Evan Hansen ngl fjsjd but it really does sound like an I-Want song from a teen-musical which is of course what they are going for - it sounds very nice and earnest though and I loved how it was utilised in the reprise. However I still fucking wish that the I'm Not A Loser motif was used more)

11. Dirty Girl (look I'm sorry for ranking this quite low on the list but like there is no fucking way I'm using this as bait to lure other people in like they'd be scared away I'm sorry fjdjs BUT I love how Will and Angela perform this though like top tier starkid performances ever - its not just what I would listen to on repeat personally jgjdjs)

12. Go Go Nighthawks! (This one gets plus points because of FUCK YOU CLIVESDALE GO GET FUCKED. otherwise its nice and cheery and perfectly shows how happy everyone is without Max but um I kinda wish it could be a bit more especially in terms of showing how happy the other nerds are now that Max is gone but that's just me)

13. Bully The Bully + Bury The Bully (Look I couldn't decide which was better like they both are the same melodies so like gjxjs these two are cute though and I liked seeing the 5 kids bonding in Bully The Bully since we don't get that many scenes with them)

14. The Best Of You (the pop-punk happy number is a staple of teen-centered musicals and it does really sound nice - just isn't that much of a standout compared to the others.)

[morifinwes]

hey laura!! yeah tumblr was acting up but i’m glad they’re going through now :3 that sounds like a good plan btw! (also oh no, hope everything is fine and that you get well soon! 💕)

oooo i’ll keep that in mind to wish you then ! tbh i never really know what i want for my bday so i just ask for books or smth that’s always a safe option fjdjs although i’ve gotten multiple copies of the same book on so many occasions i had to give them away to other people T-T

ahhhh that’s a smart choice!! you’re right that’s basically when the whole thing started going sideways (esp for wwx poor dude) it could possibly have *some* bad repercussions but like.... nothing can be worse than ur brother losing his core and you having to go through an excruciating process to give your core to him,,, right?

honestly, i would pick the same event, but if jc had to lose his core, then i would probably pick ‘wei ying come back to gusu with me’ bc a) wangxian wouldn’t have terrible misunderstandings for like . y e a r s b) the wens would have a better fate. gusu would suffer some consequences (i’m sorry lxc for all the diplomatic sht this would cause :p) and wwx would still have no golden core but ! it’s the best fix-it to canon after wwx gives his core to jc (if that makes any sense hdjd)

oooo omg i just googled dresden and apparently it’s famous for art museums? i could literally spend an entire day and then some at art museums (it’s actually happened once my friends almost abandoned me bc i was taking too long and ranting about impressionistic techniques :’)) so i’d love to visit! i’ve never been to germany but castles >>> especially the really old creepy ones oooo (and new zealand is an amazing place! esp if you enjoy hiking/extreme sports i would recommend kayaking there!)

okay today’s questions!

⭐️ cant think of any *deep introspective* questions today so,, top five wangxian moments? :3

⭐️ question about u! when did you join tumblr? and why?

ok that’s it for today! i should actually be studying so i’m sending this a bit early hehe >.< have an amazing day ! （＾∇＾）- 🍵

that sounds like a good decision!! ajsksk ngl now i'm curios about a wangxian fix-it au where wwx goes back with lwj to gusu. my family used to visit castles when i was young, we live in an area where a lot of castles are so for me it's kind of normal ig?

i've only seen pictures from dresden and ajkdksks i so badly want to go there. my sister went with my dad once, she really enjoyed it. also yeah art!!

top 5 wangxian moments (in no particular order)

1. when lwj carries wwx!!

2. the xuanwu cave when lwj hums/sings wangxian

3. you know the jingshi scene in cql? with the "luckily in this world somebody still trusts you?" yeah that one had me crying

4. the scene where wwx learns that lwj took in a-yuan

5. the bunny lantern scene in cql!!! (that one is just... so soft and lwj is soft and soft lwj is like !!!! also it was one of lwj's best looks)

i joined once in 2018 but i wasn't active really? one of my friends bullied me into it. then at the beginning of the year i got into it again, i deleted my old blog and made a new on which eventually resulted in the side blog. i actually didn't think i would enjoy it so much like i do now, it was just supposed to be some relaxing while being in quarantine etc. and then i got one of my online friends to get tumblr!! she's not very active but we talk a lot

ahssjs i know the feeling! have a great day 🥰💞

[leenuwoes]

170804 Snuper Fansign

The venue seemed so intimate to me, it was in a small theatre... I went to my spot (I was #91/100) and I started panicking because there was no wifi so I couldn't look up how to say anything anymore at the last minute... These two Japanese girls Kaylen and I met at the store to buy the albums for the sign both got in! They said hi to me and were so excited but really sad Kaylen couldn't come.... There were lots of other people we knew there, mostly Japanese fans we met at music shows honestly. At first I thought being #91 was bad but I think it helped me because I could see how everything played out before actually doing it myself. I got really nostalgic because they were playing Back:Hug and I listened to that on repeat on the plane to Korea and then there I was, meeting those guys....

When they came in my heart almost burst... like the feeling of "I'm going to get to talk to them oh my goddddd".... I would die for all of them... I couldn't believe it was actually happening. Also I got really tripped out because I imagined them sitting in a certain order and THATS HOW THEY WERE SITTING!! Incredible

I was sitting at the back so they were kinda far away but Sangho and Sebin were right in my line of sight. Woosung talked a lot before it started, and I kept getting distracted by Sebin because he is just... so good and he looked so damn fine as well with a lowcut shirt and necklace and pushed back blonde hair Ugh

As I looked away from Sebin I noticed Sangho was... staring at me...? And when I caught his eye, he smiled ;; so ;; big ;; and I waved and he waved back and I legit had to break the eye contact after a few seconds because I was so flustered fuck... after, a girl beside me yelled at Sebin and he looked a winked a bunch of times and I caught it on vid and since she was right beside me it looked like he was looking into my camera too Bye

Then I recorded my friend getting his signs and at that point I noticed that no one had given them any cute gifts like things to wear on their heads? And I had prepared something for all of them whoops so I was like Uh

While I was watching I felt very disturbed by how much time it seemed like people had with them, and also I was nervous because you have to line up like 10 people in advanced in front of everyone leading to the stage I was sooo nervous fuck

So finally they got to my row, so I went and lined up, and luckily my friend was right in the section in front so he was being really encouraging to me, like being silly and dancing to the music to me, and he also took some pictures of me lol so I felt really grateful for him...

Here are my fanaccounts for the members!

Taewoong

He was so soo sweet ;; Really really smiley in a very cute way. Our interaction was so awkward at first, he was asking me who Justine was (like if it was me or a friend) but I thought he was trying to figure out the age hierarchy between us, so there was a little miscommunication lol but that got figured out quickly. My friend who's been to about five of their fansigns told me he's always first because he's good at calming people down, and honestly its true. He's really easy going and playful, and a tonnnnn of fun. He spoke a lot of cute Korean to me, mostly just a few words here and there, of course he's smiling the whole time, and when I gave him his gift (a little bow clip with a spring and butterfly attached to it) he was like "Oh thank you!" (eng) and he was going to take it but I asked if I could put it on for him because I've always wanted to try that Whoops so he let me!!! And god it was so cute to hold his little head and I put it on the top of his head god I wanted to die (I could tell his hair was really crusty tho rip stop dyeing it). So then he started signing my page, and I looked down and... he was holding my hand... and I know that's normal but I was so taken aback because I didn't remember when he took it LOL and  Okay so I was... Really surprised to see he has.... very veiny, manly looking hands and he was wearing a lot of rings I........ and also he had a lot of stubble on his face too Okay! Anyways he answered my post it out loud in such a cute voice frick and honestly it was over so fast I was kinda sad I didn't have time to do/say everything that I wanted but its okay because it was a great interaction :))

[Trans: Please write me an encouraging message as I have been stressed out and losing sleep a lot lately!!

Ans: Here I am~<3 (I think he meant, “I am here” like “I am here for you!” ;; then, “화이팅!!” (fighting/I’m cheering you on!)]

Suhyun

He was sooo easy to talk to oh my god, he really made me feel calm because it was so casual, he's not really smiley but he's extremely friendly. He also talked to me in Korean the most. When he found out my name he was immediately like "Oh Justin Beiber!!!!" and I was like nOoooo and tried to explain theyre spelled differently and he was like "Ok ok sorry" lol Sorry bro and then I gave him his present (a pink bow clip) he took it and was like "지금...?" (now?) and when I said yes he kind of laughed like he was embarrassed (sorry) then put it in. He answered my post it in Korean then translated it for me even tho I knew what he said lol but that was nice. After, in Korean, he asked me where i was from and if (what?) I ate, and since I was able to answer easily he was like "Oh youre good at Korean!" (in Korean) and i was like "No I can only speak a bit" (in Korean) and he was like "대학교?" (like asking me if I study at university) and I was like yea but the staff was already pushing me away but he held hands with me once more quickly before I left!

[Trans: Is there a member who’s not who he seems? Why?

Ans: Sangil!!

When I asked why, he said it’s because he’s handsome but he’s actually really cute. I was so bored by that answer because I already know that but w/e he was put on the spot LOL]

Sangil

He was really cute and shy and awkward which I didn't expect (because he's pretty goofy) but it was still nice! My time with him was kinda chaotic though because first of all, he signed the wrong page lol and I tried to tell him but he was kind of confused so when I showed him he was like "OH..." but he couldn't do anything so he just moved the post it fjdj and he felt so bad but I just kept telling him it was okay (in Korean). And then he made the same JB comment as Suhyun but when I was like noooOo he was like "Okay sorry" bUT IN A MORE SAD WAY THAN SUHYUN GHDIDJDD BABY IM SO SORRY I WASN'T TRYING TO BE A A BITCH TO YOU... Then  I gave him him this apple headband that lights up and he gladly took it and smiled but THEN HE PUT THEM ON THE BACK OF HIS HEAD SO I WAS LIKE "Nono bring them up!" And he was so confused again, but eventually figured out what I meant but I felt so bad because I felt like I kept demanding him things it was so chaotic god I love him tho and he's adorable.

[Trans: What’s something that makes you happy to hear?

Ans: I like you]

Woosung

He tried speaking a lot of English to me I love him so much? He was so sweet for trying, honestly hes soooo kind no offence I kind of thought he was shit tier (it's a joke don't worry) but hes NOT lol. In my post it I asked him to do a starjng contest with me then give his first impression of me afterwards, and honestly I don't know why I decided to do that but then I was So. Glad. I did because he is so...... BEAUTIFUL..... he looks like a video game character? He's so flawless he looks like a computer graphic I was so shocked.... and I was surprised I held on so long but it must've been because of his beauty like I could've stared at him forever.... but eventually he blinked and I think it was because he was wearing contacts (WHICH ALSO ADDED TO THINGS) so I kinda feel bad for making him do it but it was FUN and he seemed really pumped for it. Then on the post it for the first impression part, he was like (in English) "EYES.... SO.... PERFECT...." and he like... GAVE UP writing perfect because I think he forgot how to spell it I LAUGHED god I love he

[Trans: Let’s have a staring contest! After, tell me your first impression of me.

Ans: Eyes So Perfect]

Sangho

God...... my ass is in fucking pain just writing this..... he smiled a lot immidiately.... and he smiles as though hes seeing a really close friend after a long time? It's one of those heart melting butterfly inducing smiles. When Woosung told him "Justine" (oh yea the members passed my name down the line... frick) he was like "Ahhhh Justine!" And he didn't even ask me to spell it... note, he signed my slogan a week or so ago so I'm thinking he remembered my name from that... can I die... and then he looked me in the eyes and said "보고싶었어요" (I missed you/I wanted to see you) and smiled... GOD HE REALLY. TALKS WITH HIS EYES AND HIS LITTLE SMIRKY SMILE LIKE HE IS JUST SO. B O Y F R I E N D IT MADE ME WANT TO SINK INTO THE FLOOR AND DIE... (also side note, I noticed when he wasn't smiling that he had creases where his smile lines are and bitch thats like my #1 makeup issue so for some reason that just made me suddenly like him even more ?? Bye). Then I gave him the headband (pink with cat ears) but he didnt put it on cause he was wearing something else on his head... I really wanted to see him in it but oh well he... more than made up for it... While he was answering my post it, I decided to tell him I was leaving soon... I was like "그냥... 오빠..." (oppa [something girls say to older males]... just...) and my voice was really shaking because I was really flustered to be in front of him honestly and... he suddenly looked up at me, stopped writing and slid his hand into mine really firmly and held it and he looked really    concerned    oh my go d I ???!!!!!??? that moment alone   was worth how much i spent on the albums bITCH.............. like it was just... so boyfriend ((like it was that moment when he thought his gf was going to start crying so he tightly held my hand and stopped what he was doing to look me in the eyes and listen......I'm sorry I'm sappy)) and i was like "일요일에 (omg i jst realized said the wrong day).... 한국을 떠날거예요......" (on Sunday [I meant monday tho ;;] I'm leaving Korea) and he made such a sad face and was like "왜애애ㅐ" (Whyyyyy) and i was just kinda  choked up and he smiled softly and was like "어디?" (Where are you going/asking where I'm from) and I told him Canada and he kind of sighed and was like  "가지마ㅏ" (Don't gooo) and then he answered my note (I said "I like you so so much, where can I meet a guy like you;;") while still holding my hand and he said his answer outloud as he wrote it and after he held both my hands and he said something like "I know we will meet again soon" :'----(((((((((((( I'm going to fucking cry this is like something I dream of happening but it happened in real life... I love him so much... and then I had to go and he kept thanking me and stuff and I forgot about the Ryan stickers I was going to put on him so I just     fjdkdk gave him the whole pACK AND SOME OF THEM WERE USED HE'S GONNA THINK I'M SO CHEAP  BUT I WAS PANICKING and then right before I left I told him... I loved him (in Korean) god it just came out I'm so embarrassed ;; I love him so much he treats his fans so well he's like the kind of fanservice honestly I'm so shook

[Trans: I really really like you, where can I meet a guy like you?

Ans: ㅎ.ㅎ Justine I really really wanted to meet you

(My Korean friend and I looked at it a lot and that’s what it looked like he said, so I guess he’s saying after he first heard my name (from the slogan) he wanted to meet me... god he’s good at fanservice...)]

Sebin

GOD he is  .      be  a  u  ti ful    like a literal frigging prince and his was over way too fast too I wanna die... So Sangho told him my name and then I was like "oh wait a second!!" (in Korean) and he STOPPED SO FAST I'M SORRY BABY and I was like "My sister really likes you..." and he immediately understood and was like "Ahhhh whats her name?" So I was like panicking and I fumbled for my sticky notes but I couldn't find my pen so I just asked to use his lol and he looked at Kaylen's name and I had drawn a loop for the L and he took out my sticky notes and he pointed and was like "L?" and I COMBUSTED HE'S SO CUTE GOD and so he signed that for her and I explained to him that she couldn't come that day. Then I gave him the EARS (a beige fox/dog ear headband) AND HE PUT THEM ON RIGHT AWAY I LOVE HIM HOW IS HE SUCH A SQUISHY BABY BUT LIKE A FUCKING HOT ASS PRINCE AT THE SAME TIME?? And then he held my hand and Kaylen wanted him to draw something cute for him and he drew a cat so quickly god everything he did was so cute I love HE and I told him the same as Sangho that we're leaving on Monday.... and I honestly don't remember his reaction But my time with him was also pretty chaotic but i think I was just really flustered from Sangho :P Sebin though is seriously so beautiful and kind he's just a little shy with new people I think!

[Trans: My sister is your fan but she didn’t get into the fansign today... please draw her a cute picture!

Ans: *cat* jdkjdd]

ANYWAYS IM BEYOND EMO! BYE!

So after I sat down, a few minutes later Sangho caught my eye again then smiled and waved and gave me a ... heart.... then two finger hearts and I was really dying Fuck me

They all ended up keeping their presents on from me - Taewoong had his lil butterfly clip on the top of his head, Suhyun had his clip on the side of his head, Sangil kept his apple headband on, Woosung put the bunny clip on his collar like a bowtie, Sebin kept his ears on the whole time !!!!! Sangho has his kitty ears on his neck.

*Previews NOT MINE! Credit on watermarks*

*Previews NOT MINE! Credit on watermarks* 

 Watching the rest of the sign... Sebin really loved his ears and kept doing cute things to show them off and everyone thought he was so endearing!! But side note... he fidgeted with the headband a few times so I think it was kind of uncomfortable but he didn't want to take them off :-( god he's so precious...

When things were winding down later, Sangil took off his headband and Woosung took it, put it on his face so the apple parts looked like they were coming out of his eyes and he was like "눈이 아파요요요요ㅠㅠ" (my eYes hurttt!!) in a REALLY DUMB VOICE I laughed so frigging hard them Sangil wore them the same way God they're so silly

Then they came to the front at the end of the sign and when they were doing their final waves Sangho smiled and waved really big @ me, mouthed "고마워요!" (thank you) and gave me a finger heart again (I got it on video that time) I wanna :-( my boyfriend :-(((((( i love he so much.... hes spoiling me..........

And then it was over and I really wanted to cry it was such a beautiful experience for me... I'm really gonna love and cherish these boys for the rest of my life!!!