#like I will admit I was a fucking sponge when it came to learning how to research
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Sorry about all the posts about people not educating themselves. It's a topic im deeply passionate about and have a hard time understanding the opposition on because I am a fundamentally curious person who went and practiced the research techniques I was taught so that I may research better.
Plus I have autism so "researching to understand the world around me better" comes with the territory.
#simon says#it's genuinely a topic I have a lot of thoughts about#and I think part of it is that things like reading and media literacy and research are skills#and you probably were taught them at some point#and you just either didn't understand at the time or didn't care enough to practice those skills and remember what you learned#like I will admit I was a fucking sponge when it came to learning how to research#i went out of my way once to read books for an essay I was writing instead of using the computer a few times when I was young#Teacher talked about finding bias in sources?? I remember that to this day#however someone else in that class might have just forgotten and might now say they were never taught it#when they might have just not understood or not listened or not practiced the skill and just forgot#it's just one of those things I struggle to understand because so much of my life is built around research#I am a deeply curious person who is passionate about learning and I am required to learn to expand my passions#like im an artist#learning comes with the territory there#I pick up new books all the time on odd topics just to help me with drawing them#and of course I learn something new in the process#like I once saw a book at Barnes and Noble that was about the history of Salt and I regret not getting it because I wanna learn about salt#i genuinely cannot comprehend how someone does not do research and learn more things to comprehend the world around them better
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Why the ending of "Sponge-Cano!" was great SquidBob fodder
Hello! I'm back with an analysis post as I came across something recently and wanted to share some thoughts.
I'm likely late to the game here, but I saw an old post in which the author (a fellow SquidBobber) was upset by the ending of "Sponge-Cano!" and I just have to say... huh!?
Were we watching the same episode? đ¤¨
Needless to say, I was thoroughly perplexed by this reaction because I personally read into it much differently. Then again, I am a clown.
Therefore - in the spirit of friendly fandom discourse - I wanted to provide another perspective on this episode. Absolutely no shade to the OP either - people are allowed to have differing opinions, after all.
If you're with me, let's clown around below the cut!
The lie that started it all
Before we dive in any further, let's take a look at the scene that started this whole conversation.
Essentially, after Squidward's heartfelt confession to SpongeBob, while he's hanging on for dear life over a boiling volcano...
Squidward: "Please SpongeBob, I didn't mean any of that! I do appreciate your friendship. I am grateful. I'm⌠I'm⌠I'm grateful for the life I'm living! Who knows how long I'll have it? I learned that from you, remember?"
He says this after being rescued by his true love SpongeBob:
Squidward: "You know SpongeBob, in light of everything that just happened... I lied to you. I am not grateful for anything! I mean look at me. I don't even have a roof to sleep under, anymore!"
Now, this is the moment that had the OP so heated about this episode. After everything he said, after SpongeBob saved his life, he just... lied?
Weeeell, not exactly.
The truth always reveals itself
Now, for my hot take... I don't think Squidward was lying at all when he said he was grateful for SpongeBob.
Before you immediately decide that I've completely out-clowned myself this time, just hear me out!
There are a few reasons Squidward may have reacted the way he did in the aftermath of the volcano debacle.
He's Squidward
Our man's just lost his whole fucking house for the billionth time
The reality of what he just said is slowly catching up with him
He's Squidward
Unlike his more chipper counterpart, the guy doesn't exactly wear his heart on his sleeve and has been shown to struggle with vulnerability and admitting failure. I mean, he can barely manage to apologize for his less savory actions without choking and sputtering like a fool!
However, when his life was on the line in this scene, he was vulnerable in more ways than one. Physically, he was quite literally dangling over an active volcano - you can't get more vulnerable than that! Emotionally, he bore his soul to SpongeBob because he thought he was going to die and wouldn't have another chance to say any of that again. Keep in mind, he truly believed he wouldn't live to see SpongeBob ever again.
I've mentioned this in my Reigisa x SquidBob masterpost, but there have been several other instances where - particularly, in a dire situation - Squidward will openly admit that he has always liked/cared for SpongeBob. And similarly, he's also tried to take it back or act like he didn't mean it when everything turns out okay or if other people aside from SpongeBob hear his confession.
So, as much as he "hates" SpongeBob and can't stand him, when it really counts, the truth always reveals itself.
Is it possible that he was just trying to play at SpongeBob's heartstrings to save his own ass? Perhaps.
But then, he accepts his fate. He loses his grip, giving everyone a tearful farewell. That is, until his little yellow angel comes to his rescue.
SpongeBob: "Squidward, I always knew you felt that way. Aw, buddy. Thanks for finally opening up to us."
âŹď¸Just look at the pure love in his eyes! (*Patrick voice*: LOOK AT IT!) The sappy sponge was even prepared to sacrifice himself for him. đĽş
While there was absolutely no way SpongeBob would actually let Squidward perish - promises be damned - it wasn't until Squidward poured his heart out, putting his true feelings towards SpongeBob out in the open, that he was saved from certain death.
You know how they say, "the truth will set you free"? No kidding!
As for why SpongeBob was completely fine with Squidward's lie after the fact (another point of contention for OP), well... he loves him. Period. And I think, despite his emotional constipation and frequent annoyance with the sponge in question, it's pretty clear Squidward loves him, too.
Therefore, SpongeBob wasn't upset by Squidward's outburst here because, as naĂŻve as he may be, I don't think that fact is lost on him either.
In conclusion...
I think it's safe to say that "Sponge-Cano!" was a pretty great episode to add to the ever-growing SquidBob pile.
And if you thought the scene I talked about above was the last of it, ohohoho~ đ¤đ
You. Just. Wait.
At the very end of the episode, after Squidward loses his home and complains that he no longer has "a roof to sleep under anymore," SpongeBob does what SpongeBob does best: he offers to help him out.
Even after Squidward's selfish actions in "Can You Spare a Dime?" (which had some great fodder as well, such as *ahem* Squidward making SpongeBob wear a sexy maid outfit), SpongeBob still lets him stay at his house for an indefinite amount of time. Continuity? I don't know her.
To which, this gets even better.
Squidward doesn't refuse and find somewhere else to crash. After all, wasn't SpongeBob the reason he was miserable enough to be sacrificed in the first place? Why would he subject himself to even more SpongeBob, if that were the case?
At SpongeBob's house, he doesn't sleep on the couch or in a spare room. He doesn't even take SpongeBob's bed for himself while SpongeBob sleeps elsewhere - just like he did in "Can You Spare a Dime?"
NO.
The two of them share SpongeBob's bed. As in, they sleep in the same bed together.
Are these two fucking serious!?
They totally cuddled. Maybe even kissed.
All that to say, as much as Squidward whines and gripes about how much SpongeBob makes him miserable, it's clear to see that - even in the face of life-threatening adversity - SpongeBob's presence in his life is the key to his happiness. In this case, the key to his survival as well.
Now, if only our favorite grumpy octopus would take that spongey key, embracing him fully, to unlock that door... đ
#anyways i love this ship#and this episode was one for the books#i will die on this hill#my adhd ass spent the whole morning on this lol#no regrets#spongebob#squidward#squidbob#spongebob squarepants#sbsp#tragic clowning#episode analysis
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Karkat Vantas, Meenah Peixes
Act 6, page 5308
KARKAT: HEY, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY... OH. IT'S YOU AGAIN.
KARKAT: SORRY, FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT ERIDAN'S AWFUL ANCESTOR FOUND HIS WAY IN HERE.
KARKAT: I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WAS POSSIBLE TO BE MORE OF A SHITBAG THAN THAT GUY, BUT SOMEHOW AMPORA TEEN-SENIOR PULLS IT OFF?
KARKAT: I WOULDN'T HAVE BELIEVED IT IF I DIDN'T ABSORB IT WITH MY OWN AGGRAVATION SPONGE. JUST INCREDIBLE.
MEENAH: yeah vantas im gonna clue you in on somefin
MEENAH: mosta my crew is hecks of dreadful to be around
KARKAT: I KNOW!!!
KARKAT: HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE FOR A GROUP OF PEOPLE TO SUCK SO MUCH, WHEN THEY'RE PRESUMABLY ALMOST GENETICALLY IDENTICAL TO A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I LIKE?
KARKAT: MAYBE IT'S THE AGE DIFFERENCE? OR THE FACT THAT THEY ALL GREW UP ON A PLANET FOR LAME PANSIES WHO ARE CIVICALLY OBLIGATED TO WET THEMSELVES DAILY.
MEENAH: ahahahahaha
KARKAT: I HAVE TO ADMIT, MEETING ALL OUR ANCESTORS LIKE THIS HAS BEEN KIND OF OVERWHELMING.
KARKAT: I KIND OF HAD TO GET AWAY FROM EVERYONE AND BE ALONE FOR A WHILE. HOPEFULLY I'LL JUST FUCKING WAKE UP SOON.
MEENAH: oh uh
MEENAH: you want i should step off
KARKAT: UH
KARKAT: NO, THAT'S OK.
KARKAT: YOU'RE ACTUALLY FINE, MOSTLY. I JUST COULDN'T TAKE ANOTHER ENCOUNTER WITH RED SWEATER GUY.
KARKAT: HE'S LEFT MY HEAD SPINNING, AND NOT JUST BECAUSE HE NEVER SHUTS THE FUCK UP.
KARKAT: FOR A LONG TIME, I DIDN'T EVEN BELIEVE WE HAD ANCESTORS. I THOUGHT EVEN THE CONCEPT OF ANCESTORS WAS JUST SUPERSTITIOUS, EGO-STROKING ARISTOCRATIC BULLSHIT.
KARKAT: BUT NOT ONLY DOES IT TURN OUT YOU'RE ALL REAL, BUT APPARENTLY YOU HAD THIS WHOLE DIFFERENT CULTURE IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE BEFORE US? SORRY, THAT'S A LOT TO TAKE IN.
KARKAT: WAIT...
KARKAT: OH, NO. NO, FUCK ME. HOLY FUCK.
KARKAT: "BEFORE US?" GOD DAMMIT. I *JUST* GOT THAT.
KARKAT: SEE? THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. MEETING YOU GUYS HAS MADE ME HAVE LITTLE INFURIATING REVELATIONS LIKE THAT ALMOST CONSTANTLY.
KARKAT: LIKE, NOW IT CASTS THE NAME OF MY OWN PLANET IN A WHOLE NEW STUPID LIGHT. ALTERNIA? AS IN, ALTERNATE? ALTERNATE TO WHAT. TURNS OUT IT IS THE *ALTERNATIVE* TO A PLANET CALLED BEFORUS! THE PLANET WHICH CAME *BEFOOOORE* US. HAHAHA! GET IT?
KARKAT: WHATEVER JOKERS NAMED THESE PLANETS WERE COMPLETE FUCKING MORONS.
MEENAH: well fwiw
MEENAH: alternias da bomb compared to my planet
MEENAH: and im not just saying that because grownup me ran the joint 38D
KARKAT: HEY, DON'T LET ANYONE KID YOU. ALTERNIA WAS FUCKING GREAT.
KARKAT: I DON'T EVEN CARE THAT MY BLOOD MADE ME A PARIAH. IT WAS WORTH TO IT LIVE ON SUCH A BADASS PLANET.
KARKAT: SOME PEOPLE LIKED TO TALK SHIT ABOUT THE EMPRESS. AND IT'S TRUE, SHE PROBABLY WOULD HAVE CULLED THE SHIT OUT OF ME ON SIGHT. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I ALWAYS RESPECTED HER AS A STRONG LEADER.
KARKAT: SHE KNEW HOW TO GET SHIT DONE AND DIDN'T PUT UP WITH DISSENSION FROM WORTHLESS IDIOTS. AND ALL SHE DID WAS, YOU KNOW... TAKE OVER THE ENTIRE FUCKING GALAXY. NOT TOO SHABBY.
KARKAT: I USED TO HAVE THIS KIND OF EMBARRASSING FANTASY THAT I WOULD GROW UP ONE DAY AND BECOME A THRESHECUTIONER. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS?
MEENAH: ?
KARKAT: THEY WERE LIKE THE DEADLIEST SQUAD OF INTERSTELLAR FIGHTERS UNDER THE COMMAND OF THE EMPRESS. THEY HELPED CONQUER MORE PLANETS THAN ANY OTHER IMPERIAL FORCE. BUT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO MAKE THE CUT, BECAUSE OF MY BLOOD. SO I USED TO THINK OF ALL THESE ELABORATE SCENARIOS TO HIDE MY BLOOD COLOR. OR IN THE MORE RIDICULOUS FANTASIES, MAYBE I COULD EVEN PROVE MY WORTH AS A SOLDIER? LIKE JUST BE SO AWESOME WITH A SICKLE, THEY WOULD JUST HAVE TO MAKE AN EXCEPTION. MAYBE EVEN BE LIKE A FOLK HERO AND RISE THROUGH THE RANKS TO BECOME THE LEADER. HAHA.
KARKAT: THOSE WERE OBVIOUSLY JUST SOME CHILDISH DAY DREAMS. I'VE LEARNED A LOT ABOUT WHAT BEING A LEADER REALLY MEANS SINCE THEN. MAINLY THAT IT'S A LOT HARDER THAN EVERYONE THINKS.
KARKAT: SO I GUESS I LEARNED TO RESPECT WHO YOU TURNED OUT TO BE ON MY WORLD EVEN MORE THAN I DID ALREADY, BECAUSE OF THAT.
MEENAH: yeah
MEENAH: the leadership thing is hard as globes
MEENAH: could barely get anyone to lift a flippin finger in my session
MEENAH: and now its like that all over again trying to raise this army
MEENAH: i reely dunno how sexy bitch grownup me pulled it off
KARKAT: OH YEAH. HOW IS THAT GOING?
KARKAT: HOW MANY RECRUITS DO YOU HAVE?
MEENAH: want to take a guess
KARKAT: OH. STILL ZERO, HUH? YEAH, THAT SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT. SERIOUSLY, FUCK LEADERSHIP.
MEENAH: i know!!!!!!
KARKAT: WELL LOOK, HOW ABOUT THIS. LATER ON, WHEN I'M AWAKE OBVIOUSLY, MAYBE OUR METEOR WILL HIT A RENDEZVOUS POINT WITH YOU AGAIN.
KARKAT: IF BY THEN, YOU'RE STILL LOOKING FOR RECRUITS, I'LL LIKE... HOP OFF THE METEOR OR SOMETHING. AND JOIN YOUR ARMY.
MEENAH:
KARKAT: THEN WE, I MEAN YOU AND ME AND WHATEVER OTHER IDIOTS YOU'VE ROUNDED UP, CAN ALL GO FIGHT THE INVINCIBLE DEMON.
MEENAH:
KARKAT: I DON'T KNOW WHY EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND, I'M UP AGAINST AN INVINCIBLE DEMON OF ONE SORT OR ANOTHER. I GUESS THAT'S JUST THE IMPOSSIBLE KIND OF THING PARADOX SPACE WANTS ME TO DO TO PROVE I'M NOT SOME HORRIBLE MISTAKE OF NATURE. ANYWAY, DOES THAT SOUND GOOD?
MEENAH:
KARKAT: OH, BUT ON ONE CONDITION. AS THE NEW EMPRESS, YOU HAVE TO APPOINT ME AS GRAND THRESHECUTIONER OF YOUR ARMY. DO WE HAVE A DEAL?
MEENAH: oh yes yes you got it yessss
KARKAT: GOOD. OK, THAT'S SETTLED.
KARKAT: NOW I'M GOING TO GO FOR A WALK, DO SOME MORE THINKING. ALONE. OK?
KARKAT: JUST UH... MAKE YOURSELF AT HOME HERE... IN THIS STRANGE MEMORY PROJECTION OF MY ROOM. I'D TELL YOU NOT TO RIFLE THROUGH MY SHIT, BUT NONE OF IT IS EVEN REAL. SO GO NUTS. WHATEVER.
KARKAT: I'M LEAVING.
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Alexander hadn't expected Patrick to reach for his hand but as soon as he had all Alexander could do was move to rest his hand closer to his lovers so that their hands could stay entwined. Alexander hated events when it was just one brother instead of the both of them, but having Patrick at his side would at least settle him. As long as Patrick was there everything would be completely fine, "that about sums it up. It's only ever him or I, never the both of us, when it comes to parties like this." He would have probably had it the same way if he'd been in her shoes, "and more often than not i'm the one that's called upon based solely on my age," because he was the heir to the throne, the eldest brother, and although he chose to share that throne with Thomas the sharks his father had associated with didn't accept a second person at the helm. "Thomas gets roped into these same sorts of things every now and then. He's more charismatic than me," he had no problem admitting that Thomas knew how to play the charming game better than he did, "so when mother needs a manipulative charming pawn she goes to him." He did love getting to watch his brother in action when it came to charming the hell out of whatever sad sap they needed to, but even he might have to take second place when it came to charisma now that Patrick was on the scene. He'd grown up with the King brothers, had learned everything he could from them, soaking up all knowledge like a damn lethal sponge, and boy was he fucking amazing when it came to putting everything into motion. "One of these days we're going to tell that old bat right where to fucking go, but until then we'll play her little games, for as much as she thinks she's in charge it's quite the opposite, one day she'll realize that." The brothers were smart and knew how to handle their mother, just like they handled everyone else, and for her thinking she had them in her back pocket she couldn't be more wrong.
"You'll do nothing of the sort," the last thing that he would want was for his mother to find out about this. She KNEW the two of them weren't together which would raise suspicions, and the last thing he wanted to do was have her asking questions she didn't need to know answers to. His breath hitched in his throat as he heard Patrick say the word out loud, boyfriend, and something about it sounded so fucking good coming from his lovers lips. Sure, he'd just said it two minutes ago himself, but to hear the word returned did nothing more than bring a huge grin to his lips. "Only if you'll have me," because even if it was only a game for the evening he would first want to make sure that it was one that Patrick was even willing to play. He pulled the others hand, that was still holding onto his, and brought it to his lips as he gave the others knuckles a gentle kiss. "We'd be the hottest couple there," and hearing that Patrick was all for this little game - well fuck, that just made tonight so much better for the both of them. "Sorry I didn't tell you about this sooner," he could have given him even a hint back at the haus, but he just needed to get away from the haus as soon as possible and didn't see the importance. "That's actually what i'm hoping for," there were a few names that he would give him once they were through the doors of the events, a few men he wanted to point out for his pet to play close attention to, and once he made the grand display of them being together he'd send his pet along his way to collect as much information as he could to be used against whoever later. They'd come back together, continue to enjoy the night, and come morning the brothers would be sitting on a large amount of important information that could unravel quite impressive men. He hadn't really thought about how it could be the two of them together, together without having to hide behind closed doors, and the damn talks and gossip that would ultimately come of them stepping into the room holding hands. "If i'm going to be saddled to one man it might as well be you," he would want it to be nobody else. Patrick was it for him, it didn't matter how long it took for them to be together, he would wait until the earths end to be with him. "I'm more concerned for your sake, not mine, you sure you want our names attached in such a manner? You know words going to get out, it might even make it back to the haus, are you ready for any implications it may bring?"
Making Alexander happy was all that Patrick had ever wanted since they were kids. The methods to make that happen had surely evolved â now they had the physical component over the emotional one â but no matter how many years had passed, his feelings toward the older King had only grown in size. Even when they were apart and living their lives, they would always keep in contact and hear Alexanderâs voice over the phone or see his face via facetime ⌠that was all Patrick would ever need to be happy himself. It was funny, really. When he was a scrawny kid whose father had abandoned his pregnant mother and had to see her work her ass off to take care of him â he would have never even contemplated how lucky he would truly be after she got the job at the Kingâs manor. At first, a part of him was afraid that Alexander and Thomas would see him differently. He was a maidâs son. A poor little bastard that was good for absolutely fucking nothing. But Alexander had seen him. He befriended him and taught him all he needed to know. Their friendship was pure and as it evolved into something more â Patrick couldnât help but to be ever thankful for Alexander to befriend him when he did. He didnât have to⌠but he did. And now the two of them together were every bit of a menace as Alexander was when he spent time with his brother. The only difference was that he wasnât related to the King by blood⌠and sex was a mandatory component whenever the two of them were close.
Sitting back on his seat and yet again adjusting his glasses, at the mention of a cocktail party, all Patrick could do was reach out for Alexanderâs hand and intertwine their fingers in a kind and reassuring way. He never held hands with anyone but Patrick did love to provide Alexander with that extra support. He knew how dreadful of a task it was to mingle with those sharks at a party. Men and women flaunt their riches and pretend to be more important than they actually were and definitely seek to kiss Alexanderâs ass for favors in the future. It was all a damn game of influence and luckily for him, Alexander had trained him well when it came to dealing with the rich and powerful. âSo instead of havinâ yeâ and Thomas as a united front, she wanted yeâ alone âcause yerâ more manageable when yerâ not together?â It made some sense from a business point of view. And the guests would easily flock toward Alexander with him being the oldest â which would leave Thomas alone to do his own antics that would definitely seed enough chaos later down the line. âI should thank yerâ mother for this, then.â Patrickâs lips curled into a smirk â one of the devious ones he reserved only for special circumstances â before he leaned toward Alex and kissed him ever so gently on his cheek. âYerâ goinâ to be my boyfriend for the night?â Something about that word alone â BOYFRIEND - sent butterflies straight to Patrickâs stomach. He didnât need a label to whatever he and Alexander were but to have that word associated with them was⌠it suited them? Were they boyfriends without having the label hanging over their heads? Patrick knew he shouldnât dream that big, no matter how many times Alexander had told him that he saw him as an equal. âDarlinâ, Iâll be whoever yeâ want me to be. And yeâ also know Iâll get some juicy scandals to share before the night is over.â Squeezing Alexanderâs hand, Patrick reclined into his seat once more and turned his head toward Alex as a smile slowly grew on his features. âYeâ realize this will be the first time we will actually be able to kiss in public? Not havinâ to hide somewhere and go somewhere for us to be⌠well, us?â And that was sort of a massive step when ti came to whatever was happening between them. âAnd yeâ donâ mind havinâ others associate the two of us together as an item? I mean â Alexander King appearinâ with his boyfrienâ? That will set some tongues hagglinâ, darlinâ.â
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âł Index [Day 16 - Oil Massages]
Pairing: Good Boy!Hoseok x GFD!Reader
Kinks: sensual love making, a sexy massage, Hoseokâs hands, oil, praise, puppy play, a lil bit of teasing, thigh fucking, naked grinding, vaginal penetrative sex, creampie, cockwarming, cuddly aftercare
Wordcount: 4k
a/n: only one person wanted subby!Hobi and I am here to deliver because :( this affected me deeply btw the panties scene is now burned into my memories fandfna enjoy besties đ¤
You didnât have the best day today. It wasnât a truly terrible day or a horrible one, but it was still not good and left you just that tiny bit moody. Said mood was instantly lifted by your long-term boyfriend and bestest friend Hoseok, who not only came home with your favourite food but also offered an open ear to rant to.Â
The food has long been finished and the rant has long stopped, but your little evening date with Hoseok is still going strong. The television is running in the background, but you arenât watching. Face buried in a pillow and tummy first, you are lying on the makeshift massage table Hoseok built out of your sofa. The latter is busy with oiling up your back, having his hair in a messy bun to make sure it doesnât accidentally poke him into his eyes. The oil is warm on your skin as he heated it just slightly to make it even more relaxing. It smells like vanilla and almonds, lulling you into such a nice state of relaxation.
You shiver as it hits your skin, feeling goosebumps cover you instantly.Â
âHowâs the temperature?â he asks, pouring the oil along your spine.Â
âSo good, very cozyâ, you answer him, already feeling so much more relaxed and he hasnât even started yet.Â
âThatâs good to hear. Tell me if I should change somethingâ, he says and puts the now empty bowl aside. He places his palms on your back to spread the oil in slow circular motions, using his entire palms for it.Â
You sigh happily, closing your eyes. Now it finally starts, you can finally relax. His hands feel so soft on your skin. Hoseok has always had the softest hands ever. Delicate, strong and so, so soft. He says that it is because of all the moisturiser he uses and you honestly believe him. Hoseok uses hand cream religiously. You sometimes even have to chuckle at him when he spends minutes rubbing his own hands together before bed, teasing him that it makes him look like a cute fly. Hoseok always chuckles when that happens and makes little buzzing sounds to elicit another chuckle from you.
âIs there a part which hurts the most?â he asks you, hands lingering on your lower back for now.
âLike everywhere?â
He chuckles, âokay, Iâll make sure to get everythingâ, he says and begins his massage at your upper back on your shoulder area.Â
He uses his thumbs for it, digging them into you in slow circular patterns.Â
âOh thatâs nice, thatâs really niceâ, you sigh, melting in relaxation.
Your boyfriend really knows how to use his fingers. In more ways than one, but let's not dwell on that horny thought for too long. Hoseok however, really knows how to give massages. You learned this during your first month with him when you had a terrible tight neck and he managed to massage it well again. Ever since then, it has become tradition that he massages you on your bad days and in return you massage him on his bad days. It relaxes you greatly and strengthens the bond between your hearts so very much.Â
Hoseok guides his touches from your shoulders closer to your spine, changing the circles for movements up and down on each side of your vertebrae, chasing all those tension points right out of your muscles.
âThat's so nice there. Keep goingâ, you encourage him and sigh happily.Â
Hoseok loves this. He loves pampering you and touching you. Hoseok is so goddamn obsessed with the way your body fits under his hands and the softness of your skin against his fingertips. You probably think that he massages you to serve you, but he must admit that it has more selfish reasons too as he soaks up those moments like a dry sponge. Hoseok seriously loves touching you, feeling his heart flutter in his chest now that he is doing it again.Â
âYou are really beautifulâ, he says softly.
âGosh, thank you. You are so sweetâ, you say with a racing heart.
âNo but, I mean itâ, he insists, âyou are so beautiful. Every inch of you. I love how this part looksâ, he says, tracing the soft spot where your shoulder blade stops. He touches both sides, dancing his thumb over it repeatedly.Â
âAnd this partâ, he says, moving on to massage the middle of your back, âit's so perfectâ, he whispers with his voice shaky in awe. He uses all of his fingers for the massage, drawing patterns on your back while his eyes race over your body obsessively.Â
âYou're the cutestâ, you whisper, feeling so good. Both physically and emotionally. Hoseok makes you feel so beautiful.Â
The parts on your lower back make you groan just slightly and so Hoseok softens his touch, eyes flitting up to look at your face. Your cheek is squished against the pillow and your eyes are closed. He looks back at your body, putting more strength into his touches again. Another groan rumbles in your throat.
âAm I too rough?â he makes sure.
âNo, itâs so nice. Sorry I know I make weird soundsâ, you mumble and chuckle.
âItâs fine, Iâm just always scared that I hurt youâ, he says, tracing the spot right above your tailbone. The latter is currently hidden behind the hem of your sweats.
âYou donât, just keep going puppyâ, you encourage him, âlove what youâre doing so much.â
Hoseok feels himselfâŚ.shift desperately at your words. He knows that what he is doing right now isnât inherently sexy and your answers arenât meant to be sexual, but he still feels affected by it. Your little groans and moans make his stomach tingle and the way your back seems to tense and relax each time he touches a new spot mesmerises him greatly.
He feels like such a dirty man, thirsting over you when you are trying to relax, but he canât help himself. He thinks that you are so beautiful and all he wants to be is to be close to you.
âThatâs nice, so niceâ, you groan and wiggle your hips.
Hoseok gulps, letting his gaze flit down to your butt. The fabric of your sweats is stretching around it just slightly, making it appear so round and sexy. Hoseok truly has to fight every urge inside him not to reach down there and cup it. Not only because it would leave two oily handprints on your clothes, but also because you never gave him permission to touch you that way.
Hoseok breaks his eyes away, looking at your back instead. He climbs on top of your legs and uses the new position to glide his fingers from your lower back up to your shoulders. He uses some of his weight for it to really deepen the touch. You react with a sigh of his name and a content purr, lips curling into a little smile.
He lingers on your shoulders, holding them between his fingers and massaging them almost vigorously. His head he keeps lowered right above your face, eyes racing over your features obsessively. You are so pretty. Oh, how he wants to kiss you. Maybe he dares to steal just one.
You giggle, peeling your eyes open just to glance at him fondly. He just kissed the corner of your lips, now looking at you with slightly widened and shy eyes.
âWell, hello thereâ, you say in a chuckle.
âH-heyâ, he whispers.
âIs that a new massage technique?â you tease, making Hoseok lower his gaze shyly.
âI'm hornyâ, he confesses, making you laugh.
âAwww poor puppy, he's hornyâ, you coo, bending your elbow to play with his soft baby hair at the nape of his neck, âyouâre one special massage therapist arenât you?â
âIâm sorry, I canât help it. Youâre so sexyâ, he whispers, blushing like crazy.
âAnd what should I do about it, mhm?â
âCan I maybe get off?â
âGet off?â
He nods his head, âplease? Iâll get you off tooâ he whispers almost inaudibly, pouting cutely.
Here he is with his big puppy eyes and his hard bulge rubbing into your butt and his fumbly, oil covered hands restless on your shoulders. He looks so adorable that you truly canât say no.Â
âOf course you can. Use my thighs for itâ, you order, making Hoseok moan even without touching him.
âR-really?â he asks, rolling his hips into your butt without even noticing that he does it. It makes you crave so much more. His cock is so hard already and his touch makes you so wet. You want him. Want him so bad.
âYes. Go ahead. Undress meâ, you order, settling back into the pillow with closed eyes.
Hoseok works quickly. He pulls your sweats down, throwing them on the ground. Then he reaches for your panties, hesitating for just a second. You feel the touch, lifting your hips.
âYes puppy, those too. And be a good boy, do it properly.â
Hoseok merely gives you a little bark, climbing down your body to take your panties between his teeth. He tugs them down carefully, wiggling his hips and whimpering softly as he does. He feels so dizzy from this simple act, the desire to serve you oh so well, feels unbearable in his chest.Â
Once your panties are off, Hoseok climbs up the couch until he can place them next to your hand. He sits back down on his heels, looking at you with sparkly eyes and his hands resting on his lap.
âGood puppy, such a good puppyâ, you praise him, gazing up at him.
Hoseok wiggles his hips, whimpering softly. He loves being your good puppy, it makes him feel so loved and important. Â
âGo on, your treat's waitingâ, you say and close your eyes again, settling back into the comfortable pillows.Â
Hoseok doesnât hesitate. He crawls back down and reaches for the oil bottle. Sadly it isnât warmed up like before, but you are burning up so much that a little bit of cool oil is a welcome change.Â
Hoseok trickles it over your thighs and butt, sending shivers through your whole body. He spreads it with his hands first, giving you such a good massage that for a second you consider opening your legs and letting him massage something else instead. Honestly, Hoseok isnât the only one feeling horny. His massages always get you so hot and bothered. Â
âYour butt is so sexyâ, he says, massaging the flesh with hungry hands. He gathers it, squeezes it, digs his fingers into it before releasing it again and using the flat of his palms to trace it. He repeats those movements until you feel like bucking your hips up and ordering him to stick his fingers into you.
âYouâre such a teaseâ, you grumble, rolling your hips into nothing. Your breathing is sped up and irregular, you almost start crying when he abandons your butt to instead spread the oil on your thighs.
âSo sexyâ, he whispers, âI'm so obsessed with your thighsâ, he confesses and squeezes his hands between them just to feel up your inner thighs. You open your legs far enough to give him easy access, moaning softly when this exposes your dripping pussy to the cool air. You throb around nothing, aching for more stimulation. Can Hoseok see how affected he has gotten you?
He runs his hand up and down slowly, eyes following the paths he draws and cock aching in his sweats. All he wants to be is to be between those thighs.Â
âYouâre so beautifulâ, he says, eyes lingering on your pussy, âso wetâ, he breathes, placing his hands right under your aching core. His thumbs press into your flesh, his body heat swirls over your pussy. He moves closer. Just once. For a feather light touch then it disappears again, leaving you aching for more. He draws his touch down again, massaging your inner thighs right under your pussy. Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Â
âOkay seriouslyâ, you laugh breathily, rolling your hips up, âif you decide to tease right now, you can forget getting off.â
âSorry, yeah sorry Iâll behaveâ, he stutters, pulling his hands away before he can rile you up even more. He undresses messily, soaking his clothes with the oil without a care in the world. They are already messy from his excitement either way, a little bit of oil won't make a big difference. He throws them on the ground and then climbs on top your legs, placing his hands on your butt for support.
âThatâs betterâ, you say, pressing your thighs together. Even that simple act sends heat through your pussy. Oh how sensitive he has gotten you.
âIâll start nowâ, he says, panting desperately.
âYes, startâ, you order, wiggling your hips.
With his eyes glued to your thighs, Hoseok lets his hard cock glide right between them. The oil covering your skin makes the slip feel so easy, giving him enough lubrication to bury himself to the base.
âShitâ, he presses out, closing his eyes, âso softâ, he lulls and begins rocking into you, fucking his cock between your oiled-up thighs.
You are so warm, the oil is so wet, your thighs are so soft. Hoseok swears that he instantly feels dizzy and out of breath because of it, moaning softly as hot electricity runs through his cock.
âThatâs so sexy, keep going puppy. Keep goingâ, you sigh, eyes squeezed shut and fingers gripping a piece of the blanket he placed underneath you. You love this.
Hoseok is angling his hips just right that his cock grinds against your pussy with each thrust. His veiny shaft fits perfectly between your lips, the tightness of the position really presses his cock against you. Each movement feels like paradise, sending heat through your pussy and the rest of your weakened body.
âItâs so niceâ, Hoseok whimpers, squeezing your butt. He loves getting off with your thighs. Especially like this. He can reach your pussy so well in that position. You are so incredibly wet this evening, covering his cock in your sweet juices and making Hoseok chase them almost desperately. He loves that contrast of oily thighs on two sides of his cock while one side gets the warmth of your heavenly pussy. The difference in sensations makes him dizzy, head soon falling down and now tangling tiredly.
âItâs the best, it seriously isâ, you agree, meeting his every second movement in a roll of your hips. You know exactly what to do to elevate the thigh fuck and make it even more enjoyable for both of you. You keep rolling your hips up, forcing your clit to glide over his cockhead each time that happens.
âYour pussyâs so wetâ, he whines, âI canât.â
âMhhm yeahâŚâ you lull, not knowing much else to say. Quite frankly, all you want to do is melt into a puddle of relaxed pleasure and moan freely. You love grinding with Hoseok.
Hoseok is a very passionate lover. Attentive, intense, fiery. He fucks deep. He fucks hard. And he fucks long. You blame it on his personality. Hoseok fucks like he treats a choreography. He learns fast, but then practices until even perfection seems imperfect to him. And only then he keeps going, pouring his all into perfecting the already perfect and somehow always managing to actually do so. Hoseok fucks just like that. He learns what gets you both off and then fucks perfectly, passionately and with all his heart poured into it.
And that is why you fucking love grinding with him. Because when you grind, Hoseok lets go of some of that perfectionism and merely allows himself to feel the sensations. He becomes perhaps a little sloppy at times - like right now when his hips stutter for a moment as bolts of hot pleasure run through his cock - and maybe a little uncoordinated - when seconds later he completely loses his rhythm to instead whine about how sensitive he was - but that doesnât stop you from loving those moments with him, because they feel like goddamn paradise.
âIâm so sensitiveâ, he whines as second time, trying to find his rhythm again.
âMe too puppy. My pussyâs so sensitiveâ, you answer him breathily, twisting more of the blanket.
âI wanna be insideâ, he confesses, eliciting your aching desire to be stuffed.
You roll your hips up, whining softly as this once again makes his tip glide over your clit. You are so sensitive by now that the touch makes your toes curl.
âDo it, fucking do itâ, you order, opening your legs just far enough to present yourself to him. Like this, the pressure around Hoseokâs cock stops and all that remains is the wetness of your pussy against his cock.
Hoseok peels his eyes open, looking at where he is touching you. Your thighs are glistening in his excitement, covered in it and marked as the reason for why he was so incredibly horny tonight. His cock is so hard, gliding right through your wet folds. Your hole is right there, glistening and looking oh so empty.
âDarlingâ, Hoseok moans and feels his composure break. He angles his hips and thrusts them into you, allowing his cock to glide into your wet pussy.
âFuck yesâ, you moan loudly, welcoming him with desperate clenches. Inch by inch you feel him slide inside, filling you up with his perfect cock and reminding you once again why he was the best. You needed him so much. The stretch feels so nice, so intense, so good. âMove puppy, move.â
Hoseok exhales shakily, slipping his hands from your butt to press them into your back instead. He tightens his jaw, furrowing his brows in concentration before finally beginning to move. He goes slow but deep, feeling his thighs tremble each time he is buried inside you completely.
âKeep going, donât stopâ, you encourage him, meeting him with equally as slow and deep movements.
You love doing that. You love fucking back on him when he fucks you. You are very well aware that Hoseok doesnât need any help and that he is very capable of getting you there without your guidance. But it feels so good. Grinding with him on a melody only you and him can hear, fuels you. Smooth movements, deep strokes, needy wiggles. The dance feels so goddamn good that you possibly couldnât stop.
Hoseok loves it too. He doesnât want to admit it, but he is struggling a lot tonight. His cockâs so sensitive that moving is really hard. All he really wants to do is collapse on top of you and lie limp as pleasure washes over him. So to have you grind back into him helps him so goddamn much to stay focused. He loves grinding with you. Cock deep inside you, wet pussy tight and bodies burning up. Itâs his favourite kind of dance to do.
Hoseok lowers himself to his elbows, pressing his chest into your back. He knew going shirtless would be a good idea because that feels amazing. Your skin is so soft and warm, the oil feels so good on his skin. He melts closer because of it, cock pressing right against your sensitive spots in the new position.
âI love this so muchâ, he rasps, voice shaky in pleasure, âdo, do you love it too?â
âYes puppy, love it so muchâ, you sigh, reaching behind yourself to grab a bundle of his hair. It sadly messes up his bun, but that truly isnât a tragedy. Hoseok looks so good when his hair is all messy and ruffled. You crane your neck, claiming his lips in a sloppy kiss.
Hoseok moans throatily, hips rutting into you so deeply that you possibly couldnât meet him anymore. You donât mind. His weight on you, the warmth which that brings, the depth of his cock. It all makes up for the lost opportunity to grind.
Like this the blanket bunches up between your legs, lying just right so that a fold of it is grinding against your clit.
âShit Hobiâ, you break the kiss when you realise it, moaning against his lips with squeezed shut eyes, "Hobi, ah HobiâŚ"
Hoseok answers you by moaning against your lips, bending his arm so he can cup your face. You donât even mind that he covers you in a little bit of oil, enjoying the tenderness with a fluttering heart.
âItâs so good, puppyâ, you get out, head falling into his palm as your body forsakes you. You are so weak, you canât hold up the weight anymore, all you want to do is fall deeper and deeper and deeper.
âSay it again pleaseâ, he begs, trembling on top of you.
âSuchâŚa goodâŚpuppyâ, you get out in sighs, basking in the strong shake that courses through him because of it.
âAgain pleaseâ, he whimpers.
âGood puppyâ, you lull, pussy tightening around him because of how desperate he gets you. He fucks so much better when you praise him, sounds so sweet with all those whimpers leaving him.
âOh godâ, he croaks, cock throbbing deep inside you, âah..Iâm close.â
âKeep going puppy, fucking make my pussy cum first, yeah?â
âYeahâ, he whimpers, dropping his head against yours, âfuck, darling.â
âYeah, fuckâ, you agree, dropping your hand from his hair to grip the blanket instead. You twist it harshly, head falling against the couch because Hoseokâs own arm gave up on you. Now his hand lies between your cheek and the sofa cushion, thumb running over your skin in mindless circles.
Hoseok chases you, nuzzling into your neck to whimper your name. His hips can barely even move. Rocking back and forth in the smallest movements. He is so swollen and hard that you donât mind the slow movements. On the contrary, you are so sensitive that even those slow movements feels like too much.
âHobi Iâm close tooâ, you get out, making him whine desperately. Your clit throbs against the blanket, his cock grinds right against your g-spot and the warmth in your stomach gets too much to bear, ânow, Hobi n-now.â
âOh godâ, he squeaks out, gripping your hand twisting the blanket. His hips fall still completely, chest pressing into your back tightly as underneath him you shake and rut in your high.
âFuck yes, fuck yesâ, you chant, rolling your hips into the pillows as best as possible, âfuck puppy, such a good puppy. Youâve got the best fucking cockâ, you growl, feeling your burning high in your entire body.
âI canât hold it any longerâ, Hoseok whimpers and sobs softly, âplease c-can I let go too?â
âYes, fuck yes. You can, yesâ, you chant, throwing Hoseok over the edge so violently that he actually wails up for you, collapsing on top of you as his hips chase the flames of his deep high.
You can feel him cover your insides, moaning deliciously because you goddamn love being creampied by him. Given how you canât get pregnant because of all the precautions you both take, feeling his hot cum inside you is paradise. Warm, wet, addicting paradise.
Hoseok comes down after you, growing weak on top of you. His weight doesnât feel constricting, you actually love having him lie on top of you. He feels like your own personal weighted blanket. Warm, comforting but also sweaty. Very sweaty from all the heated grinding you have been doing. You want all of it. Itâs so goddamn nice.
âThank you so muchâ, he whispers, voice raspy from his intense high.
âYou are so cuteâ, you lull, intertwining your fingers with him, "this was amazing, you know?"
âYeahâŚI donât think that I can get up.â
âGood, donât. Let me warm your cock for a bit.â
âGod I love youâ, Hoseok whispers, nuzzling into your neck.
âI love you tooâ, you answer him, feeling yourself sink into the fluffiest and softest cloud of sweet afterglow.
#hoseok smut#hoseok fanfic#hoseok oneshot#hoseok scenario#hoseok x reader#hoseok x you#sub!hoseok#bts smut#bts fanfic#bts scenario#bts oneshot#bts x reader#bts x you#sub!bts#bangtan smut#bangtan fanfic#bangtan scenario#bangtan x reader#bangtan x you#fanfic: kinktober22
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Drive
Dabbles
Kolt x Tamlin
The boys have to take a drive to the nearby town for plumbing parts. Tamlin opens up a bit on the way
Warnings: strong language, sexual themes
I love these boys manâŚ
Tamlin looked at the dirty dishes in the sink, frowning. He grabbed the sponge, squeezing a good amount of dish soap onto it. Turning on the sink he prepared to start washing.
Just then he heard a much louder sound of water than he should of, pausing to listen.
Dirty water gushed from beneath the cabinets, soaking his feet.
âShit!â He yelled, rushing to turn off the water. He knelt down to open under the sink, finding everything wet.
Hearing the commotion, Kolt padded in curiously. His curls were a mess as sleep still hung on him.
âIâm going to have to call someoneâŚâ Tamlin sighed, looking at the busted sink.
âWhy?â Kolt asked.
âLook at it!â The otherâs voice was tinged with distress, âI canât fix this.â
âI can try.â Kolt offered, already rolling up his sleeves.
âYou can fix plumbing?â Tamlinâs voice was thick with skepticism.
âIâm better with electrical work, but this shouldnât be too bad.â Kolt admitted.
âIt looks like a busted tailpiece. A new one and maybe some new coupling nuts and this should be good to go.â Kolt commented, turning to ask, âYou have any hardware stores around here?
âItâs a drive.â Tamlin answered.
âFaster than ordering them online.â Kolt pointed out.
They got dressed in more appropriate clothes, climbing into Tamlinâs truck. Kolt fiddled with the hanging air fresheners until Tamlin swatted his hands away. They started the drive to the nearest town in awkward silence, neither reaching for the radio.
Kolt tried to stir up conversation, âDoes your prosthetic fuck with driving?â
Tamlin glanced at him from the corner of his eye, answering simply, âNo.â
âOkay..â
âI donât use my left leg to drive.â Tamlin went on, âBut I lost the leg before I learned how to driveâŚso itâs the only way Iv known.â
The small tidbit of his past made Kolt hungry for more, not getting many opportunities when the other seemed to want to open up.
âHow did you loose it?â Kolt ventured.
He saw Tamlinâs hands tighten on the steering wheel, knuckles turning a bit white. When no answer came and the awkwardness blanketed over the truck thickly once more Kolt mentally hit himself for overstepping.
After what felt like an eternity Tamlinâs voice came quietly, something hidden in his tone, âBone infection.â
Kolt nodded, looking at Tamlinâs face. There was more, he knew it, just by the way far off look that pooled in the otherâs dark eyes.
âMy Pa is really good at making prosthetics for people. Iv seen him make a few.â Kolt changed the subject slightly, filling the silence, âUsed to work in the medical field before I was bornâŚand he really likes metalworking now.â
âIs that how you knew I had one?â Tamlin asked, referencing their first meeting.
Kolt remembered being able to sense the metal under the otherâs clothing, inquiring about it before thinking. Not about to tell him how he truly knew, Kolt lied, ââŚyea.â
They finally neared the town, it wasnât much too look at and if you blinked your could miss driving right through it. Tamlin pulled into the small hardware store that doubled as a feed store.
Kolt felt very out of place in his dark duster coat and glossy boots.
It didnât take him long to find everything, the parts fairly commonplace. They made the purchases before heading back out to the parking lot.
âCan we get something to eat?â Kolt asked, looking towards a small dinner.
âWe have food at home.â Tamlin didnât pause, getting into the truck and starting it.
Kolt huffed, climbing into the passenger seat. âYou really know how to treat a guestâŚâ
âYouâre not a guest.â Tamlin rolled his eyes, pulling back into the road, âYou are a mooch that is working to fix his mess in exchange for a bed to sleep in.â
âAlways using such flattering words for me.â Kolt teased, âGettin me all hot and bothered over here.â
He chuckled at the warning look, Tamlin gave him.
âWhy are you always like this?â Tamlin grumbled, keeping his eyes on the road.
âHorny?â
âNo, insufferable.â The other corrected.
âItâs a gift.â Kolt shrugged, looking out the window chewing a bit at his nails.
#my boys#resident evil village#re8 oc#in the steel steeds heart#re8#dabbles#feel free to send asks of the boys#Kolt is like my favorite oc
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My Stationery Box, or: The Douche Chest, or: How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Love Being A Terrible Parody Of Myself
So I really love to write letters, and have since i was a kid â when i cleaned out my grandparentsâ house I found a few Iâd written in grade school, and my parentsâ files are chocablock full of the weird collage type things I sent to them in college.Â
Iâve also been a huge insufferable fucking snob about stationery since way too young (yes I did have a fountain pen phase, no it did not go well) and have been collecting fancy paper and cute cards and assorted weird writing paraphernalia forever. Up until recently, things were just kind of haphazardly stuffed in various drawers and shelves and I could never actually find any said fancy shit when I wanted it; but a couple of months ago I discovered an adorable little chest of my late momâs that had previously housed, I think, her knitting and has mostly just been collecting dust since. And voila: The Douche Chest was born:
(Pictured with my elderly laptop and coffee with my coffee warmer, which I STRONGLY ENCOURAGE everyone to buy one day when weâre not under worldwide quarantine, seriously it will change your life.)
Keep Reading for some top tier stationerdery
First off, the stuff that helps me write! I still use my family address book, which was purchased sometime in the early 80s and has the name and address of everyone my parents ever cared enough about to want their name and address, which is actually not that many people. I keep it updated and have added a few people, but mostly rely on my phoneâs address book. Mostly I like it because itâs got a lot of my momâs handwriting.
My planner, which has a whole correspondence section where I keep a record of who I write to regularly, when I write to them, and what kind of stationery they usually get (because there are different types and you donât want to give a correspondence an inconsistent letter-reading experience! Yes I know, I canât believe Iâm like this either) indicated by the m, s, x, l, b notations. That will be relevant later. Also yes the planner is where I scribble down both story ideas and my gratitude journal. This is what Iâm saying in re: yikes.
At my own house, I have a whole huge box of letters Iâve gotten over the years, mostly organized by sender and date. Since Iâm at my auntâs house for quarantine, my correspondence is all being kept in my dadâs old... I dunno what to call it, basically itâs a trapper-keeper type thing that I literally never saw him go to work without. (A running theme of this tour is that a whole lot of this stuff is inherited from/given to me by my parents and grandparents.) Inside is also various labels that have come in handy when addressing packages etc, as well as our local neighborhood directory.
Next up is my pen bag, which is â I mean, it has my pens. I prefer writing with a black .5 tip rollerball type pen, and by âpreferâ I mean âI cannot abide writing letters with anything else and will go to Staples and buy a new box rather than use a ballpoint pen except obv not right now, which makes the bag real important for keeping track of all my special pens.â Also pictured: my grandpaâs ancient letter opener that Iâm pretty sure he stabbed multiple people with, and my blue Le Pen which I use to annotate my letters when Iâm reading them through before sending. I KNOW.
This is my assorted letter-writing stuff storage box (no weâre not even at the cards yet this is TERRIBLE); please note that I sort of jerryrigged this box together myself, which will be another running theme of this tour. Glue, roller whiteout thingies, washi tape (which I donât really use but people keep sending me?) post-its and my address stamp because no matter what I do, the fuckinâ Audubon Society refuses to send me a single donation request with cute stickers showing my address even though theyâve sent my deceased dad like three THIS YEAR. Anyway. Also please note the incredibly awesome initial stamp thing â I came up with the rough design in college and use it in place of my name a lot, but I went to leoniebunch and they transformed it into this super professional and lovely design that I want to use for the rest of my life. Not pictured: the fucking wax seal I also had made with that design, because yes, Iâm like this.
WEâRE STILL NOT DONE WITH THE PARAPHERNALIA: hereâs the other misc. stuff that I use on the regular. Cup with sponge because weâre not really licking envelopes these days: tons of weird stickers that Iâve collected, YET MORE PENS, including rainbow ones because one of these days Iâm going to write to one of my friends with alternating rainbow colors and theyâll have to murder me. Also pictured: the letter opener which I forgot to put back in the pen bag, as well as my dogâs nail clippers and brush because thatâs a handy place to keep them. Also also pictured: my dog, who does not help in any way with letter writing.
OKAY FINALLY ONTO THE STATIONERY, Jesus just writing this all out is making me both proud and ashamed.
Iâm sure you noticed in the first pic how everything is meticulously, not to say monomaniacally, labeled. Some stuff might require a little bit of explanation; some stuff is pretty wysiwyg though. For example, BEAR CARDS, which:
(These are sent exclusively to my nephews, who go absolutely apeshit over them every time. Come to think of it, I have a LOT of cards/letter stock/etc that is just for one person or one set of people, which maybe I should talk to my therapist about.)
PUN CARDS are likewise exactly what you think they are; theyâre the most recent addition to my hoard, having found them at Powells when I went to Portland in February. They are extremely My Kind Of Thing.
Then youâve got things like BIRTHDAY CARDS, THANKS, POSTCARDS which like â guess what:
(Please note that of these birthday cards, all but two were actually inherited from my grandmother who passed away in 1986. See if you can guess which two are my purchases.) (Also Iâm running out of thank-you cards but to be fair I am rarely grateful so this should last me another few years at least.) (Also shit, I didnât take a picture of the postcards I donât think? Whatever, theyâre postcards that Iâve either inherited from my parents or collected over the years. Thereâs also a very odd collection of wolf-themed cards that SOMEONE in my family collected, and that I have been using exclusively for allighater because sheâs the only one who could ever appreciate them enough.)
Then thereâs the BLANK CARDS and BLANK AND WRITTEN CARDS WITH/WITHOUT ENVELOPES, because sometimes I just need to know what Iâm getting into before opening the boxes. Iâd say a good 50% of these were inherited from my folks, with the cutsier ones being my own purchases. The cards that these boxes originally contained are looooooooong since used up but theyâre nice boxes and that meme about adulthood being an endless debate over whether or not you should keep a box because itâs a really good box is accurate as all hell.Â
(There are a lot of cards in here that I bought when I was like, in college â those square ones, for example, were purchased at Faces in Northampton when I was in college and Iâm probably never going to actually send them which is kind of ridiculous but see: this entire post.)
And finally, the actual letter-letter stationery! Which I also have an embarrassing amount of! First up is whatâs labelled MADOC TREE CARD/LETTER because I honestly had no idea how else to describe it; it was inherited from my grandma who everyone called MaDoc (on account of her being both a ma and a doctor, go figure) and itâs really lovely. I doubt itâs the original intention, but I like to unfold the paper and use both sides of it, because I always have a lot to say. These are used only for family members on MaDocâs side, and of those, only the ones I really like, which accounts for there still being a lot left.
Then thereâs the X-LARGE paper, which isnât actually that large â itâs just normal computer-sized â but in context is the biggest stuff Iâve got. All of this paper is from my mom, who loved using cute themed paper, and I use this stuff mostly for the friends of hers I keep in touch with (which is actually kind of a lot).
Then thereâs the letterhead I use for â okay, so like, we know by now that Iâm deeply weird, but this is probably just DEEPLY WEIRD, but whatever, you came this far. So I found a metric shitton of 6 3/4 envelopes in amongst my parentsâ office supplies â I have literally zero idea why they had about 5 100-count boxes of these envelopes but Iâm one of those people who can never, ever throw shit out, so! I gathered together all the letterhead that theyâd also collected over the years from the various universities and hospitals they worked at, cut said letterhead down so that it a) didnât have University of Tacoma or whatever still on it and b) perfectly fit a 6 3/4 envelope if folded three times. The resulting shape is a little... odd, Iâll admit, but it pleases me greatly and thatâs the important thing. In fact this has been my go-to correspondence choice for a couple of months now.
(Also pictured: the cover for this hinky-ass box I made out of a Beekman 1802 box from when we went to their store for their Rose Apothecary popup shop. Zero regrets. Not pictured: the really cute pad of paper I also use for these envelopes thatâs a more normal size and shape because whereâs the fun in showing you normal stuff?)
And finally, my pride and joy, my Crane Stationery, some of which I have had since I was in high school and my mom bought me a box of it for my birthday (I told you, running theme). It comes in small, medium, and big; yes, I absolutely have rules as to who gets what size of these, too. The medium box kind of fell apart a few years ago so I cobbled a new one together; Crane stationery is notable for not being as exciting as that cover might imply. Iâm also kind of pleased that I still have the airmail stationery that I got in college that apparently isnât sold anymore, which I find baffling because what the fuck is the point of international correspondence if you donât have to use special stationery? Anyway:
(In re: the lined sheets â I actually have them for every size, because I loathe lined paper but also loathe writing crooked, hence these guides that I put under each sheet as I write. ¯\_(ă)_/ÂŻ )
So thatâs the complete guided tour! If you aspire to have a collection as viscerally unnerving as mine, feel free to send any questions my way. Youâre welcome/Iâm sorry.
#'you're welcome/I'm sorry' is ALSO a running theme#anyway a whole three people on twitter wanted this so tadaaaa#stationery station
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So I thought it would be fun to do a song-by-song breakdown of our latest album Essential.
Essential started as some rough demos designated for a side project in late 2019, which then became our largest album to date in terms of song selection. Many of the themes deal with learning to cope with the changing world thanks to Covid, with a perspective of someone who had to keep working at an "essential" job with no option of self-quarantine. I was happy to continue working and being able to pay my bills over the past year, but there was always elements of stress, fear, and tension lingering over myself and everyone else in my position.
So here we go; starting from the top let's look at the Songs of Tuesday X's 6th album Essential.
1. Jet Fuel Can't Melt Steel Beams: the title was a reference to the 9/11 conspiracy memes, which as stated in the opening lines, "has nothing to do with this song." Written in January of 2020 before Covid had made any significant impact in the US, the song touches on many themes which happened to occur throughout the year, such as [another] Californian forest fire (Australia too), new diseases (Covid), a riot (the BLM movement over the summer, which I will state everything that movement has been fighting for is 100% justified and the United States is in desperate need of Police reform, as does our political system which has remained inherently racist to this day.), Civil War (and exaggeration for sure, but the civil unrest and political division in our country will soon split us apart further), more corporate giants(companies like Amazon profited more from this Pandemic than ever before and have helped further the gap between the American working class and the top 1%). Favorite line: "I won't get philosophical, I only wanted your attention."
2. The Only Difference Between You and Me is a Sense of Apathy and Your Brand New Nikes: This song is a blithing criticism of the American political system. Our two party system has left Americans with a choice between "the lesser of two evils" and allows politicians with no true interest in our needs to rise to power. The use of 3rd parties as an alternative is a overly simple compromise that would only just begin to alleviate the problems created in our political system. Both of our main parties are considered conservative parties to the rest of the world, and any progressive measures that would benefit society and reduce the effects of climate change are considered radical and preposterous by politicians with financial stakes in our crooked system where corporatations hold control and the people are treated as fuel for an otherwise worthless currency. Favorite line: "Listen to the radio, they played my favorite song. Now I'm bored and wanting more."
3. Blame it on the Elves: the title is a reference to an episode of the Podcast "Lore" by Aaron Menke (i can't recall which episode, but you should check it out anyway because it's great listen.) An instrumental interlude inspired by ragtime music of the 1920-30's, with an edge of course.
4. Class of Dropouts: This song was written when I was 16 during my sophomore year of high school and was originally featured on my now unavailable album "trees" before adopting the Tuesday X monicker. I brought it back 6 years later because I loved how raw and punk it was. The lyrics are dorky but I decided to leave them as is, it's a cool track for high school stoners to blare and let out their teen angst. Favorite line: "Walking in on my friends fucking."
5. Polaroids on My Bulletin Board: This is a song about growing up. As a 22 year old (now 23) who decided not to go to college straight out of high school, I felt isolated from my peers in a way. By going into the workfield right away I sometimes feel like I skipped a few years and missed out on a lot of opportunities. I regret not leaving my hometown sooner than I did and chasing my dreams of being a touring musician in a band. More often than not I reminisce of my youth playing shows and getting into trouble, as I now feel old and out of place in a scene I grew up in. Favorite line: "I know what it's like to be alive, I know what it's like to live a lie."
6. Labradoodle Underpass: Going back on the theme of growing up, this is about my recent experience with shows as an adult. When I was a teenager I felt ambitious and ready for anything, and I would drop literally everything to go to the nearest show. As an adult I feel introverted and constantly anxious about the world around me. I've missed out on a lot of great shows due to my own self doubt's and anxiety. Now that shows have been canceled for over a year I feel even more regret by not appreciating them more while I could. Favorite line: "23 years and a lingering fear that anything could happen, why am I here?"
7. Some Shit: This was me trying to be modest mouse lol jangly guitars and half talking/half singing vocals describing the world around me. I guess in a way it was an exercise in writing character description and setting, but otherwise it's just a chill track that almost feels aimless at parts. Favorite Line: "it's just some shit I learned from a friend. Just some shit I learned when I was trying to prepare."
8: Woe is the World: On the album this is a chorus snippet that barely a minute long (the full version is available as a bonus track on bandcamp, and it was actually a demo that turned out better than the final version.) I originally wrote this song when I was 15 with a different set of lyrics, but I came back to it while writing this album and re-wrote it to reflect my mental state and the world around me. Overall, just another melancholy track in a sea of melancholy songs. Favorite line: "you've never felt more alone than you do now, was everything worth it in the end?"
9. Then Why Was it Named Gideon?: the title is a reference to a line in Scott Pilgrim's Finest Hour (my favorite series) and like the first track on this album doesn't have much to do with the song. "Gideon" is a simple love song, talking again about how growing up sucks but having the right person by your side can make all the shitty times worth it in the end. Favorite line: "it's time to move on, you're taking too long."
10. I am Here, I'm Looking at Her, and She is Beautiful: This song is entirely about the book "Perks of Being a Wallflower". That's it. Nothing else, let's move on. Favorite line: "Over Christmas I read them a poem about a brown paper bag and the boy who wrote it."
11. Try to Be a Filter, Not a Sponge: Like the previous song, this one is also mostly about "Perks of Being a Wallflower", but with elements of my own experience with toxic relationships. I like to think of it as the character Charlie's experience with Mary Elizabeth overall though. Favorite line: "She called my favorite book washed out trash, said I have no taste and I'm still too sad."
12. Lavender Spray Bottle: This instrumental dates back to 2017. I recorded the guitar part as a demo on my phone and forgot about it. Over time I forgot how to play the guitar part, so I used the demo as a basis and layered everything else on top of it. The title is a reference to a bottle of water with lavender essential oils mixed in that my ex used to fend away spiders in the house we lived in at the time.
13. Hindsight is 2020: I will admit, this is my favorite song on the whole album and was actually the last to be written and recorded. With a simple guitar part and layers of vocals, this song is a direct reflection of life during the peak of the pandemic. With curfews in place and rising case counts, I had to learn to cope with life at home during my late nights away from work. My partner was quarantined during this time and I reflected on the mental strain this put on her. Favorite line: "Don't go to work, you need the money but you're not happy when you're there. Sometimes life is so unfair."
14. I Don't Know How to Deal With Serious Emotions Without Turning Them into a Fucking Joke: the title came from a meme I found on my phone from high school. The song itself was about my own inability to handle serious emotions without coming off as sarcastic. In both the music and lyrics, the song starts as a simple confession before exploding into raw chaos. Favorite line: "it's so hard. I'm so scared, what have I become?"
15. Say Hello to My Little Friend: the last instrumental on this album. A short haunting tune that reflects the final two tracks. The title is probably a reference to Rambo or something, but I never watched it and I thought it fit the feeling of this song.
16. Minneapolis: What became one of the most emotional tracks on this song actually began as a joke. My partner was snap chatting a friend one night and they asked me to write them a song on the spot. So I improvised the first two verses and chorus of this song, referencing her going to school there at the time. I found I actually liked what I had written however, so I refined the track and changed it from a sassy country song into a melancholic lament of my experience in the twin cities and southern Minnesota. Favorite line: "I miss Camp Snoopy, and Paul Bunyon's log flume ride that went around the whole damn mall."
17. Before the Sunrise: the final song on the album is an intimate look at my relationship with my partner. Through past experiences i have become riddled with self doubt and always looking at improving myself as a person. With hopes that one day I'll be the person I'd like to be for mine and their sake, it's an optimistic tribute to my best friend. Favorite line: "the cycle ends until the sun rises again, you're my best friend."
Thank you all so much! Check out Essential and our other music on Bandcamp, Spotify, Apple, and other places! I hope you all enjoyed this personal look at these songs that got me through the worst parts of 2020.
#tuesday x#emo#music#alternative#art rock#diy music#diy#midwest#underground#lyrics#essential#covid19
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Down with the Recipe, Bake from the Heart, 10/10 (Taywhora) - Juno
Chapter Summary: The three finalists are just three challenges away from the end of the Bake Off, and the reunion with their fellow competitors, families, and friends at the finale garden party. The Signature and Technicals will be the hardest yet, and the Showstopper will ensure the three finalists bare a slice of their hearts to the country. But who will take the winning cake stand?
A/N: I have been utterly blown away by the support and comments Iâve had for this fic on tumblr and AO3! Huge big thank you to everyone who has cheered me on with this. For ease, the finale and epilogue are in one here (but are split on AO3). I hope to be back soon with some short stuff for rare pair challenge! xo Juno
WEEK 10: GRAND FINALE
Aurora felt like she didnât sleep all week back in Worksop, and now, the night before she had to take the train down south to film the grand finale, the very idea seemed virtually impossible. Her body and her mind tossed and turned, every time she closed her eyes she saw cakes and breads and pastries and all sorts of things she was sure sheâd never have any desire to eat again.
She had no time to think about Tayce, but Tayce had found her way in through the cracks in her mind while she had practised. Gone from the tent, but not gone from her life. And her last act in the tent had been to give Aurora five words that had rung like a melody in her head ever since.
You can win this, bitch.
She reached for her phone in the darkness, and it said it was half past one in the morning. Sheâd have to get up in three hours to get ready, before she headed out for the train. Lawrence would already be on the sleeper train, and Veronica was probably getting up at around the same time. But as she opened their own three-way chat, she found both Lawrence and Veronica were also messaging at silly time in the morning.
They werenât sleeping either. Aurora understood why now.
Sure, sheâd see Tayce again this weekend at the grand finale garden party. But her departure still replayed in her head.
Why did I end up this reliant on her anyway? I can bake without her. Iâve done it for years!
But this wasnât just baking. It wasBake Off. It was surreal, intangible. It defied gravity. How many times had Aurora had to anchor herself to Tayce to keep herself from floating away?
Her phone came up with a notification from Lawrence.
Lawrence:why tf ru awake
The irony of Lawrenceâs message was not lost on Aurora.
Aurora:your meant to be on the sleeper train Aurora: sleeper Aurora: clue is in the name Lawrence: yh but its stopped Lawrence: weâre in carlisle Aurora: whatâs it like in Carlisle x Lawrence: dark
Maybe it was the lack of sleep, but it tickled her far more than it should, and she found herself laughing far too hard at the message.
Aurora: how much ru lookin forward to this bein over now x Lawrence: oh loads babes Lawrence: cant wait to bring that cake stand to Glasgow x Veronica:keep dreaming Lawrence Aurora: unlikely lol x
On second thoughts, the teasing and the laughter were a balm for her worried mind right now, and Aurora found she was laughing more than she had all week at their conversation.
Sleep is overrated anyway.
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The tent looked huge and imposing, but Aurora was still not at the front to her relief. If Lawrence had gone home last week - not that Aurora had ever expected her to - Aurora thought she would have squirmed at the front under the gaze of the judges. Especially now, with just the three of them left, their voices echoing like a vast cave, all of their heartbeats just sounding amplified as they hammered against their ribs.
Itâs the finale. I made it.
Aurora glanced at the two badges sheâd won. The same amount as Lawrence, with Veronica having one to her name. But as theyâd seen from previous series, the amount of times someone had won Star Baker was not an indicator as to who would win the whole thing. But it certainly gave both her and Lawrence a minor edge, and both of them a swell in their chests.
Everything felt new and fresh. Lawrence had re-dyed her hair, blue this time, the vibrant colour almost a distraction in itself. Veronica had new black nails which she tapped on the workbench, and her roots had been redone. Aurora hadnât thought to do any of that, so she was pleased to still be at the back.
Her turquoise KitchenAid still glistened like new, the workbench sparkled with the glassy varnish, and the cupboards and shelves around in their pastel colours made the summer air feel all the more fresh and clean. She glanced over at Veronica, her own green KitchenAid in the same state, and Lawrenceâs Cadbury purple one too.
I wonder if I can pinch the KitchenAid after filming without the crew noticing.
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Signature: 12 iced doughnuts - 6 ring, 6 filled
If there was one thing Aurora hated doing, it was piping filling into something as fiddly as a doughnut. Theyâd have to cool down, be hollowed, and then filled, a really fiddly process.
It was the hardest day in the tent by far. The morning was rainy, light rain that almost felt like it wasnât there, and the air was sticky and humid, pushing the temperature in the tent up, especially with the deep fat fryers theyâd been provided for the doughnuts.
Aurora chewed her lip so hard that it bled, piping mixture, watching them all closely in the deep fat fryer, filling up her jam piping bag and spinning it so tightly that it threatened to burst and cover her in sticky apricot jam.
In front of her, Lawrence groaned a few times as she battled against the heat and the doughnuts as they spat in the fryer, while Veronica was wringing her hands at the dough as it came out of her own fryer.
âToo soft,â she muttered, followed by âGod, too hard,â at the next batch.
By the time judging came, with Prue back from her illness this week, Aurora had almost forgotten what sheâd flavoured them with, but she wasnât alone. Across from her, Veronica stuttered as she spoke about her doughnuts, while Lawrence just pushed her hair back at the question.
âDonât know,â sheâd mused to the judges, some of the old humour returning to her voice. âStarted making them, had a breakdown, and here they are. Enjoy!â
The judges all laughed, but Aurora caught a glint in Lawrenceâs eye, and the same thought passed between them both.
Itâs not a lie!
All of them had similar critiques. Unanimously told they had good flavours, good bakes, and good designs, it was becoming virtually impossible to differentiate between them. How were they going to decide a winner?
âHow are they going to do this?â Veronica said aloud to the room, as they sat in Norton Hall (not Carr Hall, Aurora said to herself) waiting for the Technical challenge to begin.
âNot a fucking clue.â Lawrence sighed.
âAre any of you thinking about today though?â Aurora asked. âAre you just thinking about the Showstopper tomorrow too?â
Lawrence and Veronica both nodded slowly, none of them looking at each other.
âAre you all ⌠doing the same thing as I am?â
Lawrence and Veronica just continued nodding.
None of them even needed to say a word. They all knew.
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Technical: Victoria Sponge (no recipe)
Technical sounded daunting at first glance, but Aurora tried to reason with her worried mind. Baking a Vicky sponge from scratch with no instructions? Please. Aurora baked a Vicky sponge twice a month for the local shelter. She could probably have done it in her sleep.
But the pressure cooker of the tent just made everything go up in smoke in her brain.
Her nanâs voice rang in her head for the proportions that she used to use. Two, two, two, and two eggs. But two what? Two cake tins? Two bowls? Two competitors? No, two pounds. When would her nan come into the new millennium and learn that no one talked about measurements in pounds and ounces any more?
âLawrence?â She leaned forward.
âAlright, babes?â
âHow much is two pounds in grams again?â
Lawrence was frowning. âWhat?â
âPlease - just tell me. I know itâs a competition and all -â
âIâm not trying to stitch you up hen, I genuinely donât know, I donât use pounds and ounces because I entered the twenty-first century a while back.â Lawrence shook her head, holding her hands up in surrender. âWhat do you need it for anyway?â
âRecipe,â Aurora said, her already-hammering heart feeling like it could break her ribs.
âWhatâs up, love?â That was Veronicaâs voice. Aurora closed her eyes, wracking her brain, but Lawrenceâs voice pierced the gloom.
âHow much is a pound in grams, dâyou know?â
âYeah,â came Veronicaâs in response, âa pound is about four hundred and fifty grams. Yâknow, you can also go the other way. A kilo is two point two pounds. What do you need that for, yours is already whisking?â
âNo, Roryâs having a meltdown, and not with the butter.â
Jesus Dawn French Christ, Lawrence.
A hand met her shoulder, and Aurora was astonished to see Veronica at her side.
âYou alright, love?â
She held her gaze for a long time, unflinching, but her eyes were softer than ever, and her hand was surprisingly warm and calming as she rubbed Auroraâs shoulder.
âYeah. Just - this,â Aurora waved her hands, encompassing the whole tent. Maybe that was absurd to an outside observer, but Veronica knew. Veronica understood.
âI looked at your instagram,â Veronica said quietly, âand I know you bake cakes loads, so I know you can knock this one right out of the park, alright? And you know that too. I mean, I canât remember a thing about making jam now! And Iâm probably going overboard with my sugar. But hey, itâs the finale! I canât be sent home now!â
Veronica shrugged, her face split in a grin that bordered on maniacal, and Aurora had to admit that she had a point. She took a shaky inhale, then let it out.
âLook, I know you miss Tayce,â Veronica dropped her voice even lower, her hand squeezing her shoulder now, âbecause Iâve missed Tia since alt week. And we know Lawrence is missing Ellie, even though sheâd probably rather move to London and take up Morris dancing than admit that.â
âYou say that, but I can do that accent, Iâve watched Eastenders,â Lawrence called over her shoulder. âAnd I wonât be any worse than Dick Van Dyke.â
âWeâre all missing everyone,â Veronica said, and Aurora knew she didnât mean everyone, âbut you donât need Tayce to be able to bake. You can do it on your own. Youâve done it loads before this show, and youâll do it again!â
âI canât,â Aurora heard her fear contradict her in a whisper.
âYou can,â Veronica said firmly, her gaze now stern. âYou can do this.â
Aurora took a deep breath, held for four, and let it out for five.
âI can.â
âThatâs it, love,â Veronica said, nodding and starting to walk away.
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âHereâs to the last time weâre here as a three,â Aurora said, raising her glass along with Lawrence and Veronica. One of the producers had brought in a bottle of champagne, and even though Aurora didnât really like the bubbles very much - they tickled her nose - she accepted the glass that was poured for her.
âHow much does everyone remember about today?â Veronica asked, her arms and legs crossed on the sofa. âBecause I canât remember a bloody thing. I canât even remember what the judges said about that piece of crap that my Vicky sponge turned out to be. Did I come last?â
âYeah,â Aurora nodded. âWas nothing in it, though. We were all shit.â
âSpeak for yourselves,â Lawrence muttered, a hint of her old mischievous glint back in her eye.
âAnd tomorrow weâre recording the finale,â Aurora sighed, swirling the champagne. âFive hours in a tent, followed by half an hour break, followed by presenting the Showstoppers, followed by the garden party, followed by our speeches. And then filming three endings. Where one of us wins each time.â
âItâs gonna be worth it by the end, though,â Veronica said brightly.
âWhoâs gonna come from your family, Lawrence?â Aurora asked.
âMy parents, my cousin Chloe, and my best pal Stinky Pete.â Lawrence grinned. âCanât wait to see them. And who have you two got?â
âUhm,â Aurora frowned. âI know Blakeâs coming, and my nan, but I thought you could only invite two people?â
âMine said four,â Lawrence replied. âGod, you really canât count, can you?â
âWhat about you?â Aurora asked, motioning to Veronica with her glass.
âMy mumâs coming and my brother.â She twitched her shoulders. âNone of my friends could get time off. Shame, really.â
Aurora nodded, sipping her champagne, trying to hold off on sneezing through the bubbles. âAnd the others.â
âCanât wait,â Veronica smiled her usual pinched, nervous smile, her leg jogging. âIâve missed them all. Tia especially, but Iâve missed them all. I wonder who they all think will win?â
âAnd Ellie still owes me a tenner for that Puff the Magic Dragon shit that she thought Tayceâs biccies were,â Lawrence mused.
Aurora pursed her lips at Tayceâs name, but pushed it to the back of her mind. What mattered now was not Tayce, but the fact that her eyes were drooping after not having slept the previous night, and the champagne making her head throb.
âEarly one?â Veronicaâs sigh must have read been a telepathic projection, because they all stood in unison and trailed each other up the stairs to their respective rooms, ready to pass out and begin everything again in the morning.
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Showstopper: A picnic for a fellow contestant - to include one celebration cake, 12 savoury pastries, and 12 patisserie.
When the three of them had seen the Showstopper for the weekend, right after Tayceâs elimination, theyâd all nodded knowingly to each other.
This one has been just âŚmade for us all.
It was obvious. It was blatantly obvious that everything that had happened had been noticed by the producers, and the staff, and everyone with eyes and without them too, that all three of the finalists were missing someone.
Veronica was setting her alarms up, all five of them as usual, before dragging her ingredients from the bag she kept. On her workbench, sheâd gently placed a photo Tia had taken of some landscape or other. Lawrence had laid all her ingredients out on a baby pink tablecloth that complimented the purple of her own KitchenAid.
Aurora only had one thing to remind her of Tayce. Sheâd gone into a charity shop in the week with Blake, looking for something heâd seen in the window, and had found something that Blake had gasped at.
âItâs a Welsh love spoon!â Heâd thrust the small wooden spoon into Auroraâs hand, and sheâd turned it over and over silently in her fingers, marvelling at the twisting pattern on the handle, curling into a heart shape at the top.
âThatâs fate, that is,â Blake had nodded. âYouâve got to get that.â
Aurora set the spoon now on the counter top, resting against her own KitchenAid for now, as she ran back through the timings again in her head, and what she was planning.
The twelve savoury pastries were easy. Puff pastry sausage rolls with added baked beans and cheese. Even if Prue didnât like baked beans, that was all Tayce seemed to be eating every breakfast time.
Screw what Prue likes. This isnât for her.
The cake? It had taken some thought. Black Forest gateau with a mirror glaze to top it off, not something she knew if Tayce liked, but something that felt sophisticated and stylish. And the deep purple of the blackberries was a colour that Tayce loved.
The patisserie was the hardest one, but sheâd settled on millefeuille, similar to some that she made before for her nanâs seventy-fifth birthday, delicate and decorative, fragile-looking but built to stand tall. Not to mention they tasted so good that the world ceased to exist when someone bit into one.
âItâs like theyâre all back here, isnât it?â
Veronicaâs voice was quiet, but happy. Lawrenceâs intake of breath was shaky, but she didnât turn to face her, focusing on her bake.
âYouâve got a tin of baked beans on your workbench, Aurora, itâs so surreal! And Lawrence, youâve got so much pink on your workbench today.â Veronica motioned to the pink fondant sheâd made, pink icing, pink glaze, pink cake filling. Pink and white marshmallows, pink jam ⌠every shade of pink imaginable. Lawrence just gave a snort and shook her head.
It was meant to be the hardest challenge yet, but it definitely didnât feel that way. The tent heated up with the warm sunshine outside and the combination of ovens and bakers and inside, but as soon as nerves started manifesting, the three of them were all there to diffuse them all for each other.
When Lawrence started dropping her utensils, both Aurora and Veronica were at her side in an instant to grab her hands and calm her down before she started panicking. When Veronica clung to the edge of her workbench, motionless, Lawrence and Aurora were both there beside her to talk her down.
But when the last ten minutes were called âŚ
Shit.
Aurora felt cold fear creep back up her chest. She still had the millefeuille to assemble. Sheâd done three, but nine remained. And the puff pastry had to come out of the oven. And the glaze needed to be poured over the cake for it to set into a mirror in time -
âAurora?â That was Lawrence, with Veronica on her heels. âYouâre making a squeaky whiny noise like a balloon letting out air. What dâyou need?â
âBut - ten minutes - your own bakes -â
As Aurora flapped, the other two simply ran round her side and started doing it without needing her to tell them. Soon all her pastries were on the tray, and the cake was out the fridge, the glaze ready to go.
âYou pipe, Iâll load,â Veronica muttered, and she did just that, while Lawrence put the cake onto the metal tray, jogging back from her own workbench where sheâd had to finish off one of her own patisseries, and as Aurora finished piping the last millefeuille âŚ
âBakers! You have five minutes on your final Showstopper!â
They were all pulling out the stops, dashing between all three of their benches. Veronica was throwing gold leaf around like it was confetti. Lawrence was covered in icing sugar, the sweet scent filling the air. Aurora poured the deep purple onto the cake, praying to the Monster gods that it would set into a mirror glaze in time âŚ
âTime is up! The final Showstopper has finished! Congratulations, bakers!â
The whole world seemed to crumble at Noelâs words.
Aurora looked at the mountain of food sheâd produced, everything that reminded her of Tayce, and she knew then that serving this would mean serving a slice of her heart to the nation. And that was the plan all along.
Everything in her body ached, her bones were hollow, her breathing felt too loud alongside the deafening roar of blood in her ears. But as she leaned on the workbench, surveying the amount of work sheâd done, she felt a tickle at the back of her throat, and suddenly she was laughing, so hard that she felt like sheâd never stop. And then so was Veronica. Then Lawrence began too.
They were all cackling, all three of them, delirious with delight. Noel and Matt came to congratulate them, clapping as they did so, and then Veronica came out from her bench to hug Lawrence, and Aurora ran to join in, and the three of them were suddenly hugging, laughing, sobbing, cheering into each othersâ ears.
Until they were all too weak to speak.
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Aurora, first alphabetically, was going to be the first out of the tent with her final Showstopper, to make her way to the garden party that was always put on for friends and family for the grand finale.
All her bakes were on an enormous tray and she carried it, with Noel on her left and Matt on her right, all three of them bearing the load. Aurora was flabbergasted that nothing was moving, nothing was falling, but everything was still and settled.
As soon as she stepped outside the tent for the first time, she was met by a blast of noise like heat from a furnace.
Clapping, cheers, whoops, laughter. The crowd at the garden party was friends, family, co-workers, film crew, all the staff of Norton Hall, and of course Blu and Cheryl. She caught sight and sound of her nan - her nan! - her accent and her distinctive nasal voice above the rest of the crowd, bless. And Blake, waving his hands in the air and cupping them to his mouth to howl at the sky.
And the rest of the contestants, waiting with the biggest smiles, with applause, with cheers and shouts that drowned out everything else that was happening.
Tayce was in the centre. And Aurora had never seen her look so happy.
She rested the tray at the table outside the tent behind her name, and stopped, stunned, blinking so many times at the noise and her senses overloading. How green the grass was, how vibrant the gingham pattern on the table, how blue the sky was above her head, how bright and hot the sun felt on her bare arms.
âGo on, Aurora,â Matt muttered, pointing to the crowd. âYou can go and see them!â
Aurora walked slowly, the dream she was in making her legs shake. Her feet were resting on air, two inches above the ground, just above the blades of grass. But she somehow made the walk, the whole twenty-foot walk, away from the tent towards them all, dazed by their overflowing love, their cheers and their applause.
Tayce was beaten in the first hug by Hurricane Ellie, swamping Aurora in her arms; and by the time sheâd disentangled herself, Bimini was there, leaping forward and rubbing her arms and beaming at her; followed by a grinning Pip, followed by Joe, still cackling. In fact, everyone seemed to get a turn before Aurora was left with just Tayce, waiting patiently, the grin she wore showing all her teeth, her eyes crinkling in happiness.
âTold you you could do it, bitch!â
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âI made this spread for Tayce,â Aurora began, still cursing that her name was first alphabetically and she was first up on the podium.
Part of the Showstopper this year was a little speech to the crowd at the garden party. It was meant to be a tear-jerker, obviously, for the viewers to have an emotional finale, but it had just served to make all the bakers pull their hair out while writing a speech about which contestant they were baking for, and why.
âI made it for her because Tayce has been my rock throughout the competition. We were on the back row together, we got through all the first challenges together ⌠she corrected me on the name of the hall for Godâs sake, I was calling it Carr Hall for ages!â
The polite laughter tinkled around the grounds.
âTayce has been an inspiration in so many ways. Sheâs taught me that ⌠that I can channel my worries into the energy that I use to make a cake or a bread or whatever - and that can be fuel for me, to push me forwards. Tayce showed me that they were just a source of power like anything else. She always told me to relax. Well, chillax. And when I did, I rediscovered that I loved baking.â
Aurora couldnât look at Tayce, even from this distance. Couldnât see her eyes. If she did she might burst.
Lawrence and Veronica sat on the chairs next to the tent, next to the judges, waiting their turns, while everyone else sat or stood on the grass; but Auroraâs position on the podium, towering over them all, kept eyes trained on her as she gave her speech about her Showstopper, before everyone would come and eat.
âMe and Tayce,â Auroraâs voice cracked. âWell, we didnât always get along. Itâs a competition, and we all have our eyes on the prize, and that pressure of wanting to be the best got on top of us both at times.â
The silence was only broken by birdsong.
âBut Tayce taught me that I do my best when Iâm relaxed. When Iâm loving what Iâm doing. She taught me that my thoughts can be my own worst enemy, especially when Iâm thinking about other people.â She paused, glancing back at her cue card, the words jumbling before her eyes. âAnd most of all she taught me that - that I ama great baker. That âŚâ
The lump in her throat was back, the fear creeping up her windpipe to strangle her words. She shook her head defiantly.
âThat I am more than capable, that Iâm skilled, and that Iâm ⌠loveable. She held up a mirror for me. So I made one for her too. Thanks, Tayce.â
More polite laughter, followed by applause, as she indicated the mirror glaze cake.
Finally, she met Tayceâs eyes, and as soon as she did, her own burned with unshed tears, emotion swelling in her like a tidal wave.
But Tayce too, her lip quivered, not even noticing the others around her or their applause. She opened her mouth, and her lips moved, but only for Aurora.
âLove you, bitch.â
Aurora managed to mouth back to her while applause rang in the air.
âLove you, too.â
ââ
âEllieâs gonna hate me for this,â Lawrence muttered into the microphone, and Aurora looked over at the crowd, Ellie already shaking with silent laughter with her hands over her mouth. âI made a spread for her. She probably wasnât expecting it, it rains too much to ever have a picnic outside in Dundee, poor bitch has probably never seen the sun -â
âLawrence,â Matt Lucas piped up, âjust a reminder that this will air before the 9pm watershed.â
âSo I canât say bitch? Fuckâs sake!â Lawrence put her hands on her hips.
Aurora put a hand to her mouth to stop herself from making too much noise, but laughing this much was making tears stream down her face; and Veronica, sat next to her, leaned into her arm, also shaking, stuffing her fist into her mouth to silence herself.
âAnyway, I made all this pink stuff for Ellie. And not just because Team Scotland has to stick together,â she added, as Ellie whooped in the crowd, âbut because she really has been the best friend I could have made here.â
Veronica let out a cough that sounded a great deal like âsexual tensionâ and she and Aurora spluttered with laughter.
âAnd ignore the peanut gallery over there,â Lawrence motioned to Veronica without even looking. âBecause first and foremost, Ellie has been a great friend to me. She sat with me when I was upset when I did something wrong, and she was the first to celebrate anything I got right - even if it was at her expense.â
âAww,â Veronica murmured next to Aurora.
âI take everything really seriously. I take baking to heart. If Iâm not good at something, it freaks me out, because Iâm usedto being good at everything I try. Gifted kid syndrome, if you know you know.â Lawrence thumped her chest. âBut Ellie just has fun with it all. She taught me that you can have fun with something without necessarily needing to be perfect at it. There isnât a yardstick of quality to having fun. And even if Iâm not good at something, it doesnât mean it wasnât worth the time.â
Ellie was now quiet, as the others turned to watch her, but she was only looking at Lawrence, oblivious to everyone around her as the grin on her face quivered with emotion.
âEllie is fun. And I wanted to make something that would be fun, and also her. Thatâs why thereâs a lot more pink than Iâm used to,â Lawrence continued, motioning to the huge pink cake and the pink icing on the choux buns sheâd made.
âWhen I was unsure of myself, Ellie reminded me of what I could do. But she also reminded me that I should be having fun. Thatâs the reason I made this for her. Because baking should be fun, and should be something you donât take too seriously. And once I got that, I loved it.â
As everyone applauded again, Lawrence gave the crowd a thumbs up, pushing her hair out of her eyes, looking as if she wanted to get off the podium as fast as possible.
ââ
âCome on Veronica,â Aurora muttered under her breath.
Veronica looked very short, smaller than usual, even on the podium, the microphone somewhere at her forehead before she adjusted it to her mouth. She licked her lips; her eyes darted to the crowd, to Aurora and Lawrence sat separate to them all, to the judges, and then down to her note paper again.
âWell,â Veronica said for what felt like the fortieth time, another giggle escaping her lips. âHello, everyone.â
âSheâs bombing,â Lawrence muttered.
âSheâs just too nervous,â Aurora nodded.
âRight. So. I made this spread for Tia, you know this now, because thereâs a sign saying Tea or Coffee on it, I thought that was a nice - erm, a nice touch.â
âGod.â Lawrence put a hand to her chest.
Aurora watched as Veronica took a deep breath, held it for a second, and let it out slowly, the silence only interrupted by birdsong.
âI - Iâm a perfectionist. If itâs not perfect, I donât want it. If something is out, even by ten grams, even by a centimetre, I just want to throw it out and never look at it again.â
Veronica repeated the deep breath, clenching the podium, her knuckles white.
âMe and Tia just clicked. Weâre quite similar, me and her. We have the same humour, we like the same police dramas and murder mystery documentaries, we both like art and drawing and stuff -â
âSince when does Veronica like drawing?â
âYou need to check her instagram page,â Lawrence muttered back, âitâs all artwork.â
â- but the one thing me and Tia didnât have in common was baking. Tiaâs an amazing baker. But something about that tent - as soon as she was in it, she kept making a mess of everything, she wonât mind my saying that; and I know she got really frustrated, but she never wanted to quit. She just always wanted to get better.â
Veronica was tearing up, it was evident even from this distance, her white knuckles shaking. Tia, in the crowd, squirmed for her, clutching Pipâs hand as Veronica fought to get some more words out.
âTia taught me that itâs fine to make mistakes.â
Another long pause.
âNot that - I donât mean that Tia is always making mistakes! She does a lot of stuff really great! But she taught me that being perfect is basically impossible. And that I can trust myself if something goes wrong, that I can trust myself to be able to fix it, and not just give up.â
Tia dabbed her eyes with her free hand, shuffling nearer to Pip, who had a hand on her own chest in sympathy.
âBecause she doesnât give up. She just wants to do better. And I love that about her. I wish Iâd put less pressure on myself when I first got in there, trying to be perfect at everything, instead of trying to be my best, and getting better by making mistakes.â
Veronica finally seemed to be settling, the rare smile appearing.
âShe showed me that making mistakes is fine, and it doesnât mean Iâm a failure, it means Iâm a person. And she - her bakes were amazing, and lovely, and sheâs such a genuine person that everyone in the tent fell in love with her. Well,â she paused, looking up, âI did.â
Tiaâs jaw dropped as she clutched at her chest, leaning into Pip at her side, tears falling freely down her face now as the rest of them clapped, while Veronicaâs smile widened, her own tears falling too.
âThatâs so âŚâ Aurora murmured, not realising she was holding Lawrenceâs hand.
â⌠cheesy,â Lawrence muttered, but her voice had a crack in it.
ââ
Auroraâs nan got the first hug when she went over to her family. Her best friend Blake had the second, patting her heavily on the back.
âSo which one is the one you made all the cake for then?â Her nan motioned to the crowd of contestants, who had been mostly all mingling together, now breaking off to sit with the crew and each other.
âTayce is - oh, sheâs here.â
Tayce, appearing from somewhere, plonked herself on the grass by the picnic blanket and helped herself to a sausage roll. âOi oi, saveloy! Oh, these look nice! You put baked beans in them?â Tayce grinned. âYou know me like the back of your hand, Rory!â
âBeans on toast was your go-to breakfast, wasnât it?â
âOh god, yeah,â Tayce nodded. âBreakfast of kings! The only breakfast! If I could have beans on toast for the rest of my life, Iâd die happy. A bit flatulent, but happy.â
She looped her arm through Auroraâs waist, planting a kiss on her lips, before picking up a pastry, leaving Aurora floating just a little from the contact.
âSo are you two dating now?â Blake asked, his eyes wide as saucers, hoping for gossip as usual.
Aurora met Tayceâs gaze; they hadnât really discussed anything official yet. Tayceâs smile was strangely shy, and her eyes earnest, a thousand questions behind them; but as they both nodded simultaneously, it felt like they could work out the details a little bit later.
âYep!â They both exclaimed at the same time.
Tayce reached down and grasped Auroraâs hand. âAnd youâre the first to hear about it - not the tabloids, not Hello magazine!â
âYouâre not just putting it on for the cameras, are you?â Auroraâs nan teased, wagging her finger at the pair of them.
Tayce turned to glance at Aurora, the same thought passing between them both.
âNo way,â they both said at the same time, to a snort of laughter from Blake.
There had been a time, not too long ago, that Aurora might have taken the question as a cue to overthink, overanalyse - but that thought didnât even exist any more. Instead of being like ducks, kicking to stay on the surface, they now just floated effortlessly.
Aurora just squeezed Tayceâs hand.
Everything was falling into place.
ââ
âTaking into account your final bakes, and your performances throughout the series, weâve made our final decision.â
Auroraâs left hand was numb; Lawrence was cutting off the circulation to it.
They all stood before the judges, filming the first of the three endings to keep the actual winner a secret from everyone. This would be Auroraâs win; theyâd then film Lawrenceâs and finally Veronicaâs. For now, they all stood in line; Aurora at Lawrenceâs right and Veronica at her left.
Prue held the cake stand, the Bake Off emblem engraved in the glass, all of them in a line waiting for the decision, while the crowd stood impatient, ready to put on a show to congratulate them all.
âYouâre all incredible bakers, the best in the UK,â Prue continued from Paulâs speech, âand this was the most difficult season by a long way to judge. Youâre all so skilled, imaginative, and clever, and I know youâll all go on to amazing things after this is over.â
Lawrenceâs hand was shaking in Auroraâs; and she could hear Veronicaâs breathing on her other side.
This is it.
âThe winner of the Great British Bake Off is âŚâ
Complete silence.
Even the birdsong had waned in the background.
A silence that seemed to last an eternity.
Aurora watched Prueâs mouth, wondering when she would open it again, put them all out of their misery, Veronicaâs breath audible through the silence and Lawrenceâs hand sweating in hers and Auroraâs heart must be the loudest thing in the whole country right now at the rate it hammered her ribs -
ââ
EPILOGUE
October 2021
Tayce had had to let Aurora go for Blu to wield the camera at the three finalists on the smallest of the neverending number of sofas in Pipâs sisterâs house. Lawrence in the middle of the three, all squashed together on what was really a two-person sofa, but theyâd all linked arms and interlocked their fingers, staring at the screen, watching themselves.
âIâm never gonna get used to being on screen,â Tia mused, shaking her head. âI swear I donât sound like that.â
âYou do, you definitely do.â
But Tia was only half paying attention to Tayceâs words, her attention on Veronica, who was ignoring her, staring enraptured at the screen. Lawrence, on the other hand, kept glancing over to see Ellie, both of them doing that strange thing they did in filming yet again, just able to know when the other was looking over at them to make sure they were alright.
Tayce tried to relax, hands in her lap, but her chest fluttered every time she met Auroraâs gaze.
The finale had been Tayceâs favourite episode to watch, simply because she hadnât been in it. The element of surprise was there as she watched it, although it was there for all of them, because there the finalists were, on the screen, still waiting for the winner to be announced.
It must be between Aurora and Lawrence. Veronica only has one badge; it probably wonât be her.
âThe winner of the Great British Bake Off is âŚâ
The painful zoom of the camera on everyoneâs faces. Auroraâs nervous smile, pure yet heartbreaking. Lawrence looking at the sky to stop herself from crying, both her hands occupied by another finalist. Veronica, her stare intent with anticipation, chewing her bottom lip.
âAurora!â
The room erupted.
Cheryl was jumping up and down, the first at the sofa to hug Aurora as she sat still as a statue, hands at her mouth and eyes agape in shock, as Lawrence pulled her tightly to herself, planting a delighted kiss in her hair.
âItâs you!â Veronica shrieked, shaking her knee, âitâs you! You won! You won the whole thing!â
And then everyone else streamed in to hug her. Pip was first - Pip was always the first to lay a comforting hand - Tia was close on her heels - Ginnyâs hands looped round her neck from behind and their eyes crinkled in joy - but Aurora still sat frozen, only her rapid blinking suggesting anyone was home at all.
Tayce felt time stop again, but this time in a moment of perfection and not defeat.
The contest environment evaporated, she couldnât fathom feeling anything but pure elation for Auroraâs win, couldnât fathom having felt any other way for this wonderful woman who she was lucky enough to now call her girlfriend, sat with her hands at her mouth and silent tears coursing down her face as Blu pointed a camera at it.
âAurora! Itâs you! Itâs you!â Blu was patting her knee while the rest of them excitedly hugged and squeezed at her. âDo you have any words for us right now, or is it a bit overwhelming?â
âItâs - what - I canât believe it!â
Auroraâs phone was buzzing on the dining room table, undoubtedly hundreds of friends and family calling and texting and tagging her in Instagram posts and tweets, congratulations spilling over from every direction, an outpouring of love and support and adoration.
The programme was still running, footage of Prue and Paul giving their final summaries of Aurora, and the other two finalists - other contestants giving sound bites - Auroraâs finalist speech as her face was red with tears - the where are they now segment starting to play for all the contestants.
Pip back at her day job, giving the camera a thumbs up, followed by a snap of her with Ginny at Blackpool Tower and a video of them both on the Big One. Joe reliving that Instagram video again, and clips of Cherry, Ellie and Asttina all trying to recreate it too. Cherry back at the dog-grooming business she worked for, and walking her own dog. Asttina back at the gym, followed by a photo of her and Bimini on a boat on the Thames. Bimini at their laptop, followed by pictures of them holding the childrensâ book theyâd written since the show. Ellieâs move to Glasgow, a clip of her dyeing Lawrenceâs hair back to the bright purple it was now. Tia and Veronica somewhere in the Lake District, windswept but with smiles a mile wide.
But Tayce didnât see or hear any of it. Aurora was the only thing she could see.
And as she stumbled towards Tayce, draping herself into her arms and laughing in delight, Tayce held her as tightly as she could, crushing her eyes shut but not stopping her own tears, her heart bursting for Aurora as she was privileged to share this moment of exhilarated happiness with her âŚ
Sheâs already a Star Baker. She doesnât need a badge or a title.
But sheâs got both now! And hopefully she can know that sheâs a Star Baker as much as we all do!
ââ
THE END
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Rubber Ducks and Demons
Summary: Kuroo felt like pranking his roommate, Bokuto, starting a prank war. Was he taking it too far by trying to make Bokuto go insane? Word Count: 1.5k Read on Ao3
This started off as a simple joke. Kuroo replaced the shaving cream with whipped cream just to see if Bokuto would notice. He got his answer when Bokuto came running out of the shower with the can in one hand and his other holding up the towel wrapped around his hips. It wasnât the best time for his roommate to have discovered the prank seeing as he had a small study group over, getting ready for midterms. Kurooâs mouth was slightly agape as he processed what was happening. Bokuto, on the other hand, didnât care because all he wanted to do was shave, but now he was sticky. It was awkward for the group after that and no matter how many times he apologized to his group, he knew they would never come to his place to study again.
Now, a month later, it had turned into a full on prank war. The pranks didnât stop once they left the apartment either. There was not a safe place for either of them. Bokuto put a red sock in Kurooâs whites while doing the laundry and all of his white shirts - including his lab coat - had turned various shades of pink. So Kuroo bought a Sports Illustrated magazine and placed it in Bokutoâs bag instead of his notebook. The sight of Bokuto turning various shades of red had Kuroo clutching his stomach from laughter. It was hard for him to explain to his female project partner why he had the magazine in the first place and not his notes. She was unimpressed and from there, he decided to up his game.
When Kuroo was showering, Bokuto changed his ringtone and turned the volume up all the way. Kuroo was in a lecture, falling asleep listening to his professor talk about glycolysis and the Krebbâs cycle which was easy to do in a class of three hundred students. He woke up a bit when someoneâs phone started ringing, the sounds of a female orgasming filling the lecture hall. Kuroo immediately sat up when he realized it was his phone. He had a quick debate whether he should let it ring since it was in his bag, or if he should turn it off. Choosing to do the former, since there werenât many students around him and the lecture hall was now filled with laughter, he waited until it stopped ringing. Making sure no one was looking at him, he took out his phone and put it on silent, not missing the {1 missed call from Bokuto}.
The plan was simple. Drive Bokuto insane. But slowly. Kuroo ordered some rubber ducks from Amazon. He took out all of their stuff from both of their toiletry baskets in the bathroom and filled it with the ducks. He noticed Bokuto staring at it one day as he walked past the open bathroom door, but neither of them said anything. When he got bored, Kuroo decided to rearrange them. One day, they were stacked in a pyramid on the floor next to the door. Another day, he set up a chase scene around the tub. He also had them get married and start a cult.
âBro, can you stop with the ducks? I had a girl over last night and she left when she saw them,â Bokuto said with a pout.
Kuroo raised an eyebrow. âThe rubber ducks? I thought those were yoursâŚâ
âWhy would I buy a shitload of rubber ducks?â he asked, confused.
âI thought you wanted them as company when you took baths.â Kuroo shrugged.
Bokuto stared at his roommate in confusion. That was when Bokuto started bugging out. He thought the apartment was haunted since neither of them bought the ducks.Â
Kuroo decided to do even more by having the ducks reenact famous movie scenes. His favorite was when he filled up the water and had the ducks act out the scene of Rose on the wooden door and Jack in the water from the Titanic with dead ducks upside down in the water.
That one almost got Bokuto. He came running out of the bathroom saying that the ghost was increasing their water bill and killing the ducks. It took everything in Kuroo not to burst out laughing.
He wanted Bokuto to cry. Remembering a scary story he heard for his youth, Kuroo positioned the ducks as if they were coming out of the shower drain. Bokuto was close to the point of showering at the gym locker room. Kuroo needed something to push him over the edge. Placing another order for ducks (unfortunately for Bokuto, you could buy them wholesale), Kuroo patiently waited for them. Once he got them, he began with his new plan. Over the next few days, he had the ducks traveling out of the tub, into the rest of the bathroom. Bokuto became more jumpy and kept talking about figuring out what the ghost wanted. It got to the point where he was talking to his classmates and friends about it. He even brought it up during his professorâs office hours, which didnât end well for either of them.
As he was scrolling on a clothing website, Kuroo saw an ad for a larger rubber duck with a kingâs crown, scepter, and cape. He immediately clicked on it and placed an order. Oh how he loved Primeâs two-day delivery.
When Bokuto was out of their apartment for class, Kuroo set up the king duck on top of a thick body sponge with a few regular sized rubber ducks around the king as its guard. Then he proceeded to line up all the other ducks in the tub in small groups.
âKuroo bro I think the ghost wants to take over this apartment as a king!â Bokuto shouted, running out of the bathroom. He had come back from his class and extra study session exhausted. It was well-known that he didnât have the biggest attention span and learning and studying for four hours straight was too much for his little brain.
âWhat are we gonna do?â Kuroo asked. He had perfected his acting since this had been going on for about two and a half months now.
âWe need to call like a ghost buster or priest or something.â
Kuroo was not expecting that response. âBro, isnât that a bit too much for one ghost?â
âNo. Itâs in the bathroom for now, but Iâve been reading about this and the way itâs moving things aroundâŚâ He sat down on the couch next to Kuroo. âIt could be a demon,â he whispered.
Another response he wasnât expecting. âA demon?â
âYeah. If it is, it could be trying to attach itâs soul to the ducks and make one us its host. I donât wanna be demon food bro.â
Kuroo figured out the next step in his plan. He found even larger rubber ducks, one that took up all the space in the sink and ordered several of those. He placed one in the sink, one in the toilet, one in the bath, one in the kitchen sink and one in the oven. Kuroo had hidden all the small rubber ducks under his bed in his room.
Bokutoâs reaction was even better than he imagined. His roommate was almost in tears because he thought the demon was growing more powerful and merged the small ducks in bigger ones. Kuroo did his best to convince Bokuto to not contact the Pope. He had to admit, he was enjoying this far more than he thought.
Kuroo came back from his first final exam knowing he didnât do as well as he couldâve. The damn prank ended up wasting a lot of his time that he couldâve used to study. But what was done was done. He headed into the bathroom after dropping his stuff in his room and did a double take. Bokuto heard Kurooâs âSHITâ from his room and came over to inspect what had happened. Both of them stared at the giant inflatable rubber duck in the middle of their bathroom. Kuroo didnât buy thisâŚ
âThe demon is getting stronger, bro! I think weâre gonna die!â Bokuto started freaking out.
âWhat the fuck is going on?â Kurooâs mind was reeling. He had no idea where the inflatable duck came from. The ducks he had placed around the bathroom and kitchen were missing as well. He hadnât touched them. Was there really a demon?
âBro.â He looked at Bokuto who was wearing a huge grin on his face.
Kurooâs look of shock changed to confusion. âWhat?â
âYou just got punked,â Bokuto said.
âWhat?â
âI got you.â Bokuto burst into laughter.
âHuh?â
Once Bokuto finished laughing, he explained. âI told Akaashi about everything and he eventually told me you were behind it. He saw you picking up packages the same day or the day before a new change took place. So he told me to prank you back. I came up with the demon part, cool huh?â
Kuroo stood there dumbstruck as he processed the information. âDid you just⌠use my own prank to prank me?â
Bokuto broke out in laughter once again.
âDude⌠you really got me.â
Bokuto held out his hand. âTruce?â
âTruce,â Kuroo said as he shook his roommate's hand. âMy grades suffered because of this.â
âWow, Mr. A plus now has regular Aâs,â Bokuto mocked.
âIf I wanna go to med school, I need the best grades.â Kuroo crossed his arms across his chest. âAnd I got Bâs, not Aâs.â
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DEAD WALLS RISE - CH 5
ATTENTION: This chapter occurs during the events of ch 47 of Dumpling and therefore contains spoilers. If you have not not read that chapter or have not caught up to that point, this will not make much sense and I strongly urge you to wait until you are caught up before continuing with this chapter. Â
The fear was always the first thing to hit. Like a gust of wind, it swept him away until all he could perceive of the world was a small pinprick of light and the only sound was his own breathing and the only physical sensation was the frantic beating of his own heart. He never heard Nenani call his name or felt her hand on his shoulder. He did not notice when Keral pulled him bodily from his seat and carried him from the great hall. Perhaps that was better. He may have died from embarrassment right then and there if he had possessed enough presence of mind to understand.
âRemember what Yaesha told ye,â Keralâs voice said, penetrating the thick fog of his mind. âJust breathe. Slower now, lad. In and out.â He could feel more than hear Keralâs own breathing and he slowed his to match the rangerâs. âThatâs it. Come on back now, lad.â
He felt Keralâs large fingers lightly tapping the side of his head, just enough to jerk him back to attention and ever so slowly the world came back into focus and he was no longer in the great hall, but a side garden and sitting on a stone bench. The night air bit at his face and he felt the cold stone under him, the chill seeping into the fabric of his pants and onto his skin. Keral was kneeling down in front of him and peering into his face, green eyes studying his own blue ones. âBack with me yet?â
He nodded mutely and Keral stood to take a seat on the bench beside him. âScared the lass pretty good. Donât think sheâs ever seen one of yer fits before.â
Jae didnât respond, feeling shamed and mortified.
âGo on and tell me what set ye off.â
His hands were clenched hard enough to hurt and he could feel the muscles in his neck and shoulders pull tight. ââŚyou know what.â
Keral did not reply right away. Instead, he reached behind his back to pull out his pipe and a small pouch of tobacco. He stuffed the bowl and just as he struck a match, he said, âTell me anyway.â
âI canâtâŚIâm notâŚwhy would heâŚ?â He could almost feel the fit trying to begin afresh and he steadied his breathing again, trying to keep it at bay. When he was sure it had passed, he ran his fingers through his hair, gripping fistfuls of it and staring at the pitted stone under him. âI canât do this Keral.â Â
The larger man beside him took a moment to puffed idly at his pipe, plumes of grey smoke drifting upwards to obscure the stars peeking down at them from the open courtyard.
âAnd why not?â he asked.
âIâm not a prince,â Jae replied exasperated. âI canâtâŚdo all that stuff.â
With a short huff of a laugh, the ranger shook his head. âYer a fuckinâ idiot, you know that boy?â
With a growl, Jae punched Keralâs thigh hard, and shot back, âDammit, Iâm being serious!â
âSo am I,â Keral grunted. He leaned over just enough to pin Jae with one eye. âJust what do ye think yev been this whole time? Hm?â
ââŚan idiot, like you said. A spoiled idiot. A brat,â Jae replied lowly. âI donât want to be a prince. I onlyâŚâ A long pause. âI just wantedâŚso badly forâŚfor WarrenâŚto see me like I saw him.â
Keral shook his head. âThought you two figured that mess out weeks ago.â
ââŚI thought so, butâŚâ Jae sighed. âNothingâs changed.â
âNot followinâ ye.â
Jae felt like his chest was gonna rupture and his eyes burned with frustrated tears. In a low voice, he choked out, ââŚIâm not his son, Keral.â
âBullshit ye ainât!â Keral snapped, glowering down at him. The degree of vehemence from him was enough to startle Jae and he shook his head. Â
ââŚI canât be.â
Keral leaned down further, enough to cast Jae in shadow. âAnd who thâfuck says?â
He couldnât meet the rangerâs critical gaze. ââŚyou heard them in there.â
âSince when did ye give a right shit about what Eldherst and Tendle thought of ye?â
How Jae wished he had some snarky quip to throw back, anything to offer distraction, but all he had was what he knew was true but was too scared to admit to himself. Let alone aloud. The lords were right. He wasnât Warrenâs son and never could be. Heâd been fooling himself all this time, playing at make believe. A fallacy they could continue within the castle where Warrenâs power could shield him, but beyond the walls of the keepâŚ
âŚthe world would never let him be Warrenâs son. Â
âBecause even if all that load âa tripe were true,â Keral continued, poking Jaeâs shoulder with the butt of his pipe. âWhy would Warren wanna adopt ye if didnât mean nothinâ to him?â
Jae was silent. He didnât want to start crying in front of Keral. Â Â
âIt ainât about makinâ ye a prince fer the hell of it. Itâs about makinâ ye his son. In the eyes of the law. All that other nonsense is just a consequence of yer Dad being a King. Ainât like heâs puttinâ ye in the line of succession.â
âBut stillâŚâ
Keral shifted again and rose to his feet to stand in front of the bench. He planted both hands on either side of Jae to loom above him, his pipe clenched in his teeth. In a quiet voice, he said, âWarren loves ye lad. Been takinâ care of ye all these years hasnât he?â
ââŚyes.â
âAnd ye think of âim like yer Dad, donât ye?â
ââŚy-yes,â Jae said, his words shuttering.
âThen why question it?â
ââŚI donât want to cause him any problems,â Jae admitted and Keral laughed, the sound of it loud in his ears. He removed his pipe and sat it down onto the bench.
âFar too late fer that, Pup. Yer âa walkinâ disaster.â
Jae almost smiled. It had been years since Keral had called him that. Like so many of those employed at the castle, he had taken to calling him brat; a nickname Jae had rightly earned not long after hitting puberty. Somehow, with Keral using his first nickname for him made Jae feel a little better. It was almost a term of endearment.
âMe being an embarrassment as his ward is one thing,â Jae said. âBut as his sonâŚitâs a little harder to ignore. Or forgive.â
âIf Rosanna of fuckinâ Ibronia could manage to accept ye,â Keral said flatly. âWhy the fuck canât ye accept yerself? Of course yer gonna make mistakes. Yer still a damn kid. Ye still have a few years left of ye bumblinâ around in the dark before ye figure out how to light a damn match.â
Jae raised his head to meet Keralâs gaze and squinted at him in confusion. ââŚwhat?â
âYe still have a lot to learn,â Keral translated. âThey call âem growinâ pains fer a reason. Fer some, itâs more painful than fer others.â A pause. âEver stop and think there was a reason fer Warren makinâ ye Assistant Steward?â Â
âTo keep me out of trouble,â Jae replied with a shrug. âWhat else?â
âWell, yeah. Thatâs what happens when ye have a kid too smart fer his own good and with too much liberty as his disposal. But it ainât only that. He gave ye responsibilities because he knew yeâd be able to handle it. And ye have. We both know Donal wasnât always yer biggest fan, but somehow ye managed to wiggle yerself into his good graces. Thatâs gotta be worth something. Been tryinâ to do that fer almost twenty years, still havenât managed it myself.â
âI just sit around and take notes or deliver messages for him andâŚI donât really do anything. I justâŚwatch.â
âAnd listen. Ever stop to think that maybe that was the point? Ye learn from watchinâ. Hell, Pup, yer a damn sponge when it comes to all that shit. Yeâv got a decent head fer politics after watchinâ Warren all these years. And he knows it. Yer more ready fer this than yer willinâ to give yerself credit fer.â Â
âDoesnât feel like it,â said the human, running a hand through his hair. âHow the hell does it make sense to make me a prince? Iâm not even Vhasshalan. And did you see some of their faces? Some of them were and still are Baynor supporters.â He pulled his knees up to his chest and rested his chin down onto them. âProbably wishing the fucker did eat meâŚâ
âWell he didnât. And Warrenâs makinâ ye a prince. So the only thing ye should be asking yerself is what do ye do now. Sittinâ and mopinâ about it ainât doin ye any favors. Never has. All the time yer spend on the roof, what has it ever done fer ye? Eh? Not a damn thing. Warren wants to make ye his son officially. Not just some vague understandinâ between yerselves. That should tell ye all ye need to know, Pup.â
ââŚwhat if I canât do it, though?â
âYe ainât scared of not being able to do it. Yer scared of disappointing yer Dad.â
Jae hung his head. ââŚbecause Iâm a coward.â
âNow Iâve known plenty of cowards in my time. And thereâs plenty âa things I could call ye,â Keral said. He laid his hand against Jaeâs back, fingers curling around his shoulders. âBut a coward ainât one of âem.â
âIâm scaredâŚall the time. And there doesnât even need to be anything wrong. How does that not make me a coward? I freeze up and have these fits and I have to drink that disgusting tea just to have a chance to function and IâŚI donât know whatâs wrong with me.â
âI know exactly whatâs wrong with ye,â Keral told him seriously, green eyes seeming to bore holes through him. âItâs called surviving a war. Survivorâs guilt.â
âWhat?â Jae asked.
âWhat yer feelinâ. Sâcalled survivorâs guilt. Saw it plenty during my own deployment. Men cominâ back from battle without half their company. Wonderinâ why the fella next to him was dead and he wasnât. Same as you. Yeâve had it fer years. Since we found ye out in the moor.â He paused. âAll yer family and friends never left that pond. But ye did. And yeâve let that guilt fester inside ye and it comes out in yer nightmares and in these fits âa yers.â
Every muscle in his body felt tense and unyielding. He hated what Keral was saying and wished he would stop. He was too tired to do this now. He didnât want toâŚ
âYe never talk about âem. Yer folks,â Keral said quietly. Gently. âDonât know a thing about âem. âCept yer Dadâs name and trade. Never hear ya speak about yer Mum.â
âIt hurts too much. Even now,â Jae said, already feeling the tears dripping down his chin. âIf I try to remember her faceâŚâ
âYe never dealt with all that pain of losinâ âem. As young as ye were when ye did. Now yer panickinâ that yet might be losing Warren. In a different way. But losinâ âim all the same. âCept this time no oneâs takinâ anythinâ from ye, Pup. Yer takinâ it from yerself.â
Finally, Jae broke. His shoulders began to shake as a racking sob bubbled up from his throat. For several minutes, he just cried and let all the hurt and fear and regret and guilt pour out of himself. When finally, he had no more to give, he quieted. Sniffling and in a thick voice, he mumbled, âIâm such an idiotâŚâ
Keral laughed. âOh, ye donât need to tell me that, lad. Known it fer years.â
Jae raised his head to glare at the ranger. ââŚAnyone ever tell you that your pep talks suck?â
âAll the time,â he said with a satisfied grin. He patted Jae on the back and motioned for him to stand. âCome on now. Enough sulkinâ. On yer feet.â
His legs and arms felt twice as heavy and his temples throbbed. Gods did he need a drink. He wobbled on his feet, but once heâd steadied himself, Jae looked back at Keral expectantly. The ranger crouched back down so he and Jae were on the same level and was regarding him with a serious expression.
âYer a smart boy, Jae,â he said, laying his arms onto bench and leaning forward. âAnd Warren adores ye. Itâs true that itâs no small thing fer ye to be adopted by the King of Vhasshal. Ainât sayinâ yer gonna have an easy time of it. But fer whatâs itâs worth, I think yer gonna be pretty damn good at it.â
For a moment, Jae simply stared at the ranger, emotions swirling inside of him, before he dropped his gaze to stare at his feet for several moments. He took a step and then another and pressed his head against Keralâs shoulder. He sniffed, trying to keep himself from falling into tears again. A large hand came to rest against his back, rubbing lightly.
âOi,â Keral said gently, a smile in his tone. âDonât be gettinâ yer snot all over my good jerkin now. Sâthe only one I got.â
Despite the roiling emotions inside him, Jae laughed. âIâll get you a new one. Princes get allowances donât they?â
Keral chuckled. âThatâd be a question fer yer Dad.â
Before Jae could speak, from within the great hall, they heard a horrible shriek and he jumped inâ surprise. âWhat the â?â
Keral was on his feet, looking towards the large stained glass windows and listening. There was another shriek from inside and then many voices all at once calling out in shock or surprise. The lone lantern near the other end of the garden began to glow.
âWell, fuck...â Keral growled. He turned towards one corner of the garden where two guards were standing post, both staring dumbly at the lantern, and he called out to them, âGuards to the hall!â
The two guards started, looking at Keral and then seeming to recall themselves, took up their swords and called out behind them, ostensibly to more guards, âAll guards to the hall!â
There were several calling answers and in a matter of mere moments, guards from all over seemed to be spilling from corridors and breezeways and into the small garden and then into the hall. From the red of their leather armor, Jae could see a spot of black fighting against the tide of so many bodies. Â
âDonal!â Keral called out to the man as he struggled to get through. âWhat in the seven hells is goinâ on in there?â
âKeral!â Donal said, waving at him and struggling to catch his breath as he broke free of the throng. âGet Master Jae to safety! The Smoke Mage, heâs in the hall.â
âWhat?â Keral asked.
Donal scowled at the ranger. âDidnât you hear me, dammit? Your Kingâs orders are to get Master Jae to safety! Now man, damn you!â
Before Jae had a moment to say anything, Keral grabbed him up and was running.
âWait! What about everyone else?â Jae asked, gripping the fabric of Keralâs jerkin. âWarren is still inside. And Nenani!â
âWarren said to get ye to safety and thatâs what Iâm gonna do,â Keral told him.
âBut â!â
âNo arguing with me now,â Keral barked. âMy big olâ speech is gonna be nothinâ but a waste of time if that fucker gets his hands on ye again.â
He took a side corridor and slipped down a flight of stone steps. Near the bottom was an old and unassuming wooden door and Keral went inside. He sat Jae down onto his feet before ruffling inside his back pouch for his matches. He struck one and lit a candle sitting on a broken stool off to the side.
âYouâll stay here till itâs safe,â Keral said as he grabbed a folded blanket from the shelf and setting it on the floor near the back wall. âJust keep quiet till I get back, here me?â
âBut what about â?â
âNo arguing with me I said,â Keral snapped. âTrust me to do my job, Pup. Stay here and stay quiet.â
Jae nodded. âO-okay.â
Keral rose to his feet and pulled the door closed as he slipped out. There in the dark, Jae listened to beating of his own heart before making his way over to the folded blanket and sitting down. Rubbing his still splinted arm, Jae could not help but worry for everyone inside the hall. He thought of Warren and tried to convince himself that the guards would never allow anything to happen to the King.
He thought of Nenani.
Pushing himself back against the wall, he drew his knees up to his chest and watched for a moment as the candleâs warm glow sent the shadows around the room dancing. He felt another panicked wave begin to take hold deep inside and he pressed his forehead to his knees and began to breath. Deep even breathes. Like he had been taught. Â
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Janet Drake...
And how she slapped Raâs Al Ghul with a restraining order for her son.
Also, Tim Drake takes over Wayne Enterprises for a hot second, Janet despairs, and thereâs an incident with the mob mentioned that will be explained at a later date.
(No edit we die like Jack Drake- sad and alone)
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Janet was of the firm belief that her son was the smartest person in any room, at any given moment.
-What -she intoned, calmly, taking a deep sip of her valeriana tea before continuing- the fuck.
Except in situations like this.
-I panicked -he whined, face down on the couch. Behind him, the tv on the wall reported the news of young Timothy Drake as the new owner of Wayne Enterprises.
Janet sipped her tea.
âThis is your sonâ, she reminds herself, feeling the cocottion forcing her muscles to relax. âYou love him more than anything. You do. Focus on that feelingâ
This was Jackâs fault. Him and his sentimentalism. Fond as she was of her late husband, she needed someone to blame for all and any of Timâs shortcomings, and emotional weakness was a genetic passed trait as long as she was concerned.Â
Or so she liked to believe.
-Why did you think itâd be a good idea to buy WE? -she asked, letting the empty cup clink when she deposited it back on the little plater.
-I meanâŚ-he trailed, obviously conflicted- you know as well as I do that the man acting as Bruce Wayne right now is some kind of actor, or double.Â
-I do -she nods, patiently waiting for him to explain his reasoning.Â
Here, she could be patient. Whatever Luthor or Nicole said.
-Well, heâs⌠heâs gonna end up ruining the whole thing. And then not only the real Bruce Wayneâs legacy will be destroyed, but also, just how many people will be put out of work? How many families depend on WEâs job slots?Â
There it was, the two things sheâd never understand about her son: His honest worry about strangers, and his honest worry about the Waynes.
She sighed, and let her head tilt to the side as she examined the TV. On it, someone had placed a photo of her sixteen year old son looking as soft and⌠baby-faced as he ever got. Icy blue eyes opened wide, as he hugged a bunny to his chest, long black hair framing his rosy cheeks- she nodded, satisfied. She and all news channels had an agreement of sorts: they never showed a picture where her son looked anything else but like a baby, and she never sued them. This one was probably taken during last yearâs charity event, where the Drakes had taken a group of children to the Zoo. The snotty nosed brats had loved Timothy, and he in turn had absorbed the adoration like a sponge.
He was so good. It was disquieting, to think he had came from her.Â
She had done her very best, to protect him from being sullied by the worldâs ugliest faces. Like politics, and business. Letting him help, learn, but from the safety of her own back. And now he was in charge of the pirannaâs tank that was WE.
She sighs, hand going to the bridge of her nose.
-And instead of trying to become a board member, you bought the entire thing.
-I could never make the Board, Mom, come on. Iâm sixteen. Buying the company, on the other hand, I can do through DI channels, and as long as I have money, age is of little consequence.
He moved his head so it was resting sideways in the cushion, sad cow eyes going to hers. She scowled, reigning in the knee jerk reaction of going above and beyond to protect her kid. He needed to learn, sooner or later. Luthor himself said it, she couldnât baby him forever.Â
-No. You got yourself into this, you are getting out. I already helped that time with the mob. Itâs time you learn.
âââ.ââââ
A week and a half later finds Janet mimicking her sonâs position, face down in a couch. Instead in her case, itâs because Nicoleâs favorite masseuse is working the knots off her back.
-I just canât believe it. I. I canât. Heâs so smart, how can he be so dumb?
Sitting by her head, nails carefully scratching at her scalp, her best friend humms.
-You gotta admit, you essentially gave him permission to do as he liked.
-I thought heâd be doing the sane thing, like re-selling the company back to the Waynes, maybe putting a legal safeward of some sorts to keep the situation from repeating, or maybe even putting the manâs sons in charge. Not that heâd go looking for Bruce Wayne himself!
-You shouldnât assume things, Jan.
-Shut up. Any news from Luthorâs contacts?
Nicole typed at the phone balanced on her knees, her other hand keeping her reassuring touches on Janetâs head.
-Hmmm. Your son is exceedingly good at evading his men. No one has seen him in⌠oh. Oh crap.
That tone makes Janet sit straight, clutching the towel she was laying over to her chest and sending the masseuse away with a wave. Once they are alone, she faces Nicole, serious and with the barest hint of anxiety of a worried mother in the background of her eyes.
-What is it?
-Well⌠I know where he is.
-And how is that bad?
-Because so does my father. He has his little shadows tailing after him.
Janet really needed to work on a better word than âfuckâ.
ââ.ââ
Four months later, her son came back. His hair was longer, he had a slight tan, and was two inches taller.
He was also missing his spleen.
She was going to kill both Bruce Wayne, and Raâs Al Ghul. The first one because it was his fault Timothy had gotten involved in League of Assassinsâ business. The secondâŚ
-I donât like it -she mutters between clenched teeth, watching from Nicoleâs side as Raâs Al Ghul and her son walk around the gardens of Drake Manor.
-Dad is surprisingly interested in Timmy -agrees the other woman, tapping at the glass of the window with her blood-red fingernail-. It canât be good.
She growls as the man carefully places a hand in her sixteen year old son to direct him towards a particularly well bloomed rose bush- I want a restraining order.Â
Nicole looks at her from the corner of her eye- Darling, I donât think you can get it to stick. My Dad is⌠kinda above the law.
-Iâm sure I can make it. I have something he doesnât.
-What?
-You. I know you canât resist a chance at ruffling his feathers, and Tim is your favorite. AlsoâŚ
-Also?
Janet smiled, sharp and cutting and something sweet underneath, like poison that tastes good but kills you in a second. She raised a hand, nail softly tracing the edge of Nicoleâs cheekbone- You love me too much to say no to me, sweetie.
The other woman sighed, and smiled defeatedly.
-Iâll draft the paperwork.
#janet drake is a good mom#Janet drake au#janet drake#tim drake#lex luthor mentioned#because at this point he is Janet's bitch#Nicole Al Ghul (oc)#Ra's Al Ghul#Oh yeah Nicole is Talia's littlest sister#just fyi#the mob thing will be explained later#my writting
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-Defender//4-
Chapter One | Chapter Two | Chapter Three | Chapter Four | Chapter Five | Chapter Six
Warnings: tony recounts trauma that is very reminiscent of civil war, but just a reminder that this is an Alternate Universe where there are differences between this story and canon.
Read here on AO3.
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Training goes well.
Peter meets Black Widow (and she is even more beautiful in person, so beautiful that itâs eerie). She offers him her hand and he shakes it, firm and polite. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees Steve staring at their hands as they clasp together, but if heâs expecting Peter to use his strength on an unenhanced humanânot to mention one who has done nothing wrongâheâs got another thing coming.
Just to rub it in, Peter puts on his best respectful veneer when he says: âItâs nice to meet you, maâam.â
âMaâam! Do you hear that, Steve?â The man mutters an I hear it under his breath. âCall me Natasha. Theyâre calling you Spider-Man, you know that? I guess that makes us of a similar Kingdom and Class.â
Peter feels warmth in his gut, the pleased, tingly feeling of belonging. He has a name like Black Widow or Hawkeye or Iron Man. Fuck. May would tease him without end for that, in between her proud smiles and glistening eyes. âThatâs so cool,â Peter says, sounding as star-struck as he feels. âWeâre like, the spider subdivision of the Avengers or something. Ancestral Arachnids.â
âNatasha is going to be overseeing your training,â Steve says. He shows no signs of Peterâs unpleasantness earlier in the week, but something about the way those blue eyes track his every movement keeps Peter from letting the man stand at his unprotected back. âSheâs one of the best in the field when it comes to hand to hand combat. You more than likely already have the instincts you need if youâre enhanced, so sheâs just going to help you learn how to listen to those instincts and hone them, plus run you through our procedures in the field. Sound good?â
It does sound good.
âDo you want to spar, Captain?â Peter asks while Natasha changes into work-out clothes. This time, the other man doesnât fall for his wide, guileless eyes and the gentle, pubescent sounding voice. He assesses Peter with flat, knowing eyes.
Steve shakes his head. âBusy today, kid. Some other time.â
âIâll hold you to it,â Peter promises, flexing the fingers heâd used to crush the other manâs hand. He cracks the joints swiftly.
Natasha isnât enhanced, so he is careful not to hurt her while they spar, but her depth of knowledge seems endless. She knows techniques from martial arts subdivisions that Peter canât even pronounce, and Peter watches her every move, soaking up the knowledge like a sponge. He loves learning. He loves being useful. He loves the ache in his body after a workout. He loves having a purpose.
âHow often does Mr. Stark train?â Peter asks during a water break.
Hawkeye (Clint, as he introduces himself) and Falcon (Sam) are wrapping their knuckles by the water cooler and overhear him ask. Clint snorts. âTony? He doesnât. At least, not with us.â
âHe comes to the mandatory team exercises every other week. Weâd kick him out of those, too, except that itâd be dangerous for us in the field,â Sam admits. âYouâll find that Tony is kind of like the third wheel on our dates with the bad guys, Pete. He tags along or shows up even when we ask him not to. Sometimes he comes in handy, sometimes he gets in the way.â
âBut he pays for the tech and the Tower, so try not to piss him off or weâll all end up out on the streets,â Clint adds. He and Sam touch knuckles.
Peter says nothingâstunned. He might have guessed that with a team leader like Steve, the rest of the team would have the same viewpoints but itâs stillâŚdisappointing. The Avengers were his heroes in his teen years, but theyâre turning out to just be normal people. Shitty ones, at that. Peter feels another part of his illusioned childhood slip through his fingers.
He trashes it, along with his empty water cup.
âPeter?â Natasha asks. He can tell by the look on her face that she senses his tense mood, her eyes flickering between him and the two older men preparing to spar behind him. âYou want to run through things one more time before we call it quits for today?â
âActually, Iâm feeling a little tense in my shoulders,â Peter lies, ignoring the guilt that gnaws at his stomach. He rubs at one trap for effect. âI think Iâm going to go stretch and shower and restâdonât want to pull a muscle, you know.â
âRight,â she says. âWell let me know if you arenât feeling up to doing more in the morning. You have weeks before youâll be cleared for fieldwork, so thereâs no rush. Here, give me your Starkphone and Iâll program my number into it.â
âI donât have a Starkphone,â Peter says. Heâs never even had a smartphone, much less a STARKphone, the specs of which canât be compared to anything Apple and Samsung are cooking up in their wildest dreams. They arenât even mass produced considering their at-cost price is three grand. Peter has two dollars in change in the pocket of his backpack, but thatâs it (and itâs mostly pennies). âBut if you just tell it to me, I can memorize your number and put it in my track phone when I get upstairs.â
Natashaâs brows draw together. âTony must be slacking if you donât have one. He gives every new Avenger the latest model to make sure weâre up to date on the newest tech and able to communicate efficientlyâsomething about how iPhones are the equivalent of chiseling on stone or sending smoke signals. Iâll talk to Tony for you.â
âMr. Stark doesnât need to make me a phone,â Peter insists. âI have one upstairs that works just fine. Maybe when I start getting paid, I can save up and get one of my ownââ
âYou donât have to save up to get Stark tech,â she says, smiling. âItâs free. Thatâs the perk of having Tony on the team.â
The perk, she says, like Tonyâs money is the only thing he has going for him.
âI donât want it,â Peter says. He puts space between them, jabbing the button for the elevator with more force than necessary. When the doors open to finally take him away from this gym with these people, it feels like heâs watching the pearly gates open for the way relief fills him. âBut thanks anyway. I guess I should be thanking Mr. Stark, though, right?â
The doors close on her confused face.
Thirty hours later, Peter is climbing the walls. Figuratively, this time. He feels even less inclined to leave his room now than he had before. Heâs already become something of a nocturnal recluse, exiting the kitchen only in the dead of night when he can hear the sounds of the other Avengers sleeping around him. Heâs met some of the others who come and go and some who live on the floor: Thor, Wanda, Dr. Stephen Strange, Bruce Banner. There are hushed mentions of another member, Bucky, but Peter never sees him. What hurts most is Tonyâs glaring absence. Ever since Peter got the man off, he hasnât seen a trace of him. Anxiety blooms in his chest like water expanding upon freezing, icy barbs that make it hard to take a full breath. What if Tony is mad at him? What if Peter misinterpreted things between them? What if the dynamic has changed, and now heâs nothing to Mr. Stark but yesterdayâs news?
It wouldnât be the first time something like that had happened to him.
âPeter?â the disembodied voice with the exaggerated Irish lilt makes him jump.
He clears his throat, out of sorts as it is from disuse. âYes, Ms. FRIDAY?â
âItâs Mr. Stark, Peter. He wants to know if youâre available to meet him in the lab.â
Peter jams his feet into his shoes without bothering to put on socks. Â
Tony blinks in surprise at how quickly Peter arrives through the glass door of his lab, eyes scanning up and down Peterâs figure before settling on his face and giving a warm smile. Peter takes the time to assess the older man as well (fair is fair!). Tony looks exhausted, eyes shadowed, hair a mess. Heâs wearing the same clothes he was the last time Peter saw him, but itâs been so many days, surely heâs just rewashed and decided to wear the clothes againâright?
Itâs the first time theyâve seen each other since Peter moved rooms, since the night he ground on the manâs lap until Mr. Stark came in his pants. Just the memory of it (which Peter has revisited several times in his bed, in his shower) makes him flush with phantom arousal. At least he can blame that on the speed he used to get here.
Maybe it should be awkward, but it isnât. Not on Peterâs end, at least.
Tony points to the lab table closest to the door where a large box rests. âI am bearing a gift for you, spider-boy.â
âSpider-Man,â Peter amends, already smiling. The difference is amazing and something he didnât necessarily notice until he saw the man again, until the apathetic listlessness was washed from his skin leaving him feeling refreshed and exuberant. Peter missed him. He tip-toes towards the table, fingers hesitating above the ominous box. âYou didnât need to get me anything, Mr. Stark.â
âI didnâtâI made you something. Big difference. Go ahead, open it.â
With trepidation, Peter opens the box. There is a large mass of dark fabric inside and a smaller, sleek box sitting on top.
âTa-Da!â Tony says. âTwo gifts! I lied. Iâm such a liarââ
Tony sways where he stands, like heâs suddenly lost his balance. Peter nearly upends a lab table between them trying to get to the man, watching as he white knuckles the nearest surface to ease himself down into the chair heâd abandoned. The heart in his chest pounds, skipping beats, a horror movie soundtrack that Peter is privy to, but Tony just waves the younger manâs concern away. âGifts. Donât worry about me, the look on your face will heal me of all my ailments, clear my skin, water my crops, all the things the kids say these days.â
âYour skin is already clear,â Peter mutters, frowning as he returns to the box and glances in the open lid. His stomach twists as he removes the smaller box. When he opens it, there is the sleekest, thinnest phone starring back at him, nestled in plastic that hugs its smooth curves, midnight blue. When he gingerly takes it from the box and turns it over, he sees the Stark Industries logo on the back and all the breath gets trapped in his lungs. âMr. StarkâIââ
âIâm going to be honest, your expression isnât healing me right now. Whatâs the matter kid? You wanted a different color?â
âI didnât want one at allââ The look on Tonyâs face is some mix between shock and disappointment. âNo! I just meant, I mean, of course I want one Mr. Stark, these are the best phones in the world, Iâm not just saying that, but I didnât want you to go through the trouble. I know that these arenât mass produced.â
âThey arenât,â Tony admits. âI made that one personally last night. Just for you, Pete. One of a kind. Like its owner.â
Peterâs face flushes. âIâll save up my money and pay you back as soon as I can.â
âDonât worry about it. Get out the next present. Come on, I want you to put it on and make sure it fits.â
Somehow Peter is even more nervousâdid Tony buy him clothes? He gets an image in his head of him walking around the penthouse wearing one of Tonyâs band-shirts. Surely it would swim on Peterâs thin, petite frame. If he wore nothing underneath it, itâd be perfect access for Tony to come up behind him while Peter is at the counter in the kitchen (making coffee, cooking pop-tarts, who cares), ruck up the hem, and grind his erection against Peterâs bare ass.
Trying to slow his breathing, Peter hopes that his thoughts arenât written clear as day on his face. When he pulls it from the box, he finds himself holding a jumpsuit made of a material that feels unlike anything heâs touched before: hard like metal, but flexible like fabric. Itâs of a blue so dark that itâs nearly black. To match his phone maybe, he thinks. âWhat is this?â Peter asks. âPajamas?â
âIâm sorryâpajamas? Jesus, kid, youâre, fuck. Youâre really busting my balls today. Itâs your suit! Well, the prototype. My struggles right now are just finding a material thatâs strong enough to deflect bullets but flexible enough for you to do your creepy-crawly gimmick. Go and try it on, I want you to tell me if it fits.â
Peter sheds his shirt right away only to catch the stricken look on Tonyâs face. âI meant go in the bathroom and change, Chippendale, but ifâyeah, okay, that works, Iâll justââ he turns around to face the opposite direction. Peter rolls his eyes. His abs might be the one thing he has going for him, and Mr. Stark refuses to look at them now. Great.
He strips to his boxers and begins to tug on the suit, but a problem announces itself immediately. âMr. Stark, this doesnât have holes for my hands and feet. I need skin to surface contact for the scopulae to work.â
Tony remains looking resolutely away. âNot anymore. Thanks to all the in-depth scans FRIDAY completed last time you were here, Iâve found a way to recreate your scopulae mechanically. The sensors in the fingers and feet of your suit (and it should fit like a glove, Peter) will activate only when you activate your spider-touch. The suit is just expensive interfacing that will keep you from getting your fingers sawn off or developing frost bite. Are you in it yet? Come on, kid, the anticipation is killing me.â
Peter flexes around to zip himself up and yeah, the suit fits like a glove. The tightest glove heâs ever worn. One that was made for the contours of his body, the flatness of his abs, the bulge of his biceps. âItâs on. You can look.â
Tony spins around on the stool. He eyes Peter from the collar down, and the younger man grows flush, feeling that gaze on him as easily as heâd feel fingers reaching out to caress him. But when Tony fires off a series of technical questions about the fit, it becomes clear that he isnât checking Peter out. Heâs checking out the suit. Which kind of makes Peter even more crazy about him, if such a thing is possible.
âIâve already tested the things it can and canât do: it canât be cut, it canât be pierced or penetrated. Canât be burned, though some hazardous materials are corrosive enough to it with long term exposure, so try not to take any lengthy dips in inconveniently placed vats of acids. But I have not yet seen what you can do in it. Letâs take it for a test run, huh kid?â
Tony takes him to the training room, which is empty on a Sunday. The ceilings are highâvery high, and Peter scales them with ease. It feels strange at first, not feeling his bare skin on the plaster of the walls and the textured ceiling, but the suit fits so close to him that itâs easy to forget it isnât his skin. There isnât any difference in grip that Peter can detect, but he tests it anyway, hanging precariously by one hand.
âOh no, Mr. Stark,â Peter says, placing the back of his free hand against his forehead like a true damsel in distress. He lets his legs kick a little in the air. âPlease, save me!â
âIâm watching you use four fingers and a thumb to stick to a glass window twenty feet off the ground,â Tony calls. âI donât think you need any saving. Stillâthis is not an invitation to be scaling my building, understand?â
âI donât know, it feels pretty inviting to me!â
âPeter Parkerâno death-defying circus acts, do you hear me?â
âNo promises!â
Tony shakes his head. Peter thinks that he maybe looks a little fond. But maybe thatâs just wishful thinking.
âDinner plans?â Tony asks as they reenter the lab. He turns away so Peter can strip off the suit, though the younger man rolls his eyes. âI was thinking about ordering in like I always do. Iâm feeling like soup though, need something light on my stomach. FRI, baby, what do you recommend?â
âAfter forty hours of no other sustenance, Iâd not recommend anything spicy, high in fiber, or fried.â
âSo youâd not recommend anything good, I get itâ"
âForty hours?â Peter asks, nearly tangling himself up in his haste to pull his shirt on over his head. He canât see Tonyâs expression, but his shoulders are hunched, one elbow resting on the table. Even from behind, he looks exhausted. âYou canât do that, Mr. Stark. You need to take breaks.â
âThis is my break, kid. FRI, order me some vegetable soup from that vegan place down the street, and get PeterâPete, what do you want? Does soup sound okay? What am I kidding, youâre enhanced, you need more than that. FRIDAY, find Peter something to eat thatâs good for him, I donât know, Iâm hardly role-model material.â
âSoup is fine, Ms. FRIDAY,â Peter insists before the AI can purchase him an entire barbecued pig or something equally ridiculous. If she is anything like her creator, she must have a tendency to go overboard. Out to sea. Past the line of the horizon. âI donât need anything special. Just a lot of it, if thatâs okay.â
They take the soup up in Tonyâs penthouse, and itâs the happiest Peterâs felt since being moved down to the Avengersâ communal floor. It feels like nothing has changed when Tony kicks up his socked feet onto the coffee table, takes the soup bowl into his hands and drinks the broth from it. He leaves all the carrots in the bottom, and it should be dorky that Peter finds something like that so fucking endearing.
âHowâs it been, living with other superheroes?â Tony asks him, sipping spring water. âEverything you dreamed it would be?â
Peter shrugs, swirling his spoon around his own bowl.
âNot everything you dreamed?â Tony amends.
âI donât want to badmouth my teammates,â Peter mutters. âWe just obviously have different opinions about some important things. But thatâs normal right? You put a half dozen people in the same apartment and of course they arenât always going to agree.â
Tony hums. âYou hate how Barton puts the coffee grinds right into the garbage disposal, donât you? Iâve told him time and time againââ
Peter snorts. âNo, thatâs not it. ItâsâŚwell. Itâs you.â
Tony frowns now. His whole demeaner changes, shrinks. With forced humor, he asks: âMe? Whatâd I do this time?â
âNothing,â Peter hurries to assure. His face flushes, he wants to press his palms against his burning cheeks, but he doesnât want to call attention to it. âI guess thatâs just where the other Avengers and I disagree. Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have said anything. I donât want to cause trouble or to make you feel bad, I justâI wish they treated you better. I wish they saw what an amazing person you are. You know?â
âMaybe youâre just seeing me with rose-tinted glasses, kid,â Tony says, smiling sadly.
âI just see the way you treat me,â Peter admits. âPeople were always pretending I wasnât there. When I was sleeping rough, theyâd just walk by, turn their heads so we didnât have to look at each other. So they didnât have to look at me, I guess. Even working here, not a lot of people pay attention to the Maintenance Department. Weâre supposed to beâŚinvisible. You treat me like Iâm a human being, though. Like you see me.â
âYou are a human being,â says Tony. âAnd I do see you. I donât know how anyone could miss you, kid.â
God. Maybe thatâs just basic human decency, but Peter hasnât been shown such a thing in so long that it makes his heart clench, makes his stomach churn and palms go sweaty. Heâs filled with such longing that his insides twist. More and more lately, he feels like if he doesnât have this older man for himself, it might kill him, a desire so keen that it hurts.
âWoah there,â says Tony, reaching out quickly to sit his bowl down on the table. âDonât give me that look. That look is liable to get us into trouble.â
âWhat look?â Peter asks, breathily, letting his eyes drag down the manâs body. He licks his lips reflexivelyâwhat, theyâre dry, okay?
âThat look!â Tony says, pointing. âThat one right there, the one that says youâre about to eat me whole.â
âSpiders are mostly carnivorous,â Peter says.
Tony laughs, scrubbing at his face with one hand. âPeter, Iâm really not known for my self-controlâactually Iâm sort of famously known for my lack of self-control. Have some mercy on an old man.â
âWho needs self-control,â Peter grumbles. All the things that embarrass himâthe kind words, the affectionate touchesâsex isnât really one of them. Peter hasnât been a virgin in years, and itâs been too long since he had a partner as good as he knows Mr. Stark will be. A partner as incredible as Mr. Stark is. âBesides, Iâm twenty years old, Iâm not supposed to have good self-control either.â
âHow old is that is spider years? Because I think youâll probably still come out more mature than I am.â
âSpiders arenât dogs, Mr. Starkââ Peter finds himself inching closer to the man. His skin is so sensitive that he can feel the heat thrown off by Tonyâs body. Itâs impossible not to know how the older man is affected, not when his heart stutters, his pupils bloom. âYou know, I donât think that soup was enough. Maybe I need something else to fill me up.â
âIâve heard a lot of dirty talk in my time, kid,â Tony says. Though his voice is unchanged, his breathing is haggard. âYouâll have to do better than that.â
âThat sounds like permission if Iâve ever heard it,â Peter breathes. In one swift move, he straddles the manâs thigh until it rests between his own, arching his back so that his cock rubs against that muscled leg.
Tony stops breathing. His eyes are half-lidded, the whiskey color turned deeper and darker. He takes several long, slow breaths to calm himself, but Peter doesnât want that. He wants to see this composed man become the opposite of calm. He slips down off of his perch on the manâs lap and between the parted knees.
âKid,â Tony says, catching his wrist when it moves towards the manâs belt buckle. âDonât.â
âWhy not?â Peter asks.
âIâm exhausted,â the man says, and as he says it, Peter can see it. Between his legs, the man isnât even hard. He reaches out with one trembling hand and pets at Peterâs hair, traces the shell of his ear with his thumb until Peter shivers, smiling. âIâve been awake for, FRIDAYââ
âFifty-one hours, boss.â
Tony points up to the ceiling. âWhat she said. I donât think I could get hard even if I tried right now.â
Peter lets his head rest on the manâs thigh, watching carefully to make sure that Tony is okay with the intimacy. Judging by the soft smile, the way his hand comes down to pet at Peterâs curls, Tonyâs okay with it. Shuddering at the stimulation on his scalp, Peter wills away the erection between his legs. Now isnât the time. âIs it normal for you to spend so much time in the lab?â
âNothing about me is normal, kid.â
âYou know what I mean.â
Tony hums. âSometimes when I have a project deadline, or when somethingâs caught my interest. After Natasha reminded me that I hadnât made your phone yetââ
âNatasha?â Peterâs head lifts from the muscular thigh. He grits his teeth, officially adding her to the list of people he canât trust with Tonyâs wellbeing. âI told her not to bother you. Itâs not your job to manufacture a phone for me; youâve already done so much.â
âJust a match on the fire of things Iâd do for you, kid,â Tony says. He sounds half asleep, and the sight of the shadows under his eyes reminds Peter that their positions are very backwards. Tonyâs eyes blink open when Peter moves away, wide and bloodshot, looking ready to apologize though heâd done nothing wrong.
Peter sits at the opposite end of the couch and pats his lap. âPut your head here.â
âThere?â Tony asks, pointing. âWhat for?â
âThink: why would I put my head in your lap?â
âTo suck me offâ?â
Peter sucks in breath to laugh and chokes instead, coughing until heâs red in the face. âSave that thought for another time. Just lay down.â
Tony does, gingerly. He lays flat on his back, one of Peterâs thighs cushioning the arch of his neck. It gifts Peter with the most delicious vantage point of the manâs face, even if he looks a little trepidatious. With all the tenderness he has in him, Peter reaches out to stroke the dark hairs off of the manâs forehead. Immediately, Tonyâs eyes flutter and he inhales. The billionaire has noble features, even as delicately lined with age as they are. With his nails, Peter softly scratches at the manâs temples where gray hair is sprouting.
âGod,â Tony mutters. âThat feels good. Never stop.â
âQuit,â Peter says, smiling. âYouâre going to make me hard.â
Eyes shut, Tony smiles, baring the prettiest, white teeth. God, thereâs nothing about him that Peter would change. Nothing about him that is less than perfectâexcept for maybe the way he sees himself. How could someone so intelligent be so off base in their self-perception? âShould I talk about something that will turn you off instead?â
âThanks, but no. You can go to sleep if you want to. You sound really tired.â
âI am really tired,â Tony concedes. His voice is soft and just a little slower than normal. Slurred, drunk with exhaustion. âShouldnât sleep though.â
âWhy not?â
âI have nightmares,â Tony breathes. Underneath his eyelids, Peter can see his eyes flickering, like heâs watching his nightmares playing out in his mind. The man shiversâhonest to God shivers, and Peterâs own senses take notice. Something is upsetting Tony, the goosebumps on his arms say, the anxious twisting of his stomach. Something is scaring him. Help. Protect. âNight terrors, according to FRIDAY. I get violent.â
âIâm not afraid of you,â Peter says. Tonyâs eyes slit open to stare at him, as if assessing the truth of his statement. âI could snap you in half, remember? I, I could snap Captain America in half, for what itâs worthââ
And the way Tonyâs eyes open, shoulders stiffening where theyâre pressed against Peterâs thighs, suddenly he knows. He knows that whatever is hurting Mr. Stark goes back to Steve Rogers. Peter strokes through the dark hair, rubbing at one temple with a tender thumb, but Tonyâs eyes donât close again. They stare at the ceiling above them, seeing through it like it isnât there. Peter feels both hot and cold all over, inside his body and yet far away, watching through the windows of his eyes.
âDid he hurt you?â Peter asks. His mouth feels numb.
âIt was my fault,â Tony says, shivering. âThere was an altercation, and I made him choose between me or his closest friend. I canât fault him for not choosingâfor choosing Barnes. Some skeletons came out of the closet; I guess Barnes was responsible for my parentsâ deathââ
âExcuse me?â
ââitâs a long story,â Tony says. His eyes slip shut. âHe killed them, but he was brainwashed so, so it doesnât really count, I guess, does it? Thatâs what everyone says, what they keep telling meâthat he was just as blameless as a gun might have been, he was just a weaponââ
âTony. Hey. Just take some deep breathsââ
âThere was a fight. Me versus them,â Tony continues. Peterâs heart sinks to think of this fragile, unenhanced man having to hold his own against two enhanced super soldiers. The suit had them on more equal footing, but two against one was never fair. Ever. âI was hurt. Very badly.â
Tony takes one of Peterâs hands, spreads open the fingers that melt under his touch. He presses it to the center of his chest and the young man can hardly believe what heâs feeling, isnât even sure what heâs feeling. Thereâs a depression in Tonyâs chest, centered on his sternum, a hollowness in the shape of a perfect circle. Itâs right above his heart.
âWhat is that?â Peter asks, placing his palm there.
âAfter my stint in a cave in Afghanistan, I came home with an electromagnetic pacemaker that was keeping me alive and powering the Iron Man suits. During the fight, Steve destroyed it. The suit, itâit felt like a coffin. Hours went by before I was found. I donât know what was worse: the sound the shield made when it came down on my heart or laying there with the thought of someone peeling open my suit someday and finding my skeleton.â
âJesus,â Peter mutters.
And they live here. Steve is one floor down from them, probably doing something domestic like making dinner or watching television or doing crunches in his room. How can he show his face here, when he nearly took Tonyâs life from him? How can the other Avengers let him? And BarnesâPeter isnât even prepared to deal with how fucked up Tony having to house his own parentsâ murderer is. Because itâs beyond fucked.
Tony rolls onto his side, face toward Peter. It might be arousing under different circumstances, but now it makes Peter curl up over him, removing his palm from the hollow chest and reaching for Tonyâs hand. The palm is clammy, but Peter could care less. He squeezes, firm but gentle, and continues to card his fingers through Tonyâs hair.
ââm so sorry,â Peter says lowly.
Tonyâs eyes are closed, but he still murmurs back, âItâs no big deal. Weâve all made up, now, even Barnes and me. But sometimesââ
ââsometimes youâre still scared.â
Tony brow furrows just the slightest, lines that Peter wants to reach out and smooth away. âNo,â he mumbles, more than half asleep now. âNo, Stark men donât get scaredâŚmade of iron...â
Peter says nothing. He sits there, stroking the manâs hair until his breathing evens out and his mouth goes slack, and even then Peter canât bring himself to move. When he speaks, it is quiet, more to himself than to Tony. âYou have nothing to be afraid of anymore. I will never let anything happen to you Mr. Stark. You have my word. I will protect you.â
Softly as he can, he maneuvers himself out from underneath the manâs head. Thereâs an afghan on the back of one armchair (though not the kind Peterâs used to, not the kind his grandmother might have made considering this one feels so soft and rich and new), and he lays it across the man. Oh, if only Vanity Fair and Rolling Stone and Time magazine could see him now, the soft and relaxed expression, the gently parted mouth.
Quiet as a spider mouse, Peter cleans up their mess from dinner so that Tony wonât have to wake up to it. After everything is back where it should be, Peter sits heavily in the armchair by the couch, a silent vigilant.
Tonight, Peter is a dreamcatcher.
When he finally leaves the penthouse and heads back to his own room, the sun is just starting to hint at rising. His own eyes are heavy, and his shoulders bowed with troublesâhis own and Tonyâs. All of it evaporates when he sees a figure sitting at the window watching the sunrise, a cup of coffee in his hand and the goddamn newspaper beside him, truly a man out of time.
Steve looks at him with all the prim disapproval of an old biddy, as if Peter was walking in with high heels in his hand and no panties on underneath a party dress. They stare at each other in silence for a long moment while the fury builds under Peterâs skin.
âLooking for a fight?â Peter asks, his hands shaking. A normal human might miss it, but Steve doesnât.
âNo,â Steve says. âIâm not going to fight you, Peter.â
âYou will. Soon.â
âNot every disagreement has to come to violence.â The magnanimous attitude makes Peter see red, but then he wonders the sound Captain Americaâs shield makes when it strikes metal and feels cold all over.
âThatâs real rich,â Peter mutters. He lifts a hand and flips him off. Steveâs lips get thinâbut thereâs no satisfaction in it. Giving Captain America the bird is small beans compared to the trauma Tony experienced at the manâs hands.
Peter doesnât bother looking back.
In the privacy of his room, Peter takes the time to look through his new Starkphone. He discovers that he already has one contact: Tony. Peter rolls over to press his face flat into the mattress and keep from making any embarrassing noises (or at least to keep from making them loud enough for Steve to hear in the main room). His life has taken the strangest detour, and he hopes that whatever the destination may be that it takes ages to get there. Heâs enjoying himself far too much. Take the scenic route, fate. Thanks.
Even though Tony is asleep, Peter canât help but send a quick message and hope that FRIDAY screens his texts and will keep it from waking the exhausted man.
Thanks again for the phone, Mr. Stark. Itâs awesome.
He sits his phone aside on the table, telling himself that he wonât check it until the morning.
Peter wakes with the phone pressed flat between his cheek and the pillow, the vibration of an incoming text making his skull buzz. Squinting at the phone, he sees that itâs a nine in the morning, and Tony has just replied to his message.
Weâre very even, kid. x
Falling back to sleep takes forever, but the smile that threatens to split his face is worth it.
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The Deal Chapter 7
GREENE FARM~DAY AFTER DARYLâS NO GOOD VERY BAD DAY
I woke up next to Daryl in an actual bed! Feeling amazed at the luxury, after all the nap Iâd taken during Carlâs trauma was more of the pass-out not aware type of sleep, I cuddled into Darylâs side. The side he hadnât pierced with one of his own arrows. I felt him shift under me and chuckled.
âYou are the worldâs worst patient, Daryl Dixon.â I whispered, glancing up at him. Iâd managed, through sheer force of will, to get him to agree to a sponge bath after dinner. And I even convinced him to let me run back to our tent for a change of clothes for him. Now all the gunk and blood was clear from him, and I had a promise that heâd take advantage of Hershelâs offer of a shower, as soon as he was given the ok.
He groaned after my statement, looking down at me with his version of a pout. Which meant he was glaring at me. âAnd ya can be a nagginâ nurse, Jessica Grimes.â He grunted, softening his irritation by kissing my forehead. âDonât know why I had to let ya clean me up last night.â He muttered.
I gave him a look. âAs I recall, you didnât seem to mind during that washing.â I raised an eyebrow as I remembered locking the door and taking my time to be very thorough.
Daryl shrugged, but I could see him fighting a smile. âIt wasnât completely horrible.â He answered, looking at the lace curtains covering the windows. âMight even let ya help me in the shower, since Iâm injured and all.â
I laughed and crawled from the bed to find Hershel. I wanted to make sure that Daryl was ok to come back to our tent. He wasnât going to rush, whether he liked it or not. I found the farmer on the porch, enjoying the morning. He assured me that Daryl would be fine to return to his daily routine, barring stealing another horse. I chuckled and thanked him after he told me Daryl could shower the next day.
Returning to the invalidâs room, I found Andrea offering him a novel and Daryl warning her that if she ever shot at him again, he âbest be dead.â I nodded, and then looked up at her. âIf you donât know how to properly handle a weapon, perhaps Dale was right, and you shouldnât have one.â I glared at her before she could open her mouth for one of her glorious retorts. âLeave.â
Daryl was watching me closely as I sat down on the bed. âShe fucked up, Jessi, but weâve all fucked up one time or another.â He said, taking my hand in his. âLet it go, I have.â
I shot him a look and he smiled. âEver fuck up and nearly kill someone?â He just stared at me. âBecause thatâs what Andrea did. She couldnât see through the glare of the sun, and she shot at you. She was aiming for that thick head of yours, Dixon. If she was better with weapons, youâd be dead. And so would she.â It was a statement and I meant every single word of it. âJessi,â he whispered, clearly not expecting the force of my reaction to the situation. âBaby, Iâm OK. She didnât kill me, hell, I did worse to myself yesterday.â He was trying to calm me, but this was one topic that it wouldnât work.
I pulled my hand free from his and leaned closer to his face. Cupping it between my hands, I stared into his eyes. âYouâre not dead because of her lack of skill, Daryl. Thatâs not a win, not when I know Dad will insist everyone learn their weapons better. Youâre not dead because Dad hasnât had a chance to teach her up.â I sighed and ran my thumbs along his cheeks. âShe isnât right for this world, I know it, and itâs going to get someone killed.â
His hand slid to cover mine, holding me to his face. âThen we watch her.â He agreed. âWe make sure that she doesnât screw up. Jessi, you canât just get rid of people because theyâre-â
âDangerous?â I scoffed. âThatâs what Andrea is, itâs what Shane is. Theyâre both ticking time bombs, the only question in my mind? Which one blows first?â
 HOURS LATER~OUTSIDE OUR TENT
Daryl and I had agreed to disagree on the Andrea situation. His let bygones be bygones made me want to scream, but I understood it too. This new life, with walkers trying to kill us, and people not much better, made some strong. Unfortunately, Daryl felt that we just had to train up the weakest to make them better suited.
I did agree with the sentiment. For instance, Carol would probably learn to survive. Dale? Well, Dale was pretty much a hippy type, but if it came to killing walkers, he was game. That was a mark in his favor. His fear of ending a humanâs life, however, was going to end up problematic. People, I could tell, were going to be just as dangerous to us as walkers. I mean, Dad told us what happened in Atlanta with the âgangâ heâd halved the gun supply with, and letâs not forget Dr. Jenner.
Hereâs my list for people in our group who would probably learn to survive better: Daryl Dad Shane (that kills me to admit) Me Carl Glenn (heâd be higher on the list, but he wasnât raised by my dad) Lori (iffy, sheâs still a little timid) T-Dog Carol (once we find Sofia, or we put the poor child to rest, whichever) Dale (once his bleeding heart savior shit is put in its place) Andrea
Thatâs how it would work, in order of best chances to least. See whoâs last? Yeah, because sheâs not going to make it. Even if she learns, sheâs going to still make the stupidest decisions and then weâll be the ones to clean it up or take the hit. I didnât share the list with Daryl. Because honestly, I think he might have taken it as a personal challenge to prove me wrong. That and his head would grow three sizes too big to fit through the door of the tent, since he outranked my dad in the pecking order.
He was happy to hear about the shower. Whether it was the actual bathing, or the fact that he was going to do his damndest to get me in that hot water with him, Iâm not sure.
We spent the day listening as Dad planned to take the group shooting (told you so), and then work on the areas surrounding where Daryl found Sofiaâs doll. Daryl, I was happy to notice, would be staying back with me. I begged off the shooting practice by holding up my bow to my dad. He laughed and rolled his eyes, but walked away without a fight. Daryl was watching me and I saw his interest in my response and I knew he was wondering if I could use a gun.
âI can shoot guns, Daryl.â I answered him before he could form the question. âMy dad was a sheriffâs deputy in the south. Of course, Iâm proficient in gun use.â I rolled my eyes.
He gave one of those gruff chuckles I loved. âDidnât want to give yourself a little practice? Practice makes-â
âPerfect, yeah, I might have heard that before.â I watched his eyes grow darker at the memory of the last time I was told about it.
I ran over to the RV to see if Dale needed help with watching over us all on the roof. Iâd rather be with Daryl, but I also knew that every little bit helps. Itâs how I caught Glenn acting twitchier than usual and asking Dale if Andrea might be on her period because she was acting crazy.
He actually thought, and I quote, âIâm only asking âcause itâs like all the women are acting really weird. AndâŚand I read somewhere that when women spend a lot of time together, their cycles line up and they all get super crazy hormonal at the same time.â
I coughed and he realized that I was standing nearby. âI can attest that I am NOT currently having my period, but thanks for asking, Glenn.â I grinned at his blush. âAndreaâs off her rocker most days, as for the OTHER ladies,â I raised an eyebrow to remind him that I knew who he was thinking of, âIâm sure thatâs not the issue either. Weâre dealing with the apocalypse, dude, what did you expect?â
Dale grinned at me and agreed. âIâm gonna advise you to keep your theory to yourself.â
I nodded, âTelling a woman sheâs PMS crazy brings out a whole new round of nuts.â
Glenn, far from looking reassured, looked more twitchy. What the hell?
âWant to tell me whatâs going on?â Dale asked, and I nearly walked away, but thought I might want to hear the answer.
âYouâre old.â Glenn started, and I closed my eyes at the poor boyâs tact. âYouâre⌠you know things. So what if someone told you something that someone else should knowâŚâ
I rolled my eyes as Dale told him to stop being dramatic and spit it out.
âThereâs...thereâs walkers in the barn and Loriâs pregnant.â He spit it out alright, and I nearly did too. Fuck, WHAT?
âWHAT?!â I had to keep myself from screaming. They both remembered I was standing near them and who I was. âIâm guessing Dad doesnât know?â
Glenn shook his head. I ran my hands over my face. Fuck, this was bad. Bad, bad, bad. Dale asked if he should speak to Hershel, and I considered it. Having Hershel explain himself to Dad would be MUCH better than one of us. I nodded. As for Lori? Thereâs no chance that baby is my dadâs. NONE. Great, a baby Shane. Unless Dad raised it. Wasnât there proof that nurture was JUST as important as nature?
âAbout Lori,â Glenn started and I held up a hand.
âShe can figure it out,â I said, trying to school my features from shock to whatever I could manage. I shook my head. âIâm going to pretend I didnât hear this entire mess of a conversation. Dale? Do you need me to stand watch?â He shook his head and I walked away.
Finding Daryl sitting by our tent, I knew heâd be able to tell something was wrong, but I hoped I could distract us both. His smile made those damn butterflies in my stomach start up again. It was better than the nausea Glennâs news made me feel.
âWondered where ya got off to.â He said, patting the ground beside him, but I shook my head.
âHad to make sure Dale didnât need help with watch.â I offered and he nodded. Standing he loomed by the tree he had been sitting against.
âDoes he?â He asked, and I shook my head again. âSo whatâre we gonna get into all alone while theyâre gone?â
I raised an eyebrow and was gratified when he rushed to me and smothered any further conversation with a burning kiss. I sighed into him, trying desperately to be careful of his wounded side.
âIâd really like to carry ya inside the tent,â he whispered against my lips.
I smiled at the thought of it. âIf you screw up those stitches, Iâll catch hell from Hershel.â I giggled and took his hand. âBesides, Iâm perfectly capable of walking with you inside the tent, Daryl.â
The others were gone, except Dale, Carol, Glenn, and the Greene family. And entering our tent, I watched as Daryl groaned and lay back on our sleeping bags. I knew this killed him, being at anyoneâs mercy, even mine. Yet, I loved that he trusted me enough to allow it. I bit my lip and looked down at him, fully clothed and clean, thank God. I could still see the ear necklace and all the blood and gore from the day before.
âWhatâre ya lookinâ at?â He asked, his gruff voice husky and his eyes barely squinting to take me in.
I smiled and laid down beside him. âYou, Daryl Dixon, I was looking at you.â I ran my hand up his chest, careful of the bandaged side. âAnd I was wondering something.â
I knew his eyes were closed without looking, because I felt him sigh into my soft touch. âWhatâs that?â
âWhy was your mouth coated in blood yesterday?â I asked, sitting up on my elbow to look down at him. I saw him grimace slightly, ut-oh.
âI might of eaten a squirrel,â he stopped and wouldnât look at me, âraw.â
Ugh, I thought, Iâd kissed you yesterday and hadnât even noticed. âAh.â Was all I said, and I felt him twitch. âRemind me to never ask that question again.â
He chuckled at that. âSo tough, but wonât even eat meat straight from the source. It was still warm-like.â He shook his head and met my eyes as I grimaced. âShould have warned ya, but your kiss was all I could think about on the way back.â
âI canât fault that logic.â I smiled and leaned forward to kiss him again. When I pulled back, his eyes were more black than blue. âSince youâre injured, I should probably take care of you, right?â I asked, we had been so focused on our first night together that weâd never gotten to much more than the full act, so I wanted to be sure.
I watched his Adamâs apple bob with a swallow. He nodded and that was all I needed to get into caretaker mode. I gave him a smile and began kissing down his neck, flicking against his pulsepoint and feeling his hand run down my back and then back to my head. I kept going, unbuttoning his shirt and kissing each inch of skin that was exposed as the buttons fell open. His nipples were taunt, and I spent a moment enjoying each one before returning to my route. Down his stomach, nuzzling his bellybutton, and then my fingers found the button on his jeans.
âI probably shouldnât completely undress you,â I whispered against his skin as I flicked the button open. âJust when I do, weâll be called to defend the damn world.â I felt him chuckle as my fingers opened the zipper. âBut Iâll make sure everything necessary to your recovery is bared to my attention.â His fingers slid under the tightness of my braid and I smiled against his pelvic bone. He lifted his ass long enough to free that part of him I was most concerned with, and then he was free. I hummed in approval. âOh, Iâm more than certain I can make you feel all better, Mr. Dixon.â I looked up to see heâd put his other arm under his head to get a better angle to watch me. I smirked at him as my tongue flicked against the head that had given me such pleasure in the bright light of the moon. âJust let me know if thereâs anything that you need to make a full recovery.â And with that I engulfed him with my mouth, my hand moved to the base and together with my mouth and tongue, I worked him.
âShit, Jessi,â he hissed, his fingers tangled in the depths of my hair. âYeah, fuck, just like that.â
I moved slowly, then faster, then slower, making him moan and gasp. His hand in my hair tightened and I knew he was ready, but he did the unexpected, he yanked me from him. âGet up here, Jess.â He growled and my mouth met his with a hunger that was even more than the night before. âI need ya. All of ya.â He moaned against my mouth, and I felt his hands sliding down to my own jeans, undoing them and tugging. âPull em off.â He ordered and I pulled back, kicking off my boots and ridding myself of my pants. âNow climb on top.â Demanding, I thought, but I was powerless to deny him.
I straddled him and then he snapped up into me. We both moaned at the feeling. We hadnât thought it was right to try in Hershelâs house, in a strangerâs bed, but this, I rocked my hips and felt sparks between us, this was US. He pulled me back to him, so most of my weight was on him. I was trying to be so careful of his wound, but he wouldnât allow it. Not now, not here, here we had to connect. And so, my covered chest was tight against his, even as he quickened his pace of thrusting. He swallowed my screams of pleasure as I was fed his own. And for the first time, but not the last, when we came, we didnât part.
And for a brief moment, I forgot about the walkers in the barn and my newest sibling on the way.
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Sticking Points
Rating: T
Summary:Â The summer of 1986 doesnât look much different to Billy than the summer of 1985 did, when it started. Few more scars, few more burned bridges, but not much else has changed. Heâs still working at the pool, and still giving swimming lessons to bratty kids. Today the bratty kid is Holly Wheeler.
Itâs funny the things that stick in life. Billy has found himself thinking that a lot lately. His days are eerily similar to last summer, right down to the weight of the lifeguard whistle against his chest. Sure, there was the brush with actual fucking monsters (not really a brush so much as a head-on collision) but⌠he didnât have any better ideas once summer came around again, really. Itâs been long enough that he can drown out the memory of that voice that screamed inside his head that the sun would kill him. He still needs a job, still misses the beaches of California, and the best Hawkins can offer is this goddamn pool soâŚÂ
Itâs not like he has any more bad memories of this place than he does of anywhere else.Â
Sitting on the corner of the pool beside him, dangling her legs into the shallows, is Holly Wheeler. Sheâs got goggles on her head that look too big for her, with worn blue rubber around the lenses. The neon fish on her swimsuit with the tail the trails on and on reminds Billy vaguely of album art. Heâd compliment her taste if he thought she did it on purpose.Â
Talk about things that stick. Billyâs not sure if Karen has regrets one year later, or if sheâs still hanging onto some kind of guilt, but she was insistent that Billy had to give Holly swimming lessons. The size of the tip she gave him and the fact that she gave it to him up front suggests guilt.Â
âI already know how to swim,â Holly tells him matter-of-factly. Sheâs staring at him with the same huge dark eyes that her brother and sister both have. Sheâs blond as fuck, though. Where the hell did that come from? Karen must have used so much peroxide when she was knocked up that it soaked into the womb or something.Â
âI know.â
âI was here every day last summer,â Holly persists. âSwimming.â
âI know,â Billy repeats. âI was the lifeguard last summer.â
She squints at him, like sheâs trying to remember if thatâs true, probably stretching the limits of her 6-year-old memory span.Â
âSo you already know Iâm a good swimmer,â she says. Billy does know. She knows most of what heâs supposed to teach kids her age, but thatâs her problem for having a mom who runs too wet for the pretty ones.Â
âIâm gonna make you a better swimmer,â he says. âYour form is shit.â
âYou canât say that!â she gasps. âSteve said Iâm really good!â
Billy expected her to say he canât say âshitâ because kids believe in rules like that. She doesnât, probably because she has to hear worse than that from her brother. The Steve thing⌠Billy isnât expecting it, but it isnât a surprise, either. Hawkinsâ Golden Boy is gunning for mother of the year. And hey, in this town where his competition is mostly the Karens and the Susans, he just might get it.
âSteve is a nice person.â Thatâs not Billyâs favorite thing to admit. Makes him feel guilty too easily. âBut heâs also a liar.â
And Billy would know.Â
***
Steve has been to the hospital room a handful of times. Billy suspects heâs been to the parking lot way more often because Neil and Susan sure as hell arenât bringing Max by as often as sheâs here. He just sits there and makes chit-chat every time. Heâs good at that, at talking and saying nothing at all. Billy canât decide if itâs because thatâs what silver spooners learn or if Steve is just actually a dumbass.Â
âYou know I donât actually care, right?â Billy finally says, cutting off Steveâs intense re-telling of his debate with Keith about whether or not Teen Wolf belongs in the horror section.
âYou could tell me what you do care about and then I can talk about that,â Steve offers, not missing a beat. Billy rolls his eyes and falls back into the silence heâs lived in for most of Steveâs visits.Â
Steve groans.Â
âBilly. Come on, talk to me. Iâm not still mad about last year, you know. We can just⌠start over.â
There are no free passes in life. Billy knows that for a fact. Which means Steve is just saying the right thing youâre supposed to say when someone is in the hospital. Heâs a fucking liar, is what he is.
***
âSteve is not a liar,â Holly huffs. âHe was a swimmer. He knows when people are good.â
âSteveâs sport was basketball.â Billy grabs the pink boogie board from the side of the pool and drops it into the water. âHe just happens to have a pool in his backyard.âÂ
âHe was a swimmer when he was dating my sister.â Holly wrinkles her nose at the board and kicks it, making it float off further into the pool. âIâve seen other swimming lessons. You want me to hold onto that and kick, but I already know how to kick.â
Billy⌠sort of believes that because Steve was never all that great at basketball, but he did have a jock reputation before Billy came to town. And heâs already kind of wondered sometimes why the guy always brings his pack of kids to the public pool instead of just using his back yard. But then Holly decides to be a massive pain in the ass and he decides he still doesnât care about any mystery involving Steve Harrington.Â
He has to handle the Wheeler brat instead.
âLook.â Billy drops his elbow to his knee so his hunched posture puts him on eye-level with Holly. âI know you know how to kick. But we have to go through the lessons, got it?â Sheâs pursing her lips like sheâs about to start bitching again, so Billy just brings out the big guns. âAnd if I tick off all the little boxes of shit you know how to do, you get a whistle at the end of the week.â
That gets her attention. Bribing always works with kids, but heâs pretty sure Holly knows itâs a bribe. She understands checking off boxes that might be pointless in exchange for a reward. Billy would bet anything her limp-dick dad uses that technique all the time.Â
âI want the whistle,â she says, pulling her goggles down over her eyes. They slide down her nose, the band way too big on her head to form anything closed to a seal.Â
âThose are too big for you,â Billy says, holding out his hand. âIâll hold âem. Go get the board.â
Holly pulls them off and hands them to him. âI want them back,â she warns. âSteve gave them to me for my swimming class. He won a trophy once with them and said theyâll bring me good luck.â
Billy doesnât believe in luck, and personally thinks there would have been more use in Steve just getting Holly a pair of goggles that fit right. But people like stories and sentiments like that. And Steve likes giving people shit.
***
Thereâs hairspray on the table beside Billyâs bed. Not the right kind, mainly because itâs the expensive shit, where the can is muted chrome, and the logo is in thick, flowy letters. Max sure as hell didnât buy it. Thereâs not a long list of people visiting him in the hospital, but thereâs only one who would think doing his hair would make him feel better.Â
Someone (meaning Max) must have shared with Steve that Billyâs latest âmilestoneâ (because every single fucking thing counts as a milestone if your injuries fuck you up enough) is being allowed to shower on his own. Heâs happy about that, donât get him wrong. The nurses around here are not the stuff of wet dreams, and being sponged by a 60-something who talks about her collapsed uterus was pretty much hell. But seriously, he didnât need that shared with Harrington. That guy is being weird enough about this already.Â
Billy hates that he kind of wants to. Wants to wash his hair, which feels grimy and flat from being slept on so much. Wants to pick it with a comb while itâs damp, give it some lift, rub it dry with a t-shirt so it wonât frizz⌠and yeah, maybe spray it in place a little. And he really fucking hates that the town pretty boy, with his head of brunette fluff and nothing else, understands that so well.Â
He dumps the can in the trash and makes sure Steve can see it in there.
***
Holly retrieves the board and kicks her way back over with it. Billy mentally checks off that box in his head. Yeah, heâll probably make her do it some more just so sheâs quiet for longer. Heâs gonna milk the promise of that graduation whistle for as long as he can. But the kid can clearly already kick.Â
âDonât scuff them,â she reminds him when he must run a thumb over the rim of the goggles in the wrong way or something. Billy sighs internally. Clearly Harringtonâs next generation of kids are already forming their attachments to him. Which means Billy is going to have to see him shuttling kids to and from the pool well after his current bunch gets their licenses.Â
âIâm not scuffing Steveâs shitty goggles, kid,â he snaps.
âTheyâre my goggles now,â she says, the imperious tone grating in the same way her brotherâs does. And her sisterâs. Fucking Wheelers, man. âAnd you should be nicer to Steve.â
âSteve isnât even here. Why does it matter?â Billy sets the goggles on the side of the pool so the kid can stop glowering at him.Â
âBecause he said I should be nice to you,â she says, tossing the boogie board up onto the poolside where it turns the stones darker with a splatter of water.Â
God Billy wants a fucking cigarette. âCanât imagine why he did that. Weâre not friends.â
***
âWeâre not buddies, Harrington.â Thereâs venom in Billyâs voice, but Steve just looks tired. And kind of frustrated, like he knows he opened his mouth too wide and canât take it back now.Â
âI didnât say we were. Or that we were going to be.â
He didnât. But âI can help with your PT if you wantâ isnât exactly something to say to the guy you had a fistfight with a few months ago. Itâs a nice offer and itâs coming after too many goddamn nice things, and Billy⌠Billy is over it. Harrington just keeps showing up and talking and trying to act like he and Billy are just gonna be nice to each other. Like thatâs a thing that happens in real life.Â
âI donât want your fucking help.â
âI know.â And Steve sounds like he does know. Maybe he knows exactly how much Billy hates every second he insists on sitting in that plastic chair, hates every chipper word out of his mouth. And still keeps coming like a sadist. Or a masochist. Or both in one fucking punching bag of a package.Â
âSo fuck off! Stop showing up to visit me, stop leaving shit around my room life a fucking creeper! Get on with your shitty life, maybe go collect some more kids to need you!â Billy is sure some of that wounds. If Steveâs fall from grace in his senior year was a Greek tragedy, his languishing in a humiliating job while everyone else went off to college was some depressing Dickens shit. The kind where everyone knows, and everyone judges and tuts about it. But other than a little tightening in the jaw, Steve doesnât react.Â
Billyâs stomach does. Turns sour and roils and wants to take it all back as badly as Steve wanted to take back his offer to help. But the words are out and itâs full steam ahead, and heâs slapping his palm repeatedly against the button to call the nurse before Steve can do something stupid like apologize, like heâs the one who did something wrong.Â
Steve doesnât visit again. He canât. Billy tells the nurses he doesnât want him in there, and never asks if he tries to come back.
***
âYou know, if youâre not nice to people, then no one will by nice to you,â Holly tells him, breaking Billy out of his reverie. The wisdom of a 6-year-old. âBut if youâre nice, like to Steve, then maybe you can be friends.â
âWow, is that how friends work?â Billy rolls his eyes, but itâs probably lost on Holly since he has sunglasses on. âConsider me fuckinâ schooled.â
Holly grasps at the lip of the pool a few times , trying to pull herself out. It doesnât work, so she just waves a hand at Billyâs arm until he obliges and holds it out to her. She grabs it and pull herself out of the water, planting her butt back on the corner of the pool.
âThank you,â she says. âNow you say âyouâre welcomeâ to me.â
âTrying to improve my manners, kid?â
âYes. Good manners make it easier to make friends.â
Billy sighs and hands her back her goggles. His brain hurts, and his chest feels a little tight from too much thinking. Too many memories that are still fresh enough to sting. A cursory glance at the row of moms confirms that no, Karen didnât stick around. Definitely a guilt thing.
âTell you what. Why donât we skip the rest of the baby lessons today and I buy your silence with a popsicle from the staff freezer?â
Holly, like all smart kids, knows when sheâs got a good offer on the table. She nods immediately, fitting Steveâs goggles back on her head. âDeal.â
Billy stands up and heads for the staff office, with small, wet footsteps slapping the ground behind him. Holly might be okay. Sheâs a quick kid, and not quite as annoying as her siblings. Yet. She might even be right about a few things too.Â
And with any luck, as long as thereâs a decent stash of flavors to barter with in the freezer, she might even be useful in figuring out how Steve likes people to be nice to him.Â
#my writing#harringrove#harringrove fanfic#billy/steve#pre-relationship#I'm sure I'm not the only one who wondered what it looked like to see Billy Hargrove giving swimming lessons to a child#I feel like Billy wouldn't necessarily be nice to kids#but he'd have their respect by not being fake nice#that makes sense in my head so let's go with that#I am very tired
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A Tale of Two Souls Part 3; Playing the Part
Summary; As you, Jaskier and Geralt continue to travel together, bonds get created while others are tested. Especially when you find yourself in a predicament when Jaskier's life appears to be in imminent danger. Pairing; Jaskier x Female Reader WordCount; 3659  Warnings; Angst, fluff, sexual innuendos, strong language  Taglist; @lilyevans1â Read Part 2 Here
Series MasterlistÂ
A couple of days had gone by since you unveiled to Jaskier your authentic identity. Despite Jaskier appearing to be indifferent from everything, you were convinced that he must possess some inquiries.Â
Regardless of the queries, Jaskier proceeded to walk ahead of you and everything was satisfactory with the world once more. While the three of them travelled along winding roads and treacherous paths, you observed Jaskier. Jaskier being abnormally quiet unsettled you. Over the past several days, you had come to understand that Jaskier rejected the quiet. He preferred to engage in conversation or composing a new song.Â
Adjacent to the quiet behaviour, Jaskier walked appeared to be uneven as a distinctive limp had replaced his confident strut. Before the three of you proceeded on your journey, you had been unable to mend Jaskier's shoes. In the hopes that you would be able to purchase a pair of boots fit for travelling for Jaskier, the three of you progressed toward approaching a town that you and Geralt had frequented previously.Â
"Jaskier perhaps you should take a break for a while? You've been wandering for miles now, surely your feet ache."
"Thank you, my sweet Y/N. I shall have to reject your offer, as my feet feel perfectly fine. I would never say no to your company if you are offering it."
"Do not try to fool her Bard. Y/N knows you're experiencing some description of pain." Geralt explained as he continued to ride on Roach. Travelling with Geralt for many years had enabled you to become an expert in dealing with headstrong men.
On the other hand, you had specifically been in Jaskier's situation already. Entering an already existing dynamic where everyone had their place and their roles, Jaskier wanted to emerge as an influential and responsible human, who did not have to rely on anyone.Â
Comprehending well enough how to play the stubborn man's game, you bounded down from Tarot relocating her reigns over her head. Jaskier came to a halt as you joined up with him, the closer you neared him, the further you realised how dier his current shoe situation was. The boots upon his feet were starting to fall apart. The once expensive boots were now battered from the rough journey.
You had to do something. Observing the current state of Jaskier's boots, you could visualise the current state of his own feet inside of the boots. Being surrounded by nothing but mountains and trees, there was one option that you knew would not be favoured by your longtime travelling companion. Â
"Jaskier, will you allow me to take a glimpse at your boots. I might have missed something last night when I was taking a glance at them."
"I've already told you my sweet I am not in any variety of distress. Although if you think you might be able to fix them, who am I to say no to such a beautiful angel such as yourself."Â
Jaskier took a seat on the nearby Rock, removing his boots once he was comfortable. Just as you suspected, Jaskier's feet were blistered and cut up from the long and tiring journey the three of you had encountered so far. Crouching you hovered your hands over Jaskier's feet rather than his boots.Â
"Y/N, we have spoken about this! Do not do what I think you're about to do!"
"What is he talking about? What are you doing?" Geralt's pleads were met on deaf ears as you had already begun to mutter the simple healing spell. As power resonated from your hands, Jaskier's feet began to heal. Using any variety of magic came at a price. You learned pretty swiftly that the cost of healing someone was an infliction onto your body. You had healed Geralt several times before he discovered you had been doing. From that moment onwards, the two of you had agreed that magic would not be used to heal one another again.Â
Blood began to soak through your undershirt as you continued to mutter the healing spell repeatedly. Throughout travelling with Geralt, you had seen much bloodshed, a lot of it being Geralt' own and each time it distressed you to witness someone you cared about experiencing unnecessary pain.Â
"Sweet love, you are bleeding. My sweet, stop! Y/N stop!" Jaskier's words brought you out of your trace alongside the firm grasp taking hold of your opposite arm. Tugging you away from Jaskier, you were forced to look at a visibly angry Geralt. With his frown eyebrows, his jaw locked and his eyes wild like a group of wild stations.Â
"What did we fucking agree on? You promised me that you would not do this again! Not to me and certainly not to the fucking Bard we met only days ago. What was one of the rules we agreed on long ago."
"Answer me!" Geralt yelled, seeing him this enraged made guilt seep into your skin like water in a sponge. Trying to help Jaskier had resulted in agitating Geralt.
"That I do not use my healing spell. We also do not break promises to each other."
"Did we not just have a similar conversation only days ago about putting ourselves in harm's way when it's not needed. You have done precisely that! Fixing the Bard has prompted you to be injured yourself. What good has that done? Let me see." You were not going to argue with Geralt, seeing him this irate was only provoked by more profound emotions that Geralt declined to admit to. Slipping your arm out of the sleeve and into the head hole of your undershirt, the true extent of your wounds arose to light. It was certainly worse than you imagined than your predicted outcome.Â
"Shit!" Geralt backed towards Roach rummaging through his saddlesack for something. When Jaskier rose from his seat on the rock, taking hold of your wounded arm much more delicately than Geralt had held of your arm previously.Â
"Y/N, what did you just do?"Â
"I performed a basic healing spell. As all magic comes with a price, to heal someone, you have to take an injury onto yourself. I made a promise to Geralt a long time ago that I would never use it again."Â Â
"Why would you do that for me? Especially if you and Geralt made a promise. My enchanting Y/N, I would have managed until we reached the next town."
"Did you not hear what I told you earlier? I told you she recognised you were encountering some sort of pain. Once again, someone did not listen to me."Â
"Geralt, it was not his fault. I decided to use the healing spell, not Jaskier. You have every right to be furious at me, but leave Jaskier out of this. He was not knowledgeable that I was able to feel his anguish. Besides, I would have done the same for you as I have done countless times." Geralt declined to speak as he ripped one of his old shirts in half to create a bandage as he began to strap your arm up with the fabric. As you observed him intently, you laid your hand on top of his.
"I am sorry. I should have never broken the promise that we made to each other a long time ago, old friend. I hate when you speak to me less so even more usual. You surely would not leave one of your dearest friends purely to Jaskier's company now, would you?" Everything appeared silenced around you as Geralt finished patching up your injury in complete silence. The moment seemed to slow down as you hoped that would be enough for Geralt to forgive you for being so foolish.
âHeyâ
"I will not lose you. Not now, not ever."Â
"As I refuse to lose you, old friend. Jaskier until we reach the town you will be riding with me. That way, I will not feel tempted to comfort Jaskier's pain. By doing so, it will also put your mind at rest."Â
"Do I get to add a little bargaining chip into this solution? Since I am utterly confused by this situation, will you, my beauty inform me what on earth just happened?"Â
"Would I ever leave you in the dark, Jaskier?" Exchanging a glance towards Geralt, the two of you told each other exactly what the two of you needed to say. Being on the road with someone for an extended time was completed. Over vast years, people learn to depend on one another terrified that one day the other might not be around. Mounting Tarot once more, you felt a pair of arms wrap around your waist, Jaskier's nose nuzzling into your neck.
"I should have informed you that I can recognise when someone's in pain. After seeing my Mother torture and kill people for so long, I assume I learnt to tune into it. The more the person is suffering, the more I feel. It also aids that I have a personal connection with you."Â
"That explains why you responded before you thought about it. Just so you know I never desire you to endure any kind of pain because of me. Will you tell me a story? Your voice is the most soothing melody I have ever heard.""That explains why you responded before you thought about it. Just so you know I never desire you to endure any kind of pain because of me. Will you tell me a story? Your voice is the most soothing melody I have ever heard."
"I and Geralt have experienced untold stories collectively, so it should not be exceedingly difficult. What variety of story are you in the mood for?"Â
"Well so far, I've only heard one's that have caused you physical and emotional agony, I don't reckon you have anything happier."
"There is the story of myself and Geralt, encountering an extroverted flirtatious bard, who has already been injured three times in the short time he's been travelling with us. That's rather joyous so far."
"There's no obligation to tell that story my sweet because I can guarantee you there many wonderful ballads composed narrating stories of our encounters together."
"There was the time where I accidentally shot Geralt with a bow."Â
"Really? Do tell."Â
"In the early days of our companionship, Geralt began to teach me how to use the skill of combat rather than relying on my powers for everything. I was keen and determined to learn since at the time, I was far from confident in who I was. With my determination at the highest peak anytime we were not on the road or training, I had a bow and arrow in hand practising. One morning, Geralt had gone to a nearby stream to bathe, so I took the time to get practising. I did not realise that I had picked a tree in the same direction that Geralt would come back.As Geralt returned, I just happened to shoot at the same time...needless to say, I did not hit the target I was aiming for."Â
"You shot me in the arm."
"Indeed I also believe you caught me out in regards to the healing spell also. I've also never missed a shot since then. I believe I am too horrified to shoot Geralt."Â
"I learnt to linger out of the way while you were training. In the initial days, you were lousy in combat. Now, I would not prefer to have anyone by my side."Â
"I'm glad old friend because you're certainly stuck with me for the foreseeable future."Â
Arriving in two, you, Geralt and Jaskier made a plan to split up to complete a series of chores that demanded to be completed before the night anchored in. Geralt departed to seek refuge and a room to sleep for the night, while you and Jaskier travelled towards the market to see if you could locate anything that was on your list.Â
The market was a busy and vibrant place. Market stall owners yelled their daily offers trying to get their potential customers attention. Chatter filled among the other patrons as they attempted to achieve their reasons for attending the market.Â
Being familiar with the marketplace, you were able to negotiate through the crowded place. Familiar faces greeted you with a smile and a wave or a brief nod, wondering if you had brought the Witcher with you.Â
As the ageing shoemaker welcomed you and directly brought you into an extensive conversation about the details of your request, Jaskier strolled around the stall looking at the different variations of shoes and boots that the shoemaker created.Â
As the ageing shoemaker welcomed you and directly brought you into an extensive conversation about the details of your request, Jaskier strolled around the stall looking at the different variations of shoes and boots that the shoemaker produced. Completely engaged in the conversation with the shoemaker, you had failed to witness the Lord approaching Jaskier with determination and rage in his step.Â
Lord Huntington was a respectable man amongst these parts. A man appreciated for his philanthropy and devotion to supporting those in need. Despite a man of great wealth, he cared so little for it and aspired to be charitable as frequently as he could. Nevertheless, Lord Huntington's kindness was not to be received lightly. Lord Huntington was a man who had a foul temper when challenged he deemed dear to his heart, the likes of those involved his charity work, his restoration projects and his beloved wife.Â
"I thought it was you as I saw your spindly frame in the distance! You're the Bard that I caught sleeping with my wife!"Â
"I do not believe we have met, but I can assure you I have not slept with your wife."Â
"Don't get smart with me boy, I might be growing old as my greying hair suggests, but I will not be mistaken for a fool. It was you who I witnessed coming out of my wife and I's shared chambers that night! By right I should remove your balls!"
Lord Huntington had listened to enough. He was well aware of the experience, and the expertise Bard's had for being deceitful. This one was no different. Grabbing ahold of Jaskier violently, Lord Huntington was determined to get Jaskier back to him so he could punish him accordingly.Â
"I have told you I have no idea what you're referring to!"
"Liar!"
"Why would I sleep with your wife....when I have my own?"
"You have a wife?"Â
"Yes, she is right over there, currently purchasing some new boots for me. She is the most incredible, intoxicating, mesmerising woman in the entire world, most of my songs that you will hear are referencing her and only her. I can introduce you to her if you like." Lord Huntington's mouth hung open as he examined Jaskier's reaction. Moments before, Jaskier appeared to have gone pale as he confronted him, but the moment he mentioned his wife, the colour began to emerge into his cheeks once more.Â
"You could pick any one woman in this market and claim she's your wife!"
"I will prove it to you. Y/N, my beautiful enchantress, keeper of the key to my heart and my darling wife." Hearing Jaskier call out to you, brought you out of your conversation with the shoemaker, leaving you with a muddled confusion at what you thought you had just heard.Â
"What did you just call me?"Â
"Look at you always messing around. My wife does have an impeccable sense of humour." Jaskier travelled through a small group of people that gathered in the small area. Enveloping you in his arms, flush against his chest, Jaskier nudged his nose with yours.Â
"It would have been nice to be invited to our wedding, so tell me what did you do to piss Lord Huntington off?"Â
"I might have spent many nights making sweet love to his wife." While Lord Huntington struggled to get through the crowd that was getting larger as the sun reached it's the highest point in the sky. You nuzzled your nose with Jaskiers, hoping that if Lord Huntington could see you through the crowd, it was a convincing act.Â
"Now he's threatening to kill you."Â
"No! Much worse, he's threatening to make me a Eunuch. I love having all of my body parts be at a full-functioning level...Please Y/N, I'll do anything, I'll be forever in your debt. I'll even show you how well my body parts work if you like."Â
"Jaskier, do you think it's the perfect opportunity to flirt with me at this moment?"Â
"My timing has been better."Â
"He's coming this way, we need to act natural."Â Lord Huntington forced his way over to the two of you with determination echoing his every step. He desired you to prove him right, that you were a cover story, to protect Jaskier's life. Despite being a man of brilliance, Lord Huntington was undoubtedly about to underestimate the connection that you and Jaskier held for another.Â
"Y/N? When the Bard spoke of having a wife, I never considered it would you. Which is why I bring this news with great sadness, your husband has been sneaking off with my wife."Â
"I have informed you Lord Huntington that I would never deceive this beautiful woman I have the honour of calling my wife."Â
"Horseshit."
"Gentleman, please. Lord Huntington, I'm afraid you must be mistaken. My husband is as loyal to me as I am to him. I know he achieved a reputation for his promiscuity and bed-hopping, but I assure you, Jaskier ended that an extended time ago."Â
"I'm sorry, Y/N. I do not believe this claim for one second." You were losing patience with Lord Huntington. Was your word not enough? There had been far too many occasions where you and Geralt had saved the town from threats that often occurred nearby or surrounding.Â
"After everything, I and Geralt have done to ensure your safety, you dare have the nerve to accuse me of lying to you."
"Y/N, we've been acquaintances for many years. I do not believe your heart could belong to such a scoundrel and an adulterer."Â
"Lord Huntington, no one tells me who I decide to fall in love with, who I consider my family, my passions, my interests, so I suggest that while you may dislike my husband from his reputation you at least respect our decision to be together."Â Â
"Very well, I cannot argue with that...Please just keep him away from my wife, if I intercept him again Y/N, it will not be without punishment." Lord Huntington left without another word. Leaving you to deal with the shoemaker who had already prepared Jaskier's new boots for you, with Jaskier's track record it appeared inconceivable that the three of you would be able to linger in town for very long. At least the three of you would be able to spend the night here.Â
"Come, we still have a lot to do before it gets dark." You and Jaskier remained placid for a while. You were adamant on locating everything you required just-in-case the three of you had to flee promptly.
"You know you have not spoken a word to me since Lord Huntington left our presence." Jaskier's comment rested on your eyes while you paid for some fresh herbs you required for your ailments, shifting your head slightly to look back at him you shrugged.Â
"It is not only me who's been quiet."Â
"Fair play...I want you to be aware that everything I said to Lord Huntington earlier was accurate. I do believe you are the most intoxicating, incredibly mesmerising person I have ever encountered. We may have known each other for a few days, but there is a section of my heart that already belongs to you."Â
"I do not know how or why?"Â
"I am told I am a man of surprises, come on perhaps it's best we find Geralt. Hopefully, we will have a warm bed for the night." Following Jaskier's lead, through the crowded marketplace, up until the little Tavern that stood proudly on the hill. The day had been long and tiresome, and you desired nothing more than a warm meal and a bed for the night.Â
*****
"I've got good news and bad news." "Well, what's the good news," Jaskier questioned as the two of you took a seat in the booth in which Geralt had been brooding over.
"Lord Huntington has work for us to complete."
"It is not for Jaskier's crown jewels, is it?"Â
âWhat?âÂ
"Nevermind. Perhaps it's a tale for later when we're away from this place. What is Lord Huntington's issue this time?"Â
"A Griffin? Like a part Eagle, part lion."
"Exactly. Griffin's typically do not come this close to a town, so what is it doing?"Â
â"It appears revenge. Lord Huntington gathered several of his men to kill its mate. Griffin's mate for life and without its partner it could have travelled down following the trace until it found this place."Â
"So that's the good news, what's the bad news?"
"There's only one room left available, with only two beds."Â
"You two can take the bed's, and I'll take the floor. I have no problem with it." The three of you then began to dispute who would achieve a restful night's sleep while the other slept on the floor. No one was getting anywhere, each one offering to sleep on the floor.Â
"There's an easy way to settle it, Geralt will take one bed, and I and you will share the other."Â At that moment, you realised that your day filled with odd and peculiar moments was about to continue. Firstly, you had been Jaskier's wife, and now you were suddenly about to share a bed with him.Â
This was about to be interesting....Â
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