#like best case scenario yes but i still wanna kms

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chapter WHENNNNN😫 jk take your time queen we love you

Alright lovely people, do I release this chapter at an ungodly time (a.k.a in the next hour or so) or do I wait till tomorrow?

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EPISODE FOURTEEN - “I GUESS THE PERSON I LIED THE MOST TO WAS MYSELF“ - ISAAC

It's going to be me and I hate myself because I could've won but like my computer restarted and it was mind over matter and I only stayed in so long because I knew I *needed* it. And I hate that I'm too pathetic to save myself especially when I actually thought I could do it. I thought I could win. But I can't. And how I fooled myself into believing that I'll never know. I guess the person I lied the most to was myself.

OMFGGGG I WON FINAL FUCKING IMMUNITY!!! FUCK!!! YES!!! I can't believe it, like the process was so bad when I saw water bottle I had a feeling it'd be the endurance firemaking comp from Atlantis so I had several intense, lumberjaclyn focused war flashbacks. But then I saw the pen/pencil and paper and got even more scared thinking it'd be like one of those comps where you have to chug and like you'd have to secretly write how long you think it'd take you or something idk. But then it was revealed it was like an adaptation of the Atlantis comp where you'd have to hold the pen/pencil on your forehead with one finger!! Mess! So, Zack dropped out in like, one millisecond which was good for me like one bitch down. But then I was worried because I was like Isaac is still standing and we have to at least make sure he drops before any of us drop. Then we're holding for like minutes and eventually Sam drops too omfg!!! Like what I was like did she throw the comp omg. Then it's up to me to make sure Isaac doesn't win because that would've been the worstttt case scenario for me. It felt more difficult than the first time because it was so hot, but I managed to redeem myself from my last season and beat Isaac!!! I was so fucking happy to have finally done it, like I'm guaranteed to be in the FTC!! But then again I'm still worried that it's not all over yet. I have fears that they're gonna be like surprise bitches it's a f2! And like that would be so depressing omfg idek im just hella worried but it wouldn't make sense would it? Ugh idk. I'm just praying I still make it into FTC no matter what omfggg. So like, the plan is we're just voting Isaac. But of course there's always the chance it may go to firemaking rip, especially with Sam because her heart is very like idk she plays with her heart when it comes to the people she cares about. Ugh idk I love Isaac but at the same time he has back stabbed me and I can't betray loyalty that people gave me for like disloyalty. And he's such a threat to winnnn omfg like he was close to all the people on the jury I wasn't, and close to those I was close to as well. RIP

PONDEROSA LOG 

Kill me I hate my opening statement it's such a bumbling mess LMFAO. I felt like JennCity "..big moves like...big moves.....big strategic moves" END ME

Later....

Jc's funeral Well fam, I'm losing allstars :( I put so much into this game! Like I think I'm most upset because I doubted myself. I didn't feel like I played to how well I played in agrabah and Atlantis, and coming into this final tribal I feel like I did play the best out of the three in FTC, but I completely fucked up in my answers! I wish that all of the answers could have been written because I get so anxious on video and shit! Ugh this is such a tb to the first day when I did a VL confessional and said I never do anything on video! MESS Honestly I'm happy for Sam, she deserves to finally win after all her second places, but at the same time it's like I wish I could finally win you know? After all my final juror placements. It's nice to have finally made it to FTC for the first time ever, and learn what you have to do there. But at the same time it's like, I feel like I played the best game and could have finally won!! :'( Ugh this is tragic it just like I keep fighting to win but I never do! And I've been a bitter nasty bitch dis season but it's just like oh well hunty that's just how I felt it's not like I actually felt these mean things it's just like shade to be funny bloop! Ugh I'm just waiting for the freaking results to lose! I hope I at least get one vote I mean that'd be nice but ugh, I want the majority!! This sucks ass and pickles. I WANT TO WIN. Ugh hopefully I at least get some episode titles smh, I don't think I'll win PotS or anything but that's alright I guess gurl I just wanna win its like 99% chance Sam is winning .9% I'm winning .1% Zack is winning. I'm happy to have made f3 with my Ourbb HNG babies but like let's just repeat the same ourbb placements of Zack 3rd Sam 2nd and me 1st okay? OK!! Like ugh how could it be that in all these votes where the voting confessionals were like "jc you're a big threat if you make it to the end you'll win" mean nothing when it comes time for FTC? Oh well, no matter what I won't be a bitter ass loser, I'll be happy for whoever wins, but obviously I'd love to win you know?! Ugh kms!