#like am i that easy to read akfjslciiendps | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lesbianoikawa · 7 years

Text

u kno when ur trying to be a better person while also trying to figure out who u even are? like im so disconnected from my own identity it fucks me up! i wanna feel at home nd my body and with myself but i cant help but feel like a visitor in my own life... an outsider lookin in

#ive seen 1 person from school 2x this summer akfjsljcks #thats it folks #i havent done shit...#and like #havent been writing having been planning #too much thinking for someone to handle ykno #im just sad and dissociating and..... sighs #its very weird when like... the resident doc u meet 3x is like lmao this kid is traumatized/is experiencing trauma #like am i that easy to read akfjslciiendps #anyways i just wanna have Fun ykno #but thats fuckin hard when ur default is to feel nothing and be nothing #been trying to keep up with skincare as a bare minimum #neem+turmeric mask 2x a week and then antoner 2x a week i do a rose mask #tea tree oil fash wash.... moisterizing #i think it helps but idk #havent worn makeup in... shit... since i went to toronto #LaUGHS i really rambled in the tags #someone i.... care abt??? friends???? messaged me #u ever get that whole sensation of #damn i wish we talked more but idk how to speak #thats me!!!#sighs #im gonna detach from my body and stare at a wall or sleep or smthin #lowkey wanna wait for a reply BUT u kno me... already 11 days late #skfjlskfks #im a mess... a wreck...#shut up kj #generally dissatisfied with life nd wanting not to exist. mood

1 note · View note